2020-12-24 WTF IS GOING

[0:00 - 0:18] What's up guys? We probably went a while extra stressed, scared. In all honesty it's because
[0:18 - 0:33] I am because I just found out that Heather may keyword may be pregnant with my kid and that's
[0:33 - 0:48] scary because me and her having a kid that wasn't planned and if she is pregnant with
[0:48 - 1:06] my child where the fuck is she? And on top of that my current girlfriend Megan might
[1:06 - 1:17] be pregnant we don't know. We're waiting on results back from the doctor because like
[1:17 - 1:39] bro
[1:39 - 1:55] it's honestly fucking scary because I just watched Marty's live stream. I watched where
[1:55 - 2:16] Ricky said that two weeks within two weeks of her coming down there she tested positive
[2:16 - 2:39] and now right there he's been playing in the back of my motherfucking mind for so long
[2:39 - 2:54] you know what I'm about to fucking hide this nigga from the channel
[2:54 - 3:08] thank you love girl the like point being if she is for some ungodly reason pregnant
[3:08 - 3:26] with my kid
[3:26 - 3:54] I don't know what I'm going to do
[3:54 - 4:03] right now is not the time for that I'll deal with that bullshit mess later bro right now
[4:03 - 4:24] we have a bigger fucking problem a big one because if Heather is pregnant with my kid
[4:24 - 4:36] I don't know what I'm gonna do because nobody's fucking seen her since she left Ricky and
[4:36 - 4:46] here's the thing Satan Heather don't fucking deserve to be a fucking mother I mean look
[4:46 - 4:57] at her fucking track record she had Elliot left Ricky got with Jessica got pregnant again
[4:57 - 5:07] with her daughter Alia and now she's pregnant with her third kid which could possibly either
[5:07 - 5:14] be mine or Ricky's we don't fucking know because the exact way if you go back to watch
[5:14 - 5:37] Marty stream watch where watch where Ricky came in now is recent which puts even more
[5:37 - 5:46] stress on me than I've already got all right I'm already stressed out enough because my
[5:46 - 5:58] current girlfriend might be pregnant with our kid now yes me and my girl didn't plan
[5:58 - 6:06] on having a kid me and Megan wanted to have a kid all right we wanted to have a kid together
[6:06 - 6:12] so if she is pregnant yes it was planned and right now I'm not gonna be able to do
[6:12 - 6:18] the job that I need to fucking do because my best friend that's hooking me up with
[6:18 - 6:24] fucking classes to do programming is in the fucking hospital for 13 fucking days because
[6:24 - 6:30] of a medical issue that she has going on so I'm not really able to fucking do much
[6:30 - 6:59] until she can get out of the fucking hospital
[6:59 - 7:05] and here's the thing too about it like and Heather I hope you're watching this a matter
[7:05 - 7:18] of fact she metal cat Marty I hope all of you I hope all of you are watching this because
[7:18 - 7:25] what sets me apart from the Heather is yes I have a rough past but something y'all need
[7:25 - 7:43] to fucking realize is that take a look at my history all right go ahead take a look
[7:43 - 7:48] when I was with Heather and these are straight facts if you don't believe me prove me wrong
[7:48 - 7:56] and anytime stop me and try to prove me wrong please when I was with Heather yes I lashed
[7:56 - 8:06] out yes I went off on people yes I was constantly angry yes she tried to hold me against my
[8:06 - 8:13] will in my own bedroom basically committing kidnapping and holding me hostage yes I blacked
[8:13 - 8:22] out and did what I had to fucking do to survive yes I pinned her by her fucking neck against
[8:22 - 8:28] the goddamn door because of the fact that she was holding me fucking hostage I will
[8:28 - 8:36] admit that but she held me hostage and would not let me out of the fucking room at all
[8:36 - 8:45] that is considered holding someone hostage she literally took my fucking phone for me
[8:45 - 8:50] and what I let me leave the room that is considered keeping someone hostage that is
[8:50 - 9:08] not cool now fast forward after she left fast forward after she fucking left take
[9:08 - 9:14] a look at my track record since then I have not lashed out at anybody I have not flipped
[9:14 - 9:25] out on any livestreams and yes I'm gone after certain individuals within reasonable cause
[9:25 - 9:33] people like music biz marty people like fucking skull kid people like ear juice people like
[9:33 - 9:40] that that need to be stopped but other than that I have not lashed out I'm not the person
[9:40 - 9:46] I was when I was with Heather when I was with Heather that relationship was toxic for me
[9:46 - 9:51] let me tell you all something real quick and I know a lot of y'all do remember my brother
[9:51 - 9:58] Sean aka Sean's play a lot of you guys remember him okay a lot of you guys remember when
[9:58 - 10:05] me and him did that livestream together we sat down played some call of duty war zone
[10:05 - 10:11] and just hung out and had fun you guys remember him me and him hung out on here on stream
[10:11 - 10:20] had a good time had a blast when I was with Heather this was mine and his conversation
[10:20 - 10:26] hey Chance it's been a long time man how you doing bud it's been a long time bro what's
[10:26 - 10:34] up hey Sean what's up bro oh sorry gotta go Sean my girl's here gotta go bye that
[10:34 - 10:40] was it that was our conversation he would literally say hey to me and I'd say one or
[10:40 - 10:45] two words to him then I would have to get off and because Heather would be in the room
[10:45 - 10:49] that was the end of our conversation that was our conversation and now me and him talk
[10:49 - 10:58] on an almost daily fucking basis like literally I can sit there for like two three hours
[10:58 - 11:04] now and hold a conversation with them and you know talk to him like me and him used
[11:04 - 11:15] to do before I got with Heather like when I was with Heather the relationship was so
[11:15 - 11:26] toxic it really was very toxic and honestly I'm glad that I'm away from her I'm glad
[11:26 - 11:34] that I'm out of that relationship because being with her was toxic I had lost a lot
[11:34 - 11:42] of friends a lot of family because of her family that's just now talking to me again
[11:42 - 12:00] friends that are just now speaking to me again
[12:00 - 12:15] point being point being the difference between me and Heather I'm willing to step up and
[12:15 - 12:22] do what I have to do to be a father to be a dad because to be honest I've always wanted
[12:22 - 12:27] to be a father ever since I was a little kid I've always wanted to be able to settle down
[12:27 - 12:40] have my family I've always wanted that you know like I've always wanted to be able to
[12:40 - 12:48] do what I love for a living you know I've always wanted to be able to do what I love
[12:48 - 12:54] for a living and to be able to have a family I've always wanted to be able to make money
[12:54 - 13:01] doing what I enjoy doing what I love and to be able to provide for my family I've always
[13:01 - 13:07] wanted that and now I actually have a real shot at that thanks to a good friend of mine
[13:07 - 13:14] who is possibly who if she talks to her boss might be able to hook me up with fucking
[13:14 - 13:24] classes here in 13 12 13 days to become a programmer for programming games for companies
[13:24 - 13:33] like PlayStation Xbox Microsoft you know companies like that and you know how much
[13:33 - 13:39] money those motherfuckers making in the year they make a lot of money in a fucking year
[13:39 - 13:52] a lot especially working for a high-end company like that like a lot of people think that
[13:52 - 14:10] programmers for games don't make a lot of money oh yes they do they make a lot of money
[14:10 - 14:20] off what they do and if I can get the proper training to be able to do these things then
[14:20 - 14:32] I'm set I'm golden because once I take the classes I will then be able to get a job working
[14:32 - 14:38] for Sony working for PlayStation working for Microsoft creating and developing games doing
[14:38 - 14:43] something that I've always loved to do because one thing not a lot of people know about me
[14:43 - 14:51] is that back in my early 20s when I was 20 21 22 I always made games through RPG Maker
[14:51 - 14:58] MV always like that was my thing that's what I did I always had a knack for creating video
[14:58 - 15:07] games and I put out some small ones here and there for friends on you know for free
[15:07 - 15:14] back in the day you know I've done like little free ones and shit like that and they enjoyed
[15:14 - 15:24] them they absolutely loved them and at one point I had actually written a book called
[15:24 - 15:36] soul senses which I put out back in I want to say 2013 2014 somewhere in there but I'd
[15:36 - 15:45] released a book called soul senses I itself published it through lulu.com and whatnot
[15:45 - 15:51] not thinking that someone who's gonna come along and steal it cuz back then lulu.com
[15:51 - 15:56] didn't have the stuff that they have now they didn't have the kind of protection back then
[15:56 - 16:02] they have now so I can't really fault them for that but I'd put out a book called soul
[16:02 - 16:09] senses it did fairly well amongst my friends and my family I had decided to go on the RPG
[16:09 - 16:13] Maker MV cuz I'd had the full version of it and I decided to make a game out of it
[16:13 - 16:20] now six months into doing the game six months into development between myself and a couple
[16:20 - 16:25] of friends of mine that were testing the game out as I was creating it my fucking computer
[16:25 - 16:30] dies and goes to shit cuz back then I had one of those I don't know if y'all remember
[16:30 - 16:35] the like the old school blocky computers like the old school pancake compact computers
[16:35 - 16:42] I had one of those it had Windows 7 on it it was either Windows 7 or XP I forget which
[16:42 - 16:50] I think it was 7 I don't remember but six months of hard work down the drain because
[16:50 - 17:10] the thing went to shit then I started looking online creating little games here and there
[17:10 - 17:27] yo trump dart what's good yo Tracy what's good something you know I do have you know
[17:27 - 17:34] the knowledge of you know how to typically create a game I just don't do I just don't
[17:34 - 17:42] do well with the coding like I suck at coding believe me I tried it I have actually taken
[17:42 - 17:48] class for coding and I still can't understand the shit so I'm hoping they're gonna teach
[17:48 - 18:01] me the newer stuff like you know how to use like daz 3d blender fucking unity which I
[18:01 - 18:05] have made a few games through unity it was actually pretty cool you know like stuff
[18:05 - 18:18] like that but point being unlike Heather I'm willing to make the sacrifices I need
[18:18 - 18:28] to make to be a father to be a dad to be a provider I'm not just gonna sit around have
[18:28 - 18:35] a kid and not fucking take care of it like my own dad walked out on me when I was a
[18:35 - 18:42] child alright my own dad walked out on me so I know what that's like not have a father
[18:42 - 18:47] around I know it's like not have a father figure you want to know who my father figure
[18:47 - 18:54] was growing up my teacher mr. Smith that was my father figure he was more of a father
[18:54 - 19:14] than my own dad ever was whenever I did something stupid he put his boot up my ass yo Rosebud
[19:14 - 19:22] what's good but like I said point being my own teacher was more of a father to me than
[19:22 - 19:33] my own dad was if I did something stupid that got him pissed he had my ass for it you know
[19:33 - 19:43] he put his boot up my ass and taught me to never do that dumb shit again not gonna lie
[19:43 - 19:53] my own teacher was more of a father figure than he was and I was pretty sad I know when
[19:53 - 19:59] I went down to visit my dad back in 2014 and me and my dad got into it and I fucking
[19:59 - 20:06] left my fucking teacher hooked me up with a fucking motel for the cup for a few nights
[20:06 - 20:11] and told my fucking mom to get down there to Florida to pick my ass up from the motel
[20:11 - 20:21] to bring me back here so I know what it's like to not have a father figure in my life
[20:21 - 20:30] and I'm not gonna sit there and do that to my own kid I'm just I'm not like that if
[20:30 - 20:37] I have a kid I'm gonna take care of it regardless of what people think of me regardless of
[20:37 - 20:53] what people say
[20:53 - 20:57] and here's the thing dude that's actually what a friend of mine is working on having
[20:57 - 21:07] me do a friend of mine named Skylar she actually works on helping the program games for Sony
[21:07 - 21:11] so she gets out of the hospital one now because right now she's got a medical issue going
[21:11 - 21:17] on as soon as she gets out of the hospital she's gonna try to get me into some classes
[21:17 - 21:21] to learn how to program even though I didn't even though I wasn't able to finish high
[21:21 - 21:27] school or anything she's gonna try to get me into some classes to where I can you know
[21:27 - 21:33] learn how to program games the proper way that way when the time comes I can graduate
[21:33 - 21:40] that class and I can then move on to programming games full time which means I'll be able to
[21:40 - 21:46] support myself with my artwork all my money I'll be able to put out my music like I want
[21:46 - 21:51] to and I'll be able to make a living off of what I love to do and I'll be able to provide
[21:51 - 22:01] for myself and for my family so like I've got a real big opportunity here I just got
[22:01 - 22:08] to be patient with it because you know what they say good things come to those who wait
[22:08 - 22:26] into those that are patient
[22:26 - 22:33] and before y'all ask no it isn't beer it's fucking orange soda I've got a little homemade
[22:33 - 22:38] kids around my mom actually made this so jobs to my mom's for making this is fucking
[22:38 - 22:55] dope but uh you know point being unlike Heather I'm actually willing to be a parent alright
[22:55 - 23:02] I watched my I watched my nephew Sean all the fucking time I go to my sister Crystal's
[23:02 - 23:09] house all the fucking time or sometimes she brings him over here and he's six years old
[23:09 - 23:16] no little boys gonna be six this year it's crazy or no he just turned six I'm gonna watch
[23:16 - 23:23] my little boys since he was a fucking month old so I know what it's like I know I pretty
[23:23 - 23:28] much have a good grasp on what it's gonna be like to have a kid hell I'm a fucking
[23:28 - 23:41] godfather to my friend Eric Scruggalo's daughter also shout out to my boys scrub what's good
[23:41 - 23:50] bro like for real like I have a good grasp on what it's like to be a parent yeah I know
[23:50 - 23:56] that I'm gonna be up and down a lot throughout the night but thing is I'm up and down a
[23:56 - 24:00] lot throughout the night anyway if you all notice I'm up and down a lot throughout the
[24:00 - 24:07] night so it doesn't really bother me I'm used to it I'm used to running on a couple
[24:07 - 24:12] hours of sleep I'm used to running on like two three hours of sleep and a fuck ton of
[24:12 - 24:21] coffee I'm used to that because that's the kind of life that a music artist lives yes
[24:21 - 24:25] stay up countless hours you work on your shit if you got a kid take care of you take
[24:25 - 24:32] care of your kid while you work on your shit simple stuff it's not that fucking hard it's
[24:32 - 24:38] not rocket science I know how to change the diaper I know how to fucking feed a child
[24:38 - 24:43] I know how to fucking hold them I know all that shit I've literally had to learn this
[24:43 - 24:53] shit from friends that are pretty much family to me and from my actual family having kids
[24:53 - 25:03] of their own and me babysitting them I'm used to this I'm not a stranger to being
[25:03 - 25:12] around kids I'm not I'm used to it is it confirmed that you're gonna be a dad I honestly
[25:12 - 25:19] don't know I literally messaged Ricky literally like a couple hours ago tell him hey we need
[25:19 - 25:29] to fucking talk ASAP so I'm just waiting for him to get the fuck up and slow that medium
[25:29 - 25:37] could talk and I'm waiting to hear back from Megan to find out what's going on here so
[25:37 - 25:57] I don't know when I find out you guys will know what I know you'll know
[25:57 - 26:06] that is true you're very right on that you're not wrong on that you are not wrong on that
[26:06 - 26:16] at all like hell I treat my own fucking godchild as if they're on my own flesh and blood like
[26:16 - 26:27] I'll be straight up honest with you like whether it's my niece my nephew my godchild
[26:27 - 26:39] whatever like I'll be straight up honest I'm willing to take a bullet for any one of them
[26:39 - 26:46] I'm willing to stand up for them I'm willing to do whatever it takes to be sure that their
[26:46 - 26:56] safety and their future and their security is in check like if someone can like let's
[26:56 - 27:02] just say for example like let's just say for example I have a kid and somebody breaks
[27:02 - 27:09] into the fucking house and wants to do harm to that kid I can guarantee you for a fucking
[27:09 - 27:17] fact that person that breaks in ain't leaving alive that is a fact that person that breaks
[27:17 - 27:24] in dealing with everything is a goddamn body bag plain and simple I'm willing to protect
[27:24 - 27:33] my kids I'm willing to do what I have to do as a dad as a father as somebody that cares
[27:33 - 27:40] most parents nowadays don't do that which is where my song our fault came into play
[27:40 - 27:46] because I spoke on that I spoke on how a lot of these parents nowadays don't take care
[27:46 - 27:53] of their kids how they let YouTube the internet and social media parent their kids for them
[27:53 - 28:05] I'm not gonna be like that I was raised the old school way I was taught to say yes ma'am
[28:05 - 28:13] no ma'am yes sir no sir please thank you I was I was taught all of that and I'm gonna
[28:13 - 28:27] teach my kid the same shit that's how I am I was raised old school so if I have a kid
[28:27 - 28:33] I'm gonna teach my old month kid the old school way suit y'all gotta remember I was
[28:33 - 28:40] raised in the country I was raised in the fucking backwoods where we said yes ma'am
[28:40 - 28:45] no ma'am yes sir no sir we were taught to respect our elders we were taught to say please
[28:45 - 29:04] and thank you well if they are they are if they're not then I'll figure something out
[29:04 - 29:21] make your computer yeah yeah yeah
[29:21 - 29:48] you know what energy is for that one you gotta go that's just not something you fucking
[29:48 - 30:01] joke about dude that's just not something that you joke about man that's seriously bullshit
[30:01 - 30:07] bro that's not something you kid around about cuz what's that is there are places out there
[30:07 - 30:18] like that that shit ain't something to joke about bro that's fucked actually yeah I will
[30:18 - 30:31] admit I did have a ton I will admit like I will admit I did have a bit of you know
[30:31 - 30:40] I don't want to say rough childhood but also at the same time it was kind of rough I guess
[30:40 - 30:49] I had a normal childhood I will admit yes I had a normal childhood but what made it
[30:49 - 30:57] rough is my dad not being around cuz you guys gotta figure my dad was in the military so
[30:57 - 31:07] my dad was constantly working on base not being home you know all that stuff so I had
[31:07 - 31:13] to deal with that so my mom basically raised her raised me her on her own my whole life
[31:13 - 31:22] I was my mom was a single parent my whole life growing up so yes I did have a little
[31:22 - 31:29] bit of a rough childhood because my dad wasn't around but other than that I had a great fucking
[31:29 - 31:38] childhood looking back now and seeing how my dad was I'm glad that my mom raised me
[31:38 - 31:50] on her own because now my dad is fucking literally drinking his goddamn life away
[31:50 - 31:55] like no joke my dad is literally drinking his fucking life away and I'm glad I don't
[31:55 - 32:00] speak to him anymore because I don't want to end up like he did I don't want to end
[32:00 - 32:24] up a fucking drunk how do you know that dude
[32:24 - 32:30] I have lots of fights growing up oh yeah oh yeah I did when I was like I wasn't there
[32:30 - 32:38] I was a rebellious teenager not gonna lie I was your typical rebellious teen I literally
[32:38 - 32:45] was that kid I was your typical rebellious teenager that you know smarted off to his
[32:45 - 32:51] parents and stuff I was I was there I was that kid not gonna lie we've all been there
[32:51 - 32:56] we've all you know been teenagers at one point or another in our lives like you know
[32:56 - 33:04] we've all had that rebellious face I went through it as well and when I was in school
[33:04 - 33:08] I definitely did get into a lot of fights and it wasn't because my dad wasn't around
[33:08 - 33:15] it was just because you know people were picking on me because my size how I was how I looked
[33:15 - 33:26] all that stuff so like you know that definitely was you know a thing I definitely did get
[33:26 - 33:33] into fights a lot in school hell even in high school I got into fights a lot even
[33:33 - 33:38] up here when I went to high school up here and when I left Florida and started high
[33:38 - 33:44] school up here I got into fights more times than I could count not even gonna fucking
[33:44 - 33:50] lie yeah I may have gotten my ass kicked a time or two you know I may have gotten my
[33:50 - 33:55] ass kicked here and there in the fights point being though I still went through fights
[33:55 - 34:19] in high school just like everybody else does so yeah I you know I well I did fight a lot
[34:19 - 34:30] see if I can download this game real quick cause I've been wanting to I've been wanting
[34:30 - 34:54] to download this game so fucking bad let's see if I can find that
[34:54 - 35:19] sorry I'm like literally looking for a game that I actually started out on it's actually
[35:19 - 35:24] the game that I started out on for MMORPGs which is Jade Dynasty that's like my gaming
[35:24 - 35:31] home that's like literally my online gaming home like that's where I met my teammates
[35:31 - 35:39] that have been my best friends since 2008 and you know we still kick it on places like
[35:39 - 35:50] Fortnite we still kick it on a cod we still kick it on GTA 5 you know we still we're
[35:50 - 35:56] still in the unit we're still a tight-knit family I want to download it now fucking
[35:56 - 36:08] alright so where do I fucking download it bro they got a lot of new shit what dude
[36:08 - 36:28] where do I download this
[36:28 - 36:52] you know thank you I just want to download the damn game please and thank you
[36:52 - 37:04] yes I've actually played the Yakuza games I've actually played all three of them they're
[37:04 - 37:10] all really really good I've actually played all three they are incredible I've actually
[37:10 - 37:26] been doing all the gameplay of them they're fucking awesome ooh Genshin Impact very cool
[37:26 - 37:35] League of Angels or I played that ooh Grand Fantasia now Grand Fantasia is cool Winnie
[37:35 - 37:44] edge yeah star conflict no thank you how the fuck do I download Jade Dynasty that's
[37:44 - 37:57] what I want to know I want to love to download Jade Dynasty and hop on there again man that
[37:57 - 38:04] way y'all can see what I did back in the day how I came up playing MMOs and just and
[38:04 - 38:12] just out of pure wonder just out of pure wonder how many of you guys remember RuneScape
[38:12 - 38:37] from back in the day like how many y'all remember playing RuneScape yeah I'd say that dude does
[38:37 - 38:49] alright I'm on Perfect World where is Jade Dynasty anyway no that's Magic Legends although
[38:49 - 39:02] I do like Magic Legends knock in the front dude World of Warcraft is fun I actually have
[39:02 - 39:10] played World of Warcraft ooh yo they got Neverwinter up in this shit Neverwinter was actually
[39:10 - 39:19] the first MMO I played and then from there I got into Jade Dynasty but Jade Dynasty
[39:19 - 39:27] was like the first one where I actually first you know formed you know my main clan which
[39:27 - 39:55] was actually one of the first clans on Jade Dynasty ironically yeah bro this shit is so
[39:55 - 40:11] fucking laggy but dude I've played games like that before man World of Warcraft is
[40:11 - 40:38] fun let's see if I can find it ooh I think I found it
[40:38 - 40:55] MMO games Diablo 2 was fun I've played Diablo there we go I got it I think I got it where
[40:55 - 41:14] was the download button I think I found it hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm okay so
[41:14 - 41:40] where I downloaded it what no way they should Jade Dynasty down are you serious no fucking
[41:40 - 42:03] way this has got to be fake you got a Genshin Impact that one's always fun bro are you serious
[42:03 - 42:19] right now man?
[42:19 - 42:44] Yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
[42:44 - 43:05] oh man I can't believe it they actually shut it down
[43:05 - 43:21] dude that blows man
[43:21 - 43:46] yeah Diablo is this shit I'm not the look this up the COJ Dynasty actually is shut down
[43:46 - 44:04] yes I do play Raid Shadow Legends for fucking sure
[44:04 - 44:33] let's get in there and fish on the site and see
[44:33 - 44:56] bro come on dude.
[44:56 - 45:22] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
[45:22 - 45:43] all right guys I'm gonna end it right here I'm gonna do some research um yeah I'm gonna
[45:43 - 45:48] do some research and chill and see what I can find out cuz this is gonna be bugged man
[45:48 - 45:54] this is really young and bugged I'll catch you guys later