2021-9-5 MY VERY REAL AND FINAL FAREWELL TO YOUTUBE

[0:13 - 0:20] I never in my life thought I would see myself making this video.
[0:20 - 0:28] I never in my life thought I would ever see myself making this fucking video.
[0:28 - 0:33] I never thought I would see a final video.
[0:33 - 0:39] I really didn't.
[0:39 - 1:04] But these past five months have been the worst months of my fucking life.
[1:04 - 1:10] I had my life ruined by mass hall reports five months ago.
[1:10 - 1:17] And then a few weeks ago I lost my best friend of ten years.
[1:17 - 1:21] And then all of a sudden, I lose another good friend of mine,
[1:21 - 1:25] Kaylon the artist, who has done nothing but support me.
[1:25 - 1:29] All because of you fucking trolls.
[1:29 - 1:55] Because y'all want to make my life a living hell.
[1:55 - 1:59] I'm tired of losing people I care about because of you fucking trolls
[1:59 - 2:01] I want to fuck with me.
[2:01 - 2:07] I'm tired of losing people I care about.
[2:07 - 2:13] I'm tired of it.
[2:13 - 2:17] It's bad enough that I lost my best friend of ten years.
[2:17 - 2:23] That's bad enough for me.
[2:23 - 2:26] But now I have to lose another one.
[2:26 - 2:29] Because of you guys.
[2:29 - 2:34] Because of y'all that want to sit there and bash on me.
[2:34 - 2:42] Because you want me to suffer for no reason.
[2:42 - 2:44] Because you think it's funny.
[2:44 - 2:51] I'm tired of it.
[2:51 - 2:58] I'm tired of losing people I care about.
[2:58 - 3:02] I'm tired of losing friends.
[3:02 - 3:06] I'm tired of losing people I give a shit about.
[3:06 - 3:08] I'm tired of losing opportunities.
[3:08 - 3:18] And I'm tired of not being allowed to have a normal life.
[3:18 - 3:21] I'm tired of it.
[3:21 - 3:24] I'm tired of not being allowed to have a normal life.
[3:24 - 3:27] I'm tired of losing all my friends.
[3:27 - 3:37] because of your bullshit selfish lies. I'm tired of your fucking lies. I'm tired of losing friends.
[3:37 - 3:43] I'm tired of losing people I care about. And most of all, I'm tired of not being able to have a
[3:43 - 3:57] normal life. I'm tired of not being able to do things I want to do with myself. I'm tired of it.
[3:57 - 4:02] I know a lot of you guys are going to say, ignore it. Ignore it. They were never your
[4:02 - 4:06] friend if they cannot believe it. That may be true, but the pain is still there.
[4:07 - 4:17] The pain still hurts. I'm still hurting over losing my best friend of 10 fucking years.
[4:17 - 4:41] I'm still hurting over that. That still hurts. You guys don't know what it's like to lose a best
[4:41 - 4:48] friend of 10 fucking years and then to lose somebody else who is a close friend.
[4:49 - 4:54] You don't know what that's like because half you motherfuckers have never dealt with it.
[5:01 - 5:13] So after today, I'm gone. I can't stick around on a fucking platform where all I'm gonna do is get
[5:13 - 5:21] criticized and attacked and bullied. I can't deal with that anymore. I want better for myself.
[5:23 - 5:36] I want better for myself and for my family. And the only way I can do that is to leave
[5:36 - 5:49] this toxic cesspool of bullshit. The only reason why I kept coming back is I thought
[5:49 - 5:58] that maybe if I stuck around shit would change. I thought that maybe if I stuck around things would
[5:58 - 6:10] get better for me. But all they've done is gotten worse and worse and worse and worse. And I'm tired
[6:10 - 6:18] of it. I'm tired of being put through hell. I'm tired of not having a normal life that I used to
[6:18 - 6:27] have before mass over force. I want my life back. And the only way for me to do that is to leave this
[6:27 - 6:37] fucking platform. That's the only way I will ever get my normal life back. That's the only way I'll
[6:37 - 6:47] get my life back. Because before mass over force, I had a normal life. I had friends. I had people
[6:47 - 6:52] that I could look up to. I had people that I could talk to. But now I hardly have that.
[6:54 - 7:02] And mass over force, that's your fault. I blame you and your little bitch ass crack addict,
[7:02 - 7:10] faggots, no talent having little friends. I blame all of you that have ever trolled me,
[7:10 - 7:16] that have ever attacked me. You guys are the reason that my life got ruined. You guys
[7:16 - 7:24] are the reason that my life got taken from me. Everything I worked hard for in my life
[7:24 - 7:30] got taken away by all of you. That have ever dragged me down. That have ever bullied me.
[7:30 - 7:34] That have ever attacked me. That have ever trolled me. That have ever taken from me.
[7:35 - 8:06] You guys are at fault. I want my life back. I want my normal life that I had back. I want
[8:06 - 8:13] my friends back. I want those that cared about me once before. I want those people back in my life.
[8:16 - 8:21] And the only way for me to do that is to get away from this fucking idiotic,
[8:22 - 8:33] fucking toxic ass platform. That's the only way I can ever get my life back
[8:34 - 8:42] is to get away from this goddamn platform. Because all I see here is toxicity.
[8:43 - 8:58] And negativity. And shit that I want to be around. I'm tired of it. Ever since Mass Over
[8:58 - 9:04] Reports came along, I've lost friends, people I care about, opportunities have been stolen
[9:04 - 9:57] away from me. My life ruined. All because of a bitch I wanted to fuck me over. Let me tell you
[9:57 - 10:07] guys, write the book now. When I lost my best friend Shawn a mere week ago.
[10:08 - 10:15] When he left, a part of me fucking died. I felt like I lost a family member. I felt like a family
[10:15 - 10:25] member had just fucking died. And now I have the face that same feeling again. I have the face
[10:25 - 10:34] that same goddamn feeling again. And you don't know how hurt, how hurtful that is to me, how upset
[10:34 - 10:43] that makes me, how destroyed I am inside because of that. You don't know how sick that makes me.
[10:51 - 10:57] But you trolls wouldn't understand, would you? No, because you've never lost a friendship
[10:57 - 11:11] of over 10 fucking years. You've never lost that. But I have. And let me tell you right now,
[11:11 - 11:17] when you lose a friendship by then, it feels like a part of you dies. It feels like a family member
[11:17 - 11:25] just fucking died. And that's what I feel inside. I feel like I just lost a fucking family member
[11:25 - 11:42] again for the second time within less than a week. I'm tired of losing opportunities to do
[11:42 - 11:47] something with my life. I'm tired of not having a normal life. I'm tired of not being able
[11:47 - 11:57] to do things that I want to do. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of not having the life that I used to have.
[12:02 - 12:11] I used to have a normal life. I used to be happy. I used to have friends. I used to have my life
[12:11 - 12:17] on the right track. I used to have a good high paying job with one of my best friends.
[12:18 - 12:27] I had a career for myself. I was making $150 a goddamn day doing audio engineering work
[12:27 - 12:37] for my best friend, Enoch, and his gaming company. I was making $150 a day. And then all that got
[12:37 - 12:45] ripped away. And then what's next? I've lost my best friend of 10 years. And then just a little
[12:45 - 12:57] bit ago I found out I lost another good friend. You don't know how fucked up that makes me feel inside.
[12:57 - 13:08] How hurtful that is to me. How destroyed my life is. I lost everything because of you guys that
[13:08 - 13:17] want to attack me. I lost everything. I lost my job, my best friends, two of my best friends.
[13:18 - 13:27] What's next? What's fucking next? How much are you going to take from me before enough is enough?
[13:29 - 13:45] How much are you going to take from me? When are you going to quit? When are you going to give me
[13:45 - 13:57] my life back? When? Or do I have to fucking take it? Either way, I don't care. Either you're
[13:57 - 14:06] going to give me my life back and you're going to make shit right or I'm taking it back. Either way,
[14:07 - 14:14] I'm getting my life back. The normal life that I once had. I am taking that shit back
[14:15 - 14:22] or you're going to fucking make shit right and you're going to tell people the truth. Every one
[14:22 - 14:30] of you, every one of you that has ever put me down it's going to tell the goddamn truth about how you
[14:30 - 14:44] lied, about how you can't stand me and you want to see me suffer. I'm done. I've taken my life back
[14:44 - 14:54] and I'm leaving this goddamn fucking idiotic platform. You know when I left I should have
[14:54 - 15:01] stayed gone. Had I known I would have lost two of my best friends within a week
[15:02 - 15:07] and lost my job, I would have stayed off this goddamn platform a long time ago.
[15:08 - 15:15] But I came back because I thought that maybe, just maybe I could fucking do something with
[15:15 - 15:22] myself. I thought that maybe I had a shot. I thought that maybe I could make a difference.
[15:22 - 15:29] I thought that maybe I can make a change for myself and others like me.
[15:31 - 15:37] I thought that maybe I can make a career for myself off my artwork and my music but I guess I was
[15:37 - 15:46] wrong. I thought that maybe I can make a career for myself doing what I love to do without being
[15:46 - 15:58] harassed, without being attacked. But I guess I was wrong wasn't I? And because of those things
[15:58 - 16:05] I'm sorry to say guys but I have to leave. I can't stick around in this toxic environment anymore.
[16:06 - 16:19] I can't fucking do it. I can't do it. I've tried and tried and tried and tried but I can't
[16:19 - 16:31] fucking do it anymore. A person can only take so fucking much. I stayed as strong as I fucking could.
[16:32 - 16:39] I did as much as I possibly could. I stayed as strong as I possibly could for as long as I could.
[16:39 - 16:45] I fought even when I felt like I was giving out. I still stayed strong and I still fought
[16:46 - 16:54] even when I was out of gas. And I felt like I had nothing left in me and my tank was empty and I
[16:54 - 17:00] was running out of fuel. I dug down deep but I kept trying to fight but I guess that wasn't enough.
[17:20 - 17:29] So with that being said guys, I'm sorry but this is my very real goodbye. Maybe one day I'll come back
[17:29 - 17:35] but I can't see that happening anytime soon. I can't see myself coming back to a toxic platform
[17:35 - 17:45] anytime soon. I can't see that happening. So until mass whole reports is gone, until shit changes
[17:46 - 17:54] then I cannot be on this platform because I want better for myself. I want my normal life
[17:54 - 18:00] back that I used to have but I want to be able to make a living for myself but it's not going to be on
[18:00 - 18:10] this platform. Not until shit changes because I don't deserve what I got put through. I don't
[18:10 - 18:18] deserve to lose friends. I don't deserve to lose opportunities. I don't deserve to lose the people
[18:18 - 18:23] that I care about. I don't deserve to get put through the hell that I got put through.
[18:25 - 18:35] I don't deserve to have my life taken away from me. The life that I once had. The very good life
[18:35 - 18:49] that I once had. But to those that have supported me over the years, I want to say thank you
[18:49 - 18:54] guys for everything for the bottom of my heart. I want to say thank you to every one of you
[18:54 - 18:59] that has ever supported me. Because y'all supporting me like y'all have means the world to me and I will
[18:59 - 19:07] always stick with me for the rest of my fucking life. That will always stick with me for the rest
[19:07 - 19:13] of my life. And I appreciate the fuck. Every single one of you that has stuck with me from
[19:13 - 19:20] the very, very fucking beginning of my journey on YouTube up to this very fucking point to the
[19:20 - 19:28] very end. Every one of you from start to finish that has supported me and showed love and showed respect
[19:28 - 19:38] and showed kindness and helped me. I appreciate the fuck out of every one of you. And I fucking mean
[19:38 - 19:49] that. I mean that from the bottom of my fucking heart. You guys have given me so much. It done
[19:49 - 19:57] so much for me. That no amount of anything could ever repay what you guys have done for me.
[20:04 - 20:14] But I do have to get away from this toxic platform. I cannot stay on a platform where I am not welcomed
[20:14 - 20:20] anymore. I cannot stay on a platform where I am losing friends and people I care about on an
[20:20 - 20:29] almost a weekly daily basis. I cannot stay on a platform where I lose my job. I get ridiculed.
[20:29 - 20:54] I get my life taken. I can't be on a platform like that. But I do hope that the lessons that I
[20:54 - 21:01] taught you guys about being good to each other, following your dreams, doing shit that you want
[21:01 - 21:09] to do. I hope that everything I showed you guys about how you could do what you want to do and
[21:10 - 21:15] being kind to each other, being good to each other. I hope that shit sticks with you guys.
[21:16 - 21:22] I hope that my story inspired a lot of you guys. I hope that my story inspired you guys to go out
[21:22 - 21:27] and do what you want to fucking do with your lives. I hope that that shit sticks with you guys.
[21:27 - 21:34] And I hope that I remain a reminder for all y'all that are pushing for what you want.
[21:34 - 21:40] I hope that I stay that reminder for you guys to keep on pushing for what you want.
[21:41 - 21:47] Despite whether I'm around or not, I hope and pray to God that you guys do what you want to be able to do with your lives.
[21:47 - 21:51] I hope that all of you that have supported me are able to do what you fucking want.
[21:53 - 22:00] I want that for you guys. But as for me, my time has come.
[22:01 - 22:09] My time here is over. It's time for me to move on to a new chapter in my life.
[22:09 - 22:18] It's time for me to do other things with my life. And being on this platform ain't one of them.
[22:23 - 22:30] But again, I want to say thank you all for everything. I appreciate the fuck out of it.
[22:30 - 22:37] And thank you to every single one of you that has helped me in every way.
[22:45 - 22:53] But right now, I need to focus on me. I need to get my life back. I used to have a normal
[22:53 - 23:03] life. And I need to get that life back. I need to get the life that I once had back.
[23:06 - 23:12] And in order to do that, in order for me to get my life back,
[23:13 - 23:23] I need to walk away from this platform for good. Thank you guys so much for everything.
[23:23 - 23:30] And I hope that the lessons that I taught you in my story of my very real life,
[23:30 - 23:33] I hope that that inspires you guys. And I hope that that pushes you guys
[23:33 - 23:42] to do what you want to do with your life. And I hope that I remain a beacon of hope for you guys.
[23:42 - 23:47] I hope that even though I'm going to be gone, I hope that my story and my legacy,
[23:47 - 23:55] I hope that that remains a reminder for you guys to do what you want to do.
[23:55 - 24:00] And to treat people with the kindness and respect that they deserve and that you deserve.
[24:00 - 24:12] I hope that my story reminds you to keep fighting. Because right now, my time is over.
[24:15 - 24:19] It's time for me to start a new chapter in my life and close the old one.
[24:23 - 24:26] It's time for me to move on and do better things with my life.
[24:31 - 24:35] Again, guys, I can't thank you enough for everything that you've done for me.
[24:36 - 24:44] I really can't. You guys have given me so much that I could never repay
[24:46 - 24:58] the amount of love that you guys have shown me. But don't worry about me when I'm gone,
[24:58 - 25:05] because I'm going to be fine. And like I said, maybe one day I can come back.
[25:05 - 25:12] Maybe one day I can come back. But when that'll be, I don't know.
[25:16 - 25:21] But until that bitch mass whole report is gone, then I'm not coming back.
[25:21 - 25:43] I'm sorry guys. But I can't be here anymore. Thank you guys so much for everything.
[25:47 - 25:52] And I hope that my story continues to inspire future generations.
[25:54 - 25:58] I hope that I have inspired you guys. And I hope that I gave you some sort of hope.
[26:08 - 26:16] I'm going to miss you guys. Every one of you that has ever stood up for me has ever helped me.
[26:16 - 26:21] I'm going to miss the fuck out of you guys on here. I'm going to miss hanging out with my peeps
[26:21 - 26:25] with my friends. I'm going to miss hanging out with you guys.
[26:27 - 26:32] But just know that one day I will come back. But like I said, when that day is,
[26:32 - 26:45] it's not going to be any time soon. But thank you for everything, guys.
[26:47 - 26:56] I really do appreciate it. And I look forward to getting my real life back.
[26:58 - 27:06] I can't wait to get my life back to where it used to be. I love you guys.
[27:07 - 27:14] Thank you so much for everything. And like always, guys, like I have always said it,
[27:14 - 27:22] like I am saying right now, be kind to each other. Look out for each other.
[27:25 - 27:29] Support each other. Take care of each other. Watch each other's backs.
[27:30 - 27:36] Watch out for those like myself. If you see somebody like me that's being bullied,
[27:36 - 27:41] you stand up for them. Look out for each other. Watch each other's backs.
[27:43 - 27:52] And guys, follow your dreams and do what you want to do with your life.
[27:58 - 28:03] Whatever that may be, do what you want to do with your life.
[28:03 - 28:16] If you have a dream, follow that shit. But as for me, guys, my time is up.
[28:16 - 28:19] I actually have to go because I have stuff I need to do today.
[28:21 - 28:31] Again, thank you guys so much for everything. I hope to see you guys again one day.
[28:32 - 28:46] I hope that one day our paths will cross again. And again, thank you all so much for everything.
[28:48 - 28:52] I definitely do look forward to our paths crossing again one day.
[28:53 - 29:00] But more importantly, I look forward to taking my life back. I fucking love you guys.
[29:01 - 29:06] Thank you for everything, guys. I'll see you guys again one day.
[29:08 - 29:18] Stay strong. Stay humble. Be good to each other. I love you guys. I'll miss you all.
[29:19 - 29:30] Thank you for everything. I love you guys. I'll see you again one day, y'all. I love you guys.
[29:33 - 29:41] I'll be seeing you. Love you guys. Thank you.