2021-7-14 WHY FOLLOW THE TROLLING TREND

[0:00 - 0:17] What's up guys, it's your boy, your number is, um, so I was sitting down working on tuning
[0:17 - 0:29] a brand new through busy and I kind of like had this subject on my mind for a while now.
[0:29 - 0:44] For quite a while. And that subject is this and like I said, I'm not trying to antagonize
[0:44 - 0:51] the trolls. I'm not trying to start any shit. I just want to understand some stuff because
[0:51 - 1:01] I don't understand certain things. And I kind of want to understand where some of you guys
[1:01 - 1:10] are coming from. And that is why follow the trend of the troll for all you guys that,
[1:10 - 1:19] you know, troll me and have caused me a lot of grief and have caused me to, you know,
[1:19 - 1:25] not be able to fulfill certain things that I don't like to do with my life. Like, I don't
[1:25 - 1:42] understand the point. Like, I truly don't understand the point. Yo, Noah, what's up
[1:42 - 1:54] guys? What I'm trying to understand is what drives you to attack somebody? What drives
[1:54 - 2:01] you to want to, you know, make somebody feel like shit when maybe they've already been
[2:01 - 2:09] having the worst day of their life? I mean, hell, they could have lost their pet. They
[2:09 - 2:15] could have lost a family member, a girlfriend, boyfriend, whatever. Like, somebody in their
[2:15 - 2:25] family could have died. They could literally be having the worst day ever. And you guys
[2:25 - 2:34] going in and trolling them doesn't help any. Like, it doesn't make any sense to me. Like,
[2:34 - 2:45] I thought that, you know, standing out brothers was the cool thing. Like, since when did trolling
[2:45 - 2:52] become the cool, trendy thing to do? Like, since when did making fun of someone and bashing
[2:52 - 3:07] on them become the right thing to do? Like, I don't, I don't get it. Like, you guys sit
[3:07 - 3:15] there. And this is one thing I really don't understand. You guys sit there and bully
[3:15 - 3:29] people like myself in the well, shot in the well. Like, you guys sit there and bully people
[3:29 - 3:44] like us. And then when we fire back, you sit there and basically try to play the victim
[3:44 - 3:53] card just like Kate did. She tricked me into doing something that I shouldn't have done,
[3:53 - 4:02] which was wrong. And I admit that. But yet, when I speak about her being the source of
[4:02 - 4:09] the problem, all of a sudden, she wants to play the victim when I call her out on her
[4:09 - 4:26] bullshit. Like, it doesn't make any sense. Like, why the negative towards another human
[4:26 - 4:33] being? I just, I don't get it. Like, aren't we like you guys sit there and say you want
[4:33 - 4:43] people like me to succeed? Well, how is you trolling people like me succeeding? It doesn't
[4:43 - 5:01] make no sense. Like, it literally makes no sense for you guys to sit behind a computer
[5:01 - 5:14] and a keyboard and a monitor just to attack someone. Like, what's the point? And like,
[5:14 - 5:20] I get that, you know, I get the general idea of it, which is to make someone mad or to
[5:20 - 5:24] see how triggered you can get. So I'm just like with the, the, I don't know if you guys
[5:24 - 5:32] remember the angry German kid, that one, that one gamer kid that was, that was from Germany
[5:32 - 5:38] that everybody made a whole meme about that I can understand, because he was getting pissed
[5:38 - 5:49] off in video games, you know, let's be honest, it was funny to watch him do those things.
[5:49 - 5:56] Or like, you know, the angry grandpa, rest in peace, angry grandpa. That dude was funny
[5:56 - 6:07] to watch. Because when they did those things, it wasn't to harm them or their well being
[6:07 - 6:26] or you know, their livelihood. They were just doing it for laughs to be funny. What makes
[6:26 - 6:31] me different from them is the fact that I try to treat others with the same respect
[6:31 - 6:42] that I'm given. I actually try to help people out. And see, when I do my stuff, I'm not
[6:42 - 7:02] asking for handouts. Like, well, yeah, that's one thing to comment, you know, and then it
[7:02 - 7:09] is one thing to comment. That is very true. It's one thing to comment on someone's life.
[7:09 - 7:19] But it's a totally different thing when you have, you know, what happens to me, when somebody
[7:19 - 7:28] goes so far out of their way to literally like, go after their family. And I'm not
[7:28 - 7:33] doing one that has had this happen to me. I've actually come across quite a few YouTubers
[7:33 - 7:40] whose, you know, legitimate real lives have been gone after. Their families have been
[7:40 - 7:46] gone after they, a lot of family members like mine have lost their jobs due to trolling
[7:46 - 7:54] and it's, it's not okay. It's one thing to troll somebody. Yeah. But when you involve
[7:54 - 8:12] their real life, that's when it's taking it too far. But here's the thing though, that's
[8:12 - 8:18] not how it should be. Like, like, let's say I, and I have trolled people, okay? I have
[8:18 - 8:23] trolled people, I'm guilty of it, you know, we've all done it. You know, I've done it
[8:23 - 8:32] to a few people in the past, whatever, but I didn't take it to the extent of, you know,
[8:32 - 8:37] hey, I'm not only going to troll you, I'm going to drag your family into it. I'm going
[8:37 - 8:42] to drag your friends into it. I'm going to get people to turn against you. I'm going
[8:42 - 8:46] to ruin your life. I'm going to make it to where you can't do anything. I didn't take
[8:46 - 8:55] it that far. They were simple little trolls, you know, just joking around dumb shit. And
[8:55 - 9:01] I personally feel like when you involve someone's real life, that's where it needs to stop.
[9:01 - 9:14] There's no need to get someone's life involved. Oh, I already know how to stop them. I already
[9:14 - 9:17] know how to stop the trolls. Why do you think I haven't been paying attention to them? Why
[9:17 - 9:24] do you think my mom's been getting rid of them? But like, I'm just really trying to
[9:24 - 9:35] understand like, what's so fascinating about ruining someone's livelihood? Like I had a
[9:35 - 9:43] legitimate clothing business with my artwork. I was running a full time shop until a kid
[9:43 - 9:51] decided to come in and completely ruined my life. Got my shop shut down. Now I can't
[9:51 - 9:56] really go out and get a regular job because of what she did to me. And that looks bad
[9:56 - 10:11] on me. That looks real bad on me. Hell, my biological father lost his job because of
[10:11 - 10:20] this shit. And it's it's sad. And it's stupid. Like, I don't understand the point of, you
[10:20 - 10:28] know, taking it to that extent. Like, yeah, don't get wrong. Don't get wrong. It's funny
[10:28 - 10:33] watching somebody flip out. I would make there have been times where I watched my own videos
[10:33 - 10:40] back and last myself wrapped like a fucking idiot. I'm not going there have been times
[10:40 - 10:46] where I've done that. I have looked back and I have, you know, laughed at myself. Not
[10:46 - 10:53] gonna lie, we've all done it. But there comes a point where it goes from trolling to straight
[10:53 - 11:07] up bullying. Here's the thing, though. I didn't have a hand in it. Okay. I didn't
[11:07 - 11:20] have a hand in what she did. I was unaware that this is all a setup. Well, you can believe
[11:20 - 11:44] me or not believe me. It is what it is. I know the facts. I know the truth. Get out
[11:44 - 11:50] of here. In fact, here's a troll right here. This is what I do. You're gonna see what
[11:50 - 12:01] I do with trolls. Hi, them. Oh, look, another one. Sean, not Connor. By troll. That's what
[12:01 - 12:09] we do with trolls around here. That's what we do with trolls around these parts. We
[12:09 - 12:22] get rid of them. Like, I just don't understand where we went from, you know, making funny
[12:22 - 12:27] ass memes about people. Like I've had memes made about me that I crack up laughing at
[12:27 - 12:33] every time I see them. Not gonna lie. I have seen plenty of memes made about me that I
[12:33 - 12:38] genuinely laugh at. There are a lot of them out there about me that I fucking laugh my
[12:38 - 12:59] ass off about. Exactly. Fucking's right, man. Househouse is right, man. Like, that's how
[12:59 - 13:05] fucked up these people are. And that's ultimately what they did. I mean, hell, they trolled
[13:05 - 13:19] me so hard that my best friend, Jared, ultimately turned against me. Yo, Clem, what up, man?
[13:19 - 13:25] Actually there has been a change. It's gotten worse, way worse. There actually has been
[13:25 - 13:39] a change. And trust me, I've noticed it. I've noticed it big time. You might not think
[13:39 - 13:43] there's been a change, but there actually has been. People have actually ended their
[13:43 - 13:55] lives taking their own lives because of this kind of shit. Hell, I, at one point, had
[13:55 - 14:02] actually tried to take my life at one point because of the trolling and how bad it got.
[14:02 - 14:08] But there's a certain point where trolling isn't trolling anymore. Like there's a very
[14:08 - 14:13] fine line of, okay, you know, you're trolling somebody, you're fucking with them, you know,
[14:13 - 14:18] you're getting them angst, you're getting them pissed, whatever. But then there's that
[14:18 - 14:23] other side of it on that silver lining. There's that very thin line of where it goes from
[14:23 - 14:30] being a troll to just straight up bullying someone, like people like Masshole Reports
[14:30 - 14:41] does to me, like Tyrese Nees, Juggalo Drama Alert, Juggalo 972, you know, people like
[14:41 - 14:52] that. Like that shit is what needs to stop. Like people think, like you guys think that's
[14:52 - 14:59] fucking cool to, you know, oh, this guy looks weird. So I'm going to go out there and fuck
[14:59 - 15:13] his whole life up so he can't be successful. Like where does it end? Like, like if I wanted
[15:13 - 15:18] to, yeah, I could go around and be an asshole and be like, hey, I hate you, you're a fucking
[15:18 - 15:31] asshole, you're a troll. Like I could go around and, you know, do that same shit. I really
[15:31 - 15:37] could if I really wanted to, I can go around trolling the living shit out of motherfuckers.
[15:37 - 15:46] I really could. Like if I really wanted to, I could sit down and troll anybody in this
[15:46 - 16:03] chat that I want to right now. Like that. Like I really could follow that trend of,
[16:03 - 16:09] you know, being like, hey, I just want to be an asshole and fuck with people. And don't
[16:09 - 16:13] get me wrong, I've done it to some of my best friends on the internet, like hell, I've
[16:13 - 16:19] done it to Courtney, I've done it to fucking God, I've done it to a lot of people. Hell,
[16:19 - 16:25] I've done it to my friend, Bradley, I've done it to a lot of people that I'm good friends
[16:25 - 16:42] with. But there again, there's that very, very fine line of, you know, like going from
[16:42 - 16:48] being a troll to just straight out fucking with someone's life and bringing their personal
[16:48 - 16:57] life into it. Like, see, when I troll somebody, I don't bring their personal life into it.
[16:57 - 17:02] I leave it as is. If I'm going to mess with someone, I'm going to say like, mess with
[17:02 - 17:11] their looks or talk shit about one of their videos or, you know, you know, like make a
[17:11 - 17:16] comment on a comment that I've seen on their channel going at them. Like I'll do that
[17:16 - 17:23] kind of shit. Like I'll troll the fuck out of them on that shit. I can do that kind
[17:23 - 17:29] of shit all day long. But there's one thing I don't do, which is bring someone's personal
[17:29 - 17:36] life into it. Because once you bring someone's personal life into the mix, once you bring
[17:36 - 17:42] someone's personal life into the fucking mix of shit, that's when it goes from being
[17:42 - 17:59] a troll to being fucking personal. Yeah, green, what up, man? Not every troll that is actually
[17:59 - 18:07] very far from the truth. Not every troll is personal. Not every troll is personal. Hell,
[18:07 - 18:13] there's plenty of trolls like hell. Bloody Kiki, the biggest fucking troll on the wall.
[18:13 - 18:20] Bloody Kiki. When he goes to somebody like hell, take classic games Canada. Classic games
[18:20 - 18:26] Canada, one of the most well-known trolls on the fucking internet who makes videos about
[18:26 - 18:33] me all the time going at me. He doesn't make it personal. And when he does, it's in a
[18:33 - 18:43] joking manner. Bro, how have you not heard of bloody Kiki or classic games Canada? Dude,
[18:43 - 19:04] they're freaking hilarious. Well, like classic games Canada has done troll videos on me.
[19:04 - 19:16] You know, like classics done a ton of trolling videos on me, but the way he does it is how
[19:16 - 19:23] it should be. He doesn't do it in a demeaning manner. He does it to get some kicks and
[19:23 - 19:44] claps. Hell, how this video is making me fucking crack up laughing. Like for real, like the
[19:44 - 20:00] way classic does it, it's truly hilarious. Like it is truly hilarious to see the kinds
[20:00 - 20:24] of stuff that classic does. But to see people like just stoop so low.
[20:24 - 20:50] Just to want to ruin someone's life. It doesn't make any sense to me. Like it truly doesn't
[20:50 - 21:04] make any sense. Why do you think I did that spoken word song called dear bully? Why do
[21:04 - 21:12] you think I made that to ask? Like to try to get an answer to that question is so, you
[21:12 - 21:18] know, like, why do you guys do this to me? Why do you bully me? Why do you bully other
[21:18 - 21:27] people? Like what I really want to know is other than laughing at someone, what do you
[21:27 - 21:35] gain? Like what kind of gain is there to trolling someone? Like what do you gain from
[21:35 - 21:44] ruining someone's life? Like how is that any kind of satisfaction? Like it doesn't
[21:44 - 21:53] make any sense. Like, like I said, I can sure I can go out of my way. I control a million
[21:53 - 21:57] motherfuckers. I can sit there and be an asshole like everybody else and follow the
[21:57 - 22:06] sheep and follow the trend. But instead, I would rather use my God given talents and
[22:06 - 22:18] my gifts to help people and to provide a living for myself. But yet, when I go to
[22:18 - 22:27] do those things, I get shut down for no reason. And it doesn't it doesn't make any fucking
[22:27 - 22:38] sense to me. Like it really doesn't matter. In fact, there's one person that you know,
[22:38 - 23:03] you guys need to hear.
[23:03 - 23:27] Let's see if I can find the video out here. I can't remember the fucking name. So I literally
[23:27 - 23:55] have to scroll through and try to find it. Are you fucking serious? Did he really get
[23:55 - 24:24] rid of it? And I can't fucking find it. I'm not going to find it. I'm not going to find
[24:24 - 24:39] it. Alright, so there's another one that I will play. And this did I actually know personally
[24:39 - 25:07] and this did will speak a lot on that very subject. Hey, bro, I'm not checking out.
[25:07 - 25:25] You're gonna pay attention to this. Everyone is trying for a little bit of attention and
[25:25 - 25:30] artists and content creators suffer because we're now trapped in an algorithm where our
[25:30 - 25:34] content doesn't even show to the people who already fucking follow us. Because there
[25:34 - 25:40] are so many people battling to get a little bit of attention for absolutely nothing. And
[25:40 - 25:44] these people are actually getting paid. There are people who hop on the internet every day
[25:44 - 25:49] are not good at anything. But sit there and go, Hey, what's up, you guys feel free to
[25:49 - 25:54] follow my account, blah, blah, blah, and clickbait the living shit out of their videos. Just
[25:54 - 25:59] so people can watch it for a couple seconds. They can make ad revenue and get paid to
[25:59 - 26:04] feed their families, even though they're doing absolutely nothing. They just want attention.
[26:04 - 26:09] And all of our social sites are actually gravitating towards that type of content, that complete
[26:09 - 26:12] bullshit type of content where they're not good at anything. Our number one records
[26:12 - 26:17] in the country in the music industry are stemming from fucking viral memes. My last album cover
[26:17 - 26:26] was actually removed from the internet because it had a fucking gun on it. Fuck you. You
[26:26 - 26:32] know how many people use guns in the media? How many things are promoted with guns on
[26:32 - 26:37] Twitter? If you scroll and sure that you'll see porn, and that's making somebody money.
[26:37 - 26:40] But I had a fucking pistol. And that's not allowed to make me money. There's a certain
[26:40 - 26:44] type of censorship that's more real than you think it is. But I'm not even going to get
[26:44 - 26:48] into that. All of this shit is garbage. And I am fucking sick of it. Everyone always
[26:48 - 26:52] wants to have an opinion and share their feelings on things, but only when it caters
[26:52 - 26:57] to something that's already popping in the media, something that's already viral, because
[26:57 - 27:01] otherwise they don't want to say it because they won't get any attention. The last music
[27:01 - 27:06] video I did, the feature artist is my fucking personal friend in real life. And he didn't
[27:06 - 27:11] even want to promote the goddamn thing because he thought it was too controversial. Everyone
[27:11 - 27:18] is just openly being a pussy about everything. Everyone is so easily offended and easily
[27:18 - 27:23] triggered. Everyone's always going to have a contrasting opinion. That's what makes
[27:23 - 27:28] us all unique. That's what makes people able to exist. If you have an idea and I have
[27:28 - 27:34] an idea that are different ideas, and we work together to make one better idea, that's
[27:34 - 27:40] a win. That would never happen if everyone agreed all the time. We have to disagree
[27:40 - 27:46] to move forward. Can you even imagine how boring life would be if everyone agreed with
[27:46 - 27:51] everything all the time? Our entire society would look like a cupcake factory. You can
[27:51 - 27:57] bust your fucking ass spending hundreds of hours creating something and working on something.
[27:57 - 27:59] And when you put it on the internet, it's going to go all the way down to the bottom
[27:59 - 28:04] of the algorithm because you did not scream, "Hey, look at me, look at me, look at me,"
[28:04 - 28:09] with a fucking clickbait title that has nothing to do with the content that you fucking create.
[28:09 - 28:14] You know it's a humongous problem when you have an artist who's insanely talented at
[28:14 - 28:21] drawing pictures and their pictures they draw get 300 likes when a girl takes off
[28:21 - 28:26] her clothes and gets in a bikini and hops on the internet and gets like 400,000 likes
[28:26 - 28:32] for doing absolutely nothing. That girl now gets brand deals and starts to make money.
[28:32 - 28:36] That artist gets absolutely nothing and gets trapped in the algorithm because their last
[28:36 - 28:40] photo didn't get as many likes. People are congratulated for things that are not even
[28:40 - 28:45] accomplishments but people are shunned for doing things like starting their own business
[28:45 - 28:51] or creating their own content, designing their own things, selling their own merchandise.
[28:51 - 28:56] That kind of stuff is frowned upon because it's not already popping off. It's complete
[28:56 - 29:01] garbage. I'm sick of being trapped in the system. I want absolutely nothing to fucking
[29:01 - 29:09] do with this shit. This is how I make money so I attempt to do it every day. But it's
[29:09 - 29:17] driving me fucking crazy. I hate it. I absolutely hate social media. Get out of your house,
[29:17 - 29:22] do something in the real world, have fun, and fuck social media.
[29:22 - 29:33] He's not wrong, man. He's really not wrong at all, man. When you got somebody like me
[29:33 - 29:41] that starts their own business and actually does shit, like, dude, let me show you guys
[29:41 - 30:01] right quick. Just in case you guys didn't see these already. All of these are paintings
[30:01 - 30:11] that are ready to fucking go and be sold at a moment's fucking notice. Quite literally.
[30:11 - 30:31] A moment's fucking notice. Ready to fucking go. Like literally, dude, I have this stained
[30:31 - 30:41] glass piece. I have a creepy art piece that I did. Like, I have fucking, I have artwork
[30:41 - 30:56] out the fucking ass ready to fucking go. Like, look at this. I have artwork out the
[30:56 - 31:01] fucking ass that's literally actually falling on me right now. But I really have all this
[31:01 - 31:10] fucking artwork ready to fucking go. And yet, when I try to start my shit up and I try
[31:10 - 31:18] to make sales so I can provide to help my family, so I can make a living, so I can
[31:18 - 31:29] do shit. Like, I get shut down for no reason and it doesn't make any fucking sense. Like
[31:29 - 31:37] at all, it doesn't make any sense. Like, I'm only gonna say this once and I'm not feeding
[31:37 - 31:49] you trolls, I'm really not. But I am gonna say this shit right the fuck now that you
[31:49 - 31:55] trolls need to quit your bullshit of, you know, trying to stop people like me who are
[31:55 - 32:02] actually good at shit that they do from actually making a living. Because you said there you
[32:02 - 32:08] tell us that you want us to make a living off of how ever we make money, but yet when
[32:08 - 32:17] we make money, you rip that thing away from us that we use to make money. Like with me,
[32:17 - 32:34] it's my digital artwork, it's my paintings, my music, my writing, stuff like that. But
[32:34 - 32:40] yet when y'all start your own business, I don't go after you. Hell, you got to sit
[32:40 - 32:45] there and you make fucking merchandise with my face on it. I don't go after you. I let
[32:45 - 32:55] you do your thing. Do you know how many shops I've had that have had my face on it? Do you
[32:55 - 33:00] know how many people have made shops with my fucking face on the merch, trolling the
[33:00 - 33:07] living shit out of me? I didn't go after you then. So why would you go after me for
[33:07 - 33:13] simply opening up my own business, doing my own shop, creating my own stuff? Like it doesn't
[33:13 - 33:34] make any sense at all. Like it doesn't make any fucking sense.
[33:34 - 33:51] Yeah, that's not even the real Jasmine. I can already tell you that right now. Cause
[33:51 - 34:07] that Jasmine then left a while ago. But like for real though, like, you know, it makes
[34:07 - 34:14] no sense. You got people out here and this just doesn't apply to me. This applies to
[34:14 - 34:19] hundreds of other people, people that I know through, you know, DeviantArt, through, you
[34:19 - 34:25] know, other artists on YouTube that I'm good friends with that do artwork, that do music.
[34:25 - 34:32] You know, we suffer as a result of you guys trolling the living shit out of us and that's
[34:32 - 34:51] not cool. Here's my question to you, dog. You say I deserve it, but in return, don't
[34:51 - 34:55] you deserve the same shit in return? If you troll me, shouldn't I be allowed to do the
[34:55 - 35:16] same thing to you? Fair is fair after all. I mean, you say I deserve it, but yet ask
[35:16 - 35:36] yourself this. Do I really deserve it? I do. I really deserve it. Wow. Whatever. Yeah,
[35:36 - 35:54] there's the troll coming out. Bye troll. Go back underneath your bridge. Bye troll. Hmm.
[35:54 - 36:05] Yo, Henry, what's up? Oh, yeah, I have gotten trolled. Like it's a whole situation that
[36:05 - 36:10] if you go back and matter of fact, if you look back on my channel, you'll actually
[36:10 - 36:14] kind of put everything together. So all you really got to do is just go back and watch
[36:14 - 36:21] the live streams and whatnot. But this channel really, I kind of started this channel to,
[36:21 - 36:28] you know, really help others like myself, you know, who have been trolled, who have
[36:28 - 36:36] been picked on, who have been bullied, and so, you know, to show them that, you know,
[36:36 - 36:40] hey, you're not alone. Like I get that kind of crap all the time, every day. And it's
[36:40 - 36:49] not fun at all. Like I sit in here and I bust my ass hours on in, obviously creating
[36:49 - 36:55] all that artwork that y'all just seen. I got several other pieces ready to be fucking
[36:55 - 37:00] sold. Well, one, which I'm still working on, which I need to finish. I haven't touched
[37:00 - 37:11] on it in like three freaking weeks. Yo, David, what up, man? Oh, trust me, dude. I am, dude.
[37:11 - 37:16] I am. I'm just trying to understand their mindset. You see what I'm saying? Like, and
[37:16 - 37:21] that's why I started this year, because I want to understand the mindset. Like what
[37:21 - 37:29] goes through your three trolls minds when you do this? Like what's going through your
[37:29 - 37:35] minds when you just like randomly pick out somebody to attack? Like what goes through
[37:35 - 37:42] your mind? Like is it like just an impulsive thing of like, oh, I see this weird kid.
[37:42 - 37:50] I'm going to fuck with him just because. Or did that person actually do something
[37:50 - 37:56] that is so fucked up far beyond worse than what I went through to where they actually
[37:56 - 38:02] deserve it? Because last time I checked, I didn't deserve to get trolled into doing
[38:02 - 38:09] what I did. I didn't deserve to be called what I've been called. I didn't deserve
[38:09 - 38:17] any of that. Hell, before all this bullshit started, you know what I was doing? You know
[38:17 - 38:24] what I was doing before all this bullshit started? Shit like this. That's it. Doing
[38:24 - 38:40] artwork, doing 3D car photography. That's it. That's all I was doing. Yo, for sure
[38:40 - 38:49] fookin. I got you brother. No worries. Yo Ryan, what up buddy? Like literally, like
[38:49 - 38:58] you can ask anybody. That's all I've done. Like before all this whole crap started,
[38:58 - 39:11] by my granted, it brought me a lot of fame and brought me a lot of them to me. Don't
[39:11 - 39:16] get me wrong. Yeah, but that still doesn't make it right. You know what I mean? And
[39:16 - 39:25] in turn, that actually does lead into a very serious subject in which I am going to play
[39:25 - 39:32] a video on right now for you guys. Like that does lead into something very, very serious
[39:32 - 39:41] that not a lot of people think about, which is something that, you know, I've had to
[39:41 - 40:06] deal with. Something that I've actually gone through. Let's see if it'll let me play it.
[40:06 - 40:25] I feel don't realize that over time, all that bullying leads into stuff like this.
[40:25 - 40:32] I'm going to let you guys watch this because all that trolling and that bullying that leads
[40:32 - 40:41] to this shit right here. And that's why this song is very personal for me because I think
[40:41 - 40:53] at this point in my life, just a few months ago, I was at this point in my life. And honestly,
[40:53 - 41:04] I feel like everyone needs to see this video at least once.
[41:04 - 41:29] It's okay for you to hang me for all the things I've done. I've made a few mistakes,
[41:29 - 41:34] but I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch
[41:34 - 41:44] this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you
[41:44 - 41:49] guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going
[41:49 - 42:01] to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm
[42:01 - 42:13] not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because
[42:13 - 42:27] I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this
[42:27 - 42:38] because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys
[42:38 - 42:55] watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let
[42:55 - 43:14] you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not
[43:14 - 43:39] going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because
[43:39 - 44:54] I'm not going to let you guys watch this because I'm not going to let you guys watch this because
[44:54 - 45:11] a lot of this troll shit is what leads to that and that's what's so fucked up is that
[45:11 - 45:37] kind of shit leads to that like I can't even begin to tell you how many times in my life
[45:37 - 45:54] that I've been in that position and that's why I started this channel because I've been in that
[45:54 - 46:01] position. I've actually been on the edge of suicide and have attempted it and survived it
[46:01 - 46:09] many times over so trust me I say it's not an easy place to be in it's really not and honestly
[46:09 - 46:17] I know that video is hard to watch trust me I know the first time I watched it I broke down
[46:17 - 46:25] I legitimately broke down in tears because I finally felt like somebody actually understood
[46:27 - 46:35] what in the fuck I was being put through and honestly the more I watched it the more I realized
[46:35 - 46:43] like why is nobody watching this like I feel like if there were more people out there like
[46:43 - 46:51] these guys and people like me that actually stand against this crap the the world would be a much
[46:51 - 46:59] better place like I truly feel like we could clean up this platform if we fucking wanted to
[46:59 - 47:06] but instead we'd rather focus on bullying people and making others feel like shit
[47:06 - 47:12] rather than you know sticking up for them and helping them out and being like hey
[47:13 - 47:22] who the hell is bullying you who's fucking with you but instead we'd rather you know subscribe
[47:22 - 47:32] to that kind of bullshit that honestly pisses me the fuck off like I said I know I look weird
[47:32 - 47:38] I know I look different from the norm I get that okay I've been bullying my whole life
[47:39 - 47:43] oh yeah I'll just say that right now I've been bullying my whole life because of how I look
[47:43 - 47:49] because I'm 30 years old and I'm only five foot three I look different from the norm I get it
[47:49 - 47:53] but at the same time I'm a lot more
[47:53 - 48:07] awake if you will like I'm a lot more aware and awake uh to certain situations like bullying on
[48:07 - 48:16] the internet and I see what actually is going on and it's it's not okay and it needs to fucking
[48:16 - 48:24] stop and that's why I write the songs that I write to show people who are going through some shit
[48:24 - 48:27] who are being bullied that they're not alone
[48:34 - 48:39] a matter of fact let me do one for you guys right away this is an older song line but
[48:39 - 49:01] it's definitely one it's definitely one that a lot of the older fans will actually know
[49:02 - 49:04] so
[49:04 - 49:08] see if it's in this batch here hopefully it is
[49:08 - 49:20] all right now I know it's in this batch I just gotta fucking find it
[49:23 - 49:32] yeah right here
[49:32 - 50:04] oh
[50:04 - 50:19] I'm so sick of waking up every single day seeing all this negativity everybody judging me
[50:19 - 50:25] David chasing me running behind me man I got to find a way out I gotta escape gotta get away from
[50:25 - 50:31] all this bullshit that I'm facing every day god I don't understand it what did I do to have to
[50:31 - 50:38] face all this negativity that you put me through I don't understand why is it that everybody
[50:38 - 50:45] always got to attack me on the fucking day what did I do to deserve this god I'm trying to do is
[50:45 - 50:51] help people like me every fucking day because I know damn well that there's someone not to like
[50:51 - 50:57] me that maybe only then I gotta find him gotta help him down put him back through the darkness
[50:57 - 51:25] just like I'm too old
[51:26 - 51:28] I'm just trying to get out of the light
[51:28 - 51:39] David won't you let me in I'm so sick of crying then my wings off burning hands and falling
[51:39 - 51:44] I'm constantly feeling like I'm fucking dying every day I got these demons running through my
[51:44 - 51:49] head half the time they tell me to take that pill take the gun pull the trigger put it to my
[51:49 - 51:55] motherfucking head let the fucking bullet go into my cranny only maybe then I won't have
[51:55 - 52:00] to face this world alone anyone I'm so sick of feeling all alone in the motherfucking dark
[52:00 - 52:07] everybody always checking me like they suck motherfuckers my goddamn this isn't right what
[52:07 - 52:13] am I able to do to deserve this kind of pain in my life all I try to do is stay on the right track
[52:13 - 52:20] pick up all my family and my fucking friends so I ain't gotta look back on a negative life
[52:20 - 52:37] and then I just kind of loops in from that but this one right here
[52:37 - 52:44] this right here I really think I think you'll change your tune after you hear this one
[52:45 - 52:50] I really do because this one right here really speaks on everything as a whole
[52:50 - 52:58] people will tell you why don't you go get some help take some meds
[52:58 - 53:04] go see a counselor they can help you with your problems
[53:06 - 53:16] some people you never understand lately I've been distant from the world in a quiet place
[53:16 - 53:21] this I can love you why differently I can't embrace through all the hurt and all the pain
[53:21 - 53:25] can you feel my rage throwing up with bullets that consider me in best case but these are
[53:25 - 53:30] changed the past is done it's over with why I keep on throwing none of all my thoughts with
[53:30 - 53:36] cancerous while my bitch ran after the eye gawking he's answerless why must I recognize an over-less
[53:36 - 53:41] relationship maybe I'm a girl take the shot of cnw boy you can hear my song grow no reason I
[53:41 - 53:46] can never settle I'm coming from the struggle I can promise staying on my line so look for the
[53:46 - 53:52] trouble doctor I'm a fucking clue if my thoughts can really kill best believe I will be dead I am
[53:52 - 53:57] out here saving lives here and sometimes I forget that my demons can't complain barely hanging by a
[53:57 - 54:02] grip maybe I should pull this trigger and just lay my mind to rest yeah I've lost in the music
[54:02 - 54:09] this is their beauty barely hanging on I don't know if I can do this but I rise while I fall
[54:09 - 54:17] while I rise while I fall I don't know anymore look at my reflection ain't no reason to leave me
[54:17 - 54:24] we said I was dreaming well I rise while I fall while I rise while I fall I don't know anymore
[54:26 - 54:31] I know you like be glamorous I can see it in your eyes you can't even stain yourself
[54:31 - 54:36] you've had something you saw you going around my little tosser turning every night the band and
[54:36 - 54:41] if it ever helps you quit the party quit the drugs quit the reefer and now you think it's
[54:41 - 54:45] problem solved because you change the people you wake up miserable it's clear you feed enough for
[54:45 - 54:50] evil to put in tonight and I can promise you'll be always peaceful pull it by my family I can't
[54:50 - 54:56] leave them in a disarray give it time and then we won't forget about you anyway put it by my fans
[54:56 - 55:01] and the impact I have made on them find another source do not worry they will love them and
[55:01 - 55:06] it's better if you go do not act like you have any friends have been thrown in places that way you
[55:06 - 55:10] take my hand and twist it and louder you can't find them best to sign you will join me on the
[55:10 - 55:24] back inside through the tree into hell lost in the music this is their building barely hanging on I don't know if I can do this well I rise while I fall while I rise while I fall I don't know anymore
[55:24 - 55:31] look at my reflection ain't no versus demon wish that I was dreaming
[55:31 - 55:36] well I rise while I fall while I rise while I fall I don't know anymore
[55:38 - 55:46] I feel like giving up though some things I can't explain now I feel like giving up though
[55:47 - 56:14] some things I can't explain now there's that one and then there's this one right here which
[56:14 - 56:18] I think a lot of y'all can definitely relate this I've done this one
[56:18 - 56:28] so much but it's very very fucking real like when you listen to the song and you break this
[56:28 - 56:37] shit the fuck down like it's very fucking real and it talks a lot about you know well people
[56:37 - 56:45] like myself go through essentially when we go through this bullshit
[56:45 - 56:52] hello thomas I see that you're depressed what's the problem is that the skeletons you're hiding
[56:52 - 56:56] deep inside your closet have you been reading all the names they call you in the comments
[56:56 - 57:01] have you been worried your haters will put you in the coffin are you distraught that you
[57:01 - 57:06] promised life though was not an option now you had the thoughts of doing shots now you're an alcoholic
[57:06 - 57:11] it's not true you're upset that you can't have booze what's the matter thomas something's got
[57:11 - 57:16] you in a bad mood yeah it does don't hate you it's nothing comes me down but I can't even relax
[57:16 - 57:23] cuz the internet will laugh at us I just need a beer to put me here to I thought you disappeared
[57:23 - 57:33] I can't believe I'm still here with you
[57:33 - 57:37] I'm not gonna tell you once you really need to be my friend
[57:37 - 57:41] no I'm not getting along with the drug this comes with the water it's coming to vultures
[57:41 - 57:44] I'm not giving you bills with the pressure I'm never giving you vultures
[57:44 - 57:48] stop let me remind you I'm independent because I'm the guy who does anything to help me move
[57:48 - 57:51] by you're gonna bring me to the level sign you you all came to the level sometimes when
[57:51 - 57:54] you thought it's not right nobody finds me I'm not the one who doesn't know this if you
[57:54 - 58:00] deny it so I'll be embraced as long as the sky's blue fire come on thomas keep it real
[58:00 - 58:06] don't lie and I'ma tell you exactly how I feel I'm the best forever ever I don't wanna be great
[58:06 - 58:11] if they're the best then I'm better don't you make no mistake cuz I'm the go get it in my bones
[58:11 - 58:16] I'm the number goest I'm the one that pulls the sun out of the snow I'm the best ever I'm the
[58:16 - 58:22] best forever ever I don't care what to say I'm the busy I'm forever I'm the side with the flame
[58:22 - 58:27] cuz I'm the go get the get it going everybody knows only one is that I'm here and I'm all
[58:27 - 58:34] best here Thomas I'm still here I practically smell the finger I know all the reasons why you
[58:34 - 58:40] feel so insecure I've seen you panic backstage here in everybody's house Thomas tell me what's
[58:40 - 58:45] with all the tears shut up regret that your face is covered with tat too much mad that your
[58:45 - 58:51] beats whack all your raps trash too that you resented you need man's again neglected friends
[58:51 - 58:56] and now you just pretend you're not pathetic you're not happy now yeah it's one of those days don't
[58:56 - 59:00] know why I don't feel okay those don't have to focus on pain go to my mind alone in my brain
[59:00 - 59:05] don't go home from all of those things play those hoes low for my brain they tell me it's not the
[59:05 - 59:10] roses but I'll burn them all bouquet I will never win the fight against your haters as long as I
[59:10 - 59:16] listen cuz I read every single comment that you try missing then recite them in your mind and
[59:16 - 59:21] memorize this I'm a giant Thomas why you try to fight with me I'm different don't care about
[59:21 - 59:49] the height difference that track right there speaks
[59:51 - 59:53] so many fucking volumes like
[59:53 - 60:02] when people like myself get put in those situations that's basically what goes on in
[60:02 - 60:09] our heads like that's basically what goes on in our heads every fucking time and every day and
[60:09 - 60:17] night like we read these comments and then we started battling with ourselves and it's it's
[60:17 - 60:25] honestly scary and a lot of that battling ultimately is what ends up you know people
[60:25 - 60:31] like myself ending their lives that's why I'm saying man this troll shit needs to stop
[60:31 - 60:41] like cuz that trolling leads to bullying and now bullying leads to that person being fucking
[60:41 - 60:48] depressed which then in turn either ends them up in the fucking psych ward or in the fucking morgue
[60:48 - 60:50] and in a fucking graveyard
[60:50 - 60:59] like it's dumb it's not needed
[61:09 - 61:15] matter of fact let me give you guys a little bit of an insight on how my life was growing up so
[61:15 - 61:21] that maybe you guys can understand me a little bit better um this song I'm actually about to do
[61:21 - 61:28] is legitimately a story that's actually about my life it's actually the anthem to my life
[61:28 - 61:36] to my real life it is actually my anthem done by my good friend nk47 who's a music artist as well
[61:37 - 61:42] um he actually took my life and wrote it and put it into a song for me and
[61:42 - 61:51] you guys will get the gist of it because this is actually about my life
[61:51 - 61:54] is my pen and
[61:54 - 61:56] is that right?
[61:56 - 61:58] that's what it is
[61:59 - 62:01] here we go
[62:01 - 65:53] [Music]
[65:53 - 66:21] fucking chills. Every time I fucking hear that, I get fucking chills, dude. Because that shit is so real for me because a lot of people that are new to the channel, if you are new to the channel, like a lot of you might not realize this, but when I was born, I was born premature. I was born one pound, one pound, 10 ounces with one kidney and one very severely underdeveloped lung and was not supposed to live.
[66:22 - 66:26] The doctor had actually given me 24 hours to live.
[66:26 - 66:45] And thankfully, my mom's, you know, who was my grandmother at the time, because both of my biological parents couldn't take care of me, because my biological father went to prison the day I was born, and my biological mother had so much wrong with her mentally that she couldn't.
[66:46 - 66:56] So my grandmother adopted me making her my mom. And if she hadn't done that and gone against what the doctors had said, I wouldn't be here.
[66:57 - 67:16] I had to sit in an incubator for six months, because my skin was so translucent and so fragile that literally just the slightest touch, like literally like you know how you pay your account like a dog, just this right here how I'm barely touching it would make my skin tear.
[67:17 - 67:33] I had to go through that for six months to my skin would toughen up. And then I had to be put on a fucking oxygen tank for another five years after that so I was five years old I had to be on an oxygen tank.
[67:34 - 67:50] So that song very much reflects my real life and that's why that song is so important to me. And why that song, you know, like I say is basically, you know, the album to my life and that's ultimately why I am the way that I am.
[67:50 - 68:00] Like that's actually why I am the way that I am, you know, that's why I'm only five that's why I'm 30 years old and only five foot three.
[68:01 - 68:06] That's why I look the way that I look. That's why I look different from everyone else.
[68:06 - 68:23] And that's why, like, when people think, you know, like somebody facing death every day they think like, you know your typical person, you know your typical person faces death every day.
[68:24 - 68:31] That's it to a certain degree, but I've literally been facing death since I was born.
[68:31 - 68:45] Every day I've been facing death since the day I was born and it's not easy but you know what, I don't let that shit stop me that's why that's why I make this show and that's why I try to understand the bullshit.
[68:46 - 68:57] Against crap that goes on. That's why I try to stand up against bullying and, you know, and that's why I started my own brand on here to help people.
[68:57 - 69:12] And that's, you know, doing this and doing my artwork and, you know, getting sponsors for, you know, my gaming and stuff like that's what I want to do with my life like I want to make money doing my music and my artwork and my gaming.
[69:13 - 69:21] But when you get bullied and you have your living ripped away from you, how are you supposed to do that.
[69:21 - 69:38] And that's what I'm getting at is like, like, what's the point in ripping someone's livelihood away because you don't know what they went through.
[69:39 - 69:45] You don't know what the next man has been through. Hell, I've been battling death my whole fucking life.
[69:45 - 70:01] And then when me and my family moved here 10 years ago, we were homeless living out in the back of my mom's car, you know, and I want to be able to give back to my family that gave everything to me.
[70:04 - 70:11] You know, like I want to be able to give back to, you know, my family that gave everything to me.
[70:11 - 70:32] And, you know, and that's why I do caretaking for them. You know, I'm a part time caretaker. I get to pay 20 bucks a day, which unfortunately is going to stop in August for a while due to the fact of going into surgery.
[70:33 - 70:43] But, you know, when people think that I'm on here, e-bagging, but I'm really not.
[70:43 - 70:53] If anything, I'm trying to I'm trying to get my business for my artwork and my music and the shit I'm actually good with off the ground.
[70:56 - 71:07] But it's kind of hard to do when you constantly got, you know, all these trolls with their eyes on you being like, oh, let's let's see what he posts. Let's fuck with this dude.
[71:07 - 71:14] Let's fuck all his stuff up. Let's make him suffer. Yada, yada, yada. Like, why do you think I haven't made a new shop yet?
[71:14 - 71:23] Because I'm afraid of what Kate and her little fucking friends are going to do if I get it up and running. I already know what they're going to do.
[71:24 - 71:32] They're going to come in. They're going to report it and have it shut down for no fucking reason, which means I have said that I restart everything.
[71:32 - 71:49] And it sucks if fucking absolutely sucks. Like Matt said, people like myself who start their own business are frowned upon.
[71:51 - 71:57] Because right now, being a troll is what's popping off right now. Being a troll is what's popular.
[71:57 - 72:05] And it's sad, like.
[72:05 - 72:16] It's honestly sad to see, you know, social media gravitate towards that bullshit trash.
[72:17 - 72:28] Like, literally, one of my best friends that I grew up with is a fucking digital artist. She does some of the best fucking digital artwork I've ever seen in my fucking life.
[72:28 - 72:42] Like, literally, this girl could literally make millions. But yet, she gets put through the same shit through DeviantArt. There are people on there that will fuck with you.
[72:43 - 72:55] Most of them don't. Most of them are usually very cool about shit. Most people are very cool about stuff. I've got a DeviantArt, which I need to kind of log back into because I posted on there like eight months.
[72:55 - 73:09] But like, I've got this is what I've been saying for the longest time. I've got all this stuff that I can do, but nowhere to run with it.
[73:10 - 73:18] Like, I go to self publish a 3D car photography book. Can't do that. It'll get shut down by everyone.
[73:18 - 73:24] I can't get a regular job because of the bad fucking rep that bitch gave me.
[73:27 - 73:48] I can't open up my own shop like I want to do. I can't do certain things that, you know, I used to do, which is why I feel like this crap needs to be stopped because when you have so much talent and you know for a fact you can make a legitimate living of what you do,
[73:49 - 74:04] it kind of sucks when you're kind of being constricted and you're not able to, you know, tell people like, hey, I have a new shop out or hey, go check on my Etsy or hey, go check on my brand new clothing line.
[74:05 - 74:19] I can't do those things because the minute that I do 24 hours, my show will be shut down and it sucks because I'm essentially being made.
[74:19 - 74:32] Not only a victim, but I'm basically being held hostage. My talents are basically being robbed away from me.
[74:33 - 74:39] My livelihood is basically being robbed away from me and it sucks.
[74:39 - 74:47] And I know there's a lot of other YouTubers out there that have gone through that. There's other people on social media in general who have gone through that.
[74:49 - 75:03] And that's why I'm here to tell y'all trolls right now, like, instead of bashing on someone and going after them, like, if they've done something very, very, very fucked up
[75:03 - 75:15] and like, it's, you know, an unforgivable thing, like, if they've done something way worse than what I've done, then yeah, by all means, they probably deserve it.
[75:16 - 75:27] But if it's someone like me who got trolled into some shit and is now suffering, don't go after them because they've already got a hard enough time.
[75:27 - 75:41] They don't need any more bullshit. So to all y'all trolls out there, man, dude, give these people a fucking break. They don't need that shit. Just give them a fucking break.
[75:42 - 75:50] No one deserves to, you know, have their livelihood fucked with. Sure, yeah, their head and their emotions, fine, whatever.
[75:50 - 76:07] But when you start to fuck with their livelihood, that's not cool. It's really not. It's not cool. It's not cute. And quite honestly, it's immature as fuck. It really is. It's immature as hell when you do that shit.
[76:08 - 76:22] So before you go trolling somebody or attacking somebody, play yourself in their position and really dig into them and see like, hey, does this person really deserve this?
[76:22 - 76:29] Like, does this person really deserve to be trolled or are they already going through a hard enough time?
[76:32 - 76:42] Because for me, the last six years for me have been very hard because in 2015, I lost my older brother to cancer.
[76:42 - 76:55] Then I lost my best friend Zach in 2016 to, you know, a murder in his family's pizza shop. He got killed in his family's pizza shop. It was all over the news.
[76:56 - 77:08] And then in 2017, I lost my fucking childhood hero, who was an inspiration of music wise Chester from Lincoln Park. The whole world lost an amazing vocalist that day.
[77:16 - 77:35] And then just last year, I lost my ex-girlfriend who was supposed to be my fiance to, you know, major health problems. And then this year, I lose my fucking son to the system because of a bitch of an ex who didn't tell me she was pregnant with my kid.
[77:36 - 77:50] So you tell me if I've had a hard enough time. You tell me if I'm not going through some hard shit. It's been four years since my best friend died and it's still hard.
[77:53 - 78:06] It's been a year since I lost my girlfriend and that's been tough as fuck. And then this year, I find out that I have a son who I'll never get to see.
[78:07 - 78:25] So you tell me if I'm not going through a hard enough time.
[78:26 - 78:48] Like, you know, and that's what I'm getting at. Like, a lot of you people that are trolls, you guys don't understand what's on the other side of that screen because on the other side of that screen is a very real fucking person who's actually going through some shit.
[78:49 - 79:01] Some real fucking live shit and you attacking them doesn't make it any better. That doesn't make it any better.
[79:04 - 79:19] I held the only freaking photo I got of my son is this fucking ultrasound. That's the only photo I have of my son is his ultrasound photo, which is why I put him on the cover to show him what she means to me.
[79:20 - 79:38] And does it suck? Yes. It really does. It hurts to know that I'm a dad and then I'll never be able to get to see my son grow up. That fucking hurts a lot because I know what it's like to not have my dad around.
[79:39 - 80:02] He was never around. Okay, am I adopted that military always on base always doing shit was never really there at all like I don't blame him for his job, but like he was there but he wasn't there like he was there at home but like he never gave a shit about me.
[80:03 - 80:21] He wasn't really there in the sense of, you know, me having that father figure in my life. You want to know who my father figure was in my life. My fucking teacher Mr. Smith, who to this very day I'm still very good friends with.
[80:21 - 80:30] That was my fucking father figure in my life was my teacher.
[80:31 - 80:37] So I'm gonna get adopted to a family and not know me, it hurts.
[80:37 - 80:48] So I guess then before you chose go and attack somebody like me again. Think about their real fucking life and what they got put through.
[80:48 - 80:56] Think about their real fucking life and how that affects them.
[80:57 - 81:05] No, that one thing that you do can put that person over the edge. That one thing that you fucking do.
[81:05 - 81:09] Maybe the thing that kills them.
[81:09 - 81:20] Maybe the one thing that sends them over the edge to want to end their life. And when they do, where will that leave you.
[81:21 - 81:28] And the families are gonna look into. They're gonna look into you guys, the trolls.
[81:28 - 81:39] Damn fucking ghetto.
[81:46 - 81:54] Why do you think I wrote that song for my son? Why do you think I posted that song for my son on this channel?
[81:54 - 82:08] Because I want him to know that when he gets older that I did try and that I do love him and I do care.
[82:09 - 82:19] Which is why I'm working so hard.
[82:19 - 82:25] Like I want to be able to get to the point to where I can make money doing what I love.
[82:25 - 82:35] And you know if I ever do have another kid, hopefully this one won't get taken away from me by a bitch of an ex.
[82:36 - 82:40] But you know I want to be able to sit there and say hey.
[82:40 - 82:48] Like you know if my kid wants to move in when he's 18, by all means, please do.
[82:48 - 82:57] Or if my kid wants to move in when he's 15, 16, by all means go for it, move in. I have no problem with that.
[82:57 - 83:04] Because by then I'll actually be able to you know have a good paying job doing what I love.
[83:05 - 83:15] Exactly and as a matter of fact, six seconds did speak on that.
[83:15 - 83:24] You know six did speak on Etika and that was a very sad day when that happened because Etika was a fucking boss on the mic.
[83:24 - 83:28] Not even gonna lie bro, Etika was a fucking beast.
[83:32 - 83:37] Him and Six had actually collabed like I think it was like a month before that on some shit.
[83:37 - 83:47] I think they had done, I think Etika was in the 2012 Pokemon Cypher I believe.
[83:47 - 83:56] It was either the 2012 or the 2014 Pokemon Cypher. He was in one of them, I forget which.
[83:57 - 84:14] Yeah, I know he did do gaming but he also did a little music. That's something that not a lot of people know is that he did a little bit of music on the side as well.
[84:14 - 84:22] It wasn't too much but it was still there. But his gameplay definitely good dude, definitely solid.
[84:23 - 84:40] But the point being though man, you know y'all trolls you need to quit for real. You guys just need to stop what you're doing.
[84:40 - 84:46] Because like I said you never know what the next man is going through.
[84:47 - 84:59] And to those of you that are wondering what am I going to be doing with my life? Well those photos I'm taking on horizon 4 aren't just for books, they're not just for content.
[84:59 - 85:06] Those photos are actually going to be featured in a book that I'm self publishing for 3D car photography.
[85:09 - 85:24] Which I'm slowly, oh pardon me, which I'm slowly working on. I still don't have enough yet I gotta have like I think instead of like 200, like 200 something photos which that'll be easy for me to do.
[85:24 - 85:32] Because in a day I get about 13, 14 photos a day, fam done.
[85:36 - 85:46] But I am going to be working on you know doing a book of 3D car photography and self publishing it and what not.
[85:46 - 85:55] So I am working on that. It's very slow but it's getting there. But in the meantime until that books done I am going to be focusing on.
[85:55 - 86:05] When am I going live with my racing? I'm actually going to be going live on my other channel literally here in a little bit.
[86:06 - 86:13] Now that I don't know if you have the link or not dude but I will actually send you the.
[86:13 - 86:28] I'll actually send you the link to my latest video so you can go over there and you can check it out.
[86:33 - 86:39] There's literally the latest video of the car wrap packs that I've gotten them.
[86:39 - 86:47] Now also on the channel if you guys do want a custom wrap while I'm thinking about this.
[86:47 - 86:58] If you guys would like a custom wrap done just go to the about on my channel all the information will be there just follow the instructions.
[86:59 - 87:04] And then send it you know with all the with the template filled out.
[87:04 - 87:14] And then from there we'll figure shit out. I would like eventually to be able to like get paid to do it so hopefully that can be a thing.
[87:14 - 87:20] You know where I can get paid to make dope wraps for people on horizon floor and get really cool photos.
[87:21 - 87:30] You know I get some really cool wraps done do some dope ass photos and whatnot so hopefully you know payment method could be implemented sometime in the near future.
[87:30 - 87:39] But right now I'm just focusing on getting that channel up and going creating content on there and whatnot.
[87:39 - 87:41] So there is that.
[87:46 - 87:51] But be sure to check out the latest video right there in the chat.
[87:54 - 88:06] Which will lead you guys directly to my channel so I will be checking my email starting tomorrow if you guys fill out the template just you know like I said send it to my email because I am going to check it.
[88:06 - 88:15] I am going to check my email every day to see if you guys filled out the templates with all your stuff.
[88:15 - 88:21] And yeah I am going to give you guys a sneak peek at something right quick though.
[88:22 - 88:27] I am going to give you guys a sneak peek of one of my latest rounds that I did last night.
[88:27 - 88:34] Which is quite honestly one of my personal favorite rounds that I've done.
[88:34 - 88:49] Ironically it's actually a 350z which is kind of crazy because normally I don't do 350z rock and money kids but this one just looks so fucking dope that I was like yo I can't pass this up.
[88:50 - 89:04] And that's a few spots I'll have to fix that.
[89:11 - 89:20] Let me go here and let me show you guys this dope ass route that I got here. But first I'm going to fix the goddamn aperture on this thing. Holy shit.
[89:39 - 89:46] I'm coming for the proper one so you guys can actually get it good. Holy shit.
[89:46 - 90:04] There we go. My latest rap right there man.
[90:05 - 90:13] Alright you guys can't tell me that ain't sick.
[90:13 - 90:26] You have formula drift, you got amp energy, you got monster on the back, monster right there, toilet tires, engine technology, Miku, my last name.
[90:27 - 90:36] This is actually a drift comp car.
[90:37 - 91:01] Oh yeah I almost forgot. You got K-tuned right there, Hoonigan right there, and then obviously the LCW customs right there. So yeah, it's going to be fire.
[91:06 - 91:14] Now let's take this thing for a quick rip. This thing you guys can get an idea on how mean this thing sounds.
[91:15 - 92:04] (drilling)
[92:05 - 92:26] This is an early look at my 350z. Right, it really does man. It definitely does take a while depending on what kind of rap you want to go for.
[92:26 - 92:32] It can take a while, that one right there took me like three fucking hours to do the whole thing.
[92:33 - 92:42] Now I do have some classic legend cars in here like Paul Walker's Eclipse from Fast and Furious. I have all the main character cars.
[92:42 - 92:47] I have a Daft Punk one that I did which is one of my personal favorites.
[92:47 - 92:54] Which I don't think I showed you guys but if you guys go watch the video go check it out. I'm not going to spoil that one for you.
[92:55 - 93:03] But with that being said guys, I actually am about to bounce off here because I am going to go stream on my other channel and get some early content knocked out.
[93:03 - 93:08] So Phookinburger, anybody that wants to hop on over there and check out the content.
[93:08 - 93:14] Head on over to the link right there that I posted in the chat. I'll see you guys over there.
[93:14 - 93:19] Dude, initial D's this shit.
[93:19 - 93:29] Nice, very nice.
[93:29 - 93:37] Now I do have a BMW M6 Coupe that I am going to do some stuff on.
[93:37 - 93:45] If there are any cars in game that you guys would like me to tune and do some raps on.
[93:46 - 93:50] So with that being said, the templates on my channel, go to the about section.
[93:50 - 93:54] It will be there. Just fill it out, email it to me.
[93:54 - 94:00] And then I'll go from there and place your order and then I'll email you back with your final product.
[94:00 - 94:03] So with that being said, y'all I'm about to bounce.
[94:03 - 94:09] I've actually got a few initial D cars. This is my spare account.
[94:10 - 94:16] On my main one I do have the 86 Chewaino. I do have Takumi's 86.
[94:16 - 94:24] Which I fucking absolutely love that car. It's one of my favorites to run.
[94:24 - 94:31] Now I do have one that I am going to let you guys in on.
[94:31 - 94:37] Even though I should make you wait, I want you guys to see this beautiful, beautiful custom color coded.
[94:38 - 94:46] Um, this is a very beautiful custom, custom colored AMG.
[94:46 - 94:49] Oh damn.
[94:49 - 94:59] Now this thing is raised to him, by the way.
[94:59 - 95:03] I'm going to get out here in the summer so y'all can see it.
[95:03 - 95:10] Let's park it right over here in the grounds.
[95:10 - 95:20] But this is my custom, um, AMG, Mercedes Benz AMG, I should say.
[95:20 - 95:26] Got the custom color car wrap.
[95:26 - 95:31] Looking super clean. Alright, let me go to a more suitable spot.
[95:32 - 95:35] Where there's plenty of light.
[95:56 - 96:02] Let's say there's an off road right here.
[96:02 - 96:22] Perfect.
[96:22 - 96:43] Okay, you can't tell me that that beautiful, you can't tell me that AMG ain't sick.
[96:43 - 97:01] And seriously, look at that. And that's all custom done.
[97:02 - 97:12] That's all custom coded. Like the yellow isn't a normal yellow, there's