2021-5-22 WY IS ME BEING DIFFERENT A BAD THING

[0:00 - 0:14] What up y'all, it's your boy. We need to talk about something, so let me cut this white off quick so y'all can actually see my ass.
[0:14 - 0:27] But we need to talk about something now. This is something that's literally been bugging me all day long for the past week and a half.
[0:27 - 0:34] Since I started jumping back into my music.
[0:34 - 0:48] Hey Black Momma what up. But this is something that I genuinely want to know and that I'm very confused on.
[0:48 - 0:51] Very confused on.
[0:51 - 1:02] Hey Rick what up. And what I'm confused on is this and this isn't you know me taking a jab at anyone.
[1:02 - 1:16] This isn't me being a dick. This is me genuinely wondering why the trolls, you trolls that want to troll me, want to keep me from my goals.
[1:16 - 1:27] Like it seems like every time I take a step in the right direction with my music, you guys want to drag me backwards.
[1:27 - 1:40] You want to drag me back. So my question to you guys is this. How is me being different a bad thing?
[1:40 - 1:51] Because something that a lot of people don't really realize is that in order to make it in the music industry, you have to stand out.
[1:51 - 1:58] You have to be different. Otherwise you're not going to get anywhere.
[1:58 - 2:04] But yet because of the bad reputation that the trolls have given me,
[2:04 - 2:15] I now have to face rejection email after rejection email every day from different record labels who genuinely enjoy my music.
[2:15 - 2:25] But because of the reputation that I've gained because of these trolls, knowing that they're doing this shit to spite me to fuck my life up,
[2:25 - 2:34] I now have to face rejection email after rejection email all day every day.
[2:34 - 2:47] Like where is it fair that you trolls get to decide my fate? Where is it fair that you trolls get to choose what I do with my life?
[2:47 - 2:59] Like last time I checked, I'm a fucking human being. I'm not a fucking video game character.
[2:59 - 3:07] I'm not like fucking, I'm not no fucking Super Mario or Link from The Legend of Zelda.
[3:07 - 3:14] I'm not some video game character that you can be like, oh, let's make his life go in this direction.
[3:14 - 3:21] Let's make him do this. Let's make him do that. Let's make him this, make him that, blah, blah, blah, no.
[3:21 - 3:25] That's not how life works, people.
[3:25 - 3:36] You know, I've busted my ass to find my sound. I've busted my ass for 10 plus years getting to where I want to be.
[3:36 - 3:42] And now that I've actually found my sound and my style,
[3:42 - 3:47] I'm busting my ass every day to get to where I want to be.
[3:47 - 3:56] And I wanted to keep this under wraps, but I feel like you guys deserve to know the fucking truth.
[3:56 - 4:00] I feel like you guys that do this for me deserve to know the truth.
[4:00 - 4:05] You want to know why I'm jumping back into my music so hardcore?
[4:05 - 4:12] Why I'm jumping back in and fighting for my fucking deal, fighting to get a record deal every day.
[4:12 - 4:21] You want to know why? It's not just because I deserve this shot. That's not just it.
[4:21 - 4:31] Okay, my stepdad is going into major surgery very soon, which he'll be out of work.
[4:31 - 4:37] And it's not just one surgery within a course of the net over the course of the next four months.
[4:37 - 4:45] He's going to be having 10 major surgeries back to fucking back, month after month,
[4:45 - 4:51] surgery after fucking surgery, day in and day out of the hospital,
[4:51 - 5:02] week in and week out over the course of the next four months.
[5:02 - 5:09] And we're not going to have a fucking income, which is why I'm fighting so hard
[5:09 - 5:16] so I can create that income so I can do what I need to fucking do with my music
[5:16 - 5:22] so I can be successful, so I can bring in that income so my fucking family doesn't
[5:22 - 5:32] ever have to worry about money ever again. For the last 10 years, I have busted my fucking ass.
[5:32 - 5:42] Putting out song after song after song, show after show after show right here from my bedroom,
[5:42 - 5:49] busting my ass, writing, recording, coming up with ideas, finding my sounds that I'm good with,
[5:49 - 5:57] finding my different styles that I'm good with. But yet all I get from you guys from the trolls
[5:57 - 6:06] is rejection after rejection like I don't deserve a chance, like I don't deserve a shot
[6:06 - 6:12] at getting a record deal and I'm not just talking some bullshit, oh I'll sign you,
[6:12 - 6:18] you know, I'm a record label, I'll sign you, no I'm not talking about those fake ass deals.
[6:18 - 6:24] I'm talking about a real shot at a real fucking record label,
[6:24 - 6:30] a real fucking record deal that can actually make me real fucking money.
[6:31 - 6:37] Because putting out the music, that's not hard for me to do, I can do that in my goddamn sleep.
[6:37 - 6:44] What is the problem is me being held back and not getting the chance
[6:44 - 6:49] that I deserve, the chance that I have fought for for so fucking long.
[6:49 - 6:58] I have busted my ass for 10 plus fucking years to get my shot,
[6:59 - 7:04] not just for myself but for my family who has given everything to me.
[7:04 - 7:10] Because I say my family has done so fucking much for me,
[7:10 - 7:16] my family has done everything they could to help get me to this point.
[7:16 - 7:23] Because I tell you, without my family's support, where would I fucking be?
[7:25 - 7:32] Without my family's support, I may not have even picked up the fucking mic again.
[7:32 - 7:36] I may not have continued on this journey that I started.
[7:36 - 7:44] But let me tell you right now, my family means everything to me.
[7:44 - 7:52] And I want to repay them by making it, doing what I love to do with my fucking music.
[7:54 - 7:57] And quite honestly, I'm sick of being held back.
[7:57 - 8:03] I'm sick of being held back by these fucking trolls.
[8:03 - 8:15] I'm sick of the bad reputation they outgained because of these fucking idiots.
[8:19 - 8:25] You know, you guys, you fucking trolls. Like, who's this one in the chat right here?
[8:25 - 8:33] 90 Scrunch Rock. Dude, let me tell you right now, motherfucker.
[8:33 - 8:45] The real Philogies, the real motherfuckers that have seen me, like, let's see, CIA, rec.
[8:49 - 8:53] Lomantic, AKA Violet. My friend, Violet.
[8:53 - 9:04] Reckington. Ignomantic. My own brother, Sean. AAA games.
[9:04 - 9:15] People who have actually sat down and watched me bust my ass, doing live recordings,
[9:16 - 9:23] busting my ass, creating music and then recording and doing what I need to do.
[9:23 - 9:30] You don't see the work that goes into it. These motherfuckers know how hard I fucking work.
[9:30 - 9:36] These motherfuckers have supported me since day one.
[9:36 - 9:42] They see the hard work that I put in. They see what I go through. They see the fucking struggle.
[9:42 - 9:51] And let me tell you right now, just the other day,
[9:51 - 9:56] I had motherfuckers that don't even fucking know me from a fucking hole in the wall.
[9:56 - 10:03] Actually, comment and get things on my music when I sent it to them on Facebook.
[10:03 - 10:10] 20 different fucking people in a group that I was in on Facebook actually enjoyed my music.
[10:10 - 10:15] You want to know why? Because I stand out. I'm different.
[10:15 - 10:24] Like, yes, I may look different. So what? I got a fucking bald head.
[10:24 - 10:29] I'm fucking balding. My hair's going to the sides. So fucking what?
[10:29 - 10:37] That shouldn't fucking matter. What should matter is my motherfucking music.
[10:38 - 10:43] Maybe if you actually shut your fucking mouth for five seconds
[10:43 - 10:48] and actually take a listen to my fucking music and the message that I'm putting out,
[10:48 - 10:54] maybe you'll actually understand where the fuck I'm coming from.
[10:54 - 11:02] Because quite honestly, I'm sick of being held back by you punk ass motherfucking trolls.
[11:02 - 11:09] I'm sick of it. You guys don't decide my fate, motherfuckers. I decide my fate.
[11:09 - 11:15] I'm not going to be held back by you punk ass. One of these fucking tough guys
[11:15 - 11:21] sitting there on a goddamn keyboard talking shit. I'm sick of it, man.
[11:21 - 11:29] Hell, just this morning I had so many messages that I didn't even know until today.
[11:31 - 11:36] I fucking, you want to know what happened this morning? This morning I opened up my Facebook,
[11:36 - 11:39] got a message request from some random person I don't even know.
[11:39 - 11:44] And you know what they said? They said I'm maybe 30 years old.
[11:44 - 11:50] But my voice, I could go somewhere because I sound like I'm in my 20s.
[11:50 - 11:58] Some random dude that I don't even fucking know said that sound
[11:59 - 12:03] so good that I actually sound like I'm younger than I actually am.
[12:03 - 12:08] And that my music actually has a very good message behind it.
[12:08 - 12:17] So you tell me that's not a goddamn sign that I don't deserve to be something.
[12:24 - 12:29] You're telling that's not a goddamn sign that I fucking don't deserve a shot.
[12:29 - 12:41] I'm sick of being fucking held back. I'm tired of it.
[12:41 - 12:51] Like I said, I want to leave a legacy of good shit behind. Not bad, negative crap.
[12:51 - 13:05] And yes, I get it. Some of you guys are gonna have your fucking opinions about me.
[13:05 - 13:12] And that's okay. You can have your opinion about me. I don't care.
[13:12 - 13:21] But when you take it from the point of it being an opinion to wanting to fucking ruin my life,
[13:22 - 13:27] all because I look different from you, that's where we have a fucking problem.
[13:27 - 13:31] So what? I look fucking different.
[13:31 - 13:43] This is me. This is me right here, motherfuckers. I look fucking different. So fucking what?
[13:45 - 13:51] So what if I look different than you guys? So fucking what? Who cares if I don't have
[13:51 - 14:00] hair on top of my fucking head? Who cares if I look weird? Who gives a fuck?
[14:00 - 14:07] Because at the end of the day, real fans ain't gonna give a fuck about how I look.
[14:09 - 14:16] The real fans ain't getting fuck about what I look like. They're gonna give a fuck about
[14:16 - 14:29] my music and what I can do. So all y'all stupid ass motherfuckers that I want to sit there and
[14:29 - 14:37] judge me based on my looks and not my fucking music and the message behind it, y'all sons of
[14:37 - 14:46] bitches can fuck off and kiss my goddamn ass. Because every single song I put out is about my
[14:46 - 14:56] life. There's a saying that Ryan O Church said a while back that is very fucking true.
[14:56 - 15:00] You can't write a song, you don't live.
[15:03 - 15:10] Because if you write a song you didn't live through, if you write a song about a life that
[15:10 - 15:17] you didn't live, you're a lifespan of music's gonna be that fucking long. And you can't fucking
[15:17 - 15:23] free roam it. You can't wing it like artists do that have actually gone through real shit.
[15:23 - 15:30] So when I talk about in my songs, when I talk about being on the edge of suicide,
[15:30 - 15:37] when I talk about waking up being depressed, when I talk about holding a fucking gun to my
[15:37 - 15:42] head and having a knife in my throat, I'm actually going through that shit. I've actually
[15:42 - 15:54] done that shit. I've actually dealt with that shit. So every single song I put out is a reflection
[15:54 - 16:06] of my life and where I've been through my entire fucking life. And yes, unlike others,
[16:06 - 16:13] I actually speak on that other artists won't speak about. I talk about the shit that most
[16:13 - 16:21] artists are afraid to talk about. I openly talk about my suicide attempts. I openly talk about
[16:21 - 16:28] my depression. I openly talk about my anxiety and the shit that I've gone through. Why? Because
[16:28 - 16:36] I want my music to be that music that somebody can fucking listen to and be like, Oh shit,
[16:36 - 16:44] this dude actually gets what I'm going through. I want my music to make a statement. I want my
[16:44 - 16:54] music to leave a mark for the next generation. I want my music to stand out from everyone else's.
[16:54 - 17:04] I want my music to be different. I want my music to make people think before they go off
[17:04 - 17:12] and attack, make you fucking think before you do something. My music is meant to make
[17:12 - 17:18] the fucking bully sink. What if I push this person to do this? Are they going to do this?
[17:18 - 17:21] What if I continue to bully them? Are they going to do this?
[17:21 - 17:30] My music is for that kid that sits alone in the back of the goddamn classroom,
[17:30 - 17:36] feeling like nobody gives a fuck. My music is for that girl that walks home from school
[17:36 - 17:42] with cuts on her goddamn wrist because motherfuckers want to sit there and bully her and push her to
[17:42 - 17:52] the fucking edge. My music is for that kid that sits alone in his room, crying his eyes out
[17:52 - 17:59] because his fucking parents are fighting so bad that he wants to run away. My music is for that
[17:59 - 18:08] kid who gets bullied in school so bad every day that he wants to end his life. Those are the
[18:08 - 18:16] people that my music is for. My music is for the outcast, the weirdos, the freaks, the people like
[18:16 - 18:29] myself who y'all motherfuckers in society deem different and not worthy. I do music. My music
[18:29 - 18:34] is for those that feel like they aren't good enough, for those that get outcasted by society,
[18:34 - 18:41] for the fucking weirdos, the freaks, the people that say, "Oh, this guy over here looks weird."
[18:41 - 18:47] Y'all guess what? That motherfucker you're calling weird? That's the motherfucker I do it for.
[18:47 - 18:57] I don't do it for you fucking pussies that want to judge. You can sit there and say that I suck
[18:57 - 19:02] all you fucking want, but I don't see you sitting down in the fucking booth recording.
[19:02 - 19:09] I don't see you putting out songs about your real life. I don't see you writing songs to fucking
[19:09 - 19:16] help people. All I see are you stupid ass motherfuckers sitting behind a goddamn computer keyboard
[19:16 - 19:23] being a fucking keyboard wall. No one likes you. You did this so no one likes you. You fell for
[19:23 - 19:29] this troll. You fell for this pedal troll so no one likes you, blah, blah, blah. Nah, motherfucker.
[19:29 - 19:40] Get over yourself. Get the fuck over yourself, man. My music isn't for everyone, motherfuckers.
[19:40 - 19:47] My music is for those that are outcasts, for people that society deem unworthy.
[19:47 - 19:55] Those are the motherfuckers that I do it for. The fucking weirdos, the freaks, the strange ones,
[19:55 - 20:05] the odd ones, the crazy creepy motherfuckers. I do it for that dude that's sitting there in a fucking
[20:05 - 20:12] emo outfit with skinny jeans and a t-shirt blaring fucking suicide silence and cradle of filth
[20:12 - 20:19] and getting judged. I do it for that weird gothic dude who goes to school wearing makeup
[20:19 - 20:26] and black fingernails looking weird as fuck. I do it for the fucking weaves, for the fucking otaku
[20:26 - 20:31] and the anime nerds that go to school dressed up as their favorite fucking anime characters
[20:31 - 20:38] and get bullied because of it. Those are the motherfuckers that I do it for. I don't do it
[20:38 - 20:48] for the mainstream bitches that want to judge other people. I do it for the weirdos and the
[20:48 - 20:56] outcasts, the people that feel like they don't have someone to turn to. I want my music
[20:56 - 21:04] to be able to help people. I want people to be able to, you know, when they feel like they're
[21:04 - 21:11] alone and they ain't got nobody, I want my music to be able to tell them, "Hey, you're not alone.
[21:11 - 21:16] You got somebody here who has gone through this shit. Who knows what it's like to be where you are."
[21:16 - 21:26] Those are the motherfuckers that I do it for. I don't do it for you mainstream bitch-ass pussies
[21:26 - 21:33] who sit up on the fucking internet and go, "Oh, let me troll this guy. Let me do this. Let me do
[21:33 - 21:38] that now, motherfucker. I don't do that shit for you pussy-ass little faggots."
[21:38 - 21:49] Like I said, I may be weird. I may look fucking different. I may look strange to you.
[21:49 - 21:57] Yes, I may look like one of the people from Hills have eyes, but so fucking what? At the end of the
[21:57 - 22:04] day, it's not about the goddamn looks, it's about the fucking music and the message behind it.
[22:04 - 22:18] It's about the message behind the fucking music. And yeah, I'm fucking pissed, man,
[22:18 - 22:24] because one, I already proved I'm not a fucking pedo. I done proved that shit a million times
[22:24 - 22:32] over to y'all, so I don't know why the fuck y'all... But, I'm laughing. Because to me,
[22:32 - 22:38] it's funny that y'all are still calling me that when I done proved your fucking asses wrong.
[22:38 - 22:39] I love it.
[22:39 - 22:48] I love the fact that y'all say that shit because it reminds me every day
[22:48 - 22:50] that I get to prove y'all motherfuckers wrong.
[22:50 - 23:08] But what I am angry about is that y'all motherfuckers that want to attack me hate so bad.
[23:08 - 23:13] You hate me so bad all because I look different from you.
[23:13 - 23:18] They don't do anything to keep me from reaching my goals.
[23:18 - 23:27] And let me ask you this, where is that fair to me? Where is that fair
[23:27 - 23:32] that doesn't look different from you? You have a right to keep me from doing what I want to do.
[23:32 - 23:38] Where is it fair that you keep me from my fucking goals? Where do you have that right?
[23:38 - 23:42] Where do you have that right to keep somebody that looks different
[23:42 - 23:47] from doing what they want to do with their life? Where do you have that right?
[23:48 - 23:54] Where is it fair that people like myself who look different and look weird
[23:54 - 24:01] are the ones that get shit stolen from us? We get our dreams taken away and smashed on
[24:01 - 24:08] and then we're not able to do anything. Where is that fair?
[24:08 - 24:12] How for that matter, where is that even right?
[24:16 - 24:18] Where is that even okay?
[24:18 - 24:24] I would I would seriously like to know this
[24:24 - 24:30] because I said a lot of y'all motherfuckers that are up in the chat you're just looking
[24:30 - 24:36] to start drama. A lot of y'all motherfuckers that are up in the chat right now doing fucking
[24:36 - 24:41] troll shit. Something isn't just fucking trolling, you're being stupid and petty.
[24:41 - 24:44] You're looking for a reason to start trouble.
[24:44 - 25:01] That's all you guys are doing, you're looking for a reason to start shit. That's all it is.
[25:01 - 25:11] Matter of fact, let me play you guys a brand new song
[25:12 - 25:18] that I just released a little bit ago on my music profile. Now if you guys would like to check out
[25:18 - 25:28] my music on my music YouTube channel or my channel for my music, link is in the description.
[25:28 - 25:51] Why is it that every night when I go to sleep, I just want to die?
[25:54 - 26:04] Every night when I close my eyes, all I see is a memory of you. I don't care about everything
[26:04 - 26:17] that you fucking don't believe, I don't understand that why. The day you had to attack me, judge me,
[26:17 - 26:28] name me, break me, criticize and abuse me. I just want to get away from all of those.
[26:28 - 26:36] Maybe I should take the knife, put it to my fucking throat and do my life. Maybe then
[26:36 - 26:43] all this pain and suffering will fucking end and I should move over my life.
[26:46 - 26:57] Why is it that I'm always going to attack and move by? Everyone in society always wants
[26:57 - 27:05] to look back and funny and judge me. That's why I just fucked up.
[27:16 - 27:26] I don't understand why. I can't get rid of the agony of this pain and suffering
[27:26 - 27:35] that have been through us. Crippling down so we may feel like some work lost.
[27:35 - 27:42] Like I'm fucking nothing. God damn this fucking hurts and isn't right.
[27:43 - 27:55] I don't understand why I am doing it now because this kind of thing is really in the eyes then.
[27:55 - 28:04] The love that you're taking, stabbing, stabbing, cuss at night.
[28:06 - 28:15] Do you really want me to have my life for no again? I've got the fucking knife to my neck
[28:15 - 28:24] that you put in me. May just put my throat down and everything. Because of all of you I've gone
[28:24 - 28:35] suicide on my mind every day and night. And I can't even get away from my life.
[28:35 - 28:46] Watch this. Hey look we got troll calling. Ah son of a bitch.
[28:46 - 28:53] Oh well. I guess it wasn't important because they just hung up.
[28:53 - 29:01] Yes it wasn't important because they just hung up on me. Oh well.
[29:01 - 29:17] Oh no here we go. Let's get these trolls.
[29:17 - 29:24] Hello. What's wrong with your head dude? What's wrong with your face bitch?
[29:24 - 29:48] No let's fucking get it. How many motherfuckers you know can do this?
[29:52 - 29:56] Now I want your guy's honest opinion man. This one's for all the real fucking fans
[29:56 - 30:13] out there that do this for me. How many motherfuckers do you know that can do what I'm about to do?
[30:18 - 30:32] Why is it that every day and night you want me to talk in my head. Can I just tell the end of the
[30:32 - 30:45] long chat? Because I'm not my just one inside. And I don't understand how you can judge that
[30:45 - 30:56] I'm telling you baby. What the fuck is the prank we got? This is the right amount.
[30:56 - 31:08] I don't understand why you have to be a fucking bitch and you're less kind of lying.
[31:09 - 31:26] You think that you know why not like I do? All I know is that you're the kind of everyone that you
[31:26 - 31:40] like. You're the end of suicide every day and night. I always say those are the ways that I can
[31:40 - 32:05] die. God, I just want this pain to wake. So I can't let my life go up to the heavens in the sky.
[32:08 - 32:25] Maybe then I can take it by. To this dark and evil world that I'm facing. Nobody understands the
[32:26 - 32:40] pain that I deal with every day. It's not the violation of my life every day and night.
[32:40 - 32:57] Wish you might go away. God, I just want to fucking die. God, go to the heavens in the sky.
[32:58 - 33:17] Get off my phone or the motherfucker can die. You're so sick of suicide.
[33:22 - 33:46] God how many motherfuckers do you know that can scream over a low sounding low tempo hip-hop beat?
[33:47 - 33:57] Oh look, we got another fucking bitch calling. Hello? Hey faggot bitch, hey go fuck yourself.
[33:57 - 34:09] Don't fuck yourself pussy. But for real man, how many motherfuckers do you know
[34:09 - 34:18] that can fucking do that? For real, how many motherfuckers you know can scream over a goddamn
[34:18 - 34:26] hip-hop beat like that? Watch this, y'all. Go fuck yourself, bitch.
[34:26 - 34:36] Now y'all motherfuckers see why I belong in a goddamn recording studio. Now y'all see why I
[34:36 - 34:45] fucking deserve my shot. Now y'all see why I need to be doing this shit. I'm sick of being held back
[34:45 - 34:56] by all y'all, man. I'm sick of being held back by you fucking pussies. I'm sick of being held back
[34:56 - 35:06] by you fucking haters. I'm sick of being told what I can and can't do. My life ain't in your hands,
[35:06 - 35:14] man. My life ain't yours to control. I'm not some fucking video game character, bitch.
[35:14 - 35:19] I'm not no goddamn video game character that you give fucking control.
[35:23 - 35:27] If you're hearing a judge, go fuck yourself.
[35:27 - 35:38] I'm sick of it, man. I'm sick of all you fucking trolls acting like, "Oh, I can control this guy."
[35:38 - 35:44] Bitch, you can't control shit. Worry about yourselves.
[35:44 - 35:52] Stop worrying about me. Worry about your goddamn selves. Worry about your life, not mine.
[35:53 - 36:01] Because my life ain't your goddamn business. What I do outside of this fucking screen,
[36:01 - 36:10] what I do with my life, whether I decide to go into doing my artwork full-time, whether I decide
[36:10 - 36:15] to get a fucking bullshit 9-5 job, or whether I decide to go after my fucking music career,
[36:15 - 36:32] ain't your goddamn business. It's mine. Hello? Man, get the fuck out of here, fucking thing.
[36:32 - 36:41] Hello? Where's your mom, bitch? Where's your mom, bitch?
[36:42 - 36:52] For real. I'm fucking sick of this shit, man. Like I said, dude, y'all don't control my life.
[36:52 - 36:56] I control my goddamn life.
[36:56 - 37:05] Y'all pussy-ass little faggots want to sit there and run your mouth about me? Well, guess fucking
[37:05 - 37:14] what? Time to fight back, bitch. Y'all can't handle when I fight back, can ya? Y'all can't
[37:14 - 37:20] handle the fact that this motherfucker actually fights back, can you? No. Because how do you
[37:20 - 37:27] motherfuckers sit behind a goddamn computer keyboard and play judge? You try to play God.
[37:30 - 37:36] That's all you guys try to do. Y'all motherfuckers that hate and want to judge,
[37:36 - 37:43] y'all motherfuckers got a goddamn God complex, bitch. You ain't God. You can't judgment me.
[37:43 - 37:50] You ain't my mama. You ain't my daddy. You don't get to decide what I do with my life.
[37:50 - 37:57] I get to decide what I do with my life. And let me tell you, I'm not going to sit there and be
[37:57 - 38:02] held back by a bunch of fucking wannabe music artists thinking that they're hot shit when
[38:02 - 38:11] really they're fucking trash. Y'all motherfuckers want to sit there and judge me? Well, go ahead
[38:11 - 38:18] and judge me all you want, motherfuckers. But at the end of the day, you guys don't fucking decide
[38:18 - 38:26] my fate. I decide my fate. I decide what to do with my life. I ain't your goddamn video game
[38:26 - 38:34] character, bitch. You don't control where I go, what I do. I do whatever the fuck I want to do,
[38:34 - 38:44] regardless of what you fucking think. So y'all stupid ass little fucking idiots that think you
[38:44 - 38:58] can control me. Go with you, man. Y'all don't control me. I control me, bitch.
[38:58 - 39:10] I control my life. And by the way, it's all y'all fucking trolls.
[39:12 - 39:19] Get the fuck off the internet and quit being lazy. For real. Y'all ain't doing nothing but
[39:19 - 39:26] sitting out here talking shit. So watch y'all quit being fucking lazy and quit being a bunch
[39:26 - 39:33] of fucking morons acting like you're tough shit because, dude, y'all motherfuckers that act like
[39:33 - 39:42] you're tough shit, really, you're not. You're really not tough shit. You're really not the
[39:42 - 39:51] badasses that you make yourselves out to be. You're really not. You're just a bunch of fucking
[39:51 - 39:59] losers running their fucking mouths talking shit. That's all you're doing. Y'all a shout out to
[39:59 - 40:10] Andrew C. What's good? And like I said, I'm proud to be weird. Oi, I am proud to stand out. I'm
[40:10 - 40:16] proud to be a fucking freak. I'm proud to be a weirdo. I'm proud to be the motherfucker that
[40:16 - 40:23] y'all stare at. Because let's face it, man. Love me or hate me, you guys still fucking watch me.
[40:23 - 40:32] You're still entertained by me. Face it. Why don't you just face it? Nothing you can do
[40:32 - 40:36] will ever fucking break me. Nothing you do will ever destroy me.
[40:36 - 40:44] So y'all fucking pussies that think you're gonna get in my way and stop me,
[40:44 - 40:47] y'all can fucking kick rocks and go the fuck somewhere else.
[40:50 - 40:56] Because I came here to do one fucking thing. I came here to do one fucking thing, dude.
[40:56 - 41:02] And that is to make my fucking dreams of making a music for my fucking family
[41:02 - 41:08] of reality. And I'm not gonna be held back by you motherfuckers anymore. I'm done.
[41:19 - 41:24] And let me tell you, I'm not backing down or bouncing down to no motherfucking body.
[41:24 - 41:33] You wanna know what I'm doing? I'm grabbing my fucking dreams and I'm running with it.
[41:33 - 41:38] I'm grabbing legs by the motherfucking neck, sinking my goddamn teeth in, biting that
[41:38 - 41:44] motherfucking head off, and showing people that I'm not bowing down. And then I got the gut,
[41:44 - 41:51] and then I got the fucking grit to do what I got new to fucking making. I don't care if I gotta
[41:51 - 41:57] do like I used to do when I first started in music. I don't care if I gotta go two, three,
[41:57 - 42:04] four, five days with no sleep and a shit ton of coffee just to get there. I'll do whatever the
[42:04 - 42:10] fucking takes to get there. I don't give a fuck. I don't care if I have to lose sleep over it.
[42:10 - 42:22] I don't care what I have to fucking do. Because at the end of the day, I'ma do me.
[42:22 - 42:26] Y'all trolls, stay the fuck in your own lane.
[42:26 - 42:30] And quit trying to fucking ruin shit.
[42:30 - 42:36] Because I'm not bowing down to you motherfuckers anymore.
[42:39 - 42:43] I'm gonna do my music. Now if you do want to support me,
[42:43 - 42:46] and you do want to help me get a legitimate record deal,
[42:46 - 42:51] and I'm not talking some fake ass one that you guys make up, I'm talking about an actual
[42:51 - 42:57] record label. If one of y'all wants to actually help me with that, by all means, go for it.
[42:57 - 43:05] By all means, if you do genuinely and truthfully and honestly do want to help me get somewhere,
[43:06 - 43:12] by all means, you're more than welcome to help. But if you're here to control me,
[43:12 - 43:15] that piss off, hit the rug, kick rocks.
[43:15 - 43:27] Because I came here to do one thing, and that's make sure my family never has to struggle again,
[43:27 - 43:32] and that I can give back to my family what they've given to me all these years.
[43:39 - 43:46] I owe my family everything. And I'm only doing what's right by trying to do
[43:46 - 43:52] what I can to give back to those that gave to me.
[43:55 - 43:59] That's all I'm here to do. Make money off my fucking music,
[43:59 - 44:01] and give back to those that have given everything to me.
[44:03 - 44:06] And if you can't fucking get behind that, then I don't know what to tell you.
[44:09 - 44:14] But if you're fucking with me, I appreciate you. If you're not, well, hit the fucking rug,
[44:14 - 44:19] kick fucking rocks and go somewhere else. Because I ain't got no goddamn time for that shit.
[44:21 - 44:28] I got no time for bullshit. I only got time for two things, music and money.
[44:30 - 44:35] Those are the only two things I got time for, music and motherfucking money.
[44:35 - 44:39] I got no time for you little bitch ass haters.
[44:41 - 44:44] Let me tell you right now, from now on,
[44:46 - 44:54] There's only two things I'm about, my fucking music and my fucking money and making shit happen.
[44:58 - 45:01] I ain't about that fucking bullshit that y'all are on.
[45:05 - 45:10] I'm here to do two things, get that money and get that record deal from my family.
[45:12 - 45:16] So if you're fucking with me, what up? If you ain't, piss off.
[45:22 - 45:29] Cuz like I said, if it ain't, let me tell you all right now, I'm gonna quote one of the lines
[45:29 - 45:34] from my brother and mentor, Koda Oda's song, Rock City.
[45:35 - 45:38] If it ain't about money, then it's dumb as fuck.
[45:42 - 45:44] I'm all about my pizza, the small sound.
[45:48 - 45:49] And that's facts.
[45:51 - 45:53] He's the same way how I am.
[45:55 - 46:02] He's about his money and he was about his fucking money and about those that fucked with him.
[46:02 - 46:09] He was about his fucking money and helping those out that he saw as family,
[46:09 - 46:12] people like myself who he believed in.
[46:13 - 46:14] And that's how I am.
[46:15 - 46:19] Why do you think every time my brother Bradley puts out a brand new fucking song,
[46:19 - 46:22] I always check it out live on stream.
[46:25 - 46:28] Like, bro, why do you think I'm always on Facebook,
[46:28 - 46:31] checking out other artists, showing them love,
[46:31 - 46:36] showing other digital artists like myself who do creepy and weird artwork?
[46:36 - 46:38] Why do you think I show them love?
[46:38 - 46:42] Why do you think I have my fucking art shop up and running for y'all, man?
[46:43 - 46:47] Which yes, I will be posting my art shop link on my channel on here.
[46:49 - 46:52] So y'all can go pick up some dope ass fucking merch.
[46:52 - 46:56] Y'all can go pick up some dope ass Oddworld artwork merch.
[46:58 - 47:02] So like I said, man, I'm done with the bullshit.
[47:03 - 47:07] If it ain't about fucking money or you ain't gonna give me a fucking record deal,
[47:07 - 47:08] I don't wanna hear.
[47:09 - 47:12] If it's about negativity, I don't need it.
[47:16 - 47:18] Like I said, there's only two things that I'm about.
[47:20 - 47:24] My money and a fucking record deal to help my family.
[47:24 - 47:26] That was the only two things I'm about.
[47:27 - 47:31] So if you wanna fake shit, get the fuck out of here.
[47:31 - 47:32] I got no time.
[47:38 - 47:40] But shout out to all the real OGs that fuck with me, man.
[47:43 - 47:48] Now, for those wondering about Oddworld Art Shop,
[47:48 - 47:51] yes, I did restart my art collections.
[47:51 - 47:56] I did pick back up on my Oddworld Art series.
[47:56 - 48:00] I did pick back up on my Nightmare Art series.
[48:00 - 48:03] And yes, I am putting out some dope ass merch for you guys
[48:03 - 48:10] that actually contain the Nightmare Art series that you guys that support me enjoy.
[48:20 - 48:21] Wait, what?
[48:21 - 48:23] What about Heather Norway fans?
[48:31 - 48:40] Actually, dude, I don't do that paint by number shit, bro.
[48:42 - 48:43] I don't do that shit.
[48:43 - 48:46] You might, you might do that, DJ.
[48:46 - 48:48] You might do that paint by number shit, but I don't.
[48:50 - 48:51] That ain't me.
[48:52 - 48:56] I do real creepy, dark, weird art that people enjoy.
[48:59 - 49:02] Hell, crack joints seem my work.
[49:02 - 49:04] CGC is seeing my shit.
[49:04 - 49:06] GG, I don't want to see my shit.
[49:09 - 49:11] Violet see my shit, Marty see my shit.
[49:11 - 49:16] So yeah, I'm a real fucking artist at more ways than one.
[49:16 - 49:22] And like I said, if it ain't about money, then y'all can miss me with that shit.
[49:22 - 49:22] I'm gone.
[49:25 - 49:29] But if it is about money and you want to talk business, we can talk business.
[49:32 - 49:37] If you're, if you're legitimately for real and you want to talk business,
[49:37 - 49:39] hell, we can talk money, man.
[49:39 - 49:40] Let's talk fucking money.
[49:44 - 49:50] If y'all want to fuck with me and you want to help me get somewhere, let's go.
[49:53 - 49:56] Because if there's two things, if there's one thing I might not have,
[49:56 - 50:00] I might not have money, but I'll tell you one thing right the fuck now.
[50:02 - 50:05] I've got more talent in my little fucking pinky than most
[50:05 - 50:10] people have in their whole goddamn body, straight up.
[50:10 - 50:16] Not only do I do dope ass fucking dark, creepy artwork that people fucking love,
[50:16 - 50:21] but I also do dope ass music that can relate to people.
[50:24 - 50:26] So yeah, I got shit going for me.
[50:26 - 50:29] I got shit that I can fucking do.
[50:29 - 50:34] So like I said, if you're fucking with me, hit me up on Discord.
[50:34 - 50:36] Hit me up on Facebook.
[50:36 - 50:38] Let's talk fucking money.
[50:38 - 50:39] I'll make a deal with you.
[50:39 - 50:45] We'll talk business, whether it's with my artwork or whether it's with my music.
[50:45 - 50:46] I don't care which.
[50:50 - 50:53] If you want to talk about getting my artwork out there the right way
[50:53 - 50:57] and getting in front of the right people to where you can get into the gallery
[50:57 - 51:01] and not to make money from it, fuck yeah, let's talk business.
[51:01 - 51:06] If you want to promote my fucking art shop and help me bring in real fucking money off it,
[51:06 - 51:07] fuck it, let's do it.
[51:07 - 51:10] I'm gay, let's go.
[51:10 - 51:13] And if you want to give me a fucking record deal,
[51:13 - 51:18] a legitimate record deal or have a connection to a very real record label,
[51:18 - 51:22] fuck it, man, let's do it.
[51:22 - 51:24] Let's fucking get that money, dude.
[51:24 - 51:28] But all I know is I'm about my fucking business
[51:28 - 51:31] and I'm not gonna be some fucking pushover
[51:31 - 51:33] that y'all cowards can push around no more.
[51:33 - 51:38] Now, if y'all do want to hit me up on Discord,
[51:38 - 51:42] I'm more than willing to send you guys my art shop point.
[51:42 - 51:47] Because if y'all can help me bring in that fucking money, let's do it.
[51:47 - 51:50] Let's fucking get it.
[51:50 - 51:57] So from here on out, no more fucking bullshit.
[51:58 - 52:00] No more haters coming at me.
[52:00 - 52:03] No more negativity.
[52:03 - 52:05] No more troll negativity.
[52:05 - 52:10] Only positivity and fucking business and money up in here.
[52:10 - 52:12] Ain't nobody got no time for that negative shit.
[52:12 - 52:14] - Yeah? - Yeah.
[52:14 - 52:20] Peace.