2021-6-28 taking my life back for good

[0:00 - 0:24] What have y'all, I'm not gonna try to not be you know too terribly long but there is
[0:24 - 0:37] something that needs to be brought up. You see over the last few years I've noticed
[0:37 - 0:44] a lot of shit going on. Well actually not just the last few months over the last few
[0:44 - 0:59] years when I lost my good friend Jamie in 2020. I noticed something that I'm not okay
[0:59 - 1:11] with. From the jump I got brought into this war that I never wanted to be part of. It's
[1:11 - 1:17] like everybody's fighting with everybody and I'm stuck in the fucking middle of it.
[1:17 - 1:24] Like I'm honestly tired of being told who to trust, who not to trust. Don't trust this
[1:24 - 1:30] person, don't trust that person. Oh trust this guy, no don't trust this person. I'm
[1:30 - 1:41] tired of it. YouTube is not a battleground people, or at least it didn't used to be.
[1:41 - 1:49] Let me tell you when I first came up in YouTube, it was never like this. People used to create
[1:49 - 1:59] content and not get bullied. And now all of a sudden you do one wrong thing, you're
[1:59 - 2:04] in the middle of a fucking war zone and nobody wants anything to do with you but then you're
[2:04 - 2:13] also being told who to trust and who not to trust. I'm sick of it man. Like I want
[2:13 - 2:19] my life back. The life I had when I first started YouTube that's the life that I want
[2:19 - 2:27] back. I don't want to be part of this fucking war. I never asked to be part of this fucking
[2:27 - 2:36] war. I don't want to fight all the time. I don't want to have to defend my content
[2:36 - 2:45] all the time. I don't want to have to be like yo I'm afraid to put out content, here's
[2:45 - 2:58] why. I'm tired of it man. Like I'm tired of having to upload content and then have
[2:58 - 3:09] to defend it a week later. Like that's not fair to me. Like you guys say that you want
[3:09 - 3:19] to be successful but yet you do things to hold me back from it. By taking away my jobs.
[3:19 - 3:28] Taking away opportunities. Costing me opportunities. Costing me jobs. Things that I can make real
[3:28 - 3:35] money with that you guys won't give me the chance to fucking do. All because of one
[3:35 - 3:44] mistake that I made, that I repented for, that I made up for, that I wrote the wrong
[3:44 - 3:56] of. I made one mistake that I do regret, that I do dearly regret and that I faced the consequence
[3:56 - 4:04] for. Yes they may not have been the consequences that you guys wanted but I still got consequences
[4:04 - 4:11] nonetheless and that should be enough. It should be enough that the police came out
[4:11 - 4:16] and gave me a warning and then I got my life threatened and my family's lives got threatened
[4:16 - 4:26] in the process. That should be enough for you guys. But instead I have to sit here
[4:26 - 4:35] and fight and fight and fight just to get my artwork off the ground. Just to get my
[4:35 - 4:42] music off the ground. I have to constantly delete YouTube channels and start over just
[4:42 - 4:53] to get away. Just to escape the negativity and I'm tired of that. And now I'm not looking
[4:53 - 5:00] for sympathy. I'm spilling the goddamn truth bro. I'm telling the fucking truth here.
[5:00 - 5:09] Because of people like you man, I'm always having to run, hide, run, hide, run, hide.
[5:09 - 5:18] I'm tired of it. I've had to change my phone number six different times since last year.
[5:18 - 5:29] I've had to delete Facebook accounts and start over. I've had to literally delete
[5:29 - 5:42] entire, entire YouTube and Google accounts just to start over. Every time. And I shouldn't
[5:42 - 5:53] have to do that. I shouldn't have to hide and run and hide all to escape a fucking war
[5:53 - 6:04] that I never wanted to be part of. I never wanted to be part of your guys's bullshit
[6:04 - 6:20] fucking war. I'm sick of it dude. This is not who I want to be. I'm sick of it dude.
[6:20 - 6:35] I'm tired of you guys holding me back bro. You know, as a matter of fact, fuck you.
[6:35 - 6:46] Fuck you. And thank you murder boy. And I'm not looking for pity. I'm not looking for
[6:46 - 6:58] sympathy. What I want is my life back. What I want is to take my goddamn life back. What
[6:58 - 7:07] I want is my life back from before the bullshit. That's what I want. I want my life back where
[7:07 - 7:14] I used to be able to do artwork and I used to be able to do music and I would actually
[7:14 - 7:20] make money from it. Cause for a time I did make money doing artwork. I did make money
[7:20 - 7:27] doing music. But then after I fell for that troll, something happened. You guys came
[7:27 - 7:34] in and started ruining my life. Even after I came in and I apologized and I wrote that
[7:34 - 7:47] wrong. Like I'm sick of it man. I want my fucking life back. I want my fucking career
[7:47 - 7:55] back that you guys are trying to take away from me. It's like every opportunity I try
[7:55 - 8:03] to fight for, you guys take away from me for no reason. And then when I try to step
[8:03 - 8:12] away from YouTube, you attack my family and my friends to get my attention. And then when
[8:12 - 8:18] I stand up for them and I fight back, then that's when you come in and you start ripping
[8:18 - 8:26] from me. You start ripping opportunities away. You start ripping job opportunities away.
[8:26 - 8:33] You start ripping away ways that I can make a real career doing what I love to do. And
[8:33 - 8:40] I'm sick of it. I'm done with it. And y'all wonder why I don't want anything to do with
[8:40 - 8:48] this fucking platform. The only reason why I have anything to do with this platform is
[8:48 - 8:55] because YouTube is the only way I can really get my artwork and my music out there. Otherwise
[8:55 - 9:01] if there was another way to do it, I wouldn't be on this platform. I wouldn't be on this
[9:01 - 9:14] platform if I had a choice, but I don't. I'll be straight up honest with you. I don't want
[9:14 - 9:20] to be on this goddamn platform. I'll be honest with you. I don't want to be on this platform
[9:20 - 9:26] anymore because of how toxic it's gotten. Because the motherfuckers like you trolls
[9:26 - 9:32] coming in and stealing opportunities away from me and bashing on me and laughing at
[9:32 - 9:37] me and making fun of me, pushing me to the edge of suicide and laughing at me, putting
[9:37 - 9:44] me in depression and laughing at me, taking opportunities away and laughing. Where is
[9:44 - 9:51] that fair to me that I lose opportunities? Where is that fair to me that I don't get
[9:51 - 9:59] the chance that I've worked so hard for? Where is that fair? I've worked my goddamn ass
[9:59 - 10:26] for 10 plus years for the opportunities that I fight for. So why take him away from me?
[10:26 - 10:40] Like, I'm sick of opportunities being taken away from me. What I want to know is out
[10:40 - 10:46] of all the people you guys control, out of all the motherfuckers you guys control, why
[10:46 - 10:55] me? Why do you have to single me out? Why do you have to call me out? Why me? I don't
[10:55 - 11:19] get it. Why me? Of all people, why do y'all gotta go after me? I don't fucking get it.
[11:19 - 11:28] Here's the thing, bro. I don't. I don't steal other people's shit, bro. And that's why nobody
[11:28 - 11:47] seems to fucking realize. That's the thing, nobody seems to fucking realize that. See,
[11:47 - 11:53] in your eyes, in your tri- like in you, with you trolls, in your eyes, if I'm not doing
[11:53 - 12:04] 110% all original, then it's theft. Which is bullshit. I do a few remixes of some songs
[12:04 - 12:16] and some mashups. All of a sudden, it's theft. Not true. I do fair use digital artwork.
[12:16 - 12:24] I take a fucking art piece, or an image, and I transform it and turn it into a fucking
[12:24 - 12:31] art piece, that then becomes my own, and all of a sudden, I'm stealing. That's not fucking
[12:31 - 12:39] true. The truth is, what I'm doing is not theft. What I'm doing is okay. But you motherfuckers
[12:39 - 12:47] don't see it like that. In your eyes, there is no fair use, there is no this, there is
[12:47 - 12:53] no that, but the reality is there actually is. The reality of things are there actually
[12:53 - 13:02] is such a thing as fair use law. There is such a thing as being allowed to do mashups
[13:02 - 13:09] and remixes. Go on YouTube right now and look it up. There's tons of mashups. There's tons
[13:09 - 13:18] of remixes. There's tons of people that do fair use artwork. So out of everybody that
[13:18 - 13:24] young motherfuckers control, why do y'all gotta go after me? I don't get it. I didn't
[13:24 - 13:35] ask for this. I didn't ask to be trolled. I didn't ask to be bashed on. I didn't ask
[13:35 - 13:43] to have opportunities to provide for my family ripped away from me. I didn't ask to lose
[13:43 - 13:52] my job with my best friend Enoch. My dude, I can be sitting and making 25 grand a fucking
[13:52 - 13:59] month right now. But because y'all ripped that opportunity away from me, I lost my job
[13:59 - 14:06] with my best friend Enoch and his gaming company. Do y'all realize that? I could have been making
[14:06 - 14:16] 25 grand a month. A fucking month. I could have been making 25 grand easily. Doing sound
[14:16 - 14:22] engineering for the guy. Doing audio engineering work for games that he creates which he's
[14:22 - 14:30] a genius with. And I could have used that money to kickstart my art career or my music
[14:30 - 14:38] career or shit that I actually want to fucking do with my life. But instead, I had to sit
[14:38 - 14:46] here every day battling you motherfuckers. Every day I'd sit here and I had to battle
[14:46 - 14:53] you motherfuckers and I'd sit here and watch you guys laugh and pick on me and bash on
[14:53 - 15:02] me and bully me and create fucking rumors about me and not let me get past the shit
[15:02 - 15:07] that I did wrong and make up rumors about me and make memes about me and make sites
[15:07 - 15:22] about me. It's all stupid bullshit. It's all dumb bullshit. I'm over here trying to take
[15:22 - 15:31] my life back and steer it in the right direction. Hell, I can't even open up a goddamn art shop.
[15:31 - 15:36] I can't even open up a goddamn art shop with my canvas art out of fear of the fact that
[15:36 - 15:42] one of y'all motherfuckers is gonna come in and shut that shit down just because you
[15:42 - 15:51] want some laughs. And that's why you do it. You shut me down even with my original fucking
[15:51 - 15:59] artwork on canvas. That's not my digital artwork. Y'all come in and you shut that shit down
[15:59 - 16:07] which costs me money which costs me customers which in the long run makes it hard for me
[16:07 - 16:16] to make a living. Well, I guess it's true that I do, you know, do caretaking work for
[16:16 - 16:22] my family. That is true. And while it's true, I'm working on getting the benefits stuff
[16:22 - 16:28] set up so that I can get paid by the state to take care of my family. I'm trying to
[16:28 - 16:34] get my artwork and my music off the ground. Because honestly, I want to be able to provide
[16:34 - 16:42] for my family and give back what they gave to me. I want to be able to give my family
[16:42 - 16:47] the life that they deserve. I want to be able to give my family everything that they
[16:47 - 16:56] deserve after everything they've done for me over the last 30 years. 30 years my family
[16:56 - 17:06] has given to me and given to me and given to me non-stop. And I'm only trying to do
[17:06 - 17:13] what's right and give back to them in the best way that I know how which making a career
[17:13 - 17:20] off my artwork and my fucking music. But how am I supposed to do that when you guys
[17:20 - 17:28] keep me from getting sponsorships? You shut down my shops every fucking time for no reason.
[17:28 - 17:36] You constantly bully me. You spread lies about me. You spread rumors about me. You
[17:36 - 17:44] talk shit about me. You attack my friends. You attack my family. You do all this stuff
[17:44 - 17:55] to hold me back. And I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being held back, man. I'm sick of
[17:55 - 18:02] it, dude. I don't want that for my family. I want to be able to provide for my family.
[18:02 - 18:09] I want to give them the life that they fucking deserve. I want to be able to get my moms
[18:09 - 18:15] and my dad up out of this fucking place, man. I want to be able to get my mom and my stepdad
[18:15 - 18:24] up out of this fucking place and into a better home than they deserve to be in. I want to
[18:24 - 18:29] be able to give my family everything they want and more. But how am I supposed to do
[18:29 - 18:37] that if y'all keep getting in the fucking way? And yes, my asshole reports, that includes
[18:37 - 18:44] your fucking bitch ass. You think you're so fucking high and mighty, but bitch, your shit
[18:44 - 18:51] ain't fucking all roses and rainbows either, bitch. You act like your goddamn shit don't
[18:51 - 18:57] stink. You act like your shit don't fucking smell as bad as everyone else's. Well, here's
[18:57 - 19:04] a reality check, bitch. It does. Just because you got more subs don't mean a goddamn thing
[19:04 - 19:11] in the real world. You think all these subs mean a goddamn thing in the real world? You
[19:11 - 19:19] think that you having all these subs means a damn thing in the real world? No. In the
[19:19 - 19:25] real world, it ain't about subs. It ain't about the view counts. You know what it's
[19:25 - 19:38] about? Money. Being able to provide with money. See, you guys live in this fucking fantasy
[19:38 - 19:46] world where you think that I don't grasp the concept of money, that I don't grasp certain
[19:46 - 19:54] things, but the truth is I do grasp all that. I really do grasp the concept of money. You
[19:54 - 20:00] don't think that I don't know that 700 month isn't shit to live off of? You don't think
[20:00 - 20:07] I don't realize that? You don't think I don't know the value of money I actually fucking
[20:07 - 20:14] do? Just let me tell you something. When I first moved here to Ohio, when I first
[20:14 - 20:21] moved here to Ohio with my family, I was homeless. I was homeless when I first moved
[20:21 - 20:27] here with my moms. It was me, my mom, my older brother, living out of the back of
[20:27 - 20:37] her fucking GMC Jimmy. We were homeless for an entire fucking year. Living from storage
[20:37 - 20:45] unit to storage unit, campsite to campsite. For a whole year, we were fucking homeless.
[20:45 - 20:49] So you don't think I don't know what it's like to come from nothing? You don't think
[20:49 - 20:57] I don't know what it's like to know the value of money? I know the value of money. I realize
[20:57 - 21:13] that shit. So believe me what I say, when I say that I started from nothing, I literally
[21:13 - 21:22] started from nothing. My first fucking song was written at a goddamn campsite out of the
[21:22 - 21:31] back of my mom's GMC Jimmy on a fucking shitty ass fucking notepad that was falling apart.
[21:31 - 21:44] Okay? What's a fucking half fucking broken down pencil and a fucking notebook? So believe
[21:44 - 21:52] me what I say, I know what it's like to come from nothing. I came from nothing. I came
[21:52 - 21:58] from not having anything to having all this. So believe me what I say, I know what it's
[21:58 - 22:06] like to be grateful. I am grateful for everything that I get. Whether it's something that my
[22:06 - 22:13] family buys me, whether it's fan mail from the fans, I appreciate the fuck out of that
[22:13 - 22:22] shit dude. I appreciate the fans that send me stuff that are dope as fuck enough to
[22:22 - 22:29] send me stuff like with wrecking Carrie how she sent me that fucking amazing ass art set
[22:29 - 22:39] or burger boy who's always sending me dope ass t shirts or Jim and I who's always sending
[22:39 - 22:46] me dope ass shit like these fucking bracelets or half the shit that I fucking got over
[22:46 - 22:54] there on my dresser. So I am grateful for the things that I get. I'm very grateful
[22:54 - 23:03] for that shit. And y'all think I'm not y'all think that I'm over here to be like, Oh,
[23:03 - 23:10] please send me more stuff. No, if you want to send me stuff, that's cool. I appreciate
[23:10 - 23:17] this shit. I love this shit, man. I got so many fucking letters from the fans. I'm gonna
[23:17 - 23:26] have to get a goddamn court board to put in my background just to put this shit out.
[23:26 - 23:32] So believe me what I say, I am somebody that truly came from nothing. I truly came from
[23:32 - 23:45] fucking nothing. I'm not some fucking bullshit YouTuber like Jake Paul. I'm not some fucking
[23:45 - 23:56] YouTuber like fucking Mr. Beast who has all this money so I'm gonna throw it around now.
[23:56 - 24:02] I'm out here trying to provide for my family doing the things that I know how to do with
[24:02 - 24:11] my artwork, with my music, with my film work, doing shit that I'm actually good at doing.
[24:11 - 24:16] And this is what I mean when I say maybe if you guys would leave me alone for a little
[24:16 - 24:25] bit and let me gain the traction that I need. Let me get these art sponsors. Let me get
[24:25 - 24:32] my music out there. Let me get these art sponsors so I can do shit. Let me get my music out
[24:32 - 24:42] there and make sales. Let me start up an art shop so I can make sales. Maybe if you would
[24:42 - 24:50] do that, I can provide for my family. But how am I supposed to do that? How am I supposed
[24:50 - 24:59] to even make any kind of money if you guys don't let me do my job? Like it doesn't make
[24:59 - 25:13] no sense. I'm tired of it man. I'm tired of fighting every day. I'm tired of having to
[25:13 - 25:22] ward off trolls every day. I'm tired of having to fight every day. I'm tired of being depressed
[25:22 - 25:26] all the time. You want to know how I feel every day? You want to know how I truly feel
[25:26 - 25:39] every fucking day? Anymore? Anymore? I ask myself why do I even bother? Why do I even
[25:39 - 25:58] bother getting out of bed? Hold on. Yeah. All right, hold on. I got one for you. There
[25:58 - 26:20] you go. Yup, you got it? Yup. Yup, you're welcome. So there. And these are all things.
[26:20 - 26:28] But like I was saying man, every day I wake up here recently I wake up every day asking
[26:28 - 26:36] myself, why do I even bother? Why do I even bother getting out of bed? Why do I bother
[26:36 - 26:41] doing the things that I love to do? And you want to know why? It's because of what you
[26:41 - 26:50] guys fucking do to me. I want to do my artwork again. I want to do my music full time again.
[26:50 - 26:57] I want to be able to make sales off my artwork again. I want to be able to sit down and do
[26:57 - 27:05] my digital artwork and my canvas artwork again. But how am I supposed to do any of that and
[27:05 - 27:12] make a living off of that if y'all keep getting in the fucking way, attacking me, giving
[27:12 - 27:23] me a bad name that I don't fucking deserve? I don't deserve what you guys do to me. I
[27:23 - 27:32] don't deserve that shit. I don't deserve to be held back. I already wrote my fucking
[27:32 - 27:40] wrong. I already moved on from the past, but it's like you guys are so fixated on
[27:40 - 27:48] holding me back that you want to sit there and keep me from doing anything and I'm sick
[27:48 - 27:54] of it. And y'all wonder why I don't want anything to do with this goddamn platform.
[27:54 - 28:02] You guys wonder why I don't want nothing to do with this platform? In your eyes, I
[28:02 - 28:10] didn't, but reality check, faggot boy, reality check, crunchy bitch. I did. I told him from
[28:10 - 28:20] what I did, bro. Dude, my family's lives got threatened and I had the police over here.
[28:20 - 28:32] You think that that's not enough? You think that having my goddamn family's lives put
[28:32 - 28:42] in danger isn't enough? You think that my family's lives being put at risk isn't enough
[28:42 - 29:01] of a punishment for me? You think that's not good enough? Cause let me tell ya, because
[29:01 - 29:08] of you fucking bitch ass trolls and little faggots like Masshole reports, my family's
[29:08 - 29:22] always living in fear. I'm always living in fear for my family. My family is elderly.
[29:22 - 29:29] They don't deserve this. And to be quite frank, neither do I. So y'all motherfuckers
[29:29 - 29:36] need to grow a goddamn set of fucking balls and some goddamn brain cells and grow the
[29:36 - 29:46] fuck up. For real, quit acting like 5th grade fucking trolls, grow the fuck up and stop
[29:46 - 29:55] your bitchy. Stop your complaining. Stop holding me back to my goddamn past. Grow the fuck
[29:55 - 30:21] up, man. Seriously, let the past be in the goddamn past. Grow up. Grow the fuck up. Y'all
[30:21 - 30:31] seriously need to grow up. For real, grow the fuck up. Cause you doing that troll shit
[30:31 - 30:41] makes you look like a bitch. That makes you look like a little kid. So quit the high
[30:41 - 30:50] school drama troll bullshit. Grow the fuck up and get a goddamn life. Seriously, get
[30:50 - 30:59] the fuck off of goddamn YouTube and get a goddamn life like I'm doing. I got a life.
[30:59 - 31:08] But y'all obviously don't, man. Y'all obviously ain't got a fucking life at all. Cause if
[31:08 - 31:13] you did, you wouldn't be sitting on here running your goddamn mouths about me. You
[31:13 - 31:21] wouldn't be on here talking shit. If you had any fucking brain cells at all, you'd realize
[31:21 - 31:27] that a matter of some reports ain't nothing but a piece of shit garbage-ass troll just
[31:27 - 31:54] like you guys. Seriously, grow up, dude. Oh, what life? What life? Hmm, let's see.
[31:54 - 31:59] The life that I have, getting paid to take care of my family. The life that I'm going
[31:59 - 32:04] to have here in a few weeks when I get my dick and I start playing live shows. The
[32:04 - 32:12] life that I used to have when I was doing my artwork and getting paid for it. So yeah,
[32:12 - 32:27] I do have a life. I actually do have a life, but obviously you guys don't. I see this
[32:27 - 32:35] is what I find funny. Y'all motherfuckers that sit there and say that I need to get
[32:35 - 32:42] off of YouTube, that I need to do shit. Y'all are the same motherfuckers that are sitting
[32:42 - 32:49] there watching this shit. You tell me to get a job, tell me to get a life, but yet
[32:49 - 32:56] you sit there and do the same thing you're telling me to do. Like you sit there telling
[32:56 - 33:04] me to do it, but yet you sit here on the internet talking shit. You sit here on the
[33:04 - 33:14] internet running your mouth and it's stupid. Maybe if you would shut your mouth and actually
[33:14 - 33:29] practice what you fucking preach, maybe you would actually get somewhere in life dude.
[33:29 - 33:35] Like for real, you sit here telling me to get a life, but yet you guys are the ones
[33:35 - 33:41] that are sitting there on YouTube talking shit, acting like you ain't got a life. If
[33:41 - 33:52] you got a life, go live that shit dude. Seriously, if you got a life, go live that shit. Stop
[33:52 - 34:04] sitting on the internet talking shit on people bro. If you got a life, go live that shit.
[34:04 - 34:13] Seriously, go fucking live that shit. If you got a life, what are you doing on here?
[34:13 - 34:19] If you got a fucking life, why are you wasting it on here talking shit on somebody who you
[34:19 - 34:27] don't even fucking know? And just for the record, you bitches don't own me, I own me.
[34:27 - 34:38] So nice try on that one loser. Like for real though man, for real. Practice what you preach
[34:38 - 34:48] motherfuckers. Practice what you motherfucking preach. You say that you got a life and then
[34:48 - 34:55] I ain't got one, right? Y'all say that I ain't got a life and that you have one, correct?
[34:55 - 35:06] Well, if you have a life, go live that shit dude. If you have a fucking life, stop wasting
[35:06 - 35:16] it on here and fucking do something bro. Fucking get a goddamn hobby, take up knitting,
[35:16 - 35:23] take up yoga, take up swimming, biking, hiking, hell, take up fucking skydiving for all I
[35:23 - 35:31] care. Seriously, take your goddamn skydiving for all I care. I don't give a shit hell.
[35:31 - 35:44] Take up wing suiting, take up face jumping. Like for real, stop wasting your goddamn time
[35:44 - 35:51] on here. Like me, I've got a hobby that I'm turning into a career or trying to turn into
[35:51 - 36:00] a career, which is my fucking artwork. So I do do shit outside of YouTube. I do have
[36:00 - 36:08] a life outside of YouTube. But apparently y'all dead brain motherfuckers don't know
[36:08 - 36:16] what real life is because you're so fixated on. Oh, let's see what Cyrax is posting. Oh,
[36:16 - 36:21] let's, let's, let's wait for him to go last so we can attack him. Oh, let's talk shit
[36:21 - 36:27] on his videos. Let's, let's, let's ruin our opportunities for him. Let's, let's make
[36:27 - 36:33] shit hard for him. Let's make things harder for him than they already need to be. Let's
[36:33 - 36:50] make things twice as hard than when he's working now. Like for real, get a life dude. Get a
[36:50 - 37:07] fucking goddamn life, bro. Like if you have a life, go live that shit. Go do something.
[37:07 - 37:12] Stop saying that you have a life and then sitting there on the keyboard on the internet
[37:12 - 37:19] talking shit. It don't make no sense, bro. You say you have a life, but yet you choose
[37:19 - 37:31] to sit here and talk shit. It don't make no sense whatsoever. Like for real, I want
[37:31 - 37:38] my fucking life back and guess what motherfuckers, I'm taking that shit back. I'm taking my
[37:38 - 37:49] goddamn life back from you guys. Cause nobody fucking owns me. First off, first off, no
[37:49 - 37:58] one fucking owns me. No matter what you say. Second off, I'm tired of being held the fuck
[37:58 - 38:09] back by y'all fucking pussies that want to ruin shit. I'm sick of it, bro. I don't need
[38:09 - 38:15] this trash. I don't need this garbage in my life. I don't need this negativity in
[38:15 - 38:23] my life. What I need is my goddamn life back and guess what? I'm taking it back. So fuck
[38:23 - 38:34] all y'all goddamn trolls. Just compare to me, you ain't shit. Compared to me, you ain't
[38:34 - 38:42] fucking shit. Y'all trolls ain't nothing but a one, bunch of whiny little bitches who
[38:42 - 38:51] act like they got lives, but really you don't. Cause if you had one, you wouldn't be sitting
[38:51 - 39:03] here talking shit like you do. And you want to say, I ain't got a life. Dude, you're out
[39:03 - 39:26] of your goddamn mind. Like for real bro. So I am going to end it on this. One, I'm taking
[39:26 - 39:39] my life back and I'm not going to be stopped. Two, I'm sick of the bullshit and I'm tired
[39:39 - 39:49] of being held back. I'm not putting up with it anymore. I'm taking my life back. I want
[39:49 - 39:55] to be the person that I used to be before all of this and guess what? That's the person
[39:55 - 40:03] I'm going to be. I'm done. I'm taking my goddamn life back and I'm being the person I used
[40:03 - 40:10] to be before all this. And I'm not letting you fucking pussies involve me in your bullshit
[40:10 - 40:18] fucking war of who to trust you or not to trust anymore. I'm sick of it. Y'all can keep
[40:18 - 40:30] your fucking war. Have your war. Keep it. I don't care. I don't want no part of it.
[40:30 - 40:36] I don't want no part of your bullshit fucking war. I never wanted to be involved in this
[40:36 - 40:46] war to begin with. I'm just a simple dude trying to make it on YouTube for his family.
[40:46 - 40:58] That's all I'm trying to do. And that's what I'm going to do. So fuck you trolls and the
[40:58 - 41:09] bullshit that you're on.