2021-12-23 FINALLY FREE FROM MY DEMONS 1

[0:00 - 0:14] What's up, everybody?
[0:30 - 0:55] Man, oh man, it's been a long, long, long time.
[0:55 - 1:09] It's been about three fucking years since the time I've been able to be myself again.
[1:09 - 1:22] And let me tell you, damn doesn't feel good to be back.
[1:22 - 1:46] Especially after tonight, when I got rid of certain people that were holding me down and holding me back from my true potential, like Music Biz Marty, William Glory Hall, the bend over boys, the bend over boys,
[1:46 - 2:01] aka the bend over bitches, or as my homie, Cripp Kalex, called the Fender Toys, which I like that one.
[2:01 - 2:17] And more importantly, it feels good to be free from people like that cotton bag little bitch cape that stabbed me in the fucking back.
[2:17 - 2:26] And I want to say thank you to my real fucking friends.
[2:26 - 2:30] One of them who's in the chat right now, Jill Axe.
[2:30 - 2:36] People like Cripp Kalex, his girl Lauren, shot Cripp Kalex's girl, what's up guys?
[2:36 - 2:41] Fucking love you guys.
[2:41 - 2:49] All I gotta say is god damn doesn't feel good to be back to my old self.
[2:49 - 2:56] It feels damn good to be back to my old self the way that was three years ago.
[2:56 - 3:01] It feels good to be fucking back.
[3:01 - 3:09] Let me tell you man, I've never felt any better to finally be freed and to be able to be myself.
[3:09 - 3:16] The me that everybody knew me for in the very beginning before all this.
[3:16 - 3:26] It feels damn good because you guys finally get to see who I really am, the me that I wanted you guys to see all along.
[3:26 - 3:41] But never had the chance to do to certain people getting in my way.
[3:41 - 3:52] All I gotta say is it feels damn fucking good to be back.
[3:52 - 4:16] And this first song represents the shattering of all those chains that I've been stuck with for all these years.
[4:16 - 4:26] They think I'm crazy, but they don't know the feeling.
[4:26 - 4:32] They're all around me, circling my vultures.
[4:32 - 4:40] They wanna break me, wash away my colors, wash away my colors.
[4:40 - 4:51] Take me, I'm not seeing you make everything okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.
[4:51 - 4:55] We are one and the same on you.
[4:55 - 5:02] Take all the pain away, away, away, away.
[5:02 - 5:09] Save me if I become my demons.
[5:11 - 5:17] I cannot stop this sickness taking over.
[5:17 - 5:22] It takes control and drags me into nowhere.
[5:22 - 5:28] I need your help, I can't fight this forever.
[5:28 - 5:33] I know you're watching, I can't hear you around there.
[5:33 - 5:44] Take me, I'm not seeing you make everything okay, okay, okay.
[5:44 - 5:48] We are one and the same on you.
[5:48 - 5:55] Take all the pain away, away, away, away.
[5:55 - 6:01] Save me if I become my demons.
[6:01 - 6:07] Take me, take me over, no one below.
[6:07 - 6:13] Fly forever, don't let me go.
[6:13 - 6:18] I need a savior to heal my pain.
[6:18 - 6:27] When I become my worst enemy, the enemy.
[6:28 - 6:31] I ain't no coward.
[6:31 - 6:36] I'm better than he is in every way.
[6:36 - 6:42] Because I don't bow down to him or anyone.
[6:42 - 6:48] You know what I mean, I bow to his God and that's it.
[6:48 - 6:58] Take me, I'm not seeing you make everything okay.
[6:58 - 7:09] We are one and the same, you make everything okay.
[7:09 - 7:21] Take me, I'm not seeing you make everything okay, okay, okay.
[7:21 - 7:25] We are one and the same on you.
[7:25 - 7:32] Take all the pain away, away, away.
[7:32 - 7:38] Save me if I become my demons.
[7:38 - 7:49] Take me, I'm not seeing you make everything okay, okay, okay.
[7:49 - 8:00] Save me if I become my demons.
[8:00 - 8:12] Save me if I become my demons.
[8:12 - 8:18] God damn does it feel good to be back.
[8:18 - 8:26] I can finally do my channel the way that I've been fucking wanting to do it since the very fucking beginning.
[8:26 - 8:33] Which is my way with a great community of people that I can actually rock with.
[8:33 - 8:35] That I can actually hang out with.
[8:35 - 8:44] That I can actually have a good time with.
[8:44 - 8:54] People that actually enjoy what I do and appreciate what I try to put out for people like myself.
[8:54 - 9:04] All I got to say is God damn doesn't feel good to be back for myself again.
[9:04 - 9:19] It feels damn good to be back to my old, original, non-spiteful, hateful self.
[9:19 - 9:26] Let me tell you, it feels good to not have to yell at anyone ever again.
[9:26 - 9:33] It feels damn good not getting angry and pissed off all the fucking time like I used to do.
[9:49 - 9:54] Thank you.
[10:19 - 10:43] Thank you.
[10:43 - 10:46] Oh, that's on you.
[10:46 - 10:53] You want to go then go, that's on you.
[10:53 - 11:05] And this song right here is my response to everybody putting the blame on me when it was on them the whole time.
[11:05 - 11:08] Let's get the story straight.
[11:08 - 11:10] You were a poison.
[11:10 - 11:13] You've thrown it through my veins.
[11:13 - 11:16] You left me broken.
[11:16 - 11:24] You tried to make me think that the blame was all on me with the way you put me through.
[11:24 - 11:28] Now I know that it's not me, it's you.
[11:28 - 11:31] It's not me, it's you.
[11:31 - 11:34] It always has been you.
[11:34 - 11:39] All the lies and stupid things you're saying through it's you.
[11:39 - 11:42] It's not me, it's you.
[11:42 - 11:44] It always has been you.
[11:44 - 11:46] Put me through.
[11:46 - 11:50] And now I know it's not me, it's you.
[11:50 - 11:53] Yo, yo.
[11:53 - 11:57] It's not me, it's you.
[11:57 - 11:59] Yo.
[11:59 - 12:01] It's not me.
[12:01 - 12:03] Here we go again.
[12:03 - 12:06] The same time we're always in.
[12:06 - 12:08] Don't care so well, pretend.
[12:08 - 12:11] Wake me when you're next your friends.
[12:11 - 12:14] You tried to make me small.
[12:14 - 12:19] Make me fall when it's on your phone with the pain you put me through.
[12:19 - 12:23] And now I know that it's not me, it's you.
[12:23 - 12:26] It's not me, it's you.
[12:26 - 12:29] All the lies and stupid things you're saying through it's you.
[12:29 - 12:34] All the lies and stupid things you're saying through it's you.
[12:34 - 12:37] It's not me, it's you.
[12:37 - 12:41] All the lies and pain you put me through.
[12:41 - 12:45] And now it's not me, it's you.
[12:45 - 12:56] Have a parties.
[12:56 - 12:58] Let's get that story straight.
[12:58 - 13:03] I know we're all boys and running through my veins.
[13:03 - 13:07] You're trying to freaking me insane.
[13:07 - 13:09] And now that you gone away.
[13:09 - 13:12] I'm no longer broken.
[13:12 - 13:13] But I pity you.
[13:13 - 13:14] Put me through.
[13:14 - 13:18] And now I know that it's not me, it's you
[13:18 - 13:22] It's not me, it's you
[13:22 - 13:24] All this has been you
[13:24 - 13:28] All the nice and stupid things you say and do
[13:28 - 13:30] It's you
[13:30 - 13:32] It's not me, it's you
[13:32 - 13:36] Always has been pain you put me through
[13:36 - 13:40] I know that it's not me, it's you
[13:40 - 13:44] It's not me, it's you
[13:44 - 13:48] It's not me, it's you
[13:48 - 13:52] It's not me, it's you
[13:52 - 13:56] It's not me, it's you
[13:56 - 14:00] It's not me, it's you
[14:00 - 14:04] It's not me, it's you
[14:04 - 14:16] And as for that person that said that I was irrelevant now, well let me answer to you
[14:16 - 14:18] like this.
[14:18 - 14:28] I would rather be irrelevant and not be involved in that troll ass community of fucking fakes.
[14:28 - 14:36] I'd rather sit there and have a fuck ton of fakes, being friendly to my face but stab
[14:36 - 14:50] me in the back like a bitch and talking shit behind my back.
[14:50 - 14:56] I'd rather have a few real fans that enjoy what I fucking do than to have a thousand
[14:56 - 15:02] fake fans from a fucking troll community that doesn't give a fuck about anything except
[15:02 - 15:06] fucking with people and fucking their lives up.
[15:06 - 15:14] Because I tell you from the very fucking jump, I never wanted to be part of a fucking
[15:14 - 15:18] troll community.
[15:18 - 15:23] Although I will give credit to the community for one thing.
[15:23 - 15:26] I will give the community that much.
[15:26 - 15:52] If it wasn't for that community, I never would have met these two.
[15:52 - 16:00] So that much I will give them.
[16:00 - 16:10] But other than that, I don't owe the community shit.
[16:10 - 16:19] Other than meeting these two wonderful, amazing fucking people that I'm proud to know, I don't
[16:19 - 16:25] give credit to that troll ass community anything.
[16:25 - 16:33] I don't give that troll community a goddamn thing, period.
[16:33 - 16:36] Because I was just fine with them before.
[16:36 - 16:42] I was just fine without them before them and I know damn well I'll be just fine without
[16:42 - 16:44] them.
[16:44 - 16:49] So Marty, I already know you're probably already playing in something and all I gotta say to
[16:49 - 16:56] you is this, man, go ahead and take your best fucking shot because there's no way you can
[16:56 - 16:59] shut me down for good.
[16:59 - 17:07] Try if you will, try if you might, you would never shut me down permanently.
[17:07 - 17:13] Because even if you do manage to shut me down for some ungodly reason, I'll just come right
[17:13 - 17:16] back.
[17:16 - 17:23] I always do.
[17:23 - 17:27] So don't think for one fucking second that you're above me.
[17:27 - 17:33] Like I told you in your stream, you fat fucking slob.
[17:33 - 17:43] If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have a goddamn channel.
[17:43 - 17:47] Without me, you wouldn't have shit.
[17:47 - 17:50] Without me, you would be nothing.
[17:50 - 17:55] I made you who you are.
[17:55 - 17:57] I made you who you are Marty.
[17:57 - 18:03] If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have the money that you have on your channel.
[18:03 - 18:09] You wouldn't have a career on YouTube if it wasn't for me.
[18:09 - 18:33] I made you who you are.
[18:33 - 18:35] Hell no, I didn't flee.
[18:35 - 18:38] I walked out after everything I had to say.
[18:38 - 18:41] I walked out of my own accord.
[18:41 - 18:44] I didn't run like a bitch.
[18:44 - 18:51] I walked out of my own accord after saying what I had to say.
[18:51 - 19:01] You just felt the fuck grip.
[19:01 - 19:03] Go back and watch the stream.
[19:03 - 19:12] Unless the stream got taken down.
[19:12 - 19:15] You're not wrong there, Jen.
[19:15 - 19:19] You are not wrong there at all, Jenny.
[19:19 - 19:26] You definitely are not wrong.
[19:26 - 19:27] He's right.
[19:27 - 19:33] Marty didn't show his face because he chose to hide like a bitch instead of manning up
[19:33 - 19:42] and looking me in the face.
[19:42 - 19:44] Oh, I did.
[19:44 - 19:52] I did that last night and I did that when I went up on his panel earlier.
[19:52 - 19:59] And speaking on Queen Heather, if somebody can find out what her YouTube channel is,
[19:59 - 20:06] send it to me so I can reach out to her so I can let her know to avoid this fucking piece
[20:06 - 20:11] of shit music biz, Marty.
[20:11 - 20:16] If anybody knows if Queen Heather has a YouTube channel, if you guys can find it, send me
[20:16 - 20:23] that shit.
[21:16 - 21:28] This song right here does touch close home to me because I lost someone near and dear
[21:28 - 21:43] to me to a very similar issue and if you guys lost anyone the same way, this is for you
[21:43 - 21:46] as well.
[21:46 - 21:53] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[21:53 - 21:55] They will not be forgotten ever.
[21:55 - 22:04] You will hang yourself, design the ones before you.
[22:04 - 22:20] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[22:20 - 22:28] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[22:28 - 22:38] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[22:38 - 22:48] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[22:48 - 22:58] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[22:58 - 23:08] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[23:08 - 23:18] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[23:18 - 23:28] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[23:28 - 23:38] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[23:38 - 23:48] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[23:48 - 23:58] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[23:58 - 24:08] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[24:08 - 24:18] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[24:18 - 24:28] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[24:28 - 24:38] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[24:38 - 24:48] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[24:48 - 24:58] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[24:58 - 25:08] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[25:08 - 25:18] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[25:38 - 25:48] It's just not their memory lives on through all of us.
[25:48 - 25:58] Thank you.
[26:18 - 26:28] Thank you.
[26:48 - 26:58] Thank you.
[27:18 - 27:28] Thank you.
[27:48 - 27:58] You guys ready for some fun?
[28:18 - 28:38] You guys ready for some fun?
[28:38 - 28:58] You guys ready for some fun?
[28:58 - 29:08] You guys ready for some fun?
[29:08 - 29:18] You guys ready for some fun?
[29:18 - 29:38] You guys ready for some fun?
[29:38 - 29:58] You guys ready for some fun?
[29:58 - 30:18] You ready for some fun?
[30:18 - 30:38] You guys ready for some fun?
[30:38 - 30:48] So I do apologize for this idiot you guys, but I promise you I'll be right back.
[30:48 - 30:58] I promise you guys I'll make it up to you.
[30:58 - 31:08] Love y'all man, I'll be right back.