2021-7-2 remember the Lost

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[0:30 - 0:43] What is up, what is up, what is up you guys?
[0:59 - 1:06] Now I know I said I was gonna do the show on the 20th.
[1:14 - 1:29] But I decided to why not do it today, why not do it now?
[1:29 - 1:36] And pay respect to those lives that we've lost.
[1:39 - 1:43] But before we do start the show, I wanna say something.
[1:48 - 1:54] To every one of you guys that has been standing out for
[1:54 - 2:00] me and fighting alongside me these past few days and
[2:00 - 2:06] these past weeks, to you guys, I just wanna say thank you from
[2:06 - 2:10] the bottom of my heart and not just from me.
[2:12 - 2:18] But that's coming from my family as well, man.
[2:18 - 2:23] Me, my family, my friends.
[2:23 - 2:29] For those of you that have been standing up and
[2:29 - 2:34] fighting alongside me to help stop this bullying.
[2:34 - 2:40] And to help stop the situation that I'm currently dealing with.
[2:40 - 2:44] On behalf of my family, I just wanna say thank you guys.
[2:44 - 2:48] Cuz you guys are fucking awesome.
[2:48 - 2:53] And you guys going out of your way to show up and
[2:53 - 2:59] support and to reach out and to see how I'm doing.
[2:59 - 3:04] See how my family's doing in these hard times.
[3:04 - 3:06] I just wanna say thank you guys.
[3:06 - 3:12] Cuz you guys are truly amazing for stepping in and
[3:14 - 3:21] Really helping out because I'll be honest.
[3:21 - 3:24] Dealing with all this has not been easy.
[3:24 - 3:28] It's been one of the hardest.
[3:28 - 3:34] It's not the hardest thing that I must and
[3:34 - 3:39] my family has had to deal with.
[3:39 - 3:45] So for you guys to step up and help like you guys are that.
[3:48 - 3:51] That truly means the world to us.
[3:53 - 4:00] Not only to myself but to my family 100%.
[4:00 - 4:03] You guys are truly, truly incredible.
[4:03 - 4:07] And we can't thank you guys enough.
[4:10 - 4:15] But if you guys are giving just one minute to throw some songs in,
[4:15 - 4:20] cuz it's kinda freezing, then we're gonna get the show started.
[4:20 - 4:23] Shot taken in the back, what's good, buddy?
[4:41 - 4:58] And don't worry guys, I got shorts on.
[4:58 - 5:02] There's some of these pants on over time to keep my legs warm.
[5:08 - 5:13] But I do wanna say what's up to you guys.
[5:16 - 5:20] Yeah, you guys are truly fucking awesome and
[5:20 - 5:25] I can honestly say thank you for everything you guys do.
[5:27 - 5:29] And I'm not just saying that.
[5:32 - 5:36] I know I should have had this done a while ago, but
[5:36 - 5:41] I didn't think I was gonna be doing the show today either, so yeah.
[5:48 - 6:03] But this show isn't about just Jamie or Chester or Chris Cornell.
[6:08 - 6:14] This show is for people who have lost their lives,
[6:14 - 6:20] unfortunately to bullying, to suicide in general.
[6:20 - 6:31] This for everyone that we've lost to the cancerous disease known as suicide.
[6:31 - 6:40] And this is also to raise awareness for bullying and
[6:40 - 6:45] what it can really do cuz I'm living proof.
[6:48 - 6:50] That bullying can do damage.
[6:52 - 6:57] And that's not a route that anyone deserves to go down.
[7:07 - 7:19] So, [BLANK_AUDIO]
[7:19 - 7:21] So with that being said.
[7:41 - 7:50] Let's get this started.
[18:53 - 19:00] Let me tell you guys right now, man, no one deserves to be bullied, man.
[19:00 - 19:04] Trust me, I've gone through it.
[19:04 - 19:08] Even now, I go through it.
[19:08 - 19:12] Every day I deal with it.
[19:12 - 19:19] Every day because of spiteful, hateful, and non-understanding people like Kate.
[19:22 - 19:27] I deal with that every day and it's not easy.
[19:29 - 19:35] So trust me, if you are getting bullied and you do get bullied,
[19:35 - 19:38] just know that you're not alone.
[19:38 - 19:41] There are others out there and there is help out there.
[19:42 - 19:46] Trust me, I know how hard it can be to reach out,
[19:46 - 19:51] especially when you've been pushed to the edge as I have many times.
[19:53 - 20:00] Ask anyone here they could tell you, I have been pushed to the edge many, many times.
[20:04 - 20:08] And let me tell you, that's not a place that I would wish on my worst enemy.
[20:11 - 20:16] I wouldn't wish it on Kate, I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
[20:17 - 20:24] But one thing that does need to change is us fighting each other.
[20:26 - 20:29] Cuz maybe if we started realizing how alike we are,
[20:29 - 20:33] instead of bashing each other and attacking each other,
[20:33 - 20:38] maybe some of this bullying that's going on would stop.
[20:38 - 20:41] It's not needed.
[20:41 - 20:45] You never know what the next man's going through.
[20:45 - 20:50] All you in the chat that do want to sit there and talk shit,
[20:50 - 20:58] why don't you stop and try to look at things from the other person's perspective?
[20:58 - 21:01] Cuz you never know what somebody's going through.
[21:01 - 21:04] You just don't know what they're going through.
[21:04 - 21:08] They can be going through something very, very tragic,
[21:08 - 21:11] very hurtful, very hard.
[21:11 - 21:18] And you judging them and attack them, that doesn't help any at all.
[21:18 - 21:25] So watch trying to look in at things through their eyes
[21:25 - 21:27] and through their perspective.
[21:27 - 21:35] Cuz maybe then they'll change your mind about a lot of things.
[21:55 - 26:05] [MUSIC]
[26:05 - 26:15] I just wanna speak on something very briefly.
[26:15 - 26:20] I know that a lot of people have their opinions about me,
[26:20 - 26:24] given what's been going on with Kate.
[26:24 - 26:27] Given what's been going on with her friends,
[26:27 - 26:34] how she attacked my friends, my family,
[26:34 - 26:39] calls me to lose friends.
[26:39 - 26:44] But I want you to know one thing right now,
[26:44 - 26:49] I'm not the monster that she makes me out to be.
[26:49 - 26:54] See, I'm the kind of person that if I'm on a stage
[26:54 - 26:57] and I see a fan out in the crowd reaching out their hand,
[26:57 - 27:03] I'm the kind of person that will bring that fan up on stage
[27:03 - 27:05] and rock with them.
[27:05 - 27:09] I'm the kind of person that would go out of my way
[27:09 - 27:14] to give the shirt off my back to a stranger that needs it.
[27:14 - 27:17] That's the kind of person I am.
[27:17 - 27:24] And that's the kind of person I've always been.
[27:24 - 27:28] So whatever this shit that Kate is saying about me,
[27:28 - 27:31] don't fucking believe it.
[27:31 - 27:34] Because it's all bullshit.
[27:34 - 27:37] And it's that kind of bullying right there that she does
[27:37 - 27:40] that pisses me off.
[27:40 - 27:47] Because people like her just take and take and take
[27:47 - 27:51] until unfortunately somebody somewhere down the line
[27:51 - 27:55] takes their life because of what people like her do.
[27:55 - 28:00] And I'm honestly tired of fucking seeing it.
[28:00 - 28:04] I'm tired of seeing the hatred.
[28:04 - 28:10] I'm tired of seeing people lose their lives to bullying every fucking day.
[28:10 - 28:15] It's fucking sickening and it's disgusting.
[28:30 - 28:34] That's fucking hate balls, man.
[28:34 - 45:50] [MUSIC PLAYING]
[45:50 - 45:53] Let's restart that, shall we?
[45:53 - 77:04] [MUSIC PLAYING]
[77:04 - 77:17] I want this platform, this channel, to be a place, a safe haven, if you will, for people to come and hang out and relax and not be judged, not be attacked.
[77:17 - 77:33] I want this to be a safe place for everybody to come in, hang out, have a good time, whether I'm doing a livestream, whether I'm doing a gaming stream, whether I'm doing a reaction video, releasing a new song.
[77:33 - 77:50] You know, whatever it is, or even just doing a simple coffee and chill type scream, I want people to be able to come here and feel safe and know that they're not going to get judged here or be attacked here.
[77:51 - 78:04] The same exact way that I feel with one of my now good friends, Alex Hefner, who does a lot of reactions, his community.
[78:04 - 78:18] I'm a part of it. I feel safe in that community. Whenever I need something or something is going on, one of the members in that community is always there to help me out. They're always there to lend a hand, no matter what it is.
[78:19 - 78:30] And that's the kind of community I want to build on this channel. I don't, you know, I don't want people to come up in here and feed negative and talk crap on each other. No.
[78:30 - 78:40] I want this to be a safe place where people can come in and hang out and have a good time and not be attacked.
[78:43 - 78:58] Because like I said, no one deserves to be bullied at all, ever. It's not funny. It's not adorable. It's not cute. And it sure as hell isn't funny.
[78:59 - 79:10] Because like I said, you never know what the next man is going through. You can be saying they're bullying them and they can be going through something really awful.
[79:10 - 79:20] They could have just lost their family member. They could have just lost their mom, their dad, their pet, their girlfriend, their boyfriend, their cousin, whoever.
[79:21 - 79:29] They can be going through a really hard time and you won't know because you sit there and you bully them just like you bully me.
[79:30 - 79:49] I'm going through a hard time without being bullied because every day without being bullied, I'm constantly thinking, how can I get my brand out there?
[79:50 - 79:59] How can I make a living off of what I do and change lives doing it and help people while doing it?
[79:59 - 80:11] Every day I stress because here in August my stepdad is not going to be able to work. So trust me when I say that's a very heavy burden.
[80:12 - 80:25] You might not think it is, but trust me when I say being a caretaker is not easy. It's a very huge burden and it's something that I have to deal with every day.
[80:26 - 80:44] I'm a caretaker for my family and you guys think that that's easy. You guys think that being a caretaker is an easy job. It's really not.
[80:45 - 80:59] But let me tell you one thing, it's very worth it because I get to spend time with my family and my loved ones and I'm proud of that. I'm proud to say that I get to spend time with my family.
[81:00 - 81:10] But with that being said, guys, I fucking love you guys. Stay humble, stay positive, stay supportive of each other, man.
[81:10 - 81:23] And like always, if you see somebody being bullied, if you see it on this channel or in any other channel, reach out and say something to them. Help them out.
[81:24 - 81:38] Spread the message around. Help them out. Don't let them suffer. I fucking love you guys. Peace. Be safe.