2021-4-28 A CRY FOR HELP

[0:00 - 0:55] [Tapping on table]
[0:55 - 1:13] I'm not going to lie to you guys.
[1:13 - 1:21] These last few days have been the worst few days of my life.
[1:21 - 1:32] I lost my job. I lost some of my best friends.
[1:32 - 1:48] And all because I loved Lava Girl. All because I loved Lava Girl. I lost everything.
[1:48 - 1:58] I know how a lot of you guys view me. I'm kidding. I get what I did was wrong. I get how you guys view me.
[1:58 - 2:12] But what you guys are not understanding that a lot of you guys don't understand is that Lava Girl hired Masshole Reports to do what she fucking did.
[2:12 - 2:26] Ultimately putting my family in harm's way. Putting my family at risk. Putting my family in danger.
[2:26 - 2:33] I never asked for this Lava Girl. So I don't understand why you're doing any of this.
[2:33 - 2:43] I don't fucking get it. Is this your way of getting revenge on me? Is this your fucking way of getting revenge on me because I left your fake ass?
[2:43 - 2:53] Is that what this is all about? Is that what this is all about? The fact that I fucking left you behind because you're being fake?
[2:53 - 3:07] Lava, you don't understand how fucked up my life is now because of you. You really don't fucking understand.
[3:07 - 3:28] Now because of you I constantly live in fear. I'm constantly getting death threats. I'm constantly being called pedophile, being attacked, getting threatening voice messages,
[3:28 - 3:38] having to go off radar and go ghost almost entirely.
[3:38 - 3:54] Because of you Lava Girl, I have to live my life in constant fear. I have to live my life in fear because of what you did.
[3:54 - 4:12] Because of you Lava, I almost took my own life. I almost took my own fucking life on asshole reports channel. I almost took my own fucking life because of you.
[4:12 - 4:23] I almost died. I almost killed myself because of what you put me through.
[4:23 - 4:34] You don't understand. I've barely slept. I've barely eaten. I can't even do anything I want to do anymore. I can't even go outside.
[4:34 - 4:46] I can't even go outside and do things I enjoy anymore.
[4:46 - 4:54] You really don't understand Lava. You really don't understand the fucking hell that you put me through.
[4:54 - 5:00] You don't fucking get it and I know a lot of you guys don't fucking get it either and I wish you fucking would.
[5:00 - 5:09] I wish you guys were going to stop and realize that I'm not the bad guy that I'm being made out to be.
[5:09 - 5:18] I get what I did was a crime. I get that. But you have to look at the flip side of it. She was paid off to do this shit to me.
[5:18 - 5:29] Mass hole reports was paid off by Lava to do this shit. And where does that fair to me? Where does that fair to my family?
[5:29 - 5:36] My family is now in harm's way because of Lava Girl.
[5:36 - 5:50] I'm constantly living an alert of fear because of this every day, every night.
[5:50 - 5:55] Why do you think after all this is done and over? Why do you think I'm leaving?
[5:55 - 6:01] Why do you think I'm leaving YouTube for a while after all this is done and over with?
[6:01 - 6:12] I'm tired of living in fear. I'm tired of being scared. I'm tired of having to watch my family suffer.
[6:12 - 6:33] I didn't ask for this shit, Lava Girl. I didn't ask to be ridiculed. I didn't ask to be framed. I didn't ask to have any of this done to me. I didn't ask for any of this.
[6:33 - 6:50] And you think it's okay what you're doing to me?
[6:50 - 7:07] You really don't fucking get it, do you? You have permanently ruined my life. For real, you have permanently ruined my life.
[7:07 - 7:16] All because I left your ass behind. Because I found how you were being fake as fuck.
[7:16 - 7:34] And you think that this is a joke? You think this is funny?
[7:34 - 7:42] I almost committed suicide because of you.
[7:42 - 8:06] I almost took my own life because of you.
[8:06 - 8:35] I only wish you understood how bad you have fucked me up. How bad you have fucked my life up.
[8:35 - 8:45] Honestly, I'll be straight up honest. I'm not gonna lie to you guys. I'm really not.
[8:45 - 8:55] You guys don't know how bad I want to take my own life because of what she's put me through.
[8:55 - 9:04] You guys don't understand. For those of you that are laughing at me and poking fun, you guys obviously don't fucking understand.
[9:04 - 9:17] You don't understand what it's like. Even now as I'm sitting here talking to you, I'm fighting the urge to want to end my life because of all this.
[9:17 - 9:44] But I'm not ending my life. I'm here.
[9:44 - 9:53] I just don't understand why I can't be left to fuck alone for five goddamn seconds.
[9:53 - 10:05] I just want to be left alone. That's all I want is to be left alone. But I can't even do that.
[10:05 - 10:24] I can't even be left alone because people constantly blowing me up, attacking me, harassing me.
[10:24 - 10:32] You guys don't understand what that's like. You really fucking don't understand what that's fucking like unless you've actually been in my fucking shoes.
[10:32 - 10:52] You don't understand.
[10:52 - 11:17] And if me, if me talking about it doesn't show you how close to being on the edge I am, maybe this will.
[11:17 - 11:24] Maybe this will fucking show you just how close to the edge I am. Even right now.
[11:25 - 22:54] [MUSIC]
[22:54 - 22:57] >> See, y'all motherfuckers don't like the troll.
[22:57 - 23:01] You guys don't know what it's like to be in my fucking shoes.
[23:01 - 23:03] You don't know what it's like to be me.
[23:03 - 23:51] [MUSIC]
[23:51 - 23:56] >> So this next song, I want to dedicate to anyone out there like me,
[23:56 - 23:59] who's in the same position now, man.
[23:59 - 24:01] Who's going through these things?
[24:01 - 24:07] [MUSIC]
[24:07 - 24:11] >> Maybe now you motherfuckers will listen.
[24:11 - 28:35] [MUSIC]
[28:35 - 28:39] >> President Joe Biden delivers his first joint address to Congress.
[28:39 - 28:41] Will Biden inject a leader of vaccine?
[28:41 - 43:53] [MUSIC]