2021-5-20 clearing everything up

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[0:19 - 0:26] What up y'all? So first off, for all y'all that did drop in, check out the songs that I've performed last string.
[0:26 - 0:34] Is there any that did see me performing my songs last few streams? Well this last year I want to say thank you.
[0:34 - 0:42] Y'all are awesome. But we need to clear the air on something. Last year I had a couple things.
[0:42 - 0:52] Number one, who is this supposed girlfriend that I got? Cause last time I checked, I'm not with anybody.
[0:52 - 1:00] Last time I fucking checked, I have a girlfriend. I'm single as fuck right now. Cause I'll take the time for myself.
[1:00 - 1:06] So I don't know who the hell is going around saying that you're my girlfriend. I don't really like to know who you are.
[1:06 - 1:13] Like if me and you are together, how come I never talk to you? How come I don't know who you are?
[1:13 - 1:19] How come we never fucking spoke on Facebook or Discord or any of that? Like what's up?
[1:19 - 1:33] Like how can I be with anybody if I never met anyone? Like seriously, if we're supposed to play together, wouldn't it make sense for me to know who you are?
[1:33 - 1:45] Wouldn't it make sense for me to actually know you? Or at least FaceTime with you and talk to you on Discord or Facebook or some shit?
[1:45 - 1:58] Or on Instagram or something? Like what? Like how can I be with anybody if I'm not seeing anyone at this current time?
[1:58 - 2:04] Like that doesn't make no sense to me. That really doesn't make any kind of sense to me at all.
[2:04 - 2:11] Like y'all sitting there saying that I've got a girlfriend and this and that and the other man, stop it. It's a fucking lie.
[2:11 - 2:21] I'm not dating anyone. I'm not seeing anyone. So there's that cleared up. I am single. Am I looking right now?
[2:21 - 2:29] No, but if the right one comes along, then yeah. Y'all know that song and dance.
[2:29 - 2:44] Now for the second thing, a lot of motherfuckers have been spreading rumors about the whole shit that went down with Kate.
[2:44 - 2:58] A lot of motherfuckers are like, oh, you know, you're up ahead about you sent a photo to a 10 year old. No, no, no, no. That's not how that works.
[2:58 - 3:12] See, that's not what fucking happened. See, what happened was Kate lured me into a trap and she pretended to be 14, not 10.
[3:12 - 3:24] Now, what I did was wrong. Yes. But the one thing that just really irritates me is that about like, and I find that funny.
[3:24 - 3:33] Like, y'all act like I don't have a right to move past what I've done. Like, bro, I'm over here trying to do me.
[3:33 - 3:49] I like if you haven't noticed, I'm trying to do better for myself. I'm trying to move on and better myself and humbled myself and be a better person than what I was.
[3:49 - 4:03] But yeah, y'all want to sit over here and hold me to that shit like, bro, let me ask you this, let me move over here to where I'm actually not being blinded by that.
[4:03 - 4:26] So, you know, you know, it's just cut this way. Oh, well, you still see me, but let me ask you some.
[4:26 - 4:35] Let me ask you something serious here, and I want y'all to be straight up about this shit. I don't want no fucking cookie cutter bullshit neither.
[4:35 - 4:47] I want straight up real from you guys. Y'all want me to do better, right? You guys want to be better, you want me to do better.
[4:47 - 5:04] Well, how can I do better if you guys won't leave the past alone? How am I supposed to better myself and be a better person if you guys keep on bringing it up every frickin' livestream every few seconds?
[5:04 - 5:16] Yeah, I know what I did was wrong, and I get that. And as I said, I suffered my punishment. I suffered through my punishment.
[5:16 - 5:38] You want to know what my punishment was? Being humiliated, losing friends and family, almost, keyword almost, going to jail.
[5:38 - 5:48] But I didn't go to jail because the officers were kind enough to let me off with a warning. They sat down and they spoke with me.
[5:48 - 5:59] And they kindly, you know, told me, hey, we all make mistakes. We all do dumb stuff. And they did put it to me like this.
[5:59 - 6:08] The only thing that would have made me a pedophile was if I had actually gone there, but I didn't go there.
[6:08 - 6:22] And plus the actual term for pedophile, in case you guys are uneducated about this, and I'm not saying that you guys ain't smart. I'm just saying this is in case you guys don't know.
[6:22 - 6:42] Anyway, a pedophile is somebody who actively keyword actively seeks out children that are under the age of 14. 14 and under.
[6:42 - 6:50] I do not actively seek out. Look at my history. I have no history of this shit.
[6:50 - 7:06] My personal record history. I don't have history of pedophilia at all. So how can you guys sit there and say that I'm a pedophile when clearly I'm not? Clearly.
[7:06 - 7:19] But like I said, you know, you guys are entitled to your opinions about me. And I'm pretty sure some of you guys are going to try to do some shit to get me in trouble and you're going to fail like always.
[7:19 - 7:27] Y'all, every time this is something I noticed, every time you guys try to troll me, y'all fail every goddamn time.
[7:27 - 7:37] And yeah, I may get called a pedophile here and there quite a bit for the rest of my life by certain people. But you know what? I'm okay with that.
[7:37 - 7:46] I would rather live with people calling me a pedophile in my streams every time than to sit there and not be able to move on with my life.
[7:46 - 7:53] Because you want to know what I'm going to do. And every time somebody calls me a pedophile, you know what I do? I ignore it.
[7:53 - 8:02] If you guys haven't noticed, every time somebody calls me a pedophile on the stream now, I don't block them. I don't delete them. I don't do any of that.
[8:02 - 8:11] You want to know why? Because they're allowed their opinion about me.
[8:11 - 8:19] But their opinion isn't bond. Your word isn't bond.
[8:19 - 8:31] You know the old term, and for those of you that are around my age and came up when the internet first came out, there's an old saying for those of you that might not know this.
[8:31 - 8:43] You can't always believe everything that you read on the internet or here on the internet. Just because it's on the internet, that doesn't mean that it's true.
[8:43 - 8:52] Yes, there are articles about me calling me a pedophile and this and that and the other, but that doesn't mean that it's true.
[8:52 - 9:04] Yes, I sent photos and a video to somebody that trolled me, but that doesn't make me a pedophile.
[9:04 - 9:14] That does not make me a pedophile. Therefore, just because you read what you read on the internet about me doesn't make it true.
[9:14 - 9:22] There are things that people have posted about me on Kiwi Farms that are far from the truth. Far from the truth.
[9:22 - 9:37] Like when people say that I'm a third generation pedo. I'm not a third generation pedophile. That is false. And yes, I have proven this to be false many times over.
[9:37 - 9:49] I have proven a lot of these things to be false.
[9:49 - 9:57] Now, like I said, people are going to continue to judge me and that's okay. But you want to know something?
[9:57 - 10:05] At the end of the day, Karma will get them. Karma will come back around and bite them in the ass.
[10:05 - 10:19] Just as Karma bit me in the ass for doing what I did. And I don't know how many of you in here are religious.
[10:19 - 10:33] But if you are and you believe in God the same way that I do, let me tell you, God will judge me on what I've done.
[10:33 - 10:40] I will get judged by God himself.
[10:40 - 10:48] I will get judged by God and so will those of you that judge me.
[10:48 - 10:59] For those of you that do judge me, you will get judged by God, you know, come when that day comes.
[10:59 - 11:07] And like I said, I'm over here trying to do better for myself. I'm honestly trying to better my life.
[11:07 - 11:20] But as I said, how can I ever move on and better myself if everybody keeps bringing up the past?
[11:20 - 11:32] How am I supposed to do that if everyone keeps on trolling and bringing up the past? It doesn't make sense.
[11:32 - 11:47] That's like somebody running somebody over and then that person that ran the person over goes to jail and then gets out and then everybody constantly still bashes on them and attacks them and reminds them every day.
[11:47 - 11:57] Like, hey, don't run over everyone. Hey, you ran over somebody. Hey, you this. Hey, you that. Like, it doesn't make no sense, dude.
[11:57 - 12:01] It does not make any sense.
[12:01 - 12:09] Like I get what I did was wrong and I understand and I do take responsibility for that.
[12:09 - 12:20] And, you know, what I did was very wrong and it should not have happened.
[12:20 - 12:31] But the one thing I don't understand, the one thing I still don't get, is why is that people proceed to bring up the past?
[12:31 - 12:39] I don't need to be reminded of what I did. I know what I did was wrong and I paid the price for it.
[12:39 - 12:54] I paid the price and humiliation and torment. I paid my price. I learned my lesson.
[12:54 - 12:59] So I don't understand why some of you guys will not let me move on from what I did.
[12:59 - 13:15] You know, you guys said there you claimed that you wanted to be better, but yet you continue to bring up the past and that doesn't do anything except make things worse.
[13:15 - 13:26] If you want to do better, then quit bringing up the past. Quit calling me a pedophile and bringing things up.
[13:26 - 13:40] Let me live my life. Let me do what I need to do to better myself.
[13:40 - 13:53] Because that's the only way I could ever get better. That's the only way I could ever become a better person like I want to be and that I am trying to be.
[13:53 - 14:11] If you don't bring up the past, you know, I can move on and I can do better for myself.
[14:11 - 14:25] Fact's enigmatic. And that's the thing, dude. It is that easy. And here's the thing, custom. It actually is that easy.
[14:25 - 14:39] You don't have to judge me. Yeah, you can disagree with what I did. You know, you can disagree with what I did all you want, but that doesn't mean you have to hold me back.
[14:39 - 14:49] Just because you don't agree with what happened and don't agree that I didn't go to jail, that doesn't mean you have to constantly bring it up.
[14:49 - 15:06] You know, like I said, I learned my lesson away. I learned my lesson in a very big way and I'm not making that mistake again.
[15:06 - 15:27] I'm not making that mistake ever again. And you can count on that 110%.
[15:27 - 15:41] Let me put it to you guys like this. Let's say one of you guys did something very stupid that you know you shouldn't have done.
[15:41 - 15:51] Let's put it like this. Let's say one of you guys did something very stupid that you know you shouldn't have done that was wrong.
[15:51 - 15:57] And you wrote that wrong.
[15:57 - 16:03] You know, you admitted that you were wrong. You owned up to your mistake.
[16:03 - 16:14] You know, you owned up to what you did. You were a man about it. And you thought I said hey, I was wrong and what I did.
[16:14 - 16:21] I owned my mistake. I owned up to my mistakes. I know what I did was wrong and I shouldn't have done that.
[16:21 - 16:30] Let's say that you do that and you try to better yourself to be a better person.
[16:30 - 16:38] And I'm over here constantly bashing you and attacking you and trying to hold you back.
[16:38 - 16:46] Wouldn't you feel the same way that I feel now, like you're being held back.
[16:46 - 16:56] Like even though you want to be the best person that you can be again, and now you want to be better, but you feel like you're being held back.
[16:56 - 17:05] That's how I feel when you guys bring up my past. When you bring up what happened and you bring up that situation, that's how I feel.
[17:05 - 17:13] I feel held back. Because it seems like everybody wants to hold me back from being a better person.
[17:13 - 17:19] It's like you guys want me to be stuck there.
[17:19 - 17:25] But let me tell you, I'm not going to remain stuck there.
[17:25 - 17:32] Yes, I understand that what I did had pedophilic actions. I get it.
[17:32 - 17:42] But if you look up the proper terminology on Google and ask any police officer, ask any FBI agent.
[17:42 - 17:51] The true textbook definition of a pedophile is somebody that actively seeks out children.
[17:51 - 17:59] I don't actively seek out children. I'm not on Facebook or YouTube or whatever every day.
[17:59 - 18:05] Be like, oh, come here, little kid. No, I don't do that.
[18:05 - 18:11] It was a simple mistake where somebody trolled me.
[18:11 - 18:23] Now, should that person naturally be held responsible? Yes. She really should be held responsible.
[18:23 - 18:33] Or at least take responsibility for her actions.
[18:33 - 18:41] Just as I have done, I've taken responsibility for my actions.
[18:41 - 18:48] I've owned up to what I've done. And yes, I do regret what I've done.
[18:48 - 18:57] Don't look it back in my streams where I spoke about it. I do deeply regret what I've done.
[18:57 - 19:05] And I know that certain people are going to look at me a little bit differently from now on, but I'm OK with that.
[19:05 - 19:12] And the reason I'm OK with that because I have a chance to prove everyone wrong.
[19:12 - 19:20] I have a chance to show that I'm not the monster that everyone's making me out to be. And that's what I'm going to do.
[19:20 - 19:28] I'm going to prove to everyone that I'm not the bad guy and that I am changing for the better.
[19:28 - 19:38] Heck, for the first time in almost a little over a year now, I have finally sat down and I started working on my artwork again.
[19:38 - 19:45] I just got my tea spring shop back up and running today, actually.
[19:45 - 19:52] I've been focusing on my artwork, matter of fact, on my new channel dedicated to my artwork and reaction videos.
[19:52 - 20:07] I just did a reaction video to a song by Boyin Van.
[20:07 - 20:18] So, you know, I am trying to better myself and do good things and show people that I'm not entirely an evil person.
[20:18 - 20:36] If I was an evil person, let me ask you guys this. If I really was an evil person, why would I turn my number one enemy, music biz Marty, into my friend?
[20:36 - 20:48] If I really was evil, how was I able to turn my number one enemy, music biz Marty, into a good friend of mine?
[20:48 - 21:01] Why would I go out of my way to help out people that have wronged me?
[21:01 - 21:07] Think about that.
[21:07 - 21:16] Oh, look, we got somebody calling in.
[21:16 - 21:21] Hello?
[21:21 - 21:31] No, I'm not. Look up the textbook dictionary. I'm not a pedophile, Kate. I'm not a pedophile, Kate, so shut up and leave me alone, Kate.
[21:31 - 21:35] Kate, leave me alone.
[21:35 - 21:41] Wow. Negative like always.
[21:41 - 21:46] I'm not evil and I'm not a pedophile.
[21:46 - 21:54] Let her think what she wants, man. Let her think what she wants.
[21:54 - 22:02] Let Kate think what she wants because I'm not a pedophile. Let her think what she wants.
[22:02 - 22:18] I know I'm not. My friends and family know I'm not. God knows I'm not, obviously. And my true supporters and true fans and friends know that I'm not. And that's all that matters.
[22:18 - 22:34] My true supporters and those that actually do rock with me and my real friends and family that, you know, know that I'm not, their opinions are the only ones that matter.
[22:34 - 22:42] You know, my brother Sean knows I'm not. My brother Jake knows I'm not.
[22:42 - 23:04] Fuck, my best friend Liz knows that I'm not. Have my friends and family know that I'm not. So, like I said, y'all can have, you know, your opinion about me all you want, but at the end of the day...
[23:04 - 23:13] And like I said, you can have your opinion about me. I don't care.
[23:13 - 23:25] Because at the end of the day, I know I'm not. My friends know I'm not. So, I guess I'm not a fucking pedophile.
[23:25 - 23:35] So, there's that. So, like I said, think what you want, do what you want. I'm not paying to know mine.
[23:35 - 23:49] I'm doing me. I'm doing better for myself. And I'm moving on from this situation. Matter of fact, next time Kate calls, I'm going to block all private numbers.
[23:49 - 23:55] Matter of fact, you know what? I'm not a matter of fact, you know what? I'll probably end up changing my number here tomorrow.
[23:55 - 24:06] I'll probably end up getting my number changed. That way people can't call in. It's getting annoying.
[24:06 - 24:13] But, like I said, I'm moving on from this situation and I'm doing better for myself.
[24:13 - 24:22] So, I hope you guys have a nice night. You guys have a good morning or afternoon. Wherever you guys are in the world.
[24:22 - 24:32] I hope you guys are having a good night, a good morning, a good afternoon. Wherever you guys are, I hope you guys are doing good. 100%.
[24:32 - 24:43] And with that being said, I got to get some rest. Because I've been in all day working on my artwork. I need to get rest.
[24:43 - 24:48] I've been working on my shop all day and doing this, that, and the other. So, I need to get some rest, guys.
[24:48 - 25:01] I got to get up early for work tomorrow. I got more artwork stuff to get done. So, I got to get up early because if you guys don't know, I am working on artwork full-time now, which is why I'm not posting as much.
[25:01 - 25:10] But, I do have work in the morning. I got to upload to Instagram. I got to do merch for my shop, do a promo, this, that, and the other.
[25:10 - 25:20] So, I do have work to do in the morning. So, I'm about to pass and I will catch you guys tomorrow morning, y'all. Peace. Love you guys.
[25:20 - 25:25] Stay safe, stay humble, stay positive. Peace.