2021-12-22 trapped in my past (Song)

[0:00 - 0:17] I'm running away from my past and it seems like this emptiness will never last
[0:17 - 0:24] Always feeling like I'll be a pool of glass for the things I did in my past
[0:24 - 0:30] Yeah, the time seems to move so fast that my past always seems to come
[0:30 - 0:38] Picking homey in the darkest window where I feel like I'm always trapped inside a cage
[0:38 - 0:44] I can't seem to escape, always feeling like I'm overwhelmed
[0:44 - 0:49] Like I can't gain grip on anything in my life
[0:49 - 0:53] At the time I looked up the garden and asked you why
[0:53 - 1:01] Did you take away my normal life by hand before the paint came and took it all away
[1:01 - 1:07] Now I just don't know what to say except that me
[1:07 - 1:13] That you did in a grave may be my only true escape
[1:13 - 1:19] Out of this crystal hill, society put me in
[1:19 - 1:27] Always thinking to myself, is this really it for me?
[1:27 - 1:33] I do anything to have my normal life back
[1:33 - 1:41] Is this really it for me? I don't wanna be the one to fade away
[1:41 - 1:48] I just want all the pain to go away so I can heal knowing in the end
[1:48 - 1:53] Everything will be okay, you're running away from my past
[1:53 - 1:58] Do you put on past the things I did in my past
[1:58 - 2:03] And it seems like this emptiness always running away
[2:03 - 2:09] It doesn't ever wanna last, all it wants to do is bring my past
[2:09 - 2:13] Take the hold of me every single day
[2:13 - 2:20] Deep inside, always feeling like I'm being knocked away inside a broken cage
[2:20 - 2:28] Everybody in society judging me, staring at me for the things they don't know
[2:28 - 2:34] But they don't really understand what it's like to be me
[2:34 - 2:39] They don't understand the life that I live every fucking day
[2:39 - 2:46] It really seems like this pain really wants to pull me in the grave
[2:46 - 2:50] And I just wish I could get my normal life back
[2:50 - 2:54] I never wanted any of this pain
[2:54 - 3:01] I just wanted people to understand what it's like to be me
[3:01 - 3:06] They went with the same society every fucking day
[3:06 - 3:11] Got so many people judging me for everything that I say
[3:11 - 3:18] And I just don't understand what is it that nobody can hear the sign that screams
[3:18 - 3:22] All the pain I give like being on the smile
[3:22 - 3:30] But really I'm scared deep inside wanting it all to go away
[3:30 - 3:35] And I just want to heal for no one in the end everything will be okay