2021-10-21 MY FINAL GOODBYE

[0:35 - 0:47] You know, over the last few days and even the last several months, I've been seriously
[0:49 - 0:51] seriously debating
[0:52 - 0:54] On what is best
[0:55 - 1:17] For me, what's best for my family and the best for those around me, and it's not that I'm leaving again
[1:17 - 1:21] I'm
[1:21 - 1:29] Actually leaving for good and this is not a joke. This is
[1:29 - 1:31] serious. I
[1:31 - 1:40] Am leaving for good. It's not that I want to
[1:41 - 1:55] but I have no choice a little over seven months ago was
[1:56 - 2:05] Trouled into doing something that I should not have done and I was wrong in doing so
[2:05 - 2:10] But ever since then I've been harassed. I
[2:11 - 2:19] Have been bullied
[2:19 - 2:21] completely and utterly humiliated
[2:24 - 2:26] through websites
[2:26 - 2:27] such
[2:27 - 2:33] the websites
[2:33 - 2:35] such as Kiwi Farms, I
[2:37 - 2:40] Have been humiliated on live streams time and time again
[2:44 - 2:46] Honestly
[2:46 - 2:54] To my fans my real fans the few that do support me and do enjoy what I was doing
[2:56 - 2:58] I
[2:58 - 3:01] Want to say thank you
[3:01 - 3:03] Because you guys have given me the best
[3:04 - 3:08] In years of my life and I appreciate them
[3:08 - 3:13] I appreciate all the love and support that everybody has shown me
[3:13 - 3:17] but
[3:17 - 3:19] giving the situation on here I
[3:21 - 3:23] feel like it's
[3:23 - 3:27] Better for my well-being and my family if I
[3:28 - 3:30] step away and
[3:30 - 3:32] I focus on myself
[3:37 - 3:44] Because tonight I spoke with a very dear friend of mine that I'm not spoken in a very long that I'm not spoken to a
[3:48 - 3:50] very very long time
[3:50 - 4:03] This individual has offered me a real chance at making very real money
[4:04 - 4:06] Doing what I enjoy doing
[4:13 - 4:15] Honestly, I feel
[4:15 - 4:19] Like I need to take that opportunity
[4:19 - 4:34] I feel like I need to take that opportunity and run with it and I know a lot of you are gonna say like oh you're being a coward and
[4:35 - 4:41] You know running away and this and that and the truth is to you I might be
[4:41 - 4:51] But in all reality, I would rather sacrifice my channel
[4:54 - 4:57] Than to sit here and continue to be bullied and
[4:58 - 5:01] To continue to be harassed. I
[5:04 - 5:08] Would rather sacrifice my channel and
[5:11 - 5:13] Sacrifice my YouTube career
[5:13 - 5:15] Then to sit here and be bullied anymore
[5:16 - 5:24] Because I know what everyone wants to see they want to see me locked up
[5:24 - 5:28] they want to see me put in prison and
[5:33 - 5:34] one
[5:34 - 5:35] trick
[5:35 - 5:38] To the art of war. You guys
[5:38 - 5:40] Let me put it to you like this
[5:40 - 5:52] Let me put it to you like this
[5:52 - 6:04] Have you guys ever played for those of you that have ever played call of duty, you know how when
[6:05 - 6:07] You get shot down and
[6:07 - 6:10] Before somebody can you know kill you
[6:11 - 6:13] You take yourself
[6:14 - 6:17] Like how you kill yourself before
[6:18 - 6:20] You know you can
[6:21 - 6:41] Get killed by the other guy. Well, that's what I'm doing. I would rather sacrifice my channel
[6:42 - 6:48] And sacrifice my career as a youtuber
[6:49 - 6:51] then to let anyone
[6:52 - 6:54] continue to harass me or
[6:56 - 6:59] Bullying me. I would rather
[7:00 - 7:01] sacrifice
[7:01 - 7:03] my channel and save
[7:04 - 7:11] Myself the harassment and the bullying because for seven seven months
[7:13 - 7:16] For two years and seven months. I've been harassed
[7:17 - 7:19] I've been bullied
[7:20 - 7:21] I've been picked on
[7:21 - 7:29] I've been made out to be a monster that I'm not and honestly, I'm tired of it. I
[7:30 - 7:32] Am genuinely tired of
[7:35 - 7:40] Having to spend more time defending my content than actually creating it
[7:46 - 8:06] Honestly, you guys can say what you want about me. I don't care anymore. I really do not
[8:07 - 8:09] Care anymore
[8:09 - 8:24] What you people say all I know is that I am tired of being
[8:25 - 8:26] bullied
[8:26 - 8:35] I'm tired of being picked on. I'm tired of being harassed. I've never asked for it and
[8:35 - 8:42] I don't deserve it. I do not deserve the harassment
[8:42 - 9:01] But there are a few people that I would like to point out that I would like to say thank you to
[9:03 - 9:07] Before I leave I would actually like to say thank you to a few people
[9:08 - 9:13] I'd like to say thank you to my homie and good friend
[9:14 - 9:20] Ludi ninja. I don't want to say thank you for all the fun times, man
[9:20 - 9:24] Like all the times that I was on your panel. It was a lot of fun
[9:25 - 9:33] I'd like to say thank you to actual
[9:33 - 9:37] not the actual that was
[9:38 - 9:39] trying to
[9:39 - 9:43] Get me to get help with the other actual
[9:44 - 9:46] I
[9:46 - 9:50] Like to say thank you for being there some of the literally day one
[9:51 - 9:53] for all these years
[9:53 - 10:05] I do appreciate it. I'd like to say thank you to Angela
[10:05 - 10:08] to
[10:08 - 10:13] I'd like to say thank you to Courtney
[10:15 - 10:17] For being such an awesome fucking friend
[10:17 - 10:29] I'd like to say thank you to Crick K for trying to help guide me in the right direction
[10:29 - 10:31] As much as you could
[10:31 - 10:40] I'd like to say thank you to my boy Clint over seas who's one of my closest friends
[10:40 - 10:56] For doing all you could to help me. I'd like to say thank you to town scout for being such an awesome dude and
[10:57 - 11:08] Actually being a cool guy. I'd like to say thank you to sarin for being an amazing mom
[11:08 - 11:09] I
[11:09 - 11:13] Appreciate everything you've done sarin like I can't thank you enough
[11:13 - 11:19] Like I really cannot thank you enough like you've done a lot for me
[11:19 - 11:37] I'd like to say thank you to everybody who
[11:38 - 11:41] Actually was a real supporter and was not being fake
[11:41 - 11:49] To everybody that supported me. I'd like to say thank you for
[11:52 - 11:55] For not being fake and actually trying to help me
[12:07 - 12:10] Like I said, I don't really want to leave
[12:12 - 12:17] But at this point I have no choice. I have no choice
[12:17 - 12:29] But to leave right now because like I said, I would rather sacrifice my channel and to leave and
[12:30 - 12:32] Let people think what they want
[12:33 - 12:37] Then they sat there and blatantly give them what they want
[12:37 - 12:41] Which is for me to end up in a psych ward and
[12:42 - 12:44] I don't need that
[12:44 - 12:50] I'm not psychotic. I'm not insane. I'm not mentally disturbed. I
[12:51 - 12:59] Don't belong there. I belong doing what I enjoy doing
[13:01 - 13:13] Honestly, I can't thank everyone enough that has actually in truthfully been a supporter like I
[13:15 - 13:19] Can't thank you guys enough for all the love and support that you've shown over the years
[13:20 - 13:42] And how strong you guys have kept me as the final act as my final act as a youtuber
[13:43 - 13:49] As the head of the cyraxination
[13:50 - 14:03] I just want to say one thing
[14:04 - 14:06] I do hope that
[14:07 - 14:09] that all the things that I have
[14:10 - 14:13] Said trying to lift you guys up
[14:15 - 14:18] I do hope that I inspired you guys in some way
[14:19 - 14:22] To live your lives and do what you want
[14:24 - 14:29] I hope I've inspired you guys in some way should have informed. I hope that my story
[14:30 - 14:33] I hope that my story does get told
[14:34 - 14:37] And that
[14:37 - 14:38] You know
[14:38 - 14:41] My story my very real life story
[14:42 - 14:45] I hope that it does inspire you guys in some way
[14:46 - 14:50] I really do I honestly got hope that it inspires you
[14:51 - 14:53] to do what you love to do and
[14:55 - 14:56] to
[14:56 - 15:00] not let people
[15:00 - 15:02] Get in the way of what you love
[15:06 - 15:09] You know when I first started let me tell you
[15:10 - 15:14] When I first started youtube, I knew I wanted to tell my story
[15:15 - 15:17] All right
[15:17 - 15:22] When I first started youtube back in 2010, I knew I wanted to tell my story
[15:27 - 15:32] And necessarily know how I was gonna do it, but I knew that I wanted to tell my story
[15:35 - 15:37] over the years
[15:37 - 15:46] I was able to do that
[15:46 - 15:49] I just hope that my story of everything that I've gone through
[15:50 - 15:55] Everything from not supposed to being able to live past birth
[15:58 - 16:04] To the situation that I've been dealing with I hope that it inspired you guys in some way to keep fighting
[16:05 - 16:15] I hope that I've inspired you guys to
[16:16 - 16:18] You know to live your life
[16:18 - 16:20] Live your dreams
[16:20 - 16:23] Don't wait
[16:23 - 16:25] If you have a dream chase that shit
[16:28 - 16:31] And don't look back
[16:31 - 16:33] Because you only get one shot
[16:34 - 16:41] To chase your dream and it's up to you
[16:41 - 16:45] Whether you chase it or you let that dream slip through the sands of time
[16:48 - 16:51] But me
[16:51 - 17:01] My opportunity is here and I'm chasing it. I do hope that I've
[17:02 - 17:07] shown you guys
[17:07 - 17:09] That you can do what you love
[17:10 - 17:23] No matter what
[17:23 - 17:28] To all the trolls out there that I've bullied me for the last two years
[17:28 - 17:36] I just
[17:36 - 17:38] I hope that you don't do this to anyone else
[17:43 - 17:45] Because I never asked to be bullied
[17:47 - 17:49] I never asked
[17:49 - 17:51] To be bashed on I never asked
[17:52 - 17:56] To be harassed
[17:56 - 17:59] All I ever asked for is a little love and a little respect
[18:02 - 18:06] All I ever asked for was a fair chance to do what I love
[18:06 - 18:12] It appears that
[18:12 - 18:14] I'm not allowed to do anything that I love so
[18:18 - 18:28] My time is here. I always knew this day would come. I just didn't know when
[18:30 - 18:44] Or how my days as a youtuber are
[18:47 - 18:49] Are over
[18:49 - 18:52] It's time for me to open a brand new chapter in my life
[18:53 - 18:55] And to do something that I've
[18:56 - 18:59] Been wanting to get back into doing for a very long time
[19:00 - 19:05] With my music being among friends people that I love and care about
[19:14 - 19:19] To all the other victims out there that have been victimized by these same boys
[19:20 - 19:22] By these same people that
[19:23 - 19:26] Are bullying me
[19:26 - 19:31] I just want you to know that I am truly sorry for what you've been put through
[19:36 - 19:39] I am truly sorry for what you've been put through
[20:04 - 20:07] Like I said, it's not that I want to leave
[20:08 - 20:31] But right now I have no choice. I have no choice but to leave. I don't know what else to do
[21:10 - 21:14] Gg on I've got an opportunity that I'm taking
[21:16 - 21:18] And my opportunity is going to be my job
[21:22 - 21:37] But as for my fan base
[21:40 - 21:42] I know you guys will move on
[21:44 - 22:26] I know you guys will carry my lessons with you. I do want to give
[22:37 - 22:39] I do want to give one last show
[22:48 - 22:53] I do want to do one last show as a final farewell to you guys
[22:53 - 24:30] If you guys have been watching me for all these years
[24:31 - 24:33] This final show is for you guys
[24:33 - 24:38] Let this show go down fucking history
[25:05 - 25:18] Oh
[28:35 - 29:11] Watching behind video
[29:38 - 29:42] Oh
[30:33 - 30:38] You're going talking
[31:08 - 31:10] You do
[33:04 - 33:09] I'd like to dedicate this song to those that lost their lives along my journey
[33:10 - 33:19] I miss you all
[34:11 - 34:35] So
[36:35 - 38:21] Recently discovered the joy of life out here
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[39:06 - 39:08] I wasn't good enough
[39:11 - 39:19] Okay, this is your right. I just never had it up
[40:11 - 40:15] Okay by your side
[40:22 - 40:26] What I thought was surely right. It's a
[41:11 - 41:23] Fuck what I can't
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[43:17 - 43:29] Don't miss out on this limited time offer. I want to support as I want to say thank you
[43:30 - 43:37] And then I'll ever see you wanting I want to say thank you for everything you've done for me over the years
[43:37 - 44:05] This next one's for you
[44:14 - 44:21] Oh
[45:00 - 45:05] The whole world down, sitting down
[45:05 - 45:10] No one can save me
[45:10 - 45:28] The hell up above the ground
[45:28 - 45:30] I wanna feel
[45:30 - 45:45] The pain right there
[45:45 - 46:13] I'm gonna feel it
[46:13 - 47:58] I'm gonna feel it
[47:58 - 48:00] Mike once happened my Italian BMT football
[48:00 - 48:02] Even though she said she wasn't hungry
[48:02 - 48:24] Neptune
[48:24 - 48:25] Here's my email
[48:25 - 48:41] I want you to email me, okay?
[48:41 - 48:56] foot.com, not .om.
[48:56 - 49:01] You know I was busy, you were so scared
[49:02 - 49:05] But no one would listen
[49:05 - 49:08] If someone else cared
[49:08 - 49:13] And after my dream, I woke with this fear
[49:14 - 49:20] What am I leaving when I'm done here?
[49:20 - 49:26] So if you're asking me, I want you to email me
[50:10 - 50:15] I was busy, you were so scared
[50:15 - 50:18] But no one would listen
[50:18 - 50:21] If someone else cared
[50:21 - 50:27] And after my dream, I woke with this fear
[50:28 - 50:33] What am I leaving when I'm done here?
[50:33 - 50:38] So if you're asking me, I want you to email me
[50:38 - 50:45] When my time comes for just a long night
[50:45 - 50:51] Help me leave behind some reasons to leave
[50:51 - 50:55] And don't resent me, this way you're feeling
[50:55 - 51:00] Yeah, just keep me out of this
[51:00 - 51:03] Leave me out of this
[51:03 - 51:07] Leave me out of this
[51:07 - 51:10] Don't be afraid
[51:10 - 51:13] I'm here to help you
[51:13 - 51:16] I'm here to help you
[51:16 - 51:19] But you're on the surface
[51:19 - 51:22] Not all the way through
[51:22 - 51:25] I've never been perfect
[51:26 - 51:32] So if you're asking me, I want you to know
[51:32 - 51:38] When my time comes for just a long night
[51:38 - 51:43] Help me leave behind some reasons to leave
[51:43 - 51:50] And don't resent me, this way you're feeling
[51:50 - 51:59] Yeah, just keep me out of this
[51:59 - 52:03] Forgetting all the heavy things I do
[52:03 - 52:07] I'm so mad, presenting
[52:07 - 52:11] Someone else can't come and save me from myself
[52:11 - 52:17] I can't be who you are
[52:17 - 52:20] When my time comes for just a long night
[52:20 - 52:26] Help me leave behind some reasons to leave
[52:26 - 52:31] And don't resent me, this way you're feeling
[52:31 - 52:41] Yeah, just keep me out of this
[52:41 - 52:45] Forgetting all the heavy things I do
[52:45 - 52:49] I'm so mad, presenting
[52:49 - 52:53] Someone else can't come and save me from myself
[52:53 - 53:17] I can't be who you are
[53:17 - 53:26] I'm so myself, sure
[53:26 - 53:28] But weaknesses
[53:28 - 53:31] Then it can't go right
[53:31 - 53:34] And my scars remind me
[53:34 - 53:37] That the past is real
[53:37 - 53:40] Until I run open
[53:40 - 53:42] Just to feel
[53:42 - 53:45] I'm joking, didn't tell
[53:45 - 53:48] I just want to be in love
[53:48 - 53:50] I'm just thinking around
[53:50 - 53:52] Why don't you shut up
[53:52 - 53:55] I'm gonna shout out the pain
[53:55 - 53:58] And I can't take yourself
[53:58 - 54:00] You make me insane
[54:00 - 54:03] Don't you say it is
[54:03 - 54:06] I'm so mad, open
[54:06 - 54:08] I'm so myself, sure
[54:08 - 54:11] But weaknesses
[54:11 - 54:14] Then it can't go right
[54:14 - 54:16] And my scars remind me
[54:16 - 54:19] That the past is real
[54:19 - 54:22] Until I run open
[54:22 - 54:24] Just to feel
[54:24 - 54:27] I'm trying to help you once
[54:27 - 54:30] Against my own advice
[54:30 - 54:32] I saw you coming down
[54:32 - 54:35] But you never realized
[54:35 - 54:38] That you're drowning in the water
[54:38 - 54:41] So long that you're in my hands
[54:41 - 54:43] You dashed into my nature
[54:43 - 54:46] Tonight is our last day
[54:46 - 54:49] I'll tear my heart open
[54:49 - 54:51] I'm so myself, sure
[54:51 - 54:54] But weaknesses
[54:54 - 54:56] Then it can't go right
[54:56 - 54:59] And my scars remind me
[54:59 - 55:02] That the past is real
[55:02 - 55:05] Until I run open
[55:05 - 55:07] Just to feel
[55:07 - 55:10] I'm joking, didn't tell
[55:10 - 55:13] I just want to be in love
[55:13 - 55:15] You shouldn't even know now
[55:15 - 55:18] Why don't you just go home
[55:18 - 55:21] You'll drown me in my water
[55:21 - 55:24] And I'll try to drown your hands
[55:24 - 55:26] I tear my heart open
[55:26 - 55:37] But you didn't understand yourself
[55:37 - 55:42] I can't even fix yourself
[55:42 - 55:45] But let me understand trade
[55:45 - 55:47] I'm sorry but I gotta move on
[55:47 - 55:50] With my own life
[55:50 - 55:52] I can't even fix yourself
[55:52 - 55:55] But let me understand trade
[55:55 - 55:58] I'm sorry but I gotta move on
[55:58 - 56:01] With my own life
[56:01 - 56:03] I tear my heart open
[56:03 - 56:06] I'm so myself, sure
[56:06 - 56:09] But my weaknesses
[56:09 - 56:11] Then it can't go right
[56:11 - 56:14] And my scars remind me
[56:14 - 56:17] That the past is real
[56:17 - 56:20] I tear my heart open
[56:20 - 56:22] Just to feel
[56:22 - 56:25] I tear my heart open
[56:25 - 56:27] I'm so myself, sure
[56:27 - 56:30] But my weaknesses
[56:30 - 56:33] Then it can't go right
[56:33 - 56:35] And my scars remind me
[56:35 - 56:38] That the past is real
[56:38 - 56:40] I tear my heart open
[56:40 - 56:42] Just to feel
[56:42 - 57:28] I'm not listening anymore
[57:28 - 57:31] Come on in my love
[57:31 - 57:34] I'm not listening anymore
[57:34 - 57:37] Come on in my love
[57:37 - 57:40] I'm not listening anymore
[57:40 - 57:43] Y'all, don't you gotta be bigger
[57:43 - 57:46] Be faster, be stronger
[57:46 - 57:49] If you're going to survive any longer
[57:49 - 57:52] If there's lifetime of better people anytime
[57:52 - 57:55] You're the first time I hear that sound
[57:55 - 57:58] Am I a failure?
[57:58 - 58:00] If I've got nothing to lose
[58:00 - 58:03] No, I'm not a failure
[58:03 - 58:06] I've got nothing to prove
[58:06 - 58:09] I'm not listening anymore
[58:09 - 58:12] The more I hear the more I know
[58:12 - 58:15] I'm not listening anymore
[58:15 - 58:19] The more I hear the more I know
[58:19 - 58:23] The more I know
[58:23 - 58:24] Lost my essence
[58:24 - 58:26] And I would try and chop
[58:26 - 58:27] Not a danger
[58:27 - 58:30] I'm a man that's not afraid of danger
[58:30 - 58:31] I want my own back
[58:31 - 58:33] I've read my own trail
[58:33 - 58:35] Cause I'm not afraid of deep rail
[58:35 - 58:38] I won't get in line
[58:38 - 58:40] I'll be a little man
[58:40 - 58:42] I'll fuck you up in my own plans
[58:42 - 58:44] And I've got respect
[58:44 - 58:45] And I'll tell you that
[58:45 - 58:48] The people that really care to protect
[58:48 - 58:52] Am I a failure?
[58:52 - 58:54] If I've got nothing to lose
[58:54 - 58:57] No, I'm not a failure
[58:57 - 58:59] I've got something to prove
[58:59 - 59:02] I'm not listening anymore
[59:02 - 59:05] The more I hear the more I know
[59:05 - 59:08] I'm not listening anymore
[59:08 - 59:11] The more I hear the more I know
[59:11 - 59:14] Charlie salt always normal
[59:14 - 59:16] I told you before let's hands go
[59:16 - 59:19] I told you before let's hands go
[59:19 - 59:47] I told you before let's hands go
[59:47 - 59:52] I'm not listening ever
[59:52 - 59:57] The more I hear the more I know
[59:57 - 60:00] Charlie salt always normal
[60:00 - 62:06] I don't think you guys need an explanation. I think you guys already know who this song is for. I don't need to say it.
[62:18 - 62:48] I'm gonna crash so my knees bite the leaves away. Just came to talk for a while. Guys, I need to say, Alright. I just wanna hold. I never thought the world would see that little piece of heaven looking back at me.
[62:48 - 63:06] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[63:06 - 63:24] See, I remember at your birthday, you said it brings closure to say your name. I know I do it longer if I had the chance.
[63:24 - 63:59] All I gotta do is once again, and now you can't help me make a mess. Now that it's that little piece of heaven looking back at me. Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[63:59 - 64:14] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[64:14 - 66:42] See, I remember at your birthday, you said it brings closure to say your name. I know I do it longer if I had the chance. Now that it's over, I just wanna hold.
[66:42 - 66:52] Five years ago, Thanos erased half of the universe from the people of this planet from everyone back home with a snap of a finger.
[67:50 - 68:00] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[68:00 - 68:11] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[68:11 - 69:22] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[69:22 - 70:37] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[70:37 - 70:57] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[70:57 - 72:33] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[72:33 - 72:46] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[72:46 - 72:56] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[72:56 - 74:06] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[74:06 - 74:18] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[74:18 - 78:37] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[78:37 - 78:54] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[78:54 - 79:04] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[79:04 - 80:31] Now that it's over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[80:31 - 83:28] Now that I'm over, I just wanna hold. But the truth is to me, it's hard again to find something to tell.
[83:28 - 83:39] to the person that I am talking to. I hope that she's watching this, and if she is, I
[83:39 - 83:47] want you to know this is for you. I look forward to the day that we are able to be together.
[83:47 - 83:55] And I want you to know that I'm not going anywhere and that I'm waiting for you in that human
[83:55 - 83:58] world for me. So this is for you.
[83:58 - 84:11] What if I told you that I need you? What if I told you that I love you so?
[84:11 - 84:16] Would you call me a ghost and never walk again?
[84:16 - 84:22] What if I told you lately I'll give you the fool when I think you're not
[84:22 - 84:27] the brightest, you're the star, you and I are too far
[84:27 - 84:44] What if I say more I think I must sleep?
[84:44 - 84:50] This time just came so down for me
[84:50 - 84:55] And I just can't wait for you to know
[84:55 - 85:01] What's got my heart going?
[85:01 - 85:09] And I just can't wait for you to know
[85:09 - 85:19] What if I told you that I need you? What if I told you that I love you so?
[85:19 - 85:25] Would you call me a ghost and never walk again?
[85:25 - 85:31] What if I told you lately I'll give you the fool when I think you're not
[85:31 - 85:36] the brightest, you're the star, you and I are too far
[85:46 - 85:50] You call me a ghost and never walk again?
[85:50 - 85:55] What if I told you lately I'll give you the fool when I think you're not
[85:55 - 86:00] the brightest, you're the star, you and I are too far
[86:00 - 86:05] What if I told you lately I'll give you the fool when I think you're not
[86:05 - 86:10] the brightest, you're the star, you and I are too far
[86:10 - 86:18] What if I told you that I need you? What if I told you that I love you so?
[86:18 - 86:23] Would you call me a ghost and never walk again?
[86:23 - 86:31] What if I told you lately I'll give you the fool when I think you're not
[86:31 - 86:40] the brightest, you're the star, you and I are too far
[86:40 - 86:46] What if I told you lately I'll give you the fool when I think you're not
[86:46 - 87:53] the brightest, you're the star, you and I are too far
[88:16 - 88:20] Your dad and your family actually like me, that actually is fucking awesome
[88:20 - 88:26] and I just want to say thank you and I look forward to the future
[88:26 - 88:32] I look forward to us eventually being together
[88:32 - 88:37] and I can't tell you enough how much it means to me that you're sticking by me
[89:13 - 89:16] I don't know if it's the time we got the hell to make her a dead goat
[89:16 - 89:20] Nah, she can be here like a real soul saying that she's no real
[89:20 - 89:24] even though we're a dope and no daddy, she's not her own even bother
[89:24 - 89:27] She's dead and she can't let me look him back down
[89:27 - 89:30] a real bad bitch buzzing one next to a doll or a huge thing
[89:30 - 89:33] and he'll be mad and tell me bitch I feel like a carer
[89:33 - 89:36] Nah, maybe fuck you with a wrong wine
[89:36 - 89:39] I'll be staying like a clean bitch and long white
[89:39 - 89:42] Nah, she'll be fucking clean with sour wine
[89:42 - 89:44] I'll be staying like a clean bitch and long white
[90:23 - 90:25] I'm gonna die here today
[91:46 - 92:00] With that being said, I want to say thank you to everyone that has come to this final show
[92:00 - 92:04] All of you that have supported me over the years
[92:04 - 92:10] on this incredible journey that I've been on for God knows how many years now
[92:11 - 92:16] I'd like to say thank you all so much for everything
[92:16 - 92:25] to all my supporters, to all my real life friends that are on here
[92:25 - 92:31] I want to say thank you man, I can't thank you guys enough for supporting me on this journey
[92:31 - 92:41] I can't thank you guys enough for standing up for me like you guys have
[92:41 - 92:45] for all the fun times that we've had together
[92:45 - 92:50] all the chill streams, all the goofy crazy wacky times
[92:50 - 92:53] of us just goofing around and having fun
[92:53 - 92:59] to even talking about very serious subjects
[92:59 - 93:02] and doing stuff to help each other
[93:02 - 93:09] and those memories are memories that I will always carry with me for the rest of my life
[93:09 - 93:17] and I can't thank you guys enough for everything
[93:17 - 93:21] you guys honestly have done more for me than you even know
[93:21 - 93:25] like you guys have actually done a lot for me
[93:25 - 93:30] and I can't thank you guys enough for everything that you guys have done
[93:30 - 93:33] standing up for me, defending me
[93:33 - 93:38] helping me out with everything that I needed help with
[93:38 - 93:44] like you guys have helped me more than you know
[93:44 - 93:48] you guys gave me a platform where I could speak my mind
[93:48 - 93:51] and talk about things
[93:51 - 93:55] and have people to turn to and to talk to
[93:55 - 94:00] and it really means the world that you guys gave me
[94:00 - 94:04] that opportunity to do what I've loved and enjoyed
[94:04 - 94:11] and I hope that I did the same for you
[94:11 - 94:14] as I said in the very beginning you guys have
[94:14 - 94:20] I hope that you take my story and what I've been through
[94:20 - 94:26] and I hope you not only learn from it
[94:26 - 94:30] but I hope that you guys gain some sort of inspiration from it
[94:30 - 94:34] I hope that you guys take my story
[94:34 - 94:40] and you gain some sort of inspiration from my story
[94:40 - 94:51] and everything that I've been through
[94:51 - 94:55] because you guys gave me the strength to tell my story
[94:55 - 94:59] you guys gave me a platform to tell my story
[94:59 - 95:03] and to show what I've been through
[95:03 - 95:07] and that means the world to me
[95:07 - 95:14] and to anybody out there that has been bullied
[95:14 - 95:19] by the same people that I've been or have been bullied by
[95:19 - 95:21] over these many years
[95:21 - 95:25] I just want you guys to know that any of my mods
[95:25 - 95:28] or any of my people that are truly fans of mine
[95:28 - 95:31] you can turn to any of them and talk to them
[95:31 - 95:33] and they will be there
[95:33 - 95:35] they will be there for you
[95:35 - 95:36] I can promise you that
[95:36 - 95:45] I don't know what else to say guys
[95:45 - 95:48] other than thank you for everything you guys have done
[95:48 - 95:53] like I can't even put into words how grateful
[95:53 - 95:56] and thankful I am to you guys for
[95:56 - 95:59] allowing me to do things that I've truly enjoyed
[95:59 - 96:02] over the last 10 to 11 years
[96:02 - 96:06] it means more to me than you guys know
[96:06 - 96:11] but right now I need to
[96:11 - 96:15] open up the next chapter in my life
[96:15 - 96:19] and do what's best for me
[96:19 - 96:22] and my family and those that I rather care about
[96:22 - 96:29] so I want to say thank you guys
[96:29 - 96:33] and don't worry I'll still be around on
[96:33 - 96:37] other people's live streams here and there periodically
[96:37 - 96:41] but for the most part
[96:41 - 96:44] I am going to be focusing on myself
[96:44 - 96:50] I'm going to be working on things that I've been wanting to work on
[96:50 - 96:53] for a very very long time now
[96:53 - 97:00] and you know
[97:00 - 97:02] if I ever do come back
[97:02 - 97:05] and hopefully I will be able to come back
[97:05 - 97:06] I don't know
[97:06 - 97:08] but hopefully if I do
[97:08 - 97:11] I'll be able to come back better and stronger someday
[97:11 - 97:22] you know hopefully I'll be able to come back one day
[97:22 - 97:25] bigger and better and stronger than ever
[97:25 - 97:27] and hopefully by then
[97:27 - 97:31] all this crazy shit will have blown over
[97:31 - 97:35] and I'll be able to have a fresh start
[97:35 - 97:39] when that day will come I don't know
[97:39 - 97:42] I truthfully and honestly do not know
[97:42 - 97:45] when that day will come
[97:45 - 97:48] but when that day comes
[97:48 - 97:49] I'll be ready
[97:49 - 98:00] hopefully by then
[98:00 - 98:03] I'll have my stuff together
[98:03 - 98:06] and I'll actually be able to say hey
[98:06 - 98:09] I do what I love bro living and I'll be able to
[98:09 - 98:19] expand out onto this platform
[98:19 - 98:21] if anybody would like to send me
[98:21 - 98:23] a fan mail or anything you guys already have
[98:23 - 98:25] my address
[98:25 - 98:27] you are more than welcome to send me
[98:27 - 98:29] any kind of fan mail that
[98:29 - 98:31] you know is not
[98:31 - 98:34] disturbing
[98:34 - 98:36] but if you guys do have any fan mail
[98:36 - 98:38] you guys are more than welcome to send me
[98:38 - 98:40] and I don't mind
[98:40 - 98:42] because honestly the letters that you guys
[98:42 - 98:44] send me do mean a lot
[98:44 - 98:46] and I do appreciate them
[98:46 - 98:48] and I read every single
[98:48 - 98:50] letter that I get from you guys
[98:50 - 98:55] and it means the world to me
[98:55 - 98:57] I want you guys to know that all the fan mail
[98:57 - 98:59] you guys have sent
[98:59 - 99:01] all the letters like they mean everything to me
[99:01 - 99:03] like I love the
[99:03 - 99:05] I love the fans
[99:05 - 99:07] like you guys have been so
[99:07 - 99:14] fucking amazing
[99:14 - 99:16] but thank you guys for everything
[99:16 - 99:19] I can't thank you guys
[99:19 - 99:21] enough for everything you have done for me
[99:21 - 99:26] over the years
[99:26 - 99:28] I am proud to say that I did hit a thousand
[99:28 - 99:30] subs at one point
[99:30 - 99:32] I am proud to say that I
[99:32 - 99:34] became a part of the one thousand
[99:34 - 99:36] subscriber team
[99:36 - 99:38] at one point in my career
[99:38 - 99:40] and that's something
[99:40 - 99:42] that I can say that I've been trying
[99:42 - 99:44] to accomplish and I accomplished
[99:44 - 99:47] my goal
[99:47 - 99:49] so now it's time for me to work
[99:49 - 99:51] on my next goal
[99:51 - 99:53] and work on my future
[99:53 - 99:57] so again I want to say
[99:57 - 100:04] thank you everyone
[100:04 - 100:06] thank you for everything that you've
[100:06 - 100:17] done I want to say thank you
[100:17 - 100:19] for everything that you guys have done
[100:19 - 100:21] you guys are fucking
[100:21 - 100:23] awesome
[100:23 - 100:31] and I do hope that
[100:31 - 100:33] you guys do continue to
[100:33 - 100:35] support
[100:35 - 100:37] I will
[100:37 - 100:39] try to be
[100:39 - 100:41] on other platforms I don't
[100:41 - 100:49] know I would like to eventually
[100:49 - 100:51] come back
[100:51 - 100:53] to this platform
[100:53 - 100:55] and
[100:55 - 100:57] create even better stuff
[100:57 - 100:59] than before eventually
[100:59 - 101:02] but until then
[101:02 - 101:07] I want to say thank you
[101:07 - 101:09] guys and you guys
[101:09 - 101:11] already know my discord
[101:11 - 101:13] you know my facebook
[101:13 - 101:15] you know my numbers you know my address
[101:15 - 101:17] please if you are
[101:17 - 101:19] a legitimate fan
[101:19 - 101:21] please feel free to reach out
[101:21 - 101:23] to me any time day or night
[101:23 - 101:25] I'm always available
[101:25 - 101:27] you guys are always
[101:27 - 101:31] welcome to reach out to me
[101:31 - 101:34] without being said guys
[101:34 - 101:37] thank you for everything
[101:37 - 101:39] and I hope to see
[101:39 - 101:41] you guys in the near future
[101:41 - 101:43] thank you guys
[101:43 - 101:46] for the opportunities
[101:46 - 101:48] and I can promise you guys
[101:48 - 101:51] I won't let you down
[101:51 - 101:53] I will not let any of you down guys
[101:53 - 101:55] I will work on myself
[101:55 - 101:57] and I will come back better and stronger
[101:57 - 101:59] and
[101:59 - 102:05] a much better person
[102:05 - 102:09] I won't let you down
[102:09 - 102:11] I'm gonna come back one day
[102:11 - 102:13] and when I do
[102:13 - 102:16] when I do it's gonna be
[102:16 - 102:20] a good day
[102:20 - 102:24] but right now I need to work on
[102:24 - 102:26] myself
[102:26 - 102:28] I need to work on
[102:28 - 102:32] a few things
[102:32 - 102:34] so again thank you all
[102:34 - 102:36] so much
[102:36 - 102:38] I love every single one of you guys
[102:38 - 102:41] thank you everyone
[102:41 - 102:45] and I hope to see
[102:45 - 102:48] you guys in the near future
[102:48 - 102:50] I hope to see you all in the very near future
[102:50 - 102:57] everyone
[102:57 - 102:59] I love you guys
[102:59 - 103:01] keep rocking out
[103:01 - 103:05] keep being yourself
[103:05 - 103:07] and don't let anybody stop you
[103:07 - 103:09] from what you love man
[103:09 - 103:11] I love you guys
[103:11 - 103:13] and I hope that I did inspire
[103:13 - 103:15] every single one of you man
[103:15 - 103:17] I truly do hope that I inspired
[103:17 - 103:19] every single one of you
[103:19 - 103:21] to do what you're passionate about
[103:21 - 103:23] and to not stop
[103:23 - 103:25] I hope that you guys take my story
[103:25 - 103:27] and it gets told
[103:27 - 103:29] throughout the channel
[103:29 - 103:31] so that others don't have to suffer
[103:31 - 103:34] the way that I've suffered
[103:34 - 103:36] I hope that you guys
[103:36 - 103:38] are able to help others like myself
[103:38 - 103:40] that are out there
[103:40 - 103:42] struggling every day the same way that I am
[103:42 - 103:44] and going through what I'm going through
[103:44 - 103:59] I'll see you guys in the near future guys
[103:59 - 104:02] I love you all
[104:02 - 104:07] so much
[104:07 - 104:10] I hope to see you guys in the near future
[104:10 - 104:12] I love you guys
[104:12 - 104:14] stay strong
[104:14 - 104:16] stay tough
[104:16 - 104:20] keep pushing forward man
[104:20 - 104:23] I love you guys
[104:23 - 104:25] I'll see you soon