2021-3-1 Motivational Talk and song covers Via vocal and Ocarina

[0:00 - 0:29] what's up you guys, it's your boy Chance, aka Cyraxx, you know who I am. I wanted to do something a little bit different tonight, something that I've not done
[0:29 - 0:46] in a very long time actually it's been about 8-9 months since I've done this and I kind of want to start doing this more and more you know I kind of want to get back on to doing this which is something that
[0:46 - 0:56] you know I haven't done I guess in a while which is you know motivating you guys and helping you guys out
[0:57 - 1:04] through doing hangouts like this and you know performing song covers and songs of my own that
[1:04 - 1:08] have you know really helped you guys
[1:20 - 1:29] now keep in mind I might take a shot or two at certain people but taking those shots is for
[1:29 - 1:37] a reason those shots aren't really going to be you know shots at fuel but they're going to be examples
[1:41 - 1:50] of differences of differences between myself and said people
[1:50 - 1:55] now first off
[1:55 - 2:01] the obvious elephant in the room
[2:08 - 2:12] yo scavenger what's up man
[2:12 - 2:21] people like marty
[2:21 - 2:32] annoy the shit out of me and you wonder why people like marty annoy me not because of who they are
[2:35 - 2:42] it's because of what they do see marty sits here and he has this thing of making videos
[2:42 - 2:49] attacking me every day right just every day on a daily basis just attack attack attack
[2:49 - 3:00] and it seems like every time I get somewhere he tries to pull me back he tries to hold me down
[3:01 - 3:09] he tries to keep me from doing what I want to do and I know why I know why people like him do
[3:09 - 3:18] what they do it's because they one they don't want to see him succeed and two it's because
[3:18 - 3:22] they ain't got the motherfucking balls to do what they want to do with their life
[3:22 - 3:28] you see I was just watching my boy Anthony Burns shot the motivation burns
[3:28 - 3:35] what's up brother um but I was just watching my boy Anthony Burns
[3:35 - 3:43] um his livestream which if you guys don't know I watch my boy Anthony Burns
[3:43 - 3:50] every day I'm the only guy for like four years now I've watched all his streams from the jump
[3:50 - 3:56] before he blew up to where he's at now um and I can also say a lot of his videos have helped me
[3:57 - 4:04] a lot throughout the years and the one that he did tonight really stuck out to me a lot
[4:04 - 4:13] because he mentioned something that's very very true people like Marty are miserable people
[4:13 - 4:20] they're very miserable people and they don't want to see people like myself succeed because
[4:20 - 4:31] their lives are miserable they're always saying you know and you can't do this you can't do that
[4:31 - 4:36] you'll never do this you'll never do that and they try to make it to where you can't fucking
[4:36 - 4:42] do that they try to make it to where people like me or you guys can't do that and you know what
[4:42 - 4:50] I say to that I say fuck that I don't care if I look stupid doing these covers I don't care if
[4:50 - 4:57] I sound like shit when I do these covers or when I release a new song yeah obviously I care
[4:57 - 5:03] when I release a new song I do care about something good that's totally different but
[5:03 - 5:10] when I'm up here doing these shows and I'm doing these covers and I'm doing shit to help people
[5:11 - 5:17] do you really think I care about whether I sound perfect on the mic or on recording because
[5:17 - 5:25] something you got to realize I sound way different on a recorded song that I do on the mic
[5:25 - 5:31] when I'm just doing cover shows and hanging out there are two different things I sound way
[5:31 - 5:41] different that's just like Drake Drake sounds way different in the shower than he does on a song or
[5:41 - 5:44] on a stage way different
[5:44 - 5:55] let's see I don't care about whether I look dumb or sound bad or whatever
[5:59 - 6:06] you know for me it isn't about how I sound it isn't about how I look
[6:06 - 6:16] for me it's about helping people through their problems it's about helping people you know
[6:16 - 6:25] forget about whatever issues they're going through during the day and you know when I
[6:25 - 6:29] started up on YouTube and I realized what it is that I wanted to do with my life
[6:29 - 6:37] you know I knew that there were going to be people like Marty that wanted to drive me down
[6:37 - 6:49] you know there were going to be people that wanted to you know tear me down and do whatever
[6:50 - 6:52] you
[6:52 - 7:12] but you know to me those people that hate that don't matter
[7:12 - 7:17] you know because to me it's not about
[7:18 - 7:25] the people that hate it's about the people who I'm able to help it's about the people that
[7:25 - 7:34] who like myself deal with depression on a daily basis for me it's about helping people
[7:34 - 7:41] to not make the mistakes I did especially when it comes down to ending
[7:44 - 7:51] their lives because I myself as you know am a survivor of suicide of many times
[7:51 - 7:59] over especially recently and you know I want to be able to help people the same way that
[7:59 - 8:09] my boy you know that my boy Anthony has helped me out because let me tell you man if you guys
[8:09 - 8:18] have not seen my good friend Anthony Burns go on Facebook and look him up
[8:18 - 8:26] seriously go on Facebook and look up Anthony Burns and watch some of his motivational videos
[8:26 - 8:42] and you'll see you know just why it is that this dude helps me out and no they didn't
[8:42 - 8:46] so I don't know
[8:52 - 9:00] and I can honestly say I did talk to Ricky and there's no word on where she's at we don't know
[9:00 - 9:08] so I don't know what to say or not
[9:08 - 9:13] well let me tell you right now man
[9:13 - 9:21] you know and some of you might know this about me some of you might not
[9:22 - 9:29] but for those of you that don't know let me
[9:29 - 9:36] you know tell me about my life story
[9:36 - 9:44] and no you're not I'm my own manager bro
[9:45 - 9:47] so
[9:47 - 9:54] nice try on the troll though
[9:54 - 9:58] for those of you that don't know
[9:58 - 10:03] I was born one pound ten ounces
[10:03 - 10:12] I was actually born in Anchorage Alaska on September 20th and 1990 as I said I was born one
[10:12 - 10:18] pound ten ounces and the day I was born was the day that I was supposed to die
[10:18 - 10:25] because I was so small my head was about as big as my mom's fist
[10:25 - 10:34] and my legs and my arms were about the size of her pinky that's how small I was
[10:40 - 10:48] and the doctors had told you know my family that they may as well you know stay there because
[10:48 - 10:54] I wasn't supposed to survive because when I was born I was born
[10:54 - 11:03] you know with one kidney and I had one very severely underdeveloped lung
[11:04 - 11:10] so you know I wasn't supposed to survive at all but let me tell you man
[11:10 - 11:18] not only was it because of me being stubborn I will admit I get my stubbornness from my dad
[11:18 - 11:24] but you know not only was it because of my stubbornness but
[11:24 - 11:34] you know because my family you know more so my moms and the doctors that did believe in me
[11:34 - 11:40] and got that I'm here so you know I know what it's like
[11:40 - 11:53] I know what it's like to be facing death every day that's why whenever you know people tell me
[11:53 - 12:03] what they do it's like you know when they tell me about how you know they face death every day
[12:03 - 12:11] you know and they feel like death is the only option I know what that's like because I face
[12:11 - 12:20] death every fucking day I literally face death every day from the time I wake up in the morning
[12:20 - 12:27] to the time I go to sleep I literally walk that line of life and death every fucking day
[12:29 - 12:34] but you know what it doesn't scare me because when I die I know where I'm going
[12:34 - 12:36] and it sure as fuck ain't the hell
[12:36 - 12:45] because I know damn well I was put on this earth for a mission and that mission is to help people
[12:45 - 12:52] man whether it's through you know doing hangouts like this whether it's doing you know releasing
[12:52 - 12:59] music whether it's doing song covers whatever you know I know what it's like to face that I know
[12:59 - 13:04] what it's like to be on the edge of suicide I know very very well what it's like to deal with
[13:04 - 13:11] depression because I deal with all of that on a daily basis I deal with depression every day
[13:11 - 13:21] I deal with you know the struggling thoughts of suicide and how I try to silence them and do
[13:21 - 13:29] what I need to do to get by and let me tell you it's not easy it's really not easy
[13:29 - 13:37] and I know a lot of people in society or you know people that don't understand will tell you
[13:37 - 13:43] you know hey it's easy you're just going through a phase you know you'll be fine
[13:43 - 13:49] that's the thing though a lot of the people that do deal with it like myself really aren't fine
[13:51 - 13:58] you know and it's not just a phase it's something that's very real very real that people like
[13:58 - 14:05] myself deal with every day whether it be from being bullied at school whether it be
[14:05 - 14:13] from being cyber bullied like I get a lot or whether it be from just different stuff
[14:16 - 14:24] it can be a situation at home it can be a situation at school at your job wherever
[14:24 - 14:29] you know it can happen from anywhere and it's more real than you think
[14:43 - 14:49] simply when I say I know what a lot of you guys go through when you sit there and say
[14:49 - 14:52] that you know hey I'm on the edge of suicide I need someone to talk to
[14:52 - 15:00] that's why I always say during my streams every day you know if you guys need someone to talk
[15:00 - 15:04] through reach out to somebody on the stream reach out to me on discord reach out to me
[15:04 - 15:09] on facebook you know reach out to anybody here within this community within my community
[15:10 - 15:14] who is willing to talk
[15:14 - 15:23] you know just like my boy Anthony always says you know if somebody and he literally says this
[15:23 - 15:28] at the beginning of every stream like literally you can go and watch all his streams he says this
[15:28 - 15:36] from the very jump if you are going through something man don't be afraid to talk to somebody
[15:36 - 15:41] within the lines and don't be afraid to you know reach out to somebody here in the community
[15:41 - 15:49] that will help you out and I have I reached out to people within the lines then many times and
[15:49 - 15:53] a lot of them have helped me and I've helped a lot of them myself
[15:53 - 16:04] and you know that's kind of you know what I do I do pretty much you know what Anthony does
[16:06 - 16:11] but I do it in a different format he does it through just pure gaming and motivational
[16:11 - 16:18] speaking I do it through motivational speaking through my own songs that I write and release
[16:18 - 16:27] and through song covers because I mean we both do the same thing just in a different manner
[16:27 - 16:34] and I can honestly say if you are going through any of that man don't be afraid to reach out
[16:34 - 16:38] because you guys are a lot stronger than you think a lot stronger than you think
[16:38 - 16:47] you know if you got a dream that you want to chase it don't matter you know who doubts you
[16:47 - 16:51] whether your mom your dad your aunt your uncle whoever it doesn't matter who doubts you
[16:51 - 16:56] if you think you can do it if you believe you can do it fucking go for it dude
[17:01 - 17:09] Yo Emilia what's good
[17:09 - 17:21] I tell you what Arjay hit me up on facebook bro hit me up on facebook man and we'll talk
[17:28 - 17:31] but there is a song that I do want to play
[17:31 - 17:38] that actually speaks in a positive manner
[17:38 - 17:48] and I hope this song helps you guys the same way that it's helped me out over the years
[17:48 - 17:54] but
[17:54 - 18:06] let me pull it up here
[18:16 - 18:20] now I am going to play the video for you guys so you guys can see it as well
[18:20 - 18:23] because this is a video I feel you guys need to see
[18:23 - 18:31] and I do want to give a huge shout out to my boy soldier hard well Jeff Ferrell aka soldier hard
[18:31 - 18:38] um on this video and this song this is actually one of the songs that has actually helped me get
[18:38 - 18:44] through a lot and helped me realize that I actually am a lot stronger than I thought I was
[18:45 - 18:49] so
[18:49 - 19:00] calm one
[19:01 - 19:05] okay
[19:05 - 19:10] I'm in a carolive area
[19:10 - 19:14] so
[19:14 - 19:25] hard
[19:25 - 19:36] again
[19:36 - 19:45] so
[19:45 - 19:56] I'm
[19:56 - 20:16] in a carolive area
[20:16 - 20:25] so
[20:25 - 20:30] never passed
[20:30 - 20:51] with the lower class
[20:51 - 21:00] so
[21:00 - 21:20] I'm in a carolive area so
[21:20 - 21:42] I'm in a carolive area so I'm going to play the video for you guys so you guys can see it as well.
[21:42 - 21:51] I'm in a carolive area so I'm going to play the video for you guys so you guys can see it as well
[21:51 - 22:20] when you down they went when you hurt they went you just had fun now for again we fought through a lot of times and we still here him on work like a charlie he's loudly like a little but the tree's no more body as you type we just heard that a rock should be put in a fight many home man fell unfilting to succeed I'ma give him strength give him what good they need give him one real sick tree and has every treasure the truth is I'm powerful beyond measure and I fail unfilting to succeed I'ma give him strength give him more
[22:20 - 22:27] good they need give him one real sick tree and has every treasure the truth is I'm powerful beyond measure
[22:27 - 22:41] there's that and there's one more I do want to play for you guys it's actually a spoken word
[22:41 - 22:53] one this one I found just recently
[22:53 - 23:22] and I can't even say this one speaks loudly about one
[23:22 - 23:27] about what people have me deal with and I hope this helps you guys just like it helped me
[23:27 - 23:35] join today this video is one of the reasons why I'm still here
[23:35 - 23:51] please don't kill yourself I'm talking to you and I don't pretend to know everything that
[23:51 - 23:56] you've been through but it's a shame you feel just know that I was into and the pain you're
[23:56 - 24:00] feeling just know that that's something I went through I don't know your story but I know you
[24:00 - 24:05] and me are a lot alike so let me talk to you for a minute while I got this fight I was 18 when
[24:05 - 24:10] I pulled a gun out every time I felt like my options had run out so I put that barrel on my
[24:10 - 24:14] chest and I pulled the trigger halfway I tried to muster up the courage to put myself away that
[24:14 - 24:20] day but halfway under that trigger pole I stopped tears started my eyes and that pistol dropped
[24:20 - 24:25] and I sat in my room and I stopped for an hour on the outside I was fine on the inside of cower
[24:25 - 24:30] the noise of my depression it got louder and louder I had planned to lay out in a baptism
[24:30 - 24:35] shower of gunpowder I've been lied to just like you're being lied to now other people can't help
[24:35 - 24:39] you but I might know how because I've walked in your shoes and I've been at my lowest and if you
[24:39 - 24:44] don't know anything know this you might tell me you're going to kill yourself and you're close
[24:44 - 24:48] to this but God wants to beat you in the middle of your hopelessness God wants to give you a way
[24:48 - 24:53] out of these feelings of doubt and the sounds of chaos might be reverberating around you like
[24:53 - 24:58] heavy metal but confusion isn't from God it's straight from the devil and he wants to silence
[24:58 - 25:02] the noise and bring peace to you and I promise if you just ask him he'll see you through you got
[25:02 - 25:07] to this place because you tried finding your own fight and where did that get to except contemplating
[25:07 - 25:12] about taking your own life and if you got bullied at this point I'm sorry you wouldn't do that
[25:12 - 25:16] but God wants to take those words from your attackers and send them back you don't have
[25:16 - 25:20] to be defined by what people said about you let me pick you up if you don't know how to
[25:20 - 25:24] you're not alone man you got a friend in me you got better days ahead of you I just pray you begin
[25:24 - 25:29] to see know that everything the devil did to you he wants you to replay but everything the devil
[25:29 - 25:33] took from you God wants to replace listen to me right now and you better look me right in the
[25:33 - 25:38] face you were created for more than to die in this place don't do a panic please don't take
[25:38 - 25:43] your life just take my hand and we'll make this right I promise if you do this you'll regret it
[25:43 - 25:48] you'll wake up in eternity remember I said it and you wish so bad you could just go back
[25:48 - 25:52] interview right now please just know that and if you think you're alone in this fight you've been
[25:52 - 25:57] lied to that depression came after me and I nearly died too I found suicide was the only way
[25:57 - 26:02] and death was meant for me the devil played his music and I sat front row through that symphony
[26:02 - 26:06] I walked through the fire and I felt that heat but I pushed past the climb and I still did my
[26:06 - 26:11] feet I walked out and I refused to look back I took my depression and threw it right back
[26:11 - 26:16] into that blood stack that fire was the place 50 feet high and now I plan on leaving the legacy
[26:16 - 26:22] to look back on some day when I died and right now I'm telling you to stand up too deep down inside
[26:22 - 26:27] you know it's the right thing to do think about your family think about you don't kill yourself
[26:27 - 26:31] please don't do it whatever you're facing God will see you through it I have a fear to heal
[26:31 - 26:36] himself and his mom asked if I could come see her she was depressed and asked if I could meet her
[26:36 - 26:41] two weeks later the pressure beat her she ran into a telephone pole without a seatbelt a little
[26:41 - 26:46] two-seater I wish right now I could crawl through these speakers and somehow convince you not to
[26:46 - 26:51] go the same route she did I wish I could change the fact that you feel the beat I wish I could
[26:51 - 26:56] lock my arms around you tell the devil to beat it but I can't reach everyone even though I do
[26:56 - 27:01] my best to try some people leave the line that I'm just best to die and I think it's the simple
[27:01 - 27:06] way out but they're not here to see the way things play out they don't see the real thing causing the
[27:06 - 27:12] pain they leave I take this seriously this isn't a game to me even thinking about ending your life
[27:12 - 27:17] is living dangerously so please just listen to my voice right now you have a choice you can choose
[27:17 - 27:23] life or you can get drowned by the noise please don't do it please just ask for help if not for
[27:23 - 27:39] your family do it for yourself
[27:39 - 28:05] [Music]
[28:05 - 28:10] and see that right there that speaks so many volumes
[28:10 - 28:23] damn man but like that right there speaks so many volumes dude and that right there
[28:23 - 28:28] is something that I try to do for you guys every day I try to show you guys that that
[28:28 - 28:34] shit ain't the way out because I've been there I've gone through that I want to tell you man
[28:34 - 28:37] if you are going through that suicide is not the answer man
[28:37 - 28:49] like at all that shit is not fucking worth it you know what suicide is suicide is a permanent
[28:49 - 28:58] problem to a temporary is a literally it's a literal fucking permanent solution to a temporary problem
[28:58 - 29:06] I've been there I've gone through that
[29:06 - 29:18] and I hope this cover I'm about to do for you guys helps you guys out in some sort of way
[29:18 - 29:24] people will tell you why don't you go get some help take some meds
[29:24 - 29:34] go see a counselor they can help you with your problems some people you never understand
[29:34 - 29:42] it's a wound inside your head lately I've been just to run the world in a quiet place
[29:42 - 29:48] feels like I might be why I'm different than I can't embrace I'm not hurting can you feel my rage
[29:48 - 29:54] with a nose bullet they consider me a basket case then you change the past is done and over with
[29:54 - 29:58] why I keep on doing it or not or why my thoughts on cancer, why my best friends have been dying
[29:58 - 30:03] God can you please let me know this why am I still agonizing on my last relationship
[30:03 - 30:07] maybe I'm a cromo take a shot and see and don't go hit me get my stone and grow my license
[30:07 - 30:12] I can never stand a lack of problems from the struggle I can promise staying home
[30:12 - 30:17] and so on for the trouble talking so I'm a fucking toner never thought I could really kill
[30:17 - 30:21] please believe I would be dead they might not be saving lives yeah and sometimes I forget
[30:21 - 30:26] you could get and get you playing better hanging by a thread maybe I should pull this trigger
[30:26 - 30:32] and just lay my mind at rest yeah lost in the music this is therapeutic barely hanging on
[30:32 - 30:39] and I don't know if I can do this but I rise when I'm falling what I rise when I fall I don't know
[30:39 - 30:46] anymore you're looking at my reflection and the verses came in wishing that I was dreaming
[30:46 - 30:51] what I rise when I fall what I rise when I fall I don't know anymore
[30:51 - 30:58] I know that you might be glamorous I can see it in your eyes you can even scan yourself
[30:58 - 31:03] you dance is on you so you go around a little toss and turn and every night debating if a
[31:03 - 31:08] year it helps you get the party put the drugs put the repo and now you think it's probably
[31:08 - 31:13] solved because you changing people you're miserable it's clear you're feeling up for evil
[31:13 - 31:17] you're gonna hate the night and like a promise you'll be always peaceful what about my family
[31:17 - 31:22] I can leave a minute this is all right give me time and then we won't forget about you anyway
[31:22 - 31:26] what am I gonna pay and see me if I die and made all that then another source do not worry
[31:26 - 31:32] that well all the man is better if you don't do not act like you have any type it don't exist
[31:32 - 31:36] this is it where you take my hand and twist again in a library you can't find a business sign you're
[31:36 - 31:45] with you put me on the darker side through the dreary depths of hell I don't know if I can
[31:45 - 31:54] do this but I rise when I fall when I rise when I fall I don't know anymore you're looking at my
[31:54 - 32:01] reflection ain't no versus man watching I was dreaming when I rise when I fall when I rise
[32:01 - 32:10] when I fall I don't know anymore I feel like giving up though so things I can't explain no
[32:10 - 32:19] until I give enough something I can't explain no when I rise when I fall when I rise when I
[32:19 - 32:28] fall I don't know anymore when I rise when I fall when I rise when I fall I don't know anymore
[32:28 - 32:38] [Music]
[32:38 - 32:48] hmm
[32:48 - 32:58] [Music]
[32:58 - 33:11] you know how to say it's time to do something I haven't done yet
[33:15 - 33:21] I want to take a minute to do this cover by ocarina for those
[33:21 - 33:24] that have lost their lives to suicide
[33:24 - 33:30] for those that weren't strong enough to face it
[33:44 - 33:48] can't believe that daniel's really got me on my insurance daniel state farm offers surprisingly
[33:48 - 33:57] great breaks to everyone sure you do
[33:57 - 47:04] [Music]
[47:04 - 47:14] I want to do another inspirational type song on Ocarina. I can't really think of any.
[47:14 - 47:43] I know, hold up.
[47:43 - 47:52] There is a lot.
[47:52 - 47:58] I'm Jason Thadam. Check out my Subway sub with delicious turkey and crispy bacon. It'll help you get shots from anywhere.
[47:58 - 56:21] [Music]
[56:21 - 56:29] And that's facts, man. A lot of you guys that think that everybody has to be perfect and follow this trend.
[56:29 - 56:34] Nobody is fucking perfect.
[56:34 - 56:39] All right. Nobody on this earth is fucking perfect.
[56:39 - 56:46] Literally, no one is fucking perfect. I'm not perfect. You're not perfect. Nobody in this fucking life is perfect.
[56:46 - 57:00] If we were all perfect, life would be boring. Like, literally, imagine if everybody agreed on everything all the time.
[57:00 - 57:07] Like, if we all agreed on everything all the time, like, everything would be like a cupcake factory.
[57:07 - 57:10] It would all be the same and everything would be boring.
[57:10 - 57:18] Like, we have to disagree and be different to actually move forward in life.
[57:18 - 57:27] And like I said, some of you guys might not like what I do, but like I said, I'm not here for those that want to hate.
[57:27 - 57:42] I'm here for those that want to seek refuge, that want to be here. I'm here for those that want some sort of help.
[57:42 - 57:46] That need help escaping from their everyday lives.
[57:46 - 57:57] That wants somebody there that understands what it's like to go through whatever situation they're going through.
[57:57 - 58:08] Because, you know, I've been through a lot in my life, and none of it's been easy, but I'll tell you one thing's for sure.
[58:08 - 58:17] Me coming out on top of it all, I now have a better understanding about a lot of stuff.
[58:17 - 58:22] And I'm able to help people, because a lot of the situations they get put through, I've been through.
[58:22 - 58:32] Whether it be through being bullied, whether it be through being harassed, whether it be through depression, suicide, anxiety.
[58:32 - 58:40] Like, I've been through all that, whether it's the loss of a loved one, whether it's someone going, and your family going through cancer.
[58:40 - 58:46] Like, you guys didn't understand, too. Like, I know it's like the deal with family members that have cancer.
[58:46 - 58:52] My older brother died from cancer, so I know what it's like to deal with that on a daily basis.
[58:52 - 58:58] I know what it's like to sit there and watch the ones that you love die slowly every day.
[58:58 - 59:02] It's not easy.
[59:02 - 59:09] It's one of the hardest things you can ever do in your life is to watch your family members slowly die every day from cancer.
[59:09 - 59:17] It really is the hardest thing in the world that a lot of people think that, "Oh, it's easy." No, it's not.
[59:17 - 59:26] Imagine this, because this is what I went through. Imagine you're sleeping at night,
[59:26 - 59:33] and you wake up and you come downstairs, and the last time you see your family member, your brother, your sister, or whoever,
[59:33 - 59:45] the last time you ever see the member again is being wheeled out on a gurney to an ambulance.
[59:45 - 59:53] That was what I had to deal with. The last time I saw my older brother ever again was him being wheeled out on a gurney
[59:53 - 60:03] to an ambulance to go to the hospital, where he would stay for the next month and a half before passing away.
[60:03 - 60:09] So, believe me when I say it, I know what that's like, and it's not easy.
[60:09 - 60:21] And for those of you that are going through cancer, whether it's a family member dealing with cancer or whatever,
[60:21 - 60:25] I know what that's like, and it's not an easy thing to deal with.
[60:25 - 60:32] People think that it's easy to deal with that. It's not. It's one of the most hardest things you can deal with in your whole life.
[60:32 - 60:40] And I don't wish that even on my worst enemy.
[60:40 - 60:48] Unfortunately, no, I couldn't. I actually had to stay home and watch out to the house,
[60:48 - 60:53] because we had actually had some thieves popping up around that time that were trying to steal stuff,
[60:53 - 60:59] so I unfortunately couldn't be there. I had to watch the house.
[60:59 - 61:06] And it sucked because I wanted to be there, but I couldn't, because we had so many thieves
[61:06 - 61:12] around our neighborhood in the time that we had already had stuff stolen before,
[61:12 - 61:19] so I had to, unfortunately, stay here at the house to make sure nothing got stolen.
[61:19 - 61:25] And it sucked. It really did.
[61:25 - 61:37] But like I said in the very beginning of the string, guys, I want you guys to know,
[61:37 - 61:43] no matter what, you guys have a place here. You know, if you are going through bullying
[61:43 - 61:53] or you are dealing with, you know, a family member that's dealing with cancer or, you know,
[61:53 - 61:59] you are being harassed or whatever, just know that you have friends here. You have family here
[61:59 - 62:05] that is willing to help you guys. Not just in me, but the people here within this community.
[62:05 - 62:08] These people aren't just your friends, they're your family.
[62:08 - 62:13] We're all one community. We're all family here, and we help each other out.
[62:18 - 62:24] And I know a lot of people like to sit here and troll and poke fun at, you know, what I do,
[62:24 - 62:30] but, you know, they can laugh and poke fun all they want because you want to know something.
[62:30 - 62:35] They're not doing what I'm doing. They're not doing what I'm doing. They're not doing what
[62:35 - 62:41] you guys are doing. All these people that want to hate, let them hate. All these people that
[62:41 - 62:46] want to bash and bully, let them do it because you want to know something that just shows how
[62:46 - 62:58] miserable their lives really are. And trust me when I say I deal with bullying every day.
[62:58 - 63:03] If you don't believe me, go look at MusicBizMarty and his channel if you haven't yet.
[63:03 - 63:08] His channel is literally nothing but him bullying me. And you want to know something?
[63:08 - 63:13] I don't respond to it no matter what he does. You want to know why? Because at the end of the day,
[63:14 - 63:21] it's not up to him what I am able to do and what I'm not able to do. That's up to me.
[63:21 - 63:28] If I want to release a new album, I'll release a new album, which I am going to be doing later
[63:28 - 63:34] tonight for sure. I am going to be dropping that brand new album tonight. So be fucking ready for
[63:34 - 63:41] that shit. My brand new album, Scar Tissue, is dropping for free on YouTube tonight. You guys
[63:41 - 63:44] will be able to listen to the whole thing, so be ready for that. It's going to be dope.
[63:44 - 64:02] But, you know, whether it's doing music or releasing artwork or releasing a book or releasing
[64:02 - 64:08] a manga or whatever it is I'm doing, you know, that's my choice. I'm going to continue to do
[64:08 - 64:17] what I love. Whether people support it or not, it don't matter. If you hate me, good. If you
[64:17 - 64:23] like me, good. Do you want to know something you guys would sit there and hate? You guys
[64:23 - 64:27] literally ain't getting this. Let me speak on this for a minute before I end this stream.
[64:27 - 64:33] There's one thing that I've noticed. A lot of these trolls, a lot of you trolls that are
[64:33 - 64:38] probably even in the chats right now, watching this, probably in the chat watching this,
[64:38 - 64:44] you guys don't realize something. When you troll on this channel, you guys aren't spreading hate.
[64:44 - 64:50] You're literally giving me views. You guys are literally doing five levels of engagement.
[64:50 - 64:58] You went looking for my channel. You found my channel. You clicked on the video right
[64:58 - 65:06] now that's live right now. You probably disliked the video. You're probably watching the video
[65:06 - 65:14] right now and you commented. That's five levels of engagement right there alone. That's five
[65:14 - 65:21] levels of engagement, bro. Like you guys think that you're being trolls, but really you're just
[65:21 - 65:36] giving me free views. Like, come on. Yo Zadrium of course man. You know I got you Z. You know I got
[65:36 - 65:43] you Z. But I mean for real though, I just find it funny that you trolls think that you're getting
[65:43 - 65:51] one over on me when you're not. All your little hateful comments don't bother me. You're just
[65:51 - 65:59] literally committing five levels of engagement, bro. Yo, I already did shout out Strawberry.
[65:59 - 66:10] What up Strawberry? How you doing, man?
[66:18 - 66:24] But like I said guys, I do hope that this stream did help you guys out. Actually, I'm about to
[66:24 - 66:31] hop off here, watch a movie and probably pass out for the night. But I do thank you guys for
[66:31 - 66:35] dropping in, checking out the stream. If you guys did like the stream and don't forget to hit that
[66:35 - 66:40] like button. Also be ready for a surprise video tomorrow. I'm not saying what it is.
[66:40 - 66:46] It's not going to be a live stream. It's going to be a regular video. So be looking for a dope
[66:46 - 66:52] ass video drop tomorrow. I'm excited for it and hopefully you guys are too.
[66:52 - 66:59] But like I said, like I always say, man, don't let anybody throw any kind of shade at you, man.
[66:59 - 67:03] You guys are awesome. You guys are dope. You guys are amazing. You guys are hella talented.
[67:03 - 67:10] And trust me when I say, trust me when I say that you guys can do anything that you want to
[67:10 - 67:16] fucking do. Fuck the haters. Fuck what people think. Fuck the naysayers. Fuck the people that
[67:16 - 67:22] don't want to see you get somewhere. You can do it. It don't matter whether people love you or hate
[67:22 - 67:26] you. As long as you're going for it and you're doing something to progress towards that goal,
[67:26 - 67:33] you're doing something. Fuck what these haters say, man. As long as you're progressing and
[67:33 - 67:37] doing something with your life and doing what you love to do, that's all that fucking matters.
[67:43 - 67:50] That's all that matters. And Strawberry, if you have Discord, man, maybe I'm on Discord.
[67:50 - 67:59] Hey yo, somebody drop Strawberry in my Discord, man.
[67:59 - 68:07] Don't worry, Strawberry, I got you.
[68:07 - 68:23] Hey yo, somebody drop my motherfucking Discord in the chat that way Strawberry can hit me up
[68:23 - 68:27] on Discord, man, for real. Somebody drop my, actually, no, hold up. I got you, Strawberry.
[68:28 - 68:38] I got you, man. Don't worry. I got you, big dog. Don't worry.
[68:38 - 68:47] There you go, Strawberry. Hit me up on Discord, my guy. What's up, bro? For real.
[68:47 - 68:50] Hit me up on Discord. Let's sit down. Let's kick it.
[68:50 - 68:54] If y'all got Discord, man, y'all know where to hit me up at, for real.
[68:57 - 68:59] Hit me up on motherfucking Discord, boy.
[68:59 - 69:11] But yo, again though, man, I just want to say I love you guys, man. You guys are dope. You guys
[69:11 - 69:16] are awesome. And like I always say, man, to win no way throw any kind of shit at your name,
[69:16 - 69:20] because you guys are awesome. You guys are dope. You guys are amazing. You guys are hella talented.
[69:21 - 69:28] You guys are honestly fucking legends. Straight up. You guys are fucking legends
[69:28 - 69:33] in your own fucking right. And don't let anybody tell you any motherfucking difference.
[69:33 - 69:40] I'm your boy, Cyrax. I will catch you guys tomorrow. Also, on a side note, I do have some
[69:40 - 69:46] Cyrax Nation merch dropping, some old school Cyrax Nation merch, as well as some new stuff
[69:46 - 69:53] dropping. So be ready for that. Once it's all up and going, I will be dropping the link. So I will
[69:53 - 69:59] catch you guys in the next stream tomorrow, guys. I'm out, man. I hope you guys have a good evening
[69:59 - 70:04] or good night, good afternoon, wherever you guys are at in the world. And I will catch you guys
[70:04 - 70:19] tomorrow, man. Peace. Peace, things. Stay humble. Stay positive.