2021-5-22 a 2nd Chance

[0:00 - 0:28] This isn't going to be a very long video, but I do want to reach out to the company
[0:28 - 0:35] that I used to work with, that my good friend Enar does still work with.
[0:35 - 0:47] The first thought, let me say that I'm sorry about what I did and what had happened. There
[0:47 - 0:57] was no excuse for it. And I shouldn't have been so stupid to fall for what I fell for.
[0:57 - 1:13] But I cannot say over the last few weeks there were a lot. And I have done a lot of growing
[1:13 - 1:27] and a lot of thinking. I mean, I've learned a lot. The police, about a week after everything
[1:27 - 1:38] had happened, the police came down here to speak with me and they could have arrested
[1:38 - 1:46] me and they had every right to and every reason to. But instead of arresting me, they gave
[1:46 - 1:57] me a very fair warning to not do it again or I would be arrested next time. It was
[1:57 - 2:13] literally like a three hour conversation with them. And about two days after that, I was
[2:13 - 2:27] ready to kill me because of what had happened and what went down. And that really put the
[2:27 - 2:34] fear in me. That really put it into perspective for me to show that I don't need to be doing
[2:34 - 2:47] this crap. And I understand that if you guys do give me a chance, I do understand that
[2:47 - 2:53] you guys might feel a certain way about me for a while. And that's very understandable.
[2:53 - 3:08] But you guys can even ask Enoch for yourself. Ever since Enoch has known me, people have
[3:08 - 3:15] hated on me just because I look different, because I look weird to them. People have
[3:15 - 3:24] always hated on me just because. And a lot of the times I don't understand it myself.
[3:24 - 3:29] A lot of the times I don't understand why they hate me myself. Sometimes I question
[3:29 - 3:41] why they hate me. But I have actually gone to counseling. I know a lot of you guys that
[3:41 - 3:48] are in the chat right now are probably trolling. But there are some of you in there that are
[3:48 - 3:55] legit. And for those of you that don't know, I have been doing online therapy sessions
[3:55 - 4:01] once every few days. And I've been doing really well. I'm doing a lot better than
[4:01 - 4:15] what I was. And to the rest of Enoch's team, I just want you to know that if you guys
[4:15 - 4:21] do give me a chance, I'm willing to knuckle down. I'm willing to do what I need to do
[4:21 - 4:40] to make shit work. Yeah, I'm willing to do whatever it takes to knuckle down and do
[4:40 - 4:51] what I need to do. Shout out to Violet, what's good. But I also have been talking to my brother
[4:51 - 4:58] Sean recently as well. Quite a bit actually. Quite a bit I've been talking to him almost
[4:58 - 5:12] on a daily basis. And he's taught me a lot. And he's even shown me a lot that you take
[5:12 - 5:24] the biggest names in the world. Take the biggest names in the world. Like Steve Jobs,
[5:24 - 5:39] Donald Trump, Tesla, Henry Ford. Some of the biggest names in the world have made mistakes
[5:39 - 5:52] in their life. Some of them way worse than what I've done. But you know what they did?
[5:52 - 5:58] They learned from their mistakes and they grew from it. They learned from their mistakes
[5:58 - 6:08] and they never made them again. And one thing that my brother Sean taught me is this. You
[6:08 - 6:17] can either let someone's opinion about somebody that you know ruin what you're trying to
[6:17 - 6:33] build or you can ignore others opinions and keep that person in your circle. Now, like
[6:33 - 6:42] I said, I know that what I did was wrong. But as I said, I've learned my lesson and
[6:42 - 6:57] I've dealt with my punishment. I've lost friends because of what I've done. I've had my life
[6:57 - 7:11] put in very serious danger. And I've learned my lesson. I've learned to not do that again
[7:11 - 7:16] and to not fall for a troll like that again. Because I also did learn something about
[7:16 - 7:23] the person that trolled me. They do have a history of doing stuff like this and they
[7:23 - 7:32] have gone to jail for stuff like this in the past and point as well. And this is what
[7:32 - 7:40] I'm about to say does depend on if you guys give me a second chance or not. Do you really
[7:40 - 7:49] think that a year from now, two years from now, four, five, eight years from now, we
[7:49 - 7:58] won't have time to worry about these people that judge me, that want to troll me? No.
[7:58 - 8:09] We won't have time for it because we'll be too busy making money doing what we love.
[8:09 - 8:22] So the way I see it, we can either let these people continue to judge me and continue to
[8:22 - 8:37] shut me down or we can get back on the page that we were on and get back to making games.
[8:37 - 8:43] Or back to proving these people wrong because I don't know about you guys but I'm ready
[8:43 - 8:53] to work. I'm ready to bust my ass and do whatever you guys need me to do. I'm willing to do
[8:53 - 8:59] whatever I need to do to get back to where we need to be and I can understand that you
[8:59 - 9:05] guys might feel a certain way about me for a while and that's understandable. I don't
[9:05 - 9:20] blame you for that. But I do hope that when you guys see this video, I do hope that you
[9:20 - 9:28] guys take into consideration what I've said and I hope that you guys are willing to give
[9:28 - 9:36] me a second chance. Because like I said, some of the biggest names in the world have done
[9:36 - 9:50] very fucked up things. Very fucked up things. But look at what they did. They learned from
[9:50 - 10:07] their mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes. No one's perfect. We all make mistakes. But it's
[10:07 - 10:17] our choice to either let those mistakes define who we are or rise above it and back themselves
[10:17 - 10:30] from it. I mean, I'm choosing to better myself from it. I want to work. And something that
[10:30 - 10:42] I do want to bring up is not only am I doing this because I am sorry, because I truly
[10:42 - 10:53] am sorry. But over the next four to five months, my stepdad is going to be going into many
[10:53 - 11:00] major surgeries back to back. Over the course of the next four to six months, he's going
[11:00 - 11:09] to be going into major surgeries back to back to back. And we're not going to be able to
[11:09 - 11:20] do anything. We're not going to have an income at that time. And you know, stuff for me
[11:20 - 11:31] is at a standstill at the moment, so I'm not really able to do anything. So if you guys
[11:31 - 11:40] are going to give me my job back and help me create an income for my family and help
[11:40 - 11:49] keep me on the right track, I'm willing to bust my ass. I'm willing to work and do whatever
[11:49 - 11:59] you guys need me to do, whether it's the simplest things I was promoting, sound engineering,
[11:59 - 12:08] whatever you guys need me to do. I'm willing to work as hard as you need me to work. Every
[12:08 - 12:21] day, every night, all day, all night. Whatever it is you need me to do, I'll do it. Thank
[12:21 - 12:34] you guys for watching this, and I hope that you guys will seriously think about this and
[12:34 - 12:42] hopefully we can get back on the page that we were at and begin working again. Thank
[12:42 - 12:48] you. Peace.