Original upload date: September 24th, 2020 (automatically grabbed from title)
[0:00 - 0:25] What's up guys? It's ya boi Cyraxx. As you guys can probably tell, I'm not had the greatest
[0:25 - 0:34] streak as of late. As of lately I've done some really fucked up things, done screwed up shit,
[0:34 - 0:42] reacted in the worst way as possible. The last night on the last stream,
[0:42 - 0:50] two of my best friends, actually more than just two of my best friends, three to four of my best
[0:50 - 0:59] friends showed me how I was acting, showed and started to revert back to the way I was
[0:59 - 1:09] when my ex was here. And I didn't want to believe it at first, but looking back at us,
[1:09 - 1:20] the night after the livestream, they were right. I did start to slide back, and thankfully they
[1:20 - 1:31] were there to pull me out of it. So to Jasmine, Crip Kay, Vaati, Marty, everybody who yanked me
[1:31 - 1:43] out of that shit, thank you. And this show isn't just for myself, this isn't just for my friends,
[1:46 - 2:02] this is for everybody out there who's been in this position that I've been in.
[2:02 - 2:08] And I hope this helps you.
[2:08 - 2:13] Then it ain't around me, but it has what's on the ground,
[2:13 - 2:22] yet I'd look the other way, but I couldn't turn around. No came for you to hate me,
[2:22 - 2:30] for all the things I've done. I've made a few mistakes, but I'm not the only one.
[2:32 - 2:43] So way round the ledge, I'm coming down. I could never be what you want me to.
[2:43 - 2:55] You put me under just to save yourself. You could never see what's inside of me.
[2:55 - 3:10] I pull you under just to save myself. Any, any question of how much I could sink?
[3:10 - 3:16] You kept feeding me your bullshit, hoping I would break.
[3:17 - 3:27] Anybody out there? Is there anyone who cares? Is there anybody next thing to hear my final prayer?
[3:27 - 3:40] So way round the ledge, I'm coming down. I could never be what you want me to.
[3:40 - 3:52] You pull me under just to save yourself. You will never see what's inside of me.
[3:52 - 4:10] I pull you under just to save myself. Keep feeding it around me. Is there anybody upon?
[4:10 - 4:26] Is there anyone around me? Anyone care at all? I could never be what you want me to.
[4:26 - 4:30] You pull me under. I pull you under.
[4:30 - 4:50] [SOUND]
[4:50 - 5:00] [MUSIC]
[5:17 - 5:28] It will never be what you want me to. You put me under just to save yourself.
[5:28 - 5:40] You will never see what's inside of me. I pull you under just to save myself.
[5:40 - 5:58] [MUSIC]
[5:58 - 6:26] [SOUND]
[6:26 - 6:30] My name is Dottis Lozou. I am the Silla Master of Rememofta.
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[11:10 - 11:13] >> I'm trying to take this up a notch for you guys.
[11:13 - 11:21] >> [APPLAUSE]
[11:21 - 11:27] [MUSIC]
[11:27 - 11:30] >> And you guys are watching this.
[11:30 - 11:33] And you guys are feeling down in the dumps.
[11:33 - 11:36] I hope this one helps you.
[11:36 - 11:41] Stand up against whatever it is I'm bothering you and fight back.
[11:41 - 11:42] Let's go.
[11:42 - 11:51] >> [APPLAUSE]
[11:51 - 11:55] >> I'm gonna hit you right where it hurts.
[11:55 - 12:00] I'm gonna kill you everything that you deserve.
[12:00 - 12:02] You need attention.
[12:02 - 12:04] Something to say.
[12:04 - 12:06] Let's hear your confession.
[12:06 - 12:09] I am just too hard to break.
[12:09 - 12:11] Bring it.
[12:11 - 12:14] I'm still right here undefeated.
[12:14 - 12:19] Then whatever you want really don't mean anything.
[12:19 - 12:21] Bring it.
[12:21 - 12:24] If there's no fear, let me see it.
[12:24 - 12:26] There is nothing you got.
[12:26 - 12:29] You will never get to me.
[12:29 - 12:34] You are the reckless and delusional.
[12:34 - 12:39] Inside your health is far from who you say you are.
[12:39 - 12:43] You try to push me over the edge.
[12:43 - 12:48] I won't let you put me down to your level again.
[12:48 - 12:50] Bring it.
[12:50 - 12:53] They're still right here undefeated.
[12:53 - 12:57] Say whatever you want really don't mean anything.
[12:57 - 13:00] Bring it.
[13:00 - 13:02] If there's no fear, let me see it.
[13:02 - 13:08] There is nothing you got that will never get to me.
[13:08 - 13:10] Are you ready for this?
[13:10 - 13:12] Because I've been ready my whole life.
[13:12 - 13:14] Are you ready for this?
[13:14 - 13:17] I am gonna get mine.
[13:17 - 13:19] Are you ready for this?
[13:19 - 13:22] I'm taking the whole life.
[13:22 - 13:31] Are you ready for this? You're never gonna get out alive.
[13:31 - 13:41] And now you're here to stand me down.
[13:41 - 13:46] And now you're here to stand your ground.
[13:46 - 13:48] I'll knock you down.
[13:48 - 13:50] I'll drink you well.
[13:50 - 13:55] No mercy down to you like me now.
[13:55 - 13:57] Bring it.
[13:57 - 14:00] They're still right here undefeated.
[14:00 - 14:04] Say whatever you want really don't mean anything.
[14:04 - 14:06] Bring it.
[14:06 - 14:09] If there's no fear, let me see it.
[14:09 - 14:14] There is nothing you got that will never get to me.
[14:14 - 14:16] Bring it.
[14:16 - 14:19] You will never get to me.
[14:19 - 14:21] Bring it.
[14:21 - 14:24] You will never get to me.
[14:24 - 14:28] Bring it.
[14:28 - 14:31] You will never get to me.
[14:31 - 14:36] Bring it.
[14:37 - 16:28] [Music]
[16:28 - 16:33] And that little bit is just a warning for you, Tonic.
[16:33 - 16:36] You want to run your mouth, go ahead and don't faze me.
[16:36 - 16:37] Same with you, Tyler.
[16:37 - 16:58] You don't faze me.
[16:58 - 17:04] As a matter of fact, this song I'm going to do right now.
[17:04 - 17:09] Is it true?
[17:09 - 17:16] Low down pain.
[17:16 - 17:20] As a matter of fact, this song right here they're not about to do.
[17:20 - 17:23] This goes out to anyone.
[17:23 - 17:27] And I mean anyone out there who's been put down.
[17:27 - 17:28] Beat down.
[17:28 - 17:29] Bully down.
[17:29 - 17:32] This is going out to everyone of you guys.
[17:32 - 17:38] Who's been where I'm at.
[17:38 - 17:40] If you are going through that hate.
[17:40 - 17:42] If you are going through that being bullied.
[17:42 - 17:47] If you are going through that negative space like I was.
[17:47 - 17:53] If you are battling that darkness deep within you.
[17:53 - 17:59] It's time you rise above it and fight back.
[17:59 - 18:02] Because if you stay down, it wins.
[18:02 - 18:05] But if you rise up and fight back, you stand a chance.
[18:05 - 18:16] Let's go.
[18:16 - 18:20] Because you all are champions.
[18:20 - 18:29] I can't keep it like a secret.
[18:29 - 18:31] In the wars we rage.
[18:31 - 18:34] A bulletproof vest.
[18:34 - 18:38] Save yourself from what you could have never guessed.
[18:38 - 18:41] On the side of the wars we rage.
[18:41 - 18:44] Our future's here and now.
[18:44 - 18:48] Here comes the countdown.
[18:48 - 18:51] Down in office is the call.
[18:51 - 18:53] Rising revolution.
[18:53 - 18:56] It's our time to change it all.
[18:56 - 18:59] Rising revolution.
[18:59 - 19:02] Unite and fight.
[19:02 - 19:04] To make a better life.
[19:04 - 19:07] Everybody wants for all.
[19:07 - 19:09] Sounds off.
[19:09 - 19:11] This is the call tonight.
[19:11 - 19:15] We rise, rise.
[19:15 - 19:21] Tonight, we rise, rise.
[19:21 - 19:26] Tonight, we rise, rise, rise.
[19:26 - 19:28] Throw your hand and grenade.
[19:28 - 19:30] Throw it in a hurricane.
[19:30 - 19:31] Twinning chaos.
[19:31 - 19:34] Trying to escape the pain.
[19:34 - 19:37] Faster than the blast from a car bomb.
[19:37 - 19:40] Using a scar seal, the pain passes.
[19:40 - 19:45] The moon burns, we rise from the ashes.
[19:45 - 19:48] And the light shines on a brand new day.
[19:48 - 19:51] Our future's here and now.
[19:51 - 19:55] Here comes the countdown.
[19:55 - 19:58] Down in office is the call.
[19:58 - 20:00] Rising revolution.
[20:00 - 20:03] It's our time to change it all.
[20:03 - 20:06] Rising revolution.
[20:06 - 20:09] Unite and fight.
[20:09 - 20:11] To make a better life.
[20:11 - 20:14] Everybody wants for all.
[20:14 - 20:15] Sounds off.
[20:15 - 20:18] This is the call tonight.
[20:18 - 20:22] We rise, rise.
[20:22 - 20:31] Tonight, we rise, rise.
[20:31 - 20:37] When the world got mad, it is something crazy.
[20:37 - 20:41] To fight for what you believe.
[20:41 - 20:48] But you can't give up if you want to keep what you love.
[20:48 - 20:55] Keep what you love.
[20:55 - 20:57] Never give up.
[20:57 - 21:02] Now, rise.
[21:02 - 21:05] Rising revolution.
[21:05 - 21:08] Rise.
[21:08 - 21:10] Rising revolution.
[21:10 - 21:13] Everybody wants for all.
[21:13 - 21:14] Sounds off.
[21:14 - 21:16] This is the call.
[21:16 - 21:19] It's like we're alive.
[21:19 - 21:22] Tonight, we rise.
[21:22 - 21:29] Rising revolution.
[21:29 - 21:58] Rise.
[21:58 - 22:27] Good thing social distancing doesn't apply to sausages.
[22:27 - 22:41] This by the love that you make and your love is by the taking. My love is just waiting to close the unit in the roses.
[22:41 - 23:02] This by the love that you make and your love is by the taking. My love is just waiting to turn the unit in the roses.
[23:02 - 23:14] I'll be the one that's going to hold you. I'll be the one that you run to. My love is a burning consuming fire.
[23:14 - 23:38] No, you'll never be alone. When darkness comes, I'll light the night with stars. Need the whispers in the dark. You'll never be alone. When darkness comes, you know I'll never fall. Need the whispers in the dark.
[23:38 - 24:00] The whispers in the dark. You'll never be alone. You'll never be alone. My love is just waiting to close the unit in the roses. I'll be the one that's going to guide you. I'll burn the one that's going to guide you.
[24:00 - 24:29] I'll know this, I'll burn it, consuming fire. No, you'll never be alone. When darkness comes, you light the night with stars. Need the whispers in the dark. You'll never be alone. When darkness comes, you know I'll never fall. Need the whispers in the dark.
[24:29 - 24:52] The whispers in the dark.
[24:52 - 24:59] Right? I got a little surprise for you guys.
[24:59 - 25:21] No, you'll never be alone. When darkness comes, you light the night with stars. Need the whispers in the dark. You'll never be alone. When darkness comes, you know I'll never fall. Need the whispers in the dark.
[25:21 - 25:31] The whispers in the dark. The whispers in the dark. The whispers in the dark.
[25:32 - 25:41] Yeah!
[25:41 - 26:10] Ow!
[26:10 - 26:33] I got a little surprise for you guys.
[26:33 - 26:58] So, since Tyler wants me to supposedly do this supposed Michael Jackson tour, I'm thinking why not entertain that notion a bit?
[26:58 - 27:23] Why not entertain that notion a bit? I want to see R.I.P. M.J. in the comments, man.
[27:23 - 27:34] She was more like a beauty queen from a movie scene. I said, "I don't like when we're doing it, me. I am the one."
[27:34 - 27:50] "Lance on the floor, spin around." She said, "I am the one." "Lance on the floor, spin around."
[27:50 - 28:05] She told me her name was Billy Jean, and she crossed the scene. She said, "I am the one." "Lance on the floor, spin around."
[28:05 - 28:18] They would always tell me, "Be careful what you do. Don't go 'round breaking young girls' hearts." "Don't go this old me. Be careful who you love."
[28:18 - 28:47] She said, "I am the one." "The camera's not my son." "The camera's not my son."
[28:47 - 29:06] She said, "I am the one." "Lance on the floor, spin around." She said, "I am the one." "Lance on the floor, spin around."
[29:06 - 29:25] "Lance on the floor, spin around." She said, "I am the one." "Lance on the floor, spin around." "Lance on the floor, spin around."
[29:25 - 29:41] They would always tell me, "Be careful what you do. Don't go 'round breaking young girls' hearts." "Lance on the floor, spin around." "Lance on the floor, spin around."
[29:41 - 30:06] They would always tell me, "I am the one." "The camera's not my son." "The camera's not my son." "The camera's not my son."
[30:06 - 30:35] Who said, "I am the one." "The camera's not my son." She said, "I am the one." "The camera's not my son."
[30:36 - 30:39] I had to do that one, man.
[30:39 - 30:48] If we were in our gym, I don't actually know that one.
[30:49 - 31:08] [silence]
[31:08 - 31:18] [clears throat]
[31:18 - 31:24] [silence]
[31:24 - 31:30] And this song right here is not to anyone who's ever lost a loved one.
[31:30 - 31:38] Whether it be a friend, family member, whether it be your favorite artist, this is for you guys.
[31:44 - 32:13] [music]
[32:13 - 32:33] [silence]
[32:33 - 32:52] All right, is this the feeling I need to walk within? Tell me why I can't be there where you are. There's something missing in my life.
[32:52 - 32:58] [silence]
[32:58 - 33:21] Life goes on in the never ends. Eyes of stone observe the truth. They never say forever gains upon the guilty rose to an endless nerve.
[33:21 - 33:38] There's no control. Are you with me now? Your every wish will be done. Then, so may you show me the meaning of being lonely.
[33:38 - 33:56] Is this the feeling I need to walk within? Tell me why, tell me why I can't be there where you are. There's something missing in my heart.
[33:56 - 34:20] There's nowhere to run. I have no place to go. So turn out my heart, body and soul. How can it feel? You're asking me to feel the things you never show.
[34:20 - 35:06] [silence]
[35:06 - 35:34] There's something well missing in my heart. I'll be here you're lonely. Is this the feeling I need to walk within? Tell me why I can't be there where you are. There's something missing in my heart.
[35:34 - 35:37] [silence]
[35:37 - 35:42] Oh really? You think I need vocal training? I got you little boy.
[35:42 - 35:44] [silence]
[35:44 - 35:47] I fucking got you kid.
[35:47 - 35:57] [silence]
[35:57 - 35:59] I got something for your ass.
[35:59 - 36:09] [silence]
[36:09 - 36:34] You want me to talk a lesson? I see you do this little boy. Rest the peace to Mitch Locker man. Mitch is for you brother.
[36:34 - 39:23] [silence]
[39:23 - 39:40] And you know what? Let's take it up a notch. An even further notch.
[39:40 - 39:49] By doing the number one hardest song by Linkin Park that very few can actually do.
[39:49 - 39:54] [silence]
[39:54 - 39:59] I would love to see you try this one Skull Kid cause there ain't no way you're nailing it.
[39:59 - 40:03] [silence]
[40:03 - 40:05] I would love to see you try it boy.
[40:05 - 40:08] [silence]
[40:08 - 40:14] This one's for all the Linkin Park fans. Rest the peace to Chester man.
[40:14 - 40:26] Waking in sweat again. Another day too late to waste. In my disgrace. Stuck in my hand again.
[40:26 - 40:27] That's what you think?
[40:27 - 40:31] I can never leave this place. There's no escape.
[40:31 - 40:41] No you haven't. At my own worst enemy. I'll tear it up.
[40:41 - 40:50] I'll save you for your life. Is there nothin' you can serve? Take this all away.
[40:50 - 41:00] I'm suffocating. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[41:00 - 41:09] Don't know what to take. Thought I was focused but I'm scared. I'm not prepared.
[41:09 - 41:26] I have proven a way. Looking for help somehow somewhere. And no one cares. At my own worst enemy. I'll tear it up.
[41:26 - 41:47] I think I'm feeling. Is there nothin' you can serve? Take this all away. I'm suffocating. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[41:47 - 41:55] You guys ready? Let's go. God!
[42:14 - 42:24] The fuck is wrong with me? Fuckin' man!
[42:24 - 42:48] I'm tearin' up. I'm thinkin' I'm feeling. Is there nothin' you can serve? Take this all away.
[42:48 - 42:58] Shut it up or kill me. Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
[42:58 - 43:06] Hold on one minute, guys.
[43:06 - 43:55] [silence]
[43:55 - 44:08] Where's all my corned fans at? This is for you guys.
[44:08 - 44:22] Something takes a part of me. Something lies but never seen. Every time I start to believe.
[44:22 - 44:31] Something's right and taken from me. From me. That's gonna always be messing with me.
[44:31 - 44:41] Can't that child let me be free? Think for me. Can't that take away all this pain?
[44:41 - 44:56] Can't try to weaponize all in vain. Sometimes I cannot take this place. Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
[44:56 - 45:11] Sometimes I cannot feel my face. You'll never see me for progress. Something takes a part of me.
[45:11 - 45:30] You inside what's meant to be. You're too far for me to lay. Something takes a part of me. Feelin' like a freak on a leash.
[45:30 - 45:54] How many times have I felt deceased? Nothing in my life is free. Sometimes I cannot take this place. Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
[45:54 - 46:04] Sometimes I cannot feel my face. You'll never see me for progress.
[46:04 - 46:23] Something takes a part of me. You inside what's meant to be. You're too far for me to lay. Something takes a part of me.
[46:23 - 46:37] I guarantee you there's no way in hell you can do a corn vocals like that little boy. And that shit comes naturally for me.
[46:37 - 46:55] And with that voice I can do shit like this.
[46:55 - 48:42] [MUSIC PLAYING]
[48:42 - 48:59] Now, let's sit down and talk about this. Let's go, kid. You couldn't be a professional yet. You don't have any music out, bruh.
[48:59 - 49:11] I've checked out your channel, dude. You have zero music out. So let me ask you this. What right do you have judging me?
[49:11 - 49:25] Exactly. You don't have any. Dude, I've checked out your fucking channel. All your songs are other people's music. I've checked it out.
[49:25 - 49:36] So there ain't no use in lying to me, boy. But for the fans, I want you guys to know it feels great to be back doing what I enjoy.
[49:36 - 49:47] I am going to be working on artwork most of the day today. So I will be taking a break from streaming today and working on some more artwork that I started last night after I got off.
[49:47 - 49:59] But to the fans, thank you guys for helping me out. It feels good to be back. And to my actual friends who are not people like Skull Kid,
[49:59 - 50:09] I just want to say thank you guys to my friends Jasmine, Kryptikei, everybody that was on the panel last night who showed me what I was doing,
[50:09 - 50:18] and how bad of a direction I was going in. I want to say thank you guys. Thank you so much for pulling me back out of where I was.
[50:18 - 50:28] I was in a real bad spot. I started to slip back again. And why that was, I don't know. I don't understand it. But man, it feels good to be back.
[50:28 - 50:36] Now, later tonight, I will be doing some piano covers for you guys, because I know a lot of you guys enjoyed the piano covers that I did.
[50:36 - 50:41] A lot of you guys actually enjoyed what I was doing with that. So I will be bringing that back tonight.
[50:41 - 50:52] But with that being said, it's all the actual number ones out there, all the actual fans. I fucking love you guys. You guys are amazing. You guys are awesome.
[50:52 - 51:01] Stay positive. And remember, if you are in that dark place, fight back, because you're all champions in your own right.
[51:01 - 51:08] We are all champions. And one shape or another, we are all champions.
[51:08 - 51:16] And if you sit there and let the darkness and let that negativity beat you down, that's where you'll remain forever.
[51:16 - 51:27] So it's up to you. You got two choices. You can let the negativity get to you. Let it beat you down. Let it destroy you. Let it rip everything from you.
[51:27 - 51:48] Or you can stand back up, get back up like the fighters that I know you guys are, and fight back.
[51:48 - 51:56] I'm not just speaking about Skull Kid, dude. I'm just speaking about any kind of darkness, any kind of negativity.
[51:56 - 52:10] Whether it be people like Skull Kid, whether it be people like those that have bullied me, people like Tyler and Wyatt, whether it be them or whether it be some sort of form of negativity in your life.
[52:10 - 52:24] Whether it be depression, suicide, whether it be guilt, regret. You guys can let that continue to beat you down, or you can rise up and fight back against it.
[52:24 - 52:34] And if you guys think that you're alone in that fight, you're not, because I'm here right beside you guys, fighting right beside you, day in and day out.
[52:34 - 52:40] I am right beside every one of you. I fight the same fight that you guys fight every day.
[52:40 - 52:53] Just like those of you who know where I've been, who know what it's like to be where I'm at, for those of you that are suffering the exact same things that I suffer from.
[52:53 - 53:04] And for those of you that suffer from the same exact things that I suffer from, you guys that truly, truly know what it's like.
[53:04 - 53:12] For you people that don't know what it's like, let me tell you what it's like for those of us that do deal with it before I get off here.
[53:12 - 53:20] See, when you guys go to sleep at night, you go to sleep. You have a nice dream or whatever.
[53:20 - 53:28] When I go to sleep at night, when those of us that actually deal with this shit go to sleep at night, we don't just go to sleep, we go to war with ourselves.
[53:28 - 53:34] We go to war with our inner demons every night.
[53:34 - 53:46] Every night we go to war with our demons when we go to sleep. We're constantly battling that demon deep inside of our minds every night.
[53:46 - 53:55] And you think it's easy battling those demons? No, it's not. That's one of the hardest things in the world to do.
[53:55 - 54:06] I've been there. I've lived it. Even to this day, even though I'm in a better place now, I still go to war with my demons every fucking night.
[54:06 - 54:22] The demons of regret, the demons of being pulled down, of being bullied, of being attacked.
[54:22 - 54:27] The demons of depression, the demon of suicide.
[54:27 - 54:37] Every night I go to war with that shit. But you know what? I stand up and I fight back.
[54:37 - 54:46] And for those of you that are battling it, I want you guys to know that I'm right here beside you guys, fighting right alongside you.
[54:46 - 54:50] And you're not alone. At all.
[54:50 - 55:01] But with that being said, guys, I'm about to bounce. I do hope you guys have a rest of your day and I hope the rest of your day is a good day.
[55:01 - 55:07] I hope that you guys are chill as fuck, having a good day, chilling, relaxing.
[55:07 - 55:15] And with that being said, Courtney, I will be messaging you on Discord, so be ready.
[55:15 - 55:21] Oh, and FYI, Courtney, just say no, I don't have my phone anymore because it kind of broke.
[55:21 - 55:28] So I will be hitting you up on Discord for sure.
[55:28 - 55:35] But with that being said, guys, I hope you guys do have a good rest of your day and I will catch you guys later, man.
[55:35 - 55:44] And remember, stay positive and don't let these fucking demons win.
[55:44 - 55:49] Don't let the hatred or the negativity get you down.
[55:49 - 55:55] Because like I told you, every single one of you guys is a champion in your own right.
[55:55 - 55:58] And it's time for you to stand up and show that.
[55:58 - 56:05] Fight back. Never give in. And never give up.
Transcribed by lolcow.city as id '2334' on August 18th, 2024
