2021-1-21 Coffee and Chill and Covers

[0:00 - 0:23] What's up guys, I do apologize about that. I don't know what happened but my fucking
[0:23 - 0:41] internet decided to cut out so I had to switch over to the 5G one. Yeah, I had to cuz my freakin
[0:41 - 0:59] internet decided to be a little pain in the ass.
[0:59 - 1:28] What's up guys, I'm going to be doing a video on the next video. I'm going to be doing a
[1:28 - 1:52] video on the next video, so I'm going to be doing a video on the next video, so I'm
[1:52 - 2:04] going to be doing a video on the next video. Okay, yeah, this RX8 is definitely under a
[2:04 - 2:08] nose. It's definitely ready for the competition. So I'm just going to limit it down and let
[2:08 - 2:17] those points rack in. Oh, what games do I suggest for Xbox One? I don't actually have
[2:17 - 2:29] a PS4, but I can't speak on that. But for Xbox One, if you get a Game Pass Ultimate
[2:29 - 2:36] for 15 bucks a month, which is very worth it because you get over a thousand games.
[2:36 - 2:44] With Xbox Ultimate, you actually get a lot. You get 100 plus games with Xbox Game Pass,
[2:44 - 2:54] a lot of games with, um, yeah. Hold on, y'all, I'll be right back in just one moment. And
[2:54 - 3:12] I'll tell y'all some games here tonight. What's up? I'm gonna, obviously, if you got a Game
[3:12 - 3:21] Pass, definitely get Forza Horizon 4. That's free with Game Pass. Like I said, with Ultimate,
[3:21 - 3:27] you get a lot. I actually just picked up Gears 5 Game of the Year edition last night.
[3:27 - 3:37] I'm waiting for it to finish downloading as such a fucking large-ass file. But definitely
[3:37 - 3:45] Forza Horizon 4. And yo, Manic, what is your gamertag on Xbox? I'll fucking add your ass
[3:45 - 3:51] and we can throw it out. We can have some fun. Now, let me read off some of the games
[3:51 - 4:00] that I have, so it'll give you an idea on a few games that I enjoy. Um, Burnout Paradise,
[4:00 - 4:11] which I like. Call of Duty Warzone, Car X, Strip Racing Online, F1 2020, obvious. Fortnite,
[4:11 - 4:23] Forza Horizon 4, Gears 5, GTA 5 Grid, MotoGP 20, Titanfall 2, Streets of Rage 4, fucking
[4:23 - 4:32] Love the Streets of Rage games, Soul Calibur VI, Skate 3, NFS-E. Now, other games that
[4:32 - 4:37] I don't have on here that I have played are the Life is Strange series. Absolutely love
[4:37 - 5:03] the Life is Strange games. Nice. Yo, Manic, if you ever want to hop on Gears or whatever,
[5:03 - 5:12] that is actually my gamertag on Xbox. Add me up. We'll have some fun. Yeah, no, I heard
[5:12 - 5:16] the new Call of Duty Warzone is a lot of fun, but I don't have the money to get it right
[5:16 - 5:24] now. I do plan on buying it. I do plan on buying the new Call of War. I do plan on
[5:24 - 5:33] getting that. But the Xbox I have is actually Xbox One X, not Series X, One X, which is
[5:33 - 5:47] like the tier right below Series X. But I do have Game Pass Ultimate, so literally
[5:47 - 5:56] I can play pretty much anything really. I have played the Star Wars Battlefront games.
[5:56 - 6:03] I literally just got done the other day playing Star Wars Jedi Fallen Order. Absolutely love
[6:03 - 6:08] that game. They did really well with that. A lot of people have been telling me, hey,
[6:08 - 6:16] play Fallen Order when you have a chance. Definitely check out. It's worth playing for sure.
[6:16 - 6:22] I checked it out and they were right, dude. Star Wars Jedi Fallen Order, definitely a
[6:22 - 6:29] must play if you're any kind of Star Wars fan. Fallen Order is definitely a must play.
[6:29 - 6:37] I absolutely love Jedi Star Wars Fallen Order. Fucking love it. Good ass shit. But I am
[6:37 - 6:51] more partial to the Star Wars Battlefront II. Love that. Nice. No shit. I do still
[6:51 - 6:56] play every once in a while. I'll do it whenever I'm bored or whatever. So if you catch me
[6:56 - 7:05] on, definitely we can get some matches in. For sure, I do still play. Matter of fact,
[7:05 - 7:13] the other day I actually played a match with my boy Anthony Burns on Facebook, who's a
[7:13 - 7:20] motivational speaker. He was doing a live stream and I got to hop on with him and play
[7:20 - 7:26] a few rounds on him. Super fun, super cool, dude. If you've not checked out Anthony Burns,
[7:26 - 7:33] do it. Go on Facebook, look up Anthony Burns. That's literally Anthony, B-U-R-N-S. Super
[7:33 - 7:41] cool dude. Fun streams all the time. Super cool guy. Definitely one of my closest friends
[7:41 - 7:47] for sure. The dudes, they're informing me through a lot actually. But he's definitely
[7:47 - 7:51] helped me out through a lot. Definitely cool dude. He actually does have a channel which
[7:51 - 7:57] I actually bring up when I do his videos. So y'all can kind of get a good idea of
[7:57 - 8:14] what Anthony is all about. Put my coffee up out the way. I know some of you were asking
[8:14 - 8:35] about my digital artwork. Am I going to do seal prints? Yes, I am.
[8:35 - 8:51] All right, so let's go in here.
[8:51 - 9:16] All right. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
[9:16 - 9:40] Here we go. Make sure I enjoy a little bit of motivation.
[9:40 - 9:53] I need people to realize whether you're 15 years old or 500 years old, that you can still
[9:53 - 9:58] be happy. You can still do things you really want to do because you're not limited. You
[9:58 - 10:02] have your legs. You have your eyes. You have your arms. You're breathing. You're living,
[10:02 - 10:06] baby. Can you realize that? I can't believe it. There's people in the house right now
[10:06 - 10:11] dying, fighting for their lives. But you, my friend, are breathing. You just click
[10:11 - 10:16] play. You have fingers up in the arm. You just click play. Can you realize how many
[10:16 - 10:21] things we take for granted, guys? We got put on this earth by the people we love.
[10:21 - 10:25] And they might have bashed. They may have criticized you. They might have not said
[10:25 - 10:28] the most wonderful things to you over the course of the years, but let's realize one
[10:28 - 10:32] thing, guys. We all want the same things. We all want to be happy. We all want to be
[10:32 - 10:37] wealthy. We all want to succeed. What really matters, what really, really, really
[10:37 - 10:41] matters is your breathing. And the people that love you are breathing. And the people
[10:41 - 10:45] around you are breathing. So there's no reason beyond that. There's no reason to
[10:45 - 10:50] think that you can't achieve your dreams, your goals, your missions. Listen, I understand
[10:50 - 10:55] you want to get a great job one day, but a job is somebody else's dream. You have
[10:55 - 10:59] a dream and it's inside of here. I don't care if you're as loud as me. I don't care
[10:59 - 11:02] if you don't like me. I don't care if you've never met me. You aren't near for me.
[11:02 - 11:06] I'm your friend. I believe you. I believe in every single one of you. Because if you
[11:06 - 11:10] took the time to click away on this video, I believe in you. Because if you can click
[11:10 - 11:13] away on a video, you most certainly don't have anything you want to because you're
[11:13 - 11:17] watching it, you're breathing, you're living with your eyes. You might not have the
[11:17 - 11:20] best relationship right now. You might not have all the money you want right now.
[11:20 - 11:23] Your family may not be going the way you want it to go right now, but you just
[11:23 - 11:27] know that you can live the life you want to live. And it's inside of here. When you're
[11:27 - 11:31] at home doing the things that you like to do, that people don't really notice or
[11:31 - 11:35] people don't see because you're not being the real you, just know that's what you
[11:35 - 11:39] need to be. And if you want to be happy, you have to start loving yourself because
[11:39 - 11:42] you are a real person. And God didn't just create you for that, but you have a
[11:42 - 11:46] purpose and it's inside of here. The visions you have, the dreams you have,
[11:46 - 11:53] the goals you have are real. They are real. They are real. Guys, you know different
[11:53 - 11:56] than Warren Buffet, you know, different than Bill Gates, you know, you know,
[11:56 - 11:59] different than Obama. You guys are special. You're important. You're beautiful
[11:59 - 12:03] people. You have a heartbeat because that's what really matters. A relationship
[12:03 - 12:07] doesn't work off of attraction. That thing leads away. Have you ever bought
[12:07 - 12:12] something new more than a couple of months? A heart beat goes on, the pedal
[12:12 - 12:17] only dies, never knows that. Just realize you can always go out and get a job.
[12:17 - 12:21] You can always go out and find somebody to hang out with. You can always go meet
[12:21 - 12:26] new people. You can always go find more money. You can always go find more
[12:26 - 12:30] items, cars, clothes, but you can never replace a life and you can never replace
[12:30 - 12:34] anybody than the ones you hear in this world because they are the reasons why
[12:34 - 12:37] your mom can talk and live in agreement. Your ownership, your parents, your
[12:37 - 12:40] friends, your family, the ones that are there for you when you're broke, the
[12:40 - 12:43] ones that are there for you when you're down, the ones that are there for you
[12:43 - 12:46] when it really matters that you need to be surrounding yourself around because
[12:46 - 12:50] life is too fucking short. Don't worry about what people think about you guys.
[12:50 - 12:53] It's hard for my language, but it's the truth. It's the truth that somebody's
[12:53 - 12:56] being mean to you. If somebody's hurting your feelings, if somebody's
[12:56 - 12:59] controlling you, just know they're miserable guys. Please just know they're
[12:59 - 13:02] miserable. I don't care if they have a million dollars and they're being a
[13:02 - 13:07] real person to a stranger or equal. There's no difference. They have more money
[13:07 - 13:10] than you, but they're not living any longer than you. They're still going to
[13:10 - 13:13] die, and guess what? When they die, they're going to die the same way you
[13:13 - 13:16] die with nothing. They came into this world with nothing, so don't let people
[13:16 - 13:19] think they're better than you. All the people think they're greater than you.
[13:19 - 13:22] You are, right? You are intelligent. You have everything you need to succeed.
[13:22 - 13:25] And if you don't believe it, you're never going to achieve it, guys.
[13:25 - 13:28] If you can vision it, it takes one vision. It takes one goal.
[13:28 - 13:34] It takes one dream to be at the end of the night before you go to sleep.
[13:34 - 13:37] When you're thinking about all the different, all the things running around your brain,
[13:37 - 13:41] like, "Where am I at? What am I doing? How do I do this?" Just know.
[13:41 - 13:45] You know where to go. Just know. You know what to do.
[13:45 - 13:49] You need the direction. I'm here. It's exciting.
[13:49 - 13:53] I don't know what you're waiting for, and I'm talking to every single one of you.
[13:53 - 13:57] The direction, the guidance, is that you need to get involved.
[13:57 - 14:01] And when you follow it, you're starting to feel like you're failing, and it's okay.
[14:01 - 14:05] Because how do these people in the world go through a lot of failures, a lot of
[14:05 - 14:08] battles, and you will forever deal with tough situations, guys?
[14:08 - 14:11] But there's light at the end of the tunnel, because you're no different than any
[14:11 - 14:14] one of us, and I'm no different than you do.
[14:15 - 14:17] I don't know.
[14:17 - 14:25] That right there is my dude, Anthony Burns, man.
[14:25 - 14:33] That's my dude right there, man. That's my boy.
[14:33 - 14:39] He's definitely one of my driving forces behind stuff that I want to do.
[14:39 - 14:41] And yes, I do artwork.
[14:41 - 14:45] I have one of my pieces. Man, I don't think I ever showed you any of my artwork.
[14:45 - 14:49] Hold up. Hold up.
[14:49 - 14:58] Now, keep in mind, this is just my hand-done shit.
[14:58 - 15:01] Like, I've got a lot of digital stuff as well.
[15:01 - 15:07] But what I'm about to show you is actually one of my hand-drawn pieces
[15:07 - 15:11] that I did very recently, actually, on the live stream.
[15:11 - 15:30] You know what, I'll actually dig out some of my hand-drawn stuff as well.
[15:30 - 15:34] Because I do need to kind of go through and pick some of that out.
[15:35 - 15:37] Oh, no, they're already all in here. Okay.
[15:37 - 15:53] I do definitely have some very dark and very weird pieces.
[15:53 - 15:57] So, fair warning.
[15:57 - 16:02] You just say no, fair warning.
[16:02 - 16:05] Some of the pieces I'm about to show are very dark.
[16:05 - 16:09] Some of them, not all of them. Some of them are normal.
[16:09 - 16:15] Like, this one right here is one of my latest pieces I did by hand on a live stream.
[16:15 - 16:18] I actually did this...
[16:18 - 16:23] If anybody can tell me, like, how long ago I did this.
[16:23 - 16:26] Like, about two, three weeks ago I did this piece.
[16:26 - 16:31] I actually did this with acrylic and watercolor.
[16:31 - 16:32] Paint.
[16:32 - 16:40] And this one's more of a darker Halloween kind of vibe.
[16:40 - 16:44] This one I actually did with straight up watercolor.
[16:44 - 16:47] It's definitely one of my darker paintings, but...
[16:47 - 16:52] Definitely one of my creepier ones, for sure.
[16:52 - 16:57] Definitely one of my darker pieces.
[16:58 - 17:08] And I got another weird piece that I did.
[17:08 - 17:11] This one's, like, really weird, honestly.
[17:11 - 17:13] Like, I don't even know, like, what you call it.
[17:13 - 17:17] It's not creepy, but it's not light either, just...
[17:17 - 17:21] A really weird abstract face piece that I did.
[17:26 - 17:29] And then I got this little dude which I painted.
[17:29 - 17:32] I got this little chibi anime character that I painted with watercolor.
[17:32 - 17:42] And those are just my paintings.
[17:42 - 17:45] These are just, like, my hand-done paint work.
[17:45 - 17:48] Let me show you some of my hand-drawn, like, actual...
[17:51 - 17:56] Like, some of my actual hand-drawn shit, like, actual pencil work.
[17:56 - 18:02] Starting off, I got one of my personal favorites, which is this.
[18:02 - 18:07] This one took me about six months to do, but I have that.
[18:07 - 18:20] And like I said, this piece right here literally took me, like, six months to do,
[18:20 - 18:25] because if you look very closely, like, there's lines and lines and lines in there.
[18:25 - 18:29] And that took me months to get that, but...
[18:29 - 18:32] Yeah, you got that piece.
[18:32 - 18:36] Which, this one right here is actually one of my personal favorites, to be honest with you.
[18:47 - 18:57] And I also am a huge fan of graffiti art, so I did a little graffiti-looking character at random.
[18:57 - 18:59] Still haven't finished them, though.
[18:59 - 19:02] Still need to do that.
[19:02 - 19:05] What else do I have?
[19:05 - 19:06] Oh, yeah.
[19:06 - 19:16] You know I couldn't have a drawing portfolio without the world-famous Jack and Sally.
[19:16 - 19:20] You know you're gonna have Jack, Skellington, and Sally open your shit somewhere.
[19:20 - 19:22] Got to. That's a must.
[19:22 - 19:24] Like, that is a must, man.
[19:24 - 19:28] Who doesn't know Jack, Skellington, and Sally from Nightmare of Four Christmas, bro?
[19:28 - 19:29] Come on.
[19:29 - 19:38] We got this...
[19:38 - 19:42] Right here, which I did not that long ago.
[19:45 - 19:47] Dude in a graffiti mask.
[19:47 - 19:53] Facts.
[19:53 - 19:59] Skipping these, skipping these...
[19:59 - 20:06] Ah, one of my personal favorites that I'm actually not done with yet.
[20:06 - 20:10] This one I am still working on, but...
[20:13 - 20:17] Still working on it, but this is what I got so far for this one.
[20:17 - 20:32] Like I said, I'm not quite done with it yet, but I'm still working on it.
[20:32 - 20:37] But yeah, that's just some of my hand-drawn stuff.
[20:38 - 20:43] And I'm thinking with the hood, I'm thinking I want to go with like either a carbon fiber look,
[20:43 - 20:46] or like a glossy orange kind of look.
[20:46 - 20:48] I'm not sure yet though, but...
[20:48 - 20:55] You know, that's just a few of my, you know, hand-drawn stuff.
[20:55 - 21:00] And this one I did literally in my last stream.
[21:00 - 21:04] Definitely weird, but I did forget about this one, but...
[21:04 - 21:07] This one's definitely strange, but definitely cool.
[21:07 - 21:10] I got this one right here, which I did actually in the last...
[21:10 - 21:13] This is actually done in my last art stream.
[21:13 - 21:20] Like I said, definitely weird, very strange, but very cool.
[21:20 - 21:26] So yeah.
[21:29 - 21:36] But hands down, my favorite art piece I've done so far would have to be this one right here.
[21:36 - 21:41] Because this one right here definitely does speak volumes in itself.
[21:41 - 21:46] Like it definitely does speak major volumes for itself.
[21:46 - 21:48] Like what else can I say?
[21:48 - 21:55] Like it definitely does speak major volumes, you know, on many different levels,
[21:55 - 22:01] especially with everything going on right now with, you know,
[22:01 - 22:04] everyone judging everyone and whatnot.
[22:04 - 22:05] So yeah.
[22:05 - 22:10] Exactly.
[22:10 - 22:13] Honestly, dude, I love strange artwork.
[22:13 - 22:14] I really do.
[22:14 - 22:23] Get rid of that person.
[22:23 - 22:40] See, like I said, that's just a little bit of my artwork that I've done over the years.
[22:40 - 22:42] Oh.
[22:42 - 23:05] But yeah, I do artwork.
[23:05 - 23:06] I do music.
[23:06 - 23:08] I do literally everything, really.
[23:09 - 23:13] Like anything creative, I usually have a knack for doing like,
[23:13 - 23:18] whether it's music, whether it's artwork, you know, what have you.
[23:18 - 23:26] Yeah, exactly.
[23:26 - 23:27] Exactly.
[23:27 - 23:33] You see, Manic, I can already tell you, if me and your work on something together,
[23:33 - 23:35] like we have come out with something badass.
[23:36 - 23:39] Straight up, because that's the motivation that I have.
[23:39 - 23:41] That's the kind of stuff that I do.
[23:41 - 23:45] So I'm in that same boat that you're in straight up.
[23:45 - 23:56] That's like when it comes to playing instruments, you know,
[23:56 - 24:00] like I learned to play way differently than most.
[24:00 - 24:08] Oh, no shit.
[24:08 - 24:13] Yo, you'll have to send me some of your artwork in this court.
[24:13 - 24:15] If you got a discord, hit me up.
[24:15 - 24:21] I'll actually give you my discord so you can hit me up.
[24:21 - 24:24] I'm definitely interested in seeing.
[24:24 - 24:25] Yeah.
[24:25 - 24:27] Oh.
[24:29 - 24:30] Yeah.
[24:30 - 24:43] Like, I've always been that kind of person that's been into the weird,
[24:43 - 24:46] odd, macabre, strange art.
[24:46 - 24:48] Like, I've always been that way.
[24:48 - 24:50] Like hell.
[24:50 - 24:52] This is how crazy I am with artwork.
[24:52 - 24:57] Like, keep in mind, this wasn't done by me or requested by me,
[24:57 - 24:59] but my best friend Jake.
[24:59 - 25:02] He was an auto body shop with me.
[25:02 - 25:05] You guys know my brother who's like literally my best friend Jake.
[25:05 - 25:10] He actually did this dope ass skull on the back of my acoustic guitar.
[25:10 - 25:24] Like, tell me that ain't badass.
[25:24 - 25:32] And look at that beautiful skull, man.
[25:32 - 25:33] That is sick.
[25:33 - 25:41] Right.
[25:41 - 25:42] Exactly.
[25:42 - 25:45] I see.
[25:45 - 25:47] And that's how I am with music.
[25:47 - 25:53] Like, to me, if you're not constantly creating or doing something,
[25:54 - 25:56] and what are you doing?
[25:56 - 26:14] Man, but you know what?
[26:14 - 26:15] I'll actually play you guys a little something.
[26:15 - 26:18] Something I've been meaning to play for you guys for a while now that I just
[26:18 - 26:20] haven't gotten the chance to do.
[26:21 - 26:24] Alright, let's dish up.
[26:25 - 26:26] Let's dish up.
[26:27 - 26:33] [music]
[26:33 - 26:53] ???
[26:53 - 26:55] ? Watch out the moon, shine through the sky, and the dark eyes ?
[26:55 - 26:58] ? Try and make the light, the sun, the sun, to forgive the life ?
[26:58 - 27:00] ? The moon is something, the moon's gonna hold me warm ?
[27:00 - 29:20] ? It makes me think of the acronym, and the way it works ?
[29:20 - 29:30] So I say, like, I'm constantly doing shit music-wise.
[29:30 - 29:34] I wouldn't say better than Hendrix, dude.
[29:34 - 29:36] Doing Hendrix is a fucking boss.
[29:37 - 29:40] Like, the homie, Jimmy Hendrix, man.
[29:40 - 29:44] He's a fucking -- that's a fucking god right there, dude.
[29:44 - 29:46] Like, no cat.
[29:46 - 29:50] Like, that is a fucking god in music.
[29:50 - 30:04] And we only got one hour left before that song is uploaded.
[30:04 - 30:08] Now, I do kind of want to do this song for you guys.
[30:08 - 30:10] I've never done this before.
[30:10 - 30:20] Ooh, I actually don't know that one.
[30:20 - 30:22] I'll have to learn that one.
[30:22 - 30:24] I actually don't know that one.
[30:27 - 30:29] ? Voices in my hand again ?
[30:29 - 30:33] ? Translators inside my long skin ?
[30:33 - 30:37] ? They're pulling me on time ?
[30:37 - 30:43] You know what I'm talking about? Let's stand up.
[30:43 - 30:45] Hold on.
[30:45 - 30:59] ??
[30:59 - 31:01] ? What's my, what's my, what's my ?
[31:01 - 31:04] ? Life and fear of the bad ?
[31:04 - 31:07] ? I'm from the state of the national ?
[31:07 - 31:09] ? But still feel the pain ?
[31:09 - 31:11] ? And feel the pain ?
[31:11 - 31:13] ? I'm not sure what's in my soul ?
[31:13 - 31:15] ? But all of your lies ?
[31:15 - 31:17] ? The cells you're not sure ?
[31:17 - 31:21] ? It should send me to life ?
[31:21 - 31:29] ? I had a campaign made of war ?
[31:29 - 31:31] ? I can't win it ?
[31:31 - 31:33] ? I can't hear them now ?
[31:33 - 31:35] ? But today came inside my night ?
[31:35 - 31:38] ? I'm scared of something down there ?
[31:38 - 31:41] ? My self anymore ?
[31:41 - 31:44] ? You're pulling me on time ?
[31:44 - 31:55] ? I'm from the state of the national ?
[31:55 - 31:58] ? But I can walk through this valley ?
[31:58 - 32:00] ? Of shadows and death ?
[32:00 - 32:03] ? I trust not the wicked ?
[32:03 - 32:06] ? I'm traced not the blessed ?
[32:06 - 32:08] ? But I'm still to the truth ?
[32:08 - 32:11] ? You've prepared me to change ?
[32:11 - 32:15] ? If you want to come and see me now ?
[32:15 - 32:19] ? I'm thankful I sat in my head again ?
[32:19 - 32:21] ? Pitting me in the wall ?
[32:21 - 32:23] ? I can't win it ?
[32:23 - 32:25] ? I can't hear them now ?
[32:25 - 32:27] ? But today came inside my night ?
[32:27 - 32:30] ? I'm scared of something down there ?
[32:30 - 32:33] ? My self anymore ?
[32:33 - 32:37] ? You're pulling me on time ?
[32:37 - 32:40] ? I'm watching my side ?
[32:40 - 32:43] ? I'm going to the world ?
[32:43 - 32:45] ? I'm so proud of you ?
[32:45 - 32:47] ? I'm so happy ?
[32:47 - 32:50] ? I'm waiting all my life ?
[32:50 - 32:55] ? I don't want to live for you ?
[32:55 - 32:59] ? I just want to live my life ?
[32:59 - 33:01] ? I'm going to the world ?
[33:01 - 33:03] ? I can't win it ?
[33:03 - 33:06] ? I'm going to the world ?
[33:06 - 33:10] ? In my head again and again and again ?
[33:10 - 33:13] ? For I stand in my head again ?
[33:13 - 33:17] ? Getting me more accurate ?
[33:17 - 33:19] ? I can't hear them now ?
[33:19 - 33:21] ? When did it get inside my arms ?
[33:21 - 33:26] ? Can't decide to know myself anymore ?
[33:26 - 33:31] ? They're pulling me on top ?
[33:31 - 33:38] ? For I stand in my head again ?
[33:38 - 33:41] ? They're pulling me on top ?
[33:41 - 33:46] ? For I stand in my head again ?
[33:46 - 33:49] ? I stand in my head again ?
[33:49 - 33:56] ? For I stand in my head again ?
[33:56 - 34:09] ? 'Cause I'm not the man, it's everything but the time ?
[34:09 - 34:24] Believe it or not, I actually do,
[34:24 - 34:26] a lot of my, as a matter of fact,
[34:26 - 34:30] matter of fact, Manic,
[34:30 - 34:33] if you actually listen to some of my songs,
[34:34 - 34:37] my album "Shadowborn" actually speaks on a lot
[34:37 - 34:40] about mental illness and depression.
[34:40 - 34:45] And that's kind of why I like really relate
[34:45 - 34:47] to this song right here.
[34:47 - 34:51] - Has schizophrenia caused someone you care about
[34:51 - 34:53] to lose their desire to do anything?
[34:53 - 34:54] If so.
[34:54 - 34:59] - And man, I gotta get really fucked with this one.
[34:59 - 35:01] This is my phone in reverse.
[35:01 - 35:04] (car engine revving)
[35:04 - 35:08] Yeah.
[35:08 - 35:15] ? I wake up every morning with my head up in the days ?
[35:15 - 35:18] ? I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck I'll say it anyway ?
[35:18 - 35:21] ? Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase ?
[35:21 - 35:22] ? I don't know if it's a phase ?
[35:22 - 35:24] ? I just wanna feel a good sound ?
[35:24 - 35:27] ? Damn, damn, depression like a clash of zero names ?
[35:27 - 35:28] ? This is most dramatic stress ?
[35:28 - 35:30] ? And nor am I suppressed in rage ?
[35:30 - 35:32] ? If a doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase ?
[35:32 - 35:34] ? Yeah, it's not a fucking phase ?
[35:34 - 35:36] ? I just wanna feel okay, okay ?
[35:36 - 35:38] ? Yeah, I'm struggling with this bullshit every day ?
[35:38 - 35:41] ? Yeah, it's probably 'cause I do it simultaneously ?
[35:41 - 35:42] ? Gave me the pain, all right ?
[35:42 - 35:44] ? Makes a sense, so crazy ?
[35:44 - 35:46] ? And I don't have anything ?
[35:46 - 35:48] ? That I'm about to break ?
[35:48 - 35:53] ? Down to the way out ?
[35:53 - 35:57] ? I'm cheering nobody for your fucking life ?
[35:57 - 36:19] ? I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze ?
[36:19 - 36:22] ? Every woman that I knock down is just a world that I replace ?
[36:22 - 36:23] ? I'm gonna race against myself ?
[36:23 - 36:25] ? I try to keep a steady pace ?
[36:25 - 36:26] ? How the fuck would I escape ?
[36:26 - 36:28] ? If I never close my gaze ?
[36:28 - 36:29] ? Oh my god, I choose to dress ?
[36:29 - 36:30] ? And every second that I waste ?
[36:30 - 36:33] ? Is another second to a blessing ?
[36:33 - 36:34] ? I want to say it to my therapist ?
[36:34 - 36:36] ? Don't tell me that I'm going through a stage ?
[36:36 - 36:38] ? Yeah, it's not a fucking phase ?
[36:38 - 36:41] ? I just wanna feel okay, okay ?
[36:41 - 36:42] ? You fucker, now you got my attention ?
[36:42 - 36:44] ? I need a chance ?
[36:44 - 36:45] ? I'm gonna tell you something ?
[36:45 - 36:46] ? It's not fair, boy ?
[36:46 - 36:48] ? It's not fair ?
[36:48 - 36:49] ? I'll tell you what things are ?
[36:49 - 36:51] ? Let me say it's not fair ?
[36:51 - 36:53] ? I get closer to the grave ?
[36:53 - 36:56] ? I'm gonna say goodbye again ?
[36:56 - 36:57] ? Just one more time ?
[36:57 - 36:59] ? I'm gonna do it again ?
[36:59 - 37:01] ? I'll raise the seeds up from the sky ?
[37:01 - 37:03] ? I have my land ?
[37:03 - 37:06] ? To break down ?
[37:06 - 37:09] ? To jump all the way out ?
[37:09 - 37:12] ? I know that you are the only one ?
[37:12 - 37:15] ? I'm the only one ?
[37:15 - 37:22] ? I'm sorry ?
[37:22 - 37:51] We can't hide our fathers Praying to the fact that you don't belong here This is for the truth and I'm not that bad I'm from this mess and I am a scammer I'm gonna fuck this for God, now!
[37:51 - 38:17] We can't hide our fathers Praying to the fact that you don't belong here This is for the truth and I am not that bad
[38:17 - 38:23] And yo man do you think that was good? I think you'll actually be impressed when you hear this
[38:23 - 38:48] [Music]
[38:48 - 39:44] We can't hide our fathers Praying to the fact that you don't belong here This is for the truth and I am not that bad
[39:44 - 40:01] I'm hyperventilate No key for help somehow somewhere Then no one cares I'm my own worst enemy I give in life
[40:01 - 40:19] No sick of failing Is there nothing you can't say Take this apart away Let's help obtain it Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me
[40:19 - 40:35] [Music]
[40:35 - 40:52] Put me out of my misery Put me out of my misery Put me out of my fucking misery
[40:52 - 41:08] [Music]
[41:08 - 41:32] I give in life No sick of failing Is there nothing you can't say Take this apart away Let's help obtain it Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me
[41:32 - 41:38] [Music]
[41:38 - 42:07] And heck, how many people you know can pull that shit off?
[42:07 - 42:36] [Music]
[42:36 - 43:31] There's just so much goddamn weight on my shoulders All I'm trying to do is live my motherfuckin' life Supposed to be happy but I'm only typical to wear a smile on my face
[43:31 - 43:44] There's just so much goddamn weight on your shoulders All I'm trying to do is live my motherfuckin' life Supposed to be happy but I'm only typical to wear a smile on my face
[43:44 - 43:53] There's just so much goddamn weight on my shoulders All I'm trying to do is live my motherfuckin' life Supposed to be happy but I'm only typical to wear a smile on my face
[43:53 - 44:03] All I'm trying to do is live my motherfuckin' life Supposed to be happy but I'm only typical to wear a smile on my face
[44:03 - 44:15] There's just so much goddamn weight on my shoulders All I'm trying to do is live my motherfuckin' life Supposed to be happy but I'm only typical to wear a smile on my face
[44:15 - 45:17] All I'm trying to do is live my motherfuckin' life Supposed to be happy but I'm only typical to wear a smile on my face
[45:17 - 45:27] Yo, Neon, what's good, bro?
[45:27 - 45:40] Oh, I said, dude, I know I'm not really supposed to be pushing it but I actually figured out that if I actually drink something warm, I'm good, bro
[45:40 - 46:05] I am straight up good
[46:05 - 46:15] Hello, Thomas. I see that you're depressed. What's the problem? Is it the skeletons you're hiding deep inside your closet? Have you been reading all the names that call you in the comments?
[46:15 - 46:25] Have you been worried your haters will put you in the coffin? Are you distraught that you promised vodka was not an option? Now you haven't thought so do what shots come, you're an alcoholic
[46:25 - 46:31] Is that true? You accept that you can't have boobs? What's the matter, Thomas? Something's got you in a bad mood
[46:31 - 46:38] Yeah, it does. I'm anxious. Nothing comes to me down like 10X does but I can't even relapse as the internet will laugh at us
[46:38 - 46:45] I just need a beer tube but it's been like a year or two. I thought you disappeared. I can't believe that I'm still here with you
[46:45 - 46:53] My therapist said me and you can speak again. I locked the devil out but it was you who let the demons in
[46:53 - 46:58] You're a comedian. I'm only going to tell you once you really need to be my friend
[46:58 - 47:01] Shut up, I'm walking alone in the dark, your sharps in the water, I stand through the vultures
[47:01 - 47:04] I've never been giving you pills for the pressure, I've never been giving you ulcers
[47:04 - 47:08] Your body reminds you I'm independent because I'm the guy who does anything that I want, it's a Bible
[47:08 - 47:10] You're independent because no one will sign you
[47:10 - 47:13] You gotta use it if no one subscribes and you gotta spot if I know what he finds you
[47:13 - 47:17] I'm not another person, you can lie to me, I'll be the greatest as long as this guy who is fired
[47:17 - 47:19] Come on, Thomas, keep it real
[47:19 - 47:22] You're the liar, I can tell you exactly how I feel
[47:47 - 47:50] Thomas, I'm still here, I practically smell the fear
[47:50 - 47:53] I know all the reasons why you feel so insecure
[47:53 - 47:56] I've seen you panic backstage here in your big buddy chair
[47:56 - 48:00] You're famous now, Thomas, tell me what's with all the tears
[48:00 - 48:01] Shut up
[48:01 - 48:06] Do you regret that your face is covered with tattoos, mad that your beats wack, all your raps trash too
[48:06 - 48:07] Shut up
[48:07 - 48:12] Do you resent that you need meds again, neglected friends, and now you just pretend you're not pathetic
[48:12 - 48:13] You're not having that
[48:13 - 48:16] Just one of those days, don't know why, I don't feel okay
[48:16 - 48:19] Close both eyes, focus on pain, close my mind alone in my brain
[48:19 - 48:22] I smell smoke from all of those flames, smelly and hoes and hoes from my grave
[48:22 - 48:25] They told me smell the roses but I burned the whole bouquet
[48:25 - 48:29] Tom, you'll never win the fight against your haters as long as I listen
[48:29 - 48:32] 'Cause I read every single comment that you try missing
[48:32 - 48:35] Then recite them in your mind and memorize this one
[48:35 - 48:39] I'm a giant, Thomas, why are you trying to fight with me?
[48:39 - 48:41] Don't care about the height difference, I might get it
[48:41 - 48:43] Show the good ones, I swing it
[48:43 - 48:44] And I'm the darkness
[48:44 - 48:45] Yeah, I got night vision
[48:45 - 48:46] I've been fighting my tongue and the blood from my tongue
[48:46 - 48:47] I've been feeling my stomach, I suffer
[48:47 - 48:49] 'Cause they don't show love in my problems
[48:49 - 48:51] So now I just do this with all of my family and all of my brothers
[48:51 - 48:52] Liar!
[48:52 - 48:54] You're rapping for yourself and answer that
[48:54 - 48:57] Your selfish motivations are for reasons you're depressed
[48:57 - 48:59] I knew it's why, you need to chill
[48:59 - 49:01] You need to take care of all of those nails
[49:01 - 49:04] Take a break and tell us all just exactly how you feel
[49:04 - 49:07] I'm the best rapper ever, I don't wanna be great
[49:07 - 49:10] They're the best and I'm better, don't you make 'em mistake
[49:10 - 49:13] 'Cause I'm the goal, you let in, I'm the type to love the doors
[49:13 - 49:16] I'm the one who pulls the stuff out of the store
[49:16 - 49:19] I'm the best rapper ever, I don't care what you say
[49:19 - 49:22] I'm the best rapper ever, I'm the type to love the doors
[49:22 - 49:25] I'm the one who pulls the stuff out of the store
[49:25 - 49:28] I'm the best rapper ever, I don't care what you say
[49:28 - 49:31] I'm the best rapper ever, I'm the type to love the play
[49:31 - 49:34] 'Cause I'm the goal, if I get it wrong
[49:34 - 49:37] Everybody knows I'm the one who says I'm hearing them all
[49:37 - 49:39] Thomas, work together, you know how good we can be
[49:39 - 49:41] I'm the best rapper ever, I don't wanna be great
[49:41 - 49:43] They're the best and I'm better, don't you make 'em mistake
[49:43 - 49:46] 'Cause I'm the goal, you let in, I'm the type to love the doors
[49:46 - 49:48] I'm the one who pulls the stuff out of the store
[49:48 - 49:50] I'm the best rapper ever, I'm the type to love the play
[49:50 - 50:12] I'm the best rapper ever, I don't care what you say
[50:12 - 50:14] I'm the best rapper ever, I'm the type to love the play
[50:14 - 50:16] 'Cause I'm the goal, you let in, I'm the type to love the play
[50:16 - 50:18] Everybody knows I'm the best rapper ever, I don't care what you say
[50:18 - 50:32] I'm the best rapper ever, I don't care what you say
[50:32 - 50:37] If you have one that I do wanna do for you, it's actually an original piece
[50:37 - 50:42] that I actually am dropping, I actually am dropping this song
[50:42 - 50:45] Not that long from now actually
[50:45 - 79:01] Let's see if I can find it
[79:02 - 79:04] Yo Urban Fox, what's up man?
[79:04 - 79:15] Now this one right here is going out to all the brand new subscribers out there
[79:15 - 79:17] This is for all the newbies out there
[79:18 - 97:04] Let's see if I can find it
[97:05 - 97:06] Dude, I'm not saying God, man
[97:06 - 97:08] I'm not saying David, I'm not
[97:08 - 97:14] I get it
[97:14 - 97:15] 100% I get it
[97:15 - 97:28] Wow, nice
[97:29 - 97:32] But that doesn't always mean
[97:32 - 97:35] That I wouldn't say goodbye
[97:35 - 97:40] Hold on for the coast of no consistency
[97:40 - 97:43] Nothing if I won't go down
[97:43 - 97:46] Nothing if I'm just me
[97:46 - 97:52] And it says that the strongness always ends with me
[97:52 - 97:57] And I wouldn't be here right now
[97:57 - 97:59] Nothing if I'm just me
[97:59 - 98:02] And it says that the strongness always ends with me
[98:02 - 98:05] And I wouldn't be here right now
[98:05 - 98:07] Nothing if I won't go down
[98:07 - 98:08] Nothing if I'm just me
[98:08 - 98:09] And it says that the strongness always ends with me
[98:09 - 98:10] Nothing if I'm just me
[98:10 - 103:51] And it says that the strongness always ends with me