2021-1-31 Mentaly trapped Live Cover show

[0:00 - 0:09] What's up you guys? Are you guys ready for a good time?
[0:09 - 0:37] Are you
[0:37 - 0:47] guys ready for a good-ass time on life into pieces? This is my last resort, supplication,
[0:47 - 1:02] no breathing, don't give a fuck, but come on you're bleeding. This is my last resort,
[1:02 - 1:11] I'm ready for a good-ass time on life into pieces. I'm literally having self defecation,
[1:11 - 1:17] no breathing, don't give a fuck, but come on you're bleeding. Do you really care if
[1:17 - 1:24] I'm bleeding? Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight, chances
[1:24 - 1:32] are they're mine. People make sure they're not inside, cause they're not inside. Don't
[1:32 - 1:42] lose on my side, lose on my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine, losing my side, losing
[1:42 - 1:55] my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine, nothing. Never realized I was friend
[1:55 - 2:02] too thin, too little, too late, and I was empty within. Thinking of anything else that
[2:02 - 2:10] living is in, that was final when the wine began. And I was done with my love, my mother,
[2:10 - 2:17] got no love for myself, got no love for another, teaching to find a level, find a high level,
[2:17 - 2:24] thinking nothing questions the devil's, cause I'm losing my side, losing my mind. Wish
[2:24 - 2:33] somebody would tell me I'm fine, losing my side, losing my mind. Wish somebody would
[2:33 - 2:53] tell me I'm fine, nothing's alright, nothing is fine. I'm running and I'm crying, I'm crying,
[2:53 - 3:20] I'm crying, I'm crying, I can't go on living this way. This way when everything's in pieces,
[3:20 - 3:29] this is my last resort, suffocation, no breathing, don't give a fuck for coming up bleeding,
[3:29 - 3:37] wouldn't we rock you to be right? If I took my life tonight, chances are that I might
[3:37 - 3:45] mutilation outside, then I'm contemplating suicide, cause I'm losing my side, losing
[3:45 - 3:53] my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine, losing my side, losing my mind. Wish
[3:53 - 4:06] somebody would tell me I'm fine, nothing's alright, nothing is fine. I'm running and
[4:06 - 4:36] I'm crying, I'm crying, crying, I'm crying, I'm crying. This is my last resort, this is
[4:36 - 4:59] my last resort. How the fuck you guys doing today, man? I hope you guys are having a
[4:59 - 5:08] good time, man. But before we start this next song, I want to welcome the newest member
[5:08 - 5:17] of the Scarred Ones. I want to give a huge shout out to Riven. What the fuck is good?
[5:17 - 5:31] How you doing today? You guys know this next one? You guys ready to take it up a notch?
[5:31 - 5:57] Let's go. As in my head again, there's been a war inside my own skin, they're pulling me on dark. Oh. Yeah.
[5:57 - 6:23] That's why I love themself when the flavor remains. I don't choose the pleasure but still feel the pain, but so too and so would you cover your eyes,
[6:23 - 6:53] but so too is the truth, would you dare me tonight? I keep it all the time because I know the man is everything but his voice has hit my head again, they didn't mean the war I can't win, I can't hear them now, after this game inside my own skin. And I don't know myself anymore, they're pulling me on dark.
[6:53 - 7:22] Voices, voices. And I walk through this valley of shadows and deaths, I'm just not too wicked, I'm praise not the best, but so too is the truth, you dare me to change.
[7:22 - 7:48] If it were a currency, you don't obey. Voices in my head again, they didn't mean the war I can't win, I can't hear them now, after this game inside my own skin. And I don't know myself anymore, they're pulling me on dark.
[7:48 - 8:16] Boys, I don't want to live, god lives in frozen, god be a broken, I don't want to live forever, I just want to live right now. You can save me from me.
[8:16 - 8:42] Voices in my head again, they didn't mean the war I can't win, I can't hear them now, after this game inside my own skin. And I don't know myself anymore, they're pulling me on dark.
[8:42 - 8:58] Voices, voices, voices, putting me on dark. Voices.
[8:58 - 9:15] I keep it on my side because I know the man is everything but kind. I keep it on my side because I know the man is everything but kind.
[9:15 - 9:35] How the hell is everybody doing today? Shout out to Dana, shout out to Raven, shout out to all the fucking lost ones, shout out to all the scarred ones man, holding it down every fucking day. You guys are fucking amazing.
[9:35 - 10:04] And I'm not just fucking saying that either. I truly need a man, every one of you guys holding it down is fucking awesome.
[10:30 - 10:50] This next one's going out to the newest member of the phone ones, as well as the scarred ones. I want to see those R.I.P. Chester's going in the fucking comments.
[10:50 - 10:59] Raven, this one's for you. Welcome to the fucking family.
[10:59 - 14:01] [SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE]
[14:01 - 14:08] This next one right here is for one of my motherfuckin' heroes that saved my life.
[14:08 - 14:12] Let's go out to Mitch.
[14:12 - 22:29] [SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE]
[22:29 - 22:41] How the fuck you guys doing today?
[22:41 - 22:45] I want to give a huge fucking shoutout to all the scarred ones.
[22:45 - 22:47] You guys are fucking awesome.
[22:47 - 22:49] You guys are amazing, man.
[22:49 - 22:52] Without you guys, I wouldn't be doing the shit that I'd do.
[22:52 - 23:00] I wouldn't be on my way to the times and subs and I wouldn't be releasing my debut album next month.
[23:00 - 23:08] It's because of you guys, the fans, wanting it so badly that my dreams are coming true.
[23:08 - 23:13] You guys are the reason that I do what I do every fucking day.
[23:13 - 23:28] You guys are responsible for me being able to do what I do.
[23:28 - 24:04] [SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE]
[24:04 - 24:23] You guys ready for this?
[24:23 - 24:28] You guys are feeling that guilt deep inside from being bullied.
[24:28 - 24:32] Don't hang on to that guilt.
[24:32 - 24:34] Let it go.
[24:34 - 24:47] Because you being bullied is not your fault.
[24:47 - 24:59] I want to see those hashtags, fuck bullying, and fuck suicide going up right now on my mark.
[24:59 - 28:40] [SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE]
[28:40 - 28:46] I want to talk about something for a minute here.
[28:46 - 28:50] You know what's funny?
[28:50 - 28:56] People don't realize, but because of people like Marty,
[28:56 - 29:06] people like myself are on the edge every fucking day.
[29:06 - 29:14] Every day, people like me are on the edge because of bullying.
[29:14 - 29:19] Every day, people like me deal with fucking depression
[29:19 - 29:25] and deal with suicide.
[29:25 - 29:30] And if you have been or are at that place right now,
[29:30 - 29:38] or know somebody that is, this next one is for every one of you.
[29:38 - 29:43] And I hope you guys know that none of you are ever alone.
[29:43 - 29:44] You have a home here.
[29:44 - 29:51] You have a family here that fucking cares.
[29:51 - 29:55] And I expect every single one of you guys to treat each other
[29:55 - 30:01] just the same as you treat me with the same respect.
[30:01 - 30:06] So if any one of you is going through that right now,
[30:06 - 30:20] reach out to one another.
[30:20 - 30:32] Should it stay? Where are the signs I ignored?
[30:32 - 30:43] Cannot help you not to hurt anymore.
[30:43 - 30:54] We saw brilliance when the world was asleep.
[30:54 - 31:03] There are things that we can have, but can keep.
[31:03 - 31:11] If they say, look at them somewhere that goes out in the sky
[31:11 - 31:17] of a million stars, it flickers, flickers.
[31:17 - 31:20] Who cares if someone's time runs out?
[31:20 - 31:28] If a moment is all we are, we're quicker, quicker.
[31:28 - 31:32] Who cares if someone like goes out?
[31:32 - 31:40] Well, I do.
[31:40 - 31:52] The reminder, pull the floor from your feet.
[31:52 - 32:01] In the kitchen, one more chair than you need.
[32:01 - 32:08] Oh, when you're angry, then you should be.
[32:08 - 32:16] It's not fair, just 'cause you can't see it.
[32:16 - 32:22] Doesn't mean it isn't fair.
[32:22 - 32:28] If they say, who cares if one more light goes out
[32:28 - 32:36] in the sky of a million stars, it flickers, flickers.
[32:36 - 32:39] Who cares if someone's time runs out?
[32:39 - 32:47] If a moment is all we are, we're quicker, quicker.
[32:47 - 33:00] Who cares if someone like goes out? Well, I do.
[33:00 - 33:05] And if you guys have lost anyone to suicide,
[33:05 - 33:21] I want you guys to put their names in the comments right now.
[33:21 - 33:29] Who cares if one more light goes out in the sky of a million stars?
[33:29 - 33:32] It flickers, flickers.
[33:32 - 33:36] Who cares if someone's time runs out?
[33:36 - 33:43] If a moment is all we are, we're quicker, quicker.
[33:43 - 33:55] Who cares if someone like goes out? Well, I do.
[33:55 - 34:24] I do.
[34:24 - 34:29] I don't like my mind right now.
[34:29 - 34:32] Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary.
[34:32 - 34:35] Wish I could slow things down.
[34:35 - 34:39] I want to let go, but there's comfort in the panic.
[34:39 - 34:45] And I drive myself crazy thinking everything's about me.
[34:45 - 34:51] And I drive myself crazy 'cause I can't escape the grub.
[34:51 - 34:55] I'm holding on.
[34:55 - 34:58] Why is everything so heavy?
[34:58 - 35:01] Holding on.
[35:01 - 35:04] So much more than I can carry.
[35:04 - 35:08] I keep dragging around once bringing me to.
[35:08 - 35:11] Just let go, I'll be standing free.
[35:11 - 35:14] Holding on.
[35:14 - 35:17] Why is everything so heavy?
[35:17 - 35:23] You say that I'm paranoid, but I'm pretty sure the world's out to get me.
[35:23 - 35:27] It's not like a big whiz.
[35:27 - 35:30] So never mind, see it's all fucking messy.
[35:30 - 35:37] Oh, I'm not the center of the universe, but you can spin around me just the same.
[35:37 - 35:43] I know I'm not the center of the universe, but you can spin around me just the same.
[35:43 - 35:47] Holding on.
[35:47 - 35:49] Why is everything so heavy?
[35:49 - 35:53] Holding on.
[35:53 - 35:56] So much more than I can carry.
[35:56 - 36:02] I keep dragging around once bringing me down, but just let go, I'll be standing free.
[36:02 - 36:06] Holding on.
[36:06 - 36:09] Why is everything so heavy?
[36:09 - 36:21] I know I'm not the center of the universe, but you can spin around me just the same.
[36:21 - 36:27] And I drive myself crazy thinking everything's about me.
[36:27 - 36:33] Holding on.
[36:33 - 36:39] Hold on, guys.