2021-9-15 my life journey

[0:00 - 0:12] You know, before I even start the stream, you know, baby, you're right, I do owe you something and you know what that something is?
[0:12 - 0:22] That something is this, by fake ass.
[0:22 - 0:36] That's all I owe you motherfucker. That's all I owe you.
[0:36 - 0:51] Yo, Earl, Berg. What up, guys?
[0:51 - 1:19] I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind.
[1:19 - 1:33] I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind.
[1:33 - 1:52] I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind.
[1:52 - 2:14] I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind.
[2:14 - 2:39] I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind.
[2:39 - 2:58] I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind. I don't know why it doesn't matter how much you try to keep that in mind.
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[8:39 - 8:59] I'm speaking on Lex. You know, speaking on Lexi, y'all motherfuckers need to leave her the fuck alone. And I'm being dead ass serious, man. Y'all motherfuckers need to leave her the fuck alone.
[8:59 - 9:18] She passed away due to a tragic situation, man. Y'all need to at least show some motherfucking respect.
[9:18 - 9:42] And honestly, bro, y'all need to quit trying to start shit. The whole reason why y'all do this is for a rant. Well, guess what? I'm not giving you what you fucking bitches want. It ain't happening, son.
[9:42 - 9:52] I know why you motherfuckers do this. You do this, you try to get a rant out of me. Well, guess what? Not fucking happening.
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[13:36 - 14:04] Now, speaking on Lex, this is someone I've been wanting to do for her own guitar for a while now and has never had a way to.
[14:04 - 14:16] So, Lex, if you're looking down right now, this one's for you.
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[14:34 - 14:42] In reality, I'm full of questions.
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[15:34 - 15:46] Hold on, guys. Be right back. All right. Hold on, guys. I'm going to restart this. I'll be right back. Mods, hold it down.
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[19:20 - 19:34] Sorry about that, guys. I won't take another video to spell, but she's all right.
[19:34 - 19:48] I had to help pick her up. She's all right, though. It is that I couldn't get her up on his own, but she's okay, though.
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[28:22 - 28:36] Now, on a real note, let me fucking ask you guys something, and I want an honest fucking answer, okay?
[28:36 - 28:51] I don't want no fucking, oh, because of this, because of that, but no, I want a legit, you know, honest 100% answer from you guys.
[28:51 - 29:03] Why is it that you guys feel like you have to be fucking negative towards everyone around you, especially towards me?
[29:03 - 29:08] Like, you guys know what I've gone through my whole life.
[29:08 - 29:14] I've told you guys my life story, everything that I've been through, the hard stuff that I've been through.
[29:14 - 29:26] So, my question to you is, why keep bringing that negativity on when I'm trying to live my life the best that I can?
[29:26 - 29:48] I don't understand.
[29:48 - 29:58] But here's the thing, Black Cat, I'm really not a bad guy, and see, Black Cat, that's the thing, I'm actually not an awful person.
[29:58 - 30:04] I'm really not, because Black Cat, something you need to understand, dude, is I was catfished.
[30:04 - 30:21] It was proven that I was innocent, alright? That was proven.
[30:21 - 30:26] But here's the thing, dude, my actions don't say differently, bro.
[30:26 - 30:52] My actions genuinely don't say any different. Every day I come on here, and I put on the best performances for everybody that I can.
[30:52 - 31:02] And yet, I still get attacked.
[31:02 - 31:13] And I don't understand why.
[31:13 - 31:41] Shout out to Cynthia, by the way. What's up, Cynthia?
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[40:11 - 40:24] And to go back to Black Cat and White Face's comment from earlier, here's a little lesson to you, man.
[40:24 - 40:27] Here's a little lesson to you.
[40:27 - 40:35] Judge me not by my past, but by my current action.
[40:35 - 40:47] I repeat, judge me not by my past, but by my current action of what I'm doing at this current point in time.
[40:47 - 41:13] We've got you taken care of, Sergeant Houston. Thank you. That was that.
[41:13 - 41:17] And squish. Thank you.
[41:17 - 41:21] Squish the rainbow. Teach the rainbow.
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[47:45 - 47:51] Oh, fuck. I'll put that back. I don't want to get back.
[47:51 - 48:07] You know, just a few minutes, guys. Moms, jokes. Everybody hang out. I'll be right back.
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[49:01 - 49:11] You know, let's skip over this one real quick.
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[49:19 - 49:27] Oh, here's what I know. From my old school fans, I know you guys will remember this shit from back in the day.
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[65:31 - 65:35] Now, there's a reason I did that track.
[65:35 - 65:49] I'm going to put all this down because I'm going to explain why.
[65:49 - 66:01] I'm going to put all this down and explain why real quick.
[66:01 - 66:19] This is especially applies to you, man.
[66:19 - 66:26] What I don't understand is why we have to continue on this war.
[66:26 - 66:33] Maybe if you guys would actually take time to get to know me, you'd see that I'm not a bad guy.
[66:33 - 66:36] You want to know why I lash out the way that I do?
[66:36 - 66:42] It's not that I want to, but the reason I lash out is because I get attacked.
[66:42 - 66:47] And I literally just defend myself.
[66:47 - 66:52] And I don't see anything wrong with me defending myself.
[66:52 - 67:01] I really don't see anything wrong with me defending myself against somebody that took my life away from me.
[67:01 - 67:08] I don't see the problem in me fighting back and doing what's right.
[67:08 - 67:13] When is this war going to stop?
[67:13 - 67:23] When are you guys going to fucking stop and realize that there's so much more to life than to going after one person?
[67:23 - 67:29] When are you going to fucking realize that the world is so much bigger than you and me?
[67:29 - 67:37] When are you guys going to wake up and realize that there's so much more to life than to going after one person?
[67:37 - 67:48] I'm just one person. One person out of several billions of people on this earth.
[67:48 - 67:58] There are so many other things you guys could be doing than to waste your time being negative towards your fellow person.
[67:58 - 68:08] There are so many things you could be doing. You could actually be positive and help people.
[68:08 - 68:16] But instead you choose to be negative and drag people down for no fucking reason.
[68:16 - 68:23] And it's not right, nor is it okay.
[68:23 - 68:28] I'm the kind of guy that will hang out with anyone.
[68:28 - 68:36] I'm the kind of motherfucker that will hang out with anybody that needs someone to hang out with.
[68:36 - 68:39] I'm the kind of dude that will give you the shirt off my back.
[68:39 - 68:45] I'm that kind of guy that if you need an ear to listen in to something,
[68:45 - 68:53] like if you need someone to talk to, I'm that dude that's got an ear. I'm that dude that will stay up at two or three in the morning
[68:53 - 69:01] and help you through whatever you're going through because I have done that.
[69:01 - 69:11] I'm that guy that if you need help with something, "Alright, what do you need help with? What's going on? What can I do to help?"
[69:11 - 69:17] I'm not the bad guy that people have been making me out to be over these last several months.
[69:17 - 69:22] And to be quite honest with you, I'm tired of being made out to be a bad guy.
[69:22 - 69:30] I'm really not a bad guy. You know what I would like to do? You know what direction I want to take this channel in?
[69:30 - 69:41] I want to take this channel back in the original direction where I was doing coffee and chill livestreams
[69:41 - 69:48] where I was hanging out with people, where I wasn't doing anything stupid or negative.
[69:48 - 70:02] I was just hanging out, having fun, relaxing with you guys.
[70:02 - 70:07] That's all I was doing back in the day. Before Masterful Reports, that's all I did.
[70:07 - 70:13] I hung out, did coffee and chill livestreams, relaxed, and kicked it with you guys.
[70:13 - 70:28] I know you guys remember those days.
[70:28 - 70:36] I know that all my mods remember, well Chokes might not remember those days because Chokes just came around.
[70:36 - 70:41] But all my other mods that have been around for a while, you guys remember those days
[70:41 - 70:47] where I would do the coffee and chill livestreams where I would hang out, I would have a good time.
[70:47 - 71:02] And I would genuinely relax and just have fun.
[71:02 - 71:14] But I'm going to tell you all right now, this fucking war that's been going on, it's pointless. There's no point in it.
[71:14 - 71:19] There's no point in fighting a fucking war amongst each other.
[71:19 - 71:28] We're all human beings at the end of the day. We should be helping each other, not fighting or destroying each other.
[71:28 - 71:34] We're all human beings, we're all fucking people.
[71:34 - 71:40] We all deserve the same amount of respect. We all deserve to be treated equally.
[71:40 - 71:53] We all deserve to be treated right and not screwed over.
[71:53 - 71:59] So I don't know about you guys.
[71:59 - 72:08] I don't know about you guys, but I'm throwing down my weapons and walking away because I'm tired of fighting in this never ending war.
[72:08 - 72:14] I'm tired of fucking fighting.
[72:14 - 72:18] I'm tired of fucking fighting this never ending war.
[72:18 - 72:23] It needs to stop.
[72:23 - 72:28] It needs to fucking stop.
[72:28 - 72:33] Sure.
[72:33 - 72:47] I don't have any justice. I don't want it to be a cup of coffee.
[72:47 - 73:36] [unintelligible]
[73:36 - 73:48] What's up, guys?
[73:48 - 73:57] Well, like I said, this war, I don't know if it's ever going to end.
[73:57 - 74:01] I don't know if it's going to end with me or people are going to move on to someone else.
[74:01 - 74:08] I don't know. But what I do know is this.
[74:08 - 74:12] What I do know is this very thing and not very thing is this.
[74:12 - 74:17] I'm throwing down my weapons and walking away.
[74:17 - 74:25] I'm not going to spend my whole life fighting a war that I don't need to fight anymore.
[74:25 - 74:31] Instead of fighting, I should be having fun.
[74:31 - 74:33] I should be building my fan base.
[74:33 - 74:42] I should be building my brand up for my artwork, my music, stuff I enjoy doing.
[74:42 - 75:00] But instead, I'm caught in this never ending fucking war for no reason and it needs to stop.
[75:00 - 75:08] And that's why as of right now, I'm throwing down my weapons and I'm walking away.
[75:08 - 75:18] I'm throwing down my weapons and I'm walking out that fucking war zone because I'm not going to continue to fight a war that's just going to keep going.
[75:18 - 75:25] I'm done with it. I'm done with the fighting and I'm done with this war, man.
[75:25 - 75:34] This internet war shit is stupid.
[75:34 - 75:40] This war is meaningless.
[75:40 - 75:46] There's no point in waging a war on the internet like you guys are doing.
[75:46 - 76:00] There's no fucking point.
[76:00 - 76:07] There's no fucking point in continuing this war, you guys.
[76:07 - 76:11] And that's all reports. That goes for you as well.
[76:11 - 76:15] And that goes for you as well, candle.
[76:15 - 76:17] Alright, what do you want to do?
[76:17 - 76:22] Spend the rest of your life fighting a fucking battle that's never going to end?
[76:22 - 76:31] Is that really what you want? To fight a war that's never going to fucking end?
[76:31 - 76:41] Is that what you really want with your life? To continue to fight a war and be stuck in a perpetual cycle of idiocy for the rest of your lives?
[76:41 - 76:55] Is that what you really want?
[76:55 - 77:14] If that's what you want, then go ahead and do it. Continue to do what you're going to do. But leave me the hell alone. Find someone else to go after.
[77:14 - 77:26] William, if that's how you're going to go after someone else, go after someone else, man.
[77:26 - 77:36] Go the fuck after somebody else.
[77:36 - 77:44] If that's what you guys want, then go ahead and do it. But do it to someone else.
[77:44 - 77:48] Go after someone else that wants that garbage.
[77:48 - 78:05] Because I don't want it around here. And I don't need it around here, okay?
[78:05 - 78:11] This battle is over and I'm ending it.
[78:11 - 78:16] I'm ending this battle on my own terms.
[78:16 - 78:32] I'm walking away from this battle on my own motherfucking terms.
[78:32 - 78:51] I'm walking away from this fight on my own fucking terms.
[78:51 - 79:02] And if you don't like that I'm walking away, then that's on you. I don't know how I ended up in this war to begin with.
[79:02 - 79:12] I don't know how I ended up in this war, but let me tell ya, I never wanted in this fucking war to begin with.
[79:12 - 79:20] For a year and a half, I've been going to war with motherfuckers on the internet. And to be honest, I'm tired of it.
[79:20 - 79:30] I never wanted it in this war. I never wanted it in this fucking internet battle that I got drug into.
[79:30 - 79:40] But I'll tell you one thing's for sure. I don't know how I got into it, but I guarantee you, I know how I'm walking out of it.
[79:40 - 79:51] I'm walking out of it alive. And I'm changing my life for the better.
[79:51 - 80:08] So yes, I will be taking a very long vacation because I'm done fighting.
[80:08 - 80:32] I'm done fighting a senseless fucking war.
[80:32 - 80:41] I'm walking away from this battle. And there's not a motherfucker on this goddamn earth who can fucking stop me.
[80:41 - 80:57] So yes, I am walking away from this war and I am taking a very long vacation from YouTube because after doing YouTube for over 10 years with no breaks, I think I'm entitled to a fucking break.
[80:57 - 81:08] I think about that. Ten years of doing YouTube nonstop, day in and day out. Think about that.
[81:08 - 81:16] So as of right now, I'm walking away and I'm on vacation. I'll see you guys when I get back.
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