Original upload date: August 8th, 2021 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:18] [Silence]
[0:18 - 0:20] What's up guys?
[0:20 - 0:27] [Silence]
[0:27 - 0:39] As you guys know, I've been trying to, you know, do better for myself.
[0:39 - 0:48] And to be honest, I thought I could handle the trolls, but I just, I can't do it.
[0:48 - 0:51] [Silence]
[0:51 - 1:02] Um, yeah, I wanted to get a 2,000 subs, I really did.
[1:02 - 1:18] But to be honest with you, making fun of myself and doing this on the other, and having all this negative attention towards me is not how I wanted to do it.
[1:18 - 1:31] You see, I received a level of infamy that I never wanted nor asked for.
[1:31 - 1:42] Like I told you guys earlier, doing my art work or doing something I don't get at is what I want to be known for.
[1:42 - 1:52] I don't want to be known for that guy that rages out and freaks out all the time.
[1:52 - 1:58] That's not what I want for myself.
[1:58 - 2:05] You know, people think that trolling is funny and that it's okay.
[2:05 - 2:24] And to an extent, they're right. But outside of that, when it comes to people like me, who don't enjoy it, who just want to create their content and do what they love and get paid to do it,
[2:24 - 2:31] we don't enjoy that kind of trolling.
[2:31 - 2:43] Like, being known as that guy that freaks out in the snow, like I said, that's not what I want to be known for.
[2:43 - 2:56] I don't want to be known as that guy that everybody can laugh at or that guy that looks weird or that guy that's a pedo when I'm not.
[2:56 - 3:21] I don't want to be known as that guy that everybody can poke fun at.
[3:21 - 3:27] But that's the thing, though, I'm not that guy.
[3:27 - 3:40] I'm only that guy because you see me that way.
[3:40 - 3:49] You don't see what I'm truly capable of when I put my mind to it. When I put my mind to it, I can do some pretty cool stuff.
[3:49 - 3:53] I really can't. I can put together some dope ass videos.
[3:53 - 3:57] I can do some really cool fucking artwork.
[3:57 - 4:05] But how am I supposed to get anywhere with what I'm actually good at?
[4:05 - 4:09] If you guys try to hold me back.
[4:09 - 4:16] To be honest with you, I'm tired of being held back. I'm tired of being known as that guy and I want to change that.
[4:16 - 4:28] I want to change that stigma. I want to change it to where when people look at me, they don't look and see that, "Oh, that's that guy I'm looking for fun at."
[4:28 - 4:43] No. I want people to look at me and see, "Yo, this dude has some amazing videos. This dude is truly gifted at what he does. This dude is an amazing artist."
[4:43 - 4:47] That's what I want to be seen for.
[4:47 - 4:59] I don't want to be seen for, "Oh, this guy looks at the Truman Show. Let's fuck with this guy."
[4:59 - 5:13] I don't want to be known as that guy. And in order to escape that, which I can escape it, even though it'll be long and hard, I have to do it.
[5:13 - 5:27] Like, I have to reinvent myself. And the best way for me to reinvent myself is to let this channel die.
[5:27 - 5:35] I'm not saying there's anything wrong with being funny. I'm not saying that.
[5:35 - 5:47] I don't mind joking around. I don't mind having a good time. I don't mind making people laugh and smile whenever they're under the weather or they're down and out.
[5:47 - 5:57] I don't mind that. I enjoy making people laugh and smile. But as a career, that's not what I want.
[5:57 - 6:22] As a career, I want to do things that can make me very good money. And as many of you are probably aware by now, with my Skate channel, which how you guys find my channel is I still don't get it.
[6:22 - 6:44] With my brand new Skate 23 channel, I want to gear that channel towards something good. I want to be able to create really cool ads utilizing Skates 1 and Skate 3.
[6:44 - 6:56] Like, I want to create ads for brand names like DC and all these other Skate brands. And I could do that if given the chance.
[6:56 - 7:05] But what I don't understand is why you guys won't let me have that chance to show you what I can really do with myself.
[7:05 - 7:19] Like, why must I be held back? Why is it that you will not allow me to do what I need to do to show you my full potential?
[7:19 - 7:29] Like, why is it that you want to hold me back? Why is it that you don't want me to do things that I'm very passionate about?
[7:29 - 7:56] Stuff that I truly enjoy, like my artwork. Like, why is that?
[7:56 - 8:03] And here's the thing, Rufus, I don't make excuses. I really don't.
[8:03 - 8:12] But it seems like every time I make some sort of progression, somebody comes in and fucks that progression up.
[8:12 - 8:27] And that's where I'm stuck at. You see, I'm stuck in that spot of people throwing a wrench in everything I try to do.
[8:27 - 8:40] Because they either poke fun at it so much that it just dies off, or they throw a wrench in it so badly that no one takes me serious.
[8:40 - 8:47] And that's why I'm stuck.
[8:47 - 9:00] It's not that I asked for this. It's that I got forced into this spot that I have no way out of right now, that I'm trying so hard to dig my way out of.
[9:00 - 9:14] But with people constantly coming in, attacking me, making me look stupid, you know, taking away opportunities from me.
[9:14 - 9:26] How am I supposed to do anything?
[9:26 - 9:35] And that's why, after this livestream, I'm retiring this show so that I can go in and I can reinvent myself.
[9:35 - 9:44] So I can go back to my roots and reinvent myself.
[9:44 - 9:48] And try to do better.
[9:48 - 9:55] Because I never asked to be trolled. I never asked for anything.
[9:55 - 10:06] All I've ever asked, the only thing I've ever asked for was to be able to make a living doing what I love.
[10:06 - 10:10] That's all I've ever asked for.
[10:10 - 10:26] But it seems like nobody wants to let me do that.
[10:26 - 10:36] And that right there is another reason why I'm leaving this channel because of rogue mods. I'm tired of it.
[10:36 - 10:40] I'm tired of these rogue mods.
[10:40 - 10:56] That's another reason why I'm leaving this channel because too many people are breaking into my shit and fucking with me. And I'm tired of it.
[10:56 - 11:07] And now if you guys would like to follow my future endeavors and creating clips, be sure to check out the channel Skate 23 Studios.
[11:07 - 11:36] That's Skate 23 Studios.
[11:36 - 11:45] Because this trolling is going way too far and I don't need this.
[11:45 - 11:50] This trolling has gotten so far out of hand.
[11:50 - 11:53] And I don't need it.
[11:53 - 12:22] Now if you guys would like to follow my future endeavors, here's where you can follow. This is the name of the channel.
[12:22 - 12:32] If you guys would like to follow my new channel, you guys can follow it right there. I posted it in the comments for you guys.
[12:32 - 12:38] But to be honest, I can't do this no more.
[12:38 - 12:58] I'm tired of people breaking into my account. I'm tired of being harassed, attacked, and honestly,
[12:58 - 13:16] I'm tired of not being taken seriously like I should be.
[13:16 - 13:34] Yes, I did.
[13:34 - 13:58] Here's the channel link.
[13:58 - 14:06] But to be honest, I want to be taken seriously. I have things that I want to do with my life.
[14:06 - 14:11] I have very real things that I would like to do with my life.
[14:11 - 14:28] And being trolled like this is not one of them. Having people break into my YouTube account is not one of them.
[14:28 - 14:37] This is not what I want.
[14:37 - 14:45] No, don't get it wrong. I'm not deleting this channel, but it is just gonna sit here.
[14:45 - 14:56] It's just gonna, I'm just gonna let it sit here and that's truly die off on its own.
[14:56 - 15:09] Because like I said, I have things that I want to do with my life. I have things that I truly enjoy, that I want to focus on.
[15:09 - 15:14] You say I can't change that around, but I believe that I can.
[15:14 - 15:24] I believe with the right people and the right kind of help, I could turn all this around and do something.
[15:24 - 15:32] I believe that I can get away from this stigma. I believe that I can get away from the trolls.
[15:32 - 15:38] But it takes the right people.
[15:38 - 15:43] Which is why over the next few days, I'm not gonna be on YouTube.
[15:43 - 15:49] The only thing I'll be doing is posting on clips. And that's it.
[15:49 - 15:54] Other than that, I'm gonna be on Facebook and on other social media.
[15:54 - 16:10] Trying to find something that will take my ideas seriously and help me to make that idea into profit and into a business.
[16:10 - 16:18] Because quite honestly, I don't need this kind of negativity in my life. I really don't.
[16:18 - 16:24] I want to be able to collab with other YouTubers.
[16:24 - 16:36] I want to be able to help out other people that have family oriented channels.
[16:36 - 16:43] I want to be able to help those channels out. I want to be able to collaborate with people like that.
[16:43 - 16:51] I do know how many friends I have that I want to collaborate with but can't because of their audience.
[16:51 - 17:01] And because of the way that people perceive me, I don't want that kind of shit.
[17:01 - 17:07] I don't want that kind of perception about me. I want to be able to collab with people, man.
[17:07 - 17:20] I want to be able to have fun and do what I love and get paid to do it.
[17:20 - 17:26] And I can't do that with this level of crap going on.
[17:26 - 17:35] Like, how am I supposed to do that?
[17:35 - 17:49] Like, how am I supposed to make a very good brand name if no one is literally giving me the chance to do what I need to do?
[17:49 - 18:01] Like, how am I supposed to do what I need to do as a business owner if I keep getting taken advantage of every time?
[18:01 - 18:08] I mean, I could turn, I literally have the ability to turn what I love into a business.
[18:08 - 18:21] But it seems like every time I start to turn it into something that I love into a business, it gets taken away.
[18:21 - 18:33] Like, it gets taken away from me every time. And what do I get? When that gets taken away, what do I get?
[18:33 - 18:47] I get laughed at.
[18:47 - 18:52] Like, if I feel like if I had the right people around me, I could do some good.
[18:52 - 19:00] But I need the right people around me. I don't need toxicity in my life.
[19:00 - 19:12] I need the right people around me to help push me.
[19:12 - 19:18] See, you say I'm delusional.
[19:18 - 19:23] You say I'm delusional, but am I really?
[19:23 - 19:29] Am I really delusional?
[19:29 - 19:34] I mean, do you know how many people have taken what they loved and turned it into a business?
[19:34 - 19:42] Quite a few. So, am I really that delusional? I don't think so.
[19:42 - 20:03] Because I have something to offer. I have something to offer that a lot of people could use.
[20:03 - 20:14] I have something to offer, and I want to be able to make money from what I have to offer.
[20:14 - 20:31] So, regardless of what you think, I need to do what I need to do.
[20:31 - 20:46] I mean, you can say that I'm delusional, you can say that I'm this, say that I'm that, but if you really think about it, am I that delusional really?
[20:46 - 20:52] I mean, think about this.
[20:52 - 21:00] The guy that created Facebook, everyone said he was delusional, but look what he did.
[21:00 - 21:05] People said Ben Franklin was delusional.
[21:05 - 21:12] People said Albert Einstein was delusional, but look at all the great things they did.
[21:12 - 21:18] They said Stephen Hawking was delusional, and look what they did.
[21:18 - 21:25] They all became some of the greatest minds of our time.
[21:25 - 21:32] So, can I ask you this, am I really that delusional?
[21:32 - 21:59] Alright, just because I have the ability to do something and have something to offer the world, am I really that delusional?
[21:59 - 22:03] Dude, I have plenty of abilities, take your pick.
[22:03 - 22:18] Like, dude, I can do artwork, I can play piano, violin, I can create instrumentals, I can edit videos, I can make logos, I can do promo videos.
[22:18 - 22:29] Like, I have a lot to offer that I can make money from, I really do, I have a lot to offer.
[22:29 - 22:41] I mean, have you not seen the video where I did a freaking samurai piece on my art channel? Like, people love that.
[22:41 - 22:58] So, I do have something to offer, I can edit videos, I can, you know, do audio engineering work, I can do, you know, instrument work, I can do DJ scratch work, like, I can do all kinds of stuff.
[22:58 - 23:10] But in order to make those things money, in order to take what I can do and turn that into profit, I need to have the right people back at me.
[23:10 - 23:16] And that's a big reason as to why I'm leaving this channel behind.
[23:16 - 23:24] And I'm letting it die because I want to go full force into creating what I love and turning it into a business.
[23:24 - 23:30] I want to turn what I love into a business.
[23:30 - 23:40] I mean, think about it, people that do tattoos, same thing.
[23:40 - 23:48] It's the same thing with tattoo artists back in the day.
[23:48 - 24:07] They took what they love to do, you know, they took an ancient thing, they took something that was very ancient, they took the ancient art of tattooing, and they ran with it.
[24:07 - 24:14] And essentially, look what they created, a multi-million dollar business.
[24:14 - 24:26] They created a multi-million dollar business by taking something as ancient as tattooing and running with it and turning a profit.
[24:26 - 24:41] So if they can do that, who's to say I can't do what I love and make a profit from it?
[24:41 - 25:00] And think about that, if tattoo artists can take the ancient art of tattooing and turn it into a multi-million dollar business, why can't I turn what I do into a business?
[25:00 - 25:12] And think about it, there's really no difference there between me or them.
[25:12 - 25:31] That is very true and I do love the Japanese style tattoos. I really do. And I know a lot of you guys are wondering this, this is on a side note, I know some of you guys are wondering, yo, you do art work, you do really cool tattoo designs.
[25:31 - 25:37] Like, why don't you have tattoos yourself? Or if you're gonna get a tattoo, what style would you want?
[25:37 - 25:51] Honestly, I would either want, you know, like Neptune said, a traditional Japanese style tattoo or even an American old school Gothic style tattoo.
[25:51 - 26:02] But for me, I just don't want a tattoo to have a tattoo, no. Like, when I get a tattoo, I want it to have meaning. I want it to, you know, mean something.
[26:02 - 26:06] I don't just want to be like, hey, I got a tattoo to get a tattoo, no.
[26:06 - 26:13] See, I believe if you're gonna get a tattoo, it has to have some sort of meaning.
[26:13 - 26:21] Like, you want to get a tattoo that has a story that has a very real meaning, like a memorial piece.
[26:31 - 26:46] Oh, no, she has this, that's dope.
[26:50 - 26:52] That's fucking cool.
[26:59 - 27:01] That's fucking awesome, dude.
[27:05 - 27:07] Well, what that means, say guys.
[27:13 - 27:23] Um, I love you guys, and I will see you guys on my other channel, so feel free to comment.
[27:23 - 27:31] If you don't have the link to the channel, please feel free to check the link right there. I just re-posted it for you guys.
[27:31 - 27:37] Um, I am gonna try to do some, you know, some editing and do some really cool stuff.
[27:51 - 27:52] And yeah.
[27:56 - 28:08] Well, that means, say guys, I love you guys, and I will see you guys over on my other channel.
[28:08 - 28:13] I love you guys, and like I said, I'm not deleting this channel, I'm just gonna sit here.
[28:13 - 28:16] I'm just gonna let this sit here for a while.
[28:26 - 28:28] And, you know, see what happens.
[28:29 - 28:31] Well, that means, say guys.
[28:37 - 28:40] I love you guys, and I will...
[28:43 - 28:46] Catch you guys over on my other channel, man.
[28:48 - 28:56] I look forward to, you know, my future business endeavors, and hopefully something good will come of this.
[28:56 - 29:01] Hopefully something good can come of this, and something dope will pop up.
[29:17 - 29:20] Honestly, that's up in the air right now.
[29:24 - 29:31] That side thing is up in the air, and that's still to be determined, so I'm not focusing on that.
[29:31 - 29:38] I'm focusing on what I can do right now at this point in time.
[29:38 - 29:41] So with that being said...
[29:51 - 29:56] I love you guys, and I will see you guys over there.
[29:56 - 29:59] Catch you guys later, man. Fucking love y'all. Peace.
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '1195' on August 12th, 2024
