2020-9-20 Focusing on my art For a While

[0:00 - 0:19] what's up guys it's your boy um this isn't gonna be a very long video but I just wanted to come on and talk about something that kind of really fucked up me in a real big way
[0:19 - 0:34] um as you guys know I was on tonics live Tyler came on and started running his mouth and shit and you know I tried to ignore it
[0:34 - 1:01] you know I tried to do the right thing and ignore it but due to how bad it got um I don't know how else to put this but other than because of what Tyler said to me on tonics live streaming and how bad it actually was
[1:01 - 1:23] um I actually am going to be taking a break from doing YouTube for a while like I'll still you know do like fun little you know gaming live streams and hanging out with friends and stuff like that I'll still do that
[1:23 - 1:45] but as far as like music goes and uploading stuff pertaining to my music I am taking a break from that for a while because honestly like what Tyler said really fucked me up and made me think like maybe I should take a break from my music and start focusing on my art brand called Oddworld Art
[1:45 - 2:00] um which I will be focusing on which thanks to my friend Tara I will be getting my artwork out there I will be doing a lot more of my artwork I will be posting on DeviantArt more
[2:00 - 2:20] because I haven't posted on DeviantArt in only a couple weeks so I do need to do that but as far as you know my music goes I am putting that on hold for a while I am going to upload two tracks as a final thing for a while
[2:20 - 2:29] um just because you know what Tyler said like really bugs me like it really fucking bugs me
[2:29 - 2:44] I mean dude how are you going to sit there and tell somebody to kill themselves and that they are a waste of space that my family doesn't love me like how the fuck are you going to sit there and say fuck up shit like that my dude
[2:44 - 3:00] like you have no clue how much that fucked with me
[3:00 - 3:11] like you have no clue how badly that really fucked with me plus I haven't focused on Photoshop at all hardly
[3:11 - 3:31] um I actually am going to be learning how to do artwork on there and what knocks I know that artworks is I know that Photoshop is very big on artwork so
[3:31 - 3:52] uh no I did not none of those things are true my dude and I already know you're not the real young fucks
[3:52 - 4:11] one I never doxxed him because I don't even have his number dude two I don't even have a phone right now alright so how can I doxx anyone
[4:11 - 4:32] oh yeah god rich I appreciate that brother definitely man I definitely appreciate that man but like I said Tyler I hope you're happy man because
[4:32 - 4:46] you know you're finally getting what you want I'm backing away from YouTube for a while I'm backing away from the music side of things for a while not because
[4:46 - 4:58] I want to but because you're basically forcing me to that point to where I feel like I have no choice but to back away for a while and focus on my other shit
[4:58 - 5:06] which ain't a bad thing I mean I'm not saying it's a bad thing that I'm taking a break
[5:06 - 5:20] and yeah and let me tell you dude I will and you're right dude I will be back but it'll be when I'm in a better mind and a better state of mind and a better place mentally
[5:20 - 5:36] because on top of Tyler I'm still dealing with the fact that my fucking 900 plus sub channel got taken down for bullshit reasons and they were unfair reasons
[5:36 - 5:57] like no matter what he says they were unfair reasons so you know I'm still dealing with that and I know what people are gonna say oh just get over it you gotta know that channel dude you don't get it
[5:57 - 6:11] that channel would have made me fucking money if these fucking trolls would have just left me the fuck alone I'd be making bank right now I'd be making a living off of what I love
[6:11 - 6:25] but because of those little douchebags doing what they did I now have to start over from the ground up and that's not fair to me
[6:25 - 6:41] and that's not true dude I did not steal those beats I gave fucking credit you fucking morons need to get that through your fucking skulls I put produced by and their names in the thing
[6:41 - 6:59] that's not the reason why you want to know the real fucking reason why it wasn't because of those beats it was because of the fact I found a fucking image on fucking Google and I used it in a goddamn live stream
[6:59 - 7:18] and the person did not fucking like me so what did they do they reported this shit I got the fucking email from YouTube to fucking prove it to
[7:18 - 7:40] me it doesn't fucking matter if they were purchased or not I put produced by you little fucking douchebag
[7:40 - 7:57] I'll have to check dude I'll check out Cobra's work whenever I'm on break dude like while I'm taking a break from my music I definitely will be checking that out
[7:57 - 8:10] dude I've never been on juggalo vlogs panel dude I've only been on tonics and a couple others but never on juggalo vlogs I've been on with blue, shout out to boyblue
[8:10 - 8:28] I've been on the panel with boyblue aka juggalo drama alert I've been on the panel with my boy Ninja including Ninja and I've been on the panel with tonic and some of my friends and that's it but I've never once been on juggalo vlogs this panel
[8:28 - 8:45] that right there tells me how fake you are dude you ain't even the real him
[8:45 - 9:03] that's so funny yeah possibly like I said I'll have to check out his work and see I will definitely check out the man's work and you know if I dig his vibe and I dig his sound and I dig what he's about yeah I'm down dude
[9:03 - 9:20] but like I said y'all just wanted to come on here and let y'all know that yes I am taking a break from my music for a while I'm going to be uploading two final tracks before I take my break and then headed off taking a break focusing on my art brand for a while
[9:20 - 9:35] that one of my good friends Tara is helping me out with she's helping me to build the brand so I will be focusing on that for a while which I'm super excited about too
[9:35 - 9:43] what the fuck
[9:43 - 10:02] this actually is the final like I said I'm not gonna stop doing live streams I'm just taking a break from the music side of things like I am still gonna do you know gaming videos like I'm still gonna be doing you know my street drifting videos and whatnot
[10:02 - 10:20] like I will be doing that as a matter of fact the second round of the street drift tournament on horizon forest coming out here in a couple days or even today I'm not sure when I'm still waiting on an email back
[10:20 - 10:35] but I will be finding out probably here in a couple hours when the next event will be so I will be doing the next horizon for drift event to see where I stand and yeah
[10:35 - 10:49] but with that being said you know I actually am about to bounce and chill for a while
[10:49 - 11:02] I'm going to say I actually I'm about to bounce for a while and chill and kind of relax get my mind off of Tyler and all his fucking idiot bullshit
[11:02 - 11:08] if you guys would like to follow me
[11:08 - 11:18] or follow what Tyler said or check out what he said to me the link to tonics live is down in the description just go back and watch it
[11:18 - 11:46] you guys can actually follow me over on dv&r under odd world art or syrax nation slash odd world art let me check real quick to make sure let me double check on that right click so I don't get it mixed up
[11:46 - 11:52] and I just to make sure that I got the name right because I can't remember what name I put on there
[11:52 - 12:00] I believe I put odd world art because I know I did that with my fucking
[12:00 - 12:15] I know I had already done that with my twitch
[12:15 - 12:24] oh hey yeah I'm gonna have to figure that out later but once I figure that out guys I will be posting out my dv&r so you guys can follow me on there
[12:24 - 12:36] but I just want to say thank you guys for having my back man like I definitely do need that mental break away from things
[12:36 - 12:47] cause honestly what Tyler said really did fuck with me like telling me to fucking go kill myself that I should take the easy way out like that shit fucks with me
[12:47 - 13:03] alright cause I do deal with depression on a day to day basis I deal with that shit everyday so that right there that just pushes my depression even more
[13:03 - 13:07] as a matter of fact that's one final thing for you guys
[13:07 - 13:17] so I'm gonna go ahead and do that right now.
[13:17 - 13:46] This is one final one for you guys.
[13:46 - 15:14] Yeah.
[15:14 - 15:42] What are you guys.
[15:42 - 16:11] Wow.
[16:11 - 16:20] Oh my god.
[16:20 - 16:33] Oh no.
[16:33 - 16:49] It's Howard. Nice try with the free pizza dude.
[16:49 - 17:14] I hope this song right here shows you guys just what I fucking deal with on a daily basis because of people like Tyler.
[17:14 - 17:29] They say never ever gonna amount to anything in this life, but I got some pride on my swallowing call on it the night and it may be raindrop right out of my high school got a gun to my head every night when it's all with a trigger that I might pull.
[17:29 - 17:36] Nobody knows it's awful for me I'm over the edge I'm going up inside cause I'm not who I'm supposed to be.
[17:36 - 17:49] Nobody's chosen me to say what the heaven is and yet I've been great at the demons in my head. I'm the record like never gonna get another chance of joy with somebody else to predict the day to the pen and yo and my belt.
[17:49 - 17:58] If I had to read it to me so stupidly you and me in the future fucking love me truly but it's never going to be that way.
[17:58 - 18:04] I'm not gonna get my family to take my hands on a check but I might be looking right out in the crowd in my dreams.
[18:04 - 18:09] If you really want to know what I mean that's the way I just don't trust anyone anyone you're gonna let me see.
[18:09 - 18:18] This is my last day tell me what you really need cause after this record I'm headed for what we keep saying I can't take it.
[18:18 - 18:23] I bring myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy.
[18:23 - 18:29] So say girl you're good vibes I'm gonna get to you one last time.
[18:29 - 18:33] So really really man just throw your face off.
[18:33 - 18:39] Take one of us take your soul happiness I can't make it show.
[18:39 - 18:43] Jump in forgotten there's no fixing or forsaking at all.
[18:43 - 18:46] And the better man might do whatever means I don't want some crap.
[18:46 - 18:49] But whenever it takes I'm gonna make my cake and it might just bust a rack.
[18:49 - 18:51] For the grain I see no point.
[18:51 - 18:53] Too near when everything I choice.
[18:53 - 18:56] I'm the hottest product set off on the market rocking, bringing noise.
[18:56 - 18:59] But I can't do that cause I do bad for all the fans and I need to vet.
[18:59 - 19:03] And even if you leave me this ain't easy I can not be the best.
[19:03 - 19:06] But if I collect and check all the words on no pad.
[19:06 - 19:09] I'm giving it all the way to my family and it's so sad.
[19:09 - 19:13] To the end of the truth of this bro fuck up then you love it so.
[19:13 - 19:16] And the pain that I gained from the life that I'm living and you're gonna get me coming no.
[19:16 - 19:19] I just can't keep rolling on doing the life of my challenges.
[19:19 - 19:23] Between being me and my crazy who I can't balance it in.
[19:23 - 19:26] This made me laugh down when we go and stop screaming and play with me cause.
[19:26 - 19:29] When I'm gonna hear another mother fucker drop this shit like damn this shit.
[19:29 - 19:30] I can't take it.
[19:30 - 19:32] Tell me what you really mean.
[19:32 - 19:35] Cause that is where I feel like I won't make it.
[19:35 - 19:38] I can't take it.
[19:38 - 19:43] I'll lay myself to be someone that I'm not in this crazy.
[19:43 - 19:46] So save all your good guys.
[19:46 - 19:48] I'm gonna give it to you.
[19:48 - 19:50] I'm just gonna give it to you.
[19:50 - 19:52] Just throw your face off.
[19:52 - 20:53] It's gonna mess me up when I'm holding that table.
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[21:03 - 21:05] [typing]
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[21:47 - 21:52] And this song right here is what I go through every fucking night.
[21:52 - 21:56] Because of all the bullying and the bullshit I get put through.
[21:56 - 22:00] This is what I've dealt with my whole life.
[22:00 - 22:05] And I hope this makes you understand what it is I deal with.
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[36:36 - 36:40] I want to give a huge shout out to my boy Sabo on this one, man.
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[36:44 - 36:48] If y'all ain't checked out Red Con 1 Music Group, man, definitely do it.
[36:48 - 36:50] Yo, a bunch of good guys, man.
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[37:24 - 37:28] If y'all ain't known, man, if y'all ain't known, these are actually personal friends of mine that I know what I was speaking about.
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[42:16 - 42:22] This is drive time. Were you even 99% chance of getting approved for a car? Even if you don't have great credit, you may even qualify for zero adults.
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