2020-12-24 letter to my child

[0:00 - 0:29] This song is a letter to my child.
[0:29 - 0:36] I want you to know that I love you and I did everything to bring you back.
[0:36 - 0:43] Yo this is a letter to my fucking kid I wanted you to know that I did everything
[0:43 - 0:47] to try to get you away from your delusion on the land.
[0:47 - 0:55] Egotistical mother shit never wanted me to have you never wanted me to see me happen.
[0:55 - 1:01] She didn't want me to have you in my life she was so fucking selfish so she did everything
[1:01 - 1:08] she could to fuck up my life every single night and day I'm thinking about you.
[1:08 - 1:13] Wondering if you love me, if you hate me, if you're mad at me I don't blame you if you're
[1:13 - 1:18] fucking mad at me what your mother did to me it really wasn't fair to me it wasn't
[1:18 - 1:25] even fair to you that you had to get put what you got put through I want you to know
[1:25 - 1:30] that every single fucking day since the day you were born I tried to look before you
[1:30 - 1:37] tried to fight the tribe reaching out to you I want you to know that I love you and
[1:37 - 1:43] I would give the whole world up just to have you on my own to hug you hold you kiss you
[1:43 - 1:49] everything that a father should be doing for the kid I want you to know that every
[1:49 - 1:54] day feels like I'm living in sin counseling wondering why did this have to happen to
[1:54 - 2:01] me I don't understand God this is a right decision fucking fair to me I wanted you
[2:01 - 2:18] in my life this was a fucking myth to me this is not what I had envisioned I had envisioned
[2:18 - 2:28] a better life for you I want you to know that I fucking love you my child and I would've
[2:28 - 2:33] given up everything for you I want you to know that forever I'm gonna always love you
[2:33 - 2:38] I don't give a fuck about what I have to do to see you trying to fix again I would
[2:38 - 2:47] go to the ends of the earth just to see you happy again and be reunited with you again
[2:47 - 2:53] God all I want to do is get you back and hug you hold you kiss you hug you and maybe
[2:53 - 3:01] you then throw one of you that you trust me and you I've been longing every day I never
[3:01 - 3:08] wanted to give up on you but your mother gave me no fucking choice but to leave and walk
[3:08 - 3:19] away god I never wanted to give up on you I wanted to do nothing but raise you right
[3:19 - 3:27] but she made me give up that fight she made me give up that fight not that I wanted to
[3:27 - 3:37] but I had to and to my child I want you to know that I'm sorry and then I love you
[3:37 - 3:51] I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love