2021-3-26 THE END OF CYBER BULLYING IS HERE

[0:00 - 0:19] What's up you guys? Now as many of you know I have been, I actually just started my brand
[0:19 - 0:27] new job yesterday. I'm actually doing some pretty fun work that I enjoy doing which is
[0:27 - 0:35] actually doing commissions for turning people's photos into creepy abstract paintings like
[0:35 - 0:43] I do on a daily basis, which I love that. I love my job. But yes, I can honestly say
[0:43 - 0:49] I do have a job doing that now so thank you to the people that actually gave me that job.
[0:49 - 1:07] Fucking love you guys. But if you guys didn't notice, I put Marty in his place this morning.
[1:07 - 1:12] And there's been something going on that I'm sick and tired of seeing. And that's people
[1:12 - 1:22] like Marty running rampant on YouTube. Attacking innocent people for no reason. All these death
[1:22 - 1:33] threats that I have made, I'll admit I have made them openly. I will admit that. But
[1:33 - 1:44] I have been pushed to do so. Not because I want to, but because I don't know any other
[1:44 - 1:51] options I have except to threaten Marty's life the same way he threatened my life and
[1:51 - 2:00] my family's lives. Something that not a lot of people realized is last year he bombed
[2:00 - 2:10] and he threatened to blow up my mother's car last year. In the comments. Which I still
[2:10 - 2:20] have that screenshot somewhere. Now, Marty thinks that he has the right to do whatever
[2:20 - 2:32] he wants to my family. He doesn't. Marty is a sick and twisted individual who has nothing
[2:32 - 2:42] better to do with his time than to sit on the internet and bully people like me. Well,
[2:42 - 2:54] I for one am tired of being bullied and I'm tired of being pushed around. And yes, it
[2:54 - 3:08] is true. The Cyrax Nation is back. And the Cyrax Nation is on the rise once again. Because
[3:08 - 3:16] as my channel states, it's pretty so explanatory on what I want to do. I want to create a good
[3:16 - 3:23] community of people. I want to create a channel and a platform where people can come to hang
[3:23 - 3:32] out without getting bullied and be able to enjoy themselves. That's all I've ever wanted.
[3:32 - 3:41] That's all my good friend Jamie's ever wanted before she passed. That's what she wanted.
[3:41 - 3:50] Before my good friend Jamie passed away last year in July, Jamie wanted to build a community
[3:50 - 3:57] where people can get along without being bullied. That was her only wish. That was
[3:57 - 4:08] something that she wanted so much. And I intend to see that vision through to the very end.
[4:08 - 4:16] I intend to see Jamie's vision through to the very end. Because I agree with what she
[4:16 - 4:21] wanted. She wanted a good community where nobody would get bullied. People wouldn't
[4:21 - 4:28] be attacked or trolled for no reason. Families wouldn't be hurt, damaged, belittled. People
[4:28 - 4:38] wouldn't lose their jobs because of trolling. So I do fully intend on seeing that vision
[4:38 - 4:46] through to the very end. Because yes, Jamie may have been, let's face it, she may not
[4:46 - 4:55] have been the best at times. But let me tell you, Jamie was always, always 110% of the
[4:55 - 5:03] time a very good friend to me. Even though she didn't agree with the one and so on stuff
[5:03 - 5:07] I did sometimes I didn't always agree with the stuff she did. She was still a very good
[5:07 - 5:15] friend to me. And there's no way in hell. I'm gonna let somebody like Marty ruin something
[5:15 - 5:28] that I'm trying to continue to build that a very good friend of mine started. Because
[5:28 - 5:36] no one deserves to be bullied. No one deserves to be attacked. Because of Marty, my family
[5:36 - 5:47] almost got split apart. My family almost got destroyed because of Marty and his little
[5:47 - 5:59] games. Well rest assured, those games are stopping here and now. Because I'm not gonna
[5:59 - 6:10] say goodbye and let this continue. Last night I put Marty in his fucking place. He got shook
[6:10 - 6:21] last night when I brought out his family. His dad who is an orthopedic surgeon. Something
[6:21 - 6:27] that Marty doesn't realize is that everything he does doesn't just reflect him. It doesn't
[6:27 - 6:35] just reflect his friends and who he hangs out with. It reflects his family as a whole.
[6:35 - 6:44] So Marty, by you doing what you're doing, what are you saying about your family? What
[6:44 - 6:52] message are you sending the people about your family? That your family is nothing but trolls?
[6:52 - 7:04] Is that it? Your family is nothing but losers like you? Is that what you're saying? So
[7:04 - 7:17] Marty if that was you, I'd think before I open my mouth. Because everything I do, everything
[7:17 - 7:25] I do, I do to try to better my own life, to better my family's lives, to better the lives
[7:25 - 7:33] of others like myself. People who have been bullied, harassed by people like you their
[7:33 - 7:45] entire lives. People like me who are different from the norm. And do I fear your little trolls
[7:45 - 7:54] that are in the chat? Not at all. If anything, I laugh at it. Because it's childish what
[7:54 - 8:06] you're doing. It's immature. And quite frankly, it's stupid as hell. And like I told you
[8:06 - 8:16] Marty, neither you nor Canj have the balls to come up here and face me. Because you know
[8:16 - 8:23] everything I say is fact. That's why you stumble over your words, searching for something
[8:23 - 8:33] to attack me over. Well, guess what? You've got nothing left. You've got nothing but
[8:33 - 8:41] me. I have everything I could ever want. I got an amazing family. I got my dream job
[8:41 - 8:55] as an artist. I'm releasing new music. I'm competing in the UFC for the EA Sports UFC
[8:55 - 9:06] 4 Tournament, having fun with my friends. I'm living my life, and I love my life. But
[9:06 - 9:13] you, you're just a sad, lonely, miserable old man that's miserable with his life. Which
[9:13 - 9:26] is honestly sad. It really is sad that you have to be that miserable. And you know,
[9:26 - 9:37] I almost feel bad for you. Because you don't have anybody that cares about you the way
[9:37 - 9:49] that my family and my fans and my friends do. And I'm sorry that you don't have anyone
[9:49 - 9:59] in your life. You know, like that, that sucks. But there's no reason to go and do what you
[9:59 - 10:09] do. Because see, when I started the Cyrax Nation last year, I started it with a purpose
[10:09 - 10:16] to create good music that people can relate to. Because as you guys know, I do music
[10:16 - 10:26] almost full time, along with my artwork job, which I just started. But my goal when I
[10:26 - 10:33] started my music wasn't just to create music to make a living for myself. My goal was much
[10:33 - 10:41] more than that. My goal was to create music that people can relate to, that the mainstream
[10:41 - 10:52] is afraid to speak about. Speaking on subjects such as suicide, bullying, being bullied,
[10:52 - 11:05] being depressed, PTSD, stuff that every major label is afraid to speak about. Because a
[11:05 - 11:10] lot of those things I've gone through and still suffer through to this very day. And
[11:10 - 11:18] people always tell me, get a therapist, go seek help. But the truth is, my music and
[11:18 - 11:30] my artwork is my therapy. My music and my art, that's my therapy. It always has been.
[11:30 - 11:40] And it always will be. Because nobody knows me the way that my music knows me. Because
[11:40 - 11:49] when I release my music, I'm not just writing another song to have people relate to. I'm
[11:49 - 11:54] speaking my mind and telling you guys, my fans, through my music, what's actually going
[11:54 - 12:04] on with me. And what it is that I'm dealing with on a daily basis. Which is why so many
[12:04 - 12:11] people gravitate towards my music. Because let me tell you, I'd rather do music for
[12:11 - 12:22] free for the rest of my life and help people through their problems than to sit there and
[12:22 - 12:24] bow down to a cyber bully like Marty.
[12:24 - 12:43] And I know I speak a lot about the man that I'm about to mention. I know in the past
[12:43 - 12:51] I have and I still do speak about the late and great Chester Bennington. And the reason
[12:51 - 13:01] I do that is for a very good reason. Because just like my music helps some people, Chester's
[13:01 - 13:12] music saved my life. Chester's music saved me from suicide when I was a teenager. When
[13:12 - 13:20] I was a teenager I got bullied so bad when I was in high school that I had attempted
[13:20 - 13:28] suicide. Thankfully I survived. But his music helped me to stay away from all that and
[13:28 - 13:38] helped me to realize that I have a purpose. When I found Lincoln Park, I instantly gravitated
[13:38 - 13:47] towards their music. Because I felt like when I was listening to their music, I felt like
[13:47 - 13:55] I wasn't just listening to another band. I felt like I wasn't just listening to another
[13:55 - 14:05] band that has the most phenomenal music in the world. I felt like I was listening to
[14:05 - 14:15] a friend. I felt like they were speaking to me not just as a band but as somebody who
[14:15 - 14:30] can relate to what I was going through. Let me tell you, when we sadly lost Chester in
[14:30 - 14:42] 2017, I literally broke down in the tears. Because not only did the world lose an amazing,
[14:42 - 14:52] vocalist, and somebody who was very talented, but I had lost one of my heroes. Somebody
[14:52 - 15:03] that helped me through my problems and someone that ultimately saved my life. And that's
[15:03 - 15:10] why I do the music that I do, to help others the way that Chester helped me. Because I
[15:10 - 15:17] know what it's like to deal with suicide. I know what it's like to deal with depression.
[15:17 - 15:29] And they're all very real things. They're all very real. But yet, society chooses to
[15:29 - 15:45] ignore it for whatever reason. Which is why I do what I do, to make it a point that suicide
[15:45 - 15:51] is never an option. And yes, Marty may have told me to kill myself and I may have said
[15:51 - 15:57] the same thing back. But everything I have said to him, telling him to go die and make
[15:57 - 16:06] him all these death threats, those were in defense of myself and my family. Those were
[16:06 - 16:15] in defense of myself and my family. Because he's threatened my life so many times. And
[16:15 - 16:28] I had had it. I had hit my breaking point. And I know some of you trolls are there in
[16:28 - 16:35] the comments fucking laugh and I see you idiots. And if you think what you're doing
[16:35 - 16:40] phases me, it doesn't. You can sit there and laugh all you want. I don't care. I'm
[16:40 - 16:57] still not here for you. I'm here to help people. I'm here to help people like Cindy who actually
[16:57 - 17:05] get what I'm going through. People like my real fans who support what I do. So you guys
[17:05 - 17:20] can sit there and laugh all you want. I don't care. I truly do not care what you guys think
[17:20 - 17:45] of me.
[17:45 - 17:56] So this song that I'm about to do right now, I'd like to dedicate this not only to Chester,
[17:56 - 18:22] but to anyone that's ever taken their own life due to bullying or any situation at all.
[18:22 - 18:33] Sometimes you'll say goodbye once. You say goodbye over and over and over again. Over
[18:33 - 18:43] and over and over again. Sometimes you'll say goodbye once. You say goodbye over and
[18:43 - 18:52] over and over again. Over and over and over again. It was a month since he passed, maybe
[18:52 - 18:58] less. No one knew what to do. We were such a mess. We were texting. We were calling.
[18:58 - 19:03] We were checking in. We said we ought to play a show in honor of a friend. And now
[19:03 - 19:08] that show's finally here, it's a sign just to go to the park. You don't think that of
[19:08 - 19:13] life with our fans. I don't know him, him, him, and me. And the way that I'll be ready
[19:13 - 19:19] to get back up on the stage. Can't remember if I can't send any shows. And I'm thinking
[19:19 - 19:25] about when I'm supposed to do it. I don't know. I'm not doing it the same way as before.
[19:25 - 19:30] We were hesitant to keep my fucking guts at all the floor. We were here for a month.
[19:30 - 19:35] I'm not worried about the shack. I get tackled by the griefing times. I now at least expect
[19:35 - 19:39] that the feeling that you'll be doing and I'm thinking in my head. And I'm doing it
[19:39 - 19:49] the same way as before. Sometimes you're going to say goodbye once. You say goodbye over
[19:49 - 19:58] and over and over again. Over and over and over again. Sometimes, sometimes you're going
[19:58 - 20:07] to say goodbye once. You say goodbye over and over and over again. Over and over and
[20:07 - 20:12] over again. With the saying, "I'm not wrong. What the fuck are you taking for?" Doesn't
[20:12 - 20:16] tell you anything. What is it? What is it? What is it? What is it for? I'm going to push.
[20:16 - 20:20] I'm going to track. Turn my stuff around the back and under that. And the ball started
[20:20 - 20:26] on. I came from scratch. I keep feeling how you doing. I'm a showgirl. It's like saying
[20:26 - 20:31] the same. The truth is that I don't know. But I'm taking things, things, things all
[20:31 - 20:38] wrong. I was dancing in the middle of a couple songs and everybody thought to them like,
[20:38 - 20:43] "Wow. Must be pretty good to figure what to do now. So think you're genius. You think
[20:43 - 20:49] it'll be a challenge when my life's working. You need to fucking balance." And all I want
[20:49 - 20:56] to do is get a little bit of closure. Never tell my talk. It wasn't any closer. Sometimes
[20:56 - 21:03] when you say goodbye, you go and say, "No, it's over. It's over. It's over." Sometimes
[21:03 - 21:13] you don't say goodbye once. You think goodbye over and over and over again. Over and over
[21:13 - 21:23] and over again. Sometimes you don't say goodbye once. You think goodbye over and over and
[21:23 - 21:32] over again. Over and over and over again. Over and over and over again. Over and over and
[21:32 - 22:01] over again. Over and over and over again. Over and over and over again.
[32:25 - 32:27] I'm not sure I got something for you.
[32:53 - 32:55] A lot of you might recognize this song.