2021-5-18 1 More Chance

[0:10 - 0:14] >> What's up you guys?
[0:14 - 0:22] Good morning, good afternoon, good evening, good, whatever, wherever you guys are at.
[0:22 - 0:25] Good morning, good evening, good afternoon, wherever you guys are in the world.
[0:28 - 0:38] >> I'm turning this down a bit, it's something I want to talk to you guys about and I know
[0:38 - 0:50] I'm kind of like in the dark right now it's cuz wow but I do want to talk to you guys
[0:50 - 0:58] man. I know a lot of you guys saw what I did last night and how I went off on Marty and
[0:58 - 1:07] Chance and everybody and I didn't like doing that. I did not like doing what I did I absolutely
[1:07 - 1:12] hated it. I did not like what I did.
[1:18 - 1:28] >> Now Marty, Tange, Trinkle, well not Trinkle, but Marty and Tange, I understand that you
[1:28 - 1:40] guys want to, you know, I understand that you guys want to help in your own way and
[1:40 - 1:47] I appreciate that. I really do, I appreciate that you guys want to help me to the fullest
[1:47 - 1:59] extent but here's the thing, I want people to know the real me. I want people to know
[1:59 - 2:09] who I really am as a person. I don't want people to see me as an angry person but when
[2:09 - 2:17] you go, there's something that you need to understand Marty and Tange, when you go around
[2:17 - 2:26] making up stories about people that are not true, how is that person that's supposed to
[2:26 - 2:37] show who they are? How is that person supposed to show who they really are if you're making
[2:37 - 2:43] up stories about them that are not true?
[2:43 - 2:52] Now I said, do I hate anybody? Do I want anybody to fuck off? No, I don't want that.
[2:52 - 2:58] If anything, I want to be friends with everybody. I really do, that's what I want. I want to
[2:58 - 3:06] be able to be cool with everybody. I want to be friends with everyone. I don't want
[3:06 - 3:15] this hatred, this negativity. I want this channel to grow and yes, I do take responsibility
[3:15 - 3:21] for everything that I did. It was my fault that I felt for what I felt for. Even though
[3:21 - 3:28] I was manipulated whenever Kate did what she did, yes, I may have been manipulated but
[3:28 - 3:36] I take full responsibility, it was my fault that I felt for that trip and it was my fault
[3:36 - 3:44] that I went off last night. Like I said, I don't like being angry at people. I hate
[3:44 - 3:53] it. I don't like being mad at people. I want to be able to be cool with everybody. That's
[3:53 - 4:00] how I am. That's how my brother Sean is. I like to be, we like to be cool with everyone.
[4:00 - 4:08] I like to be cool with everyone. So does he. And Granny, yeah, what I did last night was,
[4:08 - 4:16] you know, in a sense warranted because it's been going on for so long. I still feel bad
[4:16 - 4:24] about it. Because yes, I know that Marty was just trying to help, but he was going about
[4:24 - 4:32] it in the wrong way. Making up stuff about me is not the way to go about it. Saying that
[4:32 - 4:37] my whole life is an act is not the way to go about it. There are better ways to go
[4:37 - 4:48] about it. Like let's, let's switch the roles here for a minute. Let's say that I'm Marty
[4:48 - 4:55] and Marty is me. If I saw Marty getting messed with and trolled really badly, I wouldn't
[4:55 - 5:02] make things up to get him out of that situation. I would go to the person that he is bullying
[5:02 - 5:09] that is, you know, bullying him and being like, look, this is how he really is. Like
[5:09 - 5:15] how you're making him out to be is not how he is. This is the good person, the kind
[5:15 - 5:26] of caring person that he is. And unless you can forgive him and unless you can quit bullying
[5:26 - 5:33] him, how is he supposed to move on with his life? How is he supposed to grow as a person
[5:33 - 5:55] if you don't let him, you know, forgive and forget? Now I don't know how many of you are,
[5:55 - 6:03] you know, related to Shannon, but for those that are, I know a lot of you guys will know
[6:03 - 6:07] this one. My brother Sean will know this one very well because he's just as much of
[6:07 - 6:19] a Christian as I am. Love thy enemy and love thy neighbor. And it's true. We need to stop
[6:19 - 6:26] the hatred. Start loving our enemies, show humility to our enemies, you know, turn our
[6:26 - 6:32] enemies into our friends. That's what I want. I want to be able to turn my enemies into
[6:32 - 6:45] my friends. I want to turn those people that hate on me into my friends. Do I hate anyone?
[6:45 - 6:59] I might not like what they do and I might disagree with what they do at times. You know,
[6:59 - 7:11] I might not agree with what they do at times, but it is what it is. You know, I might not
[7:11 - 7:22] agree with what they do, but I still respect them as a person. And I know I was heavy handed
[7:22 - 7:30] on tangible last night, but something that I feel personally that she doesn't need to
[7:30 - 7:40] do. I said she's not a bad person. She just has very bad values. And the way I came across
[7:40 - 7:51] was very bad. It was my fault. I should not have gone about it like I did, but see Tangerine
[7:51 - 8:01] cast the kind of person that she likes to make everything out to be about money. Like
[8:01 - 8:07] she in her mind, and this isn't necessarily her fault. I like this is not necessarily
[8:07 - 8:15] her fault. In her mind, everything's about money. Everything has a price on it. A life
[8:15 - 8:20] has a price on it. This has a price on it. That's in her mind and her mind, everything
[8:20 - 8:27] in the world has a price, whether it's a human life, an item or what have you. And
[8:27 - 8:33] to her, everything is about money. And as I said, it's not necessarily her fault. And
[8:33 - 8:44] I don't blame her for that. I mean, there are things that you know, there are things
[8:44 - 8:50] that I've done that nobody really agrees with. And I learned from those things. I took those
[8:50 - 9:04] lessons that I learned. And I am now trying to utilize them. I am now trying to utilize
[9:04 - 9:33] those lessons that I was taught. Like, you know, I want to be successful at this. And
[9:33 - 9:53] this with all my heart and soul. I really do. I want to be successful at what I do.
[9:53 - 10:00] And that's why, you know, I know there's gonna be people that don't like, you know,
[10:00 - 10:07] what I do because of what I did. And I understand that I understand there's going to be certain
[10:07 - 10:13] people that still do not like me because of what I did. And I accept that there's always
[10:13 - 10:19] going to be people that don't like you. Because one thing that I learned on my journey through
[10:19 - 10:26] YouTube is that you can't please everyone. You cannot please everyone in the world.
[10:26 - 10:30] If you did that, the whole world would be like a cupcake factory. Everything would
[10:30 - 10:50] be perfect all the time. But they're not. You know, like I said, I'm just a simple
[10:50 - 10:56] guy trying to tell his story, trying to tell his real life story and help people through
[10:56 - 11:02] that, you know, through their bad situations, through my stories and through situations
[11:02 - 11:14] that I've been through. Like if you guys want to do better and be better, we need
[11:14 - 11:32] to put everything inside and work together. Like if we want to do if you guys want to
[11:32 - 11:38] do better and be a better person, instead of fighting and bickering and arguing and
[11:38 - 11:41] going at each other's throats and constantly being angry like this, constantly going at
[11:41 - 11:48] each other's throats like that, when instead of doing this and going at each other's throats,
[11:48 - 11:57] we need to do this and come together and help each other out. Like I don't like being
[11:57 - 12:07] this angry person. I don't like being the way I was last night. Now, could I have gone
[12:07 - 12:23] about it way better? Yes, I could have honestly. Like I said, I want my enemies and everyone
[12:23 - 12:31] to be my friend. I don't want this negative garbage in my life. I don't need negative
[12:31 - 12:39] garbage in my life. Now, what I said to them last night was very true. Everything I spoke
[12:39 - 12:45] to them was true is that half the people on the internet know this much about my life
[12:45 - 12:50] and that not everything you hear on the internet is true about me. Not everything you hear
[12:50 - 13:04] on the internet is true about me, but at the same time, at the same time, you know, people
[13:04 - 13:08] are going to make things up about you all the time. When you get to a certain level
[13:08 - 13:15] of popularity, like I've gotten, you know, you're going to have people that make things
[13:15 - 13:20] up about you. You're going to have people that say stuff that isn't true. You are
[13:20 - 13:28] going to run into people that are, let's face it, complete assholes. And no offense, but
[13:28 - 13:36] sadly enough, Jake Monroe, who was one of my favorite YouTubers is one of those people
[13:36 - 13:43] because I donated to his livestream and showed him my thanks and made a video showing, hey,
[13:43 - 13:48] you know, I'm grateful to you for the shout out because, you know, you're one of my favorite
[13:48 - 13:54] YouTubers. You're somebody that I grew up watching on YouTube and, you know, and your
[13:54 - 14:01] videos have helped me. And you know what he did when I showed him love? He turned right
[14:01 - 14:08] back around and spat on my face and started poking fun. And that, and that hurt a lot.
[14:08 - 14:15] That definitely hurt. Seeing one of my favorite YouTubers that has helped me through many
[14:15 - 14:27] situations in my life to just turn around after I donated to him, showing him the love
[14:27 - 14:32] and showing him respect for what he's done for me to just turn around and get hahaha
[14:32 - 14:46] you're stupid. Like, that hurt. But at the end of the day, you're going to get people
[14:46 - 14:55] that are like that. You're going to get people that don't agree with what you do. How they're
[14:55 - 15:00] there are people in the chat right now that I'm seeing right now that don't necessarily
[15:00 - 15:08] agree with me at all or anything that I do because of the case situation. And that's
[15:08 - 15:16] okay. You know, I respect their choices. You know, I respect, you know, what they think
[15:16 - 15:21] because to a certain extent, they're right. What I did was wrong. It was violent. It
[15:21 - 15:28] never should have happened. And that never should have happened. But as I said yesterday,
[15:28 - 15:35] I do want to move on and be a better person. But how can I move on and be a better person
[15:35 - 15:47] if I'm constantly having things made up about me and being attacked and being, you know,
[15:47 - 15:56] scrutinized? How can I move on and be a better person if people can't let me move on from
[15:56 - 16:14] what I did? Yo classic. What's up, buddy? How you doing classic? What's up, man? How
[16:14 - 16:30] you doing? Actually, there are some things in there that you know are made up about me
[16:30 - 16:44] on QE farms. Granted, I can't really do anything about that. But it is what it is. Like, I'm
[16:44 - 16:54] not going to stress over it. But like I said, at the end of the day, I'm not here to fight
[16:54 - 17:07] with anyone. I'm not here to argue with anyone. I'm here to make a good, positive channel.
[17:07 - 17:14] You know, I don't like being angry all the time. It's like I said last night, I don't
[17:14 - 17:21] like being angry all the time. I don't like being mad all the time. I want to show you
[17:21 - 17:26] guys the fun, loving side of me, which is coming later today. I want to show you guys
[17:26 - 17:34] the fun, loving side of me, where I used to do stitch covers, where I used to do cover
[17:34 - 17:45] shows in general, where I used to have fun. Oh, yeah, that was kind of creepy. Y'all just
[17:45 - 17:54] saw that, right? Tell me y'all just saw that. That was creepy. That door was shut. You guys
[17:54 - 18:13] just seen that shit, right? You know, that was weird. And you're allowed to have your
[18:13 - 18:32] opinion about me. Hey, Skeletor, what's up, man? How you doing? What up, Skelly? But like
[18:32 - 18:43] I said, man, at the end of the day, to Marty and Tange, I do apologize for what I said
[18:43 - 19:04] to you guys. You know, what I did was wrong. It shouldn't have happened. But you guys also need to learn that when you go to
[19:04 - 19:12] help somebody and you want to help them, don't make things up about them. Don't make things
[19:12 - 19:22] up about people that are not true. Because when you make things up about people that
[19:22 - 19:28] aren't true, not only are you making them look bad, but you're making yourself look
[19:28 - 19:44] bad as well by doing it. Now, I got to say, Marty, I can forgive you guys if you guys
[19:44 - 19:51] can forgive me. I really can't. I can forgive the both of you guys if y'all can forgive
[19:51 - 19:59] me. Same with everybody that hates on me. If y'all can't forgive me, I can forgive you.
[19:59 - 20:04] And we can move on and make a better channel. Because that's what I want. I want to be
[20:04 - 20:11] better. I want to do better. And I want you guys to see that fun side of me that I used
[20:11 - 20:22] to have. You know, I want you guys to see that fun side of me that I used to bring
[20:22 - 20:29] out all the time. Yo, God, yo, hold up, hold up. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. Stop the champion.
[20:29 - 20:37] Hold up. My boy, God, Rich is over here. What's good, God, Rich? How you doing, buddy?
[20:37 - 20:56] Dude, God, Rich, how'd you get unmodded, bro? I thought I had you modded, my guy.
[20:56 - 21:20] [Silence]
[21:20 - 21:33] But like I said, you know, I want to be a better person. I want to be cool with everybody.
[21:33 - 21:38] Even those that don't like me, I want to be cool with them. I want to be cool with
[21:38 - 21:42] the cat down the road that can't stand my ass. I want to be cool with this dude over
[21:42 - 21:49] here that thinks the world of me. I want to be cool with that weirdo who is constantly
[21:49 - 21:55] doing weird stuff that nobody really likes. Hell, I even want to be cool with the haters
[21:55 - 22:05] up here in the freaking chat. Sorry, Skeletor, I don't know if you're actually a troll or
[22:05 - 22:14] not, so I can't say yes or no. Especially given our history, man. I know some things,
[22:14 - 22:19] but you kind of need to stick around for a while so you can earn it. Just saying, man.
[22:19 - 22:35] No hate at all, man. Just saying. Given our history, it's not really the best. So, yeah.
[22:35 - 22:41] That is very true. A lot of homes in my area are actually from the 1900s. As a matter
[22:41 - 22:50] of fact, this house was built in 1905, I believe. So this house is well over a hundred
[22:50 - 23:09] years old. Well over a hundred years old. But let me say, guys, I'm just going to leave
[23:09 - 23:19] you guys with this. What the hell. Yes, I do plan on doing the ditch review. I do plan
[23:19 - 23:24] on learning more of that for sure. I haven't messed with it in a while, but I do plan
[23:24 - 23:36] on utilizing it more. But I am going to leave you guys with this. Oh, man. So, Marty and
[23:36 - 23:44] Tange and everybody that I have done wrong or wronged in some way, even if it's unknowing,
[23:44 - 23:50] I do apologize. And, you know, hopefully you guys can forgive me and we can move on from
[23:50 - 23:58] all this because I want to be a better person and I'm going to be a better person. So from
[23:58 - 24:06] now on, I'm going to make this very, very clear from now on. No hatred, no attacks,
[24:06 - 24:13] none of that stuff out of me. I'm going back to the way that I used to be before all this.
[24:13 - 24:26] Even if someone sits there and talks shit in the chat, let them talk. So with that
[24:26 - 24:34] being said, I love you guys. Thank you guys for, you know, understanding. Thank you guys
[24:34 - 24:46] for forgiving and let's build a better community, man. Let's build a better channel, man. Peace.
[24:46 - 24:56] And remember, guys, stay humble and stay positive because things will get better. I promise.