2021-12-15 ANTI SUICIDE / BULLYING AWARENESS

[0:00 - 0:28] What's up, guys?
[0:28 - 0:49] Now, yesterday, with everything that happened, and seeing some of you assholes in the comments,
[0:49 - 1:02] since a lot of you want to sit there and make jokes about suicide and how funny bullying
[1:02 - 1:07] someone the suicide is, I figured I would give you all a crash course and show you what
[1:07 - 1:10] it's like on the other side.
[1:10 - 1:18] To show you what it's like on my side and Croella's side of exactly what it is that
[1:18 - 1:28] you guys do, and how what you guys do with the bully, how that affects us, and how that's
[1:28 - 1:30] pushed people like me to the edge.
[1:58 - 2:00] I can't hide from the pain.
[2:58 - 3:08] I miss the times when I could go outside, I didn't have to watch my back out of the corner
[3:08 - 3:13] on my eye, I didn't have to fake a smile and post for pictures all the time, I'd even
[3:13 - 3:16] lie, miss when time was really mine.
[3:16 - 3:21] Now I just belong to everybody else but me, these panic attacks are making an awful hard
[3:21 - 3:25] to breathe, built a vocal burp inside the crib and stop making beats, don't leave a
[3:25 - 3:27] rapist in the side of it to scream.
[3:55 - 4:05] I can't reach further, the time, the heart, just let me in the middle of the night.
[4:05 - 4:10] Now I just belong to everybody else but me, these panic attacks are making an awful hard
[4:10 - 4:13] to breathe, built a vocal burp inside the crib and stop making beats, don't leave a
[4:13 - 4:16] I can't reach further, the time, the heart, just let me in the middle of the night.
[4:17 - 4:22] When I go outside, I don't have to watch the big children go, I see me fly, I see me go, I see me go, I see me go, I see me go.
[4:22 - 4:33] Now I just belong to everybody else, but me, these panic attacks are making an awful hard to breathe, built a vocal burp inside the crib and stop making beats, don't leave a
[4:33 - 4:40] I hate it's being accepted. I'm scared of it. I got out of hand separate Xannis and Sarah book in the Tupperware container
[4:40 - 4:44] I don't get it. Yeah, we're up bring the next your size is supposed to help me to cope
[4:44 - 4:48] But nothing works quite as good as a bottle of Jack in a smoke
[4:48 - 4:54] I try to focus on my breath, but it gets stuck in my throat. It's never happened back when I was young and happy and broke
[5:03 - 5:15] Yeah, why are you doing business? Why are y'all trying to lie to me? I'm bored of this thing. Every time it feels fresh again, I'm getting more and the same. Interviewers think they know who I am. They've been up their minds before I explain. Well, because you're so nice, I guess I'll tell.
[5:15 - 5:24] You've been feeling too hot lately, Jim. Is there anything else crazy lately? Every day I feel like I'm bringing hell. I'm glad the music helps you, but I might really kill myself.
[5:24 - 5:31] When this magazine gets printed, can you send one to my house? I'd like to hold a tiny piece of me like everyone else.
[6:33 - 6:35] Thank you.
[8:33 - 8:38] Time to go, time to go, see the things that you say that you know
[8:38 - 8:47] Time to shift, time to be free, be open, get your hands on the camera
[8:47 - 8:57] Time to go, time to go, I'm bored of this thing. Every time I feel like I'm bringing hell. I'm bored of this thing.
[9:27 - 9:32] Time to go, time to go, see the things that you say that you know
[9:32 - 9:42] Time to shift, time to be free, be open, get your hands on the camera
[9:42 - 9:50] Time to shift, time to be free, be open, get your hands on the camera
[10:20 - 10:29] what you fucking do, how do you think we feel? When you guys sit there and you bully people
[10:29 - 10:37] like me the way that you do, how do you think that makes us feel? How do you think that
[10:37 - 10:53] fucking makes us feel? You know what I tell you right now, there's a lot of people out
[10:53 - 10:57] there like myself that get going and push a suicide every fucking day.
[11:07 - 11:26] People like that, we don't deserve that. No one deserves to get pushed to that point.
[11:26 - 11:32] No one. I don't care who you are. I don't care what mistakes you've made, what things
[11:32 - 11:39] you've done wrong. No one deserves to get bullied to the point of suicide ever.
[11:39 - 11:53] Now if you are like me and you are one of those people that have been bullied, I want you to take
[11:53 - 12:01] a listen to this song and keep in mind that you being where you're at, even though these
[12:01 - 12:07] people are telling you that it's your fault, I want you to remember one thing, it's not your fault.
[13:23 - 13:31] Now if you are like me and you are one of those people that have been bullied, I want you to
[13:31 - 13:38] remember one thing, it's not your fault. Now if you are like me and you are one of those
[13:38 - 13:45] people that have been bullied, I want you to remember one thing, it's not your fault.
[13:45 - 13:53] Now if you are like me and you are one of those people that have been bullied, I want you to
[13:53 - 14:00] remember one thing, it's not your fault. Now if you are like me and you are one of those
[14:00 - 14:10] people that have been bullied, I want you to remember one thing, it's not your fault.
[14:10 - 14:18] Now if you are like me and you are one of those people that have been bullied, I want you to
[14:18 - 14:26] remember one thing, it's not your fault. Now if you are like me and you are one of those
[14:26 - 14:34] people that have been bullied, I want you to remember one thing, it's not your fault.
[14:34 - 14:42] Now if you are like me and you are one of those people that have been bullied, I want you to
[14:42 - 14:49] remember one thing, it's not your fault. Now if you are like me and you are one of those
[14:49 - 14:58] people that have been bullied, I want you to remember one thing, it's not your fault.
[14:58 - 15:06] Now if you are like me and you are one of those people that have been bullied, I want you to
[15:06 - 15:13] remember one thing, it's not your fault. Now if you are like me and you are one of those
[15:13 - 15:22] people that have been bullied, I want you to remember one thing, it's not your fault.
[15:22 - 15:30] Now if you are like me and you are one of those people that have been bullied, I want you to
[15:30 - 15:38] remember one thing, it's not your fault. Now if you are like me and you are one of those
[15:38 - 15:46] people that have been bullied, I want you to remember one thing, it's not your fault.
[15:46 - 15:56] That you being bullied, that's not your fault. That's not on you. If anything, it's these
[15:56 - 16:03] fucking assholes that don't have a fucking life. That fucking bully you guys, it puts
[16:03 - 16:10] you around. You're not a fault for what they do. So if you are being bullied, don't blame
[16:10 - 16:17] yourself. Blame these people that are fucking with you because you are not a fault. You
[16:17 - 16:28] didn't ask for that. No one ever asks to be bullied like that ever. No one ever asks to
[16:28 - 16:35] be pushed around and attacked and hated on.
[18:28 - 18:36] Nothing is wrong, it's not right, it's not right.
[18:37 - 18:43] Nothing is wrong, it's not right.
[18:43 - 18:46] Nothing is wrong.
[18:47 - 18:51] Nothing is wrong.
[19:21 - 19:26] see what I'm doing.
[19:26 - 19:29] Everybody here sees what I'm doing.
[19:29 - 19:31] That's everybody out there that might not know me.
[19:31 - 19:33] What's up?
[19:33 - 19:33] How are you?
[19:33 - 19:36] My name is Shads, or more commonly known
[19:36 - 19:41] by these awesome people over here in the chat, that's Syrah.
[19:41 - 19:44] Now, like a lot of you guys that get bullied,
[19:44 - 19:47] I get bullied every day just because of the way that I look.
[19:48 - 19:51] You can ask anybody.
[19:51 - 19:55] You can ask Charity, you can ask Chris Kay, you can ask anybody
[19:55 - 19:58] that knows me on a personal level like those two do.
[19:58 - 20:02] I get bullied every fucking day just because of how I look.
[20:02 - 20:07] And because of my past actions, where I'll flip out after being bullied,
[20:07 - 20:09] after being pushed and attacked.
[20:11 - 20:13] But you know what I do?
[20:14 - 20:17] I own that shit.
[20:17 - 20:19] I rock that shit.
[20:19 - 20:22] People want to bully me because of how I look?
[20:22 - 20:24] I don't care.
[20:24 - 20:28] Because at the end of the day, they don't know you
[20:28 - 20:31] the way that you know you.
[20:31 - 20:34] There's only one person that knows you better than anyone else
[20:34 - 20:36] and that's yourself.
[20:44 - 20:46] I hate you.
[20:46 - 20:48] I hate you.
[21:02 - 21:04] Introducing next.
[21:04 - 21:11] 10x miles of hotels and five that's miles on flights.
[21:11 - 21:18] but for those of you that are still stuck in that depression, like I was
[22:11 - 22:21] saying, I need to know how to tell you and how you're feeling.
[22:21 - 22:31] I can't tell you what I feel when you say you end up being tells you, so say it now.
[24:31 - 25:00] Now, there is what some of that want to do for you guys.
[25:00 - 25:17] That speaks on the very topic of how at the end of the day, we're all the same.
[25:17 - 25:37] Introducing is the cash offer the quick easy process because some of you trolls in the
[25:38 - 25:44] day, we're all the fucking same people.
[25:44 - 25:52] Yo snazzy, you're good man, no need man, you're good.
[25:52 - 25:58] Yo snazzy, here you can speak your mind and not be attacked by people.
[25:58 - 26:03] Because here we're here to help people, we're here to be there for those that need it.
[26:03 - 26:07] So here you're more than welcome to speak your mind dude, you're more than welcome.
[26:07 - 26:29] So please by all means speak your mind bro.
[26:29 - 26:37] Now this next song right here, I hope this song is a wake up call to all you guys that
[26:37 - 26:41] have either trolled me or bullied someone like me.
[26:41 - 26:47] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[26:47 - 26:50] people based on what they do or how they look.
[26:50 - 26:53] I hope this is a wake up call for you guys.
[27:20 - 27:27] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[27:27 - 27:30] people based on what they do or how they look.
[27:30 - 27:40] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[27:40 - 27:47] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[27:47 - 27:50] people based on what they do or how they look.
[27:50 - 28:00] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[28:00 - 28:07] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[28:07 - 28:10] people based on what they do or how they look.
[28:10 - 28:20] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[28:20 - 28:27] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[28:27 - 28:30] people based on what they do or how they look.
[28:30 - 28:40] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[28:40 - 28:47] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[28:47 - 28:50] people based on what they do or how they look.
[28:50 - 29:00] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[29:00 - 29:07] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[29:07 - 29:10] people based on what they do or how they look.
[29:10 - 29:20] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[29:20 - 29:27] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[29:27 - 29:31] people based on what they do or how they look.
[29:31 - 29:40] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[29:40 - 29:47] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[29:47 - 29:51] people based on what they do or how they look.
[29:51 - 30:00] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[30:00 - 30:07] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[30:07 - 30:11] people based on what they do or how they look.
[30:11 - 30:20] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[30:20 - 30:27] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[30:27 - 30:31] people based on what they do or how they look.
[30:31 - 30:38] So here we're here to help people, we're here to help people, we're here to help people
[30:38 - 30:44] I hope this is a wake up call for all you guys that are doing negative shit and judging other
[30:44 - 31:06] people based on what they do or how they look.
[31:06 - 31:09] I want to say that song can't be any more motherfucking true
[31:27 - 31:30] That song right there cannot be any more motherfucking true
[31:36 - 31:42] Because at the end of the day man, we are all the same inside I bleed red you guys bleed red
[31:42 - 31:44] We're all human at the end of the day
[31:45 - 31:47] so what I don't understand is
[31:48 - 31:55] Why bully someone based on their appearance what they have or don't have what they can or can't do
[31:57 - 31:59] Why bully someone like that
[32:06 - 32:08] You
[32:11 - 32:20] Can ask charity you guys script you can ask anyone if you don't know I was survivor of suicide two times over
[32:25 - 32:28] Both of them were attempted on this platform
[32:30 - 32:32] Just a mere eight months ago
[32:32 - 32:35] because of people like Massal reports and
[32:36 - 32:39] People like when Gory hold that push straight to that point
[32:47 - 32:53] And it wasn't until after the second attempt when I was sitting there in my room balling my eyes out that I fucking realized
[32:55 - 33:00] That I could either let these people continue to drag me down and
[33:01 - 33:06] And ruin my life and destroy me and make me crumble or I can get the fuck back up
[33:07 - 33:09] And I could fight back
[33:10 - 33:13] Now I know I'm not able to stop it entirely
[33:14 - 33:20] But if I can help you in just one person at the end of the day, then I'm happy that I'm doing my job as a person I
[33:20 - 33:26] Don't care if I help one person two people or a hundred thousand people at the end of the day
[33:26 - 33:28] If I can help you in just one person
[33:29 - 33:36] Get through whatever it is. They're going through whether it be talking them down from suicide whether the
[33:37 - 33:40] And here to let's do a shoulder to lean on a friend
[33:41 - 33:44] So I need to talk to you then I'm gonna do that
[33:45 - 33:49] Regards of what you chose saying me regards of what you think of me
[33:49 - 33:51] Because
[33:55 - 34:01] At the end of the day, I don't give a fuck about you negative asshole comment
[34:01 - 34:05] Sayers that do this shit every fucking day with people like me
[34:06 - 34:10] What matters to me is helping people like myself that get attacked
[34:10 - 34:20] See you troll said that you think that you can just walk all over me, right?
[34:23 - 34:26] Well, I have a song that says different
[34:40 - 34:42] I
[34:54 - 34:57] Have a song here that very much says different
[35:01 - 35:08] But before I get into that song I want to get into another one for you guys and this song
[35:09 - 35:14] It's not only my cry out for you guys that are on the edge and that are being bullied and that are being attacked
[35:15 - 35:17] Isn't it just my cry for you guys?
[35:18 - 35:23] This is a cry from the entire nation to not take your life. So if you are there
[35:25 - 35:27] Just put down whatever it is
[35:27 - 35:32] Whether it's a razor a knife or whatever that thing maybe please
[35:33 - 35:35] put it down for
[35:38 - 35:41] Just four minutes and take a listen
[35:48 - 35:50] And so I ask
[36:08 - 36:10] I
[36:38 - 36:40] Really
[37:38 - 37:40] Breathing in time!
[37:40 - 37:42] Don't you doubt!
[37:42 - 37:46] You!
[37:48 - 37:50] Time out now!
[37:50 - 37:54] Time out now!
[37:58 - 38:00] Show you the new pretentions
[38:00 - 38:02] How you can
[38:02 - 38:04] FASTER ALL!
[38:04 - 38:06] We won't be so scared
[38:06 - 38:08] Don't you doubt!
[38:08 - 38:10] Take me out with me now!
[38:14 - 38:16] We are the beating and
[38:16 - 38:18] Plays the song!
[38:24 - 38:26] We're gonna be so so real
[38:26 - 38:28] So so real!
[38:32 - 38:34] We are the beating and
[38:34 - 38:36] Plays the song!
[38:42 - 38:44] We are the beating and
[38:44 - 38:46] Plays the song!
[38:52 - 38:54] We are the beating and
[38:54 - 38:56] Plays the song!
[39:04 - 39:06] Accept that betrayal
[39:06 - 39:08] You are gonna be so mad
[39:08 - 39:10] Don't you doubt!
[39:12 - 39:14] Take me out with me now!
[39:14 - 39:16] Please.
[39:16 - 39:18] You are the beating and
[39:18 - 39:20] Plays the song!
[39:26 - 39:30] How you can
[39:30 - 39:32] FASTER ALL!
[39:34 - 39:36] I'm sorry.
[39:36 - 39:42] Like I said, I'm sorry.
[39:42 - 39:44] I'm sorry.
[39:44 - 39:46] I'm sorry.
[39:46 - 39:48] I've been a fool.
[39:48 - 39:50] I'm sorry.
[39:50 - 39:52] I've been a fool.
[39:52 - 39:54] I'm sorry.
[39:54 - 39:55] I'm sorry.
[39:55 - 40:11] That is true. It truly has, Chris. He's right about that.
[40:11 - 40:15] Chris, does anyone write about that, dude?
[40:15 - 40:25] Chris is very right about that. And a lot of them have fallen into that trolling aspect.
[40:25 - 40:36] Which is sad. It sucks. That is true.
[40:36 - 40:42] It definitely does suck to see a lot of them go down that road.
[40:42 - 40:55] But, like I said, I know a lot of people are probably sitting there laughing, cracking jokes, you know, blah blah blah, whatever.
[40:55 - 41:00] You know, everybody can sit there and crack jokes, whatever, you know.
[41:00 - 41:11] But at the end of the day, if I can inspire somebody, if I can help someone, that's all that matters.
[41:11 - 41:17] That is true. We did. That is very true. Everybody, it was just the other night, in fact.
[41:17 - 41:24] It was just the other night that me and you sat down. We had a long-ass, well, like two or three hour conversation about shit.
[41:42 - 41:46] Like for real, dude. And people can change, you know?
[41:46 - 41:52] And I know the old saying, want to troll, always troll. That's not necessarily true.
[41:52 - 42:00] Matter of fact, if you ask me, Crypt is breaking that stereotype of that saying of want to troll, always troll.
[42:00 - 42:10] Crypt is actually breaking that stereotype. He's taking that stereotype and breaking it down and proving that stereotype wrong.
[42:11 - 42:14] So, good on you for that one, man.
[42:23 - 42:27] That is true. Skull is doing the same thing. I forgot about that.
[42:31 - 42:35] And Dark Ninja, hmm, never.
[42:36 - 42:40] Because one, I never agreed to it, so.
[42:40 - 42:45] Ain't gonna happen. Sorry, bro.
[42:50 - 42:55] And I know what a lot of people are saying, oh, your word in the 43 shirt, ha, ha, ha.
[42:55 - 42:59] You must be crazy. Well, bro, you can ask people like Crypt K.
[42:59 - 43:09] In order to make it on YouTube, in order to make it in music or whatever it is you're gonna do on this platform, you gotta be a little bit crazy.
[43:09 - 43:14] You gotta be willing to stand out and be a little bit crazy to get to where you need to be.
[43:14 - 43:34] Exactly, Crypt. Exactly, bro. And he's done it too. He proves people wrong all the fucking time, which I love. I love seeing that shit.
[43:45 - 43:46] Okay.
[44:02 - 44:08] And so, for all you fucking trolls out there, they're doing what you're doing.
[44:08 - 44:19] I want you to do something. I want you to take a step back and play yourself and the other person's shoes for a minute.
[44:19 - 44:25] Okay? I want you to play yourself and the other person's shoes for just a moment.
[44:25 - 44:35] And take a look at the world through their eyes. Take a look at the world through their eyes and what they're dealing with and what they go through.
[44:36 - 44:44] I want you to do that. Next time you go to bully someone or harass someone, I want you to take a look at the world through their eyes.
[44:44 - 44:48] Play yourself in their shoes.
[44:48 - 44:53] Because maybe then you'll see things a little bit differently.
[44:53 - 45:02] I can promise you that. You take a step out of your own self and you put yourself in the position of that person.
[45:02 - 45:07] And you try to look at the world through their eyes. I guarantee you.
[45:07 - 45:13] You'll see things a lot differently.
[45:13 - 45:21] Yo cowboy, Jess, what's up?
[45:21 - 45:26] Exactly, chill. Exactly.
[45:26 - 45:28] She's right on that.
[45:28 - 45:31] She's dead-ass right on that shit.
[45:31 - 45:53] She's dead-ass right on that shit.
[45:53 - 45:55] Can I tell you something, man?
[45:55 - 45:59] When I started music, actually, let me go back a bit.
[45:59 - 46:09] If you were to tell me two, three years ago that I would pretty much become a household name totally by accident.
[46:09 - 46:12] I would watch you like you're crazy.
[46:12 - 46:16] I pretty much became a household name by accident.
[46:16 - 46:21] I didn't even mean for it to go the way that I did, but it did.
[46:21 - 46:24] Did it happen in the wrong way?
[46:24 - 46:27] To a certain extent, yes.
[46:27 - 46:34] To a certain extent, it did happen in the wrong way, but at the end of the day, it still fucking happened.
[46:34 - 46:39] I might not have millions of dollars. I might not be getting paid by YouTube yet.
[46:39 - 46:44] Yeah, I may be working my way back up to where I was.
[46:44 - 46:48] But at the end of the day, I enjoy the hard work.
[46:48 - 46:52] I enjoy being in the trenches. I enjoy getting my hands dirty.
[46:52 - 46:57] I enjoy doing the work that I need to do to get back up there.
[46:57 - 47:04] See, a lot of people want success without the hard work.
[47:04 - 47:08] A lot of people want to garner that success that everybody else has,
[47:08 - 47:13] but they don't want to put in the time and the effort and the work to get there.
[47:13 - 47:19] But me, I love the hard work because every day when I wake up, I get to do what I love.
[47:19 - 47:27] I get to help people. I get to entertain people. I get to do what I love and enjoy it.
[47:43 - 48:01] Now, I know, you know, a lot of people do judge me because I'm not living on my own
[48:01 - 48:05] or I'm not doing this or I'm not doing that.
[48:05 - 48:08] Dude, I don't care about any of that.
[48:09 - 48:16] You know what the first thing I think about when I wake up is?
[48:16 - 48:20] The first thing I think about when I wake up every day is this.
[48:20 - 48:28] What can I do to help my people?
[48:28 - 48:36] What can I do to not only better myself, but what can I do to help my fan base
[48:37 - 48:41] and give my fan base something that they don't already have?
[48:41 - 48:46] What can I do to push my fan base that much further?
[48:46 - 48:54] What can I do to build an even bigger and better community than what I did yesterday?
[48:54 - 49:01] What can I do to help the next man that might not be so lucky
[49:01 - 49:05] and might not be so fortunate to have good friends around?
[49:05 - 49:10] What can I do to help that person that might need it?
[49:10 - 49:16] Those are the exact thoughts that go through my head every fucking day.
[49:16 - 49:27] And I said, yeah, I may have raged out many times in the past, but that was in the past.
[49:27 - 49:35] All I'm worried about is the here and the now.
[49:35 - 49:41] See, I don't pay attention to what the trolls say anymore.
[49:41 - 49:45] Ask Grimp, he'll tell you.
[49:45 - 49:51] I don't pay attention to that garbage because all that shit is is garbage.
[49:51 - 49:55] That's all it is.
[49:55 - 50:02] You ever read the newspaper and you read an article as complete trash?
[50:02 - 50:07] Well, that to me is what it is. It's garbage.
[50:11 - 50:16] Yeah, Shaynes, what's up?
[50:16 - 50:19] But that to me is exactly what the trolls are.
[50:19 - 50:25] They're like the fucking gossip newspapers that you see in the store sitting up on that shelf.
[50:25 - 50:32] There's all newspapers that nobody really reads as little booklets about gossip and garbage.
[50:32 - 50:36] There's all the booklets that are that big that nobody really reads.
[50:36 - 50:40] That's what that is to me.
[50:40 - 50:43] That's all the trolls are to me.
[50:43 - 50:51] There's all those little fucking gossip booklets that you see on the racks about certain stars, you know.
[50:51 - 50:53] Oh, this person cheated on this person.
[50:53 - 50:57] So now they're over here doing this or this person did this.
[50:57 - 51:00] So this might happen.
[51:00 - 51:02] That to me is what the trolls are.
[51:02 - 51:07] I don't hate any mind anymore like I used to.
[51:14 - 51:19] And honestly, I have a large part of me that is like that now.
[51:19 - 51:24] A large part of it, I owe the chillaxe here.
[51:24 - 51:27] A large part of it, I owe the chill.
[51:27 - 51:32] Because she was the one that showed me that, hey, I don't need to be doing this shit.
[51:32 - 51:36] Granted, it took a while, but it still happened.
[51:36 - 51:40] And it's taken a while, but hey, it still fucking happened at the end of the day.
[51:40 - 51:44] It still happened and it fucking worked.
[51:55 - 52:00] And as a result, I have a stronger mind than what I used to.
[52:01 - 52:06] Hey, Cross, thanks man.
[52:06 - 52:08] I appreciate it.
[52:08 - 52:12] And ironically, I didn't buy this a fucking fan made this shit, I guess.
[52:12 - 52:18] I don't know if it was supposed to be a troll, but it worked.
[52:18 - 52:24] I'm guessing somebody was supposed to be a troll, but I turned it into something dope.
[52:24 - 52:31] Because, you know, for me, in order to make it into music,
[52:31 - 52:37] or to do anything that you're doing like I do, you gotta be a little bit crazy.
[52:40 - 52:46] You gotta be a little bit out there to actually do something significant.
[52:54 - 52:59] I was just kidding, I'm sorry.
[53:24 - 53:27] I'm just kidding.
[53:49 - 53:53] Now, for those that might not know,
[53:53 - 53:56] I actually am an army brat.
[53:56 - 54:00] For those that don't know, my dad was actually a military.
[54:00 - 54:06] He was a second Airborne Division, United States Army Staff Sergeant.
[54:06 - 54:13] He served for many years up till I was about 12 years old when he retired.
[54:13 - 54:16] So I've seen a lot of shit.
[54:16 - 54:18] I've seen a lot of deployments.
[54:18 - 54:20] I mean, I had to deal with deployments.
[54:20 - 54:24] And let me tell you, it's not easy dealing with deployments.
[54:24 - 54:28] It's very hard.
[54:28 - 54:35] And I know that a lot of troops don't get to, you know, make it home for Christmas or whatever.
[54:35 - 54:41] And I feel like they don't understand what it's like to go through deployments and stuff.
[54:41 - 54:45] So I do want to give a huge shout out to Red Collar One Music Group,
[54:45 - 54:47] who are actually a very nice group of guys.
[54:47 - 54:49] I actually know them all personally.
[54:49 - 54:52] I know Jeff Barallero, AKA Soldier Hard.
[54:52 - 54:57] He's a very good friend of mine, so shout out to Soldier Hard. What's up, man?
[54:57 - 55:00] Shout out to everybody on Red Collar One Music Group.
[55:00 - 55:04] But for those of you that don't know what the deployments are like,
[55:04 - 55:07] hopefully it's kind of shed a little bit of light on it for you guys.
[55:07 - 55:11] I want you to shout out to Stephen Hobbs on this one, man.
[55:12 - 55:15] Man.
[55:15 - 55:18] I ain't trying to go, man.
[55:18 - 55:21] But I got to go.
[55:21 - 55:23] I got to.
[55:23 - 55:25] Red Collar One Music Group.
[55:25 - 55:26] Yeah.
[55:26 - 55:29] I ain't got any pain shaking, I'm so nervous.
[55:29 - 55:32] I don't want to stir because I got to leave the room and can't show it.
[55:32 - 55:35] I ain't had anything to leave the room and we all know it.
[55:35 - 55:38] I see my family behind me, but I keep going.
[55:39 - 55:42] I ain't got my own way to go.
[55:42 - 55:44] I ain't trying to go, man.
[55:44 - 55:47] But I got to go.
[55:47 - 55:50] I ain't trying to go.
[55:50 - 55:53] I ain't got anything to leave the room and we all know it.
[55:53 - 55:56] I ain't got anything to leave the room and we all know it.
[55:56 - 56:07] I don't want to stir because I got to leave the room and we all know it.
[56:37 - 56:39] They all be home soon.
[56:39 - 56:40] See you soon, get it, get it, get it, get it,
[56:40 - 56:41] see you until June.
[56:41 - 56:45] Okay, so you gonna be with the boy, man.
[56:45 - 56:48] You gonna turn it on my last, you gonna join me.
[56:48 - 56:51] I like to hit with my right, hold it in the hands.
[56:51 - 56:53] I feel it like the thing I'm holding right now
[56:53 - 56:55] is the same man.
[56:55 - 56:58] But it's all right, I know I'll be just fine.
[56:58 - 57:01] The back, I'm with the heels, rewind.
[57:01 - 57:02] I keep my eyes on the tire,
[57:02 - 57:04] I leave my mind on the mission.
[57:04 - 57:05] This is where I'm getting,
[57:05 - 57:07] I read what I'm reading.
[57:07 - 57:09] Go away from here, it's in the door,
[57:09 - 57:10] and I'm in the transition.
[57:10 - 57:13] I would have nothing if it was being from a politician's position.
[57:13 - 57:16] They act like we ain't doing them a favor.
[57:16 - 57:19] Even though we're countrymen with no sense of savior.
[57:19 - 57:22] Then they try to ocean for a little bit of behavior.
[57:22 - 57:25] They think of a little dirt to make you out to be a failure.
[57:25 - 57:29] I say they ain't right, so I'm just going for a mission.
[57:29 - 57:30] I live and live and die.
[57:30 - 57:32] I've got to contact the mortician.
[57:32 - 57:33] Yeah.
[57:33 - 57:36] Ready to roll, rub, shake, back, side.
[57:36 - 57:37] Cry so little, I'm gonna drive.
[57:37 - 57:39] Go on, baby, am I right?
[57:39 - 57:40] Sometimes, because I'm ready.
[57:40 - 57:42] Yeah, I'm trying to get on this bike.
[57:42 - 57:45] But I know I got a roll tonight.
[57:45 - 57:47] The hardest part of the story,
[57:47 - 57:48] when it's time to roll out.
[57:48 - 57:50] And he's trying to live it right.
[57:50 - 57:52] Well, it gives me a shout.
[57:52 - 57:55] This is where I can still be home soon.
[57:55 - 57:57] So your friends should get it, get it,
[57:57 - 57:58] get it, stand till soon.
[57:58 - 58:00] Yes.
[58:00 - 58:03] I try to tell when they were ready for this, though.
[58:03 - 58:08] Where it come from, the born man.
[58:08 - 58:11] You can even give it to get love if you did.
[58:11 - 58:14] This is where it comes from, from the heart.
[58:14 - 58:16] You know what I'm saying?
[58:16 - 58:23] You ain't feeling this, what we ain't feeling you by now.
[58:23 - 58:24] Yeah.
[58:33 - 58:38] This is where I am.
[58:38 - 58:41] This is definitely for our troops, man.
[58:41 - 58:44] Probably all that I've made at home.
[58:44 - 58:48] To all the troops that I've made at home this year, man.
[58:48 - 58:51] I want to say thank you to everyone out there that has
[58:51 - 58:54] family or friends that are in the military, man.
[58:54 - 58:58] Or if any of you in the chat right now are our military.
[58:58 - 59:01] First off, to those that do have friends
[59:01 - 59:03] that are in the military.
[59:03 - 59:05] I want you to walk up to them and tell them
[59:05 - 59:07] that I said thank you for everything they've done.
[59:07 - 59:09] From one military family to another, man.
[59:09 - 59:11] Your guys sacrifice means a lot.
[59:11 - 59:13] It really does.
[59:13 - 59:17] Because it allows people like me to do what I do.
[59:17 - 59:21] And for y'all that are military that are in the chat right now,
[59:21 - 59:24] you know I gotta pop the story one time for y'all, man.
[59:24 - 59:28] Because y'all sacrifice so fucking much at the end of the day.
[59:28 - 59:33] But yet y'all don't really get no love that you guys
[59:33 - 59:35] deserve when you get home.
[59:38 - 59:41] So this one right here is for you guys.
[59:42 - 59:44] Yeah, yeah.
[59:57 - 59:59] What is that?
[60:11 - 60:13] What is that?
[60:41 - 60:43] What is that?
[61:11 - 61:13] Yeah, 40 to the toy in the days.
[61:13 - 61:16] I'm a buddy in the freedom in the American way.
[61:16 - 61:18] I'm a warrior.
[61:18 - 61:20] In the American warrior.
[61:20 - 61:21] I'm a warrior.
[61:21 - 61:23] In the American warrior.
[61:23 - 61:26] I'm looking in for the women and service men.
[61:26 - 61:28] I came prepared and brought my camera.
[61:28 - 61:30] ESPN, yeah.
[61:30 - 61:33] Ground magazine, fully loaded.
[61:33 - 61:34] Yes and on the beat.
[61:34 - 61:36] I said my clothes so dirty like it makes.
[61:36 - 61:39] And it cracks up like a bad husband.
[61:39 - 61:41] It's like I'm being licked by the way.
[61:41 - 61:43] I keep the bam bustling.
[61:43 - 61:44] You got the outcome.
[61:44 - 61:45] The message from the kids.
[61:45 - 61:46] You can love it.
[61:46 - 61:47] I love it.
[61:47 - 61:49] But your freedom is still here.
[61:49 - 61:51] I don't even know.
[61:51 - 61:52] You always see the two of us.
[61:52 - 61:55] So I am for the game 16.
[61:55 - 61:56] Good for the money.
[61:56 - 61:58] Don't believe that.
[61:58 - 61:59] Who wants a fortnight?
[61:59 - 62:01] Kitty, we don't need that.
[62:01 - 62:02] Because you won't say no.
[62:02 - 62:04] I just want you free to stand in front.
[62:04 - 62:07] You can tell it to the tankers and the grunts.
[62:07 - 62:08] I bet you won't.
[62:08 - 62:11] You really don't realize how much we sacrifice.
[62:11 - 62:14] We do reason that you're sleeping good at night.
[62:14 - 62:15] Enough said.
[62:15 - 62:16] I'm just a warrior.
[62:16 - 62:17] A member of the team.
[62:17 - 62:19] A circle of people of the United States.
[62:19 - 62:20] It's about enemies.
[62:20 - 62:22] I will never accept defeat.
[62:22 - 62:24] I never quit trying.
[62:24 - 62:27] I never let a pillow come right far behind.
[62:27 - 62:30] I stand ready to deploy and engage.
[62:30 - 62:33] I'm a body and a freedom in the American way.
[62:33 - 62:35] I'm a warrior.
[62:35 - 62:37] In the American warrior.
[62:37 - 62:38] I'm a warrior.
[62:38 - 62:41] In the American warrior.
[63:07 - 63:14] I'm a soldier.
[63:14 - 63:17] A member of the team.
[63:17 - 63:19] A circle of people of the United States.
[63:19 - 63:22] I'm from Westie, American, warrior
[63:22 - 63:26] We never said hell, now we will bury others
[63:26 - 63:28] An honest old dumb American
[63:28 - 63:31] Mary went for the car, y'all know you said that
[63:31 - 63:34] I'm a soldier, warrior, a member of the team
[63:34 - 63:37] Certainly people of the United States, by any means
[63:37 - 63:39] I would never accept defeat
[63:39 - 63:41] I never quit trying
[63:41 - 63:44] I never let a fellow com rep out my eyes
[63:44 - 63:47] I stand ready to deploy any gauge
[63:47 - 63:50] I'm a guardian of freedom in the American way
[63:50 - 63:53] I'm a warrior, an American warrior
[63:53 - 63:57] I'm a warrior, an American warrior
[64:17 - 64:34] Now that song represents something very significant
[64:34 - 64:36] To a lot of people like myself
[64:36 - 64:39] Before I get into that, I want to give a huge shout out
[64:39 - 64:42] To people like Roman Atwood
[64:42 - 64:45] People like the homie Alex Hefner
[64:45 - 64:48] Who is up in here, a lot of shout out to the homie Alex
[64:48 - 64:51] It's good bro, I see you
[64:51 - 64:55] I want to give a huge shout out to all the channels out there
[64:55 - 64:58] That are putting out a positive message
[64:58 - 65:01] Behind what they do
[65:01 - 65:04] I love seeing these channels that
[65:04 - 65:06] Put out a positive message like
[65:06 - 65:10] Hell, take artists like Grace Neutral
[65:10 - 65:13] One of the weirdest looking tattoo artists on the planet do it
[65:13 - 65:16] Her work is fucking amazing man
[65:16 - 65:18] And she don't care what people think
[65:18 - 65:21] She has the wiser eyes, dying purple
[65:21 - 65:23] Has her belly button chopped off
[65:23 - 65:25] Has all kinds of crazy shit done to her
[65:25 - 65:28] But she's one of the coolest people you can ever meet in your life
[65:30 - 65:34] Like it's people like that that put out a good
[65:34 - 65:38] Positive message that I can respect
[65:39 - 65:43] Now, when my dad took that oath
[65:50 - 65:53] When my dad took that oath
[65:53 - 65:56] When he first joined the military
[65:56 - 65:59] When I finally started realizing
[65:59 - 66:01] What was going on as a kid
[66:01 - 66:03] And what people were doing to me
[66:03 - 66:06] I took that very same oath
[66:06 - 66:09] To help people like myself who get bullied
[66:09 - 66:11] Who get attacked every fucking day
[66:11 - 66:14] I took a very similar oath
[66:14 - 66:17] To help people like myself
[66:17 - 66:20] People who have been tossed aside
[66:20 - 66:23] Cast aside like they don't fucking matter
[66:27 - 66:30] Like if I can help even just one person
[66:30 - 66:32] At the end of the fucking day
[66:32 - 66:34] That's all I give a shit about
[66:34 - 66:37] I don't give a fuck about money
[66:37 - 66:39] Yeah, sure
[66:39 - 66:42] I'd love to be able to make a living off of what I do
[66:42 - 66:44] That'd be nice, who wouldn't like that
[66:44 - 66:47] But to me, money isn't as important
[66:47 - 66:50] As helping somebody
[66:50 - 66:53] Because money will come and go
[66:53 - 66:55] Money comes and goes
[66:55 - 66:58] Every day it comes and goes
[66:58 - 67:00] You can always find money
[67:00 - 67:02] But what you can't find
[67:02 - 67:05] So easily is human life
[67:05 - 67:06] You can't
[67:09 - 67:11] Replace a human life
[67:11 - 67:13] You can replace money
[67:13 - 67:16] Not sure you can replace money
[67:16 - 67:19] But what you can't replace is a human life
[67:19 - 67:22] A human life is priceless
[67:22 - 67:25] So what confuses me
[67:25 - 67:28] Is why so many people are negative
[67:28 - 67:31] And try to take those human lives away
[67:32 - 67:34] That's the one thing I've done
[67:34 - 67:37] That still just confuses the fuck out of me
[67:37 - 67:41] Is why push someone to suicide
[67:41 - 67:44] Why push someone to take their life
[67:44 - 67:47] Why take someone's life away from them
[67:47 - 67:50] I mean, we all talk about equality
[67:50 - 67:53] And being there for each other
[67:53 - 67:56] Shouldn't we be lifting each other up?
[67:56 - 67:59] Shouldn't we be helping each other out?
[68:02 - 68:04] Instead of tearing each other down
[68:04 - 68:06] Shouldn't we be lifting each other up
[68:06 - 68:08] And actually helping each other
[68:08 - 68:11] To make things better for people?
[68:16 - 68:18] I mean, I get it, I get it
[68:18 - 68:22] You know, society has to have that necessary evil
[68:22 - 68:23] I get that
[68:23 - 68:26] YouTube, music
[68:26 - 68:27] Same thing
[68:27 - 68:30] They all need to have that necessary evil
[68:30 - 68:34] Because without the light
[68:34 - 68:36] Darkness can't exist
[68:36 - 68:39] And without light
[68:39 - 68:41] Without darkness, light can't exist
[68:41 - 68:43] It's the same thing
[68:49 - 68:52] You know, I get there's that necessary evil
[68:55 - 68:58] You know, you can't have one without the other
[68:58 - 69:00] Instead
[69:00 - 69:02] But if I can help
[69:02 - 69:04] To
[69:04 - 69:07] Have someone not take their life
[69:07 - 69:10] Or I can help them from being bullied
[69:10 - 69:13] Or I can, you know, talk to them about
[69:13 - 69:15] Whatever it is they're going through
[69:15 - 69:18] That's all that fucking matters to me
[69:18 - 69:20] To me
[69:20 - 69:23] Money has no value
[69:23 - 69:24] It really doesn't
[69:24 - 69:27] To me, money has no value
[69:27 - 69:29] Not in the grand scheme of things
[69:29 - 69:31] In short term
[69:31 - 69:34] To help out my family, yeah
[69:34 - 69:39] But in the grand scheme of things for what I do
[69:39 - 69:42] I don't give a fuck about money
[69:42 - 69:44] What I give a fuck about
[69:44 - 69:48] Is helping people like myself
[69:48 - 69:50] That's all I care about
[69:50 - 69:52] And I know a lot of people are probably going to take this stream
[69:52 - 69:53] What they always do
[69:53 - 69:55] And chop it up
[69:55 - 69:57] And make fun of it and this and that
[69:57 - 69:59] And that's okay
[69:59 - 70:01] That is okay that they did that
[70:01 - 70:04] Because that just puts word out even more
[70:25 - 70:28] I want to turn this down just a little bit
[70:47 - 70:50] Oh, and as for the trolls that keep on telling me
[70:50 - 70:52] That I look ugly and weird
[70:52 - 70:55] And I'm like, I look like this dude from this movie
[70:55 - 70:58] All I gotta say to you guys is this
[70:58 - 71:01] Sign me up
[71:01 - 71:05] Find a horror film that I can play a creature in
[71:05 - 71:09] I'll do it, gladly
[71:09 - 71:11] No, seriously, I would
[71:11 - 71:14] I would gladly play a role in a horror film
[71:14 - 71:17] Like, get a hold of a company
[71:17 - 71:19] Reach out
[71:19 - 71:22] I'll do that shit no fucking problem
[71:49 - 71:51] I'll do that shit no more
[72:19 - 72:21] I'm sure it's good.
[75:49 - 75:59] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[76:19 - 76:29] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[76:49 - 77:09] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[77:09 - 77:29] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[77:29 - 77:49] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[77:49 - 78:05] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[78:05 - 78:25] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[78:25 - 78:45] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[78:45 - 79:05] I don't know what to do with this guy.
[79:05 - 79:09] Ha ha ha, very funny dude.
[79:09 - 79:35] Yeah, very funny dude. Ha ha ha.
[79:35 - 79:55] I don't know what to do with this guy, I don't know what to do with this guy.
[79:55 - 80:21] Ha ha ha.
[80:21 - 80:47] I don't know what to do with this guy.
[80:47 - 81:15] Ha ha ha.
[81:15 - 81:35] Ha ha ha.
[81:35 - 81:55] Yo, someone get this guy out of here.
[81:55 - 82:21] Ha ha ha.
[82:21 - 82:47] Ha ha ha.
[82:47 - 83:03] Ha ha ha.
[83:03 - 83:27] Nah, it's this little douchebag here in the comments, I got something for your ass, kid.
[83:27 - 83:49] Ha ha ha.
[83:49 - 84:15] Ha ha ha.
[84:15 - 84:41] Ha ha ha.
[84:41 - 85:07] Ha ha ha.
[85:07 - 85:33] Ha ha ha.
[85:33 - 85:59] Ha ha ha.
[85:59 - 86:27] Ha ha ha.
[86:27 - 86:55] Ha ha ha.
[86:55 - 87:23] Ha ha ha.
[87:23 - 87:51] Ha ha ha.
[87:51 - 88:17] Ha ha ha.
[88:17 - 88:41] Ha ha ha.
[88:41 - 89:03] Ha ha ha.
[89:03 - 89:31] Ha ha ha.
[89:31 - 89:59] Ha ha ha.
[89:59 - 90:27] Ha ha ha.
[90:27 - 90:55] Ha ha ha.
[90:55 - 91:23] Ha ha ha.
[91:23 - 91:49] Ha ha ha.
[91:49 - 92:17] Ha ha ha.
[92:17 - 92:45] Ha ha ha.
[92:45 - 93:01] Ha ha ha.
[93:01 - 93:15] Hey Yoda.
[93:15 - 93:19] One of my lifelong trolls right here.
[93:19 - 93:21] Not bad Jess.
[93:21 - 93:35] I'll mod you and I'll let you do the honors of kicking this guy.
[93:35 - 94:03] Would you like to do the honors one man?
[94:03 - 94:22] Also, I do want to give a huge shout out, right quick, to Miss Starvitz whose birthday
[94:22 - 94:23] was yesterday.
[94:23 - 94:29] So massive, massive fucking shout out to Miss Starvitz man, happy 20th birthday.
[94:29 - 94:46] Hope you had a good one by the way.
[94:46 - 94:52] And also in case you guys didn't know, your boy is bringing back the coffee and chill
[94:52 - 94:56] streams starting here in just a little bit in my next stream.
[94:56 - 95:02] Coffee and chill, hanging out with you guys here in the chat, kicking it, having fun man
[95:02 - 95:04] with doing some coffee and chill streams again.
[95:04 - 95:09] I know your boy Crypt K on there who may or may not be asleep, I don't know.
[95:09 - 95:12] But if you ate, it was good.
[95:12 - 95:14] I am bringing back the coffee and chill streams.
[95:14 - 95:18] If you guys are new to it, trust me, you guys will pick up on it.
[95:18 - 95:20] It's a lot of fun.
[95:20 - 95:22] So hopefully you guys do enjoy it.
[95:22 - 95:27] And yeah, I'll see you guys in the next stream.
[95:27 - 95:28] Just let them in man.
[95:28 - 95:30] Hopefully you guys did enjoy this.
[95:30 - 95:32] Hopefully you guys got something out of it.
[95:32 - 95:35] If you did, that's awesome.
[95:35 - 95:37] Hopefully I helped some of you guys out.
[95:37 - 95:42] Hopefully I was able to, you know, help you guys forget about whatever bullshit you guys
[95:42 - 95:45] are going through because trust me, I know what it's like to go through the bullshit.
[95:45 - 95:46] I've dealt with it.
[95:46 - 95:47] I know.
[95:47 - 95:49] Trust me, it sucks.
[95:49 - 95:54] So yeah.
[95:54 - 95:57] With that being said, y'all, I fucking love you guys.
[95:57 - 96:00] I'll catch you guys in the next video here just a little bit.
[96:00 - 96:02] About to do a coffee and chill.
[96:02 - 96:04] Might play some fours or might play something else.
[96:04 - 96:05] I don't know.
[96:05 - 96:06] I'll figure something out.
[96:06 - 96:09] But I'll catch you guys in the next video man.
[96:09 - 96:10] I fucking love you guys.
[96:10 - 96:12] Remember to stay humble, stay positive.
[96:12 - 96:13] Keep being yourself.
[96:13 - 96:15] Keep being awesome.
[96:15 - 96:16] And fuck the trolls.
[96:16 - 96:18] And fuck bullying and suicide man.
[96:18 - 96:19] Peace.
[96:19 - 96:27] Oh, and all my artists out there, whether you do music or art work or whatever it is
[96:27 - 96:29] you do, stay creative and I keep doing you.