2017-2-21 Fight racism concert Part 2 (Facebook)

[0:00 - 0:05] Hey, what's up guys? Sorry about that. I don't know what happened my connection cup for whatever reason
[0:05 - 0:08] But this next song
[0:08 - 0:11] It's for all of you out there who do get judged
[0:11 - 0:16] This song is to help prove to you to help get you guys amped up
[0:16 - 0:21] That even if you don't graduate high school, you can just still do something with your life
[0:21 - 0:26] Look at me. I'm a living fucking example. I'm living proof of that
[0:28 - 0:33] Every day I make shit happen every fucking day. I push towards my dreams
[0:33 - 0:37] Every day, even though I didn't graduate high school
[0:37 - 0:40] That don't mean shit to me anymore
[0:40 - 0:53] And don't be wrong. I'm not saying you shouldn't graduate. I'm not saying that at all
[0:53 - 0:57] But I'm saying that if you get into the same situation I was in
[0:58 - 1:00] and you
[1:00 - 1:06] All right guys, I'm gonna dick I am going ah
[1:06 - 1:18] All right, don't you? Hey guys, I want to cut it right here and do a video for you guys I
[1:18 - 1:21] will be uploading it so I
[1:21 - 1:25] Do apologize for not being able to do the live stream. My connection is really shitty today
[1:25 - 1:27] I don't know why
[1:27 - 1:34] But if I did send you the original concert, I need you guys to share that shit
[1:34 - 1:44] So hold on hold on hold on wait wait wait hold on I attract my previous day when we might be able to do something here
[1:44 - 1:55] Crap no more. All right guys, I hate to do this to you, but I'm gonna have to cut it right here
[1:55 - 2:01] But before I do I want to share something with you guys
[2:01 - 2:03] um
[2:03 - 2:09] A lot of you might not know me and stuff like you guys know me by my music by now
[2:09 - 2:17] There's something that not everybody knows about me
[2:17 - 2:22] And that is my true story
[2:23 - 2:27] About myself and about how I am the way I am
[2:27 - 2:32] You know not very many know my backstory
[2:32 - 2:39] And this is completely a hundred percent true everything I'm about to tell you guys is very real and very true
[2:39 - 2:45] When I was born I
[2:45 - 2:50] Was born two pounds twelve ounces or a pound and twelve ounces. I
[2:52 - 2:54] Was like right in between that
[2:54 - 2:57] wait
[2:57 - 2:59] Well, I
[2:59 - 3:04] Was supposed to die as a baby I was supposed to die
[3:04 - 3:10] Every doctor in that hospital except for one nurse who is now my godmother
[3:10 - 3:13] Said I was supposed to die
[3:13 - 3:18] But her along with my now mom
[3:19 - 3:22] We're the only ones that ever believed I could
[3:22 - 3:35] And the reason why I say my now mom is because my mom by birth is my grandmother by birth
[3:35 - 3:38] But my biological father
[3:38 - 3:45] Went to jail the day I was born and got out when I think I was like 18 or 20
[3:45 - 3:48] somewhere in there but
[3:49 - 3:54] And granted he's still in jail because he went back in for dumb shit, but
[3:54 - 3:58] You know
[3:58 - 4:03] He went to jail when I was born and my biological mother had medical issues
[4:03 - 4:10] To the points where she couldn't take care of me, and it wasn't her fault. They were legit medical
[4:10 - 4:13] disability issues
[4:13 - 4:15] That could not be stopped or helped
[4:17 - 4:19] Well, I
[4:19 - 4:25] Also found out that when I was born I was born with one kidney and one and a half lungs
[4:25 - 4:31] Amongst other problems that we are still to this day fighting to get confirmed
[4:31 - 4:36] Like I do have
[4:36 - 4:38] unconfirmed
[4:38 - 4:41] Williams syndrome it's unconfirmed and the reason why I say
[4:41 - 4:46] Unconfirmed is because of the fact that we know I have it
[4:47 - 4:50] We're just doing the testing to get that proven
[4:50 - 4:57] We're getting the genetics done to show it that I do have these issues
[4:57 - 5:06] And you know growing up my dad well my adoptive dad who I no longer speak to
[5:06 - 5:08] Because it became an alcoholic
[5:08 - 5:11] He was in the military
[5:12 - 5:16] He was 82nd Airborne Division Army paratroopers staff sergeant
[5:16 - 5:20] You know that whole deal and we had moved around a lot
[5:20 - 5:28] So I mean you know growing up you know I never really stayed in one place for too long like every couple months
[5:28 - 5:33] Every two six months. We would constantly move and be moving around
[5:33 - 5:40] Well we went from that
[5:41 - 5:46] Life because you know him and my mom I had you know split up when I was little
[5:46 - 5:51] You know
[5:51 - 5:57] That's split when I was a little kid. I think I was like maybe six seven maybe nine at the time
[5:57 - 5:59] I don't remember how old I was
[5:59 - 6:03] But they had split me and my mom stayed out west in Washington State
[6:05 - 6:12] Because see I was originally born in Alaska, and then I was born in Anchorage, Alaska, so I was born in a cold state
[6:12 - 6:14] I was born in the cold motherfucker which
[6:14 - 6:21] It sucks because even to this day. I still can't stand snow or cold weather. Well. I can stay in the snow
[6:21 - 6:22] I just hate the cold
[6:22 - 6:24] My body just cannot handle it
[6:24 - 6:30] It just goes right through me like that and literally freezes my body from the inside out
[6:30 - 6:33] Which it sucks
[6:34 - 6:35] That's
[6:35 - 6:43] Why if you ever if you're ever in the Akron area is particularly down near Kenmore boulevard
[6:43 - 6:50] Or by someone like you you see me walking around this big-ass heavy jockey. You know why?
[6:50 - 6:55] Because the stub just goes right through me like I'm a fucking twig it sucks
[6:55 - 6:59] but
[6:59 - 7:01] You know
[7:01 - 7:03] We have moved from base to base one of them being
[7:03 - 7:09] Louisiana New York stuff like that
[7:09 - 7:20] Later after we were all done moving and they had split me and mom had found out that he had moved to Florida
[7:20 - 7:22] When I was a kid
[7:22 - 7:24] Say no we went down there
[7:24 - 7:26] and you know
[7:26 - 7:30] We had gotten back in touch with them
[7:31 - 7:35] And you know, it was good. You know having my dad back in my life and everything
[7:35 - 7:39] So it was really good a good deal
[7:39 - 7:46] And you know back in 2004 when we were living there I
[7:46 - 7:52] Was going to Roosevelt Academy and would go out well McLaughlin Middle School then Roosevelt Academy
[7:52 - 7:57] Which if you guys have been paying attention to my YouTube channel
[7:57 - 8:03] I'm pretty sure you know what's going on by now for those of you that actually have me on your main on my main account
[8:03 - 8:06] you guys might know what's going on with that, but
[8:06 - 8:10] Anyways, you know
[8:10 - 8:19] We had moved down there 2004 hurricane Charlie and all those hit we went through hurricane Charlie and
[8:23 - 8:27] Actually now we're like no more we're done. We're not doing any more hurricanes
[8:27 - 8:34] So me my mom and my older brother who had moved down there back in 2001 2002
[8:34 - 8:42] He was actually very sick so he moved in with me and my mom
[8:42 - 8:49] Florida kicked me off of SSI because they said I didn't qualify when I do because of my medical problems
[8:51 - 8:55] Well due to the hurricanes we had moved and we were planning on
[8:55 - 8:59] Going up to Washington State, but we wound up going to
[8:59 - 9:02] Maryland
[9:02 - 9:08] Where I attended lands down middle school in Baltimore, Maryland and we stayed at the Beltway Motel
[9:08 - 9:10] so you guys are over in Baltimore and
[9:10 - 9:17] You know you're at the Beltway Motel. That's where we lived for like about a year year and a half
[9:17 - 9:22] So it was pretty cool. I mean you know we stayed in a motel. I had fun
[9:22 - 9:27] It was a good time like I loved it. I was really good friends with the staff there
[9:27 - 9:31] That's some of my best friends from there actually
[9:31 - 9:35] Well
[9:35 - 9:40] You know after the hurricanes had passed we had gone down there to get the rest of our stuff and move
[9:40 - 9:43] out to Washington State
[9:43 - 9:46] but my older sister Dale and had
[9:47 - 9:49] You know gotten a hold of us and said hey, you know
[9:49 - 9:57] Your niece's nephew Troy is being born or your niece's son Troy is being born
[9:57 - 10:01] So we're on guard. You know we'll start through on the way up and see him and whatnot
[10:01 - 10:06] And ever since you know we pretty much got stuck here. We got attached to the place
[10:06 - 10:11] And we lived out of when we first moved here we lived
[10:11 - 10:15] Out of my mom's GMC Jimmy for like
[10:16 - 10:19] the first two years the first
[10:19 - 10:23] Two to three years and it was hard like
[10:23 - 10:29] It was really hard, but it was fun though. I mean we got to travel around see some cool sights
[10:29 - 10:38] As a matter of fact on one of the nights we had actually seen the world's first planetary eclipse
[10:38 - 10:41] Where you can actually see?
[10:41 - 10:44] the planet
[10:44 - 10:46] like surface
[10:46 - 10:53] World like you can actually see the surface like it was crazy. I was just like I was in all great
[10:53 - 10:58] I'm trying to think what planet it was. I think it was either Mars or
[10:58 - 11:07] Venus or something like that. It was one of the plans where it was like super super close and
[11:07 - 11:11] That's right. I'll show you guys an example
[11:11 - 11:15] (typing)
[11:15 - 12:08] (keyboard clacking)
[12:08 - 12:13] Let's see if I can find it here for you guys.
[12:13 - 12:16] It was back in 2007.
[12:17 - 13:18] (keyboard clacking)
[13:18 - 13:27] Let me show you guys what we actually saw.
[13:27 - 13:31] (keyboard clacking)
[13:31 - 13:41] My game was really fucking weird.
[13:42 - 13:45] (keyboard clacking)
[13:45 - 13:52] Here is what we got to see on that day.
[13:52 - 13:55] This is what we saw that night.
[13:55 - 14:04] It was like that, but we were standing on the ground
[14:04 - 14:06] and it was pitch black.
[14:06 - 14:08] We saw this.
[14:10 - 14:14] We saw Saturn and even a couple other planets.
[14:14 - 14:16] It was really weird.
[14:16 - 14:20] It's one of those things where you're scared,
[14:20 - 14:24] you're freaked out, but at the same time you're in awe.
[14:24 - 14:28] You're just like, "Wow, this is beautiful."
[14:28 - 14:31] It was definitely a sight to see.
[14:31 - 14:39] It was definitely something that we had fun seeing.
[14:39 - 14:42] It's just something that we didn't get any pictures of
[14:42 - 14:45] due to the fact I did not have a phone at the time.
[14:45 - 14:48] We did not have any cameras or anything.
[14:48 - 14:53] Just looking back at that now,
[14:53 - 14:56] it was still very incredible to be able to see
[14:56 - 15:01] the surface of a planet that's not Earth.
[15:01 - 15:04] It was incredible.
[15:07 - 15:09] At one point, I was just like,
[15:09 - 15:12] "Dude, is this thing going to crash into us or what?"
[15:12 - 15:15] Because of how close it was.
[15:15 - 15:17] It was super close.
[15:17 - 15:23] You almost felt like that planet was going to hit the Earth.
[15:23 - 15:25] It was crazy.
[15:25 - 15:29] We went through all of that
[15:29 - 15:32] and stayed in the journey for several years.
[15:32 - 15:35] Then we met up with our now landlady,
[15:35 - 15:39] who moved us into the house we're now in.
[15:39 - 15:46] Before that, we were actually about two years in,
[15:46 - 15:49] two to three years in, almost three and a half years into
[15:49 - 15:51] staying in the journey.
[15:51 - 15:54] We had moved in with my older sister and her family.
[15:54 - 15:57] Then we wound up moving out because we had found a place,
[15:57 - 15:59] which is where we're at now.
[16:02 - 16:06] When I got here, I went to North High School.
[16:06 - 16:09] Great school, amazing high school.
[16:09 - 16:10] I love it.
[16:10 - 16:13] I still consider North High School my home high school.
[16:13 - 16:15] Always have, always will.
[16:15 - 16:22] Then from there, I went to Garfield.
[16:22 - 16:25] Then from Garfield High School, I went to Akron Digital,
[16:25 - 16:27] which I hate Akron Digital.
[16:27 - 16:28] It was an online school.
[16:28 - 16:30] I did not like it.
[16:30 - 16:32] Because it was too complicated.
[16:32 - 16:37] Then from there, I went to East for my junior and senior year.
[16:37 - 16:41] Well, you know, my junior and senior...
[16:41 - 16:43] Well, sorry about that.
[16:43 - 16:46] Not the word though, modem.
[16:46 - 16:49] But, you know, during my senior year,
[16:49 - 16:55] it was literally the last day before graduation.
[16:55 - 16:58] I had turned in all my senior dues.
[16:58 - 17:00] You know, I had all the credits.
[17:00 - 17:02] I had all the grades.
[17:02 - 17:05] And then, you know, I go up to the principal
[17:05 - 17:07] because they had called me up there to the office.
[17:07 - 17:10] I figured, you know, all right, I'm going up there to,
[17:10 - 17:14] you know, pick up my yearbook, my cap and gown,
[17:14 - 17:17] everything like that.
[17:17 - 17:25] But I get this talk with her that I can't graduate high school
[17:25 - 17:30] because I supposedly don't have all my credits when I did.
[17:30 - 17:34] I showed her the paper and everything.
[17:34 - 17:37] I showed her everything from my teachers,
[17:37 - 17:42] the certificate I had gotten for most improved student of the year for
[17:42 - 17:45] within that few month time span.
[17:45 - 17:50] Like I literally went from doing Ds, Cs and Fs
[17:50 - 17:54] to literally As and Bs like that.
[17:54 - 17:56] Just so I can graduate.
[17:56 - 18:00] I had really picked up the pace and really improved.
[18:00 - 18:07] Well, she sat right there and told me that we're not going to let you graduate
[18:07 - 18:13] or walk the stage because you do not have the credits when I know damn well I did.
[18:13 - 18:16] And we fought it for years.
[18:16 - 18:19] So, like, you know, I basically said, "Screw you."
[18:19 - 18:28] I left the school and I've been, like, you know, I really dove into music
[18:28 - 18:32] because, you know, I felt like music was an outlet for me.
[18:32 - 18:36] I mean, music's always been a major outlet in my life
[18:36 - 18:41] because I've been able to, you know, express myself through that,
[18:41 - 18:43] through my artwork.
[18:43 - 18:47] If you guys go to my timeline, I do have a new thing up.
[18:47 - 18:49] I do have some new artwork up.
[18:49 - 18:56] So, a 3D model I had done last night just out of pure boredom.
[18:56 - 19:03] So, that's pretty much my entire story of my life
[19:03 - 19:07] and how I got to where I'm at now.
[19:07 - 19:11] And the reason why I found out my head principal was racist
[19:11 - 19:17] was because a very good friend of mine who I went to school with
[19:17 - 19:22] when I was going to Roosevelt Academy in Polk County, Florida,
[19:22 - 19:27] she even said that, you know, "Hey, the head principal out there is racist.
[19:27 - 19:30] Her family is very, very racist."
[19:30 - 19:34] She's second generation head principal at that school.
[19:34 - 19:39] Her father was first generation.
[19:39 - 19:46] Well, for the 2000 era, for the millennium era.
[19:46 - 19:52] Well, you know, it's been hard.
[19:52 - 19:56] Like, because of the fact that I can't graduate,
[19:56 - 19:59] there are very few job opportunities.
[19:59 - 20:03] I wasn't able to go to college and whatnot
[20:03 - 20:14] because, like, I was going to school to get into music.
[20:14 - 20:19] I was actually going to go to Musicians Institute out in California.
[20:19 - 20:23] I had put in my application. They had accepted me.
[20:23 - 20:29] I had just gotten my acceptance letter that day when they called me up.
[20:29 - 20:34] And it's sad because that following day, after I had left,
[20:34 - 20:40] I had to call them and explain to them, "Hey, I cannot come there.
[20:40 - 20:52] I cannot attend Musicians Institute because I wasn't able to graduate."
[20:52 - 21:01] And, you know, this is a very serious issue for a lot of people, not just myself.
[21:01 - 21:05] Like, this is a very serious issue that's going on around the world.
[21:05 - 21:09] Like, it's not only happened to me, it's happened to many other students,
[21:09 - 21:12] and it's continuing to happen.
[21:12 - 21:17] This racism is ruining a lot of opportunities for kids and students
[21:17 - 21:21] that have a bright future ahead of them.
[21:21 - 21:27] Because, believe it or not, when I had gotten signed up for Musicians Institute,
[21:27 - 21:31] they had asked me, like, you know, "What else do you do?"
[21:31 - 21:34] Like, they asked me, like, "Do you do anything in particular?
[21:34 - 21:42] Do you speak any particular languages that may help out in the long run for you?"
[21:42 - 21:48] And I told them, I was like, "Yes, I do art because, you know, art runs in my family.
[21:48 - 21:55] My sister and my niece draw, I draw. Half my family draws."
[21:55 - 21:59] So, like, you know, that's how I got into it.
[21:59 - 22:04] Well, then they also asked her, like, "Well, what other languages do you speak?"
[22:04 - 22:06] Besides, you know, obviously English.
[22:06 - 22:09] And actually I told them that, yes, you know,
[22:09 - 22:16] I did study Japanese when I was in high school because I'm very big on, you know,
[22:16 - 22:19] the Japanese culture, the language.
[22:19 - 22:24] As a matter of fact, I actually have friends that live in Japan.
[22:24 - 22:28] So, like, you know, I'm able to talk to them very fluently.
[22:28 - 22:32] They teach me Japanese a little bit at a time.
[22:32 - 22:35] And, you know, I help teach them English.
[22:35 - 22:39] And, you know, we still remain great friends to this very day.
[22:39 - 22:42] Like, they're always sending me really cool pictures of Japan.
[22:42 - 22:48] And then one night I'm always sending them really cool pictures that I take from here in the U.S.
[22:48 - 22:53] and places that I've visited.
[22:53 - 22:58] But they also asked, you know, they're like, "OK, besides that, what other languages do you speak?"
[22:58 - 23:02] And I told them, you know, I do speak American Sign Language
[23:02 - 23:05] because my grandparents were deaf.
[23:05 - 23:09] They could not hear or speak.
[23:09 - 23:16] So, you know, I learned sign language from them growing up as a kid.
[23:16 - 23:18] Well, they were like, you know, like, "This is really good.
[23:18 - 23:24] You know, like, you're one of the few students who can actually do this."
[23:24 - 23:28] And so, you know, I was excited.
[23:28 - 23:30] I had everything going for me.
[23:30 - 23:37] And when I mean everything, I mean everything going for me.
[23:37 - 23:47] You know, I had my girlfriend, Cynthia, who I had dated literally since my freshman year of high school at North.
[23:47 - 23:53] And, you know, we transferred schools together, like, all the way up through East.
[23:53 - 23:55] And, you know, I had dated her.
[23:55 - 23:58] It was really fun, you know.
[23:58 - 24:09] But sadly, shortly after I had left East High School, I found out that when we had just moved in,
[24:09 - 24:20] her ex-boyfriend Josh had offered her a ride home, not knowing that he was drunk as fuck.
[24:20 - 24:29] You know, she had said, hey, you know, like, she had figured out he was drunk by the smell of his breath,
[24:29 - 24:33] because he could really smell it on him once you got in the car.
[24:33 - 24:38] Well, she had said, stop, you know, let me drive, let me drive.
[24:38 - 24:41] Like, you know, I want to be able to drive myself home.
[24:41 - 24:44] And then, you know, you could stay at my house, crash on the couch,
[24:44 - 24:47] and then, you know, go back home in the morning when you're sober.
[24:47 - 24:52] Well, he was like, oh, no, you know, I'm not drunk, I'm fine, blah, blah, blah.
[24:52 - 24:57] Well, they wound up getting into a car accident that killed her.
[24:57 - 25:02] He decided to voice through a red light, smash it into a semi,
[25:02 - 25:11] which sent her through the windshield, killing her instantly.
[25:11 - 25:15] And the sad thing is, I did not know it, but at the time,
[25:15 - 25:18] I was right down the road from where it happened.
[25:18 - 25:21] And I didn't know until the next day when I got ahold of her brother,
[25:21 - 25:25] who we went to the high school with, I was like, dude, like, what's going on?
[25:25 - 25:30] Like, I just see, like, a bunch of firetrucks go by,
[25:30 - 25:35] and that's when he told me that she had died, there had been a car accident.
[25:35 - 25:40] So, you know, that was a very heavy burden for me, and it still is at times, you know.
[25:40 - 25:45] She was, like, you know, my first, you know, high school sweetheart.
[25:45 - 25:50] She was my first love.
[25:50 - 25:56] And when I've had other girls since then, it's been hard.
[25:56 - 26:02] But, you know, it's been very hard for me, you know.
[26:02 - 26:06] Because, you know, like, there's always going to be that one person that, you know,
[26:06 - 26:11] you compare your relationships to.
[26:11 - 26:14] You know, you set that certain standard of, okay,
[26:14 - 26:20] this is what I want the rest of these people to add up to.
[26:20 - 26:23] So, I knew it was a bit difficult at first.
[26:23 - 26:26] It really was, I'll admit that.
[26:26 - 26:31] And it still is at times.
[26:31 - 26:35] Like, there are times where, you know, I do still think about her
[26:35 - 26:41] and about the relationship we had.
[26:41 - 26:43] And so, I mean, it's been a hard road.
[26:43 - 26:50] I've dated girls for, since then, actually.
[26:50 - 26:55] Like, I had stopped dating for quite some time after that.
[26:55 - 27:04] Until, you know, I had, like, I want to say about 2012
[27:04 - 27:08] is when I started back up again.
[27:08 - 27:12] Well, 2012, 2013.
[27:12 - 27:16] And then first relationship with that went pretty bad, pretty fast.
[27:16 - 27:22] Because my now ex Heather decided to cheat on me by sending naked pictures
[27:22 - 27:27] to a guy in some other state that she doesn't even know.
[27:27 - 27:29] And it was all more than one occasion, you know.
[27:29 - 27:34] And I continued to forgive her and be like, hey, you know, like, it's okay.
[27:34 - 27:37] You know, you just got to move past this.
[27:37 - 27:45] And, you know, like, it became so bad.
[27:45 - 27:47] I know, I took that back before Heather.
[27:47 - 27:52] I was with this girl named Bridget that didn't work out too well.
[27:52 - 27:55] And then I found out from my little sister.
[27:55 - 27:58] Well, she's not really my little sister, but she's like my best friend.
[27:58 - 28:06] family. Melissa that Bridget was talking shit so you know I cut the connection
[28:06 - 28:14] with her cuz she was talking shit about my little sister's miscarriage. She was
[28:14 - 28:19] talking about the miscarriage shame how you know it was her fault and blah blah blah blah
[28:19 - 28:27] and really it wasn't. It was Melissa's ex Nathan that had caused it so I was like
[28:27 - 28:31] you know whatever you know fuck you we're done and then that's when I got
[28:31 - 28:37] with Heather who like I told you guys you know she cheated on me many a times
[28:37 - 28:43] I forgave her many a times out of the kindness of my heart because you know
[28:43 - 28:49] I'm a nice guy I'm like I'm a guy that might not look the best in the world but
[28:49 - 28:55] I've got the biggest heart that you know you could ever imagine like you
[28:55 - 29:00] could do me like super super wrong and at first you know like yeah I will be
[29:00 - 29:05] very mad and very pissed off and upset but in the end you know I'm still
[29:05 - 29:15] willing to forgive and forget and just move on from that. Well that continued
[29:15 - 29:28] up until about 2014 well 2015 actually July of 2015 is when she had gone back
[29:28 - 29:35] home cuz we had sent her home and I said fuck you I want my life back I'm tired of
[29:35 - 29:45] the cheating I'm tired of the hurt. So you know I sent her back home and then
[29:45 - 29:57] you know not even yeah it was about a year after I had met my now ex Rebecca
[29:59 - 30:06] and that was literally an abusive abusive relationship right from the
[30:06 - 30:10] start it was mentally abusive because one day she'd be like hey you know like
[30:10 - 30:15] what's going on blah blah I love you and this and that and then next minute she'd turn
[30:15 - 30:18] right around and be like hey like you know let's just be friends and blah blah blah
[30:18 - 30:27] and that continued on until about you know like it continued on from like
[30:27 - 30:43] August until like yeah that went off in August of 2015 to about January and then
[30:43 - 30:52] I had gotten with my now ex Christina who I had also you know dated for a while
[30:52 - 30:57] outside of high school I didn't know that she had liked me since high school
[30:57 - 31:03] until she had told me well you know we tried dating and this is something that
[31:03 - 31:11] just it devastated me entirely. My best friend Eric because me and her went to
[31:11 - 31:17] her birthday party we had dated since August of last year and you know had
[31:17 - 31:29] split up recently well not recently but like about August of last year. Well I
[31:29 - 31:33] didn't know about her family drinks and she wanted to be the first out of her
[31:33 - 31:38] family to break that chain on her birthday to you know not drinking she
[31:38 - 31:43] wanted to be like me she didn't want to drink she didn't want to smoke or do
[31:43 - 31:47] any of that stuff she wanted to be clean she wanted to be the first in her
[31:47 - 31:56] family to break that cycle well you know we were at her grandparents house
[31:56 - 32:00] everything was all good we were hanging out and whatnot you know I got along
[32:00 - 32:05] with her family great her nephews her little brother like they all loved me
[32:05 - 32:12] to death and even my mom loved her like my mom was like super ecstatic loved her
[32:12 - 32:20] to death she had a job I was finally getting somewhere with my work until my
[32:20 - 32:31] now ex friend well not really a friend but more of a co-worker had spurred me
[32:31 - 32:41] over so I kind of lost the job doing game work with him well you know things
[32:41 - 32:45] went on like that for a while you know like we were doing really good and then
[32:45 - 32:53] I'd introduced her to my best friend for many years Eric and you know we were at
[32:53 - 32:58] the bowling alley for her birthday party so we're like all right you know cool
[32:58 - 33:02] let's go down there have fun for your 21st birthday yeah do a little bowling
[33:02 - 33:10] and whatnot we get there her family asked her what she wants to drink well
[33:10 - 33:14] you know she was like you know I want soda or whatever and then you know her
[33:14 - 33:24] cousin's side to be a real bitch and swap the soda for an alcoholic beverage
[33:24 - 33:28] and right after that like you know I went down her cousin I was like what the
[33:28 - 33:33] fuck are you doing like she said she doesn't want to drink and she just kind
[33:33 - 33:41] of was like you know fuck you fuck your morals that type of shit well I had
[33:41 - 33:48] gone to Christina about it I was like did you know your cousin or your sister
[33:48 - 33:57] or whoever it was a time forget who had swapped your Pepsi out for an alcoholic
[33:57 - 34:03] drink that you just sip on throughout the night and she was like what I was
[34:03 - 34:09] like yeah like she had swapped it out and they would not let her re-swap it
[34:09 - 34:14] for whatever reason and my guess is because her family member that I had
[34:14 - 34:19] done that had you know spent a lot of money so they wouldn't let her you know
[34:19 - 34:24] swap it out but you know I can understand anyway actually once you buy
[34:24 - 34:28] something really and once you take a drink off but you know why would you
[34:28 - 34:40] swap out that drink but we were there hanging out and you know when I talked
[34:40 - 34:44] through a lot I was like you know if you're gonna be drinking that then you
[34:44 - 34:49] know I'm just gonna go home because you know how I feel about that like you
[34:49 - 34:54] know that because of my dad drinking me and him don't have a relationship and I
[34:54 - 35:01] don't want that to happen between us because her family is very heavy on
[35:01 - 35:12] drinking and you know we had gotten into a fight about it and stuff like and I
[35:12 - 35:16] blew up like crazy I was like look if you're gonna do this shit then I'm just
[35:16 - 35:21] gonna go home I'm done I'm out of here cuz I'm not just gonna sit here and
[35:21 - 35:24] watch you drink your life away with your family pressuring you like that I'm
[35:24 - 35:30] not doing it and she understood like you know she was very upset and was
[35:30 - 35:38] crying you know she understood that I didn't want to be around that and then
[35:38 - 35:45] you know I had came home the next day rolled around I had called her up I was
[35:45 - 35:50] like hey what's going on you know and then her family had forced us to split
[35:50 - 35:59] which really sucked because they gave her two options they gave her the
[35:59 - 36:04] option to either split up with me or lose a place to stay and she couldn't
[36:04 - 36:10] afford to lose a place to stay so she wound up splitting up with me and
[36:10 - 36:18] fucked up her is in all of that my best friend Erica was like you know like yes
[36:18 - 36:22] I do like her but out of respect for you I won't date her and blah blah blah
[36:22 - 36:30] well long story short about a couple weeks after I come to find out they're
[36:30 - 36:40] now dating and they've been they've been dating ever since and it's like what the
[36:40 - 36:47] fuck like why would you stab me in the back like that so me and him are no
[36:47 - 36:50] longer friends
[36:52 - 37:01] it's sad too because I treated him like family and you know the one problem that
[37:01 - 37:07] I even face now is the fact that no girl wants to be with me because of the fact
[37:07 - 37:12] that obviously I do look a little bit different than your normal person but
[37:12 - 37:16] that's not my fault they also don't want to deal with me because of the
[37:16 - 37:25] fact that yes my mom does have a bad back she has carpal tunnel like she does
[37:25 - 37:32] have very weak hips so she's not able to do a lot so I'm really the only one
[37:32 - 37:38] that can be here to help her out and a lot of people don't understand that you
[37:38 - 37:43] know like you know people don't get that I'm man enough to you know take
[37:43 - 37:56] care of my family and be there for my family so yeah all right my older
[37:56 - 38:00] brother did help out a lot when he cut until he had gotten cancer or lung
[38:00 - 38:09] cancer back in 2015 and had passed away on February 3rd of that year which was
[38:09 - 38:13] sad cuz his birthday was on 23rd and just had his birthday on January 23rd
[38:13 - 38:21] and unfortunately had passed on February 3rd so it was pretty hard I watched him
[38:21 - 38:27] for a year and a half battling and we didn't know what it was until it was too
[38:27 - 38:29] late
[38:38 - 38:45] so I mean you know I'm not where I'm at now I am single not seeing anybody one
[38:45 - 38:50] thing that I do get asked a lot though musically like music wise and even 3d
[38:50 - 38:55] design wise and art wise you know why am I not signed to a label or why am I
[38:55 - 39:01] not getting paid for what I do and the answer to that is very quite simple is
[39:01 - 39:08] because I don't have money I can't work because of you know obvious medical
[39:08 - 39:17] issues and right back here's a prime example for you guys here is a prime
[39:17 - 39:26] example see I can stretch this arm out all the way right you see right here
[39:26 - 39:32] stretches out all the way well with this arm I can't see that's not all the way
[39:32 - 39:39] stretched out it's tear duct away and I don't know if you guys can see it but
[39:39 - 39:49] that lump right there is why and that's something that's you know genetically
[39:49 - 39:58] done I can't do anything about that say no I do what I did well you know and
[39:58 - 40:04] the reason why like I said I can't get anywhere with my subs because I don't
[40:04 - 40:09] have money like I don't have money I couldn't go to school for the classes
[40:09 - 40:15] so everything I do now I am self-taught in doing everything from music which I
[40:15 - 40:23] started back in 2010 I am self-taught in that I'm self-taught in 3d modeling
[40:23 - 40:28] artwork you name it like I am self-taught in everything including
[40:28 - 40:33] voice out and I learned how to do some pretty cool voiceover styles and whatnot
[40:33 - 40:40] so like you know I can do different voices throwing video games and whatnot
[40:40 - 40:45] so and that's a major reason why I can't get anywhere because all these
[40:45 - 40:52] people see is money signs they don't take the person for their talent they
[40:52 - 40:57] just want somebody who has money and they don't give a fuck about talent
[40:57 - 41:02] they really don't they do not give two shits about talent anymore and that's
[41:02 - 41:14] sad I'm like if you guys look up shadow link and go into the pages I was
[41:14 - 41:20] right about what I'll do is I'll post that link in my profile on my timeline
[41:20 - 41:25] so you guys can check that out but no label wants me because I don't have
[41:25 - 41:31] money the last level that wanted me wanted $400 fucking dollars just
[41:31 - 41:38] assignment the lowest number I've had is 50 and they wanted that monthly instead
[41:38 - 41:44] of one time and I turned them down because of that I was like no if you're
[41:44 - 41:48] going to sign me it's going to be for free it's going to be on my terms you
[41:48 - 41:53] are going to help me get developed you're gonna help development or I'm
[41:53 - 41:58] not doing it at all and so you know they turn me down because I didn't have the
[41:58 - 42:04] money they did say you know I did have a lot of talent but it's sad I don't
[42:04 - 42:13] have the money and that's just how it is and it's sad it really is sad at the
[42:13 - 42:18] fact that any company out there anymore doesn't want anything to do with those
[42:18 - 42:27] of us that are self-taught and professional and what we do and that's
[42:27 - 42:32] why in a way if I'm as like any of you out there know any labels or video game
[42:32 - 42:38] companies looking for a music artist a voice actor or somebody that can do a
[42:38 - 42:45] 3d model designing you know let me know like let me know right away because I am
[42:45 - 42:52] looking for work in any of those three areas it don't matter which and if you
[42:52 - 42:56] guys want a sample of my voiceovers you know I mean now I can send you some not
[42:56 - 43:03] a problem if you guys want samples of my artwork like I said I will be posting
[43:03 - 43:11] my fan page on my timeline but with that being said you know I do apologize for
[43:11 - 43:15] signing up like I was rambling but yeah I just wanted you guys to get to know me
[43:15 - 43:25] and y'all who I am and what I'm really about so with that being said much love
[43:25 - 43:30] to all you guys I appreciate every single one of you that watch this and
[43:30 - 43:35] without being said be on the lookout for my link I'm gonna be posting it up in a
[43:35 - 43:40] minute and I'll catch you guys later taste