Original upload date: January 17th, 2021 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:28] So, everybody wants to know why I'm angry.
[0:28 - 0:44] I don't think I need any explanation or need to even explain it.
[0:44 - 0:51] That link that's in the description should be more than enough to speak for why I'm
[0:51 - 0:54] angry.
[1:22 - 1:26] And to that motherfucker that did it, Pinhead.
[1:34 - 1:38] I hope you know I'm coming for you, pal.
[1:38 - 1:43] Last night, I tried to set shit up for today.
[1:46 - 1:51] I tried to set shit up for not only a good Memorial cover show.
[1:51 - 1:55] To honor my brother and those that have passed from cancer.
[1:55 - 2:01] I tried to do a show for me and my friends,
[2:01 - 2:06] doing a trip to the venture set up.
[2:06 - 2:15] To pay respect to those like my brother that inspired us to do what we do.
[2:15 - 2:22] And for y'all motherfuckers to come up in there and do that, are you serious?
[2:22 - 2:31] I would never disrespect anyone the way y'all disrespected me.
[2:31 - 2:38] I would never, never degrade your family the way you degrade mine.
[2:48 - 2:56] The way you degraded my family is beyond fucked up.
[2:56 - 3:01] I would never do that, not even to my worst enemy.
[3:01 - 3:09] I wouldn't even do that to somebody like Marty whose guts I can't stand.
[3:09 - 3:15] Let me tell you right now, if my worst enemy who is currently Marty
[3:15 - 3:19] was going through something like that.
[3:19 - 3:23] If he was dealing with something like that,
[3:23 - 3:27] I wouldn't show the blatant disrespect that you showed me.
[3:27 - 3:31] So Pinhead, I hope you know I'm coming for you.
[3:38 - 3:45] So Pinhead, you wanna be a little bitch, bring your fake ass on fag.
[3:45 - 3:52] I'm right here, you want me, show your ass up in the chat, bitch.
[3:52 - 3:55] I'm calling you out.
[3:55 - 4:02] You want me, come get me.
[4:02 - 4:08] You want me that badly, you fucking pussy, I'm right here.
[4:08 - 4:13] Come get me.
[4:13 - 4:20] You got my address, show up.
[4:20 - 4:27] I would never disrespect your family to what you disrespect my motherfucker.
[4:27 - 4:32] And I know it was you, I ain't stupid.
[4:32 - 4:38] So bring it Pinhead, I'm right here, you stupid little bitch.
[4:38 - 4:42] I'm right here, you fake ass coward.
[4:42 - 4:45] Instead of hiding me on your screen like a bitch,
[4:45 - 4:48] why don't you bring your fake ass up here?
[4:48 - 4:54] You got my address, come get me.
[4:54 - 4:56] You want me that badly?
[4:56 - 5:02] Get off your fat, lazy fucking ass and bring your ass up here.
[5:02 - 5:08] Bring it up here, see if I don't beat your ass.
[5:08 - 5:14] I'm tired of motherfuckers like you, Pinhead, degrading my family.
[5:14 - 5:20] Bashing my family, disrespecting the dead.
[5:20 - 5:34] Have some respect, show some decency, you fucking coward.
[5:34 - 5:40] Can I tell you right now, the way you disrespected my brother and my family?
[5:40 - 5:43] I wouldn't even do that to you.
[5:43 - 5:48] I would show you respect.
[5:48 - 5:53] If you were going through some shit like I went through, I'd straight out tell you,
[5:53 - 5:59] hey, even though I can't stand you, you still have my condolences.
[5:59 - 6:02] You still have my respect.
[6:02 - 6:06] I would show respect.
[6:06 - 6:18] You're a classless, tasteless, disturbed little freak.
[6:18 - 6:25] You know, this morning, I had a whole show planned out to honor my brother and
[6:25 - 6:36] those that we've lost who fought the good fight.
[6:36 - 6:44] But instead, I'm here, standing here, going in your ass.
[6:44 - 6:53] You think it's funny what you did to grading my family?
[6:53 - 6:58] Attacking my brother the way that you did?
[6:58 - 7:02] That's sickening.
[7:02 - 7:17] I would never stoop to the level of disrespect that you showed me and my family.
[7:17 - 7:25] I would never show the disrespect that you showed me.
[7:25 - 7:34] The Medic Monday, if you want an answer to your question, go click the link in the description.
[7:34 - 7:59] I tell you how fucked up that is.
[7:59 - 8:25] I would never show any amount of disrespect to the dead.
[8:25 - 8:31] I would never disrespect you the way you disrespected me.
[8:31 - 8:34] And how did you disrespect me?
[8:34 - 8:36] You disrespected the dead.
[8:36 - 8:38] You dishonored the dead.
[8:38 - 8:41] You degraded the dead.
[8:41 - 8:53] And let me tell you right now, Pinhead, you don't know what it's like to deal with what
[8:53 - 8:56] I've dealt with.
[8:56 - 9:05] For a year and a half, I had to watch my brother slowly die from cancer, every waking
[9:05 - 9:08] moment.
[9:08 - 9:20] I had to watch my brother slowly die for a year and a half, slowly withering away, barely
[9:20 - 9:25] hanging on.
[9:25 - 9:34] And then today, six years ago, was the last time I ever saw my brother again.
[9:34 - 9:48] Today six years ago was the last day I ever got to see him, face to face.
[9:48 - 9:59] After that, I didn't get to see him again, except for on FaceTime one time on his birthday.
[9:59 - 10:09] And then what happened, a mere couple weeks after that, on February 3rd, he lost his wife
[10:09 - 10:10] to the cancer.
[10:10 - 10:20] And let me tell you right now, Pinhead, I would never degrade you the way that you did
[10:20 - 10:21] me.
[10:21 - 10:27] If you lost a way to cancer, I would show you my condolences.
[10:27 - 10:40] I would pay my respects.
[10:40 - 10:45] I would have respect for your family.
[10:45 - 10:52] Why do you think I have so much respect for anyone out there that deals with cancer?
[10:52 - 10:59] Why do you think I have so much respect for the LGBTQ community?
[10:59 - 11:05] Because not only did my brother deal with cancer, but he was also gay and I also know
[11:05 - 11:11] half my friends and family are all spectrums of the LGBTQ community.
[11:11 - 11:17] And for you to degrade him like that, somebody who fought for the rights of the gay community
[11:17 - 11:25] every day of his life, somebody who was an activist for the gay rights community, are
[11:25 - 11:30] you fucking serious?
[11:30 - 11:57] What's some respect?
[11:57 - 12:25] I got the perfect song for your ass, Pinhead.
[12:25 - 12:45] No, you know what, I'm not even going to do it.
[12:45 - 12:51] If any of you have gone through what I've gone through, if any of you have dealt with
[12:51 - 12:58] what I'm dealing with now or have dealt with, and if any of you have lost a loved one to
[12:58 - 13:11] anything, whether it be cancer or whatever, this song is for you.
[13:11 - 13:40] Listen, everyone, the time's coming, all I must say is bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye,
[13:40 - 13:41] bye, bye, bye, bye.
[13:41 - 13:42] Feel that hitting in your heart, even your broken inside.
[13:42 - 13:43] Well, you've never really gone as long as there's a memory in your mind.
[13:43 - 13:44] So now come to the best things in your life.
[13:44 - 13:45] Take a bite out of this mind.
[13:45 - 14:00] I'm not going to do it.
[14:00 - 14:17] So now come to the best things in your life.
[14:17 - 14:18] Take a bite out of this mind while you can.
[14:18 - 14:19] Take the most out of the rest of your life.
[14:19 - 14:20] Take a bite out of this mind while you can.
[14:20 - 14:29] Take someone you love and hold them just because there is little time.
[14:29 - 14:49] And don't let it break your heart, I know it feels so blessed sometimes. But there's never really gone, as long as there's a memory in your mind.
[14:49 - 15:10] So if I'm going to the best things in life, take a bite of this world while you can. Make the most of the rest of your life, take a ride of this world while you can.
[15:10 - 15:31] Be in the home of the two memories, love the regret and all the merits, keep them alive.
[15:31 - 15:50] Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
[15:50 - 16:17] If you guys have lost someone, I want you to put your names in their promise right now.
[16:17 - 16:39] So if I'm going to the best things in life, take a bite of this world while you can. Make the most of the rest of your life, take a bite of this world while you can.
[16:39 - 16:51] If I'm going to the best things in life, take a bite of this world while you can.
[16:51 - 17:20] Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
[17:20 - 17:48] Love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
[17:48 - 19:31] If I'm going to the best things in life, take a bite of this world while you can.
[19:31 - 19:52] If you're going to the best things in life, take a bite of this world while you can.
[19:52 - 20:09] Better yet, I got something for y'all. I got something even better for you.
[20:09 - 20:22] I got something for y'all. I got something for y'all.
[20:22 - 20:40] If you're going to the best things in life, take a bite of this world while you can.
[20:40 - 21:37] If I'm going to the best things in life, take a bite of this world while you can.
[21:37 - 22:32] If you're going to the best things in life, take a bite of this world while you can.
[22:32 - 22:40] Beyond fucked up, dude. And I mean beyond fucked up.
[22:40 - 22:45] So I'm sorry if it's hard for me to get through these songs for you guys.
[22:45 - 23:11] But that level of disrespect cannot be ignored.
[23:11 - 23:29] That's it. It's time to show my level of anger.
[23:29 - 23:41] Waking a sweat again. Another day's been laid to waste in my disgrace. Stuck in my head again.
[23:41 - 23:47] Feels like I'll never leave this place. There's no escape.
[23:47 - 24:01] But my own worst enemy, I hear it all. The thing you realize is that nothing you can't hide.
[24:01 - 24:14] Take this all away. Now stop again. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[24:14 - 24:24] I don't know what to take. Thought I was focused, but I'm scared. I'm not prepared.
[24:24 - 24:42] I'm hyperventilating, looking for help somehow, somewhere, and no one cares. I'm my own worst enemy, I give in high.
[24:42 - 25:06] The thing you realize is that nothing you can't hide. Take this all away. Now stop again. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[25:07 - 25:14] I'm hyperventilating, looking for help somehow, somewhere, somewhere, and no one cares.
[25:14 - 25:22] But my own worst enemy, I hear it all.
[25:22 - 25:36] Take this all away. Pull me out of line. Pull me out of line. Fucking this away.
[25:48 - 25:54] I'm hyperventilating, looking for help somehow, somewhere, and no one cares.
[25:54 - 26:05] The thing you realize is that nothing you can't hide. Now stop again. Now stop again.
[26:05 - 26:13] Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[26:14 - 26:23] I'm hyperventilating, looking for help somehow, somewhere, somewhere, and no one cares.
[26:23 - 26:46] I'm hyperventilating, looking for help somehow, somewhere, and no one cares.
[26:55 - 27:06] It's time to give you guys a pick in my past. And this song represents it so well. So if you've ever been there, this is for you.
[27:11 - 27:25] You are always in my skin. This world is the real body of hope. Here is how I fall.
[27:25 - 27:32] The beauty of this real life.
[27:39 - 27:53] There's something inside me that pulls me near the surface.
[27:53 - 28:07] I can't see you. I can't find myself again. My walls are closing in.
[28:07 - 28:15] I felt this way before I was so insecure.
[28:15 - 28:20] I was falling in my skin.
[28:20 - 28:29] This world is the real body of hope. Here is how I fall.
[28:29 - 28:34] The beauty of this real life.
[28:34 - 30:24] This world is the real body of hope.
[30:24 - 30:28] And you know, let me tell you all a little bit of reality.
[30:28 - 30:32] Let me be fucking real with you all for a minute here.
[30:32 - 30:36] Even more real than I have been.
[30:36 - 30:40] You know, it's motherfuckers like Pinhead that do this shit.
[30:40 - 30:44] That put people like me on the edge every fucking day.
[30:50 - 30:54] It's people like Pinhead and Marty.
[30:54 - 30:58] That put people like me on the edge every day.
[30:58 - 31:04] Let alone to fight depression and suicide every fucking day.
[31:04 - 31:08] And I can honestly say that I'm proud to be a survivor.
[31:08 - 31:12] I'm proud to be a survivor of suicide.
[31:12 - 31:16] Because I can honestly say that I've been there.
[31:16 - 31:20] I can honestly say that I know what it's like to be there.
[31:20 - 31:24] And no one, and I mean no one,
[31:24 - 31:28] deserves that at all.
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[36:27 - 36:52] Sure to stay were the signs I ignored Can I help you not to hurt anymore?
[36:52 - 37:12] We saw brilliance when the world was asleep There are things we can have but can't keep
[37:12 - 37:23] They say who cares if one more light goes out In the sky of a million stars?
[37:23 - 37:29] It flickers, flickers Who cares when someone's time runs out
[37:29 - 37:37] If the moment is all we are Or quicker and quicker
[37:37 - 37:49] Who cares if one more light goes out? Well, I do
[37:49 - 38:05] The reminder for the floor from your feet In the kitchen, one more chair
[38:05 - 38:14] Then you need Oh, and you're angry
[38:14 - 38:22] And you should be And it's not fair
[38:22 - 38:31] Just 'cause you can't see it Doesn't mean it isn't there
[38:31 - 38:42] And they say who cares if one more light goes out In the sky of a million stars?
[38:42 - 38:48] It flickers, flickers Who cares when someone's time runs out
[38:48 - 38:56] If the moment is all we are Or quicker and quicker
[38:56 - 39:30] Who cares if one more light goes out? Well, I do
[39:30 - 39:39] Who cares if one more light goes out In the sky of a million stars?
[39:39 - 39:45] It flickers, flickers Who cares when someone's time runs out
[39:45 - 39:53] If the moment is all we are Or quicker and quicker
[39:53 - 40:05] Who cares if one more light goes out? Well, I do
[40:05 - 40:26] I do
[40:26 - 41:04] No, Lord, I trust No, sir, I trust
[41:04 - 42:37] No, Lord, I trust No, Lord, I trust
[42:37 - 42:48] No, no, Lord, I trust No, Lord, I trust
[42:48 - 51:05] No, Lord, I trust No, Lord, I trust
[51:05 - 51:11] And believe it or not, the only spots he really went to was literally the main downtown library
[51:11 - 51:17] and back home, and that's it, really. I mean, he didn't really go anywhere else other than the store.
[51:17 - 51:32] So, really, there's not much to show.
[51:32 - 52:01] And this one right here, this is for the homey Cory, man, who popped in last night.
[52:01 - 52:04] So, Cory, if you're gonna watch this, this is for you, man.
[52:04 - 52:09] Why don't you say these next two are for you, I should say.
[52:09 - 52:23] Y'all know what it is. Let's go.
[52:24 - 52:38] [Music]
[52:38 - 52:45] I am clearly broken and no one knows what to do
[52:45 - 52:51] Pieces of the puzzle told it's all I have never did to you
[52:51 - 52:58] It changes the holes inside, creating hope to come alive
[52:58 - 53:02] It's just no real life, it's time to know
[53:02 - 53:06] [Music]
[53:06 - 53:10] It's time to live, can't quit these things
[53:10 - 53:18] Holding on to everything, it's time to draw the light
[53:18 - 53:33] Shut the fuck up, get up
[53:33 - 53:37] Can we do it with my eyes?
[53:37 - 53:41] I'm gonna look at you, peace
[53:41 - 53:47] To be this delicious, especially when it's time for you
[53:47 - 53:54] It's changing the holes inside, creating hope to come alive
[53:54 - 54:02] It's just no real life, it's time to know
[54:02 - 54:06] It's time to live, can't quit these things
[54:06 - 54:12] Holding on to everything, it's time to draw the light
[54:12 - 54:17] It's time to live, can't quit these things
[54:17 - 54:23] Holding on to everything, it's time to draw the light
[54:23 - 54:27] It's time to live, can't quit these things
[54:27 - 54:39] Shut the fuck up, get up
[54:39 - 54:53] [Music]
[54:53 - 54:57] I have to tell you, ever hanger right now, all y'all hangers watching
[54:57 - 55:01] You're looking at the next johnson thing, bitch
[55:01 - 55:07] [Music]
[55:07 - 55:11] It's so good it's gonna work 'cause I'm sticking around
[55:11 - 55:15] It's time to live, can't quit these things
[55:15 - 55:21] Holding on to everything, it's time to draw the light
[55:21 - 55:31] It's time to live, can't quit these things
[55:31 - 55:37] Holding on to everything, it's time to draw the light
[55:37 - 55:49] Shut the fuck up, get up
[55:49 - 55:55] [Music]
[55:55 - 56:05] [Silence]
[56:05 - 56:29] [Music]
[56:29 - 56:35] Let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go
[56:35 - 57:07] [Music]
[57:07 - 57:15] Let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go
[57:15 - 57:33] Let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go
[57:33 - 58:11] [Music]
[58:11 - 58:29] Let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go
[58:29 - 59:46] [Music]
[59:46 - 59:58] Yeah, all right, all right, yo, guys, sit tight, hold on, I'll be right back, y'all
[59:58 - 60:06] And also, if you guys can, go to that link in the description and see if y'all can't help me get that shit taken down
[60:06 - 64:16] [Silence]
[64:16 - 64:36] What's up, guys, I'm back, sorry, I had to try and show a record, but, uh, I got something for y'all, man
[64:36 - 65:40] [Silence]
[65:40 - 65:50] No, that was way too dark for you guys, and I don't want to trigger anybody off of that, so, we're gonna take it a whole different direction here
[65:50 - 65:53] [Silence]
[65:53 - 65:56] We're gonna take it a whole different direction for you guys
[65:56 - 66:27] [Silence]
[66:27 - 66:53] It's not a very long song, but
[66:53 - 69:03] [Silence]
[69:03 - 69:09] Alright, guys, I do unfortunately have to bounce for now, I hope you guys did enjoy this, Jay, I'm getting ready to call you right now
[69:09 - 69:22] Um, and to white Cory man, I hope you did enjoy this, and to everybody out there that doesn't know about the page, click the link in the description
[69:22 - 69:33] Check that shit out, and let's get that page shut the fuck down for my brother and for everyone out there that this person has gone after the way they've gone after me
[69:33 - 69:36] So let's get this shit shut the fuck down
[69:36 - 69:38] [Silence]
[69:38 - 69:40] Peace
[69:40 - 69:44] Yo, Tyreese, for sure, man
[69:44 - 69:49] Yo, Tyreese, I'll actually mod you, homie, that way
[69:49 - 69:53] That way you're on here, dude
[69:53 - 70:00] But, uh, with that being said, y'all, I will catch you guys later, man
[70:00 - 70:04] Jenny, I'm getting ready to call you, I'll catch you later, man, peace
[70:04 - 70:10] [Silence]
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '2038' on August 15th, 2024
