2021-8-21 IT FEELS GOOD TO BE BACK

[1:01 - 1:03] What's up, guys?
[1:03 - 1:40] I'm just finding a position here to be back.
[1:40 - 1:52] You know what I'm gonna say?
[1:52 - 2:21] If you're going to be back, officially say that this five month long war
[2:21 - 2:36] is finally over five months of a long-distance war.
[2:36 - 2:41] Dying day in and day out.
[2:41 - 2:45] No sleep, no rest.
[2:45 - 2:53] Just constant dialing.
[2:53 - 3:01] And I can proudly say that the war is over.
[3:01 - 3:04] It's done.
[3:04 - 3:10] The war is over.
[3:10 - 3:29] But before I get into that, I want to say a little sorry.
[3:29 - 3:38] After first 2009, I started my journey to YouTube.
[3:38 - 3:43] Not knowing what it would bring.
[3:43 - 3:48] Not knowing what it had in store.
[3:48 - 3:59] Idea what it had in store for me.
[3:59 - 4:14] And know what I had to carry on a legacy of my brother.
[4:14 - 4:19] But I just passed that same year.
[4:19 - 4:25] A few weeks prior.
[4:25 - 4:29] As soon as this day when my first video was,
[4:29 - 4:34] it was a morning video to my best friend David.
[4:34 - 4:40] Who passed on May 9th of that same year for a giant accident.
[4:40 - 4:44] Down in a place that only around here called the Gorge.
[4:44 - 4:52] I knew I had to carry on this legacy.
[4:52 - 4:55] Somehow.
[4:55 - 4:58] And that's what hit me.
[4:58 - 5:05] The best way for me to carry on that legacy was through music.
[5:05 - 5:09] Just like he would have done for me.
[5:09 - 5:21] If I had a little bit of know with that.
[5:21 - 5:26] Seven years later would come a lot of pain.
[5:26 - 5:28] A lot of bullshit.
[5:28 - 5:30] A lot of hard times.
[5:30 - 5:36] And a lot of good times.
[5:36 - 5:40] Over the years, I've made some very good friends.
[5:40 - 5:45] Everybody from people like Bradley.
[5:45 - 5:52] Who I introduced yesterday.
[5:52 - 5:59] And even people who were enemies to my friends.
[5:59 - 6:02] People like me who's been more than a group.
[6:02 - 6:09] Or enemy to my friends many years later.
[6:09 - 6:14] But listen.
[6:14 - 6:17] Nothing could have protected me.
[6:17 - 6:23] For the fight that I had to face five months ago.
[6:24 - 6:27] A lot prior to that.
[6:27 - 6:34] I was taking a break.
[6:34 - 6:35] Relaxing.
[6:35 - 6:40] Enjoying my family life.
[6:40 - 6:41] You know.
[6:41 - 6:43] Trying to be normal.
[6:43 - 6:44] Again.
[6:44 - 6:48] If you will.
[6:48 - 6:53] And nothing could have ever.
[6:53 - 6:55] And I mean ever.
[6:55 - 6:59] Preparing for that fight that I faced.
[6:59 - 7:09] Months.
[7:09 - 7:11] Five months.
[7:11 - 7:20] Months.
[7:20 - 7:22] Up here.
[7:22 - 7:27] Hell.
[7:27 - 7:29] I've long.
[7:29 - 7:31] Grewling.
[7:31 - 7:33] Wish.
[7:33 - 7:35] Nightmarish.
[7:35 - 7:36] Months.
[7:36 - 7:42] Not for you.
[7:42 - 7:45] I lost everything.
[7:45 - 7:48] Friends.
[7:48 - 7:50] My child.
[7:50 - 8:02] That's me.
[8:02 - 8:03] Because of me.
[8:03 - 8:05] Because of all the shit.
[8:06 - 8:08] And it wasn't easy.
[8:08 - 8:10] It was hard.
[8:10 - 8:12] It was very hard.
[8:12 - 8:15] It was the hardest times of my life.
[8:15 - 8:24] But I stand here before you today.
[8:24 - 8:26] Proudly saying.
[8:26 - 8:28] That.
[8:28 - 8:29] We.
[8:29 - 8:30] Won.
[8:30 - 8:45] Didn't do it alone.
[8:45 - 8:52] I didn't face this battle alone.
[8:52 - 8:55] As many times as I thought I did.
[8:55 - 8:57] I did.
[8:57 - 8:59] I had people there.
[8:59 - 9:01] In my corner with me.
[9:01 - 9:06] And I want to take a second.
[9:06 - 9:07] To thank.
[9:07 - 9:08] Every.
[9:08 - 9:09] One.
[9:09 - 9:10] Of.
[9:10 - 9:11] You.
[9:11 - 9:12] That.
[9:12 - 9:13] Should.
[9:13 - 9:18] Decide.
[9:18 - 9:19] Me.
[9:19 - 9:20] My.
[9:20 - 9:21] Sister.
[9:21 - 9:22] Miranda.
[9:22 - 9:24] My sister.
[9:24 - 9:25] Kara.
[9:25 - 9:30] My best friend of many years.
[9:30 - 9:31] Is.
[9:31 - 9:34] Actually over here in the states of Morocco.
[9:34 - 9:35] So.
[9:35 - 9:36] I'm.
[9:36 - 9:38] Welcome to the states brother.
[9:38 - 9:40] Get singing man.
[9:40 - 9:49] Like.
[9:49 - 9:55] She wants money.
[9:55 - 9:56] People.
[9:56 - 9:58] Like my blood family.
[9:58 - 9:59] My mom.
[9:59 - 10:00] And.
[10:00 - 10:05] People.
[10:05 - 10:06] Like.
[10:06 - 10:08] My best friend Sam.
[10:08 - 10:13] People.
[10:13 - 10:14] Like.
[10:14 - 10:15] My best friend.
[10:15 - 10:17] Of.
[10:17 - 10:18] Ten.
[10:18 - 10:19] Years.
[10:19 - 10:20] People.
[10:20 - 10:21] Who.
[10:21 - 10:25] Are adults in high school.
[10:25 - 10:26] People.
[10:26 - 10:27] Like.
[10:27 - 10:28] Sam.
[10:28 - 10:29] Marty.
[10:29 - 10:35] People.
[10:35 - 10:36] Like.
[10:36 - 10:37] They show.
[10:37 - 10:38] Who stood.
[10:38 - 10:39] Beside me.
[10:39 - 10:45] People.
[10:45 - 10:46] Like.
[10:46 - 10:47] That.
[10:47 - 10:49] Who stood beside me and helped me.
[10:49 - 10:50] Through.
[10:50 - 10:51] All.
[10:51 - 10:52] Is.
[10:52 - 10:53] And.
[10:53 - 10:54] Help.
[10:54 - 10:55] Me.
[10:55 - 10:56] To.
[10:56 - 10:57] Get.
[10:57 - 10:58] Through.
[10:58 - 10:59] All.
[10:59 - 11:00] Of.
[11:00 - 11:06] This.
[11:06 - 11:07] Don't.
[11:07 - 11:08] Through.
[11:08 - 11:09] That.
[11:09 - 11:10] And.
[11:10 - 11:11] Through that.
[11:11 - 11:12] Very.
[11:12 - 11:13] Very.
[11:13 - 11:14] Nightmare.
[11:14 - 11:15] Star.
[11:15 - 11:16] Place.
[11:16 - 11:17] I learned a lot.
[11:17 - 11:18] Not only.
[11:18 - 11:19] About.
[11:19 - 11:20] Myself.
[11:20 - 11:21] But.
[11:21 - 11:23] About what I was capable of.
[11:23 - 11:24] What I keep.
[11:24 - 11:55] To.
[11:55 - 11:56] My.
[11:56 - 11:59] Dances.
[11:59 - 12:00] You know.
[12:00 - 12:01] Or.
[12:01 - 12:03] I'm proud to be a freak.
[12:03 - 12:06] I'm proud to be me.
[12:06 - 12:09] So.
[12:09 - 12:11] I thank you.
[12:11 - 12:12] For.
[12:12 - 12:13] That.
[12:13 - 12:14] Compliment.
[12:14 - 12:16] I'm proud to be a freak.
[12:16 - 12:18] Because.
[12:18 - 12:19] At least.
[12:19 - 12:21] I stand out in the crowd.
[12:21 - 12:23] And I know how to turn heads.
[12:23 - 12:24] So.
[12:24 - 12:25] Thank you.
[12:25 - 12:26] For calling me.
[12:26 - 12:28] Well.
[12:28 - 12:30] I am proud to be a freak.
[12:30 - 12:31] I'm an old man.
[12:31 - 12:32] Shit.
[12:32 - 12:35] You're not wrong being a freak.
[12:35 - 12:37] Now I'm proud to be one.
[12:37 - 12:38] Just saying.
[12:38 - 12:47] I'm proud to be a freak.
[12:47 - 12:51] I'm proud to be a freak.
[12:51 - 12:53] I'm proud to be a freak.
[12:53 - 12:55] I'm proud to be a freak.
[12:55 - 12:56] I'm proud to be a freak.
[12:56 - 12:57] Give it away.
[12:57 - 13:02] Thank you.
[13:02 - 13:03] Shit.
[13:03 - 13:16] Interesting.
[13:16 - 13:18] You show some respect.
[13:18 - 13:21] And get the fuck out of here, kid.
[13:21 - 13:28] Why don't you show some respect.
[13:28 - 13:58] And get the fuck out of here.
[13:58 - 13:59] That's right.
[13:59 - 14:00] He's sleeping.
[14:00 - 14:01] His server went.
[14:01 - 14:03] Very,
[14:03 - 14:05] Very well.
[14:05 - 14:07] And.
[14:07 - 14:17] Shout out to those that did reach out and send in best wishes.
[14:17 - 14:26] He says thank you to everyone that did that.
[14:26 - 14:33] Everyone that sent out, yes well, hope you feel better.
[14:33 - 14:37] He says thank you to all that did that.
[14:37 - 14:47] He appreciates it.
[14:47 - 14:58] I can't thank every one of you that has simply signed me through all of this.
[14:58 - 15:07] I can't thank you ever enough for having my back and standing behind me
[15:07 - 15:22] and helping me fight this, being able to beat this.
[15:22 - 15:29] I was able to refine myself because of you guys.
[15:29 - 15:39] I got that hunger back from you guys once all I had lost.
[15:39 - 15:43] And I see it was there the entire time.
[15:43 - 15:48] And I just need to get my ass in here and find it.
[15:48 - 15:58] While yes, I may have called a couple people out that rightfully deserved it.
[15:58 - 16:04] People that rightfully deserved to get called out for everything they've done to me
[16:04 - 16:06] and people that I know.
[16:06 - 16:25] Nothing characterizes me to be welcomed back the way that I have been
[16:25 - 16:30] by all of you, the Syrox Nation.
[16:30 - 16:34] Everyone of you means something to me.
[16:34 - 16:43] Everyone of you means something to me.
[16:43 - 16:54] Everybody in the fucking Syrox Nation is more than just a subscriber.
[16:54 - 17:03] Everyone watching at home right now that is part of this nation.
[17:03 - 17:10] You guys are family, a community.
[17:10 - 17:15] You guys, some of you are the students that I know in real life.
[17:15 - 17:20] Some of you I just met this year.
[17:20 - 17:24] Some of you I've known for over a year and a half.
[17:24 - 17:28] People like for me, shout out for me, whatever.
[17:28 - 17:43] People like my good homie, murder ninja, whatever we do.
[17:43 - 17:54] I can honestly say, I can say this probably.
[17:54 - 18:00] Damn, does it feel good to be back?
[18:00 - 18:15] It feels amazing to be back.
[18:15 - 18:22] And to be honest, I never thought those words would come out of my mouth ever again.
[18:22 - 18:31] But yeah, here we are, we're back.
[18:31 - 18:43] And man, does it feel good?
[18:43 - 18:52] This is the song we do for you.
[18:52 - 18:54] This is your song.
[18:54 - 18:56] This is for all of you.
[18:56 - 19:17] And this is my promise to all of you as well.
[19:17 - 19:56] Feel good to be back.
[20:09 - 20:43] I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I can honestly say, I
[22:06 - 23:21] It's my promise to all of you, reliving my past ever again.
[23:21 - 24:04] My past is done over, it's time to start brand fucking new.
[24:04 - 24:09] This is all those that said beside me this is for you guys.
[24:44 - 24:51] But it's not the end of the night, so I'm talking to you guys.
[24:51 - 24:58] So give me something to complain and I'll break the right.
[24:58 - 25:06] All of you will get lost in the space, come up on the 7 o'clock in the night.
[25:06 - 25:12] They talk about smart things, the past is gone, I'm still standing here.
[25:16 - 25:25] What's standing here?
[25:25 - 25:34] I'm talking from the past, you can find it now, but I'm trying to find some resonance.
[25:34 - 25:40] And it's not my eyes, they're all in the white.
[25:40 - 25:50] They talk about smart things, the past is gone, I'm still standing here.
[25:50 - 26:00] So give me something to complain and I'll break the right.
[26:00 - 26:07] rainy lights, brand new engines, let's start something to believe,
[26:07 - 26:14] Break the fast, break the ages, let's start something to believe the
[26:14 - 26:21] Brand new jobs, brand new Edges, bring up software cover in the
[26:21 - 26:25] Brand new jobs, brand new jobs ...
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