2021-8-8 THIS IS NOT THE LIFE I WANT FOR MYSELF

[0:30 - 0:39] I'm gonna get another one.
[0:42 - 0:42] Okay.
[0:46 - 0:49] I still not wanna talk to you guys about that.
[0:51 - 0:52] I've been holding back.
[0:57 - 1:02] Something I should have done something about a long fucking time ago.
[1:09 - 1:11] It's a year and a half ago.
[1:16 - 1:23] I got brought into this community by the real Miss Jamie Nicole who was a very good friend of mine.
[1:23 - 1:26] Who in a lot of ways tried to help me.
[1:31 - 1:39] But little did I know that her trying to help me would lead to something that would spiral into
[1:41 - 1:48] A chaotic life ruining, reputation ruining situation.
[1:50 - 1:51] See through Jamie.
[1:53 - 1:55] I got found by the vendor boys through Jamie.
[1:59 - 2:03] They had tricked me into trying to sign with them.
[2:06 - 2:09] And their record label.
[2:12 - 2:22] And it seems like ever since then, ever since then, I've been lied to.
[2:23 - 2:32] I've been stabbed in the back, made to believe things that weren't true, acted completely out of character,
[2:32 - 2:37] did shit that's not in my nature at all whatsoever.
[2:37 - 2:40] Stuff that I am completely ashamed of.
[2:40 - 2:45] I've done stuff that I totally regret.
[2:45 - 2:51] I've done things that I would never do in my normal everyday life.
[2:54 - 3:00] And let me tell you, doing this comedy shit, yeah, it's funny to some people.
[3:00 - 3:04] But to me, it's really not.
[3:04 - 3:10] To me, this whole comedy thing, I was watching back my live streams from yesterday.
[3:10 - 3:12] Let me tell you something.
[3:12 - 3:19] I'm embarrassed by that person because that person that y'all saw, that's not me.
[3:19 - 3:22] That's the me that everyone created.
[3:22 - 3:29] That's the me that you guys, the trolls, the people that made me who I am,
[3:29 - 3:33] you're the one that made that person.
[3:33 - 3:36] Outside of that, that's not who I really am.
[3:36 - 3:39] In real life, I'm a music artist.
[3:39 - 3:40] I'm a musician.
[3:40 - 3:41] I'm a pianist.
[3:41 - 3:43] I'm a recording artist.
[3:43 - 3:45] I'm a fucking artist.
[3:45 - 3:48] I do fucking artwork.
[3:48 - 3:55] And all I've ever wanted since I started YouTube was to make a living doing those two things.
[3:55 - 4:01] That's all I've ever wanted, was to make a living doing those two things.
[4:08 - 4:11] That's all I've ever fucking wanted.
[4:11 - 4:15] You think I like being made fun of.
[4:15 - 4:18] You think I like being laughed at.
[4:18 - 4:24] You think I like going insane and cracking jokes because that's what everyone wants.
[4:24 - 4:29] No, that's not what I've wanted.
[4:29 - 4:32] That's not what I enjoy.
[4:32 - 4:42] If anything, I'm embarrassed by everything that's happened over this last year and a half.
[4:42 - 4:50] This last year and a half has been the worst year and a half of my entire fucking life.
[4:50 - 4:56] I've lost major friendships with people.
[4:56 - 4:59] I've been tricked into shit.
[4:59 - 5:01] I've been bullied.
[5:01 - 5:06] Had my life threatened many times over.
[5:06 - 5:10] Done shit that I'm embarrassed of.
[5:10 - 5:17] Been tricked into believing shit that wasn't fucking true.
[5:17 - 5:27] And it's gotten so bad to the point that aside from Clint and a few others, like Seren
[5:27 - 5:32] and a couple other people that have genuinely helped me out along the way.
[5:32 - 5:39] Aside from those few people, I don't know who to believe anymore.
[5:39 - 5:43] I don't know who's real and who's not.
[5:43 - 5:48] And that's not my fault.
[5:48 - 5:53] Aside from Clint and the very few people that actually have helped me.
[5:53 - 5:59] I don't know who's being genuine or who's being for fucking real.
[5:59 - 6:05] And that's not my fault.
[6:05 - 6:14] The reason I don't know is because I've been stabbed in the back so many times over the year and a half
[6:14 - 6:18] that it's hard for me to trust anyone now.
[6:18 - 6:22] It's hard for me to even get a girlfriend now.
[6:22 - 6:26] The simplest thing is getting a girlfriend has now become this monumental task
[6:26 - 6:37] because I know that at any minute if one of you fucking trolls catches wind and y'all go after her,
[6:37 - 6:40] I lose that.
[6:40 - 6:43] And do you know how fucking disappointing that is for me?
[6:43 - 6:47] That's embarrassing for me.
[6:47 - 6:53] Now because of you fucking trolls, I can't even go down to the fucking corner store
[6:53 - 7:01] and grab a simple fucking energy drink like this without getting fucking laughed at,
[7:01 - 7:08] poked fun at, commented at.
[7:08 - 7:13] And what pisses me off is you guys taking advantage of that.
[7:13 - 7:18] You guys treat me like a fucking zoo animal and I'm not.
[7:18 - 7:24] Like you, I am a human being that deserves respect.
[7:24 - 7:29] I mean, what have I ever done to any of you, bender boys?
[7:29 - 7:39] What have I ever done to any of you to make you want to fucking trick me and believing shit that wasn't true?
[7:39 - 7:49] You guys are the ones that started it, bender boys. Not me. You motherfuckers started this shit.
[7:49 - 7:54] And guess what? It snowballed from there.
[7:54 - 8:04] I've lost legitimate record deals with actual companies because of all the shit that I've been put through.
[8:04 - 8:13] I've lost opportunities in my life to make real money doing what I love.
[8:13 - 8:19] And all you can do is sit there and laugh.
[8:19 - 8:25] I mean, is that what you want? You want to sit here and laugh at my misery? Go ahead.
[8:25 - 8:31] Laugh at my fucking misery. Laugh at the fact that I'm different.
[8:31 - 8:43] Laugh at the fact that I actually have the balls to step outside the fucking door and do something that not many have the fucking balls to try and do.
[8:43 - 8:50] All I ever get is laughter. Oh, let's laugh at the funny guy. Oh, let's laugh at the weirdo.
[8:50 - 8:55] Oh, look at this weird guy over here trying to make music. He fucking sucks.
[8:55 - 9:05] You don't know my fucking life. You know this fucking much about my goddamn life.
[9:05 - 9:10] You know this much about my life yet you think you know everything.
[9:10 - 9:19] You see one thing about it, all of a sudden you think, oh, we know everything about him. No, the fuck you don't.
[9:19 - 9:30] No, the fuck you don't. You're not the one that had to sit there and watch your older brother being wheeled out on a gurney.
[9:30 - 9:35] Not knowing if that's the last time you would ever see him.
[9:35 - 9:48] You're not the one that had to end up in the fucking hospital watching your best friend take his last breath.
[9:48 - 9:59] You're not the one that had to get a call from your friend's family, saying that he was killed in a fucking car bombing serving overseas.
[9:59 - 10:08] You're not the one that had to watch your dad walk out the day you were fucking born being arrested.
[10:08 - 10:15] You're not the one that had to deal with being bullied because you're different.
[10:15 - 10:20] I have, though. I've had to deal with all that and more.
[10:20 - 10:31] I mean, thank God just last year I lost my fucking fiance, for God's sake, to a fucking health issue.
[10:31 - 10:36] And you think you fucking know me?
[10:36 - 10:46] You think it's okay to poke fun at me after everything I fucking went through growing up being bullied?
[10:46 - 10:50] Losing one of my best friends to a drowning accident.
[10:50 - 11:00] And then in 2015, losing both my brother and my best friend won the cancer and won to a fucking murder.
[11:00 - 11:10] And then a couple years later, losing the one that I love to fucking health issues.
[11:10 - 11:15] I mean, what right do you have judging someone like that?
[11:15 - 11:19] What right do you have?
[11:19 - 11:23] Huh? What right do you have?
[11:23 - 11:28] Yes, I may have made some mistakes along the way. I'm not perfect.
[11:28 - 11:32] I didn't admit that. I'm far from fucking perfect.
[11:32 - 11:37] But what in God's name right do you think you fucking have?
[11:37 - 11:42] Going around attacking someone just because they look different.
[11:42 - 11:48] Tricking someone. Catfishing someone. All they're gonna laugh. What right do you have doing that?
[11:48 - 11:53] You don't have that right.
[11:53 - 11:58] I mean, it was hard enough for me to get signed to a label as is.
[11:58 - 12:03] It was hard enough already for me dealing with this shit outside of YouTube.
[12:03 - 12:07] It was hard enough already for me.
[12:07 - 12:13] But now I had to deal with it even more because you motherfucking morons.
[12:13 - 12:17] This isn't a fucking game.
[12:17 - 12:26] Y'all punk-ass little faggots need to realize that there are real fucking people on this platform.
[12:26 - 12:30] What you do affects people in their everyday lives.
[12:30 - 12:38] What you did to me affects my everyday fucking life.
[12:38 - 12:43] What you did to me affects me now.
[12:43 - 12:48] Even now it affects me.
[12:48 - 12:53] I can't get a regular job because of you fucking trolls.
[12:53 - 12:56] Mass hole the bitch reports.
[12:56 - 13:02] I can't get a fucking regular job because of your fucking punk-ass.
[13:02 - 13:06] It's hard for me to get signed to a label. I've lost friends.
[13:06 - 13:09] People are looking at me weird now.
[13:09 - 13:15] Friends that I've known for years are now looking at me differently.
[13:15 - 13:19] And you think that I got it easy?
[13:19 - 13:24] You think I fucking have it easy?
[13:24 - 13:28] Let me tell you something right now, you stupid-ass motherfuckers.
[13:28 - 13:31] I don't have it easy.
[13:31 - 13:34] I really don't.
[13:34 - 13:37] Put yourself in my position.
[13:37 - 13:41] Go through the things that I went through growing up.
[13:41 - 13:45] And then put yourself in the position that you put me in.
[13:45 - 13:49] And see how you fucking feel.
[13:49 - 13:52] Put yourself in that position for five minutes.
[13:52 - 13:56] See how you fucking feel.
[13:56 - 14:01] See if you're not angry and pissed off all the time.
[14:01 - 14:10] See if you don't want to end your life all the fucking time.
[14:10 - 14:18] See if you don't want to just up and run away from everything.
[14:18 - 14:21] You say you know my life.
[14:21 - 14:28] You don't know jack shit about my motherfucking life.
[14:28 - 14:32] You don't know a goddamn thing about my life.
[14:32 - 14:36] You've never been in my shoes.
[14:36 - 14:43] You've never had to witness the things that I've had to witness.
[14:43 - 14:48] You never had to lose a loved one to fucking murder.
[14:48 - 14:55] You never had to lose the woman that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with to help issues.
[14:55 - 15:04] You never had to watch your older brother being wheeled out on a fucking gurney knowing that's the last time you'd ever see him.
[15:04 - 15:07] You never had to deal with that.
[15:07 - 15:14] You never had to deal with your dad never being around because he's in the fucking military.
[15:14 - 15:17] I had to.
[15:17 - 15:20] I had to deal with all that and more.
[15:20 - 15:28] And you think I had it easy. You think I got it easy.
[15:28 - 15:31] I don't have it easy.
[15:31 - 15:37] My life is far from fucking easy.
[15:37 - 15:52] And it's even harder when I can't even do my own fucking artwork or try to get signed off fucking label for the shit that I'm good at trying to better my life for my family.
[15:52 - 15:57] That's all I'm trying to do is better my fucking life for my family.
[15:57 - 16:01] That's all I'm trying to do.
[16:01 - 16:05] And yet I get hate on for that.
[16:05 - 16:24] Do you know how many times I get asked a fucking day. Why am I not doing music for a living. Why am I not doing artwork for a living because nobody will take me fucking seriously because of you motherfuckers that put me in this position.
[16:24 - 16:29] No one takes me seriously because of you.
[16:29 - 16:37] No one takes me seriously. And you guys are to fucking blame for it.
[16:37 - 16:47] Every one of you that has ever trolled me or attacked me or bashed on me are to fucking blame.
[16:47 - 16:53] And you think I have it easy.
[16:53 - 17:14] Imagine sending out record label requests, sending out demos to record labels day in and day out day in and day out for a year and a half fighting and fighting and fighting in hopes that somebody will take you on in hopes that somebody will give you that shot that you've been looking for.
[17:14 - 17:26] Imagine doing artwork every fucking day submitting your artwork to different galleries, hoping and praying that someone will fucking take you on.
[17:26 - 17:43] Imagine sending in your poetry to different publishers every fucking day, all that for a year and a half, just to get shut down because they see your videos and they see how you are.
[17:43 - 17:53] That person that I was in those videos that you guys constantly poke fun at, that's not who I am.
[17:53 - 17:57] That's not who I am in real life.
[17:57 - 18:14] That person, that disgusting fucking person in those videos, that's the person that you motherfuckers made. You made that person. You made me that way.
[18:14 - 18:22] But yeah, none of you fucking jackasses want to take responsibility.
[18:22 - 18:34] And you say I'm the bad guy? Why don't you look in the motherfucking mirror for once and stop fucking pointing and laughing like, oh, you're wrong.
[18:34 - 18:39] Nah, motherfuckers, I'm not wrong. And you know it.
[18:39 - 18:56] Every one of you that has ever attacked me or bashed on me or trolled me or done something to fuck me over, every one of you sons of bitches should be embarrassed.
[18:56 - 19:03] Every one of you should be embarrassed of yourselves.
[19:03 - 19:11] Seriously, you should be embarrassed.
[19:11 - 19:19] You know, all I've ever wanted was to make something of myself.
[19:19 - 19:25] That's all I've ever wanted. And yeah, I mean, I've had the easiest life growing up.
[19:25 - 19:39] I may not be able to have a regular job to vary due to various reasons. I might not have that luxury of working a regular job. But you know what? I have fucking talent that can actually make me real fucking money.
[19:39 - 19:47] Money that you guys rip away from me by doing the shit that you do.
[19:47 - 20:07] By sitting there bashing on me, attacking me, attacking my friends who've stained out for me, spreading lies about me, making key with farms accounts that literally have made me want to fucking kill myself.
[20:07 - 20:11] And you say that I have it easy.
[20:11 - 20:19] I tell you, you sons of bitches are far, far from correct.
[20:19 - 20:28] Now then, let me show you something.
[20:28 - 20:41] Yeah, I'm on.
[20:41 - 20:53] Now you take a look at that link and you tell me if you wouldn't be embarrassed.
[20:53 - 20:59] Yeah.
[20:59 - 21:28] Go on.
[21:28 - 23:53] Yeah.
[23:53 - 24:15] Sorry, I said take care of someone.
[24:15 - 24:22] But let me tell you something right now. You take a look at that motherfucking link.
[24:22 - 24:26] You take a look at this goddamn link right here.
[24:26 - 24:43] You take a look at this shit. You click on that goddamn link and you tell me that you wouldn't be embarrassed and humiliated to fucking death by what you see on that.
[24:43 - 24:51] Go on. Click the link. See for yourselves what I get put through.
[24:51 - 25:20] See for your fucking selves, see for your fucking selves what I get put through.
[25:20 - 26:14] Okay.
[26:14 - 26:16] Go ahead.
[26:16 - 26:21] Keep that link for your motherfucking selves.
[26:21 - 26:27] See if you wouldn't be embarrassed.
[26:27 - 26:51] See if you wouldn't be upset. See if you wouldn't be humiliated.
[26:51 - 27:00] Yeah, it's fucking easy for me. You really think I fucking have it easy.
[27:00 - 27:03] You really think I have it easy.
[27:03 - 27:10] I am one of the most talented people on this fucking platform and you guys know it.
[27:10 - 27:22] But instead of choosing to support me and help me, what do you decide to do? You decide to embarrass, attack, and bash on me.
[27:22 - 27:27] And for what reason?
[27:27 - 27:40] What reason do you have? What did I ever do to any of you?
[27:40 - 27:49] I don't fucking get it.
[27:49 - 28:11] And if you don't believe my fucking talents, let me fucking prove to you that I got something.
[28:12 - 28:37] Okay.
[28:37 - 29:06] This place, there's no escape.
[29:06 - 29:12] Nothing you can't decide, take this part away.
[29:12 - 29:21] Just stop forgetting, tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[29:21 - 29:24] I don't know what to take.
[29:24 - 29:27] Thought I was focused, but I'm scared.
[29:27 - 29:31] I'm not prepared.
[29:31 - 29:37] I had proven a way, looking for help somehow somewhere.
[29:37 - 29:40] And no one cares.
[29:40 - 29:44] I'm my own worst enemy.
[29:44 - 29:49] I keep it all.
[29:49 - 29:51] That's it, don't be a lie.
[29:51 - 29:54] There's nothing you can't decide.
[29:54 - 29:58] Take this part away.
[29:58 - 30:12] Just stop forgetting, tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[30:12 - 30:22] God!
[30:22 - 30:38] Pull me out of my misery!
[30:38 - 31:00] I can't even stop!
[31:00 - 31:09] Nothing you can't decide, take this part away.
[31:09 - 31:24] Just stop forgetting, tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[31:24 - 31:39] Now, you name another motherfucker that can do that.
[31:39 - 31:46] You name somebody else that can do that shit.
[31:46 - 31:54] So go ahead black cat, run your punk ass mouth you stupid faggot.
[31:54 - 32:03] Run your motherfucking mouth and see if you get somewhere.
[32:03 - 32:09] Why is that in my head? I get trapped in a war inside my own skin.
[32:09 - 32:35] Then pull me out of my misery!
[32:35 - 32:40] Then pull me out of my soul, fuck a fever or veins.
[32:40 - 32:45] Don't move the picture, but still feel the brain.
[32:45 - 32:51] My soul to my soul, would you come wide or rise?
[32:51 - 33:01] If soul to the truth, would you tell me to lie?
[33:01 - 33:08] Voices in my head again, leading me to war and get away.
[33:08 - 33:19] Nothing you can't decide, take this part away.
[33:19 - 33:56] Then pull me out of my misery!
[33:56 - 35:51] I get...
[35:51 - 36:03] Then pull me out of my misery!
[36:03 - 37:04] Can someone tell me what is something to me?
[37:04 - 37:07] Why was it not in them?
[37:07 - 37:34] We have a record of our souls.
[37:34 - 37:52] Can someone tell me what is something to me?
[37:52 - 38:10] Why was it not in them?
[38:10 - 40:41] Can someone tell me what is something to me?
[40:41 - 40:51] By the end of your just back you left you to yesterday and so you took it all.
[40:51 - 40:59] Can't make my chances but I told you what to make of you like a bitch.
[40:59 - 41:21] And you wonder why no one can stand you and let no denying you run like a bitch.
[41:21 - 41:31] Lined in by your secret feeling that I've only tied to your enemy.
[41:31 - 41:39] Gave me no such chance of proof that your elegance is stronger than your little plea.
[41:39 - 42:11] Stronger than you can be.
[42:11 - 42:15] And to that motherfucking Joel from that I just deleted.
[42:15 - 42:20] Let me tell you right now motherfucker you get me in the goddamn studio.
[42:20 - 42:27] Give me one shot in the studio with the right fucking people and I'll show you what I can do.
[42:27 - 42:31] I'll show you what I'm capable of motherfucker.
[42:31 - 42:36] I will show you what the fuck I can do.
[42:36 - 42:38] Straight up.
[42:38 - 43:06] Give me a goddamn studio. See if I don't tear it up.
[43:07 - 49:27] I'm sorry.
[49:27 - 49:45] Imagine a place with grief.
[49:45 - 50:14] Oh, only every fucking person that's ever fucking ruined me.
[50:14 - 50:18] Oh, no.
[50:18 - 50:29] No, this is only saying, oh, you've got to start up for no one.
[50:29 - 50:58] No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
[50:58 - 51:53] No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
[51:53 - 52:22] Yes, but I.
[52:22 - 52:51] Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
[52:51 - 53:05] Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
[53:05 - 53:21] Now, do I need to prove myself any more to you motherfuckers?
[53:21 - 53:29] Every one of you that wants to run your mouth, I don't think I need to prove shit to you anymore.
[53:29 - 53:35] I really don't think I need to prove shit.
[53:35 - 53:45] Because let me tell you right now, I got more fucking talent and my little goddamn pinky that have you fucking faggots having your old goddamn body.
[53:45 - 53:57] And I think I just fucking proved my point.
[53:57 - 54:04] Hey, Dan, why don't you shut your faggot bitch ass up, you fucking loser ass bitch.
[54:04 - 54:13] Oh, what's the matter, little fag boy ain't got no talent, so you're projecting on the other motherfuckers, you piece of shit.
[54:13 - 54:17] You're a piece of shit.
[54:17 - 54:24] So why don't you shut your fucking mouth and go the fuck somewhere else.
[54:24 - 54:31] 'Cause I'm about fucking had enough of little pussy with little bitches like you.
[54:31 - 54:35] I'm fucking had enough of your faggot bitch ass kid.
[54:35 - 54:42] So take your bullshit, shove it up your ass, go fuck yourself, and go the fuck somewhere else.
[54:42 - 55:10] But I am going to say this right now in front of everyone.
[55:10 - 55:23] And this is not aimed at Clint or Saren or anybody that has actually helped me.
[55:23 - 55:25] Let me make this very clear.
[55:25 - 55:29] This is not aimed at those that have actually helped me with shit.
[55:29 - 55:34] This is aimed at everybody just sitting around, running their mouths talking shit.
[55:34 - 55:39] If you ain't gonna fucking help me, then what are you doing here?
[55:39 - 55:49] If you ain't gonna fucking help me get to where I want to be, then fuck off and get the fuck out of here.
[55:49 - 55:56] 'Cause I got two things going for me, my artwork and my music, that's all I got.
[55:56 - 56:01] My artwork and my music is all I got going for me, as well as my poetry.
[56:01 - 56:09] So if you ain't gonna help me achieve my goals for either three of those things to get a fucking publisher for my poetry,
[56:09 - 56:15] help get a fucking art gallery to take me seriously, I want to work with my artwork,
[56:15 - 56:18] or help me get a fucking record deal going.
[56:18 - 56:23] If you ain't gonna do one of those three things, then get the fuck out of here.
[56:23 - 56:28] 'Cause I ain't got no time for it.
[56:28 - 56:33] I'm done with it. I'm done being fucked over.
[56:33 - 56:36] I'm done being stepped on.
[56:36 - 56:39] I'm done being fucked over.
[56:40 - 56:45] [footsteps]
[56:45 - 57:00] [bird calls]
[57:01 - 63:21] [silence]
[63:21 - 63:50] [ Pause ]
[63:50 - 63:54] So, then I'm going to have to take care of something. What the fuck was going on?
[63:54 - 64:04] [ Pause ]
[64:04 - 64:14] They know, to those that do support me, I do want to say that I'm sorry that you have to see me like this,
[64:14 - 64:20] but you have to understand something. I'm tired of having opportunities ripped away from me.
[64:20 - 64:29] I'm tired of me trying to make a better life for myself, being stolen away from me, especially with my artwork.
[64:29 - 64:33] Like, my artwork is where it's at for me.
[64:33 - 64:38] [ Pause ]
[64:38 - 64:44] I said, to those of you that do truly and genuinely support me, I thank you.
[64:44 - 64:53] And I'm sorry that you have to see me like this, but I'm tired of being fucking tricked. I'm tired of being harassed.
[64:53 - 65:03] I'm tired of having opportunities ripped away from me for no reason, at all, except to make my life hard.
[65:03 - 65:08] [ Pause ]
[65:08 - 65:18] Now, to everyone else that doesn't support me, who might be changing their mind about me, if you would like to help,
[65:18 - 65:25] you can help by fucking getting my artwork out there. You can help by stop bashing on me.
[65:25 - 65:35] And if you'd like to help, get a fucking gallery to take a look at my artwork or have an actual art gallery fucking email me.
[65:35 - 65:40] I have plenty of pieces ready to fucking go.
[65:40 - 65:44] So, if you'd like to help, fucking help.
[65:44 - 65:55] Stop sitting there bashing or laughing at someone like me who is trying to make a living for themselves.
[65:55 - 65:57] I'm done.
[65:57 - 66:09] [ Pause ]
[66:09 - 66:15] I'm done with this crap.
[66:15 - 66:18] I'm done with being a puppet.
[66:18 - 66:25] It's time I do what I was born to fucking do and do my fucking artwork.
[66:25 - 66:33] It's time I fucking got what I fucking deserve, which is a shot at making money off my art, above all else.
[66:33 - 66:36] If I get signed on, they look cool.
[66:36 - 66:42] But the one thing I want more than anything is for my fucking artwork to take off.
[66:42 - 66:53] And if you're gonna fucking help, then help me. If not, get the fuck out of my face.
[66:53 - 66:58] And I'm not saying that to people like Mary or Quinn or anyone who's helped.
[66:58 - 67:03] I'm saying that to those of you that act like you know me when you don't.
[67:03 - 67:07] If you're not gonna help, then get the fuck off my string.
[67:07 - 67:12] I'm tired of being embarrassed. I'm tired of being harassed.
[67:12 - 67:16] I'm tired of being, like I said, I'm tired of being embarrassed.
[67:16 - 67:21] I'm tired of this shit.
[67:21 - 67:27] So as of this day forward, I'm separating myself from the troll community.
[67:27 - 67:31] I'm done. I can't do this no more.
[67:31 - 67:35] So fuck you trolls. Fuck natural reports.
[67:35 - 67:43] Fuck anyone that thinks negative about me.
[67:43 - 67:50] Because this time I got what I fucking deserve, which is a paying job doing my artwork for a living.
[67:50 - 68:02] And if you ain't gonna support, then fuck you.
[68:02 - 68:11] I'm out of here, y'all. I'll see you guys later. And if you're lucky, if you're lucky, I might be back.
[68:11 - 68:14] If you're lucky.