2020-5-15 Skxrface - u never Cared about me at all

[0:00 - 0:20] What's up guys? I know that I'm in the dark, but I wanted to address something real quick that's true. Something that Heather's gonna try to deny or whatever but I figured I'd tell you all this.
[0:20 - 0:45] Heather never really loved me and I found that out today. You see, when I was on the edge today, when I was close to death, when I was on the verge of ending my life,
[0:45 - 1:04] and I begged and I pleaded for her to not go. She didn't do a damn thing. She sat there and fucking stared at me with a blank, evil, heartless look.
[1:04 - 1:15] What kind of person does that?
[1:15 - 1:33] I almost ended my life today and she didn't do a damn thing to stop me.
[1:33 - 1:46] I almost ended my fucking life today when I had that knife to my stomach and I begged and I pleaded for her to not fucking do this, to not leave.
[1:46 - 2:12] All she did was give me a blank stare, like she was a heartless, like she was some sort of evil person.
[2:12 - 2:34] I almost ended my life today and she didn't do a damn thing to stop me.
[2:34 - 2:54] I just don't understand why she did this. But Heather, you say I never loved you. You're the one that never loved me and you proved it today. You proved that you don't love me.
[2:54 - 3:06] You say that I abused you, but I did not.
[3:06 - 3:23] You say that I treated you like shit, but I didn't.
[3:23 - 3:27] I just don't understand.
[3:27 - 3:52] If you really loved and cared about me Heather, why didn't you walk up to me, take the knife from my fucking hand and hug me and tell me that you weren't leaving?
[3:52 - 4:13] You know, it hurts because I almost ended my life today.
[4:13 - 4:26] I almost killed myself today and you didn't do a damn thing to fucking stop me, which shows how heartless you really fucking are.
[4:26 - 4:44] If you cared, like I said, you would have taken that knife away from me right then and there and you would have sat down and talked to me.
[4:44 - 4:57] Heather, it's people like you that made me the way that I am.
[4:57 - 5:13] As I said, my entire life, I was bullied. I was picked on. I was beat up. I was degraded. I was raped.
[5:13 - 5:24] I was abused by many people throughout my life.
[5:24 - 5:43] And then for you to put me on the edges to a side like this and do all the shit you did to me, to do all the shit that you fucking did to me and you wonder why I went off?
[5:43 - 5:58] You wonder why I did the shit that I did? You wonder why I wanted to end my life today so bad?
[5:58 - 6:24] You say I'm a cry baby. You say that I'm weak. You say that I need to grow up. But Heather, the one that needs to grow up and stop being weak is you.
[6:24 - 6:40] Heather, I almost died today because of you. Because of you, I almost took my own life.
[6:40 - 6:55] And that hurts. It hurts me to know that all you did was sit there and stare and didn't even try to do anything. All you said there did was say give me the life and give me the life.
[6:55 - 7:09] You didn't even try to fucking take it or even talk to me. All you did was sit there and stare at me.
[7:09 - 7:33] You know, it's sad because, you know, if you were in my position, Heather, you know what I would have done? I would have walked up to you. I would have taken that knife from you and I would have put it down and I would have fucking told you that it was all right and that I wasn't going anywhere.
[7:33 - 7:50] But instead, when my life was in your hands, when my life was on the line, yeah, all right, I hope you're happy with yourself.