2021-9-25 Why i cant look Past the bullying

[0:00 - 0:27] I want to say that I am starting to cork now. I want to say that I am starting to cork now.
[0:27 - 0:53] I am not going to cork my mouth like I did on you, but you and you have to understand the place that I am coming from and how toxic it is.
[0:53 - 1:21] You and you have to understand that the past year and a half, the past year and a half, I have been made out to be a bad guy.
[1:21 - 1:48] For the past year and a half, I have been bullied. I have been dehumanized. I have had whatever shred of dignity remain in my body worked away from me.
[1:48 - 2:07] I trust you when I say cork now. You do not know what that is like until you have experienced what I have gone through.
[2:07 - 2:23] Yes, you may have gone through certain stuff but not in the way that I did. The way that I did get through this is way, way different than what you got. Way different.
[2:23 - 2:39] And it is not something I asked for. And, Marty, I do not know if I can forgive you for what you have done.
[2:39 - 2:57] I do not know if I can forgive you. And I do not think you can understand the comprehension of what I was doing.
[2:57 - 3:17] In order for me to become myself again, I needed answers about everything. Everything from SISNAC and what the vendor boys did, all the way up to what you did.
[3:17 - 3:31] By selling those quarter holes against my will without my face on. Without my permission as well as Heather's face. Without her permission.
[3:31 - 3:48] I only wanted answers so that I could finally move on and be the me that I used to be. That is all I wanted.
[3:48 - 4:06] And, Marty, you have to understand something. When I post that image that that guy said to me that I said, "You know that? That one where you are beheaded or I am holding your head in my hands?"
[4:06 - 4:20] That was not a dig at you. And you keep forgetting that when I post that. It is not a direct dig at you. It is a dig at everyone that has ever pulled me down.
[4:20 - 4:42] Who has ever hurt me. Who has ever destroyed me. Whoever has been responsible for me losing everything. For those that have dehumanized me and made me into this ugly monster that I am now.
[4:42 - 5:04] That was my way of saying, "Fuck you. I am not taking anyone's shit anymore. I am not going to stand by and be someone's punching bag. Not anymore."
[5:04 - 5:26] So why is it that you can't understand that? Why is it that you can't understand that?
[5:26 - 5:51] You know, when I first came onto this scene in 2009, it was good. I had plenty of friends. People that cared about me.
[5:51 - 6:08] Well, little did I know, it would lead up to all this crap that I've been put through.
[6:08 - 6:27] I didn't deserve any of this. I didn't deserve the bullying that I got from all these people.
[6:27 - 6:52] I didn't deserve to be taken advantage of. I didn't deserve... I didn't deserve to be catfished. I didn't deserve to... Hold on, guys.
[6:52 - 6:58] Yeah.
[6:58 - 8:21] (inaudible)
[8:21 - 8:47] People told me many times to get help. Go seek a counselor. Go get a medical treatment because obviously you need it because of what you've been through and that's not it.
[8:47 - 9:11] I don't need any kind of professional help. You know what I truly need? I need bullies and people like Masshole Reports and all those people like William Gloryhole and their little friends to leave me alone so that I can heal on my own.
[9:11 - 9:21] That's all I need is to be left alone so that I can heal on my own.
[9:21 - 9:39] And now I got these motherfuckers threatening to do shit that... to turn me into the goddamn place for shit that I didn't even do.
[9:39 - 10:05] And you guys don't know, William Gloryhole and his little friends decided to take screenshots of my Twitch from last night and are now giving me an ultimatum to either smash my things or they're turning into the place tomorrow for supposedly sending...
[10:05 - 10:11] supposedly sending you to a 12 year old girl which I never did.
[10:11 - 10:27] And this is what I'm talking about. I don't actively seek out children. I don't do that. That's not who I am.
[10:27 - 10:39] This is what I mean when I say this shit just doesn't affect you on YouTube. It affects your real life. Especially when you get put through what I got put through.
[10:39 - 10:55] Neighbors that I once called friends, neighbors that I once called friends now give me weird looks because of all this crap. Do you have any idea how much that hurts?
[10:55 - 11:15] Do you have any idea how disheartening that is? Neighbors that I was once friends with now look at me like I'm not even worth living.
[11:15 - 11:30] And to be honest, another reason why I can't look past this is because I need this to stop. The only way I can look past all this is if all this shit stops.
[11:30 - 11:49] So, William Gloryhold, I'm telling you right now, you and your friends need to quit. This has gone on long enough and it's gone way too far. You need to stop.
[11:49 - 12:01] This is not a game. This is real life.
[12:01 - 12:04] This is real fucking life.
[12:04 - 12:15] This is not a game. This is very, very real. This is as real as it gets.
[12:15 - 12:24] So, William Gloryhold, I'm telling you right now, you need to quit. You need to back off.
[12:24 - 12:38] Because what you're doing is not cute and it's not funny. And it's not doing anybody any good by you doing what you do.
[12:38 - 12:51] You know what they wanted me to do? They wanted me to smash my guitar, bust my mic up and everything.
[12:51 - 13:01] And they wanted me to make a video doing it. They wanted me to do it before noon tomorrow.
[13:01 - 13:30] Otherwise, they were going to turn all that shit in and make it look like I did something that I didn't do.
[13:30 - 13:35] And Reese, I'm sorry to say, but no.
[13:35 - 13:57] I'm going to tell you right now, the next guitar I got is the one thing I would never smash, that my DJ deck. Those are both two things I would never in my whole world smash to pieces.
[13:57 - 14:10] Because those two things along with my keyboard and my mic are the only remnants I have left of what was once my music career.
[14:10 - 14:16] Those are the only remnants I have left of what used to be my music career.
[14:16 - 14:21] And I don't want to let go of that.
[14:21 - 14:26] I can't let go of that.
[14:26 - 14:31] Because I know that one day I might come back.
[14:31 - 14:37] But right now, I can't see when.
[14:37 - 14:54] I can't see when I'm going to come back to the music scene.
[14:54 - 15:03] All I know is that I want my life back.
[15:03 - 15:14] A year and a half ago, I got my life ripped away from me.
[15:14 - 15:21] I want my life back that I used to have.
[15:21 - 15:27] I want to be able to do things that I enjoy again without being harassed or attacked or bullied.
[15:27 - 15:35] I want to be able to do things that I love without being belittled.
[15:35 - 15:43] I want to find someone I can be with.
[15:43 - 15:48] And hope and pray to God that they're not a troll.
[15:48 - 15:56] I'd like to actually be happy for once in my life.
[15:56 - 16:01] I had happiness once.
[16:01 - 16:09] I swear that happiness went out the window.
[16:09 - 16:14] All that happiness went out the window.
[16:14 - 16:19] And I don't understand why.
[16:19 - 16:24] Why does it have to be me that you trolls go after?
[16:24 - 16:34] What did I ever do to deserve all of this?
[16:34 - 16:40] What did I ever do to deserve to be a troll like the way that you've done me?
[16:40 - 16:47] What did I ever do?
[16:47 - 16:54] Because the last time I checked, I haven't done anything to anyone.
[16:54 - 16:57] Sure, I may have fallen for a catfish.
[16:57 - 17:01] And I found out later on that she was the one that approached me.
[17:01 - 17:08] And that cancels out what they're trying to pay me for.
[17:08 - 17:11] Does that excuse me? I didn't know.
[17:11 - 17:14] But people need to let that go.
[17:14 - 17:20] All you motherfuckers that keep trying to hold me to what I did need to let that go.
[17:20 - 17:24] Because I have said it many times and I will say it again.
[17:24 - 17:27] I am not a pedophile.
[17:27 - 17:33] Never have been, never will be one.
[17:33 - 17:40] But yet, I get treated as one when I'm not.
[17:40 - 17:45] I don't go around actively seeking out little kids.
[17:45 - 17:49] I don't do that shit.
[17:49 - 17:55] You want to know what I do? I sit here. I do my streams.
[17:55 - 17:59] I do my music. I do shit that I love.
[17:59 - 18:13] That's all I do.
[18:13 - 18:34] I have not done anything to warrant what any of you have done to me.
[18:34 - 18:47] All I've ever tried to do was uphold the legacy of my older brother and some of my friends and those that I care about that have passed.
[18:47 - 18:51] That's all I've ever tried to do.
[18:51 - 19:00] But yet, I'm not allowed to do that, am I?
[19:00 - 19:05] I try to do what I love and make a living from, but I'm not allowed to do that, am I?
[19:05 - 19:09] According to you guys, I'm not allowed to do anything.
[19:09 - 19:16] According to you guys, I'm not allowed to have a normal life without being harassed or attacked.
[19:16 - 19:21] According to you guys, I'm not allowed to have a happy life.
[19:21 - 19:34] I'm not allowed to be who I once was.
[19:34 - 19:37] Do you understand now?
[19:37 - 19:41] Do you understand now, Courtney?
[19:41 - 19:49] Do you understand now, Marty?
[19:49 - 19:54] Do you understand now what I go through?
[19:54 - 19:58] What these people do to you, you can ignore.
[19:58 - 20:02] Because what they do is ignoreable stuff.
[20:02 - 20:27] But what they do to me is far, far worse, and it can't be ignored.
[20:27 - 20:31] And Jack, I'm not denying that I did that.
[20:31 - 20:34] I've already taken responsibility for that.
[20:34 - 20:44] What is it so hard to understand about the fact that I came out and I omitted my wrongs and I owned up to my mistakes?
[20:44 - 20:54] Why is it that people can't understand that I came out of my own and I apologized and I wrote my wrongs?
[20:54 - 20:59] And I omitted my mistakes and I owned up to them.
[20:59 - 21:03] Y'all sit there and say that I didn't, but believe me, I did.
[21:03 - 21:11] Go back and look a few streams ago where I talked about it.
[21:11 - 21:23] I owned up to my mistakes, but what I don't understand is why that nobody can let it go.
[21:23 - 21:28] What I don't understand is why is it that nobody can let it go?
[21:28 - 21:50] Why is it that nobody can drop it and let it the fuck go, especially after I came out and admitted my wrongs?
[21:50 - 21:56] But here's the thing, dude, I'm not blaming everybody else for my mistake.
[21:56 - 21:59] And that's what you don't seem to understand.
[21:59 - 22:03] I'm not blaming anybody else for what I did.
[22:03 - 22:08] I'm not blaming anyone else for what I did.
[22:08 - 22:19] What I am blaming them for is them not taking for those who have trespassed against me, for those that have done me wrong.
[22:19 - 22:25] Why aren't they taking responsibility for what they've done to me?
[22:25 - 22:31] If they expect me to take responsibility for what I did, they need to do the same in return
[22:31 - 22:39] and take responsibility for what they've done and own up to their mistakes and their wrongdoings.
[22:39 - 22:47] It's only right. It's the right thing to do.
[22:47 - 22:53] I own up to my mistakes. Why can't any of you trolls own up to yours?
[22:53 - 23:02] I don't understand it.
[23:02 - 23:17] And actually, no, Alex, I have 100% right to expect that of them. And you want to know why? They expect it of me.
[23:17 - 23:24] They expect it of me. So why can't they do what they expect of me?
[23:24 - 23:34] Why can't they do the same thing that they expect of me?
[23:34 - 23:40] Why can't they do the very thing that they expect me to do?
[23:40 - 23:49] They expected me to own up to my mistakes and what I did. I did that. I owned up to it.
[23:49 - 24:02] Why can't they do the same?
[24:02 - 24:09] And if I should have to own up to mine, they should have to own up to theirs.
[24:09 - 24:12] I'll just sit here and be allowed to get away with it.
[24:12 - 24:17] They should be just as much of every bit of punished as I've been punished.
[24:17 - 24:26] They should be punished just as much as I've been punished.
[24:26 - 24:34] And with some of them, more so than others.
[24:34 - 24:39] And that's when you're not understanding, Alex.
[24:39 - 24:47] These people expect me to own up to my mistakes. And then when I do, and I ask them to do the same,
[24:47 - 24:51] they bitch out like a punk-ass bitch and turn tail and run.
[24:51 - 24:57] Or come with some excuses as to why they won't and can't.
[24:57 - 25:10] But yet, I owned up to mine. I rolled my wrongs.
[25:10 - 25:18] I'm not saying I should be able to get to decide who gets punished. I'm not saying that.
[25:18 - 25:27] What I'm saying is that these people that have done me wrong need to own up to their mistakes and let go of what happened
[25:27 - 25:33] the same way that I did that. The same way that I did.
[25:33 - 25:40] I owned up to my mistakes and I let shit go. Why can't anyone else do the fucking same shit?
[25:40 - 25:48] Don't color for them, Alex. Don't fucking color for them, motherfucker.
[25:48 - 25:54] Don't defend what they've done. Don't defend them because right now that's what you're doing.
[25:54 - 26:09] You're defending them. Stop it. Stop defending them.
[26:09 - 26:16] And Alex, yes the fuck you are. You might not realize it, but yes the fuck you are.
[26:16 - 26:21] You're covering them. You're covering for them and defending them
[26:21 - 26:29] by saying what you're saying, Lee, about how you feel that I should be able to write my wrongs,
[26:29 - 26:38] but they don't need to write their wrongs. They don't need to admit to what they did wrong.
[26:38 - 26:49] Let me tell you this way, Alex. If I did something that hurt you, let's say that you did something that hurt me, right?
[26:49 - 26:59] Let's say you did something really screwed up, okay? Let's say for a pure example,
[26:59 - 27:08] let's say that we get put in a position that I got put into with an asshole report, okay?
[27:08 - 27:17] You do what you did to me. You do what she did to me, and obviously I fall for it.
[27:17 - 27:24] And then I come out later that very same week and admit my wrongs after everyone harassed me.
[27:24 - 27:30] I would expect you as a human being, as a decent human being, I would expect you to come out and say,
[27:30 - 27:38] "Hey, I was wrong for doing this. I was wrong for doing you what I did to you.
[27:38 - 27:42] I was wrong for approaching you and enticing you on this and that and the other.
[27:42 - 27:48] I would expect the same thing of you that you expected of me."
[27:48 - 28:06] Just like these people that did this crap to me, I would expect them to own up to their mistakes the same way that I owned up to mine.
[28:06 - 28:13] I expect these people to own up to their mistakes the same way that they owned up to mine.
[28:13 - 28:24] I owned up to my mistakes. Why can't they man up and own up to theirs and face their mistakes?
[28:24 - 28:38] Well, I'm sorry to say, Arjay, I'm not going nowhere, bitch.
[28:38 - 28:46] Actually, Alex, yes the fuck I do. I do have that right.
[28:46 - 28:56] I have every right to expect that of them.
[28:56 - 29:05] If I had to own up to my mistakes, they should have to own up to theirs. Same exact thing.
[29:05 - 29:19] If I had to own up to my mistakes, they need to own up to theirs.
[29:19 - 29:38] If I had to own up to mine's mistakes, why shouldn't they have to own up to theirs? Explain that one.
[29:38 - 29:49] I was manning out to face my demons. I was manning out to make shit right.
[29:49 - 30:07] Don't sit there and lecture me, motherfucker, because you'll get banned in a goddamn heartbeat. Trust me.
[30:07 - 30:18] You know what? You're getting bad.
[30:18 - 30:25] Like I said, I have all the answers as to why and how I got drugged into all of this.
[30:25 - 30:44] But what pisses me off is nobody has the goddamn balls to own up to their fucking mistakes like I owned up to mine.
[30:44 - 30:53] Why is it that people can't own up to their mistakes like I owned up to mine?
[30:53 - 31:17] I've been owned up to my mistakes. Why can't anyone else do the same? Why can't anybody else own up to what they did towards me?
[31:17 - 31:32] I mean, come on. I've had a year and a half ripped away from me for no damn reason. I've had a year and a half ripped away from me.
[31:32 - 31:42] All for what? To be made of laughing stock?
[31:42 - 31:51] For a year and a half, Skull Kid, trust me, you weren't here a year and a half ago, so you don't know the full story.
[31:51 - 31:59] And I'm not saying that to be an asshole. I'm just telling you, you don't know what I've been through in the last year and a half.
[31:59 - 32:10] Because you only came onto the scene this year.
[32:10 - 32:20] Like I said, I get what I did was fucked up. I get what I did was screwed up, and I understand that, and I take ownership of that.
[32:20 - 32:26] I admitted what I did was wrong, and it never should have happened.
[32:26 - 32:38] But in that same sense, why is it that nobody has the balls to man up and own up to their mistakes the same way I owned up to mine?
[32:38 - 32:43] Or are you motherfuckers that won't own up a bunch of pussies?
[32:43 - 32:51] Is that what you are? A bunch of lipstick pussies that feels like they don't need to own up to their mistakes?
[32:51 - 32:58] Or are you too chicken shit?
[32:58 - 33:09] Or are you too fucking chicken shit to own up to your mistakes the same way I did?
[33:09 - 33:29] And Terence, don't worry, this is not aimed at you.
[33:29 - 33:49] Why is it that you trolls are too chicken shit to do anything?
[33:49 - 34:08] Or are you too motherfucking chicken shit to stand up and man up?
[34:08 - 34:33] Yes, and this is really you message me on Facebook right now. Send me a message on Facebook right now.
[34:33 - 34:47] Yes, I did. But like I said, you limp dick little bitches don't want to own up to your mistakes. Why?
[34:47 - 34:55] Is it because you're too damn cowardice, too damn chicken shit to own up to your mistakes?
[34:55 - 35:04] I owned up to my mistakes. Why can't any of you motherfuckers own up to yours? And Skull Kid, that includes you, man.
[35:04 - 35:11] That includes what you did to me. Stealing my fucking original meet name out from under me?
[35:11 - 35:19] You didn't think I would remember that, did you? Well, guess what? I remember everything anyone's ever done to me.
[35:19 - 35:29] I remember what the fuck you did to me. You sat there and stole my name out from under me, causing me to have to do a forced name change.
[35:29 - 35:42] So don't think I'm going to forgive you that easily.
[35:42 - 36:04] Well, that if you're not sorry, you're gone.
[36:04 - 36:14] And Jasmine, I get that. Why do you think I've been apologizing to everyone for the last several months?
[36:14 - 36:34] Actually, some people did do shit to me, Jasmine. Take a look at Mansoul Reports, what she did. Take a look at what she did. As a matter of fact, why don't we talk about what you did?
[36:34 - 36:58] Let's talk about what you did. You sat there on Facebook, drug me and my now ex girlfriend Kate into a group chat on Facebook, and proceeded to literally degrade me right there in front of her, like the sick fucking twisted little bitch that you are.
[36:58 - 37:07] You sat right fucking there and did that shit.
[37:07 - 37:27] You sat right there. No, I'm sad. I'm on YouTube. I'm not on StreamYard. I tell you, I want you to sit there and I want you to fucking listen to this shit. I want you to listen to this.
[37:27 - 37:47] I want you to hear exactly what it is that you did to me. You sat right there. You yanked me and my ex Kate went into a group chat. And what did you do? What did you do in front of everyone, Jasmine? What did you fucking do?
[37:47 - 38:05] You sat right there and proceeded to attack me in front of her by doing what you did, by saying I did this, saying I did that, before any of this other shit even happened.
[38:05 - 38:09] It's time you went up to your mistakes, Jasmine.
[38:09 - 38:21] You're one of the biggest reasons as to why me and Kate went in together anymore. Time for you to own up to your mistakes, bitch. Enough running, enough hiding, own up to what you fucking did.
[38:21 - 38:34] Stop sitting there saying that you didn't deserve it. Oh yes, you do deserve what you get from me.
[38:34 - 38:47] Sorry to say, Jasmine, there's no coming back from what you did to me. There's no fixing shit. There's no fixing what you fucking did to me.
[38:47 - 38:52] There's no fixing that shit at all.
[38:52 - 39:01] Because of you and Marty. I lost somebody that I could have spent the rest of my life with.
[39:01 - 39:06] So you're happy now?
[39:06 - 39:18] See, this is what I'm talking about, Jasmine. Little fake bitches like you don't ever want to own up to their mistakes because you're too chicken shit to own up to what you did.
[39:18 - 39:34] You're too chicken shit to make a video and come out and say what you did and admit your wrongs. Because you're too much of a bitch. You're too much of a coward to do that.
[39:34 - 39:44] You're too chicken shit. You ain't got the balls to come out and say what you did wrong. You ain't got the fucking balls to right your wrongs.
[39:44 - 40:02] You'd rather sit there and be like, oh, I didn't do anything. I didn't do anything. I didn't do anything. Bitch, yes, you did. Shut the fuck up.
[40:02 - 40:17] See, that's the problem with motherfuckers like you, Jasmine. You're not real. You're fake. You're a fake ass bitch.
[40:17 - 40:27] And then when somebody calls you on your bullshit after you be fake to someone, after you're fake to someone and they call you out.
[40:27 - 40:44] You pull this old what was me shit. You pull this pity party garbage. Well, guess what, little girl? Not going to work with me.
[40:44 - 41:12] Bitch, we don't need to talk about shit. You're just mad at the fact that I'm calling you on your bullshit. And then I have the balls now to call you on your bullshit.
[41:12 - 41:17] I ain't running from shit, bitch.
[41:17 - 41:31] Hey, why don't you let the suckin' Krip K's dick like the bitch that you are. You fucking dick riding slutbag. You'll ride any motherfuckin' dude's dick for a little bit of attention.
[41:31 - 41:43] That's why you do it, right? For attention? So why don't you let the suckin' Krip K's dick for the attention that you're so desperate for.
[41:43 - 41:55] Why don't you let the suckin' his fake ass dick, too? Like the fake ass bitch that you are. You're fake.
[41:55 - 42:03] Your fake is fucked, just like he is.
[42:03 - 42:13] And you know what happens to fake bitches like you? This is what you get. Bye, bitch.
[42:13 - 42:30] I don't need fake people in my life.
[42:30 - 42:58] I don't need fake people like you in my life, Jasmine. What I need are real people like Tess, real people like Saren, real people like my best friend Matt, real people that I've known,
[42:58 - 43:14] real people like my good friend Jose. That's what I need. I need real motherfuckers that have actually got my back and aren't fake as fuck to my face.
[43:14 - 43:27] I need real motherfuckers in my life that are going to be straight up with me about shit.
[43:27 - 43:45] Cuz I tell ya, Tess will agree with me. I know Tess will agree with me on this shit. I don't deserve nor did I ever deserve half the bullshit half you motherfuckers have ever put me through. All the shit that I got put through, I didn't deserve that.
[43:45 - 44:00] Sure, I may have made a mistake and done something wrong, but I was man enough to come out and admit what I did and right that wrong.
[44:00 - 44:12] But yet, none of you want to seem to do the same and I don't understand why. Why you so scared? Why you motherfuckers so goddamn scared to admit your wrongs?
[44:12 - 44:32] See, y'all want to point fingers at everyone else and their wrongdoings, but yet you never want to point the finger at your fucking self. You never want to point the finger at your fucking self and your wrongdoings.
[44:32 - 44:52] And that's what pisses me the fuck off. The fact that y'all got the balls to point fingers at me from what I did, but yet not wanting you as the goddamn guns or the courage to actually man up and point the finger at your self and be like, "Oh, what I did was wrong and I'm sorry."
[44:52 - 44:57] None of you motherfuckers have the balls to do that shit.
[44:57 - 45:24] And you know what, Uncle Jimbo, or whatever your name is, bro, it is always everyone else. Everyone else got me into this shit. They drug me into this shit. They can drag me the fuck back out.
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[45:33 - 45:36] I'm not blaming anyone for what I did.
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[45:40 - 46:00] What I'm blaming them for is what they did to me and why they refuse to take responsibility for their actions.
[46:00 - 46:10] You tell me to take responsibility for mine. Why can't you take responsibility for yours?
[46:10 - 46:20] Yeah, what I did was wrong, but so is what you did.
[46:20 - 46:30] You see where I'm going with this? It's a two-way street. It's a two-way street, my dude. It's not a one-way, it's a two-way.
[46:30 - 46:36] If I should have to admit my wrongs, so should they.
[46:36 - 46:47] If I had to admit my wrongs and what I did and how I had to own up to it, they should have to do the same. Fair is fair.
[46:47 - 46:55] If I should have to own up to my mistakes, everyone that's ever done anything to me should have to own up to theirs as well.
[46:55 - 47:07] Flat out, plain and simple.
[47:07 - 47:25] And here's the thing, dude. I'm not trying to control anyone. I'm really not. I'm not trying to control nobody.
[47:25 - 47:35] All I'm saying is that if I should have to own up to my mistakes, so should everyone else.
[47:35 - 47:45] If I'm made of and owned up to my mistakes, so should they. Someone needs to make them do the same exact shit that I had to do.
[47:45 - 47:49] It's only right. It's only fair.
[47:49 - 48:01] And don't even say it. I already know what you're going to say. "Oh, but the world is mad." Fuck the world not being fair.
[48:01 - 48:07] Believe me, I've seen the underbelly and the dark side of this world.
[48:07 - 48:13] I've seen how unfair it can be.
[48:13 - 48:19] I've seen what could happen.
[48:19 - 48:45] And let me tell you, it's disgusting.
[48:45 - 49:04] It really is disgusting what this world's done.
[49:04 - 49:14] And it's why I'm not speaking about you. I'm speaking about people like Masshole reports.
[49:14 - 49:21] That's who I'm speaking about. People like her. People like William Gloryhole.
[49:21 - 49:50] That's what I'm speaking about.
[49:50 - 50:19] Y'all wonder why these motherfuckers get away with what they do.
[50:19 - 50:25] Y'all wonder why these people get away with half the shit that they do.
[50:25 - 50:36] It's because no one makes them own up to what they did, like y'all do me.
[50:36 - 50:41] It's like y'all want to let these motherfuckers run rampant.
[50:41 - 50:56] You don't want them to pay for their mistakes.
[50:56 - 51:02] None of y'all want to make them pay for their mistakes or own up to their own doings.
[51:02 - 51:07] But yet you expect me to do that? No, it don't work like that.
[51:07 - 51:11] If I have to own up to mine, they should have to own up to theirs.
[51:11 - 51:40] But plain and simple, done.
[51:40 - 51:49] Y'all want to sit here and say that I'm playing the blame game.
[51:49 - 51:52] I'm not playing no blame game.
[51:52 - 51:58] All I'm simply doing is stating a fact that if I should have to own up to my mistakes,
[51:58 - 52:04] those that did what they did to me should have to own up to theirs and what they did to me.
[52:04 - 52:10] That's all I'm saying.
[52:10 - 52:16] Fair is fair.
[52:16 - 52:20] But yeah, y'all don't know about fair, do ya?
[52:20 - 52:24] All you know is troll troll troll troll troll.
[52:24 - 52:29] Attack this person, get away with it.
[52:29 - 52:32] That's all you fucking know, isn't it?
[52:32 - 52:38] That's because half you motherfuckers ain't got goddamn morals.
[52:38 - 52:51] Half you motherfuckers ain't got fucking morals.
[52:51 - 53:06] And then the ones that do have morals that come out and admit their wrongdoings, they're the ones that get attacked.
[53:06 - 53:19] I'm starting to see how this whole YouTube shit works and let me tell ya, I don't want no fucking part of it.
[53:19 - 53:21] I really don't.
[53:21 - 53:32] I don't want no part of this bullshit.
[53:32 - 53:39] Because no one around here anymore is man enough to own up to their mistakes.
[53:39 - 53:51] Y'all are a bunch of fucking limp dick fucking pussies that don't want to own up to your mistakes.
[53:51 - 54:06] And that's sad.
[54:06 - 54:15] Because boy, when I was a kid, if we did something wrong,
[54:15 - 54:18] and I know a lot of y'all from the 80s and 90s will remember this,
[54:18 - 54:25] if we did something wrong, we got our asses wet, then we had to say what we did wrong.
[54:25 - 54:36] And vice versa.
[54:36 - 54:40] And honestly, I feel that's what's wrong with half you motherfuckers.
[54:40 - 54:46] Not one of y'all don't fuck.
[54:46 - 54:54] Has the morality or the guts to actually say, hey, I fucked up.
[54:54 - 55:00] I did something wrong and I'm going to own up to it.
[55:00 - 55:07] Which is exactly why I'm leaving this platform.
[55:07 - 55:14] It's why I left to begin with.
[55:14 - 55:18] And speaking on Twitch, let me tell y'all something.
[55:18 - 55:25] When I started my Twitch the other day, I wanted no connection to YouTube.
[55:25 - 55:26] None.
[55:26 - 55:31] I did not want any connection to YouTube at all whatsoever.
[55:31 - 55:34] I didn't want the same people over here.
[55:34 - 55:38] I didn't want any of that.
[55:38 - 55:44] But yeah, what did y'all motherfuckers do?
[55:44 - 55:53] They went looking for me and eventually found me.
[55:53 - 56:08] I mean, how sick are you about to be to do all that?
[56:08 - 56:29] And that's why I'm honestly debating on whether I even want to do anything anymore or not.
[56:29 - 56:31] I mean, I would like to do Twitch again.
[56:31 - 56:37] I really would.
[56:37 - 56:49] And there again, I don't know if I can.
[56:49 - 57:18] Or if I even should, given what these motherfuckers did to me last night.
[57:18 - 57:45] You know, I'm not trying to get in control anymore.
[57:45 - 57:54] All I want is for people to be able to own up to their mistakes the same way that I owned up to mine.
[57:54 - 58:01] That's all I ask is that people own up to their mistakes the same way that I owned up to mine.
[58:01 - 58:06] What's so hard to understand about that?
[58:06 - 58:08] No one in this world is perfect.
[58:08 - 58:09] I'm not perfect.
[58:09 - 58:11] No one's perfect.
[58:11 - 58:15] We all make mistakes, some worse than others.
[58:15 - 58:19] I've made my mistakes and I learned from them and I own them.
[58:19 - 58:22] Why can't y'all do the same?
[58:22 - 58:30] Why can't you guys own up to your mistakes and learn from them and be a better person for that?
[58:30 - 58:33] Why?
[58:33 - 58:37] What's stopping you?
[58:37 - 58:44] Ain't nobody got a motherfucking gun to your head telling you all you can't do this, no.
[58:44 - 59:05] Y'all need to do this shit.
[59:05 - 59:10] It really is sad.
[59:10 - 59:16] It really is.
[59:16 - 59:26] See, this is why I hate the new generation.
[59:26 - 59:34] Y'all think that you're so entitled and that you don't have to write whatever wrongs you make.
[59:34 - 59:40] And I'm sorry, that's not how the world operates.
[59:40 - 59:45] If you make a mistake, you own up to it.
[59:45 - 59:51] Or if you do something wrong with someone, you own up to it.
[59:51 - 59:53] And you write that wrong.
[59:53 - 60:13] You don't sit there and say, oh, well, you did this. You did that now.
[60:13 - 60:22] Now, with that being said, I'm going to go back to my normal, average, uninteresting life.
[60:22 - 60:26] And, Tess, I'm going to message you.
[60:26 - 60:31] Own up to your mistakes, motherfuckers.
[60:31 - 60:34] Stop being a chicken shit.
[60:34 - 60:36] out to them.