2021-6-17 WHY ME

[0:00 - 0:22] [Tapping on keyboard]
[0:22 - 0:24] One of us.
[0:24 - 0:34] You know, it's pretty sad that I sit here and I try to take a vacation away from YouTube.
[0:34 - 0:41] You know, I try to take a small vacation to help my family, right?
[0:41 - 0:53] You know, I try to take a vacation to help my family and to get away from things.
[0:53 - 0:59] And that's where you're wrong.
[0:59 - 1:01] That's where you're wrong, my dude.
[1:01 - 1:03] That's where your motherfucking wrong.
[1:03 - 1:07] See, that's not the only skill that I have for doing screen vocals, boy.
[1:07 - 1:14] That's not the only talent I have.
[1:14 - 1:19] Ask anyone that knows me.
[1:19 - 1:23] Can't nobody do something like this?
[1:23 - 1:26] Not everyone can do something like this.
[1:26 - 1:34] Not everyone can do, where's that, where's that, where's that?
[1:34 - 1:37] Oh, of course it would be way down here.
[1:37 - 1:43] Not everyone can do intricate dark artwork like this.
[1:43 - 1:50] Not everybody can do drip style artwork like that.
[1:50 - 1:55] But my thing is this.
[1:55 - 1:59] My thing is this, man.
[1:59 - 2:03] And this is what pisses me off.
[2:03 - 2:08] This is why I get so fucking pissed off.
[2:08 - 2:12] Because y'all want to sit here and attack me.
[2:12 - 2:17] Y'all want to sit here and ruin what I try to do.
[2:17 - 2:23] Whether it be through my digital fair use artwork.
[2:23 - 2:31] And you can't sit there telling me that fair use artwork isn't original because it is.
[2:31 - 2:33] What I do is legit.
[2:33 - 2:38] Okay, whether it be my fucking artwork or my fucking music.
[2:38 - 2:43] Whether it be my digital artwork, my regular hand on paintings.
[2:43 - 2:47] Or whether it be my fucking music.
[2:47 - 2:49] I do have talent.
[2:49 - 2:54] And what I don't get is why y'all feel like you have to attack me.
[2:54 - 3:00] Because it seems like every time, every time I start getting a little bit of traction.
[3:00 - 3:02] Every time I start to get somewhere.
[3:02 - 3:08] One of y'all stupid assholes has to come along and rip shit out from under me.
[3:08 - 3:24] Right when I start to get somewhere.
[3:24 - 3:29] The minute I start to get a little bit of traction, I start to get somewhere.
[3:29 - 3:31] Start to make a little bit of money.
[3:31 - 3:33] And then what do you pussies do?
[3:33 - 3:38] You come along and rip shit out from under me for what reason?
[3:38 - 3:41] For what fucking reason?
[3:41 - 3:44] What I do don't affect you.
[3:44 - 3:51] When I do my artwork, when I do my music, that don't affect you.
[3:51 - 3:54] That's not your goddamn life.
[3:54 - 3:56] That's my life, bruh.
[3:56 - 4:14] That's my life.
[4:14 - 4:17] And y'all wanna sit there and say I'm all about being negative?
[4:17 - 4:21] No, I'm not all about being negative.
[4:21 - 4:23] I hate being negative.
[4:23 - 4:26] I hate that shit.
[4:26 - 4:34] But when y'all continuously rip shit away from me to where I make money.
[4:34 - 4:40] When y'all rip what I'm doing away from me, what am I supposed to do?
[4:40 - 4:43] Just sit there and let it happen?
[4:43 - 4:46] Are you fucking kidding me?
[4:46 - 4:49] Like do you expect me to just sit there and let this shit happen?
[4:49 - 4:52] No.
[4:52 - 4:56] I deserve to make money doing what I love to do.
[4:56 - 5:00] I deserve that chance.
[5:00 - 5:03] Y'all sit there and tell me to get a regular job.
[5:03 - 5:08] Well sorry motherfuckers, I don't have that kind of luxury.
[5:08 - 5:14] I'm sorry I don't have the luxury for going out and getting a regular 9 to 5 job like you.
[5:14 - 5:20] Because I actually have to take care of my family who is elderly.
[5:20 - 5:28] I have to stay at home and help take care of my family who is fucking elderly who doesn't have very fucking long.
[5:28 - 5:32] My mom and wife said that they don't have very long left.
[5:32 - 5:35] They don't have very much time left.
[5:35 - 5:38] They're elderly, okay?
[5:38 - 5:41] So I have to stay here at home and help take care of them.
[5:41 - 5:46] So the only options I got is either make money off my artwork,
[5:46 - 5:51] get a sponsor for doing e-sports, which is hard as fuck to get into now.
[5:51 - 5:54] Thank you assholes.
[5:54 - 6:00] Or doing my fucking music and making money off my goddamn music.
[6:00 - 6:06] Those are the only three things I got going for me, bruh.
[6:06 - 6:12] Maybe if y'all fucking bitch ass cowards would back the fuck off
[6:12 - 6:18] and let me do me without shutting down my shots, without attacking me,
[6:18 - 6:26] without making me look like shit, without going after me every fucking single day
[6:26 - 6:33] and you let me do what I need to do, I might actually be able to have a job doing my artwork,
[6:33 - 6:35] doing my fucking music.
[6:35 - 6:40] I might have a fucking job.
[6:40 - 6:46] See what you bitch ass cowards don't realize is what I do is fucking legit.
[6:46 - 6:49] What I do is fucking real.
[6:49 - 6:56] Y'all just mad that you ain't got the goddamn balls to go out and do it your damn selves.
[6:56 - 7:01] And because you ain't got the balls to do it your fucking selves,
[7:01 - 7:08] you'd rather attack the one dude that does have the balls to do it, which is me.
[7:08 - 7:15] You'd rather sit there and attack me and yank every opportunity I try to strive for away from me.
[7:15 - 7:21] You'd rather rip every opportunity that I'm giving away from me.
[7:21 - 7:29] And not only is that unfair to me, that's unfair to my family.
[7:29 - 7:33] And no, I ain't lazy, nigga. I ain't lazy.
[7:33 - 7:39] If I was lazy, ask anybody here, bitch. If I was fucking lazy,
[7:39 - 7:43] then why the fuck do I leave during the livestream to help my family?
[7:43 - 7:50] If I was lazy, why do I bust my ass doing shit that I'm good at to try to make a living?
[7:50 - 7:57] If I was lazy, why is it that I bust my ass with my music, I bust my ass with my artwork,
[7:57 - 8:03] and why is that halftime? I'd leave a goddamn stream to help my family, nigga. That ain't lazy.
[8:03 - 8:10] That ain't fucking lazy. The only lazy bitch I see around here are you fucking bitch-ass trolls.
[8:10 - 8:16] Y'all are the lazy ones, not me. I'm out here taking care of my family,
[8:16 - 8:22] doing my artwork, doing my music. So how the fuck am I lazy?
[8:22 - 8:31] How the fuck am I lazy, bitch? I'm out here fucking busting my ass, doing my artwork, running a clothing shop,
[8:31 - 8:41] doing my fucking music, trying to put out a fucking album, trying to get onto a label, helping to take care of my family.
[8:41 - 8:48] That ain't lazy, nigga. That's called hard-ass work, something that y'all bitches don't know anything about.
[8:48 - 8:56] You don't know my goddamn life. You don't know my life outside of YouTube, bitch.
[8:56 - 9:03] So shut the fuck down and shut the fuck up, dude. You don't know my life like you think, boy.
[9:03 - 9:15] Y'all really don't know my life like you think. Ask anyone here that knows me. Ask anyone here that knows me, bro. Anyone.
[9:15 - 9:23] Do you know how many times I've left a livestream to go help my family, to help them out with shit?
[9:23 - 9:30] How many times I've left my livestreams up to my mods to go fucking help my family out?
[9:30 - 9:38] That don't sound lazy to me. That sure as fuck don't sound lazy to me.
[9:38 - 9:48] That sounds to me like I'm busting my ass.
[9:48 - 10:15] So tell me again how me leaving during the livestream to help my family, me doing fucking artwork like this, hitting up every fucking art gallery and every place that I can to sell my artwork, putting out fucking albums like this right here.
[10:15 - 10:31] Tell me again how that's fucking lazy. Tell me again how me putting out albums like this or artwork like this, trying to make money is lazy. Tell me again how that's lazy.
[10:31 - 10:39] Tell me again how me leaving during the livestream to help my family is being lazy.
[10:39 - 10:52] Last time I checked, I bust my ass more than any of you fucking pussy ass trolls do in a fucking week.
[10:52 - 11:15] I bust my ass and more in one day than half your fucking trolls do in a goddamn week. I do more work in one damn day than half y'all trolls do in a fucking week.
[11:15 - 11:28] So tell me again how I'm lazy, bitch. Tell me again how I'm lazy. I'm out here busting my ass, running my own shit.
[11:28 - 11:34] I'm out here busting my ass, doing shit I gotta do to make money.
[11:34 - 11:48] Meanwhile, what are you bitches doing? Shutting me down, laughing at me, sending me out of a computer screen acting like a fucking reject, acting like a goddamn retard.
[11:48 - 11:52] Young niggas don't know what hard work really is.
[11:52 - 12:07] People like Reckon Caron, people like Burger Boy know how hard I fucking work, and I show that shit. I show that shit.
[12:07 - 12:21] So don't come at me saying I don't work hard.
[12:21 - 12:34] Help, ask Courtney. Courtney here even knows how hard I fucking work. Courtney here has seen how much hard work I put into everything I fucking do.
[12:34 - 12:48] So I sit there and say I don't work hard. Y'all can't sit there and say I don't work hard.
[12:48 - 13:00] Well, CIA whole can tell you how hard I work on shit. Granted, yes, he's hating on me a ton or two, but even he can tell you how fucking hard I work.
[13:00 - 13:07] Even he knows and sees how much hard work I put in.
[13:07 - 13:17] So don't come at me and say I don't work hard.
[13:17 - 13:43] So don't come at me with that bullshit, boy.
[13:43 - 13:57] See, y'all are just mad because I have skills that y'all wish you had. You wish y'all had the skills that I got. Y'all wish that y'all could do the shit that I do.
[13:57 - 14:03] Y'all are just fucking jealous. You're jealous of the fact that I actually have skill.
[14:03 - 14:19] And when I show that shit off and I show what I'm able to do, what do you do? You come along, make up shit about me, spread rumors about me, take shit from me, steal shit from me, and ruin opportunities for me.
[14:19 - 14:32] And then y'all come back and you wonder why I get pissed off. You wonder why I come back yelling and bitching at y'all. Gee, I fucking wonder why.
[14:32 - 14:40] It couldn't be because every time y'all yank shit from me, that takes away opportunities from me.
[14:40 - 14:50] And y'all wonder why I get pissed when y'all take shit from me and you take advantage of me and you fuck up opportunities for me.
[14:50 - 15:04] And you wonder why I get pissed? Y'all sit there and you take away opportunities for me to make real money and y'all sit here and wonder why I get pissed.
[15:04 - 15:17] You sit here and you take opportunities away from me time and time and time again, and then you sit there and wonder why I'm fucking bitching, why I'm fucking yelling and going off on y'all.
[15:17 - 15:32] Gee, I fucking wonder, dumbasses. It couldn't be because you fucking yank every opportunity that I try to do away from me, every opportunity that I get, y'all try to yank it away from me, every damn time.
[15:32 - 15:48] And you wonder why I get fucking pissed?
[15:48 - 15:58] Y'all wonder why I get fucking pissed off? I fucking wonder.
[15:58 - 16:04] I fucking wonder why.
[16:04 - 16:10] And y'all want to call me lazy?
[16:10 - 16:24] What do you call me doing these live DJ shows? What do you call me staying up all hours of the night, working on artwork, working on music, opening up shops here and there?
[16:24 - 16:37] What do you call that shit? That don't sound like laziness to me, motherfucker. What do you call hitting up every fucking art gallery in Ohio, trying to get your artwork out there?
[16:37 - 16:44] That ain't lazy. That don't sound lazy to me.
[16:44 - 17:12] That sure as fuck don't sound lazy to me.
[17:13 - 18:10] Okay.
[18:10 - 18:39] Hey, y'all, I find it funny because you guys sit there and you act like I'm being lazy when really I'm out here busting my fucking ass doing shit, trying to get my name out there, trying to get my name up.
[18:39 - 18:42] Trying to actually do shit.
[18:42 - 18:45] I do shit.
[18:46 - 19:24] Okay.
[19:24 - 19:53] Can you feel that?
[19:53 - 20:22] Oh, shit.
[20:22 - 50:54] Oh,