Original upload date: May 15th, 2021 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:17] I'm getting new ladies and gentlemen um we need to clear the air on some stuff here now
[0:17 - 0:22] don't get it wrong I am very grateful to those of you that are showing support for
[0:22 - 0:31] me right now you know hundred percent I'm very grateful to you guys but
[0:31 - 0:39] there's been some miscommunication and things have gotten mixed up you see my
[0:39 - 0:47] ex-girlfriend Lexi passed away last year from serious health complications now
[0:47 - 0:54] there are certain people that do know about what's going on but other than
[0:54 - 0:59] those people I'm not gonna speak on what those issues were because I want
[0:59 - 1:05] to keep that private and her family wants to keep that private now they're
[1:05 - 1:11] now don't get wrong you know Lexi's family is very you know grateful that
[1:11 - 1:18] you guys are showing support but what I was getting at is this during the time
[1:18 - 1:25] of her passing was when a lot of the drama started out for me and I never
[1:25 - 1:30] got that chance to like actually grieve or do anything because it's been one
[1:30 - 1:37] thing after another because I never got that chance to like actually you know
[1:37 - 1:43] mourn her passing and now that I have that chance that's what I'm doing I'm
[1:43 - 1:48] taking time away from myself - you know finally you know go through that
[1:48 - 1:54] grieving process that I've been needing to go through that I've been wanting to
[1:54 - 2:01] deal with and to work on other projects and other channels that I have planned
[2:01 - 2:06] cuz I said for me it's been just non-stop go with the drama and the
[2:06 - 2:15] bullshit and I don't need it now to those that are showing support I thank
[2:15 - 2:18] you guys like that really does mean a lot that you guys are showing love and
[2:18 - 2:26] support you know for what I'm going through like a hundred percent there's
[2:26 - 2:35] no doubt in my mind that I'm grateful to you guys but her passing happened last
[2:35 - 2:45] year there's no need to donate guys I was simply stating why I'm stepping
[2:45 - 3:02] away for a while which I am doing I am stepping away for a good while like you
[3:02 - 3:09] know and it's hard you know and I know a lot of you guys are probably in the
[3:09 - 3:20] chat being trolling and doing dumb shit and that's okay but for those that are
[3:20 - 3:26] being supportive of me and what I'm dealing with I thank you guys a hundred
[3:26 - 3:33] percent like you guys allowing me to step away from the you know the hell
[3:33 - 3:42] that I've been dealing with is it really does mean a lot to me cuz like I
[3:42 - 3:50] said ever since her passing I never got that chance to grieve I never got that
[3:50 - 4:08] chance to you know do the things I wanted to do to honor her you know there
[4:08 - 4:14] are things that I wanted to do not only in her memory but stuff that she would
[4:14 - 4:21] have wanted me to do that I've not been able to do because I've been fighting
[4:21 - 4:28] all this drama and I've not had that chance to grieve at all cuz I've been
[4:28 - 4:32] dealing with all this unnecessary bullshit and drama that I don't need in
[4:32 - 4:39] my life I don't need the negativity what I need is a sense of fucking
[4:39 - 4:58] normalcy like y'all think I asked for this drama I didn't I never asked for
[4:58 - 5:08] any of this drama and I don't need it I need a sense of normalcy not this
[5:08 - 5:14] bullshit that I've been getting put there since her passing so like I said
[5:14 - 5:20] guys I do appreciate that you guys are you know wanting to help and I
[5:20 - 5:28] appreciate that but the best thing you guys can do right now to help is to let
[5:28 - 5:32] me do my own thing and go through that grieving process that I need to go
[5:32 - 5:38] through that's literally the best thing you guys can do is to let me step away
[5:38 - 5:44] from this channel you go through the grieving process and work on other
[5:44 - 5:51] stuff that's literally the best thing that you guys can do right now and
[5:51 - 5:55] don't get wrong I do appreciate what you guys are doing I do appreciate the
[5:55 - 6:04] fact that you guys do want to help that it means a lot but right now I need to
[6:04 - 6:07] step away guys
[6:07 - 6:16] so with that being said I'm about to go and get back to what I was doing I'll
[6:16 - 6:20] catch you guys later peace
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '1606' on August 14th, 2024
