2021-5-21 Smile of death

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[29:42 - 29:44] Where's all my scarred ones at?
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[29:52 - 29:56] I'm not talking about the face, I'm talking about the real scarred ones. Where are you guys at right now?
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[30:30 - 30:36] You know what? I'm going to take it over, not you. Yeah, hold on.
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[33:28 - 33:30] Hey Vi, what's up?
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[35:34 - 35:47] All y'all OG fans, y'all know this one. You guys ready? All my OG fans know this song. You guys ready? Let's go.
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[38:59 - 39:09] You know, let me speak on this for a minute. Let me speak on this for a minute.
[39:09 - 39:23] 'Cause I'm seeing all this negative crap in the comments, dude. Like, I'm seeing all this negative bullshit going on.
[39:23 - 39:40] And like, I find it funny. 'Cause y'all that are trolling, you guys say that I suck. But yet, today I had about 20 different people on Facebook that don't even know me.
[39:40 - 40:04] Seeing how much they liked my song, anxiety, and a couple of my other tracks. And they weren't just saying it either. There was one dude that flat out compared me and basically said, "Yo, you're the next little peep. You're the motherfucker that can keep his shit alive. You're the motherfucker that can carry on that style."
[40:04 - 40:16] I had one dude freakin' comparing it to three different people. There was one dude that compared me to Chester Bennington, Jonathan Davis, and Lil Peep. All three of those motherfuckers.
[40:16 - 40:33] Twenty different fuckin' people saying they like my work. So for all y'all fuckin' idiots out there, why don't you wake up and realize that maybe you guys are wrong?
[40:33 - 40:47] Did you ever start to think for a minute that maybe you guys were wrong about me? That I actually am good and that you just wanna hate to be spiteful? Did you ever think about that?
[40:54 - 41:03] 'Cause apparently you guys have never heard Lil Peep before and the actual good music that he actually puts out.
[41:08 - 41:24] Wait, I just find it funny that y'all wanna sit there and bash and judge and attack and then when somebody like me fires back on you and stands up for myself, y'all start gettin' insecure.
[41:27 - 41:40] And there's somethin' else that I find funny too. It's that day, I'm just sayin' those days that I was on the edge of suicide on the "Asshole Reports" channel.
[41:40 - 41:53] See, I find this funny. Y'all wanna push and push and push and push until I actually try to end my life. And then when I do actually attempt suicide, y'all wanna die with that.
[41:53 - 41:58] 'Cause it's then at that point that y'all realize the severity of what you do.
[41:58 - 42:12] It's like, y'all wanna attack and attack and attack and then when somebody like me comes along and actually does try to end our life, y'all wanna die with that.
[42:12 - 42:26] Y'all wanna start carein' that. Y'all wanna start bein' like, "Oh, we was just a joke now, motherfucker." It wasn't a joke. You know what you did. You know what you fuckin' did.
[42:26 - 42:54] I don't think I can see that Kiwi Farms thread on me, dude. And I laugh. Like, I'm not even mad about that Kiwi Farms shit, dude. I actually laughed at that.
[42:54 - 43:08] I would genuinely laugh at that because half the shit on Kiwi Farms that's about me isn't even fuckin' true. Half the shit on there is fuckin' bogus and fake as fuck.
[43:08 - 43:24] Shit, I look like the dude from Hills have eyes. Bitch, please. Not even close, my dude. Not even close.
[43:24 - 43:50] Like, for real, man. Y'all wasn't there callin' now because you know you're gettin' caught.
[43:50 - 44:01] I find it funny, man. Like, see, I do these shows to spread positivity and to help people, not to be negative.
[44:01 - 44:17] See, I wanna help people through my music. I wanna help people through, like, matter of fact, my cover photo is actually one of my art pieces that I did fairly recently.
[44:17 - 44:27] Say, you know, like, I wanna be able to help people through my music and through my artwork, and a lot of my artwork and my music has helped people over the years.
[44:27 - 44:41] And regardless of what you trolls say, I'm not gonna stop. Regardless of what you do, I'm gonna make my dreams a reality. I'm gonna make it for my family no matter what you say or no matter what you do.
[44:41 - 44:50] I cannot be broken. You're not gonna break me like you did before.
[44:50 - 44:51] Yeah?
[44:51 - 44:53] Yeah.
[44:53 - 45:00] Oh, no.
[45:00 - 45:01] What?
[45:01 - 45:03] Really cooler up there?
[45:03 - 45:05] Yeah, a lot of that water.
[45:05 - 45:07] Oh, it's gonna be cool nails set for us.
[45:07 - 45:08] Really?
[45:08 - 45:13] My wheels turn on, turn on the AC.
[45:13 - 45:17] For me, you can only left it on heat.
[45:17 - 45:20] That is really cool.
[45:20 - 45:21] No worries.
[45:21 - 45:23] Yeah, well, it's not gonna be no more.
[45:23 - 45:25] Nails make the chorus.
[45:25 - 45:26] Sure.
[45:26 - 45:29] We're gonna do it.
[45:29 - 45:33] I should have her look a few facts while we met you.
[45:33 - 45:36] She's good at all that stuff.
[45:36 - 45:37] She's not here.
[45:37 - 45:39] Oh, I'm gonna walk.
[45:39 - 45:41] Walk?
[45:41 - 45:43] No.
[45:43 - 45:46] Oh, let's just scratch this one.
[45:46 - 45:51] Well, we forget, let's move the furniture.
[45:51 - 46:10] Something's going to be your wall.
[46:10 - 46:14] So they all had to take care of some right quick, but we are good.
[46:14 - 46:20] But I just want to say, man, I want to say thank you to all the real supporters out there.
[46:20 - 46:27] All the real supporters that actually support my music and support my work and what I do.
[46:27 - 46:30] I fucking love every one of you guys.
[46:30 - 46:36] And like I've said before, my music isn't for everyone.
[46:36 - 46:40] It's not meant to be for everyone.
[46:40 - 46:46] My music is for those that are lost.
[46:46 - 46:49] My music is for those that feel alone.
[46:49 - 46:53] For those like me, they get bullied every day.
[46:53 - 46:55] That's the people I do music for.
[46:55 - 46:56] I do this.
[46:56 - 46:58] Dude, let me play it this way, man.
[46:58 - 47:07] I do my music for that kid that sits in the back of the class wondering when this bullying is going to end.
[47:07 - 47:13] I do this for that girl that walks home from school with cuts on her arm
[47:13 - 47:21] because of people bullying her so bad she feels like she has to cut herself just to feel something.
[47:21 - 47:37] I do this shit for those that feel like they don't have anything or anywhere to turn to.
[47:37 - 47:44] I do this for those like myself that get outcasted by people like you guys
[47:44 - 47:47] not only on the internet but every day in society.
[47:47 - 47:49] And shout out to Ignimmatic.
[47:49 - 47:51] What's good, bro?
[47:51 - 47:58] Shout out to Iggy. What's up, man?
[47:58 - 48:27] I'm not going to bad this song right here is going out to those.
[48:27 - 48:39] That are alone, that feel alone in the dark, that feel like they don't have anywhere to turn.
[48:40 - 48:46] I don't like my mind right now stacking up problems that are so unnecessary.
[48:46 - 48:49] I wish that I could slow things down.
[48:49 - 48:53] I want to let go of this comfort in the panic.
[48:53 - 48:59] And I drive myself crazy thinking everything's about me.
[48:59 - 49:09] And here I drive myself crazy because I can't escape the gravity blowing up.
[49:09 - 49:15] Why is everything so heavy, blowing up?
[49:15 - 49:18] So much more than I can carry.
[49:18 - 49:22] I keep dragging around, what's bringing me down?
[49:22 - 49:28] If I just let go, I'd be suffering, blowing up.
[49:28 - 49:31] Why is everything so heavy?
[49:31 - 49:34] You said I don't care if you know it.
[49:34 - 49:37] But I'm pretty sure the water's out to get me.
[49:37 - 49:40] It's not like I make the choice.
[49:40 - 49:44] So let my mind stay so fucking messy.
[49:44 - 49:47] I know I'm not the same, I'm not the human first.
[49:47 - 49:50] But you keep spinning around me just the same.
[49:50 - 49:53] I know I'm not the same, I'm not the human first.
[49:53 - 49:56] But you keep spinning around me just the same.
[49:56 - 50:00] I'm holding on.
[50:00 - 50:06] Why is everything so heavy, holding on?
[50:06 - 50:09] So much more than I can carry.
[50:09 - 50:13] I keep dragging around, what's bringing me down?
[50:13 - 50:19] If I just let go, I'd be suffering, blowing up.
[50:19 - 50:22] Why is everything so heavy?
[50:22 - 50:26] I know I'm not the same, I'm not the human first.
[50:26 - 50:29] But you keep spinning around me just the same.
[50:29 - 50:32] I know I'm not the same, I'm not the human last.
[50:32 - 50:35] But you keep spinning around me just the same.
[50:35 - 50:38] And I try to be like so crazy.
[50:38 - 50:41] You keep telling me please don't drop me.
[50:41 - 50:45] I'm holding on.
[50:45 - 50:48] Why is everything so heavy?
[50:48 - 50:52] Holding on.
[50:52 - 50:54] So much more than I can carry.
[50:54 - 50:58] I keep dragging around, what's bringing me down?
[50:58 - 51:04] If I just let go, I'd be suffering, blowing up.
[51:04 - 51:21] Why is everything so heavy?
[51:21 - 51:32] Y'all keep calling in all you fucking want.
[51:32 - 51:36] I'll just keep on ignoring your goddamn calls, man.
[51:36 - 51:39] All y'all that want to call in on their private numbers, go ahead.
[51:39 - 51:41] I'll just ignore them.
[51:41 - 51:46] It's called swiping and ignoring the calls.
[51:46 - 51:48] So go ahead, keep going in.
[51:48 - 51:57] I'll keep on just swiping away and ignoring the calls.
[51:57 - 52:00] So go ahead, keep going in.
[52:01 - 52:03] Okay.
[52:04 - 52:07] Go ahead and keep on calling in all I just keep ignoring the calls.
[52:07 - 52:20] I'll keep on just swiping away and ignoring the calls.
[52:20 - 52:24] So go ahead and keep on just swiping away and ignoring the calls.
[52:24 - 52:32] I'll keep on just swiping away and ignoring the calls.
[52:32 - 52:35] Y'all just keep ignoring them.
[52:35 - 52:37] Y'all may as well just give up with this shit.
[52:37 - 52:39] I'm just going to ignore the calls.
[52:39 - 52:42] So just give the fuck up.
[52:42 - 52:46] You're not fooling anybody.
[52:46 - 52:48] And you're not making me mad either.
[52:48 - 52:50] And you're not annoying me.
[52:50 - 52:53] I'm just going to sit here and just keep on ignoring them.
[52:53 - 52:56] So go ahead and keep calling all you want.
[52:56 - 52:58] I don't care.
[53:01 - 53:04] Y'all ain't annoying me. Y'all ain't pissing me off.
[53:04 - 53:07] Y'all ain't doing nothing but wasting your damn breath.
[53:07 - 53:15] Not in fact, watch this.
[53:15 - 53:19] Not in fact, watch this, y'all.
[53:19 - 53:24] Look, man, I don't know why I'm calling.
[53:24 - 53:27] But you need to quit wasting your motherfucking time and quit calling, bro.
[53:27 - 53:30] If you ain't pissing me off, you're not doing anything, bro.
[53:30 - 53:33] Stop wasting your damn breath. So give up, dude, for real.
[53:33 - 53:36] Quit being a fucking troll with this song.
[53:36 - 53:44] For real, man. Quit wasting y'all's breath.
[53:44 - 53:55] Now, this here is a brand new song that I just started recording earlier today.
[53:55 - 53:57] Called "Better Off Alone."
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[54:00 - 54:10] Every day I'm feeling rough, I'm alone as it seems.
[54:10 - 54:18] Walking through these empty streets, I feel like I'm dying.
[54:18 - 54:23] No one really knows my nights, the way that I took.
[54:23 - 54:26] Everybody comes to me, judging me.
[54:26 - 54:30] Attacking me. Attacking me.
[54:30 - 54:39] Creative suddenly and making me have to be someone that I don't wanna be.
[54:39 - 54:45] Why is it that I was born to walk instead?
[54:45 - 54:50] I know I walk through these gates of hell on my own.
[54:50 - 54:55] Why is it that you're singing me as we take?
[54:55 - 55:03] Oh, I need everything. Seems I'm on a live night, and it's spinning.
[55:03 - 55:09] How can I guess? Often it's dark, and I'm denying life.
[55:09 - 55:18] How can I escape this darkness that has made its way into my life?
[55:18 - 55:24] How can I be that person that I wanna be?
[55:24 - 55:28] Don't fucking lost, I'm so fucking scared.
[55:28 - 55:35] Why must I give up my life, and that's what it costs.
[55:35 - 55:40] Do I need to fight for my life?
[55:40 - 55:48] It wasn't gonna take for me to give my life back.
[55:48 - 55:53] Everything just needs to care back on the bike truck.
[55:53 - 55:58] This is not who I am, not who I wanna be.
[55:58 - 56:04] This is not me, and everybody knows us.
[56:04 - 56:10] How can I show the world the real me?
[56:10 - 56:13] Without a thing for life.
[56:13 - 56:17] No time can be judging me, it's who the nights have been.
[56:17 - 56:23] How can I get away from everything and the day and night?
[56:23 - 56:29] All of you, do not miss a loss in my mind.
[56:29 - 56:35] Every day and night I jump, it's day and night.
[56:35 - 56:42] Screaming in my mind, and I don't know how I can escape it.
[56:42 - 56:48] Don't know how I can take away from everything.
[56:48 - 56:58] How can I see myself again, and not take my life with the noise?
[56:59 - 57:05] How can I get away from everything and the day and night?
[57:05 - 68:33] How can I see myself again, and not take my life with the noise?