2021-4-19 ENOUGH HIDING HOW I REALLY FEEL

[0:00 - 0:20] [Silence]
[0:20 - 0:27] What the fuck is up everybody? How you guys doing this morning? Anthony, where the fuck do you want to go?
[0:27 - 0:38] [Silence]
[0:38 - 1:01] Right now, before I speak on the main issue, somebody needs to be called out and I'm hoping you motherfuckers can help me find this person. The guy's name is Royce Lopez.
[1:01 - 1:19] Now you guys remember that little girl that I spoke about last time on live stream? When I was on StreamYard, I want you guys to listen first hand to what this motherfucker does and what he causes.
[1:19 - 1:33] This video I'm playing is no more than just a few minutes old. I want you guys to hear the pain and suffering this man put this girl through.
[1:33 - 1:50] You all want me dead so badly, but you won't call me back and hear it happen, huh? You won't let me do it live on your show so that everybody will know you're responsible, but you want me to do it, right?
[1:50 - 2:15] You called me this morning and told me I was on your show. You called me this morning and told me to kill myself. You called me this morning and told me so why wouldn't you call back? Why don't you want to hear it happen? Why don't you want to know what you're actually doing to me? Why? Why? Why? Royce Lopez, why?
[2:15 - 2:35] Why did you call me this morning and then hang up before I had a chance to hurt myself on the phone for you? You want me to hurt myself or you want me calling me? So why? Why? Don't worry, I'm going to die today and I will make sure that people know that Royce Lopez caused it.
[2:35 - 2:49] People will know that Royce Lopez killed me today. People will know who did this. People will know. People will know and you will not get away with it.
[2:49 - 3:03] You should have just called me and listened to what happened live so that you could make your money because you know your heartless fans will pay you good money to hear me die live.
[3:03 - 3:19] Instead, you'll have to wait until it comes on the news and the police show up at your house to ask how you know me and why my dead body was found wearing a sign with your name on it, which is about to happen right now.
[3:19 - 3:42] I'm getting my shoes on to walk outside to the expressway and jump off of the overpass wearing a sign that said Royce Lopez drove me to do this.
[3:42 - 3:54] I had to come back to my apartment to get cardboard and make the sign, but I've made it and I'm going to tape it to myself.
[3:54 - 4:10] And in less than 10 minutes, I will be dead and the world will know what Royce Lopez did.
[4:10 - 4:16] And that was literally 10 fucking minutes ago.
[4:16 - 4:29] And this is breakfast and I'm going to show you how to start.
[4:29 - 4:32] I know that was hard to hear guys.
[4:32 - 4:40] Even for me, just hearing that sickens me. It's disheartening.
[4:40 - 5:00] Hearing that kills me inside because that same shit that that poor girl went through, that same shit that Royce did to her,
[5:00 - 5:10] is the same exact shit that music biz Marty does to me.
[5:10 - 5:15] Every day, that's how I feel inside.
[5:15 - 5:27] Every day, that's what I deal with because of bitches like music fuckbag Marty.
[5:27 - 5:36] Every day, I deal with that shit.
[5:36 - 5:39] And I'll tell you straight up.
[5:39 - 5:42] I'll tell you straight the fuck up.
[5:42 - 5:53] I'm done hiding how I really feel about this piece of shit, music bitch Marty.
[5:53 - 5:57] Marty I know you're only playing kiss ass motherfucker.
[5:57 - 6:06] I know you're only playing nice so that you can have your little faggot friends attack me.
[6:06 - 6:11] I'm not stupid. I see right through your goddamn plans boy.
[6:11 - 6:17] I'm not stupid.
[6:17 - 6:27] You're using me for content. You're using me. Your basement is nice.
[6:27 - 6:34] To make me think that you're not doing it then but we all know you are Marty.
[6:34 - 6:37] We all fucking know you are.
[6:37 - 6:43] I'm not stupid. I know how you operate motherfucker.
[6:43 - 6:50] I know exactly how you operate you piece of fucking shit.
[6:50 - 6:57] I know how you operate. I know who you are Nicholas.
[6:57 - 7:03] I know how your mind works.
[7:03 - 7:14] You don't think I don't know? Trust me I do.
[7:14 - 7:18] And let me tell you right now motherfucker.
[7:18 - 7:33] People like you and Roycil Lopez. People like you and Roycil Lopez don't deserve to even fucking breathe.
[7:33 - 7:45] Because let me tell you right now motherfucker. I'm now with the label that I know you can't stand.
[7:45 - 7:53] Called Juggernautty Records bitch.
[7:53 - 8:01] So yeah your boy is running with Max Overdose full fucking time on his label as an artist.
[8:01 - 8:09] What I'm saying man being on Juggernautty Records being a part of Juggernautty isn't just a choice.
[8:09 - 8:15] It isn't just something that you do. It's a fucking lifestyle.
[8:15 - 8:21] You want to know what we do here at Juggernautty Records? Above all else.
[8:21 - 8:24] Above all else.
[8:24 - 8:29] If we see someone going through something like that for a little girl gets put through.
[8:29 - 8:32] You know what we fucking do.
[8:32 - 8:43] We put down what we're doing and we reach out to that person and we try to help them.
[8:43 - 8:50] And let me tell you right now Marty. You're no better than a bitch ass piece of shit.
[8:50 - 8:53] Roycil Lopez.
[8:53 - 9:01] You're just as disgusting. Just as vile.
[9:01 - 9:04] And you think what you do is funny?
[9:04 - 9:12] You think what you do is a game? Motherfucker it ain't a game.
[9:12 - 9:21] I am sick to death of seeing faggot ass little pieces of shit like you.
[9:21 - 9:32] Go after people like me and more importantly drive people like that for a girl to fucking suicide.
[9:32 - 9:38] As motherfuckers like you that I can't stand.
[9:38 - 9:43] As motherfuckers like you that I fucking hate.
[9:43 - 9:48] And you're right Marty. I don't like you. I fucking hate you.
[9:48 - 9:52] I hate you and I hate everything you've done.
[9:52 - 10:00] Everything you've done to me, to my family, my friends.
[10:00 - 10:06] And Eric Scrugglo don't make me get started on your fucking bitch ass niggas.
[10:06 - 10:09] Don't make me get started with you kid.
[10:09 - 10:15] Because you and I both know I'll start the whole so goddamn big in your motherfucking ass.
[10:15 - 10:37] That's what you got by the time I'm gone. You know what you got the inside of the grand canyon bitch.
[10:37 - 10:51] I want to tell you right now Marty, the cries and the screams of that little girl, that's how I feel inside every day because of you and your little bitch minions.
[10:51 - 10:58] Every day that same thing that she got put through, that's what y'all motherfuckers put me through.
[10:58 - 11:03] You and your little faggot ass friends, they're playing nice.
[11:03 - 11:09] I don't give a fuck if you're stuck up for me. I don't give a fuck what you did.
[11:09 - 11:15] At the end of the day we all know it's a game to you. We all know it's an act.
[11:15 - 11:36] We all know that you're just acting Marty.
[11:36 - 11:43] You're playing nice to throw me off. You don't think I haven't seen right through it this whole time.
[11:43 - 12:00] Oh trust me I have. I've been seeing through it. And you know that little girl's cries for help. That poor girl's cries for help.
[12:00 - 12:12] That fucking made me realize that I can't be hiding no more. I can't be hiding how I really fucking feel.
[12:12 - 12:23] Every one of you motherfuckers that have ever taken part in helping Marty bully me or attack me or attack people like that poor little girl.
[12:23 - 12:31] I'll tell you straight up how I feel about every one of you. I fucking hate all of your goddamn guts.
[12:31 - 12:48] Cause see you guys think that what you do on the internet doesn't affect someone in real fucking life. This video I just played you guys should show proof that it does.
[12:48 - 12:55] That video I just played back is proof that it does.
[12:55 - 13:08] And it's not some ha ha ha laughing matter. Motherfucker this is real goddamn life. Get a goddamn clue.
[13:08 - 13:23] This is real life motherfuckers. The internet isn't just the internet anymore. The internet is real life too.
[13:23 - 13:37] See you guys think that it's easy to just flip a switch and walk away right? Wrong.
[13:37 - 13:47] When you go through the shit like I get flipped through or like that little girl gets flipped through.
[13:47 - 14:04] It ain't as easy as flipping a switch and walking away. No, that shit that you guys say that plays in our motherfucking minds that plays back in our heads every day.
[14:04 - 14:27] Every day that shit plays in our fucking heads. Some worse than others.
[14:27 - 14:43] I'll tell you right the fuck now. I'm sick and tired of seeing good people take their lives because of scumbags like music biz Marty and Roy Lopez.
[14:43 - 14:55] I'm sick of seeing this shit. No one deserves that.
[14:55 - 15:12] I wish I knew but if anybody can help me track this girl down please do so man.
[15:12 - 15:32] Let me log into my phone real quick and I can tell you guys the name of the channel.
[15:33 - 15:44] It's.
[15:44 - 16:11] No.
[16:12 - 16:13] It's.
[16:13 - 16:25] All right here's the.
[16:25 - 16:27] Here's the channel you guys.
[16:27 - 16:31] This is where it was posted.
[16:31 - 16:32] All right here's the channel you guys.
[16:32 - 17:32] This is where it was posted.
[17:32 - 17:34] And let me tell you right the fuck now
[17:34 - 17:44] I'm gonna be straight up honest with you. I'm sick and tired of your music bitch faggot ass Marty
[17:44 - 17:48] I'm sick of little bitches like you
[17:48 - 17:53] Little bitches like Royce Lopez
[17:53 - 17:57] I'm sick of motherfuckers like you
[17:58 - 18:05] Catfishing me all over discord getting pictures photos leaking private shit out
[18:05 - 18:08] I'm sick of it
[18:08 - 18:15] I can't fucking stand it
[18:22 - 18:28] And fucking eats me up inside knowing that you have no fucking soul
[18:28 - 18:33] You know what you are Marty you're a worthless piece of trash
[18:33 - 18:39] Just like Royce Lopez you're a worthless piece of shit like Kruger
[18:39 - 18:45] You're a worthless piece of wasted space like Eric Scruggelow
[18:45 - 18:47] Hello
[18:47 - 19:06] Hold on y'all
[19:06 - 19:15] Hello
[19:16 - 19:18] Fuck up
[19:18 - 19:23] Whatever dude, whatever you piece of fucking shit. You're your old bitch friend
[19:23 - 19:29] Yeah, well guess what motherfucker
[19:29 - 19:35] You ain't shit doing your little bitch you're doing doing your little bitch made friends
[19:35 - 19:44] Doing your little bitch made friends like Royce Lopez or garbage motherfucker. So why don't you do like I told
[19:44 - 19:49] Excuse the motherfucker who you think you're talking to bitch
[19:49 - 19:54] Yeah, why don't you do the same
[19:54 - 20:04] You see what I mean, it's the garbage like this motherfucker it's garbage like that
[20:04 - 20:08] So, you know what I got something for these bitches
[20:08 - 20:10] Is
[20:10 - 20:33] I got something for these motherfuckers enough hiding
[20:33 - 20:37] Your boy is back
[20:37 - 20:39] Jugging out of your bitch
[20:39 - 20:44] I guess I'm angry I could kill the man
[20:44 - 20:48] But I remember my mom's ex and still I stand
[20:48 - 20:55] Even though they pissed me off and kicked me down. I know it's all because they think I'm dying to wake and sell
[20:55 - 21:00] What a baby face don't hate me cuz I'm going to y'all don't hate me cuz I'm really funny
[21:00 - 21:02] I'm gonna buzz and throw it all under the sun
[21:02 - 21:04] What's up with y'all?
[21:04 - 21:10] So what I can help you know
[21:10 - 21:16] Just like you can I know that you ain't got a little flow
[21:16 - 21:23] Now still go them up though. It's still go back to me. I make you look like you but the pillow
[21:23 - 21:26] So folks wait a standing there. I make you look bad
[21:26 - 21:30] I'm in the range of two today. You're losing facts
[21:30 - 21:36] Just to hate me. I don't even want to let go hold up a second pussy. That's something I gotta know
[21:36 - 21:38] When you look at my face
[21:38 - 21:45] Know you mad cuz I'm doing it y'all because I'm mad when you look at my face
[21:45 - 21:49] So you mad
[21:49 - 21:50] Rockin' man
[21:50 - 21:52] When you look at my face
[21:52 - 21:59] Know you mad cuz I'm doing it y'all because I'm mad when you look at my face
[21:59 - 22:01] Know you mad
[22:01 - 22:12] I'm one of the baddest but they're judging me even though they all know that they music could get fucked with me
[22:12 - 22:17] They ain't gonna budge me. I made this leave and I'm letting they criticize my way
[22:17 - 22:19] It's the way the way you want to touch your feet
[22:19 - 22:21] Your child just drowns
[22:21 - 22:24] If they're stoned, your lover is leaving me
[22:24 - 22:26] You gotta go in there, then take my throne
[22:26 - 22:29] Put on a major slope, tell them it's something to near me out
[22:29 - 22:33] How do we just save the day? I'll talk something to the day to near me now
[22:33 - 22:36] They got my mother running by and they're the kind me
[22:36 - 22:39] Don't know how I'm the king that's dreaming that's inside me
[22:39 - 22:43] Don't even try me. I'm not taking lightly
[22:43 - 22:47] Do something, why do something on me? Can't we find me?
[22:47 - 22:50] I ain't backing down, lookin' like somebody see them lies
[22:50 - 22:54] I make me young but I've seen some shit that'll make you see them lies
[22:54 - 22:57] And there's no surprises, we're gonna watch her words
[22:57 - 23:00] I'm programming that he says she's ain't no question, got you sir
[23:00 - 23:11] What do you want, you little bitch-ass piece of fucking shit?
[23:11 - 23:16] Why don't you do like, why don't you do like, why don't you do like you're telling me to do?
[23:16 - 23:19] Why don't you do like you're telling me to do, faggot?
[23:19 - 23:22] Why don't you do like you're telling me to do and go kill yourself, bitch?
[23:22 - 23:27] Do like you're telling me to do and go kill yourself, faggot
[23:27 - 23:29] Go kill yourself, faggot
[23:29 - 23:32] Go kill yourself like you're telling me to do, bitch
[23:32 - 23:34] Why don't you do it yourself, bitch?
[23:34 - 23:35] Oh, what's the matter?
[23:35 - 23:36] You a chicken shit?
[23:36 - 23:40] You a chicken shit, faggot?
[23:40 - 23:42] You a chicken shit?
[23:42 - 23:45] You a chicken shit, bitch?
[23:45 - 23:46] Shut up, bitch.
[23:46 - 23:47] Shut up, faggot.
[23:47 - 23:51] Yeah, well guess what, bitch?
[23:51 - 23:54] I like you, I actually got talent, faggot.
[23:54 - 23:57] I like you, I got talent, faggot.
[23:57 - 23:58] You ain't shit, bitch, boy.
[23:58 - 23:59] You ain't shit, faggot.
[23:59 - 24:01] Ask me, wanna be?
[24:01 - 24:02] Wanna be a tough guy?
[24:02 - 24:04] Bitch-ass wanna be, boy?
[24:04 - 24:07] That's all you are, you're a fucking wannabe, you faggot.
[24:07 - 24:15] Go ahead and keep fucking calling, motherfuckers.
[24:15 - 24:18] I'll shut your ass right the fuck down.
[24:18 - 24:19] I don't give a fuck.
[24:20 - 24:22] I don't give a fuck, man.
[24:22 - 24:25] Keep calling and see why I don't shut your bitch ass down.
[24:25 - 24:49] Now this song right here is going outside with a girl
[24:49 - 24:51] that took her life because of Royce.
[24:51 - 24:56] I don't know her name, but this is for that little girl, man.
[24:56 - 25:00] I just got to anybody that is dealing with it.
[25:00 - 25:09] Lately, I've been distant from the world in a quiet place.
[25:09 - 25:12] Feels like it might be why I differently can't embrace.
[25:12 - 25:15] From all the hurt and all the pain, can't feel my rate.
[25:15 - 25:19] When I was bullied, they considered me a best case.
[25:19 - 25:20] Things have changed.
[25:20 - 25:21] The past is done and over with.
[25:21 - 25:23] Why I keep on dwelling on it?
[25:23 - 25:24] Why my thoughts so cancerous?
[25:24 - 25:26] Why my best friend had me die?
[25:26 - 25:27] God, can you please answer this?
[25:27 - 25:30] Why am I still hanging out in all my less relations?
[25:30 - 25:33] Maybe I'ma come and take a shot and sit and go with him
[25:33 - 25:36] and hear my story from a reason I can never stand.
[25:36 - 25:37] I can come up on a struggle.
[25:37 - 25:40] I can promise that I'm gonna learn something for the trouble.
[25:40 - 25:42] Dog is on my fucking throat.
[25:42 - 25:43] If my thoughts get really killed,
[25:43 - 25:45] let's believe I will be dead.
[25:45 - 25:47] I ain't 'bout his civil lives yet.
[25:47 - 25:49] Sometimes I forget, set up demons.
[25:49 - 25:51] Can't complain, I'm really hanging 'bout a threat.
[25:51 - 25:54] Maybe I should pull this trigger and just lay my mind to rest.
[25:54 - 25:56] Yeah, I'm lost in the music.
[25:56 - 25:57] It's therapeutic.
[25:57 - 26:00] Been a-hanging on, I don't know if I can do this.
[26:00 - 26:04] When I rise, when I fall.
[26:04 - 26:06] I don't know anymore.
[26:06 - 26:10] Look at my reflection and diversity.
[26:10 - 26:12] I mean, what shit I was dreaming.
[26:12 - 26:17] When I rise, when I fall.
[26:17 - 26:19] I don't know anymore.
[26:19 - 26:21] I know your life is glamorous.
[26:21 - 26:23] I can see it in your eyes.
[26:23 - 26:25] You can't even stain yourself.
[26:25 - 26:26] That's on you.
[26:26 - 26:27] So you move around a little.
[26:27 - 26:29] Tossing, turning every night to bed.
[26:29 - 26:32] And even else, you quit the party.
[26:32 - 26:34] Quit the drugs, quit the reaper.
[26:34 - 26:35] And everything is problem solved.
[26:35 - 26:37] 'Cause you change your people.
[26:37 - 26:38] You make them miserable.
[26:38 - 26:39] It's clear you're feeling it up.
[26:39 - 26:42] And even in my head tonight, I can promise you'll be honest.
[26:42 - 26:43] What about my family?
[26:43 - 26:45] I can't even live in a disarray.
[26:45 - 26:48] Give it time and then we won't forget about you anyway.
[26:48 - 26:49] What about my fans?
[26:49 - 26:51] And you in fact, I didn't mean all that.
[26:51 - 26:53] But other folks, do not worry.
[26:53 - 26:54] They will all have been.
[26:54 - 26:55] It's better if you go.
[26:55 - 26:57] Do not act like you have any grace.
[26:57 - 26:58] Everything don't exist.
[26:58 - 26:59] This is it.
[26:59 - 27:01] When you take my hand and push it, get it loud.
[27:01 - 27:02] And you can fight it.
[27:02 - 27:04] That's the sign you will show me.
[27:04 - 27:05] I'm a doctor.
[27:05 - 27:05] I do the jury.
[27:05 - 27:06] That's it.
[27:06 - 27:07] And I'll stay like yours.
[27:07 - 27:10] If this state up here, it ain't fair.
[27:10 - 27:12] And I don't know if I can do this.
[27:12 - 27:16] When I rise, when I fall.
[27:16 - 27:18] I don't know anymore.
[27:18 - 27:21] Look at my reflection.
[27:21 - 27:23] Ain't no person's name, man.
[27:23 - 27:24] Wish that I was reading.
[27:24 - 27:28] When I rise, when I fall.
[27:28 - 27:30] I don't know anymore.
[27:30 - 27:33] I feel like giving up, though.
[27:33 - 27:36] Some things I can't explain, though.
[27:36 - 27:39] I feel like giving up, though.
[27:39 - 27:42] Some things I can't explain, though.
[27:43 - 27:46] When I rise, when I fall.
[27:46 - 27:48] I don't know anymore.
[27:48 - 27:52] When I rise, when I fall.
[27:52 - 28:01] I don't know anymore.
[28:01 - 28:08] No way.
[28:08 - 28:56] No.
[28:56 - 29:00] Every day I wake up, wondering why isn't that?
[29:01 - 29:04] All these motherfuckin' idiots gotta have it.
[29:04 - 29:05] Why isn't that?
[29:05 - 29:07] People like that little girl always gotta be.
[29:07 - 29:10] Push through the fuckin' edge of suicidal thought.
[29:10 - 29:13] I'm just sayin', why isn't that so?
[29:13 - 29:16] Many people look out here in the last.
[29:16 - 29:18] I don't wanna take a fuckin' life.
[29:18 - 29:20] I'm about to save a fuckin' life.
[29:20 - 29:21] And yet, I'm detained.
[29:21 - 29:24] All I wanna do is try to fuckin' help.
[29:24 - 29:28] Make a better way for people like me and a little girl.
[29:28 - 29:29] Who fuckin' took another thing?
[29:29 - 29:32] Jumpin' off the bridge at the edge of suicide.
[29:32 - 29:36] I'm so motherfuckin' sick of the hate.
[29:36 - 29:39] Sick of the motherfuckin' bullying.
[29:39 - 29:41] Sick of evil and motherfuckin' worse.
[29:41 - 29:51] No, there's a reason 'cause one is always actin' like they got all this innocent stack up on it.
[29:51 - 29:56] Truth is bitch, y'all will kill this fuck for everything that you fuckin' do.
[29:56 - 29:58] So fuckin' stick with me.
[29:58 - 29:59] Why isn't that?
[29:59 - 30:02] No, but it can't seem to.
[30:02 - 30:03] Get a motherfuckin' cool gun.
[30:03 - 30:05] What am I supposed to do?
[30:05 - 30:08] Got all this pain.
[30:08 - 30:10] Deep inside my motherfuckin' mind.
[30:10 - 30:12] Do this on my motherfuckin' mind.
[30:12 - 30:14] Y'all don't understand what it's like.
[30:14 - 30:16] I'm the only major suicide.
[30:16 - 30:17] I'm the 19, yo.
[30:17 - 30:21] Motherfuckin' FBI and neighborhood.
[30:21 - 30:25] Jump up the bridge, you all damn feel like baby.
[30:25 - 30:28] Death is the only motherfuckin' option.
[30:28 - 30:31] Take up all this toxic bullshit.
[30:31 - 30:38] Got it, niggas so motherfuckin' nauseous.
[30:38 - 30:41] Why is it that we can't just get along?
[30:41 - 30:45] Why is it that the billion can't fuckin' stop?
[30:45 - 30:48] Why do you gotta push people to motherfuckin' suicide?
[30:48 - 30:51] Every single fuckin' thing I do, understand me.
[30:51 - 30:55] No, body deserves to motherfuckin' die for.
[30:55 - 30:58] Motherfuckin' viewers, bitch, yo, takin' up.
[30:58 - 31:02] Motherfuckin' hand, what is wrong with you?
[31:02 - 31:06] God, this shit isn't fair.
[31:06 - 31:08] It isn't right.
[31:08 - 31:11] Why is it that someone has to get pushed?
[31:11 - 31:14] Take the wrong life every single day and night.
[31:14 - 31:16] People like being in the girl.
[31:16 - 31:19] Throw the sacred demons in our motherfuckin' head.
[31:19 - 31:23] Every night, it's so ceaseless, so we become restless.
[31:23 - 31:28] Often when and where, why is it that we're even alive?
[31:28 - 31:31] We are all broken and dead inside.
[31:31 - 31:35] And it's all because of every single body do that.
[31:35 - 31:41] Wanna sit there, point, laugh, make the jokes, bully.
[31:41 - 31:43] People like me every day.
[31:43 - 31:47] You don't think much too when you motherfuckin' catfish.
[31:47 - 32:21] People like me, pretending to be another girl that's actually into me.
[32:21 - 32:27] All those that deal with suicide, I don't care.
[32:27 - 32:29] We need to stop it.
[32:29 - 32:31] We need to stop the suicide.
[32:31 - 32:33] Not fuckin' push it.
[32:33 - 33:03] We need to stop the suicide.
[33:03 - 40:17] ???
[40:17 - 40:23] All right, there we go. Number one, y'all.
[40:23 - 40:26] See, this is the kind of shit that I'm talking about, man.
[40:26 - 40:29] This kind of shit right here.
[40:29 - 40:36] Y'all act like you're hard shit, but really, you're nothing more than a piece of fucking trash.
[40:36 - 40:42] And on a side note, if I'm not fucking boring, bitch, why the fuck are you watching?
[40:42 - 40:46] If I'm not fucking boring to you, why are you watching?
[40:46 - 40:48] Why are you watching?
[40:49 - 41:28] ???
[41:28 - 41:42] This one right here, this song right here is brought to anyone and everyone that has been on the edge of suicide like myself and that little girl.
[41:42 - 41:48] And it's also brought to anybody out there that has given up on life and has taken their own life.
[41:48 - 55:22] ???
[55:22 - 55:42] This next song right here I'm about to do, this going out to people like that little girl.
[55:42 - 55:50] This going out to everybody including that little girl who is on the edge of suicide right now.
[55:50 - 56:08] If you truly, truly and genuinely are on the edge right now, I just want you to do me a favor right now.
[56:08 - 56:14] I want you to put down that knife, that gun, that rope, whatever you're planning to use to kill yourself with.
[56:14 - 56:20] And just put it down for 3 minutes and 49 seconds.
[56:20 - 56:22] That's all I ask.
[56:22 - 56:26] It's just a few minutes of your time.
[56:26 - 56:28] That's all I ask.
[56:28 - 56:32] It's just that three minutes.
[56:32 - 56:43] I'm not trying to, you know, stop you or anything because I know what it's like to be there.
[56:43 - 56:52] I am there every day of my life.
[56:52 - 57:01] But please, just for this one song, I'm asking you guys to put down that rope, that knife, whatever you're using to kill yourself with.
[57:01 - 57:07] Just for a few minutes.
[57:07 - 57:22] If you're the last one there, don't forget the middle of life.
[57:22 - 62:50] This song is for you guys.
[62:51 - 62:53] I want you to know that I'm proud of you.
[62:53 - 63:03] And for those that feel like they're still there.
[63:03 - 63:07] If I can't get through to you, maybe this can.
[63:07 - 63:09] Maybe this can.
[63:10 - 63:47] This song is for you guys.
[63:47 - 63:49] This one is for you guys.
[63:50 - 64:56] This song is for you guys.
[64:56 - 64:58] Here we go.
[64:58 - 65:04] This song is for you guys.
[65:04 - 65:06] Here we go.
[65:06 - 66:25] [song playing]
[66:25 - 66:28] Don't think about you, don't kill yourself, please don't do it.
[66:28 - 66:31] Whatever your face, then God will see you through it.
[66:31 - 66:34] I have a man kill himself with his mild mask if I can come see him.
[66:34 - 66:36] She was depressed and active, I could meet her.
[66:36 - 66:38] Two weeks later, the pressure beat her.
[66:38 - 66:42] She ran into a telephone pole without a seatbelt and a two-seater.
[66:42 - 66:44] And I wish right now I could crawl through these speakers,
[66:44 - 66:47] and somehow convince you not to go the same route she did.
[66:47 - 66:50] I wish I could change the fact that you feel defeated.
[66:50 - 66:54] I wish I could lock my arms around you and tell the devil to beat it.
[66:54 - 66:57] But I can't reach everyone even though I do my best to try.
[66:57 - 67:00] Some people believe the lie that it's just best to die.
[67:00 - 67:02] And I think it's the simple way out.
[67:02 - 67:05] But they're not here to see the way things play out.
[67:05 - 67:07] And I don't see the hurt they cause and the pain they leave.
[67:07 - 67:10] I take this seriously, this isn't a game to me.
[67:10 - 67:13] Even thinking about ending your life is living dangerously.
[67:13 - 67:15] So please just listen to my voice.
[67:15 - 67:17] Right now you have a choice.
[67:17 - 67:20] You can choose life where you can get drowned by the noise.
[67:20 - 67:21] Please don't do it.
[67:21 - 67:23] Please just ask for help.
[67:23 - 67:25] Don't stop for your family.
[67:25 - 67:27] Do it for yourself.
[67:27 - 67:39] And what he's spoken at is very fucking true, man.
[67:39 - 67:43] Very fucking true.
[67:43 - 67:51] And, Marty, I hope you know that I'm gunning for you, bitch.
[67:51 - 67:55] Sit there, expose me, do what you want.
[67:55 - 67:59] Say what you will about me.
[67:59 - 68:01] I don't care.
[68:01 - 68:06] Because when I get on this mic every day and I try to help someone,
[68:06 - 68:08] this isn't a game to me.
[68:08 - 68:10] This is what I was meant to do.
[68:10 - 68:14] Helping people is what I was put on this fucking earth to do.
[68:14 - 68:20] And let me tell you right now,
[68:20 - 68:23] if I could save even one life at the end of the day,
[68:23 - 68:25] then I'm doing my job.
[68:25 - 68:30] I'm doing my job at the end of the day.
[68:30 - 68:39] But I swear to that little girl, man,
[68:39 - 68:44] I need you guys to fucking find her and reach out to her
[68:44 - 68:49] before it's too late.
[68:50 - 68:52] Please.
[68:52 - 69:02] I'm asking for everyone to find this girl and fucking reach out to her
[69:02 - 69:09] and show her that she has a community here of people that do care,
[69:09 - 69:14] of people that do give a shit, of people that actually give a fuck.
[69:14 - 69:24] Y'all can sit there and make fun of me and do whatever, I don't give a fuck.
[69:24 - 69:27] But right now, I'm not worried about me.
[69:27 - 69:30] Right now, I'm worried about that little girl.
[69:30 - 69:36] I need y'all motherfuckers to get off your motherfucking asses
[69:36 - 69:38] and find this little girl.
[69:41 - 69:44] Find her, reach out to her.
[69:44 - 69:52] Let her know, my Discord, give her my phone number, I don't care.
[69:52 - 69:56] Get me in contact with this little girl so I can fucking help her.
[69:56 - 70:04] Because I have a platform big enough to be able to help.
[70:04 - 70:06] I have connections to where I can help.
[70:10 - 70:17] So after I sign off, I want you guys to reach out to this girl and fucking help her.
[70:17 - 70:23] Please man, help this little girl.
[70:23 - 70:37] Please y'all.
[70:37 - 70:52] I'm begging you guys, after this stream, reach out to her and show her that she's not alone.
[70:52 - 70:57] And that she has friends here.
[70:57 - 71:12] Because like I said, this is not a game to me, this is real life.
[71:12 - 71:18] I need you guys to reach out to her.
[71:18 - 71:22] Like I said, you guys are more than welcome to give her any info on me that you wish.
[71:22 - 71:27] Give her my number, my Discord.
[71:27 - 71:35] I know some of you have my Facebook, like send her any info to get a hold of me right away.
[71:35 - 71:37] Please.
[71:37 - 71:46] Peace.
[71:46 - 71:50] [MUSIC PLAYING]