2021-12-9 FOCUSING ON MY GAMING BRAND

[0:00 - 0:16] what's up everybody um I do have something to say that I've been really thinking about
[0:16 - 0:23] for the last few days and I know a lot of you guys don't want to hear this and it pains
[0:23 - 0:32] me to say this but it's a decision that I have to make um don't worry I'm not
[0:32 - 0:39] leaving YouTube or anything like that like that's not what I'm doing but now
[0:39 - 0:44] I'm not retiring completely so don't think that I'm not gonna do what I'm
[0:44 - 0:54] about to say ever again because I'll come back to it eventually but um due to
[0:54 - 1:00] the fact that you know my studio computer is giving me trouble and this
[1:00 - 1:07] and that and the other I actually am going to be putting my music on the
[1:07 - 1:12] back burner for a while until I can figure shit out with that and I actually
[1:12 - 1:17] want to be focusing on my gaming channel full-time I'm not gonna do it music for a
[1:17 - 1:23] while I am focusing strictly on you know my gaming channel and this and that and
[1:23 - 1:29] the other because I want to get back to sponsors that I want to have I want to do
[1:29 - 1:35] like I've always dreamed of doing and actually creating a really fun you know
[1:35 - 1:42] gaming channel built around you know classic gaming Xbox gaming competitive
[1:42 - 1:46] gaming and just having fun you know doing like I used to do way back in the
[1:46 - 1:55] day like I'm not retiring or anything but I am you know putting my music on the
[1:55 - 2:00] back burner for a while so I can focus on building my gaming brand which is
[2:00 - 2:06] something I've been wanting to do for a very very long time you know it's something
[2:06 - 2:10] that I've always enjoyed doing I've always had fun you know gaming and that's
[2:10 - 2:15] something that you know I grew up doing that you know I want to be able to share
[2:15 - 2:18] with you guys you know I want to be able to share my love for gaming with you
[2:18 - 2:24] guys whether it's classic gaming like this right here which is aggressive in
[2:24 - 2:29] line for game here which I will be sharing in just a second well in the
[2:29 - 2:36] next stream but you know doing gaming is something I've always had a love
[2:36 - 2:45] and passion for you know and here's the thing skull kid you can go to hell
[2:45 - 2:58] because I own that name so you you don't own shit kid so skull bitch see you
[2:58 - 3:08] later like you don't own jack shit matter of fact one of my friends actually
[3:08 - 3:15] outright registered the name under my legal name I know what you did you paid
[3:15 - 3:21] only 20 bucks to have it register that's all you did bro you paid 20 bucks to
[3:21 - 3:27] make it look like you bought it but you never really did so yeah your SOL
[3:27 - 3:41] homie now when I do come back now when I do come back I am gonna come back under
[3:41 - 3:46] my original name which is Shadowblood I am gonna come back under my original
[3:46 - 3:58] name so I am gonna be coming back under Shadowblood as soon as I get the
[3:58 - 4:05] chance unfortunately right now right now not right now taking someone's kid is a
[4:05 - 4:09] fact that you know I want to focus on you know building my brand you know I
[4:09 - 4:16] want to focus on building my brand up for my gaming channel you know and I
[4:16 - 4:21] want to be able to give you guys something entertaining something fun
[4:23 - 4:28] yo socially simple what's up dude
[4:35 - 4:39] well I just said you know it's something that's been you know weighing on my mind
[4:39 - 4:44] for the last few days and like I just really feel like right now you know my
[4:44 - 4:50] music is best put on the back on the back burner for now and you know I want
[4:50 - 4:54] to you know get back to where I first started you know doing gaming having fun
[4:54 - 5:00] and cracking jokes you know just having a fun time
[5:03 - 5:07] Jesus Christ
[5:08 - 5:14] nope I don't think anybody has seen you bro so peace
[5:23 - 5:31] I mean you know I do definitely enjoy you know I'm you know doing gaming with
[5:31 - 5:35] you guys having fun hanging out with my friends like I want to be able to have
[5:35 - 5:41] that normal life that I had before all this crazy shit happened you know and the
[5:41 - 5:46] best way for me to do that is to go back to my gaming you know go back to my
[5:46 - 5:51] room to go back to where I first began and I know a lot of you guys don't want
[5:51 - 5:54] that you guys want all these crazy guitar covers and stuff like that which
[5:54 - 6:02] don't get wrong I do enjoy doing those but right now I'm just doing what's best
[6:02 - 6:06] for me you know and what's best for my channel and right now what's best for my
[6:06 - 6:12] channel and ultimately my career is going back to my roots as a gamer you
[6:12 - 6:16] know building my gaming brand up and getting those sponsors getting paid
[6:16 - 6:23] doing what I love man which is gaming like you know I've been doing music for
[6:23 - 6:27] so many years that I never really got that chance to you know have that break
[6:27 - 6:33] and you know create and build a gaming channel that you know I can work with
[6:33 - 6:38] on the side while I do my music I never got the chance to do that so right now
[6:38 - 6:42] for me I feel like you know it's a perfect opportunity for me to be able to
[6:42 - 6:49] you know go ahead and you know build that brand do what I love to do and have
[6:49 - 6:55] fun doing it you know show you guys you know my full-fledged gamer side you
[6:55 - 7:01] know not many people have gotten to see that over the years like over the last
[7:01 - 7:07] couple years nobody's really gotten to see that side of me up to that point like
[7:07 - 7:13] from two years ago on nobody's gotten to see that side of what I love to do it's
[7:13 - 7:17] always been you know music flipping out on people defending my brand and
[7:17 - 7:24] defending what's mine I never really got the chance to like actually you know
[7:24 - 7:29] sit down and create the content that I've been wanting to create like it's
[7:29 - 7:33] always been you know music this music that oh promote this promote that I
[7:33 - 7:38] never have had that opportunity to you know do something that I love to do
[7:38 - 7:44] outside of my music like I said I love creating my music I love the fact that I
[7:44 - 7:50] started a whole new genre that not many can you know if anybody can truly
[7:50 - 7:57] replicate like I gave birth to a whole new genre back in 2018 and was able to
[7:57 - 8:02] do a lot of fun stuff with it and I'm proud to say that I mean I got to work
[8:02 - 8:08] with some of the biggest legends in the music industry as a small-time artist I
[8:08 - 8:12] was on one of the most legendary labels in the world which is Machiavelli records
[8:12 - 8:19] before I left on my own accord through the management and not many can say that
[8:19 - 8:26] they've been on a legendary label like I've been not many can say that well yes
[8:26 - 8:33] I left on my own accord due to shitty management I still can sit back at the
[8:33 - 8:38] end of the day and say hey I got to work with this dope ass legendary label and
[8:38 - 8:44] not many can say that there's nobody in the world that can really say that
[8:44 - 8:49] they're on my level like that and that's something that nobody can ever take away
[8:49 - 8:57] from me but right now when I just feel like you know my time is best that
[8:57 - 9:01] building up my brand
[9:05 - 9:09] you know what I mean like
[9:19 - 9:25] so I'm a lot of you trolls think that you're stopping me and my brand but
[9:25 - 9:31] really you're not and you guys just making yourselves look stupid so I
[9:31 - 9:35] appreciate the free views though
[9:35 - 9:54] now would though even our not dude their management was complete shit like the
[9:54 - 9:58] whole reason that I was Machiavelli records was because of the fact that the
[9:58 - 10:06] manager kept on trying to get in the way of the creative process they kept on
[10:06 - 10:11] trying to tell me what to create and how to do it and I didn't want that you
[10:11 - 10:19] know I wanted my creative freedom so I left because the manager of the label
[10:19 - 10:25] not the guy that owns it not the owner but the management the staff the actual
[10:25 - 10:31] main manager kept getting involved in the creative process and trying to tell
[10:31 - 10:37] me what to create how to do it and this and that and that and I was just like
[10:37 - 10:44] dude no like you're not gonna get involved in my style of music like you're
[10:44 - 10:50] not gonna tell me what to create you're not gonna tell me how to do my job so I
[10:50 - 10:56] spoke with the owner who I'm good friends with and what was get friends
[10:56 - 11:01] with before William Gory who stepped in and fucked all that up and I had a word
[11:01 - 11:06] with him and I told him what dude I'm honored to you know have been able to
[11:06 - 11:11] say that I've been on this label with you guys but due to management I have to
[11:11 - 11:16] depart from this label and he understood like he understood why I left and
[11:16 - 11:26] honestly he didn't blame me and so that's why I left that label
[11:37 - 11:42] yeah hey James is right on that why you can't put me in a creative cage like
[11:42 - 11:49] that like that's not what I'm about like that's not who I am
[11:52 - 11:59] but like I said you know right now I just really feel like you know I want to
[11:59 - 12:06] build up my gaming brand and you know get that thousand sub mark and you know
[12:06 - 12:10] do things I love to do you know like how cool would it be to hit that thousand
[12:10 - 12:15] subscriber mark and be able to get a really good sponsorship and get paid to
[12:15 - 12:21] do what I love like how cool would that fucking be and that's something that I
[12:21 - 12:25] want to work towards that's something that I want to build up and you know get
[12:25 - 12:31] back to doing because before I did music this is what I did before I started
[12:31 - 12:37] doing music back in the day and this is what I did was gaming and I want to get
[12:37 - 12:43] back to that and have fun with that and you know give you guys get content that
[12:43 - 12:48] nobody else really does you know with classic gaming and everything like that
[12:48 - 12:54] like there's something that I've been wanting to build up for a long time now
[12:54 - 13:00] and now that I'm getting a handle on the trolls and kind of you know getting back
[13:00 - 13:05] to where I should be you know I can finally go back and start building my
[13:05 - 13:13] brand because like that one dude said when I was on glory whole stream you know
[13:13 - 13:18] like when I get on here I'm building a brand and right now the brand that I
[13:18 - 13:24] want to build up is my gaming brand you know like I want to be able to build that
[13:24 - 13:29] brand up and actually you know be able to collaborate with other you know YouTube
[13:29 - 13:34] gamers and stuff like that like I want to be able to do that and in order for me to
[13:34 - 13:39] be able to do that I need to build that brand in order for me to reach out to
[13:39 - 13:46] these bigger channels and collab with them and you know reach out to these you
[13:46 - 13:51] know companies that are looking to sponsor youtubers like I need to hit that
[13:51 - 13:58] thousand sub mark I need to build my gaming brand up so you know I kind of
[13:58 - 14:02] want to build on that and see where I can do you know
[14:08 - 14:13] now I guess I eventually I will come back to doing my music but right now I
[14:13 - 14:17] want to focus on what I love to do
[14:29 - 14:38] so and that's for all you trolls you guys can do this and go fuck yourselves
[14:38 - 14:42] because I'm not putting up with you fucking trolls
[14:45 - 14:48] you know
[14:48 - 15:01] like I'm here to build my brand and I'm not gonna let anybody fucking get in the
[15:01 - 15:08] way of that like you trolls have stopped me from building my brand for so fucking
[15:08 - 15:16] long and it's about fucking time that I took my shit back and said fuck you to
[15:16 - 15:20] all the trolls and started building my fucking brand the way that it should have
[15:20 - 15:26] been built fucking years ago I mean I get why you trolls do what you do to me
[15:26 - 15:32] because to you I look different I look weird that's why you do what you do
[15:32 - 15:48] because to you I look weird I look different and all I got to say is this
[15:48 - 15:54] I'm proud to look weird I'm proud to be different but on the flip side of that I
[15:54 - 16:00] wanted to know one thing how is it that I'm any different from any of you let me
[16:00 - 16:05] ask you that how am I any different from any of you trolls you bleed red I
[16:05 - 16:15] bleed red you're a human being I'm a human being at the end of the day we're
[16:15 - 16:20] all human beings so what I want to know is what makes you think you have the
[16:20 - 16:37] right to judge who I am like you trolls are the reason why I haven't been able
[16:37 - 16:42] to build my fucking brand up like I've been wanting to do
[16:50 - 16:56] that's the same bro I already proved that I'm not a pedophile I already prove
[16:56 - 17:01] that so y'all need to get the fuck off your high horses and fucking understand
[17:01 - 17:05] that I'm not the pedophile everybody makes me out to be bro you need to get
[17:05 - 17:10] the fuck over it grow the fuck up the same fucking high school homie get over
[17:10 - 17:14] it get over yourself
[17:21 - 17:28] like seriously get over yourself this isn't fucking high school we're all
[17:28 - 17:34] adults here but it seems like I'm the only one that's acting like a fucking
[17:34 - 17:41] adult it seems like I'm the only one that's acting mature and trying to move
[17:41 - 17:48] on I proved my innocence y'all need to let it go move the fuck on get the fuck
[17:48 - 17:56] over it I've been moved on from the bullshit so what I don't get is what
[17:56 - 17:59] makes you think you have the right to attack me and take what's rightfully
[17:59 - 18:07] mine yes I did some fucked up shit but I came out and I admitted my wrongs the
[18:07 - 18:14] cops came here and proved my fucking innocence so y'all dumbasses need to
[18:14 - 18:18] get the fuck over to move on with your lives the same motherfucking high school
[18:18 - 18:28] dude we're not fucking kids we're all grown-ass adults here bro like seriously
[18:28 - 18:34] and it's sad I'm 31 years old and I act like more of an adult than half you
[18:34 - 18:40] motherfucking ignorant trolls I really knew I act like more of an adult than
[18:40 - 18:54] you idiots do here's the thing G war it's not the truth it's a fucking lie so
[18:54 - 19:06] there's this bitch the fuck out of here now with anybody else
[19:10 - 19:21] now with anybody else like to get blocked cuz I can say here I can block you
[19:21 - 19:35] dumbasses all fucking day long you're not winning this war that's easy the
[19:35 - 19:40] reason I have the right to judge you as trolls is cuz you make it hard for me to
[19:40 - 19:51] do what I need to do so fuck you and black cat screw you the fuck out of here
[20:05 - 20:15] matter of fact James let me mod you up only that way you can help me take care
[20:15 - 20:23] of the trash on here man like what I find so irritating about you trolls is
[20:23 - 20:31] that you're so fixated on the fact of what I did and you can't fucking move the
[20:31 - 20:39] fuck on from it and that's sad oh favorite games that's a tough one dude I
[20:39 - 20:44] have a few man that's a lot to get back with you on that one that's a definitely
[20:44 - 20:51] that's definitely one I'll you know say for an actual stream but like I said man
[20:51 - 20:57] I'm here to build up my brain as a gamer I'm here to do what I need to fucking do
[20:57 - 21:03] to make a living doing what I enjoy and I'm not gonna sit here and let you post
[21:03 - 21:09] the ass trolls that can't let go of the motherfucking past stop me that ain't
[21:09 - 21:12] fucking happening
[21:12 - 21:28] hi Tyler NY and yes Wayne Gory home I know who you are Tyler NY your fucking
[21:28 - 21:46] retard like for real and I agree with Steve man a hundred percent
[21:46 - 22:04] yeah that's what you think Lotus hi bro if you look back in my older videos like
[22:04 - 22:09] seriously if you look back in my older videos from before all this shit I was
[22:09 - 22:18] doing great so that's what I'm trying to get back to doing is having fun having a
[22:18 - 22:28] good time and you're right Lotus it has got not a hand and guess what I'm gonna
[22:28 - 22:42] be the motherfucker to get a handle on it because I'm not gonna sit around and let
[22:42 - 22:52] these pokes screw with me anymore yeah exactly bro and their free views too
[22:53 - 23:01] they're legitimately free fucking views matter of fact let me pull out something
[23:01 - 23:10] here before I get into some gameplay let me pull something up here for you guys
[23:10 - 23:23] yeah James what up man wanted to love the video real quick to show you trolls how
[23:23 - 23:32] you act like and what you really do in the long run now granted this person no
[23:32 - 23:37] longer speaks to me due to the fucking trolls which is sad but
[24:02 - 24:03] let's see where's that
[24:32 - 24:48] now I'll let y'all watch this
[25:03 - 25:09] well hello everyone welcome back to me now what I'm about to say is not strictly
[25:09 - 25:13] associated with dressing the way that I do or dressing the way that I do out there
[25:13 - 25:17] or just dressing certain way this mindset that I'm about to share with you
[25:17 - 25:23] can be applied to pretty much every aspect of your life dedicated to this
[25:23 - 25:27] subject a book I have not read so much I'm gonna give you my own opinion on this
[25:27 - 25:32] mindset a mindset that will make sure guarantee that you will be at least a
[25:32 - 25:37] little bit happier with your life from this video onwards I will use some real
[25:37 - 25:42] life examples examples of myself examples of friends examples of strangers I
[25:42 - 25:46] spoke into perhaps maybe if I can think about it now you may think that not
[25:46 - 25:50] getting it is actually part and parcel of who you are maybe some people just
[25:50 - 25:54] don't care where some people care immensely personally I think it's a bit
[25:54 - 25:57] of both I think perhaps some of it is nature some of it is nurture you have
[25:57 - 26:02] to nurture a part of your nature so I've told many story times on this channel
[26:02 - 26:06] detailing my crappy school life how badly I wanted to be part of a friend
[26:06 - 26:09] group and how it wasn't so much that I cared what they thought it was more just
[26:09 - 26:14] I wanted to be part of a friend group now I have had negative reviews of social
[26:14 - 26:17] interactions I've had with people Jake can be a little bit too intense Jake can
[26:17 - 26:21] talk too much I wish he'd stop trying to debate video games and yes all these
[26:21 - 26:24] things at some point in my life whenever I heard them from other people did make
[26:24 - 26:28] me feel a little bit self-conscious and it did get me down for quite some time
[26:28 - 26:32] not anytime recently but it did get me down I thought man I have to change these
[26:32 - 26:36] things about myself and yet every single time I would get into another social
[26:36 - 26:41] interaction I would have the same problem I could see and hear myself doing it
[26:41 - 26:45] again but here's the really important part ladies and gentlemen and that is I
[26:45 - 26:49] had some fantastic social interactions with people being that person and I had
[26:49 - 26:53] some bad social interactions being that person and you know what I realized
[26:53 - 26:59] nosy everyone is going to like you I tried to change I tried to dumb down
[26:59 - 27:03] parts of my personality that some people didn't like and guess what that just
[27:03 - 27:07] leaves you sort of lacking in the personality department because you are
[27:07 - 27:10] too afraid to do anything that might possibly offend someone I have great
[27:10 - 27:14] friends I do I don't have a lot of them but that's my choice we all have friends
[27:14 - 27:19] and people in our lives that we think man they would be so much better if they
[27:19 - 27:23] just didn't have that aspect to their personality but we're still friends with
[27:23 - 27:26] them we still love them and that is because human beings have many different
[27:26 - 27:32] aspects to their personalities and their lives both through nature and nature and
[27:32 - 27:36] the best way to go through life is to not only accept people for who they are but
[27:36 - 27:42] also accept you for who you are because you're special though not that special
[27:42 - 27:44] don't let it go to your head with over seven billion people on this planet and
[27:44 - 27:47] growing this bound to be a couple of double gangers don't you think we're
[27:47 - 27:52] sure there's another one of me out there somewhere and this actually leads in to
[27:52 - 27:58] the title of the video and that is how to stop giving us other titles include how
[27:58 - 28:02] to stop giving a flame how to not give a rat how to not give a soggy about what
[28:02 - 28:07] people think among various other title ideas and that is if you have tried to
[28:07 - 28:10] change yourself and you have failed and it's making you miserable because you
[28:10 - 28:14] think you're a bad person well guess what you're not a bad person you've just
[28:14 - 28:18] been dealing with people who don't mesh with the person that you are and
[28:18 - 28:23] therefore if you become comfortable in yourself I know the negative aspects of
[28:23 - 28:27] my personality and I've tried to change them and I can't and therefore I've
[28:27 - 28:32] accepted that that is part of who I am and yet I still have friends and people
[28:32 - 28:36] who love me because despite my appearance I'm a human being and once you
[28:36 - 28:41] accept yourself and you accept that concept it is so much easier to go
[28:41 - 28:46] through life without giving let me give you a general with them let me give you
[28:46 - 28:50] like a snap thought that you can apply to pretty much any situation whenever
[28:50 - 28:53] someone says you cannot do something right that is someone thinking that you
[28:53 - 28:57] are unable to do something whether it comes from jealousy because they think
[28:57 - 29:00] you actually can and they don't want to tell you shame of their own lack of
[29:00 - 29:03] motivation to go and do something with their lives fear that you may be more
[29:03 - 29:06] successful than there's many different reasons why people will tell you that you
[29:06 - 29:10] cannot do something okay so here it is here is the top secret that you can
[29:10 - 29:16] apply to any situation when someone is like oh you I think you look like this
[29:16 - 29:20] I think you that I think you can't make it I can't but but but I think I think
[29:20 - 29:26] about you right you say to yourself or to this asshole out loud it's your
[29:26 - 29:31] choice fortunately I don't need you to think I can do it in order to do it
[29:31 - 29:36] here's an example you dress like that but you're actually not that unique I don't
[29:36 - 29:40] think you're very unique luckily asshole in my comment section I don't need you to
[29:40 - 29:45] think I'm unique for me to feel and be unique boom diffused negated they are
[29:45 - 29:48] defeated and destroyed you want to be a freelance artist you want to draw
[29:48 - 29:52] pictures for people people like me or maybe for people who are far more
[29:52 - 29:57] important and successful than me like a brand or a company or whatever and you
[29:57 - 30:02] say this to someone right and they say you can't do that I don't think you're
[30:02 - 30:05] gonna be able to do that that's that's far beyond what you're capable of and you
[30:05 - 30:11] say I don't need you to think I'm capable of doing it in order for me to do
[30:11 - 30:16] it whether you succeed or you don't succeed at least you try and I know the
[30:16 - 30:21] fear of failing is just so immense it outweighs almost the motivation to do
[30:21 - 30:24] it you know but I read this book and I can't remember the name of the book it's
[30:24 - 30:28] something like how to deal with pressure and I've read something very very key
[30:28 - 30:33] very important very pertinent something very poignant and it was this it was it
[30:33 - 30:38] was talking about the concept of thinking everything that could go wrong
[30:38 - 30:42] everything bad that could happen everything negative that could possibly
[30:42 - 30:46] happen in a situation of something that you're trying to achieve or trying to do
[30:46 - 30:51] whether it be performing on stage or releasing a song or trying to be a
[30:51 - 30:57] popular artist or trying to be a youtuber or the insert goal or desired
[30:57 - 31:01] vocation here you basically flip your thinking on it in layman's terms you go
[31:01 - 31:05] from a glass that is happy to have full you are thinking about everything that
[31:05 - 31:08] could possibly go wrong and because you're thinking of everything that could
[31:08 - 31:11] possibly go wrong you think that everything is going to go wrong in fact
[31:11 - 31:15] if you focus on things going wrong enough things might just go wrong so what I
[31:15 - 31:20] wanted to do is flip it I just want you to immediately start doing it see what
[31:20 - 31:26] my hand is doing flip in case it's not clear instead of focusing on everything
[31:26 - 31:29] that could go wrong therefore giving you even more anxiety and putting even more
[31:29 - 31:33] pressure on instead I want you to think of everything that could go right which
[31:33 - 31:37] is most likely going to be the outcome oh what if I get on stage and I play the
[31:37 - 31:41] wrong notes and I can't sing and everything breaks and we we mess up a
[31:41 - 31:44] song halfway through and we're in we're on the stage in front of everyone relax
[31:44 - 31:50] instead think man what if we get on stage we play the songs perfectly and we
[31:50 - 31:54] perform incredibly outstanding performance that people will talk about
[31:54 - 31:59] for years to come you will find that your anxiety levels will dip most
[31:59 - 32:03] certainly do try everything in your best efforts to make sure that you perform well
[32:03 - 32:08] or draw well or whatever it is that you need to do on the day or in order to
[32:08 - 32:12] pursue your goal but if you are in the situation it means you are pursuing
[32:12 - 32:18] something that you want out of life and that is good that's positive you should
[32:18 - 32:23] be excited and happy that you're doing it so think about what you're doing
[32:23 - 32:27] positively otherwise in every single pursuit of what you want to achieve if
[32:27 - 32:30] you think about the negative things that could possibly happen you're gonna
[32:30 - 32:34] make yourself anxious and you're gonna give yourself a very negative view of
[32:34 - 32:38] the thing that you sit out to achieve and you don't want them you don't want to
[32:38 - 32:42] assign your goal and your dream with something negative look don't get me
[32:42 - 32:45] wrong anxiety of course these things are gonna be much harder for you to deal
[32:45 - 32:48] with but this is actually a concept of something else this is this is all
[32:48 - 32:54] about dealing with pressure and the fear of failing but primarily I want to talk
[32:54 - 32:58] about not giving because you can achieve almost anything as long as you
[32:58 - 33:01] adopt this mindset of not caring what people think because I don't care what
[33:01 - 33:06] people think clearly so allow me to address some of the comments that I
[33:06 - 33:10] have got inspired by seeing videos of me not only dressing like this but also
[33:10 - 33:16] dressing like this out in the real world and that is caring too much of what
[33:16 - 33:20] people will think or how they will react when they see you look don't get me wrong
[33:20 - 33:24] if I've rocks thrown at me fireworks thrown at me I've actually had a little
[33:24 - 33:30] carton of gravy chips or fries for you Americans thrown at me as I've as I've
[33:30 - 33:33] gotten onto a bus to go into town luckily they miss I've had people cackle as I
[33:33 - 33:39] walk by I've heard people audibly convey confusion what the fuck and all of it is
[33:39 - 33:44] worth it because I get to feel comfortable in my own skin I get to feel
[33:44 - 33:49] proud and confident in being who I am some snivelling little peasant is not
[33:49 - 33:54] gonna bother me to the point where I'm going to not be myself the world is so
[33:54 - 33:58] much bigger than that and life is so much more important than that because you
[33:58 - 34:02] see these small-minded individuals very rarely get anywhere in their lives I
[34:02 - 34:08] kind of like to think about that whenever I get laughed at or or jeered or
[34:08 - 34:12] have something thrown at me or people leave crappy comments or whatever it is
[34:12 - 34:15] you know sometimes they like a thing like well screw you I like to be who I
[34:15 - 34:18] am and I'm not gonna let you stop me that's a very positive way but sometimes
[34:18 - 34:23] I do like to delve into a little more of a revenge fantasy my revenge fantasy I
[34:23 - 34:29] mean revenge reality that I acknowledge in my head and and that is well you're
[34:29 - 34:34] going nowhere with your life these eating chairs will die with nothing and I
[34:34 - 34:39] will have everything and it's the same with with hate comments too they don't
[34:39 - 34:42] affect me even you know I delete them for your benefit but whenever I get hate
[34:42 - 34:46] comments or people just being stupid in the comments section and I read it the
[34:46 - 34:50] same thought process goes to my head it is just slightly different because it's
[34:50 - 34:55] a lot more specific to the situation of leaving a hate comment on a complete
[34:55 - 35:00] strangest video and it's this what kind of miserable angry piece of it must you
[35:00 - 35:06] be to go infuse with nourishing serum and provide him in B5 new maybe a
[35:06 - 35:11] sensitive ingredient one's the video of something you know you are going to hate
[35:11 - 35:16] and leave a comment saying how much you hate them is is the best bit
[35:16 - 35:22] because they clicked on the video and then left a comment and then most likely
[35:22 - 35:27] disliked the video that is three levels of engagement with my video which means
[35:27 - 35:33] they're only going to be seeing more of me and they're recommended and that is
[35:33 - 35:38] just delicious to me and but you know I also completely you know negates and
[35:38 - 35:42] diffuses hate comments is that there was only one time in my life I have ever
[35:42 - 35:46] left a negative or three comment on someone else's video and that was when
[35:46 - 35:51] I was in the lowest point in my life because that is the only place you
[35:51 - 35:55] could ever be in mentally that could make you do something like that if you
[35:55 - 35:58] don't like something then you don't say anything if you like something and you
[35:58 - 36:01] can say something positive such as the mindset of healthy people who are in
[36:01 - 36:05] good places in their lives or at least have a good mental grasp of the things
[36:05 - 36:08] in their lives or at least appreciate the content that they're seeing that could
[36:08 - 36:13] be helping them with their lives but in order to stick something out and leave a
[36:13 - 36:17] crappy comment on it or in order to look at someone public and shout something
[36:17 - 36:23] at them you have to be really insecure or in a place in your life because happy
[36:23 - 36:27] people don't do things like this happy people don't leave negative comments
[36:27 - 36:33] happy people content people with their own lives don't shout at unique
[36:33 - 36:38] strangers in the streets no these are actions reserved for unhappy and sad
[36:38 - 36:42] people so when I receive negative criticism in the streets or if I receive
[36:42 - 36:46] negative criticism about my videos or the way I look usually the way I look not
[36:46 - 36:50] about how the video is it's usually about how I look in the comment section I
[36:50 - 36:54] just think I've already won my life is far more fulfilled and happier than that
[36:54 - 36:59] because I would not do that to them exactly negative reactions to you
[36:59 - 37:04] usually come for people who are in negative places in their lives you just
[37:04 - 37:08] need to have a little bit of perspective acknowledge that you are living your
[37:08 - 37:12] life the way you want to live it and some people are going to react negatively to
[37:12 - 37:17] that for reasons stated previously in this video never ever let the passing
[37:17 - 37:22] comments of complete assholes get in the way of who you want to be life is too
[37:22 - 37:25] damn short so what does it matter ten years will pass and you would have
[37:25 - 37:29] changed your entire life based off one idiot's opinion when you think about it
[37:29 - 37:33] on that scale doesn't that sound ridiculous you just altered your entire
[37:33 - 37:37] life because of the negative opinions of a few people what does it matter what
[37:37 - 37:40] did their opinions matter there could be people leaving crappy comments on this
[37:40 - 37:44] video if I still get crappy comments I don't care I don't need them to think
[37:44 - 37:49] I'm great in order for me to think I'm great now do not misunderstand that
[37:49 - 37:54] statement I'm not saying I'm better than anyone else I'm simply saying that I
[37:54 - 38:00] think I'm pretty great not better than anyone else just that I appreciate and
[38:00 - 38:04] acknowledge my own greatness as should you so be the coolest and the best you
[38:04 - 38:09] can be by not giving a shit what unimportant people think because they're
[38:09 - 38:14] just there they are unimportant but you know what is important you yes you
[38:14 - 38:20] yeah no I'm actually pointing at you you are important more important than the
[38:20 - 38:26] passing opinion of your peers your friends strangers family and you deserve
[38:26 - 38:32] to be you the exact same amount I deserve to be me so hopefully this video
[38:32 - 38:35] made sense because none of this video was scripted none of this video was
[38:35 - 38:38] scripted all this information is floating around in my head this is the
[38:38 - 38:44] mindset I keep in order to maintain a positive attitude and to maintain being
[38:44 - 38:50] myself which I know from experience makes me happy this makes me happy so
[38:50 - 38:56] thank you everyone for tuning in can I just say a huge huge thank you to all
[38:56 - 39:00] of the patreon names that you're about to see so many new people on my patreon
[39:00 - 39:06] and it is amazing as you guys know me and kaya gonna be moving and the more
[39:06 - 39:16] people now you see the mindset that I fucking keep that's the mindset that I
[39:16 - 39:29] have every fucking day so you little trolls can go fuck yourselves like
[39:29 - 39:39] seriously you think that what you say matters to me but it doesn't like
[39:39 - 39:45] seriously what you troll say doesn't fucking but honestly I laugh at you
[39:45 - 39:54] trolls cuz you're stupid and actually yes I do go back and watch my last few
[39:54 - 40:00] videos matter of fact go back matter of fact
[40:00 - 40:14] I take you guys back a little bit
[40:30 - 40:32] I
[40:54 - 40:56] Here we go
[40:56 - 41:09] now let's go to my let's see what game video do I want to pull up here
[41:09 - 41:13] because I have a few
[41:21 - 41:26] trying to decide what game you all want to follow up for you guys
[41:32 - 41:36] that was a live stream
[41:40 - 41:48] you know let's do skateboard party there actually no you know what let me go
[41:48 - 41:53] to one of my funnier videos let's go to like one of my funniest videos hands
[41:53 - 41:55] down
[41:55 - 42:08] what's up guys let's go let's check this out this is one of my original gaming
[42:08 - 42:24] videos actually now hold up let's see
[42:26 - 42:34] like you can tell just by my freaking videos I was having fun
[42:38 - 42:40] you
[42:51 - 42:54] matter of fact
[42:56 - 42:59] eight girls again
[42:59 - 43:20] Like, you can tell, like, I was having fun.
[43:20 - 43:21] And these are old.
[43:22 - 43:31] Doing some stuff like sites like stuner.net.
[43:31 - 43:47] I try and do.
[43:48 - 44:05] Let's do a fun one here.
[44:05 - 44:20] Try to find one where I was cracking it up. Let's see if I can find it here.
[44:20 - 44:26] There's a path to a lot of streams.
[44:26 - 44:45] Yeah, here we go, suicide squad. Here's one.
[44:45 - 45:01] What is going on, guys?
[45:01 - 45:17] Yeah, we're playing this. So we are going to go through the tutorial and all that crap. So let's go.
[45:17 - 45:35] Yeah, where are we? Oh, there's our one. Oh, there's a gun box. Oh, shit.
[45:35 - 46:03] We're going to grab some ammo quick. I see you. Oh, headshot.
[46:03 - 46:20] Oh, he's dead. Oh, damn, he probably just knocked his fuck out of here. So then you just got to burn to a crisp.
[46:20 - 46:30] Yo, I am seriously enjoying this game right now. This is definitely cool. The graphics are not bad at all.
[46:30 - 46:50] Wave completed, man. We're doing good. 1900. Hell, yes. I may end up using LDL or Harley Quinn. I don't know. We'll see.
[46:50 - 47:01] What are these creatures? I don't know what the fuck they are. They're going to die.
[47:01 - 47:19] Where are they at? Oh. Yeah, so you're dead. I don't know what the hell these things are, but they need to die.
[47:20 - 47:25] Shit.
[47:25 - 47:30] Really, sir?
[47:30 - 47:34] Come on, man.
[47:34 - 47:36] All right, I'll be right back.
[47:36 - 47:54] Yo, does that one just seriously have a freaking gun in his hand? God, swear to God, I see that one having a gun.
[47:54 - 48:02] Okay, how many guns now? Oh, shit.
[48:02 - 48:08] My LDL won't take that guy.
[48:08 - 48:17] Really, sir? No, that's it. Fuck it.
[48:17 - 48:22] Yeah, I'm sure you do, bro.
[48:22 - 48:33] All right, that was some crazy shit.
[48:34 - 48:40] Don't let him go.
[48:40 - 48:46] That one there is so gentle to the right, man, because you never know what's going to come out of these damn things.
[48:46 - 48:49] What's going on here?
[48:49 - 48:55] Oh, I guess we do have to go around there.
[48:55 - 49:05] There we go.
[49:05 - 49:10] Oh, there's something. Oh, shit.
[49:10 - 49:24] He's out of nowhere. Holy crap.
[49:24 - 49:27] He took him out.
[49:27 - 49:34] And where's that item now to see now? Where'd it go?
[49:34 - 49:44] Damn, these things are coming from all kinds of fucking directions. Man, holy shit.
[49:44 - 49:53] You know what? Fuck it.
[49:53 - 49:56] Yo, guys, slow down with this bitch.
[49:56 - 50:04] Hell yeah.
[50:04 - 50:08] Really, sir, are you going to use an axe?
[50:08 - 50:12] Oh, damn, I died.
[50:12 - 50:21] Like, you see what I mean? Back in these days, I was genuinely fucking having fun.
[50:21 - 50:48] Like, for real.
[50:48 - 50:57] Like, check this out. The Black Outs one with controller cam.
[50:57 - 51:12] Which I may bring back. I don't know.
[51:12 - 51:34] I feel like there's so many hiding up in here somewhere.
[51:34 - 51:41] You gotta really be careful up in this area on this map.
[51:41 - 52:00] I mean, seriously, like, I was genuinely having fun.
[52:00 - 52:29] Like, here's one right here.
[52:29 - 52:45] What's up, guys? This is your boy, Retro Gamer, back on the channel. Today we're playing a brand new game called Never Help.
[52:45 - 52:54] Why'd y'all have to play this game? I do need to get back into this. I'm trying.
[52:54 - 53:23] So that's it. Fight this guy.
[53:23 - 53:38] Alright, we figured it out.
[53:38 - 53:48] We just had to kill, or make him fall through the ice and then take off.
[53:48 - 54:00] This game is beautiful, though. I really like this. This is super cool. I'm actually glad that I picked this up.
[54:00 - 54:13] That was cool. I'm going to show the Snow Fox. Let's get a fuck.
[54:13 - 54:38] Ah, there we are.
[54:38 - 54:43] Oh, that just, like, wriggles up the freaking thing. That was so cool.
[54:43 - 54:50] Like, you can clearly tell I was having fun with this shit, dude.
[54:50 - 54:54] Like, I gotta just sit right there.
[54:54 - 55:01] Like, this is the stuff I'm trying to get back to, man.
[55:01 - 55:06] This is my name, not Retro. I didn't know you were white.
[55:06 - 55:22] Alright, let's not win foxes, man. It's a white fox, video game character.
[55:22 - 55:40] Okay.
[55:40 - 55:43] Ah, shit.
[55:43 - 55:52] Ah, shit.
[55:52 - 56:09] Ah, shit.
[56:09 - 56:19] Ah, shit.
[56:19 - 56:29] Ah, shit.
[56:29 - 56:50] Ah, shit.
[56:50 - 57:06] As you guys can tell, I was having genuine fun doing this stuff, man.
[57:06 - 57:32] Like, this is what I used to do before all the bullshit happened.
[57:32 - 57:39] Can't survive.
[57:39 - 57:54] Shit.
[57:54 - 58:23] I still have that shirt somewhere.
[58:23 - 58:45] Ah, shit.
[58:46 - 58:52] What up, y'all? It's your boy, Retro Gary here, back on the channel with the Skateboard Party 3, man.
[58:52 - 58:58] I know it's been a minute since I've done any gameplay video, but I am back, and we are on the controller today, so...
[58:58 - 59:07] Let's build now. Let's see what we can do here.
[59:07 - 59:28] Now, we are doing free roam, just to kind of gather the place up.
[59:28 - 59:54] Now, I will be posting a link, this year I got the link below, I mean, you know, in the bottom, for my shop, for spreadsheet.com, where you guys can take out the latest Retro Gary games here, down below, so, yeah.
[59:54 - 60:00] Which I am going to try to revive that, too.
[60:00 - 60:16] Like, you can genuinely tell, I was genuinely having fun back in the day, dude, and this is what I want to give back to, shit like this.
[60:16 - 60:27] You know, we're just ripping it up on these rails right now, man.
[60:27 - 60:32] Ooh, can we get this one out of here?
[60:32 - 60:40] Ow, that was my face.
[60:40 - 60:49] Ooh, even though that was lagged, man, we're still in there. It was like fucking slow-mo. That was dope.
[60:49 - 60:58] Now, you and Jim looked like slow-mo as we were doing that. That was cool shit.
[60:58 - 61:05] Ooh, you know we got to hit this half-pipe right here.
[61:05 - 61:29] Ooh, we got to hit this half-pipe right here.
[61:29 - 61:53] Like, you can just tell, just through these various videos, I was actually having fun.
[61:53 - 62:08] Like, shit, I even got to chill out with a freaking fan, dude.
[62:08 - 62:26] Like, this is what I did back in the day, man. Chilling out with legitimate fans, having fun.
[62:26 - 62:51] This is what I want to get back to doing.
[62:51 - 63:07] What's up, guys? Retro Gary here, and today we are playing...
[63:21 - 63:50] Well, you can literally tell I was having fun just by these videos, man.
[63:50 - 64:19] What's going on, guys?
[64:19 - 64:34] It's your boy Retro Gary here, back with another retro gaming game. Today we're playing one of my first old players called Unkilled, for it.
[64:34 - 64:41] It's up for you, pal.
[64:41 - 64:53] Ooh, headshot.
[64:53 - 65:08] Yo, there's a freaking ninja there. Oh, man.
[65:08 - 65:13] Ooh, I got another boyfriend. Hell yeah.
[65:13 - 65:37] I'll take it.
[65:37 - 65:52] Whoa.
[65:52 - 66:19] And blast off. That was good.
[66:19 - 66:30] Ah, yeah, we got him.
[66:30 - 66:40] Oh, man, I got a double kill on that last wave.
[66:40 - 66:51] Man, this thing goes. Yo, that was a tough mission. I'm not going to lie. That was crazy tough.
[66:51 - 66:57] Turns back a little bit for you guys.
[66:57 - 67:02] But if you guys haven't done so yet, hit that subscribe button and that like button. I love.
[67:02 - 67:07] As you know, it does help the channel out a huge deal.
[67:07 - 67:14] Uh-oh, I'm on a campaign mode with Grape Seller, and I'm on a swing.
[67:14 - 67:27] And you have the right winner. What makes this game different than others? Well, each character has their own campaign mode.
[67:27 - 67:36] Ooh, right before we get there.
[67:36 - 67:38] Where did we get it?
[67:38 - 67:39] Oh, yeah.
[67:39 - 67:54] Ooh, multi-rockets. I'll take it.
[67:54 - 68:03] Oh, yeah, let's do it.
[68:03 - 68:09] Like, you can literally see how it's having fun with this shit back in the day, dude.
[68:09 - 68:11] What is
[68:11 - 68:38] it?
[68:38 - 68:45] But yeah, as you can see, this is the kind of stuff that I'm trying to get back to, man. Stuff like this.
[68:45 - 68:47] So, yeah.
[68:47 - 68:57] With that being said, guys, I will see you guys in my next gaming livestream. I am going to try to set some stuff up.
[68:57 - 69:04] And so, yeah, I love you guys. I will see you guys in my next gameplay video, which will be here in a few minutes.
[69:04 - 69:12] I love you guys. Stay tuned. Love you guys. Peace.
[69:12 - 69:15] Let's hit that thousand sub-mark. Now, let's go.
[69:15 - 69:20] Make sure to smack that like button, that subscribe button, and the notification bell. Now, let's get that thousand more.
[69:20 - 69:27] Let's show these trolls up. Now, let's show them what's up.