2021-5-23 why i stand out from the rest

[0:00 - 0:29] One up, y'all. How's everybody doing this evening?
[0:29 - 0:39] I checked my I checked my messages. I checked my voicemail. And I heard what a lot of y'all
[0:39 - 0:57] had to say. I heard what every one of you had to say in my voice messages. And let me
[0:57 - 1:09] tell you, man, the stuff y'all tell me is weak. You're weak as fuck. And you want to
[1:09 - 1:22] know how your weakest fuck because you continue to leave dumb messages and troll me. Now I
[1:22 - 1:32] did see a comment earlier on my last live that kind of didn't sit right with me that
[1:32 - 1:43] I am gonna bring up. That said, I don't know anything about music. Really? I don't know
[1:43 - 2:00] anything about music. Really? Have you heard my two albums from 2018? Have you heard my
[2:00 - 2:10] albums Blackout and Shadowblade? Have you heard my song Please Notice Me, which became
[2:10 - 2:21] a huge hit among people? So I mean, obviously, I know something about music. Otherwise, I
[2:21 - 2:33] wouldn't have been able to release my music the way that I did. What I'm funny is that
[2:33 - 2:41] y'all sit there and you troll. And you act like you know my life, but really, you really
[2:41 - 2:51] don't. Nobody really knows my life the way that my friends, my close friends and me do.
[2:51 - 3:00] See, a lot of you when y'all go to sleep, y'all go to sleep, you go to dream land.
[3:00 - 3:06] Y'all go to sleep, you have a nice dream, whatever. But me, when I go to sleep, I ain't
[3:06 - 3:14] just going to sleep. No. I'm going to war with my demons that I've dealt with over
[3:14 - 3:30] the years. See, a lot of people sit there and say that I can't do anything. A lot of
[3:30 - 3:38] people sit there and say, oh, you're nothing. You're worthless. You're garbage. You'll
[3:38 - 3:50] never amount to anything. Really. See, that's funny. Because what separates me from everyone
[3:50 - 4:01] else isn't just my looks. It's my grit, my determination and my blunt honesty. Because
[4:01 - 4:09] see, people sit there and tell me I'm not a man. Really. How am I not a man? I'm man
[4:09 - 4:14] enough to admit my wrongs. I'm man enough to admit when I'm wrong and I write those
[4:14 - 4:26] wrongs. I did wrong. I came clean about it. Most people wouldn't even do that. Most people
[4:26 - 4:32] would sit there and try to hide it. But instead of hiding it, what did I do? I'm maned up
[4:32 - 4:42] and I faced it. I'm maned up, I faced my wrongdoings and I paid the price. I paid the price
[4:42 - 4:48] and my family's lives getting threatened and the police threatening to arrest me if I
[4:48 - 4:58] ever did it again. So I paid my price. I owned up to my mistakes and most of y'all trolls
[4:58 - 5:12] won't even do that. And push it off on somebody else. And you guys think you know me. You
[5:12 - 5:20] don't know me. If you knew me, you would know my life story. Have told me something that
[5:20 - 5:32] I've proven wrong every time. A lot of y'all trolls sit there and tell me how to do what
[5:32 - 5:40] I want to do. Well, let me tell you this, every time y'all tell me that I can't do
[5:40 - 5:49] something, what do I do? I end up doing it. And I'm living fucking proof about 10 ounces
[5:49 - 5:59] with one kidney and one and a half lungs. I wasn't supposed to live. The day I was
[5:59 - 6:07] born was the day I was supposed to die. Literally, no doctor in the hospital thought I would
[6:07 - 6:16] live. None of the doctors said I would, they would always said he's not gonna make it.
[6:16 - 6:24] You may as well spend what time you have with him because he's not gonna live past 24 hours.
[6:24 - 6:34] I'm living proof that you can do whatever you want to do. I'm living fucking proof
[6:34 - 6:46] of that shit. If I'm so wrong, if y'all are so right, why did I live past birth? Why
[6:46 - 6:55] did I survive? I was on an oxygen tank from the day I was born till I was five years old.
[6:55 - 7:01] My head when I was born was as big as my mom's fist. And my legs and arms were the
[7:01 - 7:09] size of her fucking pinky. I wasn't supposed to live. I was in an incubator for six fucking
[7:09 - 7:22] months. Six months after I was born, I was in a fucking incubator. And the entire time,
[7:22 - 7:31] every doctor in that fucking hospital said you may as well give up. He's not gonna live.
[7:31 - 7:39] He'd make it. But guess what? I proved every one of those motherfuckers wrong. Every doctor,
[7:39 - 7:50] every nurse in the hospital, I proved wrong. I'm here today because of my determination
[7:50 - 7:59] and my will to fucking survive and my will to live. Of all of me, what do you know? What
[7:59 - 8:04] do you know about fighting for your life every day of the week? What do you know about losing
[8:04 - 8:12] people that you care about? What do you know about watching your best friend die? Right
[8:12 - 8:21] there on the fucking news and from thousands of people? What do you know to cancer? What
[8:21 - 8:31] do you know about losing the girl that you wanted to spend your life with to health issues?
[8:31 - 8:38] What do you know about losing your biological mother to a house fire when you're a teenager?
[8:38 - 8:44] What do you know about your dad never being there because he's always off on a military
[8:44 - 8:59] base doing whatever? Y'all don't fucking know me like you think. I'll say I don't know
[8:59 - 9:13] a damn thing about music, right? Well, let me prove to you that I do. Yeah. Hold on,
[9:13 - 9:40] that's okay, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine.
[9:40 - 10:08] Okay, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine.
[10:08 - 10:17] First off, shout out to the burger boy for the dope ass fucking package. I will be doing
[10:17 - 10:22] an unboxing of this later on, for sure. So shout out to the burger boy for this bro,
[10:22 - 10:33] 100% man, appreciate it. No, like I was saying though man, I don't think you know my life,
[10:33 - 10:47] but really you don't know shit. And you guys think that I don't know music? Hmm. Let's
[10:47 - 11:08] pull up some of my, let's pull up my old album on YouTube here, hold up. This was a
[11:08 - 11:24] while. Now, y'all want to sit down and say I don't know music? Before I start this, y'all
[11:24 - 11:50] say I don't know music, right? Well, then I dropped back in 2018 for a locked evening.
[11:50 - 12:17] Now, I'm going to do a music for you. Sounds like I know music to me. I'm going to do a
[12:17 - 12:29] music for you. How do I bring up one of my more famous ones that people know? Let's bring
[12:29 - 12:56] up my hit single off my album, Blackout.
[12:56 - 14:07] [Music]
[14:07 - 14:28] Now, tell me I don't know music. Tell me I don't know music. Go ahead.
[14:28 - 14:42] [Music]
[14:42 - 14:49] Y'all want to sit there and talk shit? I'll prove y'all wrong all day, every day. Let's go.
[14:49 - 14:56] [Music]
[14:56 - 15:03] It was time that who y'all think created this style of music right here, that everyone
[15:03 - 15:32] knew the world. [Music]
[15:32 - 16:00] [Music]
[16:00 - 16:09] Sounds right. Can't shit about music. Go ahead.
[16:09 - 16:29] Go around and keep on saying it. [Music]
[16:29 - 16:35] Because like I said, every time y'all bring it up, I'll prove y'all wrong every day and time.
[16:38 - 16:49] Every day and time, though.
[16:49 - 18:33] [Music]
[18:33 - 18:39] So, tell me I don't know shit about music. Tell me I don't know anything about music.
[18:39 - 18:44] And you want to know what I'm going to do from now on, y'all? Y'all want to know what I'm going to
[18:44 - 18:50] do from now on? I'm going to be, I ain't going to be doing any more vocal work. Nah. You know what
[18:50 - 18:58] I'm going to do? I'm going to prove every one of you haters wrong and let my music speak for itself.
[18:58 - 19:06] Just like I should have done it last time ago. I should have done that a long time ago.
[19:06 - 19:20] Guess what? Your boy is back. The legend, Shadow Boy, is back from the dead.
[19:20 - 19:29] And I'm putting out new fucking music for your fucking ear holes to fucking rock out to.
[19:35 - 19:36] So be ready.
[19:36 - 19:45] Peace.