2021-4-22 i dont understand (Song)

[0:00 - 0:20] [Music]
[0:20 - 0:47] I'm the fucking sick of all this negative bullshit. Everybody wanna break me. Never wanna push me, never wanna see me succeed. All they wanna do is
[0:47 - 1:06] constantly attack me, make me feel nice. Shit, I don't know what to do anymore. Don't know who the fuck you trust, don't know where to go, don't know where to do anymore.
[1:06 - 1:23] This gun, someone show me the right way out. I need to get a grip on my knife. I just don't know how. Why isn't that a kid so angry around you?
[1:23 - 1:47] True, oh wait, I do, no one, isn't that you? Have to attack me, blame me, make me constantly scrutinizing me. I don't understand why is it that this pain can't just end?
[1:47 - 2:14] I'm so fucking sick of everything that you do to me. Why can't you trust me, maybe I don't understand. Got this hatred deep inside of me. I never wanted any of this. I just wanna be myself again. Get away from all this hatred.
[2:14 - 2:40] And in the end, please, can someone help me? I just need to get away, gotta break these chains. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. You say that I'm ransing, that I'm nothing but you know, that I'm destined for more.
[2:40 - 3:09] Why isn't that I can't even break free, break these chains out of my knives? Why isn't that you can't just walk right out of my knives? I don't understand that talk, but you can't just live in me. Now I know that I should have never trusted you at all.
[3:09 - 3:23] But I'm so fucking lost. I'm so scared. I want this pain to go all the way so bad, but it always stays near.
[3:23 - 3:35] [Music]