Original upload date: January 4th, 2021 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:29] [Silence]
[0:29 - 0:40] You guys really are pathetic. You know that? The whole lot of you are pathetic as fuck.
[0:52 - 1:09] And as the title says, I am not only calling out Marty, I'm calling out all your little followers too. Your little army if you will. Your pathetic bullshit army.
[1:14 - 1:23] Which, I find that your followers are a joke.
[1:23 - 1:33] You see, I was sitting here working on a rough sketch for an art stream later on when I came across Marty doing what he does.
[1:33 - 1:38] And I decided to peek into the comments.
[1:38 - 1:49] Now, let's go through the list of names that I'm about to call out here.
[1:49 - 2:14] First off, Tangerine Cat, Classic Games Canada, Michael Tucker, Vanelli, Robert California, Suey and Acres, obviously, Jess Miss Jamie, Tangerine Cat again, Tim G-Star, Gina Winstar,
[2:14 - 2:20] Tangerine Bear again, and Tangerine Cat again.
[2:20 - 2:48] Toni Hepburn. Hepburn, how the fuck you say it? Nick, Pompa, Gloria, or some shit. Misty Harvey, Puffy Woolwood, don't even know who the fuck that is.
[2:48 - 3:04] Y'all motherfuckers, every one of you is delusional as fuck. You really are.
[3:04 - 3:18] Every one of you motherfuckers is stupid and ignorant as fuck. Not to mention your blind is a fucking bat.
[3:18 - 3:29] Like, do you not see that Marty is full of shit? Like, do you not see that? Do you not see how delusional this fucking moron really is?
[3:29 - 3:40] Like, did you not hear what he said? Did you not hear his words that came out of his mouth?
[3:40 - 3:52] Now see, I know I wouldn't let Marty get a word in edgewise, and there's a reason for that. It's because everything that comes out of his mouth is a goddamn lie.
[3:52 - 4:12] Every time, he does nothing but lie about me over and over and over again, just to attack me. Like, y'all think this is some sort of funny game but the truth is, it's really not.
[4:12 - 4:25] Alright, yes, I will admit, I accused Marty of killing Jamie, okay? I'll admit that, and I take responsibility and accountability for that. 100%.
[4:25 - 4:51] What I did was wrong, but as a man, I came out, and I apologized to him as a man. I came to him personally in front of Chris Kay and Jasmine Monique on Discord, and I apologized to him as a man.
[4:51 - 5:03] I didn't, you know, I didn't necessarily have to, but I did, because I'm man enough to admit when I'm wrong.
[5:03 - 5:25] I'm man enough to say hey, I was wrong in doing what I did, therefore I came to him and I apologized to him personally, on Discord, in front of two people that know him, which is Jasmine Monique and Crypt Kay.
[5:25 - 5:35] I sat right there in front of both of them and Marty himself and apologized to Marty for what I did to him.
[5:35 - 5:51] And what did he do? He sat there in front of both of them and said that he forgave me. That should have been the end of it, right? Wrong.
[5:51 - 6:02] Instead of being an adult about it, and letting things go, and moving on with his life, what does this man decide to do?
[6:02 - 6:26] This man decides to attack me by stealing private videos between me and my ex Megan, uploading them to Pornhub twice in a row. Twice in a row I had to get the videos taken down.
[6:26 - 6:40] Which I do have screen, still have screenshots of those videos being out there. I do still have screenshots of that shit.
[6:40 - 6:50] Now, something else y'all don't realize, as a matter of fact, here's one of the trolls right here.
[6:50 - 7:02] And Tangerine Cat, what you don't understand is that this man is delusional. And I'm about to go even further into what this man did.
[7:02 - 7:19] I'm about to go into further detail into what this man did. Not only did he steal private videos and upload them to Pornhub, this man decided to take things even further.
[7:19 - 7:35] He took things even further by going behind mine and who was supposed to be my fianc�, Caitlin's, back, attacked her family, spreading rumors about me.
[7:35 - 8:01] To where about, I'd say 50 to 80% of her family has disowned her because of the drama. She's no longer with me because of her family, because they hate me for no reason, and they flat out told her to either get out and live on the streets or leave me, and she has no place to go.
[8:01 - 8:15] So she had no choice but to leave me. And not only that, what else did Marty do? He sat there and repeatedly made me out to be a joke.
[8:15 - 8:39] He attacked my family by hacking my Facebook. Somehow or other, finding a photo of my stepdad's truck, posting it up for sale.
[8:39 - 8:52] He sat there, sent me rope in a bag, which I do still have the last word from that. It's called Serious Talk with CryptK. Go back and watch it. You'll see exactly what it's about.
[8:52 - 9:17] But if you didn't allow me to explain it to you in retrospect, this man sat there, sent me a thing of rope, and then sat there and proceeded to admit live on YouTube that he sent it, and then proceeded to tell me to go kill myself.
[9:17 - 9:39] Now you compare what I did to him to what he did to me. Which one do you think is worse? What I did to him or what he has done and how he attacked my personal life, attacked my family, and has been trying to rip everything from me for years.
[9:39 - 9:56] He sits there and he acts like he's this all perfect person, but the truth is he's not. This guy is a fucking narcissist. He's obsessed.
[9:56 - 10:06] And yeah, you're right, Tangerine Cat. Hurt is subjective, but that still does not give him the right to take things as far as he did.
[10:06 - 10:16] What he did to me, I would never in a million years even think about doing to him.
[10:16 - 10:29] And it doesn't matter how much I hurt him, that does not give him any right, any right at all, to do what he fucking did, at all whatsoever.
[10:29 - 10:40] Have this shit that he's done to me, I would never think about even doing to my worst enemy, at all.
[10:40 - 11:04] And he wonders why he's on the edge of possibly going to jail. He wonders why that myself and Jenny are actually talking to an investigator today at some point and having him arrested.
[11:04 - 11:13] It's because of the shit that he has done to me, and this isn't the first time this man has attacked me for years and years.
[11:13 - 11:20] This goes beyond just what he's done now. The history between me and him goes farther back.
[11:20 - 11:35] The history with this man goes back to 2017. This man has held me back from my true potential and what I want to do with my life.
[11:35 - 11:49] This man has literally had PayPal accounts and bank accounts of mine shut down for fraudulent pretenses.
[11:49 - 12:13] Basically, this man has had my merchandise shops shut down on bogus claims. My old PayPal account, which I had to make several more because of him, this man has had almost all my PayPal accounts shut down every time I start to get somewhere.
[12:13 - 12:21] This man decides to go in and try to hold me back.
[12:21 - 12:34] I literally have had to sit here and spend more time battling this man than I have actually putting work into something I need to be doing.
[12:34 - 12:49] So I tell you right now, if it wasn't for this man holding me back, do you not realize that I would actually be making money off my artwork? I would be making money off my music.
[12:49 - 13:01] This man has cost me record deal after record deal, making me look like shit, making me look like I'm unmanageable, but really I'm not.
[13:01 - 13:09] I'm not an unmanageable person, but he makes me out to be this monster that I'm not.
[13:09 - 13:27] Who's the real monster here? I want you guys to ask yourselves this. Who's the real monster here? Myself, who, when I did what I did wrong, came to Marty and apologized to him?
[13:27 - 13:47] Or is it the man, Marty, who attacked me, attacked my family, caused my fiancee, my ex-fiancee's family, to literally disown her?
[13:47 - 14:08] The man who told me to go kill myself after sending a thing of rope, which is in his bag tied up for evidence for the investigators and the prosecutors?
[14:08 - 14:18] Now, you tell me who's the monster. You tell me who the real monster is here.
[14:18 - 14:26] Because I can tell you for a fact, half the shit that he's done to me, I would never do to my worst enemy. At all.
[14:26 - 14:35] I wouldn't send my worst enemy a thing of rope like this and tell them to go kill themselves.
[14:35 - 14:53] The only reason why I attacked Marty like I did, is because he pushed me to that point.
[14:53 - 14:59] He pushed me to that point of telling him those things that I told him.
[14:59 - 15:06] Yes, I told him that he needs to go fucking die. I told him to go kill himself many times over.
[15:06 - 15:32] But the reason why I did it is because he pushed me to that point by attacking me, badgering me, attacking my fiancee, attacking her family, attacking my family, going after my friends, costing me my music career that I have to now do independently as an independent artist.
[15:32 - 15:43] Because no label will fuck with me or want to work with me because of the false rumors that Marty has gone and spread about me.
[15:43 - 16:01] You see how fucked up that shit is? You see how fucked up Marty's mind is? He thinks that he's justifying what he did to me by using what I did to him.
[16:01 - 16:09] He's basically trying to sit there and say, "Oh, what I did to you is nothing compared to what you did to me." That's not true.
[16:09 - 16:20] Sitting there and sending somebody some rope and telling them to go kill themselves live on a live stream, that's way too far for one.
[16:20 - 16:36] Two, going around and posting someone's private videos that you stole from their personal Facebook that you had to hack into to get it.
[16:36 - 16:43] And then posting those private videos up on porn sites like Pornhub.
[16:43 - 16:50] Not to mention I'm pretty sure there isn't only fans by now knowing him.
[16:50 - 16:57] But you don't think that shit isn't fucked up?
[16:57 - 17:08] With the shit that he did to me, I would never in a million years do to him. I wouldn't sit there and hack his Facebook and post up his private videos for the whole world to see.
[17:08 - 17:16] I wouldn't sit there and send him some rope and tell him to go fucking kill himself on a live stream.
[17:16 - 17:27] I wouldn't fucking do that shit. As I said, the reason why I lashed out at him like I did was because he pushed me to that point.
[17:27 - 17:38] He made me out to be a monster that I'm not.
[17:38 - 17:46] He made me out to be something that I'm not.
[17:46 - 17:59] Because you can ask anybody here that knows me outside of YouTube. You can ask my boy Ace Faz, you can ask Crypt Kay, you can ask Jasmine Monique, you can ask anybody that knows me outside of YouTube.
[17:59 - 18:05] I'm the chillest motherfucker there is. I'm chill as fuck.
[18:05 - 18:11] I really am. I'm the nicest guy that you will ever meet in your whole fucking life.
[18:11 - 18:13] I really am.
[18:13 - 18:23] But just like everyone else on this planet, when you push you to a certain point, just like anybody else, I'm gonna snap.
[18:23 - 18:32] I'm gonna let loose. I'm gonna be ruthless. I'm gonna be relentless when it comes to people like that.
[18:32 - 18:41] Did I want to be a ruthless monster? Did I want to be that evil person that he's making me out to be? No.
[18:41 - 18:49] But everybody has a breaking point and Marty hit mine by doing the shit that he did to me.
[18:49 - 19:04] He caused me my fucking music career to where I have to do everything independent on my own now with no money backing, no label backing, except the label that me and my friends created.
[19:04 - 19:14] I have to do everything on my own from the ground up because of the stigma that Marty has placed on me, which is false.
[19:14 - 19:29] See, Marty is making me out to be a bad guy. And I'm really not.
[19:29 - 19:37] I'm not a bad guy. I'm really not.
[19:37 - 19:45] Hell, you can ask my boy Voodoo Ninja.
[19:45 - 19:50] Hell, matter of fact, go over to his livestream from yesterday. Check out Voodoo Ninja.
[19:50 - 20:03] I was over there kicking it with him, having a good time, hanging out, hanging out with our friends, hanging out with him and his wife, who are both very good friends of mine outside of YouTube.
[20:03 - 20:09] I know them both personally through Facebook. They're both very good friends of mine.
[20:09 - 20:13] You can ask him.
[20:13 - 20:17] I'm a very nice person.
[20:17 - 20:20] I'm one of the nicest motherfuckers you'll ever meet.
[20:20 - 20:36] But just like anyone else, you push me to that certain point, I'm going to snap.
[20:36 - 20:49] But I'll be straight up honest. I'm the kind of person that will literally give you the shirt off my motherfucking back if you need it.
[20:49 - 21:04] I'm the kind of person that if I see a homeless person that doesn't have anything and it's truly a homeless person, I'll give them the shirt off my back or whatever money I can.
[21:04 - 21:15] I'm the kind of person that works with nonprofit organizations like Operation Smile.
[21:15 - 21:27] And if you guys don't know what Operation Smile is, they travel around the world giving surgeries to kids and adults with cleft lip and cleft palate.
[21:27 - 21:40] I've been working with them for as long as I can remember, honestly. I was about maybe 14, 15 when I first started doing charity work with them.
[21:40 - 21:43] And I've been doing work with them ever since.
[21:43 - 21:53] Before Heather had my channel taken down, I had done a video for them. I had done a documentary for them.
[21:53 - 22:01] I had compiled a bunch of clips they wanted me to put together and I had put together a documentary for them.
[22:01 - 22:08] I've done local missions here around the Akron area with them multiple times.
[22:08 - 22:17] So Operation Smile is one of the biggest nonprofit organizations that's very close to me.
[22:17 - 22:22] Because when I see those kids, I see myself.
[22:22 - 22:34] Because when I see those kids and how people judge them, I automatically feel bad for them because I've been there.
[22:34 - 22:52] I've been in that position.
[22:52 - 23:08] You know, I've been judged. I've been ridiculed most of my life. So I can relate to those kids on a very, very deep level.
[23:08 - 23:13] Matter of fact, this is something that not many people know about.
[23:13 - 23:20] This is when I was going to church with a good friend of mine who I still keep in contact with.
[23:20 - 23:31] Me and her were at a local Akron Zips baseball game downtown with our church.
[23:31 - 23:36] It was either a softball game or a baseball game. I can't remember which. It was one of the two.
[23:36 - 23:42] But it was a local team from here in Akron.
[23:42 - 23:47] Our pastor had given us all money to go get, you know, something to eat.
[23:47 - 23:54] Me and my friend Sam, the one that I was telling you about, me and her went to go grab a bite to eat at the stands.
[23:54 - 24:01] On our way out there, I see Operation Smile, you know, up there.
[24:01 - 24:10] You know, I've seen them out there doing some shit.
[24:10 - 24:18] And why not? So I was like, yo, like, maybe I can go talk to these guys and try to set something up, which ultimately I did.
[24:18 - 24:24] I wound up doing a local mission with them that following month.
[24:24 - 24:37] But, you know, instead of taking my money and getting something to eat,
[24:37 - 24:43] I gave it to them to help out, to help them out.
[24:43 - 24:54] And as I was walking away, two of my bullies that I had dealt with in high school started attacking this little kid that they had there with them,
[24:54 - 25:03] who had cleft with, and they started attacking this poor kid and re-killing them so bad.
[25:03 - 25:11] And this kid was in fucking tears to the point where I couldn't just walk away.
[25:11 - 25:21] So I literally walked back over there and I grabbed my fucking old school bullies by the fucking shirt and I yanked them away from that kid.
[25:21 - 25:31] I thought I told them straight to fuck up if I see them ever bullying someone like that again, I would knock their fucking lights out.
[25:31 - 25:41] And that child's parents actually thanked me for what I fucking did because nobody stood up for their child like that.
[25:41 - 25:52] I know what it's like to be different. I know what it's like to be ridiculed. And that's why Operation Smile is so fucking close to me.
[25:52 - 26:00] Because I know what it's like to be different. I know what it's like to be judged by society. I know what it's like to be an outcast.
[26:00 - 26:10] I've been an outcast my whole fucking life. My whole life, I've been an outcast. I've been ridiculed. I've been judged.
[26:10 - 26:22] I know what that's like. Why do you think I stand up for people like myself against people like Marty?
[26:22 - 26:34] Because nobody deserves to be ridiculed or judged or attacked the way that Marty has done me.
[26:34 - 26:52] No one deserves what he's done to me or anyone else that he's attacked, including Suplex City Walks. No one deserves the shit that he put me through. Nobody deserves that at all.
[26:52 - 27:08] And I've asked this man many times to fuck off.
[27:08 - 27:36] Even after I asked this man several times,
[27:36 - 27:47] to back off, what does this man do?
[27:47 - 27:54] What does this man fucking do? After me asking him several times to back off, what does he do?
[27:54 - 28:07] He sits there and attacks me.
[28:07 - 28:18] No, man, I'm hiding his bitch ass for a reason, A-Spaz. Now, if you unhide him again, I'm unmodding you, Spaz. Straight up.
[28:18 - 28:34] Leave him banned or I'm yanking your wrench, bro. I haven't fucking hid for a reason because he's not worth my fucking breath or energy.
[28:34 - 28:44] I have more important shit to worry about than his fake ass.
[28:44 - 28:55] And Ryan, that's what you think.
[28:55 - 29:07] You know, Supaz, you gotta go.
[29:07 - 29:23] Now, would anybody else like to challenge my authority? Would anyone else like to try their hand?
[29:23 - 29:35] When I've banned somebody, there's a good reason.
[29:35 - 29:51] Yo, memorabilia, what's good, bro?
[29:51 - 29:58] It don't matter whether he's a supporter or not. When I've banned somebody, there's a good reason for it.
[29:58 - 30:04] Plain and simple. I have no time for the negativity.
[30:04 - 30:08] I have no time for it.
[30:08 - 30:17] The only thing I have time for is my success. The only thing I have time for is shutting down bullies like Marty.
[30:17 - 30:38] The only thing I have time for is my music career.
[30:38 - 30:46] Let me tell you right now, Supaz, you ain't helping shit. You ain't trying to help me succeed.
[30:46 - 30:57] Let me tell you right now, the reason why, as a matter of fact, I actually explained this in my earlier livestream as to why I will not face camp time racing.
[30:57 - 31:05] Because I found out that him and Marty are working together and Marty was going to have him cheat to fucking win.
[31:05 - 31:19] I will not race somebody that is going to cheat their way just to fucking win.
[31:19 - 31:28] I will not sit there and face somebody that has to fucking cheat to win because I don't believe in cheating at all.
[31:28 - 31:35] If you have to cheat to win, then you're a piece of trash anyway. You never should have stepped up.
[31:35 - 31:43] I refuse to race somebody like him who's a cheater and a snake.
[31:43 - 31:50] He's not worth my time. I have more important opponents that I can face.
[31:50 - 31:57] I have real drivers that actually work hard on the F1 series that I can face.
[31:57 - 32:07] Plain and simple. If you want more info, go watch the fucking last livestream where I explained as to why I will not face him.
[32:07 - 32:11] And what I just told you is just the tip of the fucking iceberg.
[32:11 - 32:16] If you want more info, go watch the rest of that live.
[32:16 - 32:21] But like I said, I will not stand by and be bullied anymore.
[32:21 - 32:28] I refuse to be held back and bullied.
[32:28 - 32:57] Yeah, I know, dude. Everybody tell me I need to try. As a matter of fact, you know what, James, I'll give you Camtown's wrench, bro. I'll give you Devon's wrench.
[32:57 - 33:24] But like I said, I said it once and I'll say it again, this year is my year to succeed and I'm not going to let anything get in the way of that.
[33:24 - 33:37] Y'all saw how hard I worked to get that win yesterday over all those other drivers. Y'all saw how hard I fucking worked to get that win.
[33:37 - 33:46] And I'm working just as hard to make my dreams of making it in music and as an actual competitor in gaming a reality.
[33:46 - 33:54] Yes, my music career is going to be taking off here in March once I get the physical copies.
[33:54 - 34:04] Yes, next week when I get my PayPal card, I will be actually doing pre-orders for my upcoming album that's dropping in March, Shadowborn.
[34:04 - 34:16] I will be doing that shit and I will be damned if I let a little punk bitch like Marty or his little fucking doonies fucking ruin that shit for me.
[34:16 - 34:21] Ain't no way I'm being stopped.
[34:21 - 34:29] Ain't no way I'm holding back.
[34:29 - 34:34] I'm not going to sit back and be held back anymore.
[34:34 - 34:45] And I'm sorry to say, but if you support Marty and you support the shit that he does out the door.
[34:45 - 34:50] You want to know why? Because I have no time for bullshit.
[34:50 - 35:05] I have no time for fuck shit. I have no time for bullshit games.
[35:05 - 35:12] Matter of fact,
[35:12 - 35:41] I got something for you.
[35:41 - 36:10] See, I'm going to find the hair.
[36:10 - 36:39] See, where's that?
[36:39 - 37:04] I'm going to find the hair.
[37:05 - 37:06] And this is...
[37:07 - 57:19] We are going to find the hair.
[57:20 - 57:22] That is the only irony I see.
[57:22 - 57:39] Go back and watch the last live stream.
[57:39 - 57:41] Watch the stream all the way through.
[57:41 - 57:43] I actually explained a lot of it.
[57:47 - 57:49] As a matter of fact,
[57:49 - 57:51] I want you guys to hear something
[57:51 - 57:54] that not a lot of people want to hear
[57:54 - 57:56] but is actually very true.
[57:56 - 58:09] I want you all to actually sit down
[58:09 - 58:11] and pay attention to what this man said.
[58:11 - 58:22] See, where the fuck is it?
[58:22 - 58:27] Granted, this is a 17 song.
[58:27 - 58:30] This is like an 18 minute long video
[58:30 - 58:33] but trust me, you will want to watch it.
[58:40 - 58:43] There are a few things I am going to talk about in this video.
[58:43 - 58:45] I am attracted, agitated,
[58:45 - 58:48] but I am also going to give you some advice as well.
[58:48 - 58:50] It might be some harsh advice,
[58:50 - 58:51] but it is still some advice.
[58:51 - 58:53] I still get on here and be an asshole
[58:53 - 58:54] and out some of these people
[58:54 - 58:55] and say a bunch of shit
[58:55 - 58:57] and make a lot of people come to your page
[58:57 - 58:58] and fuck it up.
[58:58 - 58:59] But I am not going to do that.
[58:59 - 59:01] My goal is not to make you fail.
[59:01 - 59:03] I don't want to make you fail
[59:03 - 59:05] because if I try to make you fail
[59:05 - 59:07] and do that to you,
[59:07 - 59:09] it puts negative energy in my life
[59:09 - 59:11] which I don't want
[59:11 - 59:13] because I have some pretty good energy in my life right now.
[59:13 - 59:14] Not only that,
[59:14 - 59:16] it takes away from my personal goals,
[59:16 - 59:18] my personal time for writing music,
[59:18 - 59:20] for making videos and this, that and the other.
[59:20 - 59:22] But I have been seeing some shit lately.
[59:22 - 59:25] It is kind of weird and it is really starting to annoy me.
[59:25 - 59:27] I don't know if it is because my numbers are going up.
[59:27 - 59:29] I don't know if it is because I have an album about to come out.
[59:29 - 59:32] I don't know if it is because I just dropped said fuck it
[59:32 - 59:33] and a link to go
[59:33 - 59:34] and it has almost 3 million views.
[59:34 - 59:35] I don't know why,
[59:35 - 59:37] but we are having a talk right now.
[59:37 - 59:39] Number one, if you are getting into the music industry,
[59:39 - 59:42] here is what not to do Rob the Rep.
[59:42 - 59:43] What you don't do is,
[59:43 - 59:46] make a YouTube name called Ryan Upchurch
[59:46 - 59:50] with the same exact picture as me, Ryan Upchurch
[59:50 - 59:52] and then get into my comments.
[59:52 - 59:54] And that goes for any of us.
[59:54 - 59:56] Hey, do you like country rap tunes?
[59:56 - 59:58] If you do, check out my new music.
[59:58 - 60:00] Check out those fucking new music.
[60:00 - 60:02] What is your name?
[60:02 - 60:03] What do you look like?
[60:03 - 60:05] How do we look you up on iTunes?
[60:05 - 60:07] It is not my music you are posting.
[60:07 - 60:09] It is definitely not my music you are posting.
[60:09 - 60:14] There is no beneficial factor to acting like another artist
[60:14 - 60:17] and then making it the same profile picture,
[60:17 - 60:19] same name and everything,
[60:19 - 60:21] claiming to be us
[60:21 - 60:24] and then posting beginner music.
[60:24 - 60:26] It is okay that it is beginner music.
[60:26 - 60:28] I have beginner music.
[60:28 - 60:30] My album Cheetum County is beginner music.
[60:30 - 60:31] But I didn't say,
[60:31 - 60:32] oh, look at me.
[60:32 - 60:34] I am fucking slim shady.
[60:34 - 60:36] Check out my new country rap tunes.
[60:36 - 60:39] It would be better for you to have your own name
[60:39 - 60:41] and your own picture and your own music
[60:41 - 60:43] and go into other artists' comments and be like,
[60:43 - 60:46] hey, check out my music if you have a chance.
[60:46 - 60:48] I mean, people act like we don't see it,
[60:48 - 60:49] like we don't read comments.
[60:49 - 60:50] We do.
[60:50 - 60:52] And I block them every time.
[60:52 - 60:53] If I block for one,
[60:53 - 60:55] nobody is going to listen to it
[60:55 - 60:57] because they know you are lying, first of all.
[60:57 - 60:59] Second off, people are going to get angry
[60:59 - 61:01] and not want to even give it a chance
[61:01 - 61:03] when you are following somebody that they like
[61:03 - 61:05] and they see you acting like them to promote your shit.
[61:05 - 61:06] That's just not how you do things.
[61:06 - 61:08] So to get this part of the video out of the way,
[61:08 - 61:09] don't do that.
[61:09 - 61:11] Make up your own name.
[61:11 - 61:12] Post a picture of yourself.
[61:12 - 61:15] If you want to promote other artists' shit, fine.
[61:15 - 61:16] Do it.
[61:16 - 61:17] If people click on it, good.
[61:17 - 61:19] If they don't, well, I mean,
[61:19 - 61:21] if you want people to follow your music,
[61:21 - 61:23] you have to make stuff they want to listen to.
[61:23 - 61:25] And this is not a job where it's like,
[61:25 - 61:28] oh, I would just sit back and fucking be lazy all day
[61:28 - 61:30] and eat ho ho cakes and drink from Tokyo
[61:30 - 61:32] and just fucking spit some shit on a drag
[61:32 - 61:33] and give them a bite.
[61:33 - 61:35] I know some people might think it's that easy,
[61:35 - 61:36] but it's not.
[61:36 - 61:37] It's just not.
[61:37 - 61:39] There is a lot of work that goes into this.
[61:39 - 61:42] There's a lot of days you're going to have fucking headaches.
[61:42 - 61:44] There's a lot of times you're going to have writer's block.
[61:44 - 61:46] There's a lot of times you're going to have to brainstorm
[61:46 - 61:48] to figure out what to write about.
[61:48 - 61:50] Not only that, you can't just sit in a fucking room
[61:50 - 61:51] and write songs.
[61:51 - 61:52] You've got to go out and live.
[61:52 - 61:53] You've got to fuck shit up.
[61:53 - 61:54] You've got to fuck up.
[61:54 - 61:55] You've got to win.
[61:55 - 61:56] You've got to do good shit.
[61:56 - 61:58] You've got to go through sketchy situations.
[61:58 - 61:59] You've got to put yourself out there
[61:59 - 62:00] to write these songs.
[62:00 - 62:02] These songs don't write themselves,
[62:02 - 62:04] especially as an independent artist.
[62:04 - 62:06] You have no help as an independent artist.
[62:06 - 62:08] The only person that has your back is you
[62:08 - 62:10] as an independent artist.
[62:10 - 62:12] You don't have people handing you stuff,
[62:12 - 62:15] "I've seen this," or "I've seen this,"
[62:15 - 62:17] or "This one would be a good one to pull the heartstrings."
[62:17 - 62:18] No.
[62:18 - 62:20] As an independent artist, if you want to write songs
[62:20 - 62:21] that pull heartstrings,
[62:21 - 62:23] you have to have your heartstrings pulled.
[62:23 - 62:24] If you want to write a depressing song,
[62:24 - 62:27] you've got to go through a time where you're fucking depressed,
[62:27 - 62:29] which is why my personal philosophy on writing music
[62:29 - 62:32] is you can't sing a song you don't live.
[62:32 - 62:33] You can't.
[62:33 - 62:34] I mean, you can,
[62:34 - 62:38] but your lifespan is going to be this fucking long.
[62:38 - 62:41] In this day and age, if you're not connected
[62:41 - 62:43] with the people who watch you,
[62:43 - 62:46] if you're not singing songs about certain stuff
[62:46 - 62:48] that you're going through in your personal life,
[62:48 - 62:50] how are people going to consistently
[62:50 - 62:53] attach their stuff to you or relate to you?
[62:53 - 62:54] They're not.
[62:54 - 62:57] Every single emotion you go through,
[62:57 - 62:59] it doesn't matter if they're sporadic.
[62:59 - 63:02] You go through a bunch of weird shit in a month.
[63:02 - 63:03] You think there's not people out there
[63:03 - 63:05] that go through a bunch of weird shit in a month?
[63:05 - 63:06] There he is.
[63:06 - 63:08] I mean, dude, times are different.
[63:08 - 63:11] We live in a life now where everything is fake.
[63:11 - 63:13] The person you're meeting on Tinder is fake.
[63:13 - 63:17] The person you watch on whatever is fake.
[63:17 - 63:20] The song that this guy is singing on this show,
[63:20 - 63:21] it's not his song.
[63:21 - 63:22] It's fake.
[63:22 - 63:24] He's singing someone else's fucking song.
[63:24 - 63:26] The person you thank your following,
[63:26 - 63:27] you meet them in real life,
[63:27 - 63:30] and they're nothing like they seem to be in real life.
[63:30 - 63:32] I mean, dude, we're living in a time
[63:32 - 63:35] where independent artists are striving.
[63:35 - 63:36] They're striving.
[63:36 - 63:38] But here's the issue.
[63:38 - 63:41] We have independent artists now
[63:41 - 63:44] that have mainstream attributes,
[63:44 - 63:47] things they were preaching about in the beginning.
[63:47 - 63:49] It's three, four years past.
[63:49 - 63:50] They're not so much preaching
[63:50 - 63:52] about the same things they are anymore,
[63:52 - 63:53] which is fine,
[63:53 - 63:55] but you still have to preach about
[63:55 - 63:57] the things that you're actually going through
[63:57 - 63:59] and the things that you need.
[63:59 - 64:02] You have to draw which one is actually you.
[64:02 - 64:03] Because here's the thing.
[64:03 - 64:05] Because if you're not being you,
[64:05 - 64:07] you don't know what to write about.
[64:07 - 64:09] If you're sitting here brainstorming
[64:09 - 64:10] to be someone you're not,
[64:10 - 64:13] then the ideas are not going to flow out of your brain.
[64:13 - 64:15] You're not going to walk in the studio
[64:15 - 64:17] and execute fucking 10 songs and be like,
[64:17 - 64:19] "Dude, I just did 10 fucking songs."
[64:19 - 64:20] No.
[64:20 - 64:22] You're going to be like, "Oh, wait.
[64:22 - 64:24] Who was I trying to be if I didn't know?
[64:24 - 64:27] I got to write like that person so they think this."
[64:27 - 64:29] And do you see how that becomes a big fucking problem?
[64:29 - 64:31] It's like a big fucking tingly chord.
[64:31 - 64:33] You have to fucking undo.
[64:33 - 64:37] If you just be yourself, you can just free roam.
[64:37 - 64:39] You can wing it.
[64:39 - 64:41] People like seeing people wing it.
[64:41 - 64:44] I've been winging it since the fucking beginning,
[64:44 - 64:47] but winging it has gotten me to this point.
[64:47 - 64:49] Winging it has gotten Hobson to his point.
[64:49 - 64:52] Winging it has gotten Tom McDonald to his point.
[64:52 - 64:54] There is no blueprint.
[64:54 - 64:55] There is no, "Ah, yes.
[64:55 - 64:59] We're going to do this on September 4th at 3.30 a.m."
[64:59 - 65:01] No, dude.
[65:01 - 65:02] If it's there, if it's there.
[65:02 - 65:04] If it's not, it's not.
[65:04 - 65:08] What is the excitement behind knowing what's going to happen?
[65:08 - 65:11] What is the excitement about knowing what someone's going to talk about?
[65:11 - 65:15] What is the excitement about knowing if this person's going to be on this show
[65:15 - 65:17] or be on this show or if they're going to put out this music?
[65:17 - 65:21] There's no excitement if you already know what the fuck's going to happen,
[65:21 - 65:23] which brings me to my next point.
[65:23 - 65:25] You have to be sharp-minded.
[65:25 - 65:27] If you want to keep growing, you've got to be sharp-minded,
[65:27 - 65:29] because when fucking problems come to you,
[65:29 - 65:32] you have to be the motherfucker to execute some son's bitches.
[65:32 - 65:35] You don't have, as they end up in art, if you don't have a PR team,
[65:35 - 65:37] it's like, "Oh, well, you should say this."
[65:37 - 65:38] And, "Oh, don't comment on that."
[65:38 - 65:40] And, "Hey, steer clear from this guy.
[65:40 - 65:42] Don't go hang out with him because he's bad news."
[65:42 - 65:44] You know what my PR team is?
[65:44 - 65:46] My gut and my fucking brain.
[65:46 - 65:49] Nobody can drive your career car like you can.
[65:49 - 65:52] I call it your career car because I really love cars.
[65:52 - 65:54] You're the motherfucker that's supposed to know
[65:54 - 65:56] when you're let out on the clutch.
[65:56 - 65:58] You're the motherfucker that's supposed to know
[65:58 - 66:02] where to perfectly shift it when the RPMs go to that perfect point.
[66:02 - 66:05] With your career, you're supposed to be the one that knows how to drive
[66:05 - 66:06] with your knee when you need to.
[66:06 - 66:09] You're the person that's supposed to know when your tires are about to break loose.
[66:09 - 66:13] If they're bald, if they got tread, if you have gas,
[66:13 - 66:17] if you have clean oil, that's all on you as an independent artist.
[66:17 - 66:19] It's not on nobody else.
[66:19 - 66:21] If anybody else hops into your career car,
[66:21 - 66:22] they're going to stall that motherfucker.
[66:22 - 66:24] They're going to blow the head gasket.
[66:24 - 66:26] They're going to grind that transmission gears.
[66:26 - 66:27] They're going to fuck it all up for you.
[66:27 - 66:28] What are you going to say?
[66:28 - 66:29] "Oh, it's his fault.
[66:29 - 66:30] He's the one that drove my car."
[66:30 - 66:31] No, motherfucker.
[66:31 - 66:32] You're the one that let him drive it.
[66:32 - 66:35] Which brings me to my next point, coattail riding.
[66:35 - 66:37] Coattail riding gets you nowhere.
[66:37 - 66:38] You know what it does?
[66:38 - 66:41] It gets you someone else's coat.
[66:41 - 66:42] It doesn't get you anywhere.
[66:42 - 66:45] Because eventually, once you coattail ride so much,
[66:45 - 66:47] that person's going to be like,
[66:47 - 66:48] "I'm going to slip that coat off the road.
[66:48 - 66:49] You can have it.
[66:49 - 66:51] Just fucking leave me alone."
[66:51 - 66:53] They're going to go get a new coat.
[66:53 - 66:55] They're going to have your old coat.
[66:55 - 66:56] They're going to sit there and be like,
[66:56 - 66:58] "Well, I got his coat."
[66:58 - 67:00] Marty, right there.
[67:00 - 67:01] That is Marty.
[67:01 - 67:02] When they're walking away,
[67:02 - 67:05] going to get a new coat, upgrading their self,
[67:05 - 67:09] while you're still hanging on the coat you were riding on them with.
[67:09 - 67:11] Now, listen, it's okay to do features,
[67:11 - 67:15] but there comes a point where features don't make sense.
[67:15 - 67:17] There are times when features do make sense
[67:17 - 67:20] when it's artists that are at the same level.
[67:20 - 67:24] Now, if this artist and this artist are on the same level,
[67:24 - 67:25] and they get a feature,
[67:25 - 67:27] and then this guy on here ruined a bunch of shit
[67:27 - 67:29] from trying to get at this guy,
[67:29 - 67:30] and this guy's up here now,
[67:30 - 67:32] and this dude's still down here,
[67:32 - 67:34] you don't get a feature with that guy.
[67:34 - 67:37] This guy's like, "No, you don't try to fuck me over.
[67:37 - 67:38] I'm not going to come back down
[67:38 - 67:40] and then try to pull you up here
[67:40 - 67:42] and then go back to where I was."
[67:42 - 67:43] No, it didn't work like that.
[67:43 - 67:45] And the reason I'm even on this topic
[67:45 - 67:48] is because recently I released Said Fuck It.
[67:48 - 67:51] I've been working my ass off for the people who watch me.
[67:51 - 67:54] I've been made a whole 'nother country album.
[67:54 - 67:56] I've been made a whole 'nother rap album.
[67:56 - 67:58] I'm starting on Creeper 3.
[67:58 - 68:02] I done shot a music video with another really big artist, Clay Walker.
[68:02 - 68:06] I've just come out with a documentary, Holler Boys,
[68:06 - 68:11] A-Loose Visions.
[68:11 - 68:14] I got so much shit that I've been working on that's not out yet,
[68:14 - 68:16] but do you see what I do?
[68:16 - 68:18] I mind my own business.
[68:18 - 68:20] I stay in my own house.
[68:20 - 68:21] I stay in my own lane.
[68:21 - 68:23] I'm not worried about nobody.
[68:23 - 68:24] I'm worried about me.
[68:24 - 68:27] I'm worried about what my people think about me,
[68:27 - 68:30] not yesterday, but a year from now.
[68:30 - 68:32] See, I'm working in the future.
[68:32 - 68:34] These motherfuckers are living in the past,
[68:34 - 68:37] and living in the past gets you nowhere,
[68:37 - 68:39] because no matter what, the world still turns.
[68:39 - 68:41] Trends still change.
[68:41 - 68:43] You have to up your skill level all the time.
[68:43 - 68:46] If you don't, you're going to fucking fade away.
[68:46 - 68:50] And with that being said, listen, I'll watch everything, okay?
[68:50 - 68:52] When you see Active at 3 o'clock,
[68:52 - 68:55] it ain't because I'm playing my balls and watching porn.
[68:55 - 68:58] No, it's because I'm seeing what everyone's doing.
[68:58 - 69:01] I'm looking at people's stuff, looking at their content,
[69:01 - 69:03] seeing what they're talking about.
[69:03 - 69:06] I see what other artists are liking and what they're not liking.
[69:06 - 69:08] I see what other artists are commenting on.
[69:08 - 69:09] I see what they're posting.
[69:09 - 69:10] That's what I do.
[69:10 - 69:12] I sit around and I observe.
[69:12 - 69:14] And then I consume all of it,
[69:14 - 69:16] and then I make my own judgment about whatever it is they're doing,
[69:16 - 69:18] if I'm interested in it, if I need to know.
[69:18 - 69:21] And then I go on about my business and I don't say anything.
[69:21 - 69:24] Then there's the other type of artist that doesn't stick around that long.
[69:24 - 69:28] The one that's like, "Hey, I'm going to ditch this person just fucking because.
[69:28 - 69:30] I'm going to fucking talk shit to Up Church
[69:30 - 69:32] and put a diss song out about him.
[69:32 - 69:34] So he'll reply.
[69:34 - 69:37] So for three whole days, I get attention.
[69:37 - 69:39] Bad attention, but whatever, it's still attention.
[69:39 - 69:41] And then they don't like it.
[69:41 - 69:43] It's like, "Dude, it's what you asked for.
[69:43 - 69:45] That's what the fuck you ordered."
[69:45 - 69:48] I had an artist just the other day hit me up.
[69:48 - 69:50] He's not that big of an artist.
[69:50 - 69:52] At one time, we were on the same level.
[69:52 - 69:54] We're not on the same level anymore.
[69:54 - 69:55] And this is the thing.
[69:55 - 69:58] You can't look at other people and be jealous.
[69:58 - 70:01] You have to look at other people and be inspired.
[70:01 - 70:04] You have to make you want to get up and be better.
[70:04 - 70:06] You can't look at somebody and be like, "Fuck him.
[70:06 - 70:07] I wish I was there."
[70:07 - 70:09] And then you dwell on it so long.
[70:09 - 70:11] And you dwell on it so long.
[70:11 - 70:13] And then you're like, "Oh shit, I'm sinking."
[70:13 - 70:14] And you're like, "Wait, no.
[70:14 - 70:15] I changed my mind."
[70:15 - 70:16] Too late.
[70:16 - 70:17] You fucking drowned it.
[70:17 - 70:19] So this artist who hit me up from the end of the day,
[70:19 - 70:20] I'm like, "I'll stick with it.
[70:20 - 70:22] I don't want any trouble for him.
[70:22 - 70:24] I don't want anybody to go to his page and fucking shit up."
[70:24 - 70:26] But they come to me the other day and they're like,
[70:26 - 70:28] "I need you on a song.
[70:28 - 70:33] get on this song and you're gonna do it first off motherfucker you're talking to
[70:33 - 70:36] wrong motherfucker like that you don't come to me telling me I'm gonna do
[70:36 - 70:39] something that makes me not want to do it even more than I already don't want
[70:39 - 70:45] to do then this artist proceeds to tell me you fucked my career up it's your
[70:45 - 70:49] fault I'm trying to do better for myself and it's your fault that you did it
[70:49 - 70:54] nothing buddy not a chance you don't come to me telling me I'm gonna fucking
[70:54 - 71:01] do something for you and do you a favor especially after you done dissed me all
[71:01 - 71:05] that dissed me this time and this time and said this about me on Facebook and
[71:05 - 71:09] and then you come back on oh I'm sorry and then do it again and then come back
[71:09 - 71:15] and say I owe you a favor I don't owe you shit I don't have to do fucking
[71:15 - 71:21] nothing for you and I'm not because with everything I just said prior in this
[71:21 - 71:27] video this person has done his music has not gotten better it's gotten shorter
[71:27 - 71:32] and worse they're not taking care of their self like they should this artist
[71:32 - 71:37] is not even making YouTube videos dude everyone has smartphones now you want
[71:37 - 71:40] people to know about you and you want people to look at your stuff do something
[71:40 - 71:47] click the record button learn how to use our movie get out here and live and
[71:47 - 71:52] do things that make you write songs ago whoa he's he's really changing as an
[71:52 - 71:58] artist hello you don't have to change the roots of yourself but with the
[71:58 - 72:04] growth of you is also the growth of the people watching you if they don't see
[72:04 - 72:08] you growing and they start to grow like this fucking shit is still like when we
[72:08 - 72:13] were like 21 years old like what the fuck we're all we're growing up now
[72:13 - 72:18] they're not gonna be able to relate anymore because you're still holding on
[72:18 - 72:23] to that cliche bullshit ass I'm a redneck in the back of my truck which
[72:23 - 72:31] that's fine but you can sing those songs better more mature you can sound
[72:31 - 72:34] better your craft could be better but when you're just fucking laying around
[72:34 - 72:39] and waiting for right up church to do a feature with someone huge or release a
[72:39 - 72:43] huge song and then come back and be like hey oh no come get me I need another
[72:43 - 72:48] coat I don't have any more coats bro I'm trying to stay warm I've made bad
[72:48 - 72:52] decisions I've dealt with them and bettered myself I've done stupid shit
[72:52 - 72:57] I've realized it and bettered myself but when you do dumb shit and you try to
[72:57 - 73:03] cover up I didn't do nothing with me you're not learning nothing and not
[73:03 - 73:09] progressing do you realize how much shit that I've been through bro for real for
[73:09 - 73:14] fucking real crazy breakups motherfuckers didn't know I'm doing all you
[73:14 - 73:19] do these like this you gotta do that no no no you gotta deal with it you can't
[73:19 - 73:24] sweep it in a rug you can't act like it didn't happen you gotta face these
[73:24 - 73:28] problems as a man or a woman you have to face these problems yourself you gotta
[73:28 - 73:33] deal with them and you have to prevail if you get fucking scared every time
[73:33 - 73:36] somebody does something or says something and you run a coward like me
[73:36 - 73:44] it was his fault you might as well just find another job because you know what
[73:44 - 73:49] happens when you lie about yourself if you lie about yourself once you gotta
[73:49 - 73:55] lie 20 times if you lie 20 times you got a lot 40 more times if you tell the
[73:55 - 74:04] truth about yourself you got to tell the truth once when shit comes your way
[74:04 - 74:09] get on get on here tell the truth show who you really are don't act like
[74:09 - 74:14] somebody else don't don't don't wait on somebody else to push you up to the
[74:14 - 74:18] next spot don't don't wait on this motherfucker to have a big song so you
[74:18 - 74:27] can belong to the new now for me to call no it is nobody's fault but yours it's
[74:27 - 74:32] nobody's fault your numbers aren't going up it's your fault because you're
[74:32 - 74:37] wasting all your time on shit that doesn't fucking matter it's not helping
[74:37 - 74:42] you in any aspect of being an artist or entertainer you can look at my shows in
[74:42 - 74:48] 2014 you can look at my shows right before coronavirus they look totally
[74:48 - 74:52] different you can listen to my songs from Cheaton County you can listen to
[74:52 - 74:56] my songs from parachute and Krieger totally different you know how they got
[74:56 - 75:01] totally different me minding my own business me won't do better myself as an
[75:01 - 75:06] artist because I like to strive if you really want to be good at the music
[75:06 - 75:09] you'll do the right things if you're in it for the wrong reasons if you're in
[75:09 - 75:15] it for bitches and money and fucking and cars and all this other shit your
[75:15 - 75:19] career is gonna be short-lived you're gonna get speed wobble you're gonna wreck
[75:19 - 75:23] and your career car is gonna be fucking totaled if you're in it for the
[75:23 - 75:28] passion of music for the passion of people sticking their earphones in and
[75:28 - 75:31] listening to what you're saying to be like damn it really is getting better
[75:31 - 75:35] he really is going through some shit he is really talking about some real shit
[75:35 - 75:40] that I went through before - that's how you win hearts you don't win hearts
[75:40 - 75:46] by dissing you don't win hearts by coaching all right you don't win hearts by
[75:46 - 75:51] showing people something that you're not the people that watch you are not
[75:51 - 75:55] dumb these people at least people that watches are not dumb they know when
[75:55 - 75:59] you're bullshitting they know when you're being fucking fake they know
[75:59 - 76:02] when you're doing something that's out of your element it's like what the fuck
[76:02 - 76:05] why are you doing that why are we going after this artist what the fuck why
[76:05 - 76:13] don't they just stick to what they know you lie once you gotta lie 40 times you
[76:13 - 76:18] lie 40 times you gotta lie 80 times and by the time you go to lie the 80 first
[76:18 - 76:24] time nobody's gonna fuck with you anymore you tell the truth once you go
[76:24 - 76:27] through shit you tell the truth again you show people who you really are
[76:27 - 76:32] that's how they connect that's how you gain respect and that's how you stay in
[76:32 - 76:36] the game
[76:36 - 76:53] and that's fact man that's fact Marty like bro stop your fucking co-tail
[76:53 - 76:58] riding bro like and that and I feel like Marty like I feel like that's your
[76:58 - 77:02] fucking problem right there dude your fucking co-tail riding me because you
[77:02 - 77:07] know I'm actually starting to get somewhere with my shit
[77:07 - 77:18] like for real I don't have time for your fucking bullshit I don't have time
[77:18 - 77:24] for your fucking nonsense crap like dude you're trying to fucking co-tail
[77:24 - 77:30] rob me and it ain't fucking working so you're getting desperate you're getting
[77:30 - 77:35] desperate as fuck and you're trying to pull shit that you don't need to be
[77:35 - 77:37] pulling bro
[77:37 - 77:51] like for real I'm over here making music that people actually fucking relate to
[77:51 - 77:57] because I've been everything that I speak about in my songs everything that
[77:57 - 78:03] I talk about I have gone through I've gone through surviving society I've
[78:03 - 78:07] gone through depression I've gone through insane breakups I've gone
[78:07 - 78:12] through being depressed as fuck
[78:12 - 78:19] I've gone through not having a father in my life I've gone through all that
[78:19 - 78:26] shit and I'll be sure as long as I walk the
[78:26 - 78:33] lines of life and death every fucking day of the week now for the all that
[78:33 - 78:39] don't know let me elaborate and explain to you the reason why I say I walk the
[78:39 - 78:45] lines of life and death every day is because I do see when I was born I was
[78:45 - 78:51] born one pound ten ounces and I was not supposed to fucking live the day I was
[78:51 - 78:56] born was the day I was supposed to die I was born one kidney and one severely
[78:56 - 79:04] and I mean very severely underdeveloped long and I was not supposed to live yet
[79:04 - 79:13] here I am 30 years later living surviving being the voice for those
[79:13 - 79:18] that are like myself who have been attacked who have been judged who have
[79:18 - 79:25] been outcasted who have been made the black sheep of their family I've been
[79:25 - 79:29] that person for as long as I can remember which is why I got the name
[79:29 - 79:35] Scarface because I've been through all that shit I literally have mental and
[79:35 - 79:46] physical scars from all the shit that I've been through so Marty here's some
[79:46 - 79:54] advice for you bro if you mind your own business a quick hotel riding me and
[79:54 - 79:59] trying to make a name off of me you might actually get somewhere and the
[79:59 - 80:03] other thing I want to know why is it that you never show your face on a
[80:03 - 80:09] camera dude we all know what you fucking look like why do you have to hide why
[80:09 - 80:17] do you have to pretend to be somebody that you're not like it doesn't make
[80:17 - 80:25] sense bro like it really don't make no fucking sense man for you to sit there
[80:25 - 80:31] and act like this hard-ass guy when really you're not you're just another
[80:31 - 80:37] fucking troll trying to tell tail right and you'll go to any length you see fit
[80:37 - 80:42] to make it happen whether that be stealing private videos and posting them
[80:42 - 80:47] up on porn sites whether that's fucking attacking my ex-girlfriend and her
[80:47 - 80:53] family whether that's fucking telling me to kill myself and sending rope
[80:53 - 81:03] admitting to doing all that like bro grow up I've been done with you for
[81:03 - 81:12] years what I don't get is why can't you move on and grow the fuck up I'm out
[81:12 - 81:17] here every fucking day trying to do right by my fans trying to do right by
[81:17 - 81:24] my family trying to make a living off of what I love to do trying to help
[81:24 - 81:31] people through my music trying to show people that they're not alone when they
[81:31 - 81:38] go through all this shit today fucking go through and yet you want to sit here
[81:38 - 81:44] and make me out to be a monster that I'm not like it don't make no sense man
[81:44 - 81:51] I'm not the monster that you make me out to be and everyone knows it like these
[81:51 - 81:58] people aren't dumb dude we all know that you're just trying to co-tail ride
[81:58 - 82:02] that's all you're trying to do man and I've been trying to get away from you
[82:02 - 82:07] but it seems like every time I start to get a little bit of progression you
[82:07 - 82:12] can't you climb up that fucking rope and you fucking yank my ass back down
[82:12 - 82:23] oh guess what bitch that long ass rope that you're hanging on to cut done my
[82:23 - 82:28] bro you're burning all your fucking bridges for real you're burning all
[82:28 - 82:33] your goddamn bridges and pretty soon you're not gonna have any fucking
[82:33 - 82:37] bridges left to burn you're gonna be stuck on this tiny ass little fucking
[82:37 - 82:43] one-person island not knowing what the fuck to do cuz you done burnt all your
[82:43 - 82:53] fucking bridges maybe if you would grow up stop attacking me all right stop
[82:53 - 82:59] going after fucking people stop trying to co-tail ride stop making shit up
[82:59 - 83:09] about people that you know ain't true then maybe you'll actually get
[83:09 - 83:16] somewhere stop burning your fucking bridges plain and simple dude the
[83:16 - 83:21] reason why I have people working with me like my little brother Bradley like
[83:21 - 83:25] see West like all these other artists like scrub love who's been one of my
[83:25 - 83:31] best friends for 15 fucking years why my name is starting to get out there why a
[83:31 - 83:36] lot of these major bands and artists that I've known for so many years have
[83:36 - 83:42] respect for me is because I work hard I show them respect I don't do the shit
[83:42 - 83:51] that you do to me so I guess that Marty maybe if you would grow up and be a
[83:51 - 84:02] fucking man and stop the fuck shit you might actually get somewhere because
[84:02 - 84:09] dude one I'm not your fucking content for starters I'm nobody's content I'm
[84:09 - 84:18] a fucking music artist all right I'm a fucking painter and a fucking artist
[84:18 - 84:25] latch I'm an artist of all kinds but mostly a music artist all right I'm a
[84:25 - 84:31] fucking music artist for God's sakes everything I'm gonna let some little
[84:31 - 84:39] whiny bitch like you get in the way of that you're wrong because people see
[84:39 - 84:45] what I do they know for a fact they know for a fact when you're bullshit
[84:45 - 84:49] no and you've been bullshitting people the whole fucking time the whole way
[84:49 - 84:54] you've been bullshitting people even co-tail riding off of me trying to make
[84:54 - 85:00] a name off of me but like I said bro first off I'm not your fucking I'm
[85:00 - 85:07] nobody's content first off I'm not your fucking monkey to fucking make dance
[85:07 - 85:15] around all right I'm nobody's fucking content first off I'm not your content
[85:15 - 85:23] to bash on and do this and that you're not my mama you're not my daddy you're
[85:23 - 85:32] not my fucking boss you don't own me plain and simple nobody owns me except
[85:32 - 85:40] me and God but that's a different story but like I said maybe if you would grow
[85:40 - 85:48] up and actually do something worth watching people might actually like you
[85:48 - 85:53] if you would quit with the fucking clout chasing and trying to stop trying
[85:53 - 85:58] to be another Heather and quit clout chasing shit all the fucking time you
[85:58 - 86:04] might actually get somewhere and people might actually like you but instead of
[86:04 - 86:09] putting out good positive content to help people or to do something good
[86:09 - 86:17] or something entertaining to make people laugh and smile and shit what do you do
[86:17 - 86:26] what do you fucking do you said there you try to make me your content you
[86:26 - 86:30] try to do this try to do that and then when I confront you about it when I go
[86:30 - 86:36] at you the same way that you came at me you try to make up all this shit and
[86:36 - 86:43] try to sound smart when really you're not that smart cuz we all know that
[86:43 - 86:48] you've never been in the music industry Marty we all know this like these
[86:48 - 86:53] people that are watching this shit right now they're not dumb dude they're
[86:53 - 86:58] not fucking dumb and they're not stupid they see what you're fucking doing bro
[86:58 - 87:17] who ain't even it's not cool it's really not why do you think I relate to this
[87:17 - 87:30] song live church right here
[87:30 - 89:02] Oh
[89:02 - 89:29] And that's facts man like everything I've got
[89:29 - 89:39] everything I've got now that I've built for my music career I didn't have no
[89:39 - 89:45] handouts I didn't have somebody handing me my career when I said well let me
[89:45 - 89:48] tell you all something this is how I started out in music all right let me
[89:48 - 89:55] give you all the full rundown about how I first started out all right when I
[89:55 - 90:00] started out back in 2010 I was that motherfucker that was staying up all day
[90:00 - 90:08] all night literally on an hour sleep a week literally one hour sleep for one
[90:08 - 90:15] week maybe two at the most going off a fuck ton of coffee every two to three
[90:15 - 90:21] hours busting my ass working my ass off learning my crap whether I was making
[90:21 - 90:25] beats whether I was learning how to record whether I was studying this
[90:25 - 90:32] studying that like I was that motherfucker that busted his fucking ass
[90:32 - 90:39] doing what I had to fucking do to get to where I'm at now was it a poor choice
[90:39 - 90:46] first slave habits yes but if it wasn't for me doing what I did back then I
[90:46 - 90:53] wouldn't be nearly as knowledge as I am now I wouldn't have the skill that I
[90:53 - 91:01] have now everything I hadn't learned I had to learn on my own I didn't have
[91:01 - 91:06] somebody sitting there teaching me hey this is how you do this hey this is how
[91:06 - 91:12] you know you make a beat this is how you make this sound good this is how
[91:12 - 91:18] you make these sounds more together no I had to learn everything on my own as I
[91:18 - 91:26] fucking went I had to literally teach myself everything I fucking know I
[91:26 - 91:32] literally had to teach myself how to make beats from the ground up I had to
[91:32 - 91:37] teach myself how to record properly yes when I started making music and I
[91:37 - 91:40] started putting songs out yeah I got features with a few people that are
[91:40 - 91:44] still very good friends of mine that is very bad
[91:44 - 91:57] from 2010 up to two years ago I had been working on my craft finding my
[91:57 - 92:02] sound finding who I really am as a person living one night right just like
[92:02 - 92:07] church said if you like in order to write a song you gotta live life which
[92:07 - 92:15] is what I fucking did I went out I fucking lived life I went through crazy
[92:15 - 92:21] shit I went through being fucked with I went through crazy breakups I went
[92:21 - 92:28] through being abused mentally verbally and emotionally for eight plus years
[92:28 - 92:34] I've been on the edge of suicide I've attempted suicide four to five
[92:34 - 92:41] different times and survived in my life I've watched some of my best friends in
[92:41 - 92:45] the world that I've known for years passed away from various things one of
[92:45 - 92:51] my best friends David passed away in '09 from a drowning accident then in 2015
[92:51 - 92:56] my older brother died from lung cancer then later that same fucking year my
[92:56 - 93:01] best friend who was like my little brother Zach got fucking shot and killed
[93:01 - 93:08] in his family's fucking pizzeria and then literally just last year I find
[93:08 - 93:12] now that my ex-girlfriend who I was still very fucking close to and still
[93:12 - 93:17] getting friends with passed away from fucking health issues with our fucking
[93:17 - 93:26] body don't sit there and tell me I live the life I've gone through some crazy
[93:26 - 93:32] fucked up shit that most people shouldn't have to fucking deal with and
[93:32 - 93:39] then literally in 2018 I lost one of my mentors that helped me out to get my
[93:39 - 93:47] raps out to where they are which is my boy coda also known as coda oda like
[93:47 - 93:54] I've gone through shit and then literally last year I was a close
[93:54 - 93:59] friend of mine who was part of the fucking community Jamie due to fucking
[93:59 - 94:11] COVID I have a lived life I have a reason to write the songs that I write
[94:11 - 94:17] because I've actually lived the shit that I write about I've gone through
[94:17 - 94:24] being mentally abused verbally abused emotionally abused I've gone through
[94:24 - 94:30] being depressed I've gone through being bullied being beat up on a daily fucking
[94:30 - 94:36] basis I've gone through having to fight back against my bullies I've gone
[94:36 - 94:41] through being made fun of I've gone through being made a social fucking
[94:41 - 94:45] outcast by my peers
[94:46 - 94:52] that's why people relate to me Marty that's why people relate to my music
[94:52 - 94:58] matter of fact let me break down one of my songs for you well let me break down
[94:58 - 95:02] one of my songs for you right quick
[95:02 - 95:24] I'm gonna break down my song inside my mind for you
[95:24 - 96:15] yeah
[96:15 - 96:24] more tears are going to struggle more hopeful tears today meaning struggling
[96:24 - 96:30] to wake up every day and deal with the bullshit that you get put through and
[96:30 - 96:37] then you have the tears of hope meaning you're hoping and praying that this
[96:37 - 96:43] bullshit that you're going through ends and trying to appear normal in some
[96:43 - 96:50] sort of way is basically me saying hey I want to be able to be normal without
[96:50 - 96:55] being attacked I want to be able to do shit that I like to do without being
[96:55 - 97:02] judged by people around me I want to be able to not have to hide behind the
[97:02 - 97:11] smile showing that I'm okay when really I'm not I actually want to be okay like
[97:11 - 97:18] I want to be happy I wanted people to actually say hey he's actually doing
[97:18 - 97:30] good he's actually happy
[97:30 - 97:36] and I want to be here now to guilt let me be that's basically me saying that
[97:36 - 97:42] when I was trapped in that spot the guilt that I felt from all my exes
[97:42 - 97:48] attacking me I felt guilty even though I k
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