2021-10-2 IM PROUD TO BE A FREAK

[2:22 - 2:29] You think I'm ashamed to do what you want.
[2:29 - 2:36] You think I'm going to adhere to you alive and well?
[2:36 - 2:40] You think I'm going to do anything
[2:40 - 2:43] that any of you would want me to?
[2:43 - 2:47] To make me look like a freak?
[2:47 - 2:52] You think I'm going to do anything to embarrass myself?
[2:52 - 3:08] Well, I'm going to say right now, that's not going to happen.
[3:08 - 3:10] To be an outcast.
[3:10 - 3:18] I'm proud to be the loser that you attack.
[3:18 - 3:20] Ha ha ha ha ha!
[3:20 - 3:51] Now, my sis.
[3:51 - 4:02] People like you all might very well.
[4:02 - 4:06] Do nothing.
[4:06 - 4:11] Ha ha ha ha!
[4:11 - 4:12] Don't act.
[4:12 - 4:17] Keep laughing.
[4:17 - 4:20] It all makes me stronger.
[4:20 - 4:21] Ha ha ha ha!
[4:21 - 4:25] You want pain?
[4:25 - 4:31] You want suffering?
[4:31 - 8:19] I'll give it to you.
[8:19 - 9:58] When you're in a water...
[9:58 - 10:56] You're in trouble, boy!
[10:56 - 11:56] Get your hands off me!
[11:56 - 13:06] Get your hands off me!
[13:06 - 13:08] This way!
[13:08 - 14:09] No one else will!
[14:09 - 14:10] Struggling with acne?
[14:10 - 14:11] This song right here?
[14:11 - 14:12] This song right here?
[14:12 - 14:14] This song right here?
[14:14 - 14:15] This is for everyone of you.
[14:15 - 14:17] Suitable for sensitive skin.
[14:17 - 14:18] To help with...
[14:18 - 14:22] This is for everyone of you that's been on the motherfucking edge.
[14:22 - 14:23] For people like me.
[14:23 - 14:25] That get bullied everyday.
[14:25 - 14:29] This is for you guys.
[14:29 - 15:22] I'll give you a strike!
[15:22 - 18:12] That's facts, man.
[18:12 - 18:15] Every single one of you that's ever been bullied.
[18:15 - 18:17] That's ever been attacked.
[18:17 - 18:19] That's ever been named.
[18:19 - 18:21] And brought down the road that I've been brought down.
[18:21 - 18:24] You motherfuckers are the ones that have pushed me.
[18:24 - 18:27] You guys are the ones that keep me going.
[18:27 - 18:31] Those of you that have been blacklisted.
[18:31 - 18:38] That have been attacked.
[18:38 - 18:40] For every single one of you.
[18:40 - 18:42] That have been bullied.
[18:42 - 18:44] You guys are my inspiration.
[18:44 - 18:48] You guys are the reason why I do what I do.
[18:48 - 18:53] And I'll sit here in front of every one of you motherfucking trolls.
[18:53 - 18:59] And tell you that you guys are a bunch of pussy motherfuckers.
[18:59 - 19:02] All of you people that bully motherfuckers like me.
[19:02 - 19:05] You're a bunch of cowards.
[19:05 - 19:07] You're a bunch of posses.
[19:07 - 19:21] Because you ain't got the balls to save a life.
[19:21 - 19:24] Because I know what it's like to be.
[19:24 - 19:30] I know what it's like to be labeled as nothing.
[19:30 - 19:35] I know what it's like to be labeled as an outcast.
[19:35 - 19:37] And let me tell you.
[19:37 - 19:39] I'm proud to be a freak.
[19:39 - 19:42] I'm proud to say that you guys make fun of me.
[19:42 - 19:43] I know why.
[19:43 - 19:47] Because it reminds me every day of why I do what I do.
[19:47 - 19:54] Every one of you trolls reminds me every day of what I'm proud to do.
[19:54 - 19:58] Which is stand up for people like myself.
[19:58 - 20:01] I'm proud to be the voice for the bullied.
[20:01 - 20:04] I'm proud to be the voice for those that are on the edge.
[20:04 - 20:08] I'm proud to be the voice for those that look different.
[20:08 - 20:18] I'm proud to be the voice of the outcasts.
[20:18 - 20:22] I'm proud to be the voice for the voiceless.
[20:22 - 20:59] And for those that get bullied.
[20:59 - 21:05] This song is for you guys.
[21:05 - 21:09] This is all random from me to you guys.
[21:09 - 21:11] Because I am one of you.
[21:11 - 21:14] I am like you.
[21:14 - 21:16] I am one of you.
[21:16 - 21:19] So this song is from me to all of you.
[21:19 - 21:26] Let's rise up and fight back.
[21:26 - 21:28] Feels like I'm on a tight.
[21:28 - 21:32] For the reason I'm been calling.
[21:32 - 21:33] Calling.
[21:33 - 21:35] Can't get my life back.
[21:35 - 21:42] You won't tell the door.
[21:42 - 21:46] You won't lift me.
[21:46 - 21:52] We ain't the song for the broken.
[21:52 - 21:56] Please die tonight.
[21:56 - 22:00] For the sound of the shadows.
[22:00 - 22:03] Please die tonight.
[22:03 - 22:06] I can't get used to this song.
[22:06 - 22:12] Please die tonight.
[22:12 - 22:25] Please die tonight.
[22:25 - 22:28] Remember when I was born as a woman.
[22:28 - 22:31] Made me stupid just like you.
[22:31 - 22:34] But you couldn't remember all of that.
[22:34 - 22:38] All of that just left me down by the kitchen.
[22:38 - 22:43] You won't tell the door.
[22:43 - 22:47] You won't lift me.
[22:47 - 22:55] We ain't the song for the broken.
[22:55 - 22:58] Please die tonight.
[22:58 - 23:01] For the sound of the shadows.
[23:01 - 23:05] Made me stupid just like you.
[23:05 - 23:10] But you couldn't remember all of that.
[23:10 - 23:16] I can't get used to this song.
[23:16 - 23:40] Please die tonight.
[23:40 - 24:59] For the sound of the shadows.
[24:59 - 25:01] Let me tell you right now.
[25:01 - 25:05] I may not be the voice of a generation.
[25:05 - 25:12] I may not be able to change the world on my own.
[25:12 - 25:19] But let me tell you right now.
[25:19 - 25:26] I hope to God that everything I do now carries on into the further generations.
[25:26 - 25:32] I hope that what I do now has an effect on future generations.
[25:32 - 25:37] And I hope that it shows that this bullshit that's going on needs to stop.
[25:37 - 25:56] I hope and pray to God that everything I do now has an impact on our future generations.
[25:56 - 26:03] Because this bullshit that's going on with this bullying and this attacking, it needs to fucking stop.
[26:03 - 26:12] And if I could start that and spark that movement, then by all means light the fucking fuse up.
[26:12 - 26:18] Let's light that fucking fuse and let's make that shit pop off.
[26:18 - 27:02] Let me tell you right now.
[27:02 - 27:07] If I can inspire someone, that's all I care about.
[27:07 - 27:27] If I can inspire someone to do what they love or to help get this movement going, then I've done my job.
[27:27 - 27:34] As long as I can inspire someone to do what they love, then I'm doing my job and I'm proud of that.
[27:34 - 27:41] Are you about to press the skip button?
[27:41 - 27:44] And yet, here I remain.
[27:44 - 27:48] But by the way, don't let me stop here. Just remember who's in charge.
[27:48 - 27:59] Watch more of our prizes. Play it on the all-new Xbox.
[28:16 - 28:24] Yeah, I drive myself crazy because I can't take the gravity of holding on.
[28:24 - 28:30] Why is everything so heavy holding on?
[28:30 - 28:35] So much wine I can't carry.
[28:35 - 28:37] I keep dragging around.
[28:37 - 28:39] What is bringing me down?
[28:39 - 28:40] But just let it go.
[28:40 - 28:43] Let me set the freak of holding on.
[28:43 - 28:48] Why is everything so heavy?
[28:48 - 28:51] You said I've had enough.
[28:51 - 28:55] But I'm pretty sure the world is how to get me.
[28:55 - 28:58] It's not like I make the choice.
[28:58 - 29:02] Tell them I must take the fucking vaccine.
[29:02 - 29:04] I know I'm not the same.
[29:04 - 29:06] I'm the worst.
[29:06 - 29:08] I know I'm not the same.
[29:08 - 29:10] I know I'm not the same.
[29:10 - 29:12] I'm the worst.
[29:12 - 29:14] I know I'm not the same.
[29:14 - 29:16] Holding on.
[29:16 - 29:19] Holding on.
[29:19 - 29:22] Everything's so heavy holding on.
[29:22 - 29:29] I keep dragging around.
[29:29 - 29:31] What is bringing me down?
[29:31 - 29:33] But just let it go.
[29:33 - 29:35] Let me set the freak of holding on.
[29:35 - 29:40] Why is everything so heavy?
[29:40 - 29:42] I know I'm not the same.
[29:42 - 29:44] I'm the worst.
[29:44 - 29:47] I'm pretty sure the world is how to get me.
[29:47 - 29:49] I know I'm not the same.
[29:49 - 29:52] I'm pretty sure the world is how to get me.
[29:52 - 29:54] I'm not the same.
[29:54 - 29:56] I know I'm not the same.
[29:56 - 29:58] I know I'm not the same.
[30:00 - 30:11] Folding up.
[30:11 - 30:13] Too much more than I could bear it.
[30:13 - 30:15] I keep dragging around.
[30:15 - 30:17] What is bringing me down?
[30:17 - 30:19] But just let it go.
[30:19 - 30:30] Let me set the freak of holding on.
[30:30 - 30:55] But everything's so heavy.
[30:55 - 30:57] Isn't just about getting free credit scores.
[30:57 - 30:59] With Harvey Drive, you can save money on auto-imaging.
[30:59 - 31:06] Okay, guys.
[31:06 - 31:11] Where's all my Lincoln Park fans?
[31:11 - 31:21] But before I start this, I want to know one motherfucking thing.
[31:21 - 31:23] I want to know one thing.
[31:23 - 31:29] How many of you in here in the chat
[31:29 - 31:32] have been bullied or pushed around
[31:32 - 31:35] or made to feel like you're worthless?
[31:35 - 31:41] How many of you have been made to feel like you're worthless
[31:41 - 31:43] like you don't belong?
[31:43 - 32:08] And this one, this is for you.
[32:08 - 32:13] Because like myself, I've been there.
[32:13 - 32:18] And this is for all of you to let you know
[32:18 - 32:21] that you guys, you're not alone.
[32:57 - 33:01] I'm going far, far away now.
[33:01 - 33:05] You tell me it's all right.
[33:05 - 33:09] You tell me I'm forgiven.
[33:09 - 33:11] It's all right.
[33:11 - 33:15] But nobody can save me now.
[33:15 - 33:19] I'm holding up a line.
[33:19 - 33:26] Chasing out the darkness inside.
[33:26 - 33:35] Because nobody can save me now.
[33:35 - 33:38] And this is for the solution.
[33:38 - 33:49] And if you're not there,
[33:49 - 33:53] I chose a false solution.
[33:53 - 33:58] But nobody can prove me wrong.
[33:58 - 34:16] You tell me it's all right.
[34:16 - 34:19] You tell me I'm forgiven.
[34:19 - 34:31] But nobody can save me now.
[34:31 - 34:34] I'm chasing out the darkness.
[34:35 - 34:39] You tell me it's all right.
[34:39 - 34:50] But nobody can save me now.
[34:50 - 34:57] I'm searching somewhere out there.
[34:57 - 35:12] But nobody can save me now.
[35:12 - 35:19] You tell me I'm forgiven.
[35:19 - 35:22] But nobody can save me now.
[35:22 - 35:27] I'm holding up a line.
[35:27 - 35:31] Chasing out the darkness inside.
[35:31 - 35:36] Because nobody can save me now.
[35:36 - 35:38] But all they need I can say to me
[35:38 - 35:46] This is the beginning from where I've been
[35:46 - 35:48] I'm still missing right here
[35:48 - 36:28] We can change that
[36:28 - 36:48] I'm still missing
[36:48 - 36:50] This is not the end, this is not the beginning
[36:50 - 36:52] Just words, right, right, right, right, right, right
[36:52 - 36:54] In a new efficient system, listen to what you're told
[36:54 - 36:56] Me nobody can bring up your words
[36:56 - 36:59] That stay something you couldn't say there
[36:59 - 37:01] For this time, they'll be there
[37:01 - 37:04] That hold on to something that's in this good way
[37:04 - 37:06] Confirming that we can see everything
[37:06 - 37:08] The things that we've done
[37:08 - 37:10] Pretending that all of this is real
[37:10 - 37:14] This is what it is for me
[37:14 - 37:20] I wish you life's dreams to stay
[37:20 - 37:25] This is not what I had then
[37:25 - 37:33] Inside of my clear window
[37:33 - 37:37] Right in the sea of life
[37:37 - 37:43] I'm still missing you
[37:43 - 37:47] Many things were left unsaid
[37:47 - 37:58] And some were left
[37:58 - 38:10] I'm still missing you
[38:10 - 38:14] The things that we've done
[38:14 - 38:31] Pretending that all of this is real
[38:31 - 38:37] This is not what I had then
[38:37 - 39:08] Inside of my clear window
[39:08 - 39:10] Right in the sea of life
[39:10 - 39:12] I'm still missing you
[39:12 - 39:14] Many things were left unsaid
[39:14 - 39:16] Inside of my clear window
[39:16 - 39:18] Right in the sea of life
[39:18 - 39:20] I'm still missing you
[39:20 - 39:22] Many things were left unsaid
[39:22 - 39:24] Inside of my clear window
[39:24 - 39:26] Right in the sea of life
[39:26 - 39:28] I'm still missing you
[39:28 - 39:55] Many things were left unsaid
[39:55 - 39:57] Inside of my clear window
[39:57 - 39:59] Right in the sea of life
[39:59 - 40:01] I'm still missing you
[40:01 - 40:03] The things that we've done
[40:03 - 40:05] Pretending that all of this is real
[40:05 - 40:07] This is not what I had then
[40:07 - 40:09] Inside of my clear window
[40:09 - 40:11] Right in the sea of life
[40:11 - 41:14] I was totally stranded
[41:14 - 41:16] No TK? So what happened?
[41:16 - 41:18] No, we started buying
[41:18 - 41:20] Super Mega Roll
[41:20 - 41:22] Shining Super Mega Roll is 6 rolls in 1
[41:22 - 41:24] And lasts much longer now
[41:24 - 41:26] But enjoy the go with Shining
[41:26 - 41:49] Guaranteed to pay for your money back
[42:09 - 42:11] Come back now so fast
[42:11 - 42:13] But it really does give us a back glass
[42:13 - 42:15] Then pull it back for the
[42:15 - 42:17] One made for a second we forgot we was
[42:17 - 42:19] People put us in rehab
[42:19 - 42:21] Whatever it was I know to go
[42:21 - 42:23] We are, we are
[42:23 - 42:25] The youth of the nation
[42:25 - 42:27] We are, we are
[42:27 - 42:29] The youth of the nation
[42:29 - 42:31] We are, we are
[42:31 - 42:33] The youth of the nation
[42:33 - 42:35] We are, we are
[42:35 - 42:37] The youth of the nation
[42:37 - 42:39] We are, we are
[42:39 - 42:42] The youth of the nation
[42:42 - 42:44] We are, we are
[42:44 - 42:46] The youth of the nation
[42:46 - 42:48] She was only 12
[42:48 - 42:50] But then all she had
[42:50 - 42:52] Turned to herself
[42:52 - 42:57] And was ready to win
[42:57 - 42:59] She tried grounds and all the wall places
[42:59 - 43:01] The same situation
[43:01 - 43:03] The different things
[43:03 - 43:05] Your shuts you up
[43:05 - 43:07] You want troubles to concerning
[43:07 - 43:12] Your money boy
[43:12 - 43:16] Runnin' guys, I'm a hard shot, I'm a dog, suicide
[43:16 - 43:18] It's gonna be cool if we got no friends
[43:18 - 43:21] It's gonna be like good men, they might remember me when they're dead
[43:21 - 43:23] Because we want to know what's in the back
[43:23 - 43:26] So don't let go of the sandwich, yeah
[43:26 - 43:28] We are, we are
[43:28 - 43:34] We are the nation, yeah, we are
[43:34 - 43:39] We are the nation, we are, we are
[43:39 - 43:44] We are the nation, we are, we are
[43:44 - 44:08] We are the nation, we are, we are
[44:08 - 44:12] We are the nation, we are, we are
[44:12 - 44:16] We are the nation, we are, we are
[44:16 - 44:20] We are the nation, we are, we are
[44:20 - 44:24] We are the nation, we are, we are
[44:24 - 44:55] We are the nation, we are
[44:55 - 45:06] We are the nation, we are
[45:06 - 46:01] This right here is from my motherfucking outcasts. I want you guys to know that I love every single one of you motherfuckers.
[46:01 - 46:04] This is my anthem to you guys. Let's go!
[46:28 - 46:33] In the children in the rain I've done parade before them. Can I see the love? I see the hate.
[46:33 - 46:38] See this world that we can make it. See the life. I see this style. Give it all to see and fly.
[46:38 - 46:44] Yes, we wave this flag of hatred. But you're the ones who made it. That's the beauty of our lives.
[46:44 - 46:49] That's the right before our lives. In the hate, only one. From the words to make it.
[46:49 - 46:53] We get so sick, so sick. We never wanted all this.
[46:53 - 46:58] Medication for the kids with no reason to listen. So we can march.
[46:58 - 47:02] Let's jump down. Let's jump. Watch it fire in the sun.
[47:02 - 47:07] We are young. We are young. We are march.
[47:07 - 47:14] Falling in this world that we don't belong. We are strong. We don't belong.
[47:14 - 47:18] Falling in this world that we don't belong.
[47:18 - 47:22] We are the money shadows in these streets. This music that I've taken up.
[47:22 - 47:25] We wear the metal. This behavior is burning candy.
[47:25 - 47:28] Swizz go where you're thought. In the rain you see the sun.
[47:28 - 47:32] In the beating of our hearts. In the beating of this music.
[47:32 - 47:36] Falling in this world that we don't belong. We get so sick. We never know.
[47:36 - 47:39] All we've ever really wanted was a place to call a road.
[47:39 - 47:43] And take what we are. Be in the sense of our hearts.
[47:43 - 47:47] Make this music for the opera. Let it dance upon this door.
[47:47 - 47:52] March to the top. Sit down. Let it up. Watch it fire in the sun.
[47:52 - 47:56] We are young. We are young. We are young.
[47:56 - 48:02] Falling in this world that we don't belong. We are strong.
[48:02 - 48:07] We don't belong. Falling in this world that we don't belong.
[48:07 - 48:18] We'll fight. We will fall. We will fall.
[48:18 - 49:02] We are young. We are young. We are young.
[49:02 - 49:15] Falling in this world that we don't belong.
[49:15 - 49:16] And that's true.
[49:16 - 49:20] For those of you that are in the chat running your mouths and talking shit
[49:20 - 49:23] and basically doing troll shit.
[49:23 - 49:26] You obviously don't know what it's like to be one of us.
[49:26 - 49:30] You don't know what it's like to be an outcast.
[49:30 - 49:34] I speak for those that are afraid to speak up.
[49:34 - 49:40] I speak for those like myself that get bullied every fucking day.
[49:40 - 49:44] Because I do get bullied every day. And I know what it's like.
[49:44 - 49:48] And I speak out for those people. I'm here to help them.
[49:48 - 49:52] I'm not here to do like you do or put anybody down.
[49:52 - 49:55] I'm here to help those like myself.
[49:55 - 51:02] And this song around here. This actually does.
[51:02 - 51:05] It hits very well.
[51:05 - 51:12] What it's like to be bullied so much that you get addicted to the bullying
[51:12 - 51:15] as if it were a drug.
[51:15 - 51:21] The same way that people get addicted to being abused.
[51:21 - 51:29] This song is for all you guys that have been in that situation
[51:29 - 51:34] that knows what it's like.
[51:34 - 51:39] You are addicted to being bullied or you are going through that phase
[51:39 - 51:43] of being abused in any way, shape or form.
[51:43 - 52:01] Just like I've been, this song is for you.
[52:01 - 52:06] Think of someone that's been there. You can escape it.
[52:06 - 52:08] You have a way out.
[52:08 - 52:10] And if you don't...
[52:22 - 52:26] Right now, I'm going to try to do something.
[52:26 - 52:37] I'm sick.
[52:37 - 52:43] I'm trying to let you see that shit that was fine.
[52:43 - 52:48] I'm trying to let you see that shit that's overdrive.
[52:48 - 52:51] Your secrets keep me synchronized.
[52:51 - 52:58] Keep you stay kind to every single time you roll the crooked die.
[52:58 - 53:03] I've been done this time. They're trying to pull me down.
[53:03 - 53:05] They're gonna stop me from...
[53:07 - 53:16] They're so with my confession.
[53:16 - 53:44] They're trying to consume...
[53:47 - 54:12] You have this questions, oh, come through my head.
[54:12 - 54:13] You have this question, oh, come through my head.
[54:13 - 54:18] Somebody get rid of that.
[54:18 - 54:20] You're with my determination.
[54:20 - 54:22] You're with my determination.
[54:22 - 54:24] You're with my determination.
[54:24 - 58:39] Many of you guys know my story of abuse, and if you are in that situation, it's to you
[58:39 - 58:41] or if you are a good abuse
[59:13 - 59:15] just by my love and hate
[59:15 - 59:19] from the side of me
[59:19 - 59:21] trust people
[59:21 - 59:23] it's in the van
[59:23 - 59:26] grandiose
[59:26 - 59:28] can't stretch stuff
[59:28 - 59:30] across the street
[59:30 - 59:33] hey
[59:33 - 59:35] so i don't want to be down
[59:35 - 59:37] and i don't want to be
[59:37 - 59:39] wet like the gate
[59:39 - 59:41] and i don't want to be
[59:41 - 59:43] let down the same word
[59:43 - 59:45] bro
[59:45 - 59:50] i don't want to be
[59:50 - 59:52] let down the same word
[59:52 - 59:54] bro
[59:54 - 60:05] i don't want to be
[60:05 - 60:07] let down the same word
[60:07 - 60:10] bro
[60:10 - 60:12] love is not enough
[60:12 - 60:15] bring people on everything
[60:15 - 60:17] one of the games
[60:17 - 60:21] you and the stars
[60:21 - 60:23] i don't want to be
[60:23 - 60:25] let down the same word
[60:25 - 60:30] bro
[60:30 - 60:32] i don't want to be
[60:32 - 60:34] let down the same word
[60:34 - 60:36] bro
[60:36 - 60:38] love is not enough
[60:38 - 60:40] bring people on everything
[60:40 - 60:43] one of the games
[60:43 - 60:45] you and the stars
[60:45 - 60:47] i don't want to be
[60:47 - 60:49] let down the same word
[60:49 - 60:51] bro
[60:51 - 60:53] love
[60:53 - 61:27] love is not enough
[61:27 - 61:29] bring people on everything
[61:29 - 61:31] one of the games
[61:31 - 61:34] soyola
[61:34 - 61:36] i don't want to be
[61:36 - 61:40] I want to live that life again
[61:40 - 61:43] Don't want to be that down the same road
[61:43 - 61:45] road road road
[61:45 - 62:03] Don't want to be that down the same road
[62:03 - 62:14] road
[62:14 - 62:19] Hey, you know what? Super
[62:19 - 62:22] Because I'm feeling a little good, you know, man
[62:22 - 62:24] Why don't you do me a favor and
[62:24 - 62:26] Get rid of all the jazz
[62:26 - 63:19] People will tell you
[63:19 - 63:21] Why don't you go get some help?
[63:21 - 63:23] Take some meds
[63:23 - 63:27] Go see the counselor
[63:27 - 63:30] Man, you're not going to put your problems
[63:30 - 63:34] It's inevitable, you understand
[63:34 - 63:37] It's the worst time of day
[63:37 - 63:39] Lately, I've been distant from the world
[63:39 - 63:40] In a quiet place
[63:40 - 63:42] Feels like a very wild differently
[63:42 - 63:43] I can't embrace
[63:43 - 63:45] Too much hurt and all the pain
[63:45 - 63:46] Can you feel my rage?
[63:46 - 63:47] Come on, no one's willing
[63:47 - 63:49] They can spit at me in best case
[63:49 - 63:51] But they can change the best
[63:51 - 63:52] Don't know where to find
[63:52 - 63:53] Keep on dwelling on it
[63:53 - 63:55] Why my thoughts okay to risk
[63:55 - 63:57] Why my best friend has to die?
[63:57 - 63:58] God, can you even get to this?
[63:58 - 63:59] Why am I much better than
[63:59 - 64:01] I don't know my less relationship?
[64:01 - 64:02] You and me, I'm a drone
[64:02 - 64:04] Take a shot, I'm C and W
[64:04 - 64:05] Be in my throat, a problem
[64:05 - 64:06] Reason I can never stand
[64:06 - 64:07] I'm not a drone
[64:07 - 64:08] Full of stroke
[64:08 - 64:09] And I can promise
[64:09 - 64:10] Stay in the mood
[64:10 - 64:11] If I'm full of drones
[64:11 - 64:13] I'll miss how I fuck you too
[64:13 - 64:14] Do my thoughts, get rid of kids
[64:14 - 64:16] Just believe I would be dead
[64:16 - 64:17] I ain't mouth, you're saving lives
[64:17 - 64:19] Yeah, and sometimes I forget
[64:19 - 64:20] That my demons can't complain
[64:20 - 64:22] I'm barely hanging by a thread
[64:22 - 64:23] Maybe I should pull this trigger
[64:23 - 64:24] It doesn't even matter
[64:24 - 64:25] I'm on the rest
[64:25 - 64:26] If you lost in the music
[64:26 - 64:28] It's a bad feeling
[64:28 - 64:29] They ain't gonna lie
[64:29 - 64:31] I don't know if I can do this
[64:32 - 64:34] Would I rise, would I fall?
[64:34 - 64:35] Would I rise, would I fall?
[64:35 - 64:37] I don't know anymore
[64:37 - 64:42] I ain't no president
[64:42 - 64:44] What's in our dream, man?
[64:44 - 64:46] Would I rise, would I fall?
[64:46 - 64:48] Would I rise, would I fall?
[64:48 - 64:50] I don't know anymore
[64:50 - 64:52] I know you got any memories
[64:52 - 64:54] I can see in your eyes
[64:54 - 64:55] You can't even see yourself
[64:55 - 64:56] That's on you
[64:56 - 64:58] So you go around a little
[64:58 - 65:00] Toss and turn and then we're not debating
[65:00 - 65:01] If it even helps
[65:01 - 65:02] You quit the party
[65:02 - 65:04] Put the drugs, put the refa
[65:04 - 65:06] And now you think it's probably solved
[65:06 - 65:07] Cause you change the people
[65:07 - 65:08] You wake your miserable
[65:08 - 65:10] Say you're feeding up for evil
[65:10 - 65:11] You ain't denying it
[65:11 - 65:13] Like a promise you'll be always peaceful
[65:13 - 65:14] What about my family?
[65:14 - 65:15] I can't even mean it
[65:15 - 65:16] Is that right?
[65:16 - 65:17] This is how the numbers
[65:17 - 65:19] Won't forget about you anyway
[65:19 - 65:20] What about my fans?
[65:20 - 65:22] In the effect I would need on them
[65:22 - 65:23] Find another source
[65:23 - 65:24] Do not worry
[65:24 - 65:25] They will love the man
[65:25 - 65:26] It's better if you go
[65:26 - 65:28] Do not act like you have any friends
[65:28 - 65:29] If it's only this
[65:29 - 65:30] This is it
[65:30 - 65:31] Please take my hand
[65:31 - 65:32] Of course it's taking a lot
[65:32 - 65:33] Or you can't fight in business
[65:33 - 65:34] Sign me with
[65:34 - 65:35] Show me you're on the darker side
[65:35 - 65:36] Through the street
[65:36 - 65:37] Get lit up
[65:37 - 65:38] Get lost in the dark
[65:38 - 65:47] Would I rise, would I fall?
[65:47 - 65:49] I don't know anymore
[65:49 - 65:52] Perfection versus pain
[65:52 - 65:55] Man, what's in our dream, man?
[65:55 - 65:57] Would I rise, would I fall?
[65:57 - 65:59] Would I rise, would I fall?
[65:59 - 66:01] I don't know anymore
[66:02 - 66:04] Did I give it up though?
[66:04 - 66:07] Did I give it up though?
[66:08 - 66:10] Did I give it up though?
[66:11 - 66:13] Did I give it up though?
[66:14 - 66:15] Would I rise, would I fall?
[66:15 - 66:17] Would I rise, would I fall?
[66:17 - 67:26] I don't know anymore
[67:26 - 67:27] What can I do for you today?
[67:27 - 67:29] I just need someone to take this angel off
[67:29 - 67:30] And I'll be on my way
[67:30 - 67:32] I can't just give them to you
[67:32 - 67:33] I don't know anymore
[67:33 - 67:35] Every single man
[67:35 - 67:37] Wraps me in cases
[67:37 - 67:38] I ain't been defeated
[67:38 - 67:40] Defeated with my demons
[67:40 - 67:42] I'm just looking way to achieve it
[67:42 - 67:44] I should put strength into my brain
[67:44 - 67:46] And squeeze it as far as I know
[67:46 - 67:48] When they come and don't say
[67:48 - 67:49] But someone damn it
[67:49 - 67:51] Is a revenge tank
[67:51 - 67:53] I'm blinded into these other hands
[67:53 - 67:57] Are I fine?
[67:57 - 67:58] How does that make you feel?
[67:58 - 68:00] These days, I just don't feel safe
[68:00 - 68:02] I don't feel anything at all
[68:02 - 68:03] I don't feel like I deserve this
[68:03 - 68:04] That's why I need my face
[68:04 - 68:06] So I can just feel something
[68:06 - 68:07] I didn't drop the word
[68:07 - 68:08] If you try to smile
[68:09 - 68:11] You gon' quit
[68:12 - 68:13] Brag it on forehead
[68:13 - 68:14] To take this last breath
[68:14 - 68:50] And you go berserk
[68:50 - 68:51] I swear to God
[68:51 - 68:52] Nobody can fix this shit
[68:52 - 68:53] Not even the church
[68:53 - 68:55] You gotta tell me what you wanna fast
[68:55 - 68:56] And you accept me mad
[68:56 - 68:57] And you can tell it ain't sick
[68:57 - 69:02] So admit it
[69:10 - 69:15] What is it?
[69:15 - 69:16] What is it?
[69:16 - 69:17] What is it?
[69:47 - 69:49] We're all walking down that door
[69:49 - 72:50] What about three years of the same dream, getting it in the same way?
[72:50 - 72:56] In this dreams, you are conscious or you are just a part of the same.
[72:56 - 73:03] Are you aware that you are in a dream or you are just, when you wake up, you realize that it's a dream?
[73:03 - 73:08] That's what gets confusing because I'm able to tell that I'm not in a fake world,
[73:08 - 73:12] but it doesn't feel like I'm invisible either. That makes sense at all.
[73:12 - 73:15] How about your senses? Are they working?
[73:15 - 73:23] Yeah. I can smell, I can touch, I can feel, I can hear. The only thing I don't do is eat.
[73:23 - 73:34] Is there any woman ever there, under no wings, come from, or where is it going?
[73:34 - 73:42] That's me. Let me try something. I want you to close your eyes, relax, and breathe slowly.
[73:42 - 73:47] If you listen to my voice, I want you to imagine you could be seen.
[74:53 - 75:14] I'm not in a fake world. I'm not in a fake world. I'm not in a fake world.
[75:14 - 75:42] My clothing and clothes, for this little child of mine, cause she's over two
[75:42 - 75:47] I need a lot more to do
[75:47 - 75:53] Put your position up to me, set the kitchen up real quick
[75:53 - 75:57] You know what's in it, trying to reach your purpose
[75:57 - 76:01] My penis don't sleep at night, all I can say is you weren't really trying to see God
[76:01 - 76:07] Couldn't know whether I'm gonna preach God
[76:07 - 76:10] In a minute we'll find a sicker, I'm fighting to preach God
[76:10 - 76:15] Sit there convinced that you couldn't preach God
[76:15 - 76:18] Meet God
[76:18 - 76:21] From church to church to church to preach God
[76:21 - 76:24] Didn't ever want to lose love to preach God
[76:24 - 76:27] Preach God
[76:27 - 76:30] These people know a lot but never hear this trace God
[76:30 - 76:33] Cause they don't even know you can't God
[76:33 - 78:24] I'm fighting, I'm fighting on night
[78:24 - 78:31] Did you guys ever feel like you can't do something
[78:31 - 78:33] Just remember this
[78:33 - 78:38] The only person that's holding you back is yourself
[78:38 - 78:45] Don't let these motherfuckers push you around
[78:45 - 78:48] Don't let these assholes go at you
[78:48 - 78:50] Don't let them bully you
[78:50 - 78:52] Don't let them push you around
[78:52 - 78:57] The only person who can stop you is yourself
[78:57 - 79:00] So don't let these motherfuckers get in your way
[79:00 - 79:04] Cause you're better than that
[79:04 - 79:13] You're above them
[79:13 - 79:18] You guys, you're above them
[79:18 - 79:21] All you guys that have been bullied and pushed around
[79:21 - 79:24] You're better than they are for fucking share
[79:24 - 79:26] You guys are worse than them
[79:26 - 79:28] You guys are fucking awesome
[79:28 - 79:30] You guys are fucking amazing
[79:30 - 79:33] And every single one of you that's like me
[79:33 - 79:38] Every one of you motherfuckers is what pushes me
[79:38 - 79:44] Every one of you motherfuckers is what inspires me
[79:44 - 79:48] And what pushes me to do what I do
[79:48 - 79:53] And I'm gonna continue doing that to the fucking death of me
[79:53 - 79:57] I don't care if I say 31 years old
[79:57 - 80:00] Or if I reach a thousand or a hundred years old
[80:00 - 80:01] I don't care
[80:01 - 80:03] Until I'm dead in the ground
[80:03 - 80:05] I'm gonna keep doing this
[80:05 - 80:09] I'm gonna keep helping people as much as I possibly fucking can
[80:09 - 80:23] I'm gonna keep on going as long as I fucking can
[80:23 - 80:31] And there ain't gonna be a damn motherfucker that's gonna stop me
[80:31 - 80:34] Cause I'm here for those that get bullied
[80:34 - 80:38] I know a lot of you guys think that this is some sort of act
[80:38 - 80:42] That I'm just putting on a show but this is not an act to me
[80:42 - 80:45] This is very fucking real
[80:45 - 80:47] Cause I see too many YouTubers
[80:47 - 80:50] I have too many people in general getting bullied
[80:50 - 80:52] Every fucking day
[80:52 - 80:55] And quite honestly, I'm sick of seeing it
[80:55 - 80:57] No one deserves to get bullied
[80:57 - 80:58] Ever
[80:58 - 81:04] I do this shit for them
[81:04 - 81:12] I do this for those that are like me that get bullied
[81:12 - 81:16] I do all this shit for them
[81:16 - 81:20] Every day when I wake up
[81:20 - 81:23] Two things cross my fucking mind
[81:23 - 81:28] The first two things that cross my mind are this
[81:28 - 81:31] One, what bullshit am I gonna have to put up with
[81:31 - 81:35] And two, how can I fucking help someone like myself
[81:35 - 81:38] How can I help those that get fucking bullied
[81:38 - 81:41] How can I put an end to this bullshit
[81:41 - 82:05] That every one of us goes through
[82:05 - 82:07] And you think this is a reality
[82:07 - 82:09] But here's a reality check for you
[82:09 - 82:12] This is reality motherfucker
[82:12 - 82:23] See, your perception on reality is very very wrong
[82:23 - 82:29] My last minute, my last minute or however you say
[82:29 - 82:32] That's what you don't seem to understand
[82:32 - 82:37] Is that your perception of reality is a real perception
[82:37 - 82:42] As then clouded by your perception of reality
[82:42 - 82:47] See, you think that your reality is wrong
[82:47 - 82:52] You think that the real world doesn't go on
[82:52 - 82:55] On this platform, but it actually does
[82:55 - 82:59] YouTube is real life
[82:59 - 83:01] You might think that the internet isn't real life
[83:01 - 83:04] But it actually is very real
[83:04 - 83:08] The internet is a living, breathing entity
[83:08 - 83:10] That we control
[83:10 - 83:16] After all, the internet is what gave you
[83:16 - 83:18] Your power to bully
[83:18 - 83:23] You use the internet for your own selfish gain
[83:23 - 83:31] You use your own bullshit to attack others
[83:31 - 83:33] And you make it real
[83:33 - 83:38] You make that shit real
[83:38 - 83:52] When you attack someone's family
[83:52 - 83:54] Like mine's been attacked
[83:54 - 83:57] How is that not real?
[83:57 - 83:59] How is that not reality?
[83:59 - 84:03] Everything that you do on the internet
[84:03 - 84:05] Is some way shit before
[84:05 - 84:07] Affects your life
[84:07 - 84:10] Therefore, it affects reality
[84:10 - 84:14] And that's something that you're not under
[84:14 - 84:16] That's something that y'all shows don't understand
[84:16 - 84:19] Everything you do on here
[84:20 - 84:23] Has an effect on someone's real life
[84:23 - 84:25] In some way, shape or form
[84:25 - 84:30] It has an effect
[84:30 - 84:35] And I'm a living example of that
[84:35 - 84:40] I am a very much a real living example of that
[84:40 - 84:43] Take what glory hold did to me
[84:43 - 84:46] How we attacked my family
[84:46 - 84:49] Take what mass home reports did to me
[84:49 - 84:52] That had a very real effect on me
[84:52 - 84:55] A very real effect
[84:55 - 84:57] So don't think that what you do on here
[84:57 - 84:59] Doesn't apply to the real world
[84:59 - 85:01] Because it does
[85:01 - 85:03] Whether it's positive
[85:03 - 85:05] And a good thing
[85:05 - 85:07] Or negative and a bad thing
[85:07 - 85:09] In some way, shape or form
[85:09 - 85:11] Everything you do has an effect
[85:11 - 85:13] On the real world
[85:13 - 85:16] Or on someone's very real life
[85:16 - 85:19] Why you think I'm more careful now
[85:19 - 85:21] More than ever before
[85:21 - 85:23] Why you think I'm more careful now
[85:23 - 85:25] About what I fucking do
[85:25 - 85:33] So don't think that the internet
[85:33 - 85:36] Isn't the real world because it is
[85:36 - 85:48] Y'all think that the internet is
[85:48 - 85:50] All an illusion
[85:50 - 85:53] All a delusional thing and fake
[85:53 - 85:56] Well, let me ask you this
[85:56 - 86:17] Somebody had to create the internet, right?
[86:17 - 86:19] Someone had to create it
[86:19 - 86:24] And that person that created it
[86:24 - 86:30] See, there's a little
[86:30 - 86:36] There's a little philosophy that I would buy
[86:36 - 86:44] Al Gore says he created it
[86:44 - 86:46] Oh my God, bro
[86:46 - 86:50] That's so fucking cool
[86:50 - 86:53] That's a good one
[86:53 - 86:55] But you see, there's a little quote
[86:55 - 86:57] Well, philosophy
[86:57 - 87:01] That I created
[87:01 - 87:03] That I live by
[87:03 - 87:07] The internet is like a child
[87:07 - 87:11] The internet is like a baby child
[87:11 - 87:14] It doesn't know right from wrong
[87:14 - 87:16] It doesn't know any better
[87:16 - 87:18] Some people like myself
[87:18 - 87:23] Use the internet for good
[87:23 - 87:26] Other people like
[87:26 - 87:29] Mass hall reports and William
[87:29 - 87:31] Glory hall use it for evil
[87:31 - 87:33] But my question to you is this
[87:33 - 87:36] Which side do you choose
[87:36 - 87:40] Do you choose to do good with it
[87:40 - 87:42] And empower people
[87:42 - 87:44] And empower people
[87:44 - 87:46] And actually help people
[87:46 - 87:48] Or are you going to sit there
[87:48 - 87:50] And use it for evil
[87:50 - 87:53] And attack people and be selfish
[87:53 - 87:55] Because the internet only does
[87:55 - 87:58] What you fucking tell it to
[87:58 - 88:01] The internet does what you fucking tell it to
[88:01 - 88:04] Us the people control it
[88:04 - 88:06] It doesn't control us
[88:06 - 88:08] We control it
[88:08 - 88:11] As I said, the internet doesn't know
[88:11 - 88:15] The internet, except what we tell it
[88:15 - 88:18] So at the end of the day, essentially
[88:18 - 88:21] The internet is like a baby child
[88:21 - 88:24] It doesn't know any better
[88:24 - 88:27] So what are you going to do
[88:27 - 88:29] Teach it for good
[88:29 - 88:32] To help humanity and to help people
[88:32 - 88:34] And to better human life
[88:34 - 88:37] And to better the human race
[88:37 - 88:39] Or are you going to use it for evil
[88:39 - 88:42] And try to destroy it
[88:42 - 88:49] Only you have the power to decide
[88:49 - 88:51] Me?
[88:51 - 88:53] I'm using it for good
[88:53 - 88:56] I don't know what y'all
[88:56 - 88:59] But I'm using the internet for as much good
[88:59 - 89:01] As I possibly can
[89:01 - 89:04] And I'm going to continue to do so
[89:04 - 89:09] For the rest of my life
[89:09 - 89:11] Make your choice
[89:11 - 89:15] Good or evil
[89:15 - 89:17] You decide