2021-6-21 Anxiety (Song)

[0:00 - 0:10] Y'all think you know what it's like to live with anxiety? Y'all think you know what it's like to be me?
[0:10 - 0:15] You think you know what it's like to deal with the depression every fucking day to wake up?
[0:15 - 0:21] Wondering if you're gonna live, wondering if you're gonna die, wondering if you're even worth a day to live?
[0:21 - 0:30] Well let me show it to you and this is gonna happen to everybody that's ever up to your sleep that put me in this place.
[0:30 - 0:38] It's because of you that I'm stuck in this place and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of every one of you that put me here.
[0:38 - 0:47] No, they're stupid, they're bad. No, no, no, nooooooo!
[0:47 - 0:58] I'm so sick of every single one of you that put me in this motherfucking place. I'm so sick of this anxiety.
[0:58 - 1:06] Always waiting on my motherfucking mind every single fucking day till you know what it's like to be sucked in a fucking mental prison every single day.
[1:06 - 1:18] Not knowing if your anxiety's gonna motherfucking cope up and attack you every fucking day. Do you know what it's like to live with the thought of suicide on your fucking mind?
[1:18 - 1:27] Do you know what it's like to live with the pressure every single motherfucking day of your not because of every single warning you that motherfucking know?
[1:27 - 1:43] Confused me, I'm now this demon that you made me out the motherfucking being I'm so sick of it. I'm so sick of being this motherfucking demon that you made me into every single night and day I wake up with this same anxiety on my mind.
[1:43 - 2:07] Always waking up with the cold sweat, mind racing every single fucking day and I just don't know what to do every night and day. I've got these dead thoughts running through my brain I'm constantly lurking and wondering if a girl is ever gonna fucking leave me then turn around and realize that it's just my mind playing tricks on me it's just the anxiety acting up again but the hundredth time.
[2:07 - 2:27] I gotta get away from these feelings man. I gotta get away from where do I go? What do I do? Who do I turn to? Who do I trust? It's like I'm in a mental prison. I'm off the side of my mind and I don't know how to get out.
[2:27 - 2:56] I'm so sick of being locked in this fucking mental prison that every single one of you will put me in. Every single one of you will phone me in and in. That was a motherfucking judgment acting like you fucking know me. You don't know what it's like to be in my shoes. You don't know what it's like to wake up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night wanting to take your own life. You don't know what it's like to live with motherfucking night terrors every fucking night to wake up from a motherfucking dream.
[2:56 - 3:24] That's a real thing. You don't know what is real. You have no idea what is real. That was not motherfucking truth. Do you know what it's like to be in my shoes? You don't know what it's like. Someone telling you every single one of you need to shut your fucking mouth and get the fuck away from me. You don't know what it's like to be in me. You don't know what it's like to deal with the stress of anxiety.
[3:24 - 3:45] Always waiting on your motherfucking mind. You just want to be a better version of yourself, but then you turn around and realize this anxiety is with you for the rest of your motherfucking life. God damn this shit ain't right. I just want to get out of this fucking mental prison that every one of you is fucking getting.
[3:45 - 4:04] Cause right now it's like my patience is where it's been. I gotta find the way out. I gotta tear out these walls, I gotta freak out. Do you really see what it's like to go through what I go through? No you don't.
[4:04 - 4:23] You don't know what it's like. You don't know that the words that you fucking say to people like me every fucking day always wants us to be dead in the motherfucking grave. So I don't understand what it gives you the right to fucking judge people like me every fucking day when you don't realize these things I need.
[4:23 - 4:50] Always waiting on your motherfucking mind. Every single day and night. We just want everything to be alright. We just want all this negativity to go the fuck away. I'm so sick of this anxiety. Sick of all this even simultaneously. It's a tragedy, anxiety. I just want to know the go the fuck away. So I could be myself again for my girl in my fucking family. I'm so sick of this anxiety. And this is the pressure taking over me every single day.
[4:50 - 5:20] It's always lurking deep inside me. For those of you that have abused me, you're the reason that I became the way that I am. And for those of you that troll me and attack me, you know, fucking people like me, you don't know what we deal with. So you got no right to judge people like me. So get the fuck away from people like me. We don't need that negativity.