Original upload date: March 29th, 2021 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:29] (sigh)
[0:29 - 0:45] Good morning, guys. First off, I want to say I'm sorry for not posting yesterday. Yesterday was kind of a bit of a rough day for me.
[0:45 - 1:01] I was dealing with, you know, mental issues with the whole Marty situation and all kinds of bad stuff with that.
[1:01 - 1:14] And I was just really trying to, you know, get my head cleared and relax for a day, hang out with friends, family and whatnot.
[1:14 - 1:24] So I forget the day I make up for it by doing some song covers on my two ocarinas that I got right here.
[1:24 - 1:31] So we're going to get a good jump on this in a good way.
[1:31 - 1:45] This song I would actually like to dedicate to somebody. As you guys know, late last year I lost somebody very close to me.
[1:45 - 2:14] That was actually my girlfriend through high school as well as for many years after. So this first song I'm going to do on my Phoenix Ocarina is Lucy by Skillet.
[2:14 - 2:36] And as I said, I would like to take this time to dedicate this cover to Lexi who, as I said, was my girlfriend last year up until she passed away from severe, severe heart and health problems that were out of her control.
[2:36 - 2:41] So this first one's going to have to Lex.
[2:41 - 2:47] So what we have here is a little scissor stick.
[2:47 - 2:55] In some ways, links are kind of the same.
[2:55 - 3:08] Let's see, I remember your name, I left a dozen roses on your grave today.
[3:08 - 3:15] I'm in the grass on my knees but the leaves are away.
[3:15 - 3:24] I just came to town for a while, got some things I need to say.
[3:24 - 3:51] I just came to town for a while, I give up all the words I say.
[3:51 - 3:59] Hey Lucy, I remember your birthday.
[3:59 - 4:06] I said I'd raise a closure to say your name.
[4:06 - 4:13] I know I took a long time to rid of my health insurance.
[4:13 - 4:23] But all I gotta do is tell them to give. They can't help me, they don't have any, no one at all.
[4:23 - 4:38] Just don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go.
[4:38 - 4:49] Don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go.
[4:49 - 5:18] Let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go.
[5:18 - 6:01] Don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go.
[6:01 - 6:28] Don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go.
[6:28 - 6:33] Rest in peace, licks.
[6:33 - 6:38] And Tim, that's the one thing you seem to not understand is I've actually trained with this.
[6:38 - 6:47] I've actually taken classes for this, so yeah, you can take your negative comments and take them somewhere else, dude.
[6:47 - 6:57] Because that negative crap, it's not welcome here.
[6:57 - 6:59] It's really not.
[7:00 - 10:33] [MUSIC]
[10:33 - 10:41] And here's the thing, dude, I learned to play, and here's the thing, Tim, this is something that not a lot of people seem to understand,
[10:41 - 10:48] is that I learned to play instruments differently than what most people do.
[10:48 - 10:53] Instead of learning to play by note, I learned to play by what I hear vocally.
[10:53 - 11:05] What I hear vocally, I'm able to translate into doing stuff on these, or on piano, or on guitar, or whatever instrument I just happened to be playing at that time.
[11:05 - 11:14] So it's not that I'm playing it wrong, it's just I learned to play differently in a different style and in a different way than your typical person.
[11:14 - 11:18] That's just how I work, that's how I operate.
[11:18 - 11:25] So it's not that I'm playing it wrong, it's just that, like I said, I learned a different way than most people would.
[11:25 - 15:25] [MUSIC]
[15:25 - 15:30] I did this motherfucker right here talking shit.
[15:30 - 15:33] This is not that serious, bro.
[15:33 - 15:35] You're full of shit, dude.
[15:35 - 15:38] The fuck out of here, man.
[15:38 - 15:41] And Tim, same with you, bro.
[15:41 - 15:50] [MUSIC]
[15:50 - 15:57] Like I said, dude, any negative comments, you got to go.
[15:57 - 16:01] No negativity is allowed here, bro.
[16:01 - 16:08] So, yeah.
[16:08 - 16:14] See, that's what I find funny is you guys sit there and you think that you're creating constructive criticism, but really, you're not.
[16:14 - 16:17] You're just being fucking assholes.
[16:17 - 16:18] Like, that's all it is.
[16:18 - 16:25] You're just being a bunch of fucking assholes.
[16:25 - 16:29] Which I find stupid as fuck.
[16:29 - 16:35] Like, if it can be positive, don't post anything at all, bro.
[16:35 - 16:58] Just saying, like, if you can't post something positive and you're going to sit there and be negative, then don't bother commenting.
[16:58 - 20:12] [MUSIC]
[20:12 - 20:16] If you guys are wondering what this is, it is actually an Ocarina.
[20:16 - 20:28] If you guys have ever played Legend of Zelda at all, period, more specifically Ocarina of Time, you'll know that that's where these instruments originate.
[20:28 - 20:30] I actually have two of them.
[20:30 - 20:41] I have the very highly sought-after Rising From the Ashes Phoenix Ocarina, which is one of the more rare, more sought-after ones.
[20:41 - 20:51] I have your typical sweep-tight Ocarina, which is like your typical Legend of Zelda one with the Triforce.
[20:51 - 20:58] So, yeah.
[20:58 - 21:07] And to the guys that are sitting there saying, "I can't fucking play."
[21:07 - 24:09] [MUSIC]
[24:09 - 24:12] Yo, for sure, bro. For fucking sure, bro.
[24:12 - 24:15] Like, dude, you ain't even going to pay me, homie.
[24:15 - 24:20] Like, I will fucking send me some of the link on Discord, dawg.
[24:20 - 24:32] And I will literally-- I'll send you my fucking Discord and you can send it over.
[24:32 - 24:38] Like, send it over to me on Discord and I'll fucking paste that shit in here, bro.
[24:38 - 24:43] Like, dude, I'm always down to promote, you know, music artists and people in general, dude.
[24:43 - 24:46] Like, I'm always down to do that.
[24:46 - 24:50] Especially if you got a channel and you're trying to do what you can to get it out there.
[24:50 - 24:57] Dude, I'm always about supporting other people, you know, other music artists that are coming up,
[24:57 - 25:00] people that are coming out music-wise.
[25:00 - 25:08] [MUSIC]
[25:08 - 25:15] Yo, here's my Discord, man. Add me up, bro, and I'll fucking post that shit only.
[25:15 - 25:22] And now, Bill, I ain't quit.
[25:22 - 25:28] So, do this, bitch.
[25:28 - 25:36] Swear, man, these fucking trolls are something else, dawg, I swear.
[25:36 - 25:44] And these trolls just don't know when they quit, do they?
[25:44 - 25:56] [MUSIC]
[25:56 - 26:05] Ooh, and David's got some new shit out, hell yeah.
[26:05 - 26:17] [MUSIC]
[26:17 - 26:19] No shit.
[26:19 - 26:37] [MUSIC]
[26:37 - 26:42] Actually, nah, hold up, hold up, I got something for you.
[26:42 - 26:44] I got something to bring your ass, man.
[26:44 - 26:47] Something that a lot of people don't know I can actually do vocally.
[26:47 - 26:49] And, dude, that's dope, man.
[26:49 - 26:52] I actually do a lot of artwork myself.
[26:52 - 27:00] You can actually check a lot of my artwork out on Facebook and different art groups and stuff like that.
[27:00 - 27:02] So, dude, I'm right out there with you, man.
[27:02 - 27:08] A lot of people think that I'm just about music and this and that, but not, dude.
[27:08 - 27:10] I fucking love doing artwork.
[27:10 - 27:12] Fucking love that shit.
[27:12 - 27:21] I've been doing artwork since I was a kid.
[27:21 - 27:25] And so, like, artwork is, like, my main go-to thing.
[27:25 - 27:27] That's what I do best above all else.
[27:27 - 27:30] Like, obviously, I'm good with music.
[27:30 - 27:32] I mean, obviously, I'm good with that.
[27:32 - 27:38] But for me, artwork is, like, that's my go-to thing, hands down.
[27:38 - 27:47] Like, if I got an idea for an art piece, I'm doing that art piece.
[27:47 - 27:49] So, yeah, I'm definitely on board, man.
[27:49 - 27:58] Especially somebody like yourself who does art, I'm game, bro.
[27:58 - 28:06] Yeah, that's what you think.
[28:06 - 28:08] Hey, Truth, here's the thing, bro.
[28:08 - 28:12] There's something that -- and I know my boy here.
[28:12 - 28:19] I know my boy James here will actually get this because, like him, like me, he's an artist himself.
[28:19 - 28:32] There's something that is known as the Free Use Act or the Free Use Law.
[28:32 - 28:42] Now, what the Free Use Law is, is as long as you're transformative with the artwork, like I am, like, take what I do.
[28:42 - 28:49] I take people's photos and I turn them into dark, creepy, abstract paintings.
[28:49 - 28:51] And I get paid for it.
[28:51 - 28:52] It's a commission.
[28:52 - 28:53] I get paid to do that.
[28:53 - 28:56] It's my job that I do.
[28:56 - 28:59] Like, that's a form of art.
[28:59 - 29:05] And some people don't see it that way, but it actually is.
[29:05 - 29:15] Now, if you go out and you blatantly steal someone's art piece and you claim it out of their own, then, yeah, you can say that I'm stealing it, but I'm not doing that.
[29:15 - 29:29] I'm making use of the Fair Use Law, which allows me to take someone's photo, turn it into a creepy painting, or take, you know, whatever photo I want and turn it into something entirely different.
[29:29 - 29:32] That's unrecognizable.
[29:32 - 29:34] It's a legitimate art style.
[29:34 - 29:46] This style of painting I do combines different art styles from past artists such as Van Gogh and other people.
[29:46 - 29:49] So, you know, it's technically not.
[29:49 - 29:51] It's technically not stealing.
[29:51 - 29:54] And by all technical terms, it's not plagiarism either.
[29:54 - 29:59] So, Carrie, get the fuck out of here with that shit.
[29:59 - 30:07] Like, seriously, do I seriously need to pull up the Fair Use Law on YouTube and play that shit back? Because I will.
[30:07 - 30:12] I have no problem doing it. I've done it before and I can do it again.
[30:12 - 30:17] That is not a problem.
[30:17 - 30:23] So, all y'all motherfuckers that want to hate, kiss my ass.
[30:23 - 30:26] I know what I'm doing ain't wrong.
[30:26 - 30:30] Y'all motherfuckers just want to be pussy ass fucking cowards.
[30:30 - 30:33] Y'all just want to hate.
[30:33 - 30:38] And if you want to hate, hey, have a nice time.
[30:38 - 31:02] No shit, Elaine. That's dope. Hell yeah.
[31:02 - 31:06] See, I love meeting fellow artists, man. I fucking love that.
[31:06 - 31:12] Hey, Elaine, if you've actually got Discord, you're more than welcome to admin.
[31:12 - 31:14] I would definitely love to see some of your work.
[31:14 - 31:24] And I'll even send you some of my work and some pieces that I've done recently.
[31:24 - 31:29] So, hit me up, man. We'll definitely get stuff going.
[31:29 - 31:34] Alright, that's the song I don't know yet.
[31:34 - 31:38] Yeah, this is actually for the two new people up in here.
[31:38 - 31:54] James and Elaine, this actual song.corn, this is for you guys.
[31:54 - 32:20] Let's go here.
[32:20 - 32:44] Since y'all ain't heard me do this stuff, this is for you guys.
[32:44 - 32:54] I'm going to say, I'm going to say, I'm going to say,
[32:54 - 32:58] I'm going to say,
[32:58 - 33:06] There's no freezeless cries that twist my every dream.
[33:06 - 33:14] It's almost every night I hear the demon say,
[33:14 - 33:18] Why are we going off this way?
[33:18 - 33:22] Why are we playing this game today?
[33:22 - 33:28] Nothing's going to place this down and people don't stop to chat.
[33:28 - 33:32] One of the times I believed this way,
[33:32 - 33:36] One of the slowest letters right,
[33:36 - 33:42] Not in these two places I can never follow.
[33:42 - 33:44] This is true.
[33:44 - 33:48] In the darkest of ways,
[33:48 - 33:52] And I've said to you now,
[33:52 - 33:56] There ain't nothing but mistakes.
[33:56 - 34:00] There's no freezeless cries
[34:00 - 34:03] that twist my every dream.
[34:03 - 34:11] It's almost every night I hear the demon say,
[34:11 - 34:15] Why are we going off this way?
[34:15 - 34:18] Why are we playing this game today?
[34:18 - 34:26] Nothing's going to place this down and people don't stop to chat.
[34:26 - 34:32] There's no freezeless cries that twist my every dream.
[34:32 - 34:37] It's almost every night I hear the demon say,
[34:37 - 34:45] Why are we playing this game today?
[34:45 - 34:50] It's almost every night I hear the demon say,
[34:50 - 35:22] Why are we playing this game today?
[35:22 - 35:29] Nothing's going to break this down and people don't stop to chat.
[35:29 - 36:58] Why are we playing this game today?
[36:59 - 37:02] How many of y'all remember this track?
[37:03 - 38:34] Why are we playing this game today?
[38:35 - 38:36] What are we playing this game today?
[38:36 - 42:47] Why are we playing this game today?
[42:48 - 42:54] Why the fuck would I retire when I got so many people that fucking love what I do?
[42:54 - 42:58] So Marty, you and your little fucking goons that are up in here?
[42:58 - 43:01] You, man.
[43:01 - 43:03] Y'all ain't shit.
[43:03 - 43:09] For real, man.
[43:09 - 43:11] You guys ain't shit compared to me.
[43:11 - 43:28] Now, I did say I was thinking about retiring.
[43:28 - 43:32] But I sat down and talked to some people, and I'm not doing it.
[43:32 - 43:48] Now, I am going to do a song for you guys that, well, some of you might know, a lot
[43:48 - 43:57] of the older fans know this song, but for all the newer ones, this one's actually one
[43:57 - 44:02] of my most viewed songs, actually.
[44:02 - 44:10] Let's see if I can find it.
[44:10 - 44:12] Hopefully it's in this set.
[44:12 - 44:15] It better be in this set because I'm going to piss it with the sun.
[44:15 - 44:17] All right, yeah, there it is.
[44:17 - 44:23] This song, keep in mind, I released this song three years ago, and it's got over
[44:23 - 44:28] 700 views.
[44:28 - 44:29] So this is for all the new people, man.
[44:29 - 44:31] This is for all the new fans.
[44:31 - 44:34] This is my song, "Please Notice Me."
[44:35 - 44:40] Every day I make it knows my mind, and I don't understand why.
[44:40 - 44:43] Why would you don't notice me?
[44:43 - 44:50] If it is a family, why can't you just let me pray?
[44:50 - 45:00] Every day I thought you read the laws.
[45:00 - 45:04] All the words and that's what you don't even notice.
[45:04 - 45:07] Who are you?
[45:07 - 45:10] Every day I notice you.
[45:10 - 45:17] I hate that one day that you're a family, and I don't understand why.
[45:17 - 45:20] You don't even notice me at all.
[45:20 - 45:29] It's like every single day I look at you, and I just want to say that I love you.
[45:29 - 45:36] But you don't even know my name, and I don't know who I am.
[45:36 - 45:41] I hate that one day I'm a family, and I don't understand why.
[45:41 - 45:48] If it is a family, why can't you notice me?
[45:48 - 45:55] All I want to do is be free from the agonizing pain.
[45:55 - 56:16] If it is a family, why can't you notice me?
[56:16 - 56:20] Why can't you notice me?
[56:20 - 57:27] If it is a family, why can't you notice me?
[57:33 - 57:39] Now to all the fucking haters that are hating indirectly talking shit to other people about me,
[57:39 - 57:47] I'd love to see you motherfuckers do that 18 second fucking scream that I just fucking nailed, bitch.
[57:47 - 57:53] I'd love to see any one of you motherfuckers get up on the mic and do that shit.
[57:53 - 57:56] I would love to see you do that.
[57:56 - 58:05] I would pay to see that. I would pay a million bucks to see that.
[58:05 - 58:34] Because 99% chance is you can't do it. There's very few like myself who can pull that scream off.
[58:34 - 58:44] I don't know, Mister.
[58:44 - 58:48] Blue Moon.
[58:49 - 59:15] Blue Moon, Blue Moon, Blue Moon, Blue Moon, Blue Moon, Blue Moon, Blue Moon.
[59:15 - 59:21] Blue Moon and Trust, no surprise.
[59:21 - 59:27] Any gossip, no dust, and no lies.
[59:27 - 59:31] Trying not to break, no so tired of this deceit.
[59:31 - 59:36] Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet, all you ever think about is this.
[59:36 - 59:42] All tired and tired of tweeting out, trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me.
[59:42 - 59:51] Take everything from inside and throw it all away.
[59:51 - 59:59] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't trust myself.
[59:59 - 60:14] The danger is moving inside of me, and it feels so far away from me.
[60:14 - 60:17] Trying not to break, no so tired of this deceit.
[60:17 - 60:22] Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet, all you ever think about is this.
[60:22 - 60:28] All tired and tired of tweeting out, trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me.
[60:28 - 60:37] Take everything from inside and throw it all away.
[60:37 - 60:43] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't trust myself.
[60:43 - 61:06] Wake up, I won't waste myself on you, you, you, break to myself on you, you, you.
[61:06 - 61:15] Take everything from inside and throw it all away.
[61:15 - 61:23] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't trust myself with you.
[61:23 - 61:37] Take everything from inside and throw it all away.
[61:37 - 61:43] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't trust myself with you, you, you.
[61:43 - 61:59] Now I am gonna end this stream of something real dope for you guys.
[61:59 - 62:14] A lot of the older fans are doing that, no, this stream.
[62:14 - 62:42] Nowhere I'm about to go with this.
[62:42 - 63:11] This is my song, you call it "When You Die."
[63:11 - 63:38] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't trust myself on you, you, you.
[63:38 - 63:44] Take everything from inside and throw it all away.
[63:44 - 64:07] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't waste myself on you, you, you, you.
[64:07 - 64:15] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't trust myself with you.
[64:15 - 64:21] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't trust myself on you, you, you.
[64:21 - 64:25] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't trust myself on you.
[64:25 - 70:12] 'Cause I swear for the last time, I won't waste myself on you.
[70:12 - 70:39] ??
[70:39 - 70:41] After this, I will be actually doing a Sera hip-hop song.
[70:41 - 70:43] A hip-hop song for you guys.
[70:43 - 70:45] My trade couple.
[70:45 - 74:10] ??
[74:10 - 74:14] Yo, Agent Maddox, what's good, bro?
[74:14 - 74:18] People will tell you, why don't you go get some help?
[74:18 - 74:21] Take some meds.
[74:21 - 74:23] They'll see you back here, hey?
[74:23 - 74:26] They can help you with your problems.
[74:26 - 74:27] Some people--
[74:27 - 74:32] Let's roll the new subs, man. If you are new, man, don't forget to leave that like and subscribe button, man.
[74:32 - 74:33] This is for y'all.
[74:33 - 77:58] ??
[77:58 - 78:00] And y'all know I got to get your--
[78:00 - 78:04] Y'all know I got to get controversial with this shit.
[78:04 - 78:10] ??
[78:10 - 78:14] Now, before I start the song, I can already tell you that this song I'm about to do,
[78:14 - 78:24] this is something that every artist and every YouTuber in general deals with in some sort of way.
[78:24 - 78:31] So if you are a YouTuber, man, or you are a music artist or an artist of some kind in general,
[78:31 - 78:36] I know you guys will be able to relate to this in some way.
[78:36 - 78:43] Hello, Thomas. I see that you're depressed. What's the problem? Is it the skeletons you're hiding deep inside your closet?
[78:43 - 78:49] Have you been reading all the names they call you in the comments? Have you been worried your haters will put you in the coffin?
[78:49 - 78:54] Are you distraught that you promised five though was not an option? Now you have the thought to do a chat stop.
[78:54 - 78:58] You're an alcoholic. Is that true? You're upset that you can have booze?
[78:58 - 79:01] What's the matter, Thomas? Something's got you in a bag, huh?
[79:01 - 79:06] Yeah, it does. It's tenacious. It calms it down. I stand itself, so I'm gonna hit you in the lane with them,
[79:06 - 79:11] because the internet will laugh at us. I just need a beer or two, but it's been like a year or two.
[79:11 - 79:14] Got you disappeared. I can't believe that I'm still here with you.
[79:14 - 79:17] Shut up. But you're missing me, and you can't speak.
[79:17 - 79:22] You're in a lot of devil out with you and you and the other gamers in.
[79:22 - 79:27] You're too American media. I'm only gonna tell you the ones you really need to be in my circle.
[79:27 - 79:31] No, don't you? Don't you trust me? Why don't you stop the vultures?
[79:31 - 79:34] Why don't you go to the grocery store and never give any ulcers?
[79:34 - 79:38] Shut up. Let me don't mind. Do you want me to pick the penis? I'm the guy who does anything that I want to go viral.
[79:38 - 79:44] Why don't you go to the grocery store and never give any ulcers?
[79:44 - 79:45] I'm not a major person. You've been lied to.
[79:45 - 79:47] You're in for your schedule.
[79:47 - 79:49] Come on, Thomas. Give me a beer.
[79:49 - 79:52] Don't lie. I'm gonna tell you exactly how I feel.
[79:52 - 79:55] I'm the best rapper ever. I don't wanna be great,
[79:55 - 79:58] but they're the best, and I'm better 'cause you make a mistake.
[79:58 - 80:01] I'm the God, we're laying in my balls.
[80:01 - 80:04] I'm the God, I'm the one that wants what I want to score.
[80:04 - 80:08] I'm the best rapper ever. I don't care what you say.
[80:08 - 80:11] I'm the biggest, you know, whatever I'm designed to say.
[80:11 - 80:14] I'm the God, we're laying in my balls.
[80:14 - 80:18] I'm the only one that's ever here, and I'm the only one that's ever here.
[80:18 - 80:21] Thomas, I'm still here. I'm practically smell the fear.
[80:21 - 80:24] I know all the reasons why you feel so insecure.
[80:24 - 80:27] I've seen you panic backstage, hearing everybody cheer.
[80:27 - 80:31] You're famous now, Thomas. Tell me what's with all the tears.
[80:31 - 80:34] You regret that your face is covered with tattoos,
[80:34 - 80:38] mad that your beat's wet, all your rap's trash too.
[80:38 - 80:41] You resent that you need fans again to blame your friends,
[80:41 - 80:43] and now you just pretend you're not pathetic.
[80:43 - 80:44] You're my every man.
[80:44 - 80:47] Now you're on those case. Don't know why. Don't feel okay.
[80:47 - 80:50] Realize the focus on pain. Close my mind and go in my brain.
[80:50 - 80:52] You're gonna hope for all those things.
[80:52 - 80:54] That's because it blows my brain.
[80:54 - 80:57] They told me smell them roses, but I burned it all, okay?
[80:57 - 81:01] You'll never win the fight against your head, as long as I listen.
[81:01 - 81:04] 'Cause I read every single comment that you try and miss it.
[81:04 - 81:07] Then recite them in your mind and memorize this.
[81:07 - 81:10] I'm a giant Thomas, why you try to fight with me?
[81:10 - 81:13] You're different. Don't care about it. I ain't different to my life.
[81:13 - 81:15] Go, go, go fight, now swing it.
[81:15 - 81:16] You gotta get back to vision.
[81:16 - 81:19] You're the only one telling the truth because you've been doing my stuff like a kid.
[81:19 - 81:23] I'm one of the most abandoned students in the world, and I'm down to eat all my brothers higher.
[81:23 - 81:26] You're rooting for yourself, an incident.
[81:26 - 81:28] You're solving small intentions. I'm a brief, sincere surprise.
[81:28 - 81:32] A new fight. You're gonna be chill. You're gonna take more of those tales.
[81:32 - 81:35] Take a breath and tell us all just exactly how you feel.
[81:35 - 81:46] And that's facts, man. I know a lot of y'all that do, you know, that do YouTube videos and whatnot.
[81:46 - 81:51] And if you do art of any kind of general, you guys kind of get where that song is going.
[81:51 - 81:57] It's, you know, you deal with all this negativity and all this bullshit on a daily basis.
[81:57 - 82:01] I deal with it literally every day of my life.
[82:01 - 82:08] Like, if you guys look up Music Biz Marty, for those of you that don't know who Music Biz Marty is,
[82:08 - 82:15] let's just say that he's a very, very evil and very sick individual.
[82:15 - 82:21] And when I'm being sick, I mean, not just in an evil way, he literally is psychotic.
[82:21 - 82:24] He is literally mentally insane.
[82:24 - 82:29] He actually needs mental health and will not seek it.
[82:29 - 82:34] This guy literally attacks me on a daily basis every day.
[82:34 - 82:37] Like, non-stop, he attacks me.
[82:37 - 82:40] For literally no reason at all.
[82:40 - 82:46] And through that, I get negative comments on my stuff. I get people attacking me.
[82:46 - 82:52] So for those of you that are going through that, just know that I know what that's like, and I deal with that.
[82:52 - 82:57] On a daily basis, I have to deal with that. I have to struggle with that.
[82:57 - 83:09] And it's not easy because late last year, because of Marty and how bad the cyberbullying got with him,
[83:09 - 83:19] at one point I actually did, and a lot of people don't believe this is true, but it actually is for real.
[83:19 - 83:27] Because of Marty and all the bullying that went on last year, and with how bad that it's actually gotten,
[83:27 - 83:35] especially over the last few weeks, one time last year, as well as this year,
[83:35 - 83:41] I had actually attempted suicide because of how bad it had gotten.
[83:41 - 83:49] Like, that's how bad the bullying has gotten with him, is that I actually did attempt to take my life at one point last year.
[83:49 - 83:57] And then again, just very recently, a few, like, not even a couple weeks ago, because of how bad it's gotten.
[83:57 - 84:04] He had, you know, gotten my family involved in shit that they didn't even be involved in.
[84:04 - 84:10] He attacked my family, attacked me, ridiculed me, ridiculed my family.
[84:10 - 84:20] He has been literally just doing a lot of stuff that he doesn't need to be doing.
[84:20 - 84:26] So, trust me when I say I know exactly what it's like to be at that point.
[84:26 - 84:31] I know what it's like to deal with negativity, with hatred, with bullies.
[84:31 - 84:36] I know what it's like to wake up with depression every day, because I wake up with that.
[84:36 - 84:44] A lot of people think that I wake up, I'm all happy, I'm all smiles, I'm ready to fucking go, ready to take on the day.
[84:44 - 84:46] No, that's not it.
[84:46 - 84:48] Every day I wake up.
[84:48 - 84:55] First thought in my mind every day when I wake up is, okay, how much worse?
[84:55 - 85:01] Like, what is it that Marty's going to do today to make things worse than he had before?
[85:01 - 85:08] Like, that's literally my thoughts is, what kind of fucked up shit is Marty going to do today?
[85:08 - 85:11] How much worse is it going to get?
[85:11 - 85:17] How much more evil things is he going to do to try to ruin my life, my family's lives?
[85:17 - 85:21] What is he going to do to threaten my family's lives next?
[85:21 - 85:26] What's he going to do to put my family in danger next?
[85:26 - 85:30] Like, that's what goes through my head every day.
[85:30 - 85:32] And people don't realize that.
[85:32 - 85:40] People don't really realize what I actually deal with.
[85:40 - 85:45] I actually do deal with that kind of stuff every day.
[85:45 - 85:50] And it sucks because I wake up depressed every day because of this.
[85:50 - 85:53] And it's not a fun thing to deal with.
[85:53 - 85:55] It sucks.
[85:55 - 86:00] Like, because of Marty, I'm not able to relax.
[86:00 - 86:04] I'm not able to spend time with family like I want to.
[86:04 - 86:10] I'm not able to do things that I want to do without being attacked.
[86:10 - 86:18] Like, a lot of you guys, you know, you sit there on the weekends and you're relaxing,
[86:18 - 86:22] you maybe crack open a beer or two or whatever and have a good time.
[86:22 - 86:25] Me, I'm always having to look over my shoulder.
[86:25 - 86:28] I'm always having to look over my back.
[86:28 - 86:32] I don't get the luxury or the opportunity to relax.
[86:32 - 86:36] Like, honestly, anymore, I don't even know what relaxing is.
[86:36 - 86:39] Like, for me, what is relaxing?
[86:39 - 86:42] What is being able to take a break?
[86:42 - 86:45] What is being able to do what you love?
[86:45 - 86:49] That's the point that I'm at, where I don't know what relaxing is anymore.
[86:49 - 86:51] I don't know how to relax.
[86:51 - 86:54] I don't know how to, you know, chill out.
[86:54 - 87:01] Because I'm always looking over my shoulder, always on alert every day because of Marty.
[87:01 - 87:03] And it sucks.
[87:03 - 87:09] I want to be able to relax and hang out with my friends and have a good time and do this, that, and the other.
[87:09 - 87:16] But because of Marty and what he's been doing, I'm always on high alert every day.
[87:16 - 87:24] Like, literally, from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed, I'm always on alert every day.
[87:24 - 87:29] Checking, seeing, making sure I know what's going on.
[87:29 - 87:33] I'm always on alert of what's he going to do next?
[87:33 - 87:36] Who's he going to attack next in my family?
[87:36 - 87:44] Like, what's he going to do to screw my life up worse than he's already done?
[87:44 - 87:47] And, you know, it sucks, but that's something that I have to deal with.
[87:47 - 87:53] That's my reality when I wake up every day, is I'm always on high alert.
[87:53 - 87:56] Always, you know, having to keep an eye out.
[87:56 - 87:58] Always having to keep a lookout.
[87:58 - 88:01] That's my life every day.
[88:01 - 88:05] From the time I wake up in the morning to the time I go to bed.
[88:05 - 88:11] This man is literally terrorized my family for the last year and a half.
[88:11 - 88:20] But it's gotten so bad over the last few weeks that it's hard for me to even get out of bed in the morning.
[88:20 - 88:23] It's hard for me to go to sleep at night.
[88:23 - 88:27] It's hard for me to get out of bed in the morning.
[88:27 - 88:34] Because of how much bullshit this fucking asshole has done to me.
[88:34 - 88:36] Marty is not a good person.
[88:36 - 88:43] He's honestly sick in the head and he needs fucking help.
[88:43 - 88:48] So to those of you that can relate that are going through that stuff,
[88:48 - 88:50] I feel bad for you guys.
[88:50 - 88:52] I really do because I'm there too.
[88:52 - 88:55] Like, it sucks.
[88:55 - 89:02] Nobody deserves to get bullied or harassed the way that I've gotten.
[89:02 - 89:08] But, you know, hopefully here soon Marty will be able to be brought down.
[89:08 - 89:14] And I can give back to doing what I love with my music, my artwork.
[89:14 - 89:19] I actually have a manga I started working on last year before all this started.
[89:19 - 89:22] And yes, I'm an anime nerd. Yes, I'm an otaku.
[89:22 - 89:27] I love anime. I live, breathe, eat, and sleep anime on a daily basis.
[89:27 - 89:33] Just saying. So I do have a manga that I was working on before all this started.
[89:33 - 89:39] And hopefully by the time all this is over, I'll actually be able to get back to working on that.
[89:39 - 89:45] And hopefully by the next few months I'll actually be able to put out a manga
[89:45 - 89:51] that you guys will be able to sit down, read, and enjoy, and whatnot.
[89:51 - 89:58] So, yeah. But I do hope that this helps you guys in some sort of way.
[89:58 - 90:04] You know, hopefully you guys are able to take something positive away from this.
[90:04 - 90:07] Hopefully you guys are able to see that I'm just like you guys.
[90:07 - 90:10] I'm a human being just like you.
[90:10 - 90:14] I don't claim to be the best at everything because I'm not the best.
[90:14 - 90:18] I know there are people out there that are far better than I am.
[90:18 - 90:24] They've got years of experience. But me, I'm just telling my life story
[90:24 - 90:29] through what I do best, which is my music and stuff like that.
[90:29 - 90:33] And through these shows, through these live streams.
[90:33 - 90:38] So I do hope that you guys are able to take something away positively from this.
[90:38 - 90:43] And hopefully, you know, me telling my story does help you guys in some sort of way.
[90:43 - 90:49] And who knows, maybe it intrigues you guys and hopefully I help you guys
[90:49 - 90:54] to get interested in having to bring down Music Biz Marty.
[90:54 - 90:58] Because I don't want anybody else to go through what I've gotten put through.
[90:58 - 91:01] I really don't. Nobody deserves this.
[91:01 - 91:08] Not me, not my family. Nobody deserves to get bullied the way he's been doing me.
[91:08 - 91:12] So hopefully you guys do take interest and help out.
[91:12 - 91:16] If you do, that's amazing. If you know anybody that can help.
[91:16 - 91:19] Hey, that's awesome too.
[91:19 - 91:24] So whatever little bit of help you guys can provide to bring Marty down,
[91:24 - 91:28] that would be amazing. It really would.
[91:28 - 91:32] Because I can use all the help I can get.
[91:32 - 91:36] But with that being said guys, I am going to hop off here.
[91:36 - 91:39] Try to write some new songs.
[91:39 - 91:44] Try to work on some new stuff.
[91:44 - 91:49] And hopefully by today, I'll either have a new song released or I'll have something out.
[91:49 - 91:51] I don't know.
[91:51 - 91:56] But I love you guys. If you guys are new, don't forget to hit that like, that subscribe button.
[91:56 - 91:59] And that notification bell down below.
[91:59 - 92:03] And as always man, stay humble, stay positive.
[92:03 - 92:06] Don't let anybody throw any kind of shit at you man.
[92:06 - 92:10] If they do throw shit at you man, take that shit.
[92:10 - 92:13] Throw it right back at them and tell them to fuck themselves.
[92:13 - 92:16] Because you're awesome. You're amazing. You're wonderful.
[92:16 - 92:21] You got so many talents man. Don't let anybody fuck that up for you man.
[92:21 - 92:26] You guys are awesome. And I'll catch you guys away man. Peace.
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '1770' on August 18th, 2024
