2020-1-14 Standing My Ground - Cyrax Defends Himself

[0:00 - 0:09] So it seems some of y'all got it fucking twisted. Some of y'all seem to think that just because
[0:09 - 0:14] I'm leading social media for a while doesn't mean I'm not going to do what's right and
[0:14 - 0:20] stand up for people or open up music. That's way wrong. I said I wasn't going to do any
[0:20 - 0:31] more live streams for a while and now I'm stepping away from that side of things. Now
[0:31 - 0:38] a lot of you may be wondering why do artwork when it's hard to do that? Well what y'all
[0:38 - 0:46] don't realize, like I said in the last video, I come from a family of artists. So art is
[0:46 - 0:54] naturally in my blood. Whether it be through music, whether it be through writing, through
[0:54 - 0:58] digital art, through hand-on art, through tattoo work, whatever that art style may
[0:58 - 1:06] be that I'm feeling that day, I'm going to do. Now something most people don't really
[1:06 - 1:25] realize, for me, my music is like an escape for me. My music allows me to say what I can't
[1:25 - 1:49] say to you guys face to face. It allows me to speak on certain things. It allows me to
[1:49 - 2:02] speak my mind in ways that I have trouble doing normally. So when I release my music
[2:02 - 2:09] it's not just me putting out another song, it's me speaking my mind how I feel and also
[2:09 - 2:15] speaking for those that don't have a voice. Through my music I'm giving somebody else
[2:15 - 2:23] that doesn't have a voice. I'm giving that person a voice or those people a voice. Y'all
[2:23 - 2:27] might not like my music, y'all might not like what I do, y'all might not like me in
[2:27 - 2:41] general and that's fine. But you know something? I see myself as being in the NXT of the music
[2:41 - 2:50] scene. Nobody really likes me that much because of the fact of what I do and that's alright.
[2:50 - 2:58] Y'all comment and bad shit, y'all talk down to me, you talk down to my girl, you make
[2:58 - 3:04] fun of me, hell you can grab new photos of me and hack my shit and spread those news
[3:04 - 3:15] around over the internet. And yeah, I'm slowly clawing and fighting my way to the very fucking
[3:15 - 3:24] top to get to where I gotta be, every day. From the moment I wake up to the moment I
[3:24 - 3:31] go to sleep, I'm putting my heart and my soul into my heart. Like I said, whether
[3:31 - 3:45] it be through music or the other arts that I do, that I grew up doing my entire life.
[3:45 - 3:50] And you better believe I will claw, I will scratch, I will run the fuck over, I will
[3:50 - 3:59] destroy anyone who gets in my way or tries to tear me down. Y'all motherfuckers can
[3:59 - 4:07] throw me to the wolves, y'all can sit there and you can do whatever you want. You can
[4:07 - 4:14] boo me, you can hate me, you can love me. Y'all can talk about the fact that I don't
[4:14 - 4:22] have a job right now. Y'all can talk about the fact that my nudes got stolen and sent
[4:22 - 4:28] out. You can talk about the fact that Jamie does nothing but run her little bitch mouth
[4:28 - 4:35] about me. You can talk about how I'm not able to see my step-kids. But at the end of the
[4:35 - 4:45] day, as long as I'm doing what I gotta do to make money, to make an attempt, to make
[4:45 - 4:53] some kind of income for my family, for my fiance, for my step-kids, that's all that
[4:53 - 4:59] matters. Y'all can judge me, you can take what I say, flip it, you can take what I
[4:59 - 5:10] say out of context, you can attack me. Y'all can tear me down. Y'all can attack me day
[5:10 - 5:18] in and day out, y'all can fucking leave stupid messed up texts and phone calls and voicemails
[5:18 - 5:36] on my phone and my girl's phone. At the end of the day, what you guys say, whatever you
[5:36 - 5:51] guys say against me, it doesn't matter. Yeah, I might not have over a thousand subs. I may
[5:51 - 5:57] be starting over fresh from the ground up and that's fine with me. I will tear down
[5:57 - 6:00] and I will restart as many times as I have to to get to that spot to where I need to
[6:00 - 6:07] be, to be able to provide for my family, doing what I love to do, doing what I was born
[6:07 - 6:16] to do. Now, like I said, some of y'all may think I don't have any talent, some of you
[6:16 - 6:25] guys do. Some of you might like my music and whatever else I do and some of you might
[6:25 - 6:31] like it. But one thing I've learned that I've noticed a lot of negativity speaking through
[6:31 - 6:35] is something that's actually very true is the fact that you do have to have a thick
[6:35 - 6:43] skin in order to make it in this industry or any industry pertaining to social media.
[6:43 - 6:47] And I cannot say thanks to those haters I've grown that thick skin. I've gotten to where
[6:47 - 6:55] I wanted to be. Do I take offense to certain things like people like Schmecklecat attacking
[6:55 - 7:05] my personal life, such as my best friend Zach, who unfortunately lost his life in 2016?
[7:05 - 7:07] Do I have an issue with that? Absolutely.
[7:07 - 7:35] No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
[7:35 - 7:44] Like y'all are dumb, man. Like y'all don't realize that what I'm doing is legit. I'm
[7:44 - 7:50] trying to build my business from the ground up because I never had that shot at taking
[7:50 - 7:56] business classes when I was in high school. So a lot of y'all may have that jump on me.
[7:56 - 8:07] That is true, yes. But thanks to my wonderful, amazing fiance and my family, I've got that
[8:07 - 8:12] shot. I've been taking the classes to learn business, to learn marketing, to learn how
[8:12 - 8:33] to do stuff properly so I can make a good living at what I do.
[8:33 - 8:39] Now what y'all done, what you guys seem to don't get, like and I noticed this, y'all
[8:39 - 8:48] seem to not understand is that when I go off like that, sometimes it is legit. Like when
[8:48 - 8:56] y'all attacked my family personally, you guys attacked me as a person. You guys attacked
[8:56 - 9:10] my friends, attacked my family, attacked my kids. You guys attacked me in levels that
[9:10 - 9:18] I cannot imagine, that I never thought I would get attacked in, but at the end of the day
[9:18 - 9:27] it made me a stronger person. Now, even though y'all know I cannot stand Music Biz Marty,
[9:27 - 9:36] y'all know this already. You guys know I cannot stand him. I hate the guy with the passion.
[9:36 - 9:45] But one thing that he did say speaks very true. Being a stepfather isn't just about
[9:45 - 9:52] a state of mind. It's about being there for your kids. It's about doing what you can
[9:52 - 9:59] to provide for them and to show them love and care and to show them that you actually
[9:59 - 10:15] care about them. And that is true. Now why do you guys probably wondering why I didn't
[10:15 - 10:22] get to see my stepkids whenever Heather came up here? The reason for that is because Heather's
[10:22 - 10:33] ex, Jessica, made Heather leave the kids there. Jessica made Heather leave Heather's daughter
[10:33 - 10:46] there. When Heather tried to take her daughter out of there, Jessica threatened Heather with
[10:46 - 10:53] the police. And Heather didn't want to go through that. So she did the next best thing
[10:53 - 10:59] she could and came up here so that we can get the money to go back down there and to
[10:59 - 11:07] fight Jessica and to get her daughter back. But what all of y'all want us to do is set
[11:07 - 11:13] there and attack and attack and attack and that's not cool. Heather didn't have a choice
[11:13 - 11:21] in the matter. Her bitch had, her bitch when ex Jessica threatened her with the police.
[11:21 - 11:28] What else is she going to do? But I'll tell you the one thing I'm not going to do. I
[11:28 - 11:39] will not sit here and let some conniving bitch of an ex of my girls keep my stepdaughter
[11:39 - 11:48] from me or from my girl who is her birth mother. I will fight tooth and nail until
[11:48 - 11:57] the day I die for that little girl as well as for my son, for my stepson Elliot. I know
[11:57 - 12:00] what I have to do. I know what it takes to be a stepfather and I'm willing to step up
[12:00 - 12:05] and do that, which is what I'm trying to do through the shit that I'm doing now with
[12:05 - 12:12] the work that I'm doing. Through my artwork, my music, trying to get a record deal, trying
[12:12 - 12:17] to get some stuff published, trying to get my work out there and do an art gallery, trying
[12:17 - 12:22] to start my own business, trying to get stuff running for myself. I'm doing everything I
[12:22 - 12:29] got to do to get to where I want to be. Now I know what y'all think, "Oh well why don't
[12:29 - 12:35] you get a regular day job?" I can't get a day job because of the fact that Jessica put
[12:35 - 12:45] those charges on my ass and because of certain people hacking my computer and leaking out
[12:45 - 12:50] nudes of me, it's going to be very hard for me to get a job around because those nudes
[12:50 - 12:56] are now on the internet. So it's going to be very difficult for me to get a regular
[12:56 - 13:05] job so I'm making do with what I got, with what I know how to do. And if any one of
[13:05 - 13:11] y'all want to challenge that, if any one of you wants to challenge me on that shit, be
[13:11 - 13:21] my guest because at the end of the day you will lose. Now I'm not going to sit there
[13:21 - 13:28] and say that I'm a saint. I'm no saint. I've done wrong stuff in my past. I've done fucked
[13:28 - 13:43] up shit in the past, yeah, but I've learned from all that. I'm above that. From the moment
[13:43 - 13:49] I wake up to the time I go to sleep at night, I am fighting. I am doing whatever I have
[13:49 - 13:56] to do to get that money to stay on the grind, to do what I've got to do, to get not only
[13:56 - 14:04] my daughter back but to provide for my family, for my step-kids, for my step-son and my step-daughter,
[14:04 - 14:13] to be able to be a family with them again. So Prison Mike, I say this to you my dude,
[14:13 - 14:22] yeah those step-kids may not be mine by blood but they are mine by choice. I see those kids
[14:22 - 14:25] as my own flesh and blood and you can sit there and you can judge me all you fucking
[14:25 - 14:35] want dude. But at the end of the day, what matters most to me isn't my career. What
[14:35 - 14:42] matters most to me is providing for my family in any way that I can, whether it be through
[14:42 - 14:47] odd jobs, whether it be through making money off of my works, whether it's starting on
[14:47 - 14:53] my own business, it don't matter. However I provide for my family, that's all that
[14:53 - 15:01] matters. As long as I'm providing for them, that's what matters most. Now, on another
[15:01 - 15:07] note, I did say that I was taking a break from social media and went out which I am.
[15:07 - 15:10] As far as live streaming goes, I'm still going to upload, I'm still going to do my
[15:10 - 15:15] music, I'm still going to do my shit. That's not going to change. I'm staying away from
[15:15 - 15:21] the live streaming side of things for a while as far as starting live streams on my channel.
[15:21 - 15:27] Now yes, I will jump on live streams on my fiancee, I will jump on live streams with
[15:27 - 15:33] friends yes. But as far as starting on my own live streams, I'm not going to be doing
[15:33 - 15:44] that for a good while. Now, a lot of you may sit there and judge me on whatever, blah blah
[15:44 - 15:49] blah blah, and that's fine. You can judge me about not having a job, you can judge
[15:49 - 15:54] me about how I don't have any money, how I'm poor, how I'm broke, and this and that,
[15:54 - 16:03] whatever. But I guarantee you this, no matter what it takes, I will do whatever I have
[16:03 - 16:12] to do to provide for my family, whether it be getting an odd job or whether it be me
[16:12 - 16:26] actually making a career and actually making a very good living out of what I love. And
[16:26 - 16:33] I will not stop and I will not rest until I'm able to provide for my family in any way
[16:33 - 16:45] that I can. So all y'all haters I want to hate, y'all can fuck off. But to those that
[16:45 - 16:52] do support and do show love from what I'm trying to do, I thank you guys 110% you guys
[16:52 - 16:59] are awesome. And to anybody else out there that wants to judge me, y'all better look
[16:59 - 17:08] out because I'm running right over you motherfuckers and I'm not stopping. I don't give a fuck
[17:08 - 17:13] what it takes to provide for my family. I will do whatever I have to do. I will fight
[17:13 - 17:19] whoever I have to fight. I will tear down and demolish and destroy whoever I have to
[17:19 - 17:23] to get to where I got to be, to make that money so that my family never has to struggle
[17:23 - 17:30] again. So that my children can have a bright and healthy future. So that my moms never
[17:30 - 17:36] has to work again. So that my family never has to worry again. And I don't care what
[17:36 - 17:43] it fucking takes, I will do whatever I have to to provide, to do what I got to do to
[17:43 - 17:51] make that goal happen. And I will not rest and I will not stop until that day comes.
[17:51 - 17:55] And even then when that day comes, I will still continue to fight. I will still continue
[17:55 - 18:04] to push. So y'all motherfuckers, like the real miss Jamie Nicole, like Schmecklecat,
[18:04 - 18:16] like music biz Marty, like the bend over bitches, like the Juggernotti, like Big Will,
[18:16 - 18:23] like static beats and all the people from IP2, I don't give a fuck what you think of
[18:23 - 18:30] me. At the end of the day, y'all motherfuckers can go to hell. I'm doing me. And I'm doing
[18:30 - 18:36] what I have to do to provide. So all y'all motherfuckers that hate can fuck off bitches.
[18:36 - 18:45] Because I'm doing what I have to do for my family. And I'm not letting nobody get my
[18:45 - 18:51] way or stop me. And if you don't believe me, try me.