2021-1-15 FUCK THE PAST

[0:00 - 0:10] I'll just tell you how it sounds now man.
[0:10 - 0:27] Besides from Katrina and a couple others that were in the chat, I'm very ashamed though.
[0:27 - 0:46] Besides, aside from Tangerine and Katrina, I'm very embarrassed by every one of you
[0:46 - 0:48] guys that were in there.
[0:48 - 0:55] Aside from not counting Tangerine and Katrina, not counting them because Tangerine and Katrina
[0:55 - 1:10] were fine, they were totally fine.
[1:10 - 1:20] But the rest of y'all motherfuckers I'm embarrassed by and you want to know why, I was embarrassed.
[1:20 - 1:28] I sat down, tried to put on a tribute show for people like my brother and people that
[1:28 - 1:36] you guys have lost to pay homage to not only my brother who inspired me to do what I do,
[1:36 - 1:42] but other people like y'all that have lost someone.
[1:42 - 1:49] I tried to put on a good show to pay my respects and honor those that we've lost to stuff
[1:49 - 1:52] like cancer.
[1:52 - 1:54] And yeah, what do you guys do?
[1:54 - 1:59] You come up in there and you're disrespectful as fuck.
[1:59 - 2:03] You know, if any one of you was putting on a show, I wouldn't come up in there running
[2:03 - 2:09] my mouth being a disrespectful little bitch.
[2:09 - 2:14] I would actually come up in there and be respectful.
[2:14 - 2:20] I wouldn't sit there and be like, "Oh, fuck your show, you're doing this, you didn't
[2:20 - 2:21] do that.
[2:21 - 2:22] Oh, you stole this, you did that and not."
[2:22 - 2:27] I would actually be respectful towards you.
[2:27 - 2:38] And I would sing the drama for a different stream.
[2:38 - 2:44] You know, what happened to having respect during a show?
[2:44 - 2:50] What happened to being respectful during a memorial show?
[2:50 - 2:59] Because what y'all don't realize is my brother's birthday is coming up in less than eight days.
[2:59 - 3:01] His birthday is on the 23rd of this month.
[3:01 - 3:08] He passed away February 3rd.
[3:08 - 3:13] So y'all, I figured I would do something to honor him and those of you that have actually
[3:13 - 3:20] lost someone like I have, but instead y'all come up in there, bringing up my fucking
[3:20 - 3:29] past, fucking with me, trolling with me, being disrespectful as fuck.
[3:29 - 3:34] The whole show, y'all were being disrespectful.
[3:34 - 3:37] Y'all should be embarrassed of yourselves.
[3:37 - 3:45] Y'all should be ashamed of yourselves.
[3:45 - 3:53] I want to come up to your show and be disrespectful to you.
[3:53 - 3:56] So why are you going to sit there and do that to somebody like me?
[3:56 - 4:00] Somebody who has lost somebody to cancer.
[4:00 - 4:06] Somebody who has lost several people who fought the good fight.
[4:06 - 4:09] Why would you come up in there and be disrespectful like that?
[4:09 - 4:11] That ain't cool.
[4:11 - 4:13] It's wrong.
[4:13 - 4:14] It's degrading.
[4:14 - 4:18] And it's not only disrespectful to me.
[4:18 - 4:23] It's disrespectful to those that I was paying tribute to.
[4:23 - 4:30] It's very disrespectful.
[4:30 - 4:43] So for y'all to come up in there and run your mouth
[4:43 - 4:50] and be disrespectful and fuck like that, that's just fucked up.
[4:50 - 5:01] Like I said, if any of y'all not counting, not counting the people that I mentioned
[5:01 - 5:06] in the very beginning, those that were actually deleting like crazy, I'd give props to you
[5:06 - 5:07] guys.
[5:07 - 5:13] For those of you that were being very respectful, I thank you for that.
[5:13 - 5:33] And the cat, you 110% have my condolences, 100%.
[5:33 - 5:45] But as for the rest of you that did wrong shit by being disrespectful during a show,
[5:45 - 5:48] you guys ought to be ashamed of yourselves.
[5:48 - 5:58] Y'all should be very ashamed of yourselves because like I said, if y'all were putting
[5:58 - 6:08] on a show to honor someone, I wouldn't sit there, come up in your chat and be disrespectful
[6:08 - 6:21] like you guys were to me.
[6:21 - 6:41] And this AJ guy right here was one of the ones that was being disrespectful.
[6:41 - 6:51] And we don't need to talk about shit, AJ, when I say let the past go, let the past go.
[6:51 - 7:01] All right, there's a reason that I wanted that left in the past because I knew for a
[7:01 - 7:06] fact that if I brought up that book, y'all motherfuckers were gonna start running your
[7:06 - 7:12] mouths and shit would get said and shit would get started.
[7:12 - 7:15] Y'all would sit there in trouble and say, oh, you didn't write the book.
[7:15 - 7:18] Y'all don't know the motherfucking story.
[7:18 - 7:21] So y'all got no right to say shit.
[7:21 - 7:26] Y'all don't know the fucking truth behind what went down.
[7:26 - 7:28] Y'all don't fucking know.
[7:28 - 7:34] So you guys have no right to speak on something you know nothing about.
[7:34 - 7:41] The only ones that know the truth are very few people actually.
[7:41 - 7:48] And one of the ones that does know the truth is Tangerine.
[7:48 - 7:50] She knows what happened.
[7:50 - 7:55] She knows the truth and she understands why I don't bring it up.
[7:55 - 8:04] I wanted a fresh start by releasing the world's first ever 3D car photography book and self
[8:04 - 8:10] publishing it and releasing my brand new album here that's dropping next month.
[8:10 - 8:16] I wanted a fresh start away from my past from being stolen from.
[8:16 - 8:21] From people sitting there saying I'm a thief when I'm not.
[8:21 - 8:24] I wanted a brand new start from that.
[8:24 - 8:27] But y'all motherfuckers want to bring up the past and that's something that irritates
[8:27 - 8:29] me to no end.
[8:29 - 8:34] Now I have no problem with Tangerine and y'all that were very respectful.
[8:34 - 8:42] I thank y'all 100 percent.
[8:42 - 8:53] I thank y'all 100 percent for being respectful.
[8:53 - 8:57] Like I said I have a way better book coming out actually that I've been working on for
[8:57 - 9:04] months called Kisiragi Station which is based on and centered around the Japanese urban
[9:04 - 9:09] legend of Kisiragi Station.
[9:09 - 9:14] I've been working on it for months and I'm still continuing to work on it.
[9:14 - 9:17] When it will be released I don't know.
[9:17 - 9:29] But I've been writing better material than what I ever could have written before.
[9:29 - 9:47] Let me tell you guys something.
[9:47 - 9:59] I wrote that soul census book when I was 16 and I had it on a school website where
[9:59 - 10:03] I thought it'd be safe but it turns out it wasn't.
[10:03 - 10:09] That little fuckbag AJ decided to steal it from me and has been making a profit out
[10:09 - 10:14] of it since I was 16 because I didn't know about publishing.
[10:14 - 10:21] I didn't know my rights and half the rights that I have now I didn't have back then.
[10:21 - 10:27] The publishing shit that went that goes down now that was non-existent back then.
[10:27 - 10:32] So that book won't count for shit now.
[10:32 - 10:39] But what I'm doing now and now that I have the knowledge honestly I'll be honest I wish
[10:39 - 10:44] I had the knowledge that I have now back then.
[10:44 - 10:49] I wish I had it but I didn't.
[10:49 - 10:54] I had to sit there and let it go because I didn't know my rights as an author.
[10:54 - 10:58] I didn't know about self-publishing I didn't know about any of that.
[10:58 - 11:14] I had it up there to you know be able to be safe.
[11:14 - 11:21] I thought on the local school site that they had up for people that loved it right I thought
[11:21 - 11:25] that it would be safe but it wasn't.
[11:25 - 11:33] Hence look what happened the guy is making money off of it so fucking what he's getting
[11:33 - 11:37] money off of something that I wrote and he just sit there and say that I plagiarized
[11:37 - 11:43] it and then I stole it so fucking what.
[11:43 - 11:49] I've written a hundred times better shit and I am currently writing shit that's a
[11:49 - 11:54] hundred times better.
[11:54 - 12:01] I'm not worried about some book that I wrote when I was a kid I'm 30 years old now I don't
[12:01 - 12:07] give a fuck let him do what he does because in the long run in the very end in the long
[12:07 - 12:21] run Karma will get his ass he'll have to answer to God he'll have to answer to Karma.
[12:21 - 12:29] I'm only worried about what I'm doing now you know how they say leave the past in the
[12:29 - 12:37] past that's what you should always do because in order to be a better person you have to
[12:37 - 12:45] learn from your mistakes I made a mistake putting my work out there not realizing that
[12:45 - 12:53] it wasn't a safe site not knowing that somebody could easily get their hands on it because
[12:53 - 13:01] back then they we didn't have the technology or the stuff to be able to block that kind
[13:01 - 13:10] of stuff from happening back then we didn't have that and if you did you were lucky to
[13:10 - 13:18] have it because back then websites weren't as advanced as they are now let's be honest
[13:18 - 13:24] computers and technology were not that advanced now they're advanced as fuck now you can
[13:24 - 13:33] sit down and write and self-publish a book within two days literally or a day or whatever
[13:33 - 13:39] nowadays you can start up your own record label with zero freaking money nowadays you
[13:39 - 13:44] can run your own business right from home without having to have any money back then
[13:44 - 13:53] none of that existed that's what I'm saying I don't care about some book that I wrote
[13:53 - 13:59] when I was a teenager yes it was a damn good book and I'm proud of it I'm proud to say
[13:59 - 14:09] that I did something like that but what does that have to do with the here and the now
[14:09 - 14:19] what does that book that I wrote as a teen have to do with right now I haven't been
[14:19 - 14:26] able to make any money off of it because it got stolen when I was a kid so what and
[14:26 - 14:33] I'm not the only one this happens to it happens this this happens literally to several others
[14:33 - 14:38] and this doesn't just happen with people that write books this happens with people that
[14:38 - 14:56] are authors as well matter of fact let me show you guys something a lot of you guys
[14:56 - 15:19] are very familiar with deviantart correct
[15:19 - 15:39] let me ask you guys in the chat you guys are familiar or I've come across this site deviantart
[15:39 - 15:49] a time or two correct let me show you guys something here I want you guys to pay attention
[15:49 - 15:56] to this because this video I'm about to show you if you don't know what deviantart is
[15:56 - 16:02] it's basically a site for artists to post their work on whether it's fan art whether
[16:02 - 16:15] it's other works um this person I'm about to show you guys is actually not only stolen
[16:15 - 16:19] from me but hundreds of other artists and this is about to tie into what I was talking
[16:19 - 16:25] about because I said I'm not the one person that deals with this shit big ups to Raycon
[16:25 - 16:30] for sponsoring this video and also big ups on the people over at Raycon for making earbuds
[16:30 - 16:33] that stay in my ears when I dance around my apartment and sleep you guys are the real
[16:33 - 16:38] go on that a little bit later over the past couple months years and decades that I have
[16:38 - 16:43] been online I have gotten a lot of requests to cover a lot a lot a lot of different people
[16:43 - 16:46] I have been sent countless emails from people telling me to make videos exposing their
[16:46 - 16:50] parents to talking about their high school bullies to just plain talking about creators
[16:50 - 16:54] who I am friendly with that they don't like in fact the amount of emails I got from
[16:54 - 16:58] people quote lording me about Shauna Ray despite the fact that she is nothing but
[16:58 - 17:02] a pure kind hearted woman who makes well researched content and also lived in San Jose
[17:02 - 17:08] close to me was insane especially all of the accusations that were leveled towards her
[17:08 - 17:12] were complete lies but that is a video for another day I get video requests often and
[17:12 - 17:16] usually they are for petty things for things that I'm not super interested in covering
[17:16 - 17:19] so I will shoot back a small response thanking the person for their time and messaging me
[17:19 - 17:24] and letting them know that I'm not interested but sometimes very rarely sometimes there
[17:24 - 17:28] are messages that are so intriguing to talk about things that are so batch insane that
[17:28 - 17:34] I have to stop and take a look and this is one of those cases like just the fact that
[17:34 - 17:39] there are DeviantArt journals and stash folders with evidence that showed this person blatantly
[17:39 - 17:46] tracing over other people's work trying to sell it since 2011 almost 10 years ago that
[17:46 - 17:51] to me is peak ridiculous so with that in mind guys buckle up because today we're talking
[17:51 - 17:56] about nad6969 the biggest art thief to ever be on TV and art hey guys it's Shannon and
[17:56 - 18:00] before I get started today I do want to do my creator shout out for the video and that
[18:00 - 18:05] goes to the amazing amazing amazing Stephanie Harlow Stephanie has been making content for
[18:05 - 18:10] a while and I found her when her channel was a beauty and makeup channel called unapologetic
[18:10 - 18:14] skincare and beauty and honestly she is one of the most compelling creators out there
[18:14 - 18:19] she is so fair and honest and something about how she makes her videos is so completely
[18:19 - 18:23] calming to me honestly kind of strange because she talks a lot about psychopaths and deranged
[18:23 - 18:28] murderers like her video on hh homes in the murder hotel is one of the things I fall
[18:28 - 18:33] asleep to nightly I could probably recite that to you verbatim but it is about one
[18:33 - 18:37] of the first known serial killers who worked in ridiculous ways so that gives you kind
[18:37 - 18:42] of an idea of what I fall asleep to I promise I'm not insane Stephanie has a beautiful
[18:42 - 18:51] relaxing energy and all of her videos and she does exude the tools you have ever heard
[18:51 - 18:56] about she frankly deserves all the love and support in the world and she deserves so
[18:56 - 19:04] much more subscribers than she already has you have 666 so I'm not one to talk sorry
[19:04 - 19:09] about that Nadia but who exactly is Nadia what does she do what does she like hold
[19:09 - 19:14] out fun stuff we need to dive deep into who this person is well Nadia is a 38 year old
[19:14 - 19:20] woman who lives in Canada and is obsessed with Sailor Moon and when I say obsessed
[19:20 - 19:25] I mean she's fully completely a hundred percent obsessed with it all of her art quote her
[19:25 - 19:29] art is of Sailor Moon all of her fans are from the Sailor Moon fandom and straight
[19:29 - 19:34] up this woman thinks loving Sailor Moon is a personality trait and normally we would
[19:34 - 19:38] love that for her that's not a negative at all that wouldn't be a negative normally
[19:38 - 19:43] except for the fact that again she is a thief and has stolen the vast majority of her artwork
[19:43 - 19:48] and has actually used other people's work to gain a profit for herself which is illegal
[19:48 - 19:52] just to show you what I'm talking about here are a couple examples of her blatantly
[19:52 - 19:59] tracing over artwork over years from 2011 to 2020 and using other people's images as
[19:59 - 20:03] a base of sorts and I say of sorts because sometimes she'll change things up like maybe
[20:03 - 20:06] she'll flip the character or maybe she'll change the hair maybe she'll change how
[20:06 - 20:11] the arm is posed but straight up she is using their artwork and stealing it like look at
[20:11 - 20:15] these images and tell me these are traits give me an argument there is none look me
[20:15 - 20:20] in the eyes right now you can't now something I really want to emphasize right now is how
[20:20 - 20:24] old Nadia is because usually when we see a case of art theft or people are making videos
[20:24 - 20:28] about that and we see someone stealing so brazenly it's done by someone who is young
[20:28 - 20:32] and someone who can say they didn't know any better the last example I saw online
[20:32 - 20:37] of someone being exposed for a similar thing the person accused was literally 13 and they
[20:37 - 20:41] just wanted to draw like their idols so they were tracing it over and over and over again
[20:41 - 20:45] is it bad yes but was it understandable because they didn't know any better on our 13 yeah
[20:45 - 20:51] but here we're talking about Nadia and Nadia is 38 this is a whole ass grown ass adult
[20:51 - 20:54] who knows better than to do this and who deadly knows that taking someone else's
[20:54 - 20:59] copyrighted artwork which everything posted on Vivian art has a copyright claim on it
[20:59 - 21:03] tracing it and trying to redistribute it to make money and profit off of someone else's
[21:03 - 21:08] work that's a big no she is most definitely old enough to know that and even if she didn't
[21:08 - 21:13] know it at first back in 2011 when she was 27 she would have learned and known about
[21:13 - 21:18] it in any of the other countless times she has been called out for doing this over and
[21:18 - 21:23] over and over again on DeviantArt which mind you she has been called out a lot a lot a
[21:23 - 21:28] lot like there are literal call out pages that have documented every time someone has
[21:28 - 21:33] called her out starting back in 2011 and the writer of the first one is someone by the
[21:33 - 21:37] name Wild Woodson so with that in mind let's read that first call out post from 2011 when
[21:37 - 21:42] Nadia would have been 27 the age I am now and what Wild Woodson thought of her I really
[21:42 - 21:47] thought I could just delete the other journal and move on guess not so this chica over
[21:47 - 21:53] here is mass producing images I drew back in 2004 she resizes the poses and reverses
[21:53 - 21:57] them and copies them and pastes them for a bit of flair here and there at first there
[21:57 - 22:00] was no credits on them called her shit out she was probably shitting herself so she
[22:00 - 22:05] sicked her friends on me while pretending to be reasonable and making excuses she says
[22:05 - 22:09] she found it on Google and doesn't remember the website last time I checked you don't
[22:09 - 22:13] use someone's fanart you found on Google without at least trying to find out who drew
[22:13 - 22:18] it so you can a) ask for permission or b) find out who to credit but god forbid she
[22:18 - 22:22] doesn't use shit that isn't hers that she doesn't know who it belongs to but it doesn't
[22:22 - 22:27] end there I had requested she take the images down and she did not respond she blocked me
[22:27 - 22:32] and is continuing to upload images made from my picture she's added credit to older ones
[22:32 - 22:36] and credit me and credits me now on newer ones finding an added way to bash me while
[22:36 - 22:42] doing so and I cannot even retaliate watcher I am not asking you to bash her what I'm
[22:42 - 22:46] asking fellow deviants is to go to her page and leave a kind reminder that it is not
[22:46 - 22:50] okay to take things that do not belong to you and ask her to remove what she did not
[22:50 - 22:55] ask permission for and stop uploading copies be polite we're better than being mean and
[22:55 - 22:59] snarky you know that moment when you have to remind a 27 year old not to take things
[22:59 - 23:03] that isn't theirs and tell them that stealing is wrong relatable now that is all that they
[23:03 - 23:06] wrote and I will link the entire post in the description down below by the way I would
[23:06 - 23:11] have posted the images that they said were drawn over as evidence and shown the post
[23:11 - 23:15] however however Nadia hasn't been taken off of deviantart the posts were taken down
[23:15 - 23:19] so I can't show them in context so a lot of the context of this is not here which
[23:19 - 23:24] is a bit lame and I apologize for that but good news she was taken down so it's good
[23:24 - 23:29] again we're talking about Nadia who at the time at the very least was 27 years old taking
[23:29 - 23:33] art that wasn't hers tracing it over and selling it on their plot not only that she
[23:33 - 23:38] went out of her way to send her fans and friends to harass the original artist who
[23:38 - 23:43] was very clearly not okay with this something that also sticks out to me is just how nice
[23:43 - 23:48] wild woods in is being here like I don't know you wild woods in but um you seem like
[23:48 - 23:52] the nicest peach in the pumpkin patch because I would have been living I would have been
[23:52 - 23:56] so pissed if someone had stolen every purpose my art and sold it for a profit I wouldn't
[23:56 - 24:01] have the decency to tell people hey don't be a dick I would have literally been raining
[24:01 - 24:05] dicks onto that person especially if they were older than me by a decade but that's
[24:05 - 24:10] just me I'm just a jerk this post came out in 2011 and was straight up Nadia was still
[24:10 - 24:15] active until December of 2019 and what do you think changed in those years do you think
[24:15 - 24:20] at some point this grown woman who has a literal child do you think she learned from being
[24:20 - 24:24] called out in this post or any of the number of posts over the years do you think she
[24:24 - 24:29] stopped stealing from children and other artists using DeviantArt the answer is no of course
[24:29 - 24:34] not she kept tracing and stealing and abusing artistic copyright to the point where DeviantArt
[24:34 - 24:40] after 13 years of her being active finally kicked her off the platform people were so
[24:40 - 24:44] invested in this were so upset by her that they wrote legitimate eulogies about this
[24:44 - 24:49] people dedicated their entire tumblers and other social media to inform people about
[24:49 - 24:55] this grown ass 38 year old woman and straight up they celebrated when she was finally kicked
[24:55 - 24:59] off it was like Mardi Gras on DeviantArt and just so you guys can get this scope of how
[24:59 - 25:05] absolutely butt touching bonkers this woman was let me read you the forward from Envy
[25:05 - 25:11] Scorchi eulogy of nad6969 oh my god I just forgot to call her Nadia put an F in the
[25:11 - 25:14] chat voice up in the comments right now just for me actually no if you're still here put
[25:14 - 25:19] a smiley face in the comments because I just want to be happy I don't know anyway to her
[25:19 - 25:23] eulogy for the last seven months or so I joined the movement against the notorious
[25:23 - 25:30] nads 6969 if you've been living under a rock nad6969 is/was a middle-aged woman who loves
[25:30 - 25:34] Sailor Moon but couldn't draw worth a damn so she traced damn near everything she had
[25:34 - 25:38] in her gallery when confronted she would either begrudgingly credit the artist for
[25:38 - 25:42] the work that she traced or ignore entries to post credit and block the people asking
[25:42 - 25:47] her to be a decent human being when faced with a choice to stop tracing or start crediting
[25:47 - 25:53] your shit she chose the third option of continuing to be a talentless see you next Tuesday keep
[25:53 - 25:57] tracing and never credit there are her stats number of victims this would be the number
[25:57 - 26:10] of people she stole from over the years 150 you heard that she stole from 150 people now
[26:10 - 26:19] think about that 150 plus artists and I was actually one of the ones that she had stolen
[26:19 - 26:27] from and thankfully I did get my artwork back at the time but that's what I'm saying you
[26:27 - 26:37] know it doesn't like you know it doesn't just happen in art it happens with writing
[26:37 - 26:45] it happens in everything literally everything people steal shit all the fucking time get
[26:45 - 26:52] away with it and just so happens that the person that stole from me wanted to call
[26:52 - 27:06] me out on some fuck shit why that is I don't fucking know yo creep show is good man I fuck
[27:06 - 27:12] with creep show she's got some dude I've been following creep show for a while like
[27:12 - 27:18] no joke like I've seen some of creep shows TV and artwork and even I'm a huge fan so
[27:18 - 27:29] strap the creep show you know and it wasn't just 150 at that point in time like between
[27:29 - 27:47] 2011 and the time she got kicked off six months ago it literally was crazy like this
[27:47 - 27:54] chick literally stole from over 150 and I was one of those ones that she stole from
[27:54 - 28:00] and thankfully I got my work back and I was able to go in and re-upload it with no problems
[28:00 - 28:09] but like that's what I'm saying you know back then that technology to protect your
[28:09 - 28:17] work didn't exist and that's why this dude was able to get away with it which is why
[28:17 - 28:24] I'm not worried about it like I said you know he did what he did he'll pay for it
[28:24 - 28:31] in the long run he really will he will pay for his crimes in the long run when he's
[28:31 - 28:37] dead I'm not worried about that what I'm worried about is the here and the now I'm
[28:37 - 28:45] worried about the book I'm releasing next week I'm worried about my debut rock album
[28:45 - 28:53] that I'm dropping next month that's what I'm worried about I'm not worried about some
[28:53 - 28:59] book that I wrote back when I was 16 that I have a physical copy of just laying around
[28:59 - 29:05] and again my family's ready to tire too but it's really just one of those books that's
[29:05 - 29:11] like you know it's there on the coffee table kind of book is it a good book yeah and if
[29:11 - 29:22] anybody's over and they want to sit down and read it hey cool knock yourself it's
[29:22 - 29:30] kind of like what it's kind of like what my great-grandmother did I mean my great-grandmother
[29:30 - 29:42] was an artist as well as an author just like myself alright and when she wrote and released
[29:42 - 29:49] a book she did it strictly for family and friends she wrote and self-published her first
[29:49 - 29:57] book her only book for family and friends only nothing wrong with that there's a lot
[29:57 - 30:07] of dude there's a lot of authors and artists that do that kind of shit like that's not
[30:07 - 30:19] an uncommon thing but to attack somebody like myself who is honest with their work
[30:19 - 30:33] who doesn't normally let shit bother them like come on like that's bullshit and like
[30:33 - 30:41] I said I'm not trying to harp on y'all for being for thinking what you guys thought
[30:41 - 30:54] y'all gotta understand something when I'm doing a show to pay respects to somebody
[30:54 - 31:00] like that shit ain't cool dude just sit there and go off like y'all did like that shit
[31:00 - 31:07] ain't fucking cool man like I said I wouldn't walk up to your livestream during a memorial
[31:07 - 31:17] show and blatantly attack you in front of everyone no I would be respectful and I would
[31:17 - 31:29] talk to you in private outside of prying eyes I would talk to you privately by yourself
[31:29 - 31:36] if there was a situation going on I would talk to you by yourself after the show and
[31:36 - 31:41] be like hey look we need to talk about this I don't want this getting out to the whole
[31:41 - 31:47] world I don't want anybody else knowing about this just keep between me and you you know
[31:47 - 31:55] do the respectable thing do the respectful thing talk to the person after the show in
[31:55 - 32:02] private behind closed doors that's the respectful thing to do but some of y'all I've been here
[32:02 - 32:25] wanting to be so disrespectful that it made it hard for me to do a good show like I said
[32:25 - 32:31] I said what I said yes and I do apologize for scaring y'all that I did scare I do apologize
[32:31 - 32:39] to you guys for that I really do I apologize 100% but y'all pushed me to that point to
[32:39 - 32:45] where I wanted to fucking leave the damn community because I get attacked every day
[32:45 - 33:03] by people like Marty as is I got enough going on already you know I don't need any more
[33:03 - 33:09] hatred towards me you know what I'm saying and tangerine I do apologize for scaring
[33:09 - 33:35] the living shit out of you I really do I wholeheartedly apologize
[33:35 - 33:51] but when it comes down to it I leave my past in the past for a very good reason okay like
[33:51 - 34:02] I said you know I asked y'all several times to please not bring up the book during a
[34:02 - 34:11] memorial show I wanted to do a separate stream on it and speak about it I really did I wanted
[34:11 - 34:20] to make a separate video speaking about it so that y'all wouldn't understand what happened
[34:20 - 34:27] why it happened I just let it go but instead y'all kept on attacking and attacking and
[34:27 - 34:39] attacking and it made it hard for me to do a decent show for you guys like I said I
[34:39 - 34:49] understand that y'all got questions I get it and I would have been more than happy
[34:49 - 35:12] to answer those questions had y'all let me do the show and had been respectful I know
[35:12 - 35:17] you are tang and like I said tang I explained to you everything that happened and everything
[35:17 - 35:30] that went on I explained everything to you and what had happened and like I said I'm
[35:30 - 35:37] hoping that you guys now will leave the whole thing with the book alone I know there's
[35:37 - 35:51] confusion and I get it but I'm hoping now y'all will you know move on from that and
[35:51 - 35:58] focus on the future man like come on I have I literally have the world's first 3d car
[35:58 - 36:09] photography book dropping next week and I'm so publishing it you told me that isn't crazy
[36:09 - 36:17] you told me that isn't freakin mind-blowing instead of being focused on the past we should
[36:17 - 36:25] be focusing on the future and that's what I was trying to get at last year when I went
[36:25 - 36:38] off on some of y'all man like I would rather focus on the future and my brand new book
[36:38 - 36:46] you know it's kind of like the deal with Marty you know it's kind of like the whole
[36:46 - 37:00] thing with Marty dude old coat new coat old book new book you see what I'm saying let
[37:00 - 37:06] me give you guys a little quote here this is actually on Aaron Carter if you guys don't
[37:06 - 37:12] know Aaron Carter he is the younger brother of Nick Carter from the Backstreet Boys he
[37:12 - 37:21] said a quote that's very true because there was somebody that stole an instrumental he
[37:21 - 37:29] had created during a livestream and you want to know what he said to that person go ahead
[37:29 - 37:41] let him keep it I'll just create something even cooler and better
[37:41 - 37:46] and that's true that goes the same thing with you know my books if somebody steals
[37:46 - 38:00] something of mine you know I say let them do it because in the long run I'm just gonna
[38:00 - 38:13] create something that's bigger better and way cooler just like with Marty he wants
[38:13 - 38:17] to fucking hate on me let him fucking hate on me because you know something in the long
[38:17 - 38:24] run he's gonna be left with my old coat while I'm over here bawling out doing the right
[38:24 - 38:30] thing doing me with my new coat releasing my music releasing my book work releasing
[38:30 - 38:57] my artwork and doing me like you know like it is what is and the reason why I'm so forgiving
[38:57 - 39:05] about it Tange is because I've had it happen to me so many times over the years I've been
[39:05 - 39:12] attacked I've been stolen from so many times the yeah back in the day it used to bother
[39:12 - 39:20] me it bothered the living hell out of me but back in the day you know it was what
[39:20 - 39:25] it was you know back in the day and you can ask anybody here that's watched my whole
[39:25 - 39:33] YouTube career from the jump like I've had people steal from me attack me basically the
[39:33 - 39:41] same shit I get now but I've had it happen so much that it doesn't even really faze
[39:41 - 39:48] me anymore it's like hey you want to take something of mine go ahead because in the
[39:48 - 39:56] long run that's just free promo at least that's the way I see it as far as YouTube
[39:56 - 40:03] goes I mean hell I had somebody I had fucking Marty and pinhead and candle send me a thing
[40:03 - 40:10] of fucking rope and told me to kill him kill myself on a live stream and the constant
[40:10 - 40:18] and do anything about it did I flip out yeah but at the same time you know what I did
[40:18 - 40:26] I said you know what I can actually put this to good use I can actually use this for tying
[40:26 - 40:48] shit down that I need to have tied down like you know so in the long run Marty didn't
[40:48 - 41:00] really faze me people talk all the time point being the point of this whole stream is people
[41:00 - 41:06] talk and say and do stuff all the time so why should I be the one that gets singled
[41:06 - 41:22] out when there's hundreds of people that do it hundreds of people that do it on a daily
[41:22 - 41:35] day and what she did to people on DeviantArt eventually her stuff caught up with her same
[41:35 - 41:40] thing with that AJ dude everything's gonna catch up with him in the long run and I'm
[41:40 - 41:47] not worried about it because you want to know why I'm gonna be staying in my own lane
[41:47 - 41:54] releasing better books first off releasing way better books drop in a hundred times
[41:54 - 42:04] better music I mean hell after I've dropped this 3d photography book I'm gonna be working
[42:04 - 42:16] on an art book I mean hell here in two hours I'm doing my next race here in Austria on
[42:16 - 42:28] f1 2020 like I said everything and this is the way I see it okay and I know that everybody
[42:28 - 42:39] will agree with this but some of you might the way I see it that dude taking what he
[42:39 - 42:48] took from me as a kid and doing what he did I see that as God telling me hey this happened
[42:48 - 42:56] to you so you can create better work and ultimately I did I created way better work
[42:56 - 43:03] off of it I'm currently working on a book inspired by the inspired by and based around
[43:03 - 43:11] the Japanese urban legend of Kisaragi Station now if you don't know what Kisaragi Station
[43:11 - 43:24] is go watch the video on Aku Dearest go watch that video it's K-I-S-A-R-A-G-I Station go
[43:24 - 43:39] check it out but you know that that urban legend really piqued my interest like it
[43:39 - 43:45] really piqued my interest cuz as you guys know I'm very big on you know Japanese culture
[43:45 - 43:53] I studied it in high school you know I learned how to speak it and write it granted I haven't
[43:53 - 44:01] spoken it or written it in since high school to be honest with you I haven't freaking
[44:01 - 44:08] used it in years but point being you know I've always been big on Japanese urban legends
[44:08 - 44:16] especially ones surrounding suicide forest abandoned stations theme parks hell I'm even
[44:16 - 44:21] big on the whole Chernobyl thing there's a lot of urban legends that surround the whole
[44:21 - 44:36] Chernobyl incident that I enjoy to read about oh yeah I got that under lock and key I'm
[44:36 - 44:49] not even done with it yet I'm still only on like the first chapter well see I did it
[44:49 - 44:55] on my own time though cat I did that on my own time they didn't actually have the classes
[44:55 - 45:10] for it so I studied it on my own and I'm pretty sure y'all can guess what inspired
[45:10 - 45:23] me to study Japanese knock on wood everybody's favorite thing that comes from Japan anime
[45:23 - 45:27] yeah I can understand what they're saying now but I still use I still use subtitles
[45:27 - 45:32] so I still do use English subtitles even though I can understand what they're saying
[45:32 - 45:38] half the time but like you know watching anime as a kid and then watching them and
[45:38 - 45:42] you know Japanese original dub that's kind of what got me into it and I was like okay
[45:42 - 45:46] yeah I need to study this plus I have friends that live there that I kind of want to be
[45:46 - 45:54] able to talk to you in their language without there being any issues so yeah that's kind
[45:54 - 46:06] of where that came in but you know like I said you know I enjoy creating and evolving
[46:06 - 46:22] dude yes the last samurai is a good ass movie yes that and 47 Ronin 47 Ronin is a hands
[46:22 - 46:45] down amazing my 47 Ronin is actually one of my personal favorite movies hell I still
[46:45 - 46:54] watch Japanese horror movies and if anyone thinks that Japanese horror movies ain't freaky
[46:54 - 47:05] go watch some free Japanese short horror films they're crazy good oh dude sake is good I've
[47:05 - 47:11] actually had sake like once or twice it's actually really good never going in again
[47:11 - 47:18] no because last time I did it I got drunk off my ass and yeah it was a mess but sake
[47:18 - 47:34] is good not gonna lie it really is like a lot of like I wanted Japan knows how to do
[47:34 - 47:45] horror movies very very well they really do like no offense to the horror masters here
[47:45 - 47:55] in the US no offense to them y'all have amazing movies but oh my drink of choice I don't
[47:55 - 48:04] really drink that much but for me that's a tough that's a tough one I'd have to think
[48:04 - 48:10] on that let me give idea on that I'll have to think about that but I do drink on occasion
[48:10 - 48:25] I mostly drink on like say like New Year's or a very special occasion shows in karate
[48:25 - 48:38] keto name a better villain ooh fucking um the red queen from Resident Evil hands down
[48:38 - 48:46] the red queen from Resident Evil evilest fucking little kid in the world evilest little
[48:46 - 49:03] kid in the world like straight up the red queen from Resident Evil pure fucking evil
[49:03 - 49:24] oh like straight up pure evil still gets serious though I fucking love Resident Evil
[49:24 - 49:50] nice try with the troll and you fuck bags I know I know who it is that's fucking Marty
[49:50 - 49:56] he's got several counts and he's going in acting like a little troll and going under
[49:56 - 50:09] Tyler and wise name and y'all see what they're doing like dude Marty try again you fake
[50:09 - 50:39] ass yo Lamar what's good bro yeah exactly that's all he's doing so Marty
[50:39 - 50:47] eat a dick you bitch better yet go suck your own dick cuz we all know you like that we
[50:47 - 51:12] all know you like that D in the mouth and yet again Marty nice try favorite horror
[51:12 - 51:26] movie ooh that's a tough one dog so I do have a few that I actually do enjoy yeah Lamar
[51:26 - 51:39] I know you fake favorite horror movie I'd have to say probably I gotta go with the classic
[51:39 - 51:51] grudge films I gotta go with the classic grudge films the grudge movies hands down
[51:51 - 51:56] one of my favorite series hands down I fucking love the grudge movies especially the original
[51:56 - 52:05] Japanese version um the ring is good I love the ring yes it's good I love the movies
[52:05 - 52:13] the ring like I said the grudge series the anabelle movies I fucking love the anabelle
[52:13 - 52:23] movies the shining is good yes I love the shining the anabelle films fucking what was
[52:23 - 52:31] it da da da da fuck it came out around the same time my bloody valentine I love my bloody
[52:31 - 52:43] valentine favorite animal white tiger hands down wow here we go yo mozz take the trash
[52:43 - 52:59] it looks like it's trash night guys equinisha man y'all taking a lot of trash out tonight
[52:59 - 53:09] I'm telling ya y'all taking a lot of trash out shit hey yo Marty hope you got a landfill
[53:09 - 53:18] bitch cuz you're gonna need it just saying you're gonna need that landfill bitch all
[53:18 - 53:36] I trash you is you be gathering up bro you're gonna need it my parents what is with you
[53:36 - 53:42] and ducks in the treehouse what is with you and ducks bro just saying like what is it
[53:42 - 53:55] about ducks that intrigues you so much alright that's what I'm wondering dude ligers are
[53:55 - 54:12] actually really cool they're very rare but very cool thank you hey you still a bunch
[54:12 - 54:40] of dead dogs she's alright nice I read that it is yeah so what the fuck
[54:40 - 54:54] dude what the fuck I read that it's pet dicks what the fuck oh shit he's going there's
[54:54 - 55:10] a Joe it all right ducklings are cute I straight out not gonna lie they're very cute it's
[55:10 - 55:29] some tiny and fluffy and adorable shit you kill me you kill me dude that's yeah I got
[55:29 - 55:41] a dog he's an older dog but he's downstairs sleeping right now so yeah and papers are
[55:41 - 56:05] cool we had traveled to the live down here by the lake to actually he is a Jack Russell
[56:05 - 56:34] Terrier here we go again y'all know what to do man take out that trash boys boy and
[56:34 - 56:42] Marty you're gonna have a little bit by the time you've done dog but I'm gonna do something
[56:42 - 56:56] for y'all man I want to know how many of you guys are how many of you guys are studio
[56:56 - 57:13] jiggly fans.
[57:13 - 57:43] Yeah dude I
[57:43 - 57:53] caught the rent I actually wound up releasing it but this one right here is got all y'all
[57:53 - 58:16] that are studio jiggly fans my heart is ready to beat I can feel the wind underneath my
[58:16 - 58:26] head. I'm a black girl but I'm her I'm free as a bird. Austin stars and way way down to
[58:26 - 58:55] the moon. I'm a black girl but I'm free as a bird. I'm free as a bird but I'm free as a
[58:55 - 59:11] girl but I'm free as a bird. I'm free as a bird but I'm free as a bird. I'm free as
[59:11 - 61:59] a bird but I'm free as a bird. I'm free as a bird but I'm free as a bird. I'm free as
[61:59 - 62:16] a bird but I'm free as a bird. I'm free as a bird. I'm free as a bird. I'm free as a
[62:16 - 62:41] bird but I'm free as a bird. I'm free as a bird but I'm free as a bird. I'm free as a
[62:41 - 63:10] bird but I'm free as a bird.
[63:10 - 63:25] Good. Yes, I did. I addressed it at the very beginning of the stream.
[63:25 - 63:53] How's your plating? Isolating? And it's dressing me out.
[63:53 - 64:04] It's a vision, it's a contradiction. Why won't you let me out? I need a way to stay.
[64:04 - 65:40] I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay.
[65:40 - 65:52] It's a vision, it's a contradiction. Why won't you let me out? I need a way to stay.
[65:52 - 67:56] I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay.
[67:56 - 68:18] And here's the thing, dude. When I'm ignoring the chat, it's for a reason. It's probably
[68:18 - 68:26] because I'm usually in the middle of doing a song, dude. For real, chill out with that
[68:26 - 68:50] shit, man. I'm not ignoring the chat. It's that I'm doing something.
[68:50 - 69:05] And I'm not the one who's so far away when I feel the sleep I enter my way.
[69:05 - 69:32] And I don't remember why I came. And those prayers might decide that I am
[69:32 - 69:51] so far away. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay.
[69:51 - 70:11] No, not fucking sure. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay.
[70:11 - 72:17] I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay.
[72:17 - 72:26] I'm not the one who's so far away when I feel the sleep I enter my way.
[72:26 - 72:34] And I don't remember why I came.
[72:34 - 73:09] I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay. I need a way to stay.
[73:09 - 73:27] You all know what to do.
[73:27 - 73:56] And you know what? I got something for you guys.
[73:56 - 74:03] This one right here is actually going out to somebody special.
[74:03 - 74:10] Another person knows who they are. I don't need to say it.
[74:10 - 74:34] I never thought I would be there. I never thought I could feel the light fall.
[74:34 - 75:06] I don't need to say it. I don't need to say it. I don't need to say it.
[75:06 - 75:22] Listen, every time you smile it takes me a while to bring myself back but you're all that you just had to let you know that I'm spinning out of the crowd.
[75:22 - 75:47] I don't need to say it. I don't need to say it. I don't need to say it. I just want everyone to know that you're all that you just had to let you know that I'm spinning out of the crowd.
[75:47 - 75:58] You're all that you just had to let you know that I'm spinning out of the crowd but you're all that you just had to let you know that I'm spinning out of the crowd.
[75:58 - 76:20] You're all that you just had to let you know that you just had to let you know that I'm spinning out of the crowd.
[76:20 - 76:43] Listen, every time you smile it takes me a while to bring myself back but you're all that you just had to let you know that you just had to let you know that I'm spinning out of the crowd.
[76:43 - 77:09] Listen, every time you smile it takes me a while to bring myself back but you just had to let you know that you just had to let you know that you just had to let you know that you just had to let you know that I'm spinning out of the crowd.
[77:09 - 77:22] Like I said, I'm not saying. Y'all can guess all you want. I ain't saying shit. Y'all can keep guessing.
[77:22 - 77:45] Now, whether that person's in chat or not, who's to say? Hell, that person can be on Facebook for all you know.
[77:45 - 77:55] I'm just saying.
[77:55 - 78:09] [silence]
[78:09 - 78:28] [typing]
[78:28 - 78:33] Now, let's take it out of the notch, shall we?
[78:33 - 78:44] I know y'all know this one and if you don't know, there's something wrong with you.
[78:44 - 79:09] Yup, here in a couple hours, actually.
[79:09 - 79:14] [music]
[79:14 - 79:20] If you mad, watch out for too many.
[79:20 - 79:27] You see, so everything you ever wanted, one moment, would you capture?
[79:27 - 79:30] Just let it slip.
[79:30 - 79:38] His palms are sweaty, he's weak, arms are heavy, his arm is on his sweater already, arms were heavy, he's nervous, but on the surface, he looks a little bit more like a man.
[79:38 - 79:43] He looks a little bit ready to drop off, but he keeps on forgetting what he wrote down.
[79:43 - 79:51] The whole crowd goes so loud, he opens his mouth, and the words don't come out, and he's choking down, and everybody's choking down.
[79:51 - 79:58] It's a lot to announce, and he comes up close sometimes, and he's acting real, and he goes to gravity, and he goes to gravity.
[79:58 - 83:57] [music]
[83:57 - 84:07] And I can tell you all right now, the person that that song was for, I can tell you guys for a fact right now that that person is not in the chat.
[84:07 - 84:17] And I'm not saying who it is, but that person is not in the chat.
[84:17 - 84:25] And no, I'm not saying who.
[84:25 - 84:33] We're just making a certain people like Marty.
[84:33 - 84:37] No, no, no, no, no, no, uh-uh.
[84:37 - 85:06] [music]
[85:06 - 85:10] Oh, it's not Barbara.
[85:10 - 88:28] [music]
[88:28 - 88:36] Now, you know what, I am going to take it up a notch for you guys by doing something a little bit different that I have not done in quite some time.
[88:36 - 88:41] Something that I can still do despite what the doctor said.
[88:41 - 88:51] So, we're about to do it.
[88:51 - 88:56] Let's see, where's it at?
[88:56 - 89:24] And don't worry, it's not gonna, I know what y'all thinking, it's not gonna be too rough on me, no, it's not gonna be rough on me.
[89:24 - 89:36] Let's see, what song do I want to do?
[89:36 - 89:49] You know what, I haven't done this one in a while, fucking.
[89:49 - 90:06] Let me give y'all a little sense of what I go through on a daily basis here, as far as mental wellness goes.
[90:06 - 90:17] They say, and they're never gonna melt in anything in this life, but I've got some pride I'm not swallowing, we call on you tonight, and it may be raindrop right out of my high school.
[90:17 - 90:27] Gotta cut into my head every night, where I'm talking with the sugar that I might pool. Nobody knows, and it's over with me, I'm over the edge, I'm blowing up inside, I'm not who I'm supposed to be.
[90:27 - 90:37] Nobody's chosen me to sit for the heavens, and yet I've neglected the demons in my head, I'm directing like I'm never gonna get another chance of joy with somebody else.
[90:37 - 90:47] 'Cause I'm too unique to predict a pain in your mind or hell, if I hadn't read and do this so stupidly, it could be you and me in the future, talking in love and mutually.
[90:47 - 90:55] But it's never gonna be that way, life is looking down now, gonna give my family a day to get my hands on a check, but I'm like I'm looking right out in the crowd, in my dreams.
[90:55 - 91:04] And if you really wanna know what I mean, that's too bad, 'cause I just don't trust anyone anymore, if you're an enemy, say, "This is my last stand, tell me what you really need."
[91:04 - 91:21] 'Cause after this record, I'm headed for the guillotine, I can't take it, I made myself to be someone that I'm not, and it's crazy, so same for your goodbyes, I'm gonna give it to you one last time.
[91:21 - 91:28] If you really wanna know, just throw your face up, you're gonna miss me when I'm going, I give up.
[91:28 - 91:41] Day one, I'ma take it slow, happiness I can't make it show, cupping forgotten, there's no fixing a forsaken home, and the brand don't make my dough, whatever means I don't bustle crap, but whatever it takes, I'ma make my cake and it might just bustle crap.
[91:41 - 91:51] For the green, I see no point, to be doing it free, my choice, are the hottest products, I'll put the market rocking, ringing noise, but I can't do that, 'cause I do bad for the fans when I need to vent.
[91:51 - 92:01] And you better believe me, this ain't easy, I can not breathe and bet, but if I collect a check for the parts of my notepad, I'm giving it all the way to my family, and it's so sad.
[92:01 - 92:15] Didn't really gotta come to this, but I'll fuck it up, and you love it so, and the pain that I gained from the life that I'm living is, I'm gonna give up and know, I just can't keep up with my music life or my challenges, between me and me and please, and you, I can't balance it.
[92:15 - 92:22] This may be the last album, if you don't stop sleeping and playing me, 'cause, you win it, but can you hear another motherfucker drop this shit like David Chitty?
[92:22 - 92:49] I don't know what happened 'til you died, don't you tell me that you're alive,
[92:49 - 93:13] let them know to let me in, I will be able to do everything, I can tell you what to do to end, I'll become the decent man, just hide the realm of all my fears, I don't need it too bad, I don't know what happened 'til you died,
[93:13 - 93:42] just try and get all alive, to the beats dot com, can't believe you let me in, every single night and day, I miss the truth, I miss the reality, and I'm late, I'm having, I might not know what it takes to make you never see what they were, now, a couple, all I see is nothing but the danger, don't be in it, and everybody always attacking me, and so, you took it home, and I'm just so fucking sick of it, and I just wanna get away from all of it, I'm so,
[93:42 - 94:00] sick of the hatred, sick of the nonsense, and taking all this motherfucker shit, and I'm having, I miss the reality, and I just don't know what to fucking do, I might evolve, every now and now, 'cause we both fall apart, what to do with hate, and I'm not sure what to fucking do anymore,
[94:00 - 94:29] is this what I should be on that fucking yo, what to do with this, I don't know what to fucking do, I'm just trying to get all alive, heaven don't you let me in, I have gambles everything, I can tell you what to do with that, and don't worry, I'm being careful, I've got dollars on my feet, I don't need it too bad,
[94:29 - 94:40] I don't need it too bad, and don't worry, I know my minutes, I know my minutes, so it's up there.
[94:41 - 95:09] To the beats, dot com, I can't even let me in, I'm so sick of this rage, I'm a song, sick of living on this fucking list, and everybody wants to hate me, everybody wants to drag me down, nothing to hear, it's six feet, keeping up with what they want to do, waiting, moving, should I live, should I die, I don't wanna know, all I know is that I got it too, and if I need to get away, there's only demons in my mind, that surround me every single day and night,
[95:09 - 95:27] how can I escape when I ain't got the key too, get away, let me escape this fucking prison that I'm out for something, I just don't know what to do, I'm so sick of this shit, and I know you probably sick of giving me the pain, so I'm trying to show you what I'm 'bout to do,
[95:27 - 95:38] I don't know what to do with that, I'm just trying to get all alive, heaven don't you let me in, I have gambles everything,
[95:38 - 96:02] I can tell you what's in the end, I'll become released in a bunch, I've let go of all my fear, I'm gonna need a souvenir, I don't know what I'm gonna die, I'm just trying to get all alive,
[96:02 - 96:23] and yeah I know the doctor will be pissed, but I also did learn over the last few days my limits of what I can do, I learned to kind of tone it down and be more careful with what I do,
[96:23 - 96:35] because I found out that part of the problem was I was full blasting it right out of the gate,
[96:35 - 96:53] and that's kind of where I began to fuck up, just because I was blasting right out of the gate, just instant boom, fire off, full blown,
[96:53 - 97:09] and you shot the second thing from instant boom, and go, go, go, go, instant boom, and take care of my fears and so make sure there's no mistake at all,
[97:09 - 105:35] but here too long it's waiting, so make sure there's no mistake at all,
[105:35 - 106:03] so yeah.
[106:03 - 106:31] Oh yeah, Cale. No, I qualified. I did, I'm in.
[106:31 - 106:35] I'm foolish.
[106:35 - 106:43] Oh, I should've known this post on my heart.
[106:43 - 106:54] Oh, the winter's free, going handed and just lied my love and pain.
[106:54 - 107:08] Oh, the sun will be casting within the day, running skin stretched out across the train.
[107:08 - 107:14] So I wanna be that town, I don't wanna live that long,
[107:14 - 107:17] but yeah, I don't wanna be that down,
[107:17 - 107:26] but yeah, I wanna be that town, I don't wanna live that long,
[107:26 - 107:40] but yeah, I wanna be that down the same road.
[107:40 - 107:51] All those years down the train, love was not enough when you want everything,
[107:51 - 107:58] but I came to you and now the end was done.
[107:58 - 108:09] Oh, I should've heard you said to my heart, 'cause I don't wanna be that town,
[108:09 - 108:18] but I don't wanna live that long, but yeah, I don't wanna be that down the same road.
[108:18 - 108:32] So I wanna be that town, I don't wanna live that long, but yeah, I wanna be that down the same road.
[108:37 - 108:48] It's real. It's actually what shit real drive looks like.
[108:49 - 108:51] Yeah, it is.
[108:51 - 109:02] Yes, I don't wanna be that town, I don't wanna live that long,
[109:02 - 109:06] but yeah, I don't wanna live that town the same road,
[109:06 - 109:14] but yeah, I wanna be that town, I don't wanna live that long,
[109:14 - 109:22] but yeah, I don't wanna live that town the same road.
[109:22 - 109:27] And I wanna be that town the same road,
[109:27 - 109:53] and I wanna be that town the same road,
[109:53 - 109:57] and I wanna be that town the same road.
[109:57 - 110:17] But I am gonna end the stream here, guys.
[110:17 - 110:22] 'Cause obviously I do have to get ready here in a little while,
[110:22 - 110:26] so I'm gonna kick it on Discord with those of you that I talked to on Discord.
[110:26 - 110:29] Those of you that I talked to on Facebook,
[110:29 - 110:32] I'm gonna kick it with you guys as well.
[110:32 - 110:34] So, you know, I do a whole thing.
[110:34 - 110:39] You guys, you know, understand what went on, all that crap.
[110:39 - 110:49] So, yeah, I will catch you guys in just a little bit.
[110:49 - 110:53] Like I said, for those of you that I talked to on Facebook and Discord,
[110:53 - 110:57] obviously you guys know I will message you right away.
[110:57 - 111:01] And I will catch you guys in just a bit.
[111:01 - 111:03] Peace.
[111:04 - 111:06] [keyboard clacking]