2021-2-7 LATE CELEBRATION OF MY BROTHERS LIFE AND THOSE I LOST

[0:00 - 0:25] What's up everyone. How's everyone doing today? Well, this morning.
[0:25 - 0:53] How is everyone doing? Now, as many of you are aware, by now, that over
[0:53 - 1:20] the years, I lost a lot of people close to me. Six years ago, I lost somebody who was
[1:20 - 1:37] very close to me. Six years ago, I lost my older brother to lung cancer. For over two
[1:37 - 1:59] and a half years, I had to slowly watch my brother suffer. I remember having to watch
[1:59 - 2:08] him go through treatment after treatment after treatment slowly withering as things
[2:08 - 2:31] stopped working. And on the third of February, six years ago, a week and a half after his
[2:31 - 2:48] birthday on the 23rd of January, he passed away at 9pm. And later that same year, I lost
[2:48 - 3:01] one of my best friends to a murder in his own family's shop. And then two years later,
[3:01 - 3:08] I would lose my mentor who helped me come up in the music industry, who was like a big
[3:08 - 3:22] brother to me. And then just last year, I lost a fellow YouTuber who was also a good
[3:22 - 3:36] friend of mine, Jamie. And then little did I know that just a mere few months later,
[3:36 - 3:47] I would lose somebody who was very near and dear to me that I've known since high school,
[3:47 - 3:55] which is my now ex-girlfriend, Lexi, due to complications with her body and medical
[3:55 - 4:10] issues. But when I went to do the six year mark celebration of the loss of my older
[4:10 - 4:20] brother, who was more like a father figure to me than my own dad, that asshole Marty
[4:20 - 4:43] fucked it up for me. So today I'm doing a celebration of not just my brother's life
[4:43 - 4:50] or my mentor's life, but everybody that I've lost over the years, everybody from my best
[4:50 - 5:04] friend David that I lost in 2009, all the way up to my girlfriend that I lost last year.
[5:04 - 5:11] And if you've lost anyone, I want you to know that I know how it feels and it hurts
[5:11 - 5:29] and the pain never really goes away, you know? But for Marty to do what he did was sickening.
[5:29 - 5:45] Everyone really was sickening to see somebody disrespect my older brother the way that
[5:45 - 5:58] he did. Because when he disrespected my brother, he not only disrespected somebody who was
[5:58 - 6:04] my older brother, but somebody who was like a father figure to me in more ways than my
[6:04 - 6:18] own dad who was never around was. And if you've lost anyone during this first song, I want
[6:18 - 6:42] you to put their names in the comments in remembrance of them to keep their memory alive.
[6:42 - 6:55] We miss you all and we love you all.
[6:55 - 7:17] We send everyone that I must call that all of us signify. You know, taking in your heart,
[7:17 - 7:29] it's all you say is a memory in your mind. So now go to the best things in life, take
[7:29 - 7:39] a part of this world while you can. You're the most of the rest of your life. Shine the
[7:39 - 7:49] light on this world while you can. You want to love, hold them close because there is
[7:49 - 8:13] a little time. Never, never, make your heart. It all remains hopeless sometimes. And they're
[8:13 - 8:22] who do the best things in life. Shine the light on this world while you can. You're
[8:22 - 8:55] the most of the rest of your life. Shine the light on this world while you can. You're
[8:55 - 9:37] the most of the rest of your life. You're the most of the rest of your life. You're
[9:37 - 9:59] the most of the rest of your life. Shine the light on this world while you can. You're
[9:59 - 21:00] the most of the rest of your life. You're the most of the rest of your life. You're
[21:00 - 21:18] the most of the rest of your life.
[21:18 - 24:50] You're the most of the rest of your life. You're the most of the rest of your life.
[24:50 - 25:19] If there's one thing I've motherfucking learned from everybody that I've lost in my life,
[25:19 - 25:31] and I'm sure a lot of you guys can relate, is that life is too fucking short for hatred.
[25:31 - 25:46] And that is why I stand against people like Marty, against people like Schmecklecat, against people like Tyler who have nothing better to do than to fucking hate.
[25:46 - 26:09] And fucking disgust me, seeing what they fucking do.
[26:09 - 26:28] What they do is unforgivable and disgusting and vile and wrong.
[26:28 - 26:46] And I don't see how anyone at all can support the shit that they do.
[26:46 - 27:15] Are you guys ready to celebrate one of the most important legends in fucking music history?
[27:15 - 27:35] Are you guys ready to celebrate the motherfucking best vocalist of our era?
[27:35 - 27:49] You already know what to put.
[27:49 - 28:18] Let's go. You already know what to put. Let's see it.
[28:18 - 28:20] I know I'm looking over my back.
[28:20 - 28:23] It's like a whirlwind inside of my head.
[28:23 - 28:26] It's like I can't stop when I'm in within.
[28:26 - 28:32] It's like the face inside is like beneath my skin.
[28:32 - 28:35] You got to face on me. You got to face on the inside too.
[28:35 - 28:37] Your finger is probably worse.
[28:37 - 28:39] I don't know what set me up first, but I know what I can say.
[28:39 - 28:41] Everybody pass you back to me.
[28:41 - 28:50] You got to change it up to what you can.
[28:50 - 28:52] Now it's time to sink or swim.
[28:52 - 28:54] But inside is young me too.
[28:54 - 28:55] Right inside your skin.
[28:55 - 28:58] It's like a paranoia looking over my back.
[28:58 - 29:02] It's like a whirlwind inside of my head.
[29:02 - 29:05] It's like I can't stop when I'm in within.
[29:05 - 29:08] It's like the face inside is right beneath the skin.
[29:08 - 29:10] It's like a paranoia looking over my head.
[29:10 - 29:12] Looking over my back.
[29:12 - 29:15] It's like a whirlwind inside of my head.
[29:15 - 29:18] It's like I can't stop when I'm in within.
[29:18 - 29:26] It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin.
[29:26 - 29:35] This time it's right beneath the skin.
[29:35 - 29:44] The sun goes down.
[29:44 - 29:47] I feel the light betray me.
[29:47 - 29:57] The sun goes down.
[29:57 - 30:07] I feel the light betray me.
[30:07 - 30:09] It's time what I'm in within.
[30:09 - 30:12] It's like the face inside is right beneath the skin.
[30:12 - 30:15] It's like a paranoia looking over my back.
[30:15 - 30:19] It's like a whirlwind inside of my head.
[30:19 - 30:22] It's like I can't stop when I'm in within.
[30:22 - 30:24] It's like the face inside.
[30:24 - 30:28] When I'm in within, it's like I can't stop when I'm in within.
[30:28 - 30:35] The face inside is right beneath my skin.
[30:35 - 30:36] And who cares?
[30:36 - 30:41] Even if somebody fucking hates, that's three levels of engagement right the fuck there.
[30:41 - 30:46] You watched it, you disliked it, and you clicked play.
[30:46 - 30:48] That's still a view.
[30:48 - 30:59] I cannot take this anymore.
[30:59 - 31:03] I'm saying everything I said before.
[31:03 - 31:06] Always was and made no sense.
[31:06 - 31:09] I finally said there ain't no rest.
[31:09 - 31:20] As I hear them as you say, you'll find that I don't need you.
[31:20 - 31:29] But I want them to be at the level of the prank.
[31:29 - 31:33] I find the answers aren't so clear.
[31:33 - 31:38] Wish I could find a way to disappear.
[31:38 - 31:41] All this nonsense make no sense.
[31:41 - 31:43] I'm finally saying no rest.
[31:43 - 31:46] Nothing seems to go away.
[31:46 - 31:49] Over and over again.
[31:49 - 31:52] Time and forth.
[31:52 - 31:59] Everything you say to me, but I want them to be at the level of the prank.
[31:59 - 32:21] I want them to be at the level of the prank.
[32:21 - 32:23] Y'all know the next lines.
[32:23 - 32:41] Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up.
[32:41 - 33:13] Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up.
[34:15 - 34:32] And if any of y'all don't like what I say, then guess what?
[34:32 - 34:36] You can get the fuck out of the damn stream right the fuck now, bitch.
[34:41 - 34:45] Fuck whether you love me or whether you hate me.
[34:45 - 34:49] At the end of the day, I'm still gonna do me regardless.
[34:49 - 34:53] I got no filter on this fucking stream.
[34:53 - 34:58] And if you don't fucking like it, then get the fuck out, bitch.
[35:01 - 35:05] Either shut the fuck up and show some goddamn respect
[35:05 - 35:08] for those that we lost and those that came before us
[35:08 - 35:13] or get the fuck out, because there's no filters here.
[35:37 - 35:40] And I'll prove that after this fucking song.
[37:32 - 37:37] All right, you know what? Hold up.
[37:37 - 37:41] I've had enough of this fucking shit.
[37:41 - 37:43] Who's ready to see me put these little fuckbags
[37:43 - 37:48] in their goddamn place?
[37:48 - 37:53] I'm about to fucking have it with these two fuckbags.
[38:03 - 38:05] I got this. Hold up.
[38:05 - 38:11] I got these little fags. Don't worry.
[38:11 - 38:13] I got y'all.
[38:16 - 38:19] There's one thing you gotta learn about me, motherfuckers.
[38:19 - 38:23] I give no fucks what you think of me.
[38:27 - 38:33] Yes. This is godly. So godly.
[38:37 - 38:43] Chance of Matt. He could've done something real.
[38:43 - 38:53] Yes. [BLANK_AUDIO]