2021-6-30 dear Bully spoken word Poem

[0:00 - 0:13] [music]
[0:13 - 0:20] Dear Boi, I'm writing you this letter because I want to understand something.
[0:20 - 0:28] I want to understand why you chose me and of everybody in the world, why me?
[0:28 - 0:38] You sit there and victimize me, bully me, troll me, attack me, and then turn the blame back around on me.
[0:38 - 0:41] It's not fair, you see.
[0:41 - 0:50] This old person that you made me out to be, where I was constantly making death threats on the daily, you made me that way.
[0:50 - 0:55] That person that I was was the person you made me to be.
[0:55 - 1:03] And yet you want to turn around and attack my friends and family for your transgressions that you make against me.
[1:03 - 1:16] I admit, I did wrong things in my life. What I did wasn't right, but I can tell you this right now I'm not giving up the fight.
[1:16 - 1:25] Every day I wake up wondering what's next to come for me.
[1:25 - 1:31] Every day I wake up angry, depressed, mad at the world.
[1:31 - 1:39] Because I know deep down this angry person that you made me be is not who I'm supposed to be.
[1:39 - 1:43] But yet you want to make me that way.
[1:43 - 1:52] You make fun of me through Facebook, on social media, on the daily, even make memes of me.
[1:52 - 2:05] You want to sit there and bully me and make me out to be the bully, but really you're the ones that victimize me.
[2:05 - 2:10] So I don't understand why is it that you can't just let me be me?
[2:10 - 2:15] Why is it that you gotta victimize me?
[2:15 - 2:21] Why is it that you gotta attack me and bully me for my past transgressions?
[2:21 - 2:29] But yet your transgressions are worse than my own.
[2:29 - 2:34] I just don't understand why you can't leave me alone.
[2:34 - 2:46] It's like you don't want me to live in peace because you want somebody to bully, you want someone to point fingers at on the daily.
[2:46 - 2:53] Well I'm done getting pointed at, and I'm done getting laughed at, and I'm done being the victim that you made me out to be.
[2:53 - 3:05] Because of you, I've lost so many friends that are close to me, people that I've known for years.
[3:05 - 3:17] And it hurts me so badly, so let me make this clear, I'm tired of being your victim.
[3:17 - 3:29] I'm tired of this hatred hitting like a thousand drones in my head every day. I wish you got it would just all go away.
[3:29 - 3:41] I'm tired of waking up with an empty heart, an empty soul. I'm tired of being torn apart by the hatred, and the words that you say, they affect me in every way.
[3:41 - 3:48] They break me down and destroy me every day. I try to fight them and fight them, but I can't.
[3:48 - 3:57] It's like I'm being beaten down every day for who I am.
[3:57 - 4:02] So God if you're in this, I need your help.
[4:02 - 4:09] I don't want to be in this negative life. This isn't who I was supposed to be.
[4:09 - 4:19] Because I know what God made me to be. He made me to be a strong willed person, a kind person.
[4:19 - 4:29] Something that you will never be. So again I ask my bully, I write you this letter. Why me?